In 
this case, the telling of the truth is that "My happiness 
does not depend on anything outside of me. I, of 
myself, am the source of my happiness by my own 
inner decisions, integrity, intentions, and by the way I 
see myself and my relationships with the events of life." At the bottom of the Map is maximum victimhood 
in which the total source of our happiness has been 
placed outside ourself. The loss of that brings about 
self-contempt and self-hatred. There is nothing within 
the self now to love because that which was loved was 
seen as something outside ourself. At the stage ofApathy, which we know as hopeless­
ness and despair, there is a state of no energy, so a 
person in that state is in a severe clinical depression. The person is usually unresponsive and may sit in a 
chair, staring blankly out the window. They are fre­
quently unresponsive to any communication and are 
unable to talk.Very often they stop eating and may not 
be able to sleep or function in the world.These are the 368 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
severe forms ofdepression, which also have a biochem­
ical basis in the brain that leads to seeing life as sad, the 
future as hopeless, and themselves as empty and worth­
less. The concept of the God of that kind of world is 
one who ignores and does not care for them. It is a 
state of total unlovingness and feeling unloved. Our clinical experience indicates that the three 
lower states of hopelessness and helplessness, which 
we collectively call despondence and depression, arise 
as a consequence of the failure to have handled the 
energy field above it, which is called Fear.The person 
is not facing the underlying fear because the depres­
sion arises from the loss of meaning. It is not the thing 
outside ofthem that the person has placed their happi­
ness on that is the difficulty, but the meaning they have 
attached to it. It is not the college degree but the mean­
ing of that degree. It is not the relationship but the 
meaning of the relationship. It is not the position or 
title of president of the company, or the financial suc­
cess, or haVing the right address, but their importance 
and value.What we project onto a thing, or the way we 
hold it, depends on the meaning we give to it. In and of 
itself, it has no meaning; it merely is. Meaning is a mental construction that we have pro­
jected out, thereby assigning value to something. The 
value arises out of our own mentaVemotional values 
that are being projected onto something outside of us. This results in seeing ourself as separated from· the 
source of happiness. There is 'me', and then there is 
that 'outside of self' from which we feel separated. There is the fantasy that if we could reunite with that, 
have that, control that, then that would heal the inner 369 DEPRESSION 
feeling of lack and separation. To feel separated from 
that which we want is to unconsciously feel separated 
from God.The view of God in these depressed states is 
one of being totally separated from the source of our 
happiness. The way to get out of a depression is to look at the 
underlying fear. What is the fear? We have used the 
actual clinical example of the woman who received a 
telegram from the Department of Defense that her 
son was killed in action. She is rocking back and forth 
in her chair and staring out the window. Several 
weeks later a telegram arrived stating there had been 
an error, they regretted the error, and that the son was 
still alive.When the family told her this, she just kept 
on rocking back and forth, staring out the window. "Mother, mother," they said as they shook her, "didn't 
you hear? Joey is not dead. He is alive and fine. He is in 
an R & R camp in Vietnam." However, she just kept on 
rocking. Something had happened. The energy field, the 
state she had obviously been holding, was that of her 
son and her relationship to him as a major source of 
happiness. Being a widow, that relationship was prime 
in her life. Now something had happened; the energy 
of the field had brought about a change in the brain 
chemistry. We can see that in this instance, the shift in 
the brain chemistry is a consequence. Due to the loss 
of meaning in her life, the energy field then expressed 
itself on the level of brain chemistry. All things are physical, mental, and spiritual. Spiritually, the meaning here was the separation from 
God; emotionally, it was the significance of this rela­370 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
tionship; and on the physical level, it was the brain 
chemistry. There was a shift and a loss of neurotrans­
mitters.The brain was in a depressive condition. There 
was a depression of essential neurotransmitters in cer­
tain areas of the brain that accompanied the condition. Therefore, it is possible to ameliorate the expression of 
this symptom on the physical level by the use of anti­
depressants. In treating all these conditions, we find it 
most efficacious to treat all levels simultaneously. We 
address the person in a dialogue where they begin to 
examine what they had placed meaning and signifi­
cance on and how they had filled the internal empti­
ness of their life with things from the outside to give it 
value. This process thereby created the vulnerability. We have to look at how it is held psychologically and, 
at the same time, treat it on the physical level. The antidepressants available these days are very 
effective. Generally it is safe to. treat the depression 
of the majority of patients pharmacologically with 
antidepressants as long as there is close clinical super­
vision, especially in children and adolescents. Pharmacologically, they take the person from the bot­
tom of the Map and lift them up to a higher level so 
they are then able to respond to psychotherapy or spir­
itual counseling to try to alleviate· the conditions that 
brought about the vulnerability. The risks of psy­
chopharmacology have to be weighed against the risk 
of suicide, especially when an apathetic depression 
becomes agitated (Hawkins, 2005). Facing the fear that underlies the depression 
relieves the depression. The fear is that one has lost the 
meaning of life. They have lost that which is of value, 371 DEPRESSION 
and feel it will never be replaced. Hopelessness means 
that the expectation of the future is zero. There is no 
hope that a context of meaning and significance will 
be recreated that will reenergize and give one's life 
meaning again.This, of course, is an illusion, but at the 
time, the hopelessness is based on the perception of 
oneself and one's relationship to life. When treating a depressed person, we look to see 
what the loss is, for example, the loss of a job, the loss 
of vitality, the loss of youth, or the loss of opportunity. People become depressed at middle age and see life as 
having passed them by, and now feel they have lost 
their opportunity. The loss of looks for a person, such 
as a middle-aged woman for whom her appearance has 
been very important in her life, affects her sense ofself­
value and her way of relating to the world. If she has 
based her power in the world on her looks, then that 
loss is a great danger to her and not just a superficial 
thing, such as vanity. It is far more than that; it is her 
whole sense of self-worth and value. Beauty to her has 
become valuable and makes her a worthwhile person. We discover the underlying fear and get the person 
to be willing to look at the fear. Instead of depression, 
the person has to handle fear instead because fear has 
to do with the future. "How am I going to live without 
what has given my life significance? "This can be seen 
in the addictions, for example. One might say that any­
body who gets depressed has been addicted to placing 
their survival on something outside themselves. In the addictions, if we threaten to take away the 
drug upon which the person has been placing their 
survival and happiness, we see terror-not just fear, but HEALING AND RECOVERY 372 
absolute terror.The conviction within the addict is that 
it will be impossible to live· in this world without 
access to that substance, so we have the person look at 
the fear and then utilize the techniques clinically that 
we have found to handle fear; next, we create the will­
ingness to be with it-to stop labeling it and to stop 
the thoughts. They focus instead on the exact experi­
ence of what is coming up as they look at that which 
.is feared within mind. The person looks at it and then 
goes into the radical truth of what is literally being 
experienced within them. They n~ed to be willing to 
surrender to that and let go of resisting the fear.As this 
happens, the sensations run through the body. I ask the person, "What are you experiencing in 
your body?" They report, "My mouth is so dry, I can 
hardly talk. My heart feels like it is fluttering. My stom­
ach feels like it is turning over. I feel cramps in my 
abdomen. My knees are so weak, I can hardly stand up." Then we start with the feelings, one by one.We say, 
"All right, tingling in your legs and your knees. Could 
you let go of resisting that? Could you just let yourself 
experience that and be with that? Stop re~isting it. Don't call it fear. Just sense what you are sensing.What 
are you sensing?" The reply is,"I'm sensing a tingling in my legs." Then I ask,"Can you handle a tingling in your legs? You have handled headaches, major surgery, and deaths 
in the family. I'm certain you can handle the tingling in 
your legs. "The person will say they can handle that. Next I say, "Let go of resisting the tingling in the 
legs. Now, how about the cramps in the abdomen? Could you let go of resisting that? Could you stop call­373 DEPRESSION 
ing them 'cramps'? Could you just experience what 
you are experiencing and let go of resisting that? Right. Let's go up higher. What about the flip-flops in the 
stomach? Can you handle that?" "Yes, I can handle that:' 
"Could you just handle the experience and stop 
calling it flip-flops in your stomach? How about the 
beating in your pulse? Could you let go in your mind of 
resisting that? Just let your pulse beat away if it wants 
to. How about the dry mouth?" We get the person to realize,"Yes, I can handle that. I can handle the experience of that, but I cannot han­
dle the fearful thoughts." And we agree that nobodycan 
handle fearful thoughts. There is no such thing as 'haVing' fearful thoughts. Fearful thoughts create themselves by the thousands, 
and as we handle one bank offearful thoughts, a whole 
new bank arises. "I'll be late for the plane. I won't get 
on the plane. I'm afraid of the plane. Something is 
going to happen to the plane. I might go to the bath­
room." The mind will just create an endless series of 
fears. What it can handle is the dry mouth and the tin­
gling in the legs, and then the willingness to face the 
underlying fear. The ftrst thing that benefits the person is relief 
from depression. They say,"Oh,I see I'm not depressed. I see that I was terrified of the future and that I will 
never find happiness without what I wished for, longed 
for, and desired. I was convinced that I had to have that 
in order to survive and be happy:' 
People who have been convinced of that and were 
on sizable doses of alcohol or drugs have been as close 374 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
to actually needing something to survive as anybody on 
the planet could be. Yet, after they gave that up and 
faced the fear of it all, they found that life was joyful, 
complete, full, and enjoyable for the first time in their 
lives.We know that fear is based on an illusion; there­
fore, we have the courage to take the patient with us to 
look at the fear, just like we take the child by the hand 
to lead them. When I was a child, somebody on the block told me 
about bogeymen. My mother had ridiculed bogeymen, 
ghosts, and similar things but somehow, because of that 
older kid's convincingness (and he acted like he knew 
what he was talking about), I became afraid of bogey­
men. My mother took me by the hand and led me 
down into the dark basement with flashlights and 
looked all overfor bogeymen. None were found there, 
or in the closets, or behind the curtains, or anywhere 
else in the house or attic. It is helpful to have someone with us when looking 
at the fear because it is our unconscious child that is 
frightened. Our inner child does not understand the 
nature of real life in this world, so it comes up and says, 
"Gee, without that, I won't be able to survive." As we said before, depression is often aligned with 
anger turned within. What about that anger? What is 
the basis of the anger? We will use the example of 
somebody who bases survival on something outside 
himself, such as an addict. When we threaten to take 
away his bottle or supply or flush his drugs down the 
toilet, he goes into a rage. Now it is very clear to us 
what the source of the anger is, is it not? The source of 
the anger is exactly the same fantasy as the source of 375 DEPRESSION 
happiness being something outside of him and which 
has been placed on some external object-a person, 
place, or thing.To place the source of our happiness on 
something outside ourself creates a negative energy 
field because it is basically a lie. The source of happi­
ness is not something that is outside ourself at all. Only when we own that we are the source of our 
happiness does the energy field go in a positive direc­
tion. We can move a person out of depression and 
despondency, get them to face the fear, get them to 
desire something better for themselves, and turn their 
anger into anger at being the victim instead of being at 
the loss of an object. There are usually endless rationalizations and expla­
nations to try to make their anger sound justified. "They 
promised me this.They signed a contract. They sent me 
a check that wasn't any good." The source of that is 
always outside of oneself, and the explanation, details, 
and events are only justifications for the anger. We can use this anger by turning it into anger at the 
vulnerability. One can say,"Now it is time to be angry at 
the real cause, which is that I was brought up in a 
world that taught me to think this way. I was taught 
that this is the right way to think. "That is what we need 
to be angry about-that we were taught how to think 
in a way that set us up as potential victims-to think 
that something or someone outside ourself is the 
source of happiness. The usual projected fantasy is that 
'success'is the source of happiness, is it not? Will suc­
cess bring us happiness? I used to live on the East Coast near a community 
of millionaires, and despite their affluence, occasionally 376 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
someone committed suicide or took a drug overdose. They were not at all immune to the human vulnerabil­
ities. Therefore, worldly success (e.g., celebrity status) 
does not bring immunity. What we need to be angry at 
is what caused us to sell ourselves out and then learn 
how we do it. Then we can take pride in the fact that 
we are willing to look at this now and move up to the 
level of Courage to tell the truth about it.The truth is 
that something within our consciousness set us up to 
be vulnerable. Ifwe start to take responsibility and say,"The way I 
was looking at this set me up for this depression, frus­
tration, and anger. It set me up for the letdown and this 
disappointment." The courage to look at that and be 
willing to tell the truth about it now changes the way 
we feel about the whole subject.We can now move up 
to a situation where we can say to ourselves, "Well, it's 
okay. It's okay if that is how people are taught in this 
world, and I grew up in this world. I guess I learned the 
same as everybody else, but I'm willing to look at it in 
a different way now. "We then move up to a willingness 
to look at it and say, "Yes, I agree to look at this. My 
intention is up, and I at least see the subject as promis­
ing and hopeful.The God of a friendly world is promis­
ing and hopeful. In other words, there is going to be a 
benefit to me, not only in this particular situation, but 
there is also going to be a benefit to me as a human 
being that will last my lifetime, because if I solve this 
one, I have solved it for all time within myself." The willingness to look at that and accept what is 
