text: please read , question inside? i would like to first say i do believe in the existence of a higher power, something that has created  us, i question religions and interpretations of the bible. those people that tell me because of my different belief system i will end burning in hell for the eternity ,that is the biggest insult.   what makes me really upset is when they talk about choice,number one  i did not chose to be born, i did not chose life,life was given to me, if i was not born in the fist place i would have to hear about all this nonsense of being punished just because my mind set  is different than theirs. i  have already being punished, i was born with a genetic deformity, who created me? i do not care about life, life might be precious to you , it is not to me. so i am suffering already and i am supposed to be forced to believe in the god of the bible so he will not throw me in the lake of fire, how did i make a choice to be born? how did i make a choice to be born with a  disease? i did i make a choice to be born in the family i was born? easy for the hypocrites to say i chose  lord as my savior the were not confronted with the challenges i have being confronted with, if he your god did not put me in this earth in the first place i would not have to be tormented by the suffering caused by my disease and by the insults coming from those who tell me , with threats i deserve to go to hell just because i do not belive what they do.  i 'd rather keep a different idea of god not the one that you present to me with your religion and with your interpretation of the bible , that belief that i hold is the one that keeps me going in my life. you should be ashamed of yourselves to be preaching psychologically harmful things and keep saying but that  god that said so, it is you that said so not god. christianity is not the only way.  to think so is arrogant beyond mere words to describe.  but to address your question regarding the circumstances of your birth, there are many spiritual paths that have a far better grasp of this issue.  buddhism being one of many.  might i suggest that you take a look elsewhere?  you might be startled and amazed by the answers and guidance you can receive from other spiritual paths that understand the fundamentals and mechanics of reincarnation.  from that point, you could well handle your personal challenges better and hopefully live a more positive life.  and finally...  whatever belief system you have that keeps you going under what i can see must be difficult circumstances, bravo!  go about your business and life as you see fit and let the fundies stew in their own juices.  it is your life, no matter how it happened, so enjoy it to the best of your ability.