text: will the real me please stand up? how can i just be myself? today at work i was on the phone being very professional and polite and someone stopped by my desk and said you sure act diffrerent on the phone than you do in person and with people. i said it gets nauesiated being polite all the time i just like to let it all hang out she laughed and walked away.  there is a part of me that always wants to be well liked and well received by others. deep down inside i am loving and gentle and kind hearted but there are times more often than not that i have hardened my heart and become loud, obnoxoius and over bearing,  i just received an e-mail about being christ like and sharing gods love to those who are hurting and i welled up with tears and started to cry. i the midst of living life i forgot what it is like to really feel.  i dont want to put up a front and be someone i am not, i have been hurt many times, please pray for me that the real me will come forth and that i would serve god with a loving heart. i think your last statement says it all, you've been so hurt that you no longer want anyone to see you how you really are, unless you are sure they will not hurt you.  this is not the way to love people, and it's not the way jesus would want you to live.  yes, people will hurt you, in mental and physical ways sometimes.  but you will survive.  that's part of why jesus says we should turn the other cheek.  because loving someone means letting them hurt you on occasion ... because they are hurting too.  people hurt me all the time, they say mean and vicious things to me and i let them, because it's just a hurt, it's not my soul.