discovered results in a certain confidence that there is 
a process going on within, and that this depression has 377 DEPRESSION 
arisen to bring something to one's attention. It is as 
though it is saying, "Something is out; something is 
wrong within my mind, within my consciousness, and 
within my spiritual position," because that is what 
pain means. Pain means,"Please look at me; something 
is out." We can treat depression pharmacologically and get 
the person out of it temporarily, but if the person has 
not changed in their way of being in the world, in the 
way they are holding who they are and how they relate 
to the world and the universe, or in their expectations, 
their vulnerability remains the same. We know that 
many people who are treated with just antidepressants 
will recover from the current episode. We also know 
that some people are prone to relapses due to geneti­
cally determined faulty brain chemistry, and others 
have additional episodes unless their whole context 
has changed. Without an understanding of the nature 
of consciousness itself, the vulnerability remains, and 
the person who has depressions of psychological ori­
gin is subject to repeated bouts of depression within 
their lifetime. In looking at this in a holistic way, from the view­
point of body, mind, and spirit, we want to address the 
basic understanding to bring about an immunity froin 
further episodes of this debilitating experience of 
depression.Acceptance means seeing what the internal 
setup is without blaming oneself or getting into a 
'make wrong' scenario. There is nothing wrong with it; 
it just does not work.We have been trained and set up 
in our world to think that way by our parents who 
were also set up to think that way. They just passed it 378 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
down to us. It has been going on since ancient biblical 
times, where there are descriptions of very severe 
depression, so it arises in the inherited collective con­
sciousness, which contains the same program-that 
somehow happiness and the source of it are outside 
ourself. As we move up to level 310,with the willingness to 
tell the truth and to look at this, we can see the power 
of the field then goes up to the level ofAcceptance at 
350. Here the energy field is positive instead of nega­
tive because above-the level of Courage, the person has 
stopped projecting the source of their happiness out­
side themselves. They have begun to re-own their 
power.At the level of Courage, there is the willingness 
to tell the truth, face the situation, cope with it, and 
handle it. By the time we move up to the energy. level of 
Acceptance, we see a person who is confident and 
easygoing, which comes from the awareness that one is 
the source of one's happiness. It means that the person 
has realized in their emotional, psychological, and spir­
itual growth that they are the cause ofthe happiness in 
their life. Ifwe were to put such a person on a desert 
island somewhere in the South Pacific, sail away, and 
return a year later, he would have a coconut factory, he 
would be making flutes out of bamboo, the children 
would be learning songs, and he would be teaching 
French to the natives. He would have found a native 
girl, built a tree house, and re-created for himself the 
world around him as an expression ofbeing the source 
of his own happiness. The anger was based on placing the source of hap­379 DEPRESSION 
piness outside of oneself. On a deeper level, the anger 
is that of having sold oneself out and having been sold 
out by being given this program to operate with and 
then finding out that it does not work. One has to 
accept that it does not work,be willing to look at it, 
change, and say,"Okay. "It only takes a matter ofseconds 
to find a position from which it will work. How long does it take to come out of depression? It only takes as long as it takes to become willing to 
look at the truth ofwhat has happened. The capacity is 
within ourself to accept what has happened, to realize 
that we are the source ofour own happiness, and to be 
unwilling to give it out to the world any more.The re­
owning ofthat power suddenly results in a state ofcon­
fidence. It no longer matters what happens 'out there'. The realization of that truth allows us to experience 
ourself now in a far more whole and complete way 
instead of from lack or vulnerability. There is just the 
realization that we are the source and have the power 
to create. The self projected the meaning onto this; 
therefore, they say that one man's meat is another 
man's poison. The same event that would make one 
person happy would depress another. I have watched people resist coming into money, 
for example, because it was not within their value 
system. At the time they valued not having money; 
therefore, it would be a problem if they won the 
lottery. Thus, winning might make one person joyful 
and fill the other one with guilt.Why? The difference 
is meaning. Who or what created the meaning that gave this 
thing outside ourself the power and significance? We 380 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
are the creator ofthe meaning and the one who chooses 
what meaning to give to something.Therefore, we have 
to look at the way in which we have bought into social 
consciousness. We have to look at the values by which 
we have unwittingly allowed ourselves to be pro­
grnmmed and say to ourselves, "Do I agree with that? Am I willing to give it that value? Am I willing to set 
myself up for that vulnerability?" The realization emerges that we have the power to 
resource ourselves and to recontextualize our lives by 
seeing how we are setting ourselves up. It brings a 
state of inner joy to realize that we alone have the 
choice and the power.We are the ones who set up the 
meaning and give these things the power over us; 
therefore, it really is possible to come out of disap­
pointment, grief, sadness, and anger about the event, to 
even become indifferent and willing to look into it and 
re-experience the inner self. Actually, a depressive episode, even a brief one, has 
the potential for joy within it because it is something 
comingupinlife,saying,"Look atme! Look atme! Here 
is a mistake that has been causing you pain and suffer­
ing for endless amounts of time and will continue to 
cause you pain and suffering for endless amounts of 
time. "That inner state of joy and serenity really comes 
about from a knowingness of our own invulnerability. Therefore, even though the depression is not current­
ly present clinically, the knowledge that we are vul­
nerable precludes that incredible state called the 
peace of God, the knowing that we are not separate 
from the source of anything but are connected with 
it, and that we are with God. 381 DEPRESSION 
How does one then experience that which, in body 
mind, and spirit, is called spirit-that subtle knowing­
ness? It can come from one of life's tragedies, or even 
from a minor disappointment. All these things have 
within them the seed of truth that is always present. That which is the spirit and reveals itself as the truth 
behind consciousness is always present and can there­
fore be discovered at any moment-in moments of 
high joy or depression. In Zen, it is said that heaven and 
hell are only a tenth of an inch apart. Personally, I have shared what I have experienced, 
and I have witnessed the truth of what I am talking 
about. My own inner experience included a time of 
great, severe, agonizing depression way down in the 
pits of Hell. In that state of absolute hopelessness in 
which time stopped, the experience went on for liter­
ally eons and eons. (In severe depression, the experi­
ence of time is altered and each second seems like an 
eternity.) In those eons, there was no hope. In fact, 
there was a sign that said, "All ye who enter here give 
up all hope." It was like the deepest of the hells in 
Dante's Inferno. Out of the experience of that infinite suffering 
and agony, out of that total feeling of abandonment 
and being separated from love and God, there suddenly 
came an inner voice that said, "If there is a God, I ask 
Him for help." From the pits of agony, by a profound, 
deep surrender, suddenly there was the awareness of 
an Infinite Presence of Eternal Love and the silent 
Knowingness of Truth. With the collapse of the 
ego/self, the mind became silent and disappeared into 
the Self. The event heralded a, major transformation 382 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
that has been described in other writings. Self-healing is the willingness to love and forgive 
ourselves, to look at our vulnerability and call it our 
humann~ss. It is the capacity to love our humanness for 
its weaknesses, errors, and foibles in order to see that 
within this humanness, as mistaken as it might be, 
there is a primordial, intrinsic innocence. The only thing that is certain in the phenomenal 
aspect of this world and its expression is that all 
things change.All things change within human expe­
rience because human experience is that ofchange. If 
all things change and nothing remains the same, then 
to place the source of our happiness outside ourself 
on that which changes means it is only a matter of 
time before the depression ensues. If we place our 
security on that which is transitory, disappearing, 
coming and going, or changing, then the vulnerability 
is ever present. That simple mistake,which we all make, is common 
to the whole human condition and arises out of some­
thing that is also the same in aU of us and which can be 
rediscovered right in the pain of experience-the 
intrinsic innocence of consciousness itself, the intrin­
sic innocence of our own inner self.We can see this in 
two different ways. First, by reaching that state of com­
passion ourselves, we attain such a level of conscious­
ness that we literally see into the hearts of others; we 
just see and know that innocence. The second way is 
through introspection to see how this arose. We notice the primordial innocence of the child 
who is innately trusting. The child has faith in the 
integrity of adults, and it never dawns in the child's 383 DEPRESSION 
mind to doubt the truth of what is being told. The 
young child loves its parents and those extensions of 
parents called teachers, other family members, peers, 
playmates, television, and commercials. A child looks 
at a commercial as though it were just as truthful as 
its parents because of the child's trustingness, open­
ness, lovingness, and lack of paranoia. The innocent, 
trusting mind is easily programmed, and therefore, out 
of its innocence, it begins to buy what it hears. The 
child identifies with those whom it loves as family.As 
the programs start coming in, the purity of the child 
becomes programmed because of its intrinsic inno­
cence. Due to that innocence, it buys such statements 
as, "All of us are allergic," "Heart disease runs in our 
family," or,"We all have a weight problem in our family." All the negative programs are bought by the 
child's innocence. We might say that the child's mind 
is like the hardware of a computer, which will play 
any software program that is installed on it. And yet, 
the nature of the hardware, that which is truly the 
computer itself, is unchanged. No matter what CD we 
play, no matter what software programs we play on 
the computer, the intrinsic innocence, purity, and 
integrity of the hardware has not been sullied. It has 
not changed at all. Even if all the programs are erro­
neous, the hardware remains the same. Within the adult remains that same childlike con­
sciousness, with its innocence, purity of motive, and 
capacity to remain pure no matter what the programs 
may be. It remains essential and unchanged in all of 
us. It is exactly what is reading these words right now. It is the childlike consciousness, with all its purity and 384 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
innocence, that is reading this teaching right now­
not the person or personality, but that consciousness 
in all its simple purity. Even if the person who is reading says, "I don't 
believe a word of it," where does that statement come 
from? It comes from another belief system that the 
child bought out ofinnocence. The father says,"Don't 
trust anybody," or some disappointing experience sets 
up the program within the child's mind. "Don't trust 
anything you hear." So if we are saying to ourself, "I 
don't believe anything he says," we are saying that 
because, out of the childlike innocence, we bought 
that program. "The way to be secure in this world is 
to be mistrusting, skeptical, and not believe anything 
you hear or you will be misled down the primrose 
path." However, the nature of the innocence that 
bought that program remains the same because it is 
trying to listen to the truth and discern that which is 
truth out ofits hopefulness and trustingness. It is hop­
ing to hear that which will be helpful, nurture life, and 
relieve suffering. The cynic has been programmed to 
be mistrustful. When we look within ourself now with the inten­
tion of self-healing, we see that intrinsic innocence 
and understand what program was set up. Now we 
have to re-own that innocence which is so crucial in 
all spiritual work as well in personal psychological 
research and introspection. It is important to always 
keep within our awareness that whatever we bought 
was out of the beauty of that which we are. We 
bought it out of our own love, trustingness, and 
integrity because we projected our own integrity 385 DEPRESSION 
onto the world and thought it was a place we could 
trust in and believe anything we heard or read. We were programmed to believe that sometimes it 
is very useful to lie, to tell someone that "The check is 
in the mail. "We were programmed with the idea that 
the only way to survive as a body in this world is to 
tailor the truth a little bit (called 'creative business 
ethics'), but did we not buy that out of our.own inno­
cence? We thought that was what one had to do in 
this world to survive, so we guessed we had to do 
that. Of course, when we do that, we pay the price. Anytime we go below the line at 200, we pay the 
price, which is the loss of our power within the 
world. That is what the anger is all about-"I lost my 
power. The source of my happiness will never be 
returned to me because it is outside of myself. I have 
projected it out there." The healing of it comes from 
the willingness to look at the truth of it, to say to one­
self,"Out of my innocence, like other humans on this 
planet, like most of us, in fact, I bought a certain way 
of looking at life in which the source of happiness is, 
first of all, outside myself, and secondly, it is always in 
the future." The separation from the source of happiness is 
not only in space, but it is also in time, so it is some­
thing that is going to come into our life tomorrow, or 
the next day, or the next week, or the year after, or 
when we finally.graduate, or when we reach middle 
age, or when we get that big house or Cadillac. Because it is always in the future, we are always sepa­
rated from the source of our happiness and never feel 386 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
complete. The realization that we are the source of 
our happiness, and that we can create it at any sec­
ond, gives us a sense of completion. The sense of com­
pletion runs concomitantly with the experience of 
life, so it can be cut off at any second yet still feel 
complete. If we suddenly stop writing at this moment, it is 
already complete just as it is.To the best of my ability, 
I have said exactly what I want to say. At this 
moment, I am being with the experience of the joy 
of doing the best I can. Joyfulness accompanies the 
experience.There is no tomorrow about it because of 
the sense of completion. If someone enjoys the pres­
entation, so much the better. That is only frosting on 
the cake because it is not essential. What one does in the world has to be accompa­
nied by the sense of completion in the doing of the 
thing itself. The payoff is not something that is an 
aside, something that is outside or separate from the 
doingness; it is ~he experience of it in this moment. The completion is with the experiencing right now, 
not something separate from it. In that, one is then 
