text: why is this happening to me???? i don't want this, i don't want any of it!!!! i don't want to have continual suicidal thoughts or feel depressed all the time because i was abused and my dad drank!!!!! i don't want it anymore!!!!i just feel like screaming!!!!! listen ok, forget all this god stuff. this is your life. it is not your fault these awful things happened to you. im so sorry they did....but you have to find a way to get past it all. not death. you have to find your strength inside, because i know you are strong inside. youve come this far havent you!! i know exactly how you are feeling, suicidal and everything. you feel blind by pain. numb by the walls around you. scream if you think it will help. cry defineltly, write it all down. im me....ring me if you want...but for heavens sake...dont let what has happened to you become you. you are who you are, you are not what has happened. try and get yourself to a doctor and get someone to talk to....because you need to get all this pain out...so you can move on. please know that you can talk to me at any time as i can relate.