text: i just made myself  puke....do i have an eating disorder? for the last week or two i have been feeling ugly...and the other nite something triggered me....after dinner i got upset and made myself puke my food up... then last nite....i told my mom that i was gonna take a shower than after dinner i did it again...then took a shower afetrwards.......i don't wanna tell anyone about this especially my boyfriend...what should i do? i don't want my, parents to know...or my friends...i am only 15 years old and in the 9th grade...                                        what should i do??? sweetie, it is so good that you are seeking help early on, because if you let this spiral out of control it will consume your life tragically. i was about your age when i started throwing up for the same reason, not necessarily because i thought i was fat, but just bad about myself in general. it went on for a year and lost a lot of weight. i started sneaking out, drinking, being promiscuous, and failed my first class every (i was a straight a student). the hardest part about it was the secrecy. but don't let it get to the point where the secrecy and lying become normal and routine andd don't even notice anymore that you are lying. i had to hit rock bottom before i got help, but thank goodness i hadn't been at it for long less than a year and it was so easy to change and move on from that. you sound like you have a good chance of beating this early on.   tell someone anyone that you can talk to, a school counselor, your mom, or you could email me even and i would be happy to help and talk.  lilcloclo@yahoo.com