text: what do you think will happen to me when i die? (christian's only please)? i've spent a lot of my life trying to help people, to get close to people, and to make them happy when they're down.  most of my attempts have met with utter failure, so absolute that i've come to a point where i honestly just don't care about people too much anymore.  i'll always be willing to help them but i'm tired of going out of my way just to be met w/ anger and fear.  i'm also gay (but in the closet) and though its something that i've fought with for the longest time, i've learned to accept it and i choose not to make an effort to change what i feel is a natural compulsion (the attraction was always there i just didn't really feel it until after puberty).    i choose to remain "a sinner" in these two respects and i am not ashamed of either of them.    every other sin i do my best to repent for and i'm still to many people "the nicest guy in the world".  so, if i choose not to repent for these two sins, will i go to hell, or will my other good deeds outweigh them? god knows your heart, you sound like a good person....god not not hate you or think you are unworthy because you are gay.  god loves us - all if you believe in god and try to be kind to everyone - even when you are disappointed in the human race - you will be rewarded in heaven!