text: i have developed alot of odd and morbid fascinations could it be something subconcious? recently ive discovered that blood, and drugs have been fascinating the sight of blood gets me excited and as for drugs its like i feel i have to do them just to get a rush. it could be something triggered on a subconscious level. my suggestion would be to find a licensed therapist and start working at getting to the root of the obsessions. good luck!