text: is something wrong with me? i dont really know why but there are times (most of the time) i feel really sad that i want to cry my eyes out (which i done lots of times)for a reason i dont even know i just feel it. when i'm with a guy and there are many times i cant say "no" or i just give in for what he's asking. or if i want to i cant wait to finish and get it over with. when i'm done i wanna do it again. i keep doing things that i want to do it but when i'm doing it i want to stop like if i'm drunk i cant wait to get sober and when i'm sober i cant wait to get drunk again... why am i doing this? oh my sounds as though you have low self-esteem.  get out and spend time with someone who has a positive outlook on life.  (preferably a positive female role model) take stock of what it is you really want in life and who you truly are.    take some self-improvement classes.  go to the gym and work out.  you will meet some inspiring people as you go along.  at the rate you are going, you are only placing yourself in a depressed state and that is so unhealthy.  lot's of luck to you.