text: does anyone know any suicide sites? i'm not messin about! i just want 2 chat to other people that have suicidal thoughts aswell. click listen on line: http://www.nwffacim.org  when you let your reactive ego self die and all of its uptight fear-fullness go , you will feel the relief that you so desperately wanted, and then your true you -- higher self will come alive!!  i'm an avid fan of the simpsons, and a few weeks ago, grandpa abe simpson was so sick and tired of living and being unloved and unappreciated.  heck - his family wouldn't even take him seriously that he just wanted to kill himself, and they wouldn't even spend the day with him in his "last hours". so he sought out some quack-pot doctor for assisted suicide.  he was detremined to finish himself off!  as he settled into his cot, totally prepared to die and be put out of his misery, the power went out, the suicide machine broke and everyone left the building...but as usual, grampa had no clue.  so -- a moment or two later, he opened his eyes --happy that is was over -- and went joyfully running down the streets in his hospital gown with his bum uncovered, enjoying all the children laughing and playing loving all the little birdies singing -- presumably in heaven! he marveled at how similar "heaven" was to his old earthly town of springfield...even some of the faces looked familiar...he didn't question any of it, until he got to the spaghetti house and saw his ungrateful son, homer, there with his family, at which point he asked, "how come you're dead, too??"   poor grandpa simpson was so disappointed.   "those were the happiest 5 minutes of my life, because i thought i was dead," he said as he longingly stared out the window at the beautiful clouds and birdies playing. "for once i actually enjoyed my life, because i forgot how miserable and how very afraid i was and i finally just started living."  i hope you find what you truly need. love & light.