 do not know why you hated my closeness and longed for my distance and my spirit and soul became burdensome and my life and the days of my stay became long. why did my evil and my misfortune please you and my good and my safety displease you so that my beauty displeased you as much as my impatience and impatientness pleased you and so that you died lest i should make a mistake towards you and you used my mistake as an excuse for you to distance me and you hated my being right towards you for fear that you would make it a pretext for you to draw near to me.
ولست أدري لم كرهت قربي وهويت بعدي، واستثقلت روحي ونفسي واستطلت عمري وايام مقامي. ولم سرتك سيئتي ومصيبتي وساءتك حسنتي وسلامتي، حتى ساءك تجملي بقدر ما سرك جزعي وتضجري، وحتى تميت أن أخطئ عليك فتجعل خطئي حجة لك في إبعادي، وكرهت صوابي فيك خوفا من أن تجعله ذريعة لك إلى تقربي.