aware of the lovingness of all experience. That is the 
way one is with experience. It is the loving of life in 
all its expressions, including its disappointments. It is 
the ups and downs, the continual learning process of 
making the mistake and learning from it, so it is noth­
ing but a mistake. One might say that depression is nature's way, 
God's way, and our own psychology's way of saying to 
us that the way we look at our life is not okay. It is our 
psychological, biological, and spiritual way; it is our 387 DEPRESSION 
body,mind, and spirit saying,"Look atwhatis out; look 
at what needs to be ftxed. Please understand me out 
ofyour compassion; heal me; heal all of it. "The defect 
is an inner sense of separation that we will not be 
complete and whole unless we become united with 
something 'out there' or in the future.The ego moves 
from incomplete to complete. In contrast, the Self 
moves from complete to complete. True happiness is 
.always in the 'right now' of this moment. The ego is 
always anticipating completion and satisfaction in the 
future 'when' a desire gets fulfilled. Clinically, there is often a difference between men 
and women in the precipitating event that leads to 
suicide ·or depression. Men experience the Presence 
of God within them or their connection to God 
very often in the form of power.The three classical 
attributes of God are omnipresence, omniscience, and 
omnipotence, so God is often experienced in the 
unconscious of men as connection with power. Men 
seek that power, and frequently .the precipitating 
event leading to their depression is feeling separated 
from the source of their power. In this case, the 
power has been out in the world, so it would be the 
loss ofa title, a business, or the status symbols that sig­
nify the power; the sense of separation and vulnerabil­
ity that has not really been healed remains there. Therefore, money, position, and power become the 
traditional goals of men. Women commonly experience their connection 
with God in the unconscious more in the form ofrela­
tionships. Remember the example of the old woman 
who sat in the rocking chair, rocking back and forth, 388 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
staring hopelessly out the window? She had experi­
enced lovingness coming through that relationship 
with her son and was feeling cut offfrom it.The inter­
ruption of that was the precipitating factor. We see 
that the basic problem is still the same in the two 
sexes; it just takes different forms and different 
expressions. Depression leads us into the whole subject of sui­
cide. When looking at suicide, we see that what is 
desired is not really the death of the body but release 
from suffering. The body did not create the dilemma 
nor can it experience the dilemma. Therefore, the idea 
that if one gets rid of the body, one will get rid of the 
source is fallacious. The body neither created the 
dilemma nor experienced it. The whole problem is 
going on in consciousness; therefore, the solution is 
within consciousness. Looking at the nature of con­
sciousness itself and seeing that is where the problem 
arose and where it is being experienced, one there­
fore sees that is also where it has to be solved. The 
solution is to realize that what is desired is the release 
from suffering. The mind identifies itselfwith the body and thinks 
it is a body. The loss of the energy of life is because 
the person is dispirited, which leads to a decrease in 
energy. Many deaths are really subtle forms of passive 
suicide.There is loss of the sense of aliveness, excite­
ment, and commitment to life. Passive suicide takes 
many forms, statistically showing up as an automobile 
accident or the failure to get out of the way of a bus. For some reason, the person just did not care enough 
to take the precautions, did not care enough to love 389 DEPRESSION 
their life or value it enough to care for and preserve 
it. Passive suicide takes the form of the person who 
ignores their physical disease, such as the diabetic 
who just does not care to stay on their diet or take the 
insulin, thus going into insulin reactions, overdoses, 
and diabetic coma, with three, four, or five times in 
the hospital in a coma until they succumb. In the addictions, that is traditionally seen in the 
form of an overdose. How could it be a miscalculation 
.for a person who has taken multiple drugs for twenty 
years and then dies of an overdose? They are experts 
in psychopharmacology who dose themselves thou­
sands of times and then die; it is called an accident. In 
an automobile. accident where the driver was just 
careless, what we really see is the lack of the desire to 
live.The failure to heed health advice or to take care 
of one's health and assets indicates .the loss of energy 
that results in the loss of aliveness coming from 
entrapment. There are feelings of deflation; then one 
becomes dispirited and unconsciously seeks a way 
out so they do not have to feel guilty. One does not 
have to feel guilty that·they died of a diabetic coma. They did not bother to alter their lifestyle to prevent 
that coronary heart attack. Ifwe realize that what we want is the release from 
suffering, that then comes about through an under­
standing of the nature of consciousness itself and 
going into the processes that have already been 
described. We have to have the willingness to experi­
ence out all the symptoms that are being experienced 
and to look at our life using a technique called the 
'worst-case scenario'. We sit down, look at life, and 390 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
ask, "What is the worst possible outcome?" We 
become aware of the feeling that arises with that and 
then let go of resisting it, constantly canceling out the 
thoughts about it and handling the feeling directly.As 
that progresses, we will notice that the symptoms 
begin to abate.We come out of the depression willing 
to look at the fear, at the way it was set up, and how 
we got it set up.We experience the anger about that 
and then use the energy of the anger to want some­
thing better for ourself, now having the courage to 
face how it all came about. It really means that we have to recontextualize 
our whole life.We have to look at everything in it and 
say to ourself, "How can I hold this so it will have a 
value great enough that if it left my life, I would still 
see that which is worth living for? To what about this 
can I dedicate my life? What about my job gives it 
meaning and significance? How can I move to a larg­
er way of holding it? How can I see it in such a way 
that my value as a human being will not be changed 
if that should leave my life?" We have to look at our goals and motives.What are 
we willing to dedicate our life to? What has significant 
meaning? Service to others? Even if we lost all capac­
ity to serve our own life, what is the meaning of being 
of service to others? There are people with all kinds of disfigurements 
and losses who go on with their lives. Somehow life 
still has meaning for them. Does that mean that we 
are weaker than they are or that they are morally 
superior? No. It means that they have somehow found 
some greater meaning in their lives.They have had to 391 DEPRESSION 
let go of a lesser meaning and fmd a greater meaning. So depression means that we have settled for a small­
er meaning, something that is much less than the 
truth. We have to reexamine and see what was the 
true meaning of that in our life; What about our life 
makes it worthwhile, even without that? Correction 
occurs by asking ourselves very simple questions. Where are our vulnerabilities? They are some aspect 
of what we think we could not live without, and on 
which we have based our survival. The technique is to first find out where the areas 
of vulnerability lie. We can sit down and picture los­
ing that from our life.We then go through the process 
of letting go of resisting all the feelings that come up 
and contact our own inner consciousness-the 
unconscious, the God within us, our super conscious­
ness, our intuition-to begin an inner questioning 
search. All of us have to do that. What is the meaning 
of our life? What is its significance? What is worth 
dying for? What is worth living for? What do we value 
that is greater than that which is limited and tempo­
rary? By removing all these things one by one, we fmd 
that who we are is growing in stature. We are no 
longer so vulnerable to external events because there 
are always two things happening. There is the event going on 'out there' as we see it 
in ordinary consciousness, and then there is how we 
feel about it, which depends on our attitude. We can 
decide how we want to be with it and what our rela­
tionship is to that event. For example, I am one thing, 
and the event is something else. I have power over 
how I want to hold it, how I want to value that rela­-------392 HEALING AND RECOVERY
tionship, and how I want to picture it. I have to decide 
whether I'm willing to give it power over my life.Am 
I willing to give money enough power over my life so 
that ifI lose it, I no longer desire to live? Am I willing 
to give possessions, titles, degrees, or cars that power? Think of all the things people value greater than their 
own lives, and you can see the enormous vulnerability. The high suicide rate is regarded as one of the most 
important causes of death, especially in adolescents. What does that say about the values that we are teach­
ing them? What are the transitory things we tell them 
to base their lives on? We have to reevaluate for ourselves the importance 
and meaning of our lives and ask what we hold that is 
ofsufficient value to preserve us in the face of any kind 
of loss. Out of that inner understanding then comes 
our reevaluation of the relationship between body, 
mind, and spirit, because it is mind that is setting our 
goals and purposes. If we begin to question our values and reevaluate 
our position with them, whether we like the term or 
not, we are really doing· spiritual work.What is spirit? What is the energy of life itself? We have a decision to 
make about its form. We can decide what to give 
meaning and value to. Within that energy field called 
consciousness, we have great freedom. It isup to our 
own inner choice. By merely seeing that we have the 
choice of what we want to give value to, we re-own 
our power. We move up from victim to source and 
begin to accept the return of our own power, which 
we have given away to the world.With that comes an 
inner state of serenity from experiencing the value of 393 DEPRESSION 
our existence, knowing that we need no proof, and 
that the world does not have to do anything. We do 
not need to bring home any trophies to give it value 
because we see its value within ourselves. We see, 
treasure, and hold sacred the value of life itself. We 
accept that which is given to us with thanks. With 
gratitude we hold the essence of that which we are 
without asking that the world give us back anything 
that we have demanded of it. In doing that, we move into an invulnerable posi­
tion. We are no longer prone to the disappointment, 
anger, rage, or turning against ourselves with thoughts 
of sUicide-that hopeless, fallacious idea that by 
killing the body, we will kill the source of our suffer­
ing. By owning that we, ourselves, are the source of 
our suffering, we transcend it. By transcending it, we 
bring about that inner healing, which is the purpose 
of this chapter. CHAPTER 13 
Alcoholism 
To understand the nature of alcoholism and addic­
tion, we will approach the subject from the view­
point of consciousness itself in order to discern the 
essential nature of the addictive process rather than 
its symptoms, consequences, or physical correlates. Talking about the nature of consciousness will give us . a different context in which to understand the addic­
tive process and its expression as a problematic 
human behavior. The Map of Consciousness will again be refer­
enced throughout this chapter, as it has been very 
useful in our research. It will help to make informa­
tion understandable that has previously been consid­
ered mystical, esoteric, or too 'right brain' for left­
brain people to comprehend. On the Map, various lev­
els of consciousness have been calibrated to indicate 
the relative power of these energy fields and their 
positive or negative direction. By studying the chart, 
we will begin to understand a lot of new and useful 
information about human behavior, and from that, we 
will come to fully understand addictions. On the Map, note that Enlightenment, or leaving 
the world of duality, calibrates at about 600. The 
energy field of Courage is at 200, and Pride is at 175. We will refer to these numbers later on. It is impor­
tant to notice that the direction of the arrows shows 
whether the energy field is negative and not amicable 
to life or is positive and supportive of life. In understanding addiction, we need to first 
understand the nature of consciousness and then see 
395 396 
how it applies to the addictive process. We will look 
at the true nature of addiction and the quality that 
society missed because its understanding of addiction 
was nil until the advent of Alcoholics Anonymous 
(AA). Prior to AA, the recovery rate from addictions 
was zero, and it was rarely heard that anybody ever 
recovered from alcoholism. The truth was represented 
by Dr. Carl Jung who said that science had no answer 
for this problem, that something above and beyond 
ordinary human experience had to be sought, and 
that the answer would be found in spirituality. We will review the connection between body, 
mind, and spirit. What is the relationship among the 
three, and what is spirit, anyway? What is the nature 
of spirit, and how does it operate in a real way that we 
can verify through our own clinical experience? We 
will not be discussing philosophy or theology but 
instead will be exploring what we can verify for our­
selves through our own inner experience. We will 
look at truth as it can be experienced within our­
selves and learn how this can be applied to the under­
standing of alcoholism, the addictions, and its impor­
tance in recovery. We will emphasize the importance of context, or 
the overall way in which we hold a thing, and the 
paradigm from Which to understand a subject. Context creates meaning and illuminates the under­
standing of addiction. As previously described on the Map of 
Consciousness, levels below 600 represent the levels 
ofthe ego, which is called the 'self', and within the ego 
are different energy fields, as mentioned previously. 397 ALCOHOLISM 
At the bottom of the Map are the energy fields of 
Guilt, Shame, and Apathy, and to the right of each field 
is the primary emotion of how we experience that 
field in daily life. To the right of that is the process 
going on within consciousness itself.That energy field 
also determines how we experience and see the 
world, and how we relate to the understanding of 
God, which is due to the limitation of the energy field. The energy field of Shame is at level 20, and Guilt 
is at level 30. These are states of negativity that are 
usually experienced in the form of self-hatred. The 
world is seen as a place of sin and suffering. At this 
level, God is perceived to be possibly the ultimate 
threat or destroyer of the soul because He will throw 
the soul into destruction and hellfire forever. The levels 
of Guilt and Shame are the lowest energy fields and 
contain very little power. When we move up to the energy field of 50, we 
discover a field of hopelessness and despair. This is 
like the old lady previously described rocking back 
and forth in her rocking chair, staring out the window 
after she got the notice from the Department of 
Defense that her son was killed in action. Her family 
shakes her, trying to get her to respond, but she does 
not respond to anything because, in these energy 
fields, there are changes in brain chemistry. Hopelessness, despair, and depression represent 
the process of the loss of energy that accompanies 
the lower levels of consciousness. The world is seen 
as hopeless, and if there were a God, He would have 
nothing to do with us because our own self-esteem is 
so low. We call it the worm's view of the nature of 398 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
