text: i'm really tired n can't bear no more........? i was so tired of this life, it feels like i just hold on to live and not living the life itself, i dunno what to deal with this and i think about suicide all the time who cares, my fam isnt here about... i've got noone here, don't tell me to make friends, if u're in this situation u'll know why...why should i go on living with so many disabilities? i've got a bad hearing, my physical health isn't good, i can't speak normally like other people, my eyes are not good, and i'm young. why should god let me live here, i've no idea, everyday seems like hell here... i felt sad reading your question. but you have not given any details but i would just go through it with you, if you dont mind ? your family isnt 'here' ? you mean you dont have a family, or is it that your family isnt with you at this point of time, probably living in another place ? you have disabilities, like bad hearing, right ? you have not mentioned what other ''disabilities'' you are referring to, but i am sure you are really feeling low due to that. your eyesight is low, and you do not speak normally.....and to top it all you think of suicide ?   its the last part of your question that you have to read once more yourself. ''why should god let you live here, ....'' thought why ? i wouldnt want to preach you, cos' when you really feel low and down, you really wouldnt be interested to listen to someone preach you on god, and how to live. but there is one thing for sure, that obviously there are some things left for you to do, while you are here. you may have less of certain things in life, but you have it anyway. there are people who have nothing, in terms of health that you are referring to, and they still struggle day in and day out. you are young, and you still have a long way to go before you say ''i am tired''. you possibly could make things better while you have time. have you ever thought of a counsellor, participating in activities that you are good at, involve yourself with people of your age, who may be having difficulties, just like you ? making freinds, is a good option too. your emotional situation right now is not to socialise, but just give it a try, and then say you cant.   have you considered all your options, and the time god has given you to make things better ? obviously you are healthy, you were healthy enough to type this question here on yahoo answers, werent you ? and coming back to your question, ''god let you live here, and you have no idea...'''.. i am sure you want to stick around and find out why, would be a good idea, dont you think ? and let me know too, on what you found ?  i dont know if you have heard this before, i liked this one which keeps coming in one of those annoying forwards -  ""it's not whether you get knocked down, it's whether you get back up. - vince lombardi''''  i feel thats soo true. so, cheer up, and get yourself going. the first instance would be to sum up and mentally make a note of ''all the things i have and i can do"", and then the next step would be to overcome each disability by doing something alternative, winning through it, and not let that disability to rule your life or control your emotions. right now, you are doing just that. it wouldnt be a quick change, but it will change. this will pass too, and you will begin to see things better. i just hope you do. however, it would be a shame if you cannot say ''yes, i tried, and i survived it''.   good luck.