text: is it possible to be affraid of being in control or is that just a oxymoron?   it is totally possible to be afraid of too much control.  with control comes responsibility, and often times people don't want to take responsibility.  if you have low self-esteem, you may think you're not good enough to do things right, and you'd rather have someone else do them.  you may simply be afraid of having to take the blame if you screw things up.  you might also be afraid of not being able to handle things...afraid that you might lose control.  hope that makes sense.  don't worry about it too much...control is really just an illusion anyway.  just try to be aware of what's going on inside yourself, try to understand why, and when you're ready try to face your fears.  take control, and see what happens.  you're far more capable than you think.  good luck!