 but they, yeah. So, so there was that. So I was going through divorce. My mother had cancer.
 I was on federal supervision, which meant that at any time my, my PO could show up and be like,
 right now pissing this cup, like in my hand. And, or, you know, they'd show up at a bar and
 they're like, drinking is a violation. You know, I could send you back to jail right now if I wanted
 but they, yeah. So, so there was that. So I was going through divorce. My mother had cancer.  I was on federal supervision, which meant that at any time my, my PO could show up and be like,  right now pissing this cup, like in my hand. And, or, you know, they'd show up at a bar and  they're like, drinking is a violation. You know, I could send you back to jail right now if I wanted