God. Ifwe get the person out of that very low energy 
field, we can get them up to a higher energy field 
called Grief. People in hopelessness cannot help themselves, 
and we have to pour energy into them to even move 
them up to the energy field of Grief that calibrates at 
75, which has a lot more energy than hopelessness. Grief also has a certain biological purpose, for exam­
ple, when the child cries to summon its mother. It has 
the power to pull some kind of response from the 
world. The emotion that accompanies Grief is regret, 
a feeling of loss, and despondency. The process going 
on in consciousness at this level is dispirited. Spirit is 
that high energy out of which all life manifests. The 
person in Grief then sees this as a very sad world with 
an unloving God who does not really care for anyone. Ifwe go back to the old lady who is rocking back 
and forth in her rocking chair and not eating or 
responding, and a telegram arrives from the 
Department of Defense saying that the previous 
telegram was a mistake, and her sonJoey was not killed 
but is still alive, the old lady just goes right on rocking 
back and forth, staring out the window. If we could 
pour energy into her up to the level of Grief, suddenly 
she would begin to cry.The expression ofthat emotion 
would indicate to us that she is getting better. Interestingly, these two energy states come out of 
the failure to face the energy field that lies just above 
it,which is Fear.The energy field ofFear,at calibration 
level 100, is still a negative emotion as shown by the 
direction of the arrow.We can run a long way out of 
fear, so although the form of the emotion itself is not 399 ALCOHOLISM 
constructive, the energy out of it can be utilized in a 
very positive way. All these energy fields have their 
upside and their downside. The downside affects us 
negatively; in contrast, the upside can be very con­
structive in our lives.We generally experience fear in 
ordinary life as worry, anxiety, and panic, but eventu­
ally, it can escalate to become paralyzing terror. Grief has to do with the past, and fear has to do 
with the future. The process going on in.conscious­
ness is one of deflation. The fearful animal shrinks and 
hides. For example, when, as child in the third grade, 
the teacher asked for a response to a question, we can 
remember how we used to shrink and hide behind 
the person in front of us. We shrink and become 
deflated, and the perception of the world that comes 
out of this energy field is that it is a frightening and 
threatening place, and that God is very punitive. He is 
seen as a punisher and much to be feared because of 
the holding of all the senses of sin, guilt, and low self­
esteem in this level of consciousness. This level sees 
God as the most frightening of all possibilities. We can move a person out of Fear and up to the 
next energy field called Desire at level 125, which has 
a lot of energy. Desire is 'want', so its expression in 
our ordinary emotions is that of wanting and craving. This can eventually become an obsession or compul­
sion. We then we call it an addiction because the 
process going on in consciousness is one of entrap­
ment. A person becomes entrapped and is at the 
effect of that level and fun by the desire. It takes on 
the intensity of craving, which in turn becomes asso­
ciated with an inner image.To recover from addiction, HEALING AND RECOVERY 400 
it is necessary to eliminate an attractive image the 
moment it emerges in the mind, whether it refers to a 
sexual image, gambling, or alcohol. If the image is 
allowed to linger, it gains energy and qUickly becomes 
too strong to resist. Recovery depends on the willing­
ness to eliminate the image immediately and decisively. Ifdelayed, the image becomes too strong to obliterate 
and its attraction soon wins. It is the purpose of the marketing industry, of 
course, to take advantage of our desires by creating 
wanting and craving to get us entrapped so we will 
want their products. Once we become entrapped by 
the desire, whether it is for a fancy car, a certain per­
fume, or a shampoo that is going to make us lovely, it 
will run us.We will give up our money and energy to 
buy their products. Desiringness, however, leads to the view that the 
world is very frustrating. The difficulty with wanting­
ness is that all the wantings can run people for an 
entire lifetime, which leads to the sense of frustration 
as well as resentment because wantingness does not 
cure itself by getting; it just leads to additional wanti­
ngness. The wantingness, in and of itself, is not satis­
fied, so this constant frustration leads to a picture of 
God from whom we are separated. In other words, the 
God who forever withholds from us what we want 
easily leads'us to anger, which is the next level. Anger, at level 150, as everyone is aware, has a 
great deal of energy in it. It is still a negative emotion 
. with a destructive downside, but the energy of anger, 
if one knows how to use it, can be very useful. We 
experience the energy of anger in everyday life with­401 ALCOHOLISM 
in the emotions of resentment, within the feelings of 
hatred and anger at ourself, within grievances and 
grudges, and in the unwillingness to forgive. The 
process in consciousness is one of expansion, so as 
the angry animal swells up with anger, it becomes 
larger than life.The person who is angry puffs up with 
the angriness and tries to become imposing on the 
biological level. Angriness then leads to competitiveness. The 
angry person sees a world of competition, conflict, 
war, and 'me against you' . It is a polarized position of 
opponents, and therefore the view of God at that level 
is an angry God.The person sees God as the ultimate 
angriness, the God of vengeance, and the God who 
gets even. He is the God who represents the energy of 
the spleen out of revenge, hatred, and anger. It is as 
though he now hates that which he created and the 
humanness of that which he created. He is the God of 
retaliatory, vengeful angriness. If we move up out of this angriness to Pride at 
level 175, we see that pride has a lot of energy and 
can be a very useful emotion. The difficulty with pride 
is that its energy field is still in a negative direction. Its downside is denial, and in the addictions, this can 
be fatal when it takes the form of arrogance and con­
tempt by saying, "Well, those people need it, but not 
me. I'm different." That comes out of the process of 
inflation that is going on in consciousness. The ego 
reflects an inflated sense of self, which is a very dan­
gerous position. Therefore, we see the pridefulness 
that eventually leads to the destruction of people 
who get into drugs but who are successful in life.This 402 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
leads to inflation of the ego and the denial that goes 
with it, along with the inability to hear the advice of 
others. Pridefulness thus leads to a very vulnerable 
defensiveness. It is not a good position to be in, but it 
is an energy that we can utilize to move from Anger 
up to Courage and out of the field of Pride. The person in Pride is very preoccupied with sta­
tus, ownership, havingness, symbols, and labels, which 
puts one in a very defensive position. How does that 
energy field, which comes out of denial, arrogance, 
contempt, and an inflated energy field, influence 
one's view of God? The relationship to God will usu­
ally be one of two possibilities. Out of the arrogance 
of the intellect can arise the presumption that the left 
brain has the capacity to know all of truth, resulting 
in the position of atheism. Atheism is a denial of the 
truth of what can be experienced through human 
experience; or, it can take its opposite in the form of 
bigotry. It could be in the form of the religionist who 
takes the position that 'my way' of seeing things is the 
only way, and because my way is the truth, your way 
is not. Pride is a condition that polarizes, making the 
position of everyone else wrong, or 'me against you', 
or 'us against them', and it is the basis of all the reli­
gious wars. Pride has the potential, however, to be a 
useful energy, as the Marine Corps has discovered, 
and it is useful to move on through it to the higher 
energy field called Courage. Courage is a very crucial level because, as we can 
see, the arrow on the Map of Consciousness is now 
neutral, meaning the energy field of that level of con­
sciousness has now shifted to neutral. It is as though 403 ALCOHOLISM 
the antenna that was tuned to 'negative' is now tuned 
to 'neutral'. It stops pulling negative experiences to 
itself. Its energy field is 200, which has a lot of power. Courage has enough energy in it to settle the United 
States ofAmerica, to get mankind to the moon, and to 
establish a civilization to explore the intellectual frontiers. Courage at 200 has enough energy to create all 
the great industrial empires. It is a very powerful 
energy field, not because it jumped up twenty-five 
points but because the direction of the field is differ­
ent. Much of the resistance has dropped off, and for 
the first time, the person at that level is now emotion­
ally able to face, cope, look at, and handle things.The 
critical process going on in consciousness is that of 
the person becoming empowered. The willingness to tell the truth allowed this huge 
jump in power. This is crucial in understanding the 
addictions and the traditional 'twelve steps' because it is 
the first step-the admission that one is powerless over 
alcohol and drugs, which make one's life unbearable­
that changes this entire energy field and re-empowers 
the person, putting them in a position of recovery. When a person starts telling the truth, their view 
of the world from this energy field of Courage is that 
of opportunity. It appears to be a world of challenge, 
a very exciting world in which to grow and experience 
personal growth. Out of this energy field, a positive 
view of God opens up to the mind. For the first time, 
the person really tells the truth from their own expe­
rience. They have not really had an experience of 
what is called God within the universe, so now the 
mind opens for the first time. The person begins to 404 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
ask the traditional questions that have always led to 
the ultimate realization of the truth: "Is there a God? Can He be experienced? Is Divinity a Higher Power 
that I can verify within myself? Is God something' out 
there' or within me? How does a Higher Power 
express itself? How can I get to know that?" The whole spiritual exploration then commences 
at the beginning of self-honesty because that is the 
[lIst level of integrity of empowerment. The capacity 
to tell the truth releases the power to face, cope, and 
handle things, and, for the fIrst time, to be appropriate. Out of the energy fIeld of Courage arises the 
strength to look at the facts and admit the truth about 
them. From here it is possible to let go of resistance 
and move up to the next energy fIeld called Neutral. We can see that the arrow is now very positively 
going upwards on the Map. The energy fIeld has 
jumped to 250, a level that is experienced as being 
free and unattached. Once we tell the truth about a 
thing, we may move up to a process that we call 
'nonattached'in that one is no longer attached to the 
outcome. It is then okay, whichever way it goes.A per­
son at this energy level then might say, "If I get the 
job, it's great, and ifI don't get the job, that's okay, too, 
because I will just fInd another one." Or, "If this rela­
tionship doesn't work out, then I will fInd another 
relationship." There i~ the experience of the okayness of the 
world and a sense of God as being the source offree­
dom. There is the freedom to grow, expand, become 
conscious, .and begin to look into one's self and the 
nature of human experience. The God of this level 405 ALCOHOLISM 
looks favorably on the exploration of one's own con­
sciousness. Neutral is a level of comfort. The upside of Neutral is that it can move up to the 
state calledWillingness, which calibrates at 310. It has 
a lot more power and energy because, for the ftrst 
time, positive intention becomes operative and says, 
"Yes." At the Neutral level, there is a lack of enthusi­
asm. For example, it is okay to go to the movies, yet 
actually okay to stay home.There is not much positive 
energy there yet. However, letting go of the negative 
creates space for willingness to come in, and there is 
the beginning of enthusiasm and a very positive 
energy.We say, "Yes, we are agreeable. We are willing." This willingness takes us out of indifference, flatness, 
and detachment, and we begin to experience this as a 
friendly world. The questions of God and life itself 
become promising and l,1opeful because now we are 
saying 'yes' to life.Willingness opens up the opportu­
nity for the next step, which is moving out of 
Willingness to the level ofAcceptance. Acceptance calibrates at 380, and a person at that 
level is adequate, conftdent, and capable.This transfor­
mation of consciousness occurs as we begin to re-own 
our own power.All the ftelds below Courage are con­
ditions of victimhood in which we have sold out the 
source of our power and given it away to the world. This will be· extremely important as we look at the 
addiction-the giving away of O1,lr power to that 
which is outside of us, thus bringing about the lower 
energy ftelds. The person who is moving into Acceptance is 
re-owning that they are the source of happiness in 406 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
their life. Below that level, people think that the 
source of happiness lies outside themselves. They 
think it comes about through 'getting'. These are all 
conditions of lack in which happiness is dependent 
on whether one gets that car, title, job, relationship, 
degree, money, or whateyer it is, but it is always out­
side of oneself. In the addictions, it becomes, "If I get 
the right dose of that drug ...."The thought that the 
source of happiness is outside oneself accompanies 
all these states of weakness and victimhood. The person on the level of Acceptance, through 
willingness and letting go of resistance, has accepted 
that they are the source of happiness in their life. There then arises the conviction of self-sufficiency 
and the capacity to create something that is satisfy­
ing. As a result, that person is no longer limited by 
powerlessness or victimhood. That person knows that 
if they are put on a desert island some place, a year 
later they will have a coconut factory going, a tree 
house built, or be teaching French to the natives.The 
person will have found a relationship and even started 
a new family. There is the power to .recreate life for oneself. In 
prison, there is suicide, but on the other hand, there 
are those who have earned college degrees. People 
have changed the course of all human history and 
written powerful and brilliant books while in prison, 
which demonstrate that the power is not in the 
prison but instead within the self.The capacity exists 
to use even the prison experience in a valuable and 
positive way in order to create a great novel, book, or 
political treatise. Some of the most influential books 407 ALCOH 0 LIS,M 
ever written were created under extreme conditions. An aspect ofAcceptance is the openness to reason 
and rationality as guiding principles of life rather than 
just the emotions that predominate at the lower energy 
fields. 'Think' gains importance over just 'feel'. Animals are run by emotions, instincts, and feelings, 
but normal, healthy humans, by virtue of the evolu­
tion of the brain's prefrontal cortex, have.developed 
the capacity for intellectual understanding and the 
comprehension consequent to logic and abstract 
symbols. The consciousness levels of the 400s thus 
typify our modern society of education, information, 
and the criticalutilization ofintelligence. This leads to 
learning by means other than just trial and error. A person in trouble begins to search for answers 
and solutions, and inquiry eventually leads to the dis­
covery that recovery is possible by'means of proven 
programs, such asAA, whose success is represented by 
millions of recovered alcoholics worldwide over many 
decades.
