text: why do i feel so bad about this????????? i was with my ex boyfriend for 10 years him being 21 and i am 19 we just broke yesterday and we are both virgins because i wanted to wait till we married each other but now that we are not together anymore i feel bad because i wanted him to be my first and the thought that someone else is going to make love to him is drivig me crazy what should i do? wouldn't it be worse if you had sex with him and then broke up and you found out that was all he had been waiting for?  i'm sorry, i know that it hurts to break up but don't let that be influenced by the whole sex question.  you made a very personal choice to wait to have sex and that choice is still just as valid today as it was before.  it is still something special that you will be able to share with the guy of your dreams one day.