text: pagans,  if you are solitary, do you celebrate the sabbats on your own in a big way? i find that when i became pagan 10 years ago i really went all out for myself , as time goes on i am more meditative about the holidays and celebrate in a personal way.  i still have to celebrate all of the christian holidays as well...so i in some ways i feel like i am cheating myself because i have to get my act together for family holidays and don't put forth the effort for myself. i usually celebrate holidays with my group, and then again alone.  i find, sometimes, that the preparation for a solitary rite is sometimes just as meaningful as the celebration itself. i know how you feel. i used to feel that way many years ago. i put forth more effort for my family's holidays rather than my  own. that's when i started coming up with special preperation for my own holidays and it made each one more special for me. now i have 10+ year traditions for myself and i get really excited about them.  for example - before summer solstice, i put the summer wreath on the door (make seasonal wreaths - it's a blast!), and then re-decorate my living room altar to honor the gods of the sun and fire. i leave each altar up for a month or so.   i'll change the altar depending on the meaning behind the celebration so it's always changing. i'll set aside time for long pre-ritual baths. i'll take the time to bake a cake. take my time shopping for wine. those sorts of things.