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this case, the telling of the truth is that "My happiness 
does not depend on anything outside of me. I, of 
myself, am the source of my happiness by my own 
inner decisions, integrity, intentions, and by the way I 
see myself and my relationships with the events of life. " At the bottom of the Map is maximum victimhood 
in which the total source of our happiness has been 
placed outside ourself. The loss of that brings about 
self-contempt and self-hatred. There is nothing within 
the self now to love because that which was loved was 
seen as something outside ourself. At the stage ofApathy, which we know as hopeless­
ness and despair, there is a state of no energy, so a 
person in that state is in a severe clinical depression. The person is usually unresponsive and may sit in a 
chair, staring blankly out the window. They are fre­
quently unresponsive to any communication and are 
unable to talk. Very often they stop eating and may not 
be able to sleep or function in the world. These are the 368 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
severe forms ofdepression, which also have a biochem­
ical basis in the brain that leads to seeing life as sad, the 
future as hopeless, and themselves as empty and worth­
less. The concept of the God of that kind of world is 
one who ignores and does not care for them. It is a 
state of total unlovingness and feeling unloved. Our clinical experience indicates that the three 
lower states of hopelessness and helplessness, which 
we collectively call despondence and depression, arise 
as a consequence of the failure to have handled the 
energy field above it, which is called Fear. The person 
is not facing the underlying fear because the depres­
sion arises from the loss of meaning. It is not the thing 
outside ofthem that the person has placed their happi­
ness on that is the difficulty, but the meaning they have 
attached to it. It is not the college degree but the mean­
ing of that degree. It is not the relationship but the 
meaning of the relationship. It is not the position or 
title of president of the company, or the financial suc­
cess, or haVing the right address, but their importance 
and value. What we project onto a thing, or the way we 
hold it, depends on the meaning we give to it. In and of 
itself, it has no meaning; it merely is. Meaning is a mental construction that we have pro­
jected out, thereby assigning value to something. The 
value arises out of our own mentaVemotional values 
that are being projected onto something outside of us. This results in seeing ourself as separated from· the 
source of happiness. There is'me', and then there is 
that 'outside of self' from which we feel separated. There is the fantasy that if we could reunite with that, 
have that, control that, then that would heal the inner 369 DEPRESSION 
feeling of lack and separation. To feel separated from 
that which we want is to unconsciously feel separated 
from God. The view of God in these depressed states is 
one of being totally separated from the source of our 
happiness. The way to get out of a depression is to look at the 
underlying fear. What is the fear. We have used the 
actual clinical example of the woman who received a 
telegram from the Department of Defense that her 
son was killed in action. She is rocking back and forth 
in her chair and staring out the window. Several 
weeks later a telegram arrived stating there had been 
an error, they regretted the error, and that the son was 
still alive. When the family told her this, she just kept 
on rocking back and forth, staring out the window. "Mother, mother," they said as they shook her, "didn't 
you hear. Joey is not dead. He is alive and fine. He is in 
an R & R camp in Vietnam. " However, she just kept on 
rocking. Something had happened. The energy field, the 
state she had obviously been holding, was that of her 
son and her relationship to him as a major source of 
happiness. Being a widow, that relationship was prime 
in her life. Now something had happened; the energy 
of the field had brought about a change in the brain 
chemistry. We can see that in this instance, the shift in 
the brain chemistry is a consequence. Due to the loss 
of meaning in her life, the energy field then expressed 
itself on the level of brain chemistry. All things are physical, mental, and spiritual. Spiritually, the meaning here was the separation from 
God; emotionally, it was the significance of this rela­370 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
tionship; and on the physical level, it was the brain 
chemistry. There was a shift and a loss of neurotrans­
mitters. The brain was in a depressive condition. There 
was a depression of essential neurotransmitters in cer­
tain areas of the brain that accompanied the condition. Therefore, it is possible to ameliorate the expression of 
this symptom on the physical level by the use of anti­
depressants. In treating all these conditions, we find it 
most efficacious to treat all levels simultaneously. We 
address the person in a dialogue where they begin to 
examine what they had placed meaning and signifi­
cance on and how they had filled the internal empti­
ness of their life with things from the outside to give it 
value. This process thereby created the vulnerability. We have to look at how it is held psychologically and, 
at the same time, treat it on the physical level. The antidepressants available these days are very 
effective. Generally it is safe to. treat the depression 
of the majority of patients pharmacologically with 
antidepressants as long as there is close clinical super­
vision, especially in children and adolescents. Pharmacologically, they take the person from the bot­
tom of the Map and lift them up to a higher level so 
they are then able to respond to psychotherapy or spir­
itual counseling to try to alleviate· the conditions that 
brought about the vulnerability. The risks of psy­
chopharmacology have to be weighed against the risk 
of suicide, especially when an apathetic depression 
becomes agitated (Hawkins, 2005). Facing the fear that underlies the depression 
relieves the depression. The fear is that one has lost the 
meaning of life. They have lost that which is of value, 371 DEPRESSION 
and feel it will never be replaced. Hopelessness means 
that the expectation of the future is zero. There is no 
hope that a context of meaning and significance will 
be recreated that will reenergize and give one's life 
meaning again. This, of course, is an illusion, but at the 
time, the hopelessness is based on the perception of 
oneself and one's relationship to life. When treating a depressed person, we look to see 
what the loss is, for example, the loss of a job, the loss 
of vitality, the loss of youth, or the loss of opportunity. People become depressed at middle age and see life as 
having passed them by, and now feel they have lost 
their opportunity. The loss of looks for a person, such 
as a middle-aged woman for whom her appearance has 
been very important in her life, affects her sense ofself­
value and her way of relating to the world. If she has 
based her power in the world on her looks, then that 
loss is a great danger to her and not just a superficial 
thing, such as vanity. It is far more than that; it is her 
whole sense of self-worth and value. Beauty to her has 
become valuable and makes her a worthwhile person. We discover the underlying fear and get the person 
to be willing to look at the fear. Instead of depression, 
the person has to handle fear instead because fear has 
to do with the future. "How am I going to live without 
what has given my life significance. "This can be seen 
in the addictions, for example. One might say that any­
body who gets depressed has been addicted to placing 
their survival on something outside themselves. In the addictions, if we threaten to take away the 
drug upon which the person has been placing their 
survival and happiness, we see terror-not just fear, but HEALING AND RECOVERY 372 
absolute terror. The conviction within the addict is that 
it will be impossible to live· in this world without 
access to that substance, so we have the person look at 
the fear and then utilize the techniques clinically that 
we have found to handle fear; next, we create the will­
ingness to be with it-to stop labeling it and to stop 
the thoughts. They focus instead on the exact experi­
ence of what is coming up as they look at that which. is feared within mind. The person looks at it and then 
goes into the radical truth of what is literally being 
experienced within them. They n~ed to be willing to 
surrender to that and let go of resisting the fear. As this 
happens, the sensations run through the body. I ask the person, "What are you experiencing in 
your body. " They report, "My mouth is so dry, I can 
hardly talk. My heart feels like it is fluttering. My stom­
ach feels like it is turning over. I feel cramps in my 
abdomen. My knees are so weak, I can hardly stand up. " Then we start with the feelings, one by one. We say, 
"All right, tingling in your legs and your knees. Could 
you let go of resisting that. Could you just let yourself 
experience that and be with that. Stop re~isting it. Don't call it fear. Just sense what you are sensing. What 
are you sensing. " The reply is,"I'm sensing a tingling in my legs. " Then I ask,"Can you handle a tingling in your legs. You have handled headaches, major surgery, and deaths 
in the family. I'm certain you can handle the tingling in 
your legs. "The person will say they can handle that. Next I say, "Let go of resisting the tingling in the 
legs. Now, how about the cramps in the abdomen. Could you let go of resisting that. Could you stop call­373 DEPRESSION 
ing them 'cramps'. Could you just experience what 
you are experiencing and let go of resisting that. Right. Let's go up higher. What about the flip-flops in the 
stomach. Can you handle that. " "Yes, I can handle that:' 
"Could you just handle the experience and stop 
calling it flip-flops in your stomach. How about the 
beating in your pulse. Could you let go in your mind of 
resisting that. Just let your pulse beat away if it wants 
to. How about the dry mouth. " We get the person to realize,"Yes, I can handle that. I can handle the experience of that, but I cannot han­
dle the fearful thoughts. " And we agree that nobodycan 
handle fearful thoughts. There is no such thing as 'haVing' fearful thoughts. Fearful thoughts create themselves by the thousands, 
and as we handle one bank offearful thoughts, a whole 
new bank arises. "I'll be late for the plane. I won't get 
on the plane. I'm afraid of the plane. Something is 
going to happen to the plane. I might go to the bath­
room. " The mind will just create an endless series of 
fears. What it can handle is the dry mouth and the tin­
gling in the legs, and then the willingness to face the 
underlying fear. The ftrst thing that benefits the person is relief 
from depression. They say,"Oh,I see I'm not depressed. I see that I was terrified of the future and that I will 
never find happiness without what I wished for, longed 
for, and desired. I was convinced that I had to have that 
in order to survive and be happy:' 
People who have been convinced of that and were 
on sizable doses of alcohol or drugs have been as close 374 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
to actually needing something to survive as anybody on 
the planet could be. Yet, after they gave that up and 
faced the fear of it all, they found that life was joyful, 
complete, full, and enjoyable for the first time in their 
lives. We know that fear is based on an illusion; there­
fore, we have the courage to take the patient with us to 
look at the fear, just like we take the child by the hand 
to lead them. When I was a child, somebody on the block told me 
about bogeymen. My mother had ridiculed bogeymen, 
ghosts, and similar things but somehow, because of that 
older kid's convincingness (and he acted like he knew 
what he was talking about), I became afraid of bogey­
men. My mother took me by the hand and led me 
down into the dark basement with flashlights and 
looked all overfor bogeymen. None were found there, 
or in the closets, or behind the curtains, or anywhere 
else in the house or attic. It is helpful to have someone with us when looking 
at the fear because it is our unconscious child that is 
frightened. Our inner child does not understand the 
nature of real life in this world, so it comes up and says, 
"Gee, without that, I won't be able to survive. " As we said before, depression is often aligned with 
anger turned within. What about that anger. What is 
the basis of the anger. We will use the example of 
somebody who bases survival on something outside 
himself, such as an addict. When we threaten to take 
away his bottle or supply or flush his drugs down the 
toilet, he goes into a rage. Now it is very clear to us 
what the source of the anger is, is it not. The source of 
the anger is exactly the same fantasy as the source of 375 DEPRESSION 
happiness being something outside of him and which 
has been placed on some external object-a person, 
place, or thing. To place the source of our happiness on 
something outside ourself creates a negative energy 
field because it is basically a lie. The source of happi­
ness is not something that is outside ourself at all. Only when we own that we are the source of our 
happiness does the energy field go in a positive direc­
tion. We can move a person out of depression and 
despondency, get them to face the fear, get them to 
desire something better for themselves, and turn their 
anger into anger at being the victim instead of being at 
the loss of an object. There are usually endless rationalizations and expla­
nations to try to make their anger sound justified. "They 
promised me this. They signed a contract. They sent me 
a check that wasn't any good. " The source of that is 
always outside of oneself, and the explanation, details, 
and events are only justifications for the anger. We can use this anger by turning it into anger at the 
vulnerability. One can say,"Now it is time to be angry at 
the real cause, which is that I was brought up in a 
world that taught me to think this way. I was taught 
that this is the right way to think. "That is what we need 
to be angry about-that we were taught how to think 
in a way that set us up as potential victims-to think 
that something or someone outside ourself is the 
source of happiness. The usual projected fantasy is that 
'success'is the source of happiness, is it not. Will suc­
cess bring us happiness. I used to live on the East Coast near a community 
of millionaires, and despite their affluence, occasionally 376 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
someone committed suicide or took a drug overdose. They were not at all immune to the human vulnerabil­
ities. Therefore, worldly success (e. g. , celebrity status) 
does not bring immunity. What we need to be angry at 
is what caused us to sell ourselves out and then learn 
how we do it. Then we can take pride in the fact that 
we are willing to look at this now and move up to the 
level of Courage to tell the truth about it. The truth is 
that something within our consciousness set us up to 
be vulnerable. Ifwe start to take responsibility and say,"The way I 
was looking at this set me up for this depression, frus­
tration, and anger. It set me up for the letdown and this 
disappointment. " The courage to look at that and be 
willing to tell the truth about it now changes the way 
we feel about the whole subject. We can now move up 
to a situation where we can say to ourselves, "Well, it's 
okay. It's okay if that is how people are taught in this 
world, and I grew up in this world. I guess I learned the 
same as everybody else, but I'm willing to look at it in 
a different way now. "We then move up to a willingness 
to look at it and say, "Yes, I agree to look at this. My 
intention is up, and I at least see the subject as promis­
ing and hopeful. The God of a friendly world is promis­
ing and hopeful. In other words, there is going to be a 
benefit to me, not only in this particular situation, but 
there is also going to be a benefit to me as a human 
being that will last my lifetime, because if I solve this 
one, I have solved it for all time within myself. " The willingness to look at that and accept what is 
discovered results in a certain confidence that there is 
a process going on within, and that this depression has 377 DEPRESSION 
arisen to bring something to one's attention. It is as 
though it is saying, "Something is out; something is 
wrong within my mind, within my consciousness, and 
within my spiritual position," because that is what 
pain means. Pain means,"Please look at me; something 
