<s>[INST] I am a 59 yo female who has always had suicidal thoughts...  starting in early childhood due to a few nasty traumas.   It stopped in my 30's.  Now however,  I have been going through a very rough 10 years.  Lots of stress.  No trauma but just stresses of daily survival.  Job loss, poverty, and loneliness are a big part of it.The new symptom du jour   is the sudden onset of violent images of myself being "attacked" by myself.  Like cutting my own throat,  smashing my head into a brick wall,  and lots of stabbing images.  I know my attacker in these flash images is me.    Why am I seeing these things?  Grief seems to be a  trigger.  It really increased after my little dog (my only love source) died last year.  Self hatred is a real theme here.  But it allseems very unconscious.  Deeply buried.   At least of course, until now.  I have no desire to do myself an injury.  I just want these images to stop.   Any suggestions?   BTW,  I have no health ins.  and can barely afford to feed myself.  I would be grateful for any input.Thank you,Kathleen [/INST] HiThanks for using healthcare magicI think, you have underline depression and you need proper treatment with antidepressant and low dose benzodiazepine. You should consult a psychiatrist for proper diagnosis and management. In case, you feel any stress, you can do relaxation exercise or consult a psychologist.Thanks </s>