is out. " We can treat depression pharmacologically and get 
the person out of it temporarily, but if the person has 
not changed in their way of being in the world, in the 
way they are holding who they are and how they relate 
to the world and the universe, or in their expectations, 
their vulnerability remains the same. We know that 
many people who are treated with just antidepressants 
will recover from the current episode. We also know 
that some people are prone to relapses due to geneti­
cally determined faulty brain chemistry, and others 
have additional episodes unless their whole context 
has changed. Without an understanding of the nature 
of consciousness itself, the vulnerability remains, and 
the person who has depressions of psychological ori­
gin is subject to repeated bouts of depression within 
their lifetime. In looking at this in a holistic way, from the view­
point of body, mind, and spirit, we want to address the 
basic understanding to bring about an immunity froin 
further episodes of this debilitating experience of 
depression. Acceptance means seeing what the internal 
setup is without blaming oneself or getting into a 
'make wrong' scenario. There is nothing wrong with it; 
it just does not work. We have been trained and set up 
in our world to think that way by our parents who 
were also set up to think that way. They just passed it 378 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
down to us. It has been going on since ancient biblical 
times, where there are descriptions of very severe 
depression, so it arises in the inherited collective con­
sciousness, which contains the same program-that 
somehow happiness and the source of it are outside 
ourself. As we move up to level 310,with the willingness to 
tell the truth and to look at this, we can see the power 
of the field then goes up to the level ofAcceptance at 
350. Here the energy field is positive instead of nega­
tive because above-the level of Courage, the person has 
stopped projecting the source of their happiness out­
side themselves. They have begun to re-own their 
power. At the level of Courage, there is the willingness 
to tell the truth, face the situation, cope with it, and 
handle it. By the time we move up to the energy. level of 
Acceptance, we see a person who is confident and 
easygoing, which comes from the awareness that one is 
the source of one's happiness. It means that the person 
has realized in their emotional, psychological, and spir­
itual growth that they are the cause ofthe happiness in 
their life. Ifwe were to put such a person on a desert 
island somewhere in the South Pacific, sail away, and 
return a year later, he would have a coconut factory, he 
would be making flutes out of bamboo, the children 
would be learning songs, and he would be teaching 
French to the natives. He would have found a native 
girl, built a tree house, and re-created for himself the 
world around him as an expression ofbeing the source 
of his own happiness. The anger was based on placing the source of hap­379 DEPRESSION 
piness outside of oneself. On a deeper level, the anger 
is that of having sold oneself out and having been sold 
out by being given this program to operate with and 
then finding out that it does not work. One has to 
accept that it does not work,be willing to look at it, 
change, and say,"Okay. "It only takes a matter ofseconds 
to find a position from which it will work. How long does it take to come out of depression. It only takes as long as it takes to become willing to 
look at the truth ofwhat has happened. The capacity is 
within ourself to accept what has happened, to realize 
that we are the source ofour own happiness, and to be 
unwilling to give it out to the world any more. The re­
owning ofthat power suddenly results in a state ofcon­
fidence. It no longer matters what happens 'out there'. The realization of that truth allows us to experience 
ourself now in a far more whole and complete way 
instead of from lack or vulnerability. There is just the 
realization that we are the source and have the power 
to create. The self projected the meaning onto this; 
therefore, they say that one man's meat is another 
man's poison. The same event that would make one 
person happy would depress another. I have watched people resist coming into money, 
for example, because it was not within their value 
system. At the time they valued not having money; 
therefore, it would be a problem if they won the 
lottery. Thus, winning might make one person joyful 
and fill the other one with guilt. Why. The difference 
is meaning. Who or what created the meaning that gave this 
thing outside ourself the power and significance. We 380 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
are the creator ofthe meaning and the one who chooses 
what meaning to give to something. Therefore, we have 
to look at the way in which we have bought into social 
consciousness. We have to look at the values by which 
we have unwittingly allowed ourselves to be pro­
grnmmed and say to ourselves, "Do I agree with that. Am I willing to give it that value. Am I willing to set 
myself up for that vulnerability. " The realization emerges that we have the power to 
resource ourselves and to recontextualize our lives by 
seeing how we are setting ourselves up. It brings a 
state of inner joy to realize that we alone have the 
choice and the power. We are the ones who set up the 
meaning and give these things the power over us; 
therefore, it really is possible to come out of disap­
pointment, grief, sadness, and anger about the event, to 
even become indifferent and willing to look into it and 
re-experience the inner self. Actually, a depressive episode, even a brief one, has 
the potential for joy within it because it is something 
comingupinlife,saying,"Look atme. Look atme. Here 
is a mistake that has been causing you pain and suffer­
ing for endless amounts of time and will continue to 
cause you pain and suffering for endless amounts of 
time. "That inner state of joy and serenity really comes 
about from a knowingness of our own invulnerability. Therefore, even though the depression is not current­
ly present clinically, the knowledge that we are vul­
nerable precludes that incredible state called the 
peace of God, the knowing that we are not separate 
from the source of anything but are connected with 
it, and that we are with God. 381 DEPRESSION 
How does one then experience that which, in body 
mind, and spirit, is called spirit-that subtle knowing­
ness. It can come from one of life's tragedies, or even 
from a minor disappointment. All these things have 
within them the seed of truth that is always present. That which is the spirit and reveals itself as the truth 
behind consciousness is always present and can there­
fore be discovered at any moment-in moments of 
high joy or depression. In Zen, it is said that heaven and 
hell are only a tenth of an inch apart. Personally, I have shared what I have experienced, 
and I have witnessed the truth of what I am talking 
about. My own inner experience included a time of 
great, severe, agonizing depression way down in the 
pits of Hell. In that state of absolute hopelessness in 
which time stopped, the experience went on for liter­
ally eons and eons. (In severe depression, the experi­
ence of time is altered and each second seems like an 
eternity. ) In those eons, there was no hope. In fact, 
there was a sign that said, "All ye who enter here give 
up all hope. " It was like the deepest of the hells in 
Dante's Inferno. Out of the experience of that infinite suffering 
and agony, out of that total feeling of abandonment 
and being separated from love and God, there suddenly 
came an inner voice that said, "If there is a God, I ask 
Him for help. " From the pits of agony, by a profound, 
deep surrender, suddenly there was the awareness of 
an Infinite Presence of Eternal Love and the silent 
Knowingness of Truth. With the collapse of the 
ego/self, the mind became silent and disappeared into 
the Self. The event heralded a, major transformation 382 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
that has been described in other writings. Self-healing is the willingness to love and forgive 
ourselves, to look at our vulnerability and call it our 
humann~ss. It is the capacity to love our humanness for 
its weaknesses, errors, and foibles in order to see that 
within this humanness, as mistaken as it might be, 
there is a primordial, intrinsic innocence. The only thing that is certain in the phenomenal 
aspect of this world and its expression is that all 
things change. All things change within human expe­
rience because human experience is that ofchange. If 
all things change and nothing remains the same, then 
to place the source of our happiness outside ourself 
on that which changes means it is only a matter of 
time before the depression ensues. If we place our 
security on that which is transitory, disappearing, 
coming and going, or changing, then the vulnerability 
is ever present. That simple mistake,which we all make, is common 
to the whole human condition and arises out of some­
thing that is also the same in aU of us and which can be 
rediscovered right in the pain of experience-the 
intrinsic innocence of consciousness itself, the intrin­
sic innocence of our own inner self. We can see this in 
two different ways. First, by reaching that state of com­
passion ourselves, we attain such a level of conscious­
ness that we literally see into the hearts of others; we 
just see and know that innocence. The second way is 
through introspection to see how this arose. We notice the primordial innocence of the child 
who is innately trusting. The child has faith in the 
integrity of adults, and it never dawns in the child's 383 DEPRESSION 
mind to doubt the truth of what is being told. The 
young child loves its parents and those extensions of 
parents called teachers, other family members, peers, 
playmates, television, and commercials. A child looks 
at a commercial as though it were just as truthful as 
its parents because of the child's trustingness, open­
ness, lovingness, and lack of paranoia. The innocent, 
trusting mind is easily programmed, and therefore, out 
of its innocence, it begins to buy what it hears. The 
child identifies with those whom it loves as family. As 
the programs start coming in, the purity of the child 
becomes programmed because of its intrinsic inno­
cence. Due to that innocence, it buys such statements 
as, "All of us are allergic," "Heart disease runs in our 
family," or,"We all have a weight problem in our family. " All the negative programs are bought by the 
child's innocence. We might say that the child's mind 
is like the hardware of a computer, which will play 
any software program that is installed on it. And yet, 
the nature of the hardware, that which is truly the 
computer itself, is unchanged. No matter what CD we 
play, no matter what software programs we play on 
the computer, the intrinsic innocence, purity, and 
integrity of the hardware has not been sullied. It has 
not changed at all. Even if all the programs are erro­
neous, the hardware remains the same. Within the adult remains that same childlike con­
sciousness, with its innocence, purity of motive, and 
capacity to remain pure no matter what the programs 
may be. It remains essential and unchanged in all of 
us. It is exactly what is reading these words right now. It is the childlike consciousness, with all its purity and 384 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
innocence, that is reading this teaching right now­
not the person or personality, but that consciousness 
in all its simple purity. Even if the person who is reading says, "I don't 
believe a word of it," where does that statement come 
from. It comes from another belief system that the 
child bought out ofinnocence. The father says,"Don't 
trust anybody," or some disappointing experience sets 
up the program within the child's mind. "Don't trust 
anything you hear. " So if we are saying to ourself, "I 
don't believe anything he says," we are saying that 
because, out of the childlike innocence, we bought 
that program. "The way to be secure in this world is 
to be mistrusting, skeptical, and not believe anything 
you hear or you will be misled down the primrose 
path. " However, the nature of the innocence that 
bought that program remains the same because it is 
trying to listen to the truth and discern that which is 
truth out ofits hopefulness and trustingness. It is hop­
ing to hear that which will be helpful, nurture life, and 
relieve suffering. The cynic has been programmed to 
be mistrustful. When we look within ourself now with the inten­
tion of self-healing, we see that intrinsic innocence 
and understand what program was set up. Now we 
have to re-own that innocence which is so crucial in 
all spiritual work as well in personal psychological 
research and introspection. It is important to always 
keep within our awareness that whatever we bought 
was out of the beauty of that which we are. We 
bought it out of our own love, trustingness, and 
integrity because we projected our own integrity 385 DEPRESSION 
onto the world and thought it was a place we could 
trust in and believe anything we heard or read. We were programmed to believe that sometimes it 
is very useful to lie, to tell someone that "The check is 
in the mail. "We were programmed with the idea that 
the only way to survive as a body in this world is to 
tailor the truth a little bit (called 'creative business 
ethics'), but did we not buy that out of our. own inno­
cence. We thought that was what one had to do in 
this world to survive, so we guessed we had to do 
that. Of course, when we do that, we pay the price. Anytime we go below the line at 200, we pay the 
price, which is the loss of our power within the 
world. That is what the anger is all about-"I lost my 
power. The source of my happiness will never be 
returned to me because it is outside of myself. I have 
projected it out there. " The healing of it comes from 
the willingness to look at the truth of it, to say to one­
self,"Out of my innocence, like other humans on this 
planet, like most of us, in fact, I bought a certain way 
of looking at life in which the source of happiness is, 
first of all, outside myself, and secondly, it is always in 
the future. " The separation from the source of happiness is 
not only in space, but it is also in time, so it is some­
thing that is going to come into our life tomorrow, or 
the next day, or the next week, or the year after, or 
when we finally. graduate, or when we reach middle 
age, or when we get that big house or Cadillac. Because it is always in the future, we are always sepa­
rated from the source of our happiness and never feel 386 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
complete. The realization that we are the source of 
our happiness, and that we can create it at any sec­
ond, gives us a sense of completion. The sense of com­
pletion runs concomitantly with the experience of 
life, so it can be cut off at any second yet still feel 
complete. If we suddenly stop writing at this moment, it is 
already complete just as it is. To the best of my ability, 
I have said exactly what I want to say. At this 
moment, I am being with the experience of the joy 
of doing the best I can. Joyfulness accompanies the 
experience. There is no tomorrow about it because of 
the sense of completion. If someone enjoys the pres­
entation, so much the better. That is only frosting on 
the cake because it is not essential. What one does in the world has to be accompa­
nied by the sense of completion in the doing of the 
thing itself. The payoff is not something that is an 
aside, something that is outside or separate from the 
doingness; it is ~he experience of it in this moment. The completion is with the experiencing right now, 
not something separate from it. In that, one is then 
aware of the lovingness of all experience. That is the 
way one is with experience. It is the loving of life in 
all its expressions, including its disappointments. It is 
the ups and downs, the continual learning process of 
making the mistake and learning from it, so it is noth­
ing but a mistake. One might say that depression is nature's way, 
God's way, and our own psychology's way of saying to 
us that the way we look at our life is not okay. It is our 
psychological, biological, and spiritual way; it is our 387 DEPRESSION 
body,mind, and spirit saying,"Look atwhatis out; look 
at what needs to be ftxed. Please understand me out 
ofyour compassion; heal me; heal all of it. "The defect 
is an inner sense of separation that we will not be 
complete and whole unless we become united with 
something 'out there' or in the future. The ego moves 
from incomplete to complete. In contrast, the Self 
moves from complete to complete. True happiness is. always in the 'right now' of this moment. The ego is 
always anticipating completion and satisfaction in the 
future 'when' a desire gets fulfilled. Clinically, there is often a difference between men 
and women in the precipitating event that leads to 
suicide ·or depression. Men experience the Presence 
of God within them or their connection to God 
very often in the form of power. The three classical 
attributes of God are omnipresence, omniscience, and 
omnipotence, so God is often experienced in the 
unconscious of men as connection with power. Men 
seek that power, and frequently. the precipitating 
event leading to their depression is feeling separated 
from the source of their power. In this case, the 
power has been out in the world, so it would be the 
loss ofa title, a business, or the status symbols that sig­
nify the power; the sense of separation and vulnerabil­
ity that has not really been healed remains there. Therefore, money, position, and power become the 
traditional goals of men. Women commonly experience their connection 
with God in the unconscious more in the form ofrela­
tionships. Remember the example of the old woman 
who sat in the rocking chair, rocking back and forth, 388 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
staring hopelessly out the window. She had experi­
enced lovingness coming through that relationship 
with her son and was feeling cut offfrom it. The inter­
ruption of that was the precipitating factor. We see 
that the basic problem is still the same in the two 
sexes; it just takes different forms and different 
expressions. Depression leads us into the whole subject of sui­
cide. When looking at suicide, we see that what is 
desired is not really the death of the body but release 
from suffering. The body did not create the dilemma 
nor can it experience the dilemma. Therefore, the idea 
that if one gets rid of the body, one will get rid of the 
source is fallacious. The body neither created the 
dilemma nor experienced it. The whole problem is 
going on in consciousness; therefore, the solution is 
within consciousness. Looking at the nature of con­
sciousness itself and seeing that is where the problem 
arose and where it is being experienced, one there­
fore sees that is also where it has to be solved. The 
solution is to realize that what is desired is the release 
from suffering. The mind identifies itselfwith the body and thinks 
it is a body. The loss of the energy of life is because 
the person is dispirited, which leads to a decrease in 
energy. Many deaths are really subtle forms of passive 
suicide. There is loss of the sense of aliveness, excite­
ment, and commitment to life. Passive suicide takes 
many forms, statistically showing up as an automobile 
accident or the failure to get out of the way of a bus. For some reason, the person just did not care enough 
to take the precautions, did not care enough to love 389 DEPRESSION 
their life or value it enough to care for and preserve 
it. Passive suicide takes the form of the person who 
ignores their physical disease, such as the diabetic 
who just does not care to stay on their diet or take the 
insulin, thus going into insulin reactions, overdoses, 
and diabetic coma, with three, four, or five times in 
the hospital in a coma until they succumb. In the addictions, that is traditionally seen in the 
form of an overdose. How could it be a miscalculation. for a person who has taken multiple drugs for twenty 
years and then dies of an overdose. They are experts 
in psychopharmacology who dose themselves thou­
sands of times and then die; it is called an accident. In 
an automobile. accident where the driver was just 
careless, what we really see is the lack of the desire to 
live. The failure to heed health advice or to take care 
of one's health and assets indicates. the loss of energy 
that results in the loss of aliveness coming from 
entrapment. There are feelings of deflation; then one 
becomes dispirited and unconsciously seeks a way 
out so they do not have to feel guilty. One does not 
have to feel guilty that·they died of a diabetic coma. They did not bother to alter their lifestyle to prevent 
that coronary heart attack. Ifwe realize that what we want is the release from 
suffering, that then comes about through an under­
standing of the nature of consciousness itself and 
going into the processes that have already been 
described. We have to have the willingness to experi­
ence out all the symptoms that are being experienced 
and to look at our life using a technique called the 
'worst-case scenario'. We sit down, look at life, and 390 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
ask, "What is the worst possible outcome. " We 
become aware of the feeling that arises with that and 
then let go of resisting it, constantly canceling out the 
thoughts about it and handling the feeling directly. As 
that progresses, we will notice that the symptoms 
begin to abate. We come out of the depression willing 
to look at the fear, at the way it was set up, and how 
we got it set up. We experience the anger about that 
and then use the energy of the anger to want some­
thing better for ourself, now having the courage to 
face how it all came about. It really means that we have to recontextualize 
our whole life. We have to look at everything in it and 
say to ourself, "How can I hold this so it will have a 
value great enough that if it left my life, I would still 
see that which is worth living for. To what about this 
can I dedicate my life. What about my job gives it 
meaning and significance. How can I move to a larg­
er way of holding it. How can I see it in such a way 
that my value as a human being will not be changed 
if that should leave my life. " We have to look at our goals and motives. What are 
we willing to dedicate our life to. What has significant 
meaning. Service to others. Even if we lost all capac­
ity to serve our own life, what is the meaning of being 
of service to others. There are people with all kinds of disfigurements 
and losses who go on with their lives. Somehow life 
still has meaning for them. Does that mean that we 
are weaker than they are or that they are morally 
superior. No. It means that they have somehow found 
some greater meaning in their lives. They have had to 391 DEPRESSION 
let go of a lesser meaning and fmd a greater meaning. So depression means that we have settled for a small­
er meaning, something that is much less than the 
truth. We have to reexamine and see what was the 
true meaning of that in our life; What about our life 
makes it worthwhile, even without that. Correction 
occurs by asking ourselves very simple questions. Where are our vulnerabilities. They are some aspect 
of what we think we could not live without, and on 
which we have based our survival. The technique is to first find out where the areas 
of vulnerability lie. We can sit down and picture los­
ing that from our life. We then go through the process 
of letting go of resisting all the feelings that come up 
and contact our own inner consciousness-the 
unconscious, the God within us, our super conscious­
ness, our intuition-to begin an inner questioning 
search. All of us have to do that. What is the meaning 
of our life. What is its significance. What is worth 
dying for. What is worth living for. What do we value 
that is greater than that which is limited and tempo­
rary. By removing all these things one by one, we fmd 
that who we are is growing in stature. We are no 
longer so vulnerable to external events because there 
are always two things happening. There is the event going on 'out there' as we see it 
in ordinary consciousness, and then there is how we 
feel about it, which depends on our attitude. We can 
decide how we want to be with it and what our rela­
tionship is to that event. For example, I am one thing, 
and the event is something else. I have power over 
how I want to hold it, how I want to value that rela­-------392 HEALING AND RECOVERY
tionship, and how I want to picture it. I have to decide 
whether I'm willing to give it power over my life. Am 
I willing to give money enough power over my life so 
that ifI lose it, I no longer desire to live. Am I willing 
to give possessions, titles, degrees, or cars that power. Think of all the things people value greater than their 
own lives, and you can see the enormous vulnerability. The high suicide rate is regarded as one of the most 
important causes of death, especially in adolescents. What does that say about the values that we are teach­
ing them. What are the transitory things we tell them 
to base their lives on. We have to reevaluate for ourselves the importance 
and meaning of our lives and ask what we hold that is 
ofsufficient value to preserve us in the face of any kind 
of loss. Out of that inner understanding then comes 
our reevaluation of the relationship between body, 
mind, and spirit, because it is mind that is setting our 
goals and purposes. If we begin to question our values and reevaluate 
our position with them, whether we like the term or 
not, we are really doing· spiritual work. What is spirit. What is the energy of life itself. We have a decision to 
make about its form. We can decide what to give 
meaning and value to. Within that energy field called 
consciousness, we have great freedom. It isup to our 
own inner choice. By merely seeing that we have the 
choice of what we want to give value to, we re-own 
our power. We move up from victim to source and 
begin to accept the return of our own power, which 
we have given away to the world. With that comes an 
inner state of serenity from experiencing the value of 393 DEPRESSION 
our existence, knowing that we need no proof, and 
that the world does not have to do anything. We do 
not need to bring home any trophies to give it value 
because we see its value within ourselves. We see, 
treasure, and hold sacred the value of life itself. We 
accept that which is given to us with thanks. With 
gratitude we hold the essence of that which we are 
without asking that the world give us back anything 
that we have demanded of it. In doing that, we move into an invulnerable posi­
tion. We are no longer prone to the disappointment, 
anger, rage, or turning against ourselves with thoughts 
of sUicide-that hopeless, fallacious idea that by 
killing the body, we will kill the source of our suffer­
ing. By owning that we, ourselves, are the source of 
our suffering, we transcend it. By transcending it, we 
bring about that inner healing, which is the purpose 
of this chapter. CHAPTER 13 
Alcoholism 
To understand the nature of alcoholism and addic­
tion, we will approach the subject from the view­
point of consciousness itself in order to discern the 
essential nature of the addictive process rather than 
its symptoms, consequences, or physical correlates. Talking about the nature of consciousness will give us. a different context in which to understand the addic­
tive process and its expression as a problematic 
human behavior. The Map of Consciousness will again be refer­
enced throughout this chapter, as it has been very 
useful in our research. It will help to make informa­
tion understandable that has previously been consid­
ered mystical, esoteric, or too 'right brain' for left­
brain people to comprehend. On the Map, various lev­
els of consciousness have been calibrated to indicate 
the relative power of these energy fields and their 
positive or negative direction. By studying the chart, 
we will begin to understand a lot of new and useful 
information about human behavior, and from that, we 
will come to fully understand addictions. On the Map, note that Enlightenment, or leaving 
the world of duality, calibrates at about 600. The 
energy field of Courage is at 200, and Pride is at 175. We will refer to these numbers later on. It is impor­
tant to notice that the direction of the arrows shows 
whether the energy field is negative and not amicable 
to life or is positive and supportive of life. In understanding addiction, we need to first 
understand the nature of consciousness and then see 
395 396 
how it applies to the addictive process. We will look 
at the true nature of addiction and the quality that 
society missed because its understanding of addiction 
was nil until the advent of Alcoholics Anonymous 
(AA). Prior to AA, the recovery rate from addictions 
was zero, and it was rarely heard that anybody ever 
recovered from alcoholism. The truth was represented 
by Dr. Carl Jung who said that science had no answer 
for this problem, that something above and beyond 
ordinary human experience had to be sought, and 
that the answer would be found in spirituality. We will review the connection between body, 
mind, and spirit. What is the relationship among the 
three, and what is spirit, anyway. What is the nature 
of spirit, and how does it operate in a real way that we 
can verify through our own clinical experience. We 
will not be discussing philosophy or theology but 
instead will be exploring what we can verify for our­
selves through our own inner experience. We will 
look at truth as it can be experienced within our­
selves and learn how this can be applied to the under­
standing of alcoholism, the addictions, and its impor­
tance in recovery. We will emphasize the importance of context, or 
the overall way in which we hold a thing, and the 
paradigm from Which to understand a subject. Context creates meaning and illuminates the under­
standing of addiction. As previously described on the Map of 
Consciousness, levels below 600 represent the levels 
ofthe ego, which is called the'self', and within the ego 
are different energy fields, as mentioned previously. 397 ALCOHOLISM 
At the bottom of the Map are the energy fields of 
Guilt, Shame, and Apathy, and to the right of each field 
is the primary emotion of how we experience that 
field in daily life. To the right of that is the process 
going on within consciousness itself. That energy field 
also determines how we experience and see the 
world, and how we relate to the understanding of 
God, which is due to the limitation of the energy field. The energy field of Shame is at level 20, and Guilt 
is at level 30. These are states of negativity that are 
usually experienced in the form of self-hatred. The 
world is seen as a place of sin and suffering. At this 
level, God is perceived to be possibly the ultimate 
threat or destroyer of the soul because He will throw 
the soul into destruction and hellfire forever. The levels 
of Guilt and Shame are the lowest energy fields and 
contain very little power. When we move up to the energy field of 50, we 
discover a field of hopelessness and despair. This is 
like the old lady previously described rocking back 
and forth in her rocking chair, staring out the window 
after she got the notice from the Department of 
Defense that her son was killed in action. Her family 
shakes her, trying to get her to respond, but she does 
not respond to anything because, in these energy 
fields, there are changes in brain chemistry. Hopelessness, despair, and depression represent 
the process of the loss of energy that accompanies 
the lower levels of consciousness. The world is seen 
as hopeless, and if there were a God, He would have 
nothing to do with us because our own self-esteem is 
so low. We call it the worm's view of the nature of 398 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
God. Ifwe get the person out of that very low energy 
field, we can get them up to a higher energy field 
called Grief. People in hopelessness cannot help themselves, 
and we have to pour energy into them to even move 
them up to the energy field of Grief that calibrates at 
75, which has a lot more energy than hopelessness. Grief also has a certain biological purpose, for exam­
ple, when the child cries to summon its mother. It has 
the power to pull some kind of response from the 
world. The emotion that accompanies Grief is regret, 
a feeling of loss, and despondency. The process going 
on in consciousness at this level is dispirited. Spirit is 
that high energy out of which all life manifests. The 
person in Grief then sees this as a very sad world with 
an unloving God who does not really care for anyone. Ifwe go back to the old lady who is rocking back 
and forth in her rocking chair and not eating or 
responding, and a telegram arrives from the 
Department of Defense saying that the previous 
telegram was a mistake, and her sonJoey was not killed 
but is still alive, the old lady just goes right on rocking 
back and forth, staring out the window. If we could 
pour energy into her up to the level of Grief, suddenly 
she would begin to cry. The expression ofthat emotion 
would indicate to us that she is getting better. Interestingly, these two energy states come out of 
the failure to face the energy field that lies just above 
it,which is Fear. The energy field ofFear,at calibration 
level 100, is still a negative emotion as shown by the 
direction of the arrow. We can run a long way out of 
fear, so although the form of the emotion itself is not 399 ALCOHOLISM 
constructive, the energy out of it can be utilized in a 
very positive way. All these energy fields have their 
upside and their downside. The downside affects us 
negatively; in contrast, the upside can be very con­
structive in our lives. We generally experience fear in 
ordinary life as worry, anxiety, and panic, but eventu­
ally, it can escalate to become paralyzing terror. Grief has to do with the past, and fear has to do 
with the future. The process going on in. conscious­
ness is one of deflation. The fearful animal shrinks and 
hides. For example, when, as child in the third grade, 
the teacher asked for a response to a question, we can 
remember how we used to shrink and hide behind 
the person in front of us. We shrink and become 
deflated, and the perception of the world that comes 
out of this energy field is that it is a frightening and 
threatening place, and that God is very punitive. He is 
seen as a punisher and much to be feared because of 
the holding of all the senses of sin, guilt, and low self­
esteem in this level of consciousness. This level sees 
God as the most frightening of all possibilities. We can move a person out of Fear and up to the 
next energy field called Desire at level 125, which has 
a lot of energy. Desire is 'want', so its expression in 
our ordinary emotions is that of wanting and craving. This can eventually become an obsession or compul­
sion. We then we call it an addiction because the 
process going on in consciousness is one of entrap­
ment. A person becomes entrapped and is at the 
effect of that level and fun by the desire. It takes on 
the intensity of craving, which in turn becomes asso­
ciated with an inner image. To recover from addiction, HEALING AND RECOVERY 400 
it is necessary to eliminate an attractive image the 
moment it emerges in the mind, whether it refers to a 
sexual image, gambling, or alcohol. If the image is 
allowed to linger, it gains energy and qUickly becomes 
too strong to resist. Recovery depends on the willing­
ness to eliminate the image immediately and decisively. Ifdelayed, the image becomes too strong to obliterate 
and its attraction soon wins. It is the purpose of the marketing industry, of 
course, to take advantage of our desires by creating 
wanting and craving to get us entrapped so we will 
want their products. Once we become entrapped by 
the desire, whether it is for a fancy car, a certain per­
fume, or a shampoo that is going to make us lovely, it 
will run us. We will give up our money and energy to 
buy their products. Desiringness, however, leads to the view that the 
world is very frustrating. The difficulty with wanting­
ness is that all the wantings can run people for an 
entire lifetime, which leads to the sense of frustration 
as well as resentment because wantingness does not 
cure itself by getting; it just leads to additional wanti­
ngness. The wantingness, in and of itself, is not satis­
fied, so this constant frustration leads to a picture of 
God from whom we are separated. In other words, the 
God who forever withholds from us what we want 
easily leads'us to anger, which is the next level. Anger, at level 150, as everyone is aware, has a 
great deal of energy in it. It is still a negative emotion. with a destructive downside, but the energy of anger, 
if one knows how to use it, can be very useful. We 
experience the energy of anger in everyday life with­401 ALCOHOLISM 
in the emotions of resentment, within the feelings of 
hatred and anger at ourself, within grievances and 
grudges, and in the unwillingness to forgive. The 
process in consciousness is one of expansion, so as 
the angry animal swells up with anger, it becomes 
larger than life. The person who is angry puffs up with 
the angriness and tries to become imposing on the 
biological level. Angriness then leads to competitiveness. The 
angry person sees a world of competition, conflict, 
war, and'me against you'. It is a polarized position of 
opponents, and therefore the view of God at that level 
is an angry God. The person sees God as the ultimate 
angriness, the God of vengeance, and the God who 
gets even. He is the God who represents the energy of 
the spleen out of revenge, hatred, and anger. It is as 
though he now hates that which he created and the 
humanness of that which he created. He is the God of 
retaliatory, vengeful angriness. If we move up out of this angriness to Pride at 
level 175, we see that pride has a lot of energy and 
can be a very useful emotion. The difficulty with pride 
is that its energy field is still in a negative direction. Its downside is denial, and in the addictions, this can 
be fatal when it takes the form of arrogance and con­
tempt by saying, "Well, those people need it, but not 
me. I'm different. " That comes out of the process of 
inflation that is going on in consciousness. The ego 
reflects an inflated sense of self, which is a very dan­
gerous position. Therefore, we see the pridefulness 
that eventually leads to the destruction of people 
who get into drugs but who are successful in life. This 402 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
leads to inflation of the ego and the denial that goes 
with it, along with the inability to hear the advice of 
others. Pridefulness thus leads to a very vulnerable 
defensiveness. It is not a good position to be in, but it 
is an energy that we can utilize to move from Anger 
up to Courage and out of the field of Pride. The person in Pride is very preoccupied with sta­
tus, ownership, havingness, symbols, and labels, which 
puts one in a very defensive position. How does that 
energy field, which comes out of denial, arrogance, 
contempt, and an inflated energy field, influence 
one's view of God. The relationship to God will usu­
ally be one of two possibilities. Out of the arrogance 
of the intellect can arise the presumption that the left 
brain has the capacity to know all of truth, resulting 
in the position of atheism. Atheism is a denial of the 
truth of what can be experienced through human 
experience; or, it can take its opposite in the form of 
bigotry. It could be in the form of the religionist who 
takes the position that'my way' of seeing things is the 
only way, and because my way is the truth, your way 
is not. Pride is a condition that polarizes, making the 
position of everyone else wrong, or'me against you', 
or 'us against them', and it is the basis of all the reli­
gious wars. Pride has the potential, however, to be a 
useful energy, as the Marine Corps has discovered, 
and it is useful to move on through it to the higher 
energy field called Courage. Courage is a very crucial level because, as we can 
see, the arrow on the Map of Consciousness is now 
neutral, meaning the energy field of that level of con­
sciousness has now shifted to neutral. It is as though 403 ALCOHOLISM 
the antenna that was tuned to 'negative' is now tuned 
to 'neutral'. It stops pulling negative experiences to 
itself. Its energy field is 200, which has a lot of power. Courage has enough energy in it to settle the United 
States ofAmerica, to get mankind to the moon, and to 
establish a civilization to explore the intellectual frontiers. Courage at 200 has enough energy to create all 
the great industrial empires. It is a very powerful 
energy field, not because it jumped up twenty-five 
points but because the direction of the field is differ­
ent. Much of the resistance has dropped off, and for 
the first time, the person at that level is now emotion­
ally able to face, cope, look at, and handle things. The 
critical process going on in consciousness is that of 
the person becoming empowered. The willingness to tell the truth allowed this huge 
jump in power. This is crucial in understanding the 
addictions and the traditional 'twelve steps' because it is 
the first step-the admission that one is powerless over 
alcohol and drugs, which make one's life unbearable­
that changes this entire energy field and re-empowers 
the person, putting them in a position of recovery. When a person starts telling the truth, their view 
of the world from this energy field of Courage is that 
of opportunity. It appears to be a world of challenge, 
a very exciting world in which to grow and experience 
personal growth. Out of this energy field, a positive 
view of God opens up to the mind. For the first time, 
the person really tells the truth from their own expe­
rience. They have not really had an experience of 
what is called God within the universe, so now the 
mind opens for the first time. The person begins to 404 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
ask the traditional questions that have always led to 
the ultimate realization of the truth: "Is there a God. Can He be experienced. Is Divinity a Higher Power 
that I can verify within myself. Is God something' out 
there' or within me. How does a Higher Power 
express itself. How can I get to know that. " The whole spiritual exploration then commences 
at the beginning of self-honesty because that is the 
[lIst level of integrity of empowerment. The capacity 
to tell the truth releases the power to face, cope, and 
handle things, and, for the fIrst time, to be appropriate. Out of the energy fIeld of Courage arises the 
strength to look at the facts and admit the truth about 
them. From here it is possible to let go of resistance 
and move up to the next energy fIeld called Neutral. We can see that the arrow is now very positively 
going upwards on the Map. The energy fIeld has 
jumped to 250, a level that is experienced as being 
free and unattached. Once we tell the truth about a 
thing, we may move up to a process that we call 
'nonattached'in that one is no longer attached to the 
outcome. It is then okay, whichever way it goes. A per­
son at this energy level then might say, "If I get the 
job, it's great, and ifI don't get the job, that's okay, too, 
because I will just fInd another one. " Or, "If this rela­
tionship doesn't work out, then I will fInd another 
relationship. " There i~ the experience of the okayness of the 
world and a sense of God as being the source offree­
dom. There is the freedom to grow, expand, become 
conscious,. and begin to look into one's self and the 
nature of human experience. The God of this level 405 ALCOHOLISM 
looks favorably on the exploration of one's own con­
sciousness. Neutral is a level of comfort. The upside of Neutral is that it can move up to the 
state calledWillingness, which calibrates at 310. It has 
a lot more power and energy because, for the ftrst 
time, positive intention becomes operative and says, 
"Yes. " At the Neutral level, there is a lack of enthusi­
asm. For example, it is okay to go to the movies, yet 
actually okay to stay home. There is not much positive 
energy there yet. However, letting go of the negative 
creates space for willingness to come in, and there is 
the beginning of enthusiasm and a very positive 
energy. We say, "Yes, we are agreeable. We are willing. " This willingness takes us out of indifference, flatness, 
and detachment, and we begin to experience this as a 
friendly world. The questions of God and life itself 
become promising and l,1opeful because now we are 
saying 'yes' to life. Willingness opens up the opportu­
nity for the next step, which is moving out of 
Willingness to the level ofAcceptance. Acceptance calibrates at 380, and a person at that 
level is adequate, conftdent, and capable. This transfor­
mation of consciousness occurs as we begin to re-own 
our own power. All the ftelds below Courage are con­
ditions of victimhood in which we have sold out the 
source of our power and given it away to the world. This will be· extremely important as we look at the 
addiction-the giving away of O1,lr power to that 
which is outside of us, thus bringing about the lower 
energy ftelds. The person who is moving into Acceptance is 
re-owning that they are the source of happiness in 406 HEALING AND RECOVERY 
their life. Below that level, people think that the 
source of happiness lies outside themselves. They 
think it comes about through 'getting'. These are all 
conditions of lack in which happiness is dependent 
on whether one gets that car, title, job, relationship, 
degree, money, or whateyer it is, but it is always out­
side of oneself. In the addictions, it becomes, "If I get 
the right dose of that drug. "The thought that the 
source of happiness is outside oneself accompanies 
all these states of weakness and victimhood. The person on the level of Acceptance, through 
willingness and letting go of resistance, has accepted 
that they are the source of happiness in their life. There then arises the conviction of self-sufficiency 
and the capacity to create something that is satisfy­
ing. As a result, that person is no longer limited by 
powerlessness or victimhood. That person knows that 
if they are put on a desert island some place, a year 
later they will have a coconut factory going, a tree 
house built, or be teaching French to the natives. The 
person will have found a relationship and even started 
a new family. There is the power to. recreate life for oneself. In 
prison, there is suicide, but on the other hand, there 
are those who have earned college degrees. People 
have changed the course of all human history and 
written powerful and brilliant books while in prison, 
which demonstrate that the power is not in the 
prison but instead within the self. The capacity exists 
to use even the prison experience in a valuable and 
positive way in order to create a great novel, book, or 
political treatise. Some of the most influential books 407 ALCOH 0 LIS,M 
ever written were created under extreme conditions. An aspect ofAcceptance is the openness to reason 
and rationality as guiding principles of life rather than 
just the emotions that predominate at the lower energy 
fields. 'Think' gains importance over just 'feel'. Animals are run by emotions, instincts, and feelings, 
but normal, healthy humans, by virtue of the evolu­
tion of the brain's prefrontal cortex, have. developed 
the capacity for intellectual understanding and the 
comprehension consequent to logic and abstract 
symbols. The consciousness levels of the 400s thus 
typify our modern society of education, information, 
and the criticalutilization ofintelligence. This leads to 
learning by means other than just trial and error. A person in trouble begins to search for answers 
and solutions, and inquiry eventually leads to the dis­
covery that recovery is possible by'means of proven 
programs, such asAA, whose success is represented by 
millions of recovered alcoholics worldwide over many 
decades. Section summary: 

* According to the author, genuine happiness originates internally. * Victim mentality contributes significantly towards depre-
      ssional illness/depression

   - Vulnerabilities must be identified,
     acknowledged, faced,

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*** Depressive States ***  

• Identifying fears/facing truths resolves depression   
– Experiences illustrate resilience/reality-check (example)

• Loss/gaining perspective shifts mood/biology   

Relevant Quotes • Happiness stems from Inner Decisions Integrity Intents Relationships Events



References Hawkins  | https://www. google. com/

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The author believes that one's happiness does not depend on external factors, but rather on one's own inner decisions, integrity, and intentions.
What is the author's perspective on the source of happiness?
The author suggests that it is essential to address the underlying fear and help the person to be willing to look at the truth, and then use the energy of that fear to create a new, positive direction.
What is the author's approach to treating depression and addiction?
The author states that the loss of meaning leads to depression, as people become hopeless and helpless, feeling that they have lost their purpose in life.
What is the relationship between the loss of meaning and depression?
The author suggests that the concept of God is often distorted, and that people are taught to believe in a God who ignores and doesn't care for them, leading to feelings of separation and despair.
What is the author's view on the concept of God?
The author emphasizes that the source of power and happiness is within oneself, and that it is essential to recognize and re-own this power in order to move forward and find inner healing and recovery.
What is the author's perspective on the nature of consciousness and the source of power?