<s>[INST] Hi doctor, I am suffering from depression and I have symptoms of OCD for the past ten years. I repeat my activities like reading the same line again and again being scared of missing something. I count each and every number and believe four is to be my lucky number and even while breathing I count my breath. Sometimes, I hold my breath as I feel I am breathing in a wrong way. I am obsessed with washing hands, but I do not keep my room clean. I feel negative as nothing positive I can see or believe. I do not trust people. I feel something heavy in my heart and feel nervous the whole day. I want to know the reason for my nervousness. It is as same as we feel before the examination. I cannot focus on my work. I forget something and start doing other work. I think so much and live in a different imaginary world and so sometimes I cannot hear what others said to me. Earlier,  I was planning to attempt a suicide. Now, I do not want to die, but still I am not enjoying my life. I feel my life is mechanical as I am not interested in daily chores or working at office. I am awake in the middle of the night and cannot sleep for 2 to 3 hours as I think so many unnecessary things of the past. I am going to get married in two months, but I am not happy with this relation. I choose to get married by my parent`s choice after I got rejected by my boyfriend. I am not having any friends and my relationship with my family is bitter nowadays. I want to feel fresh, excited and happy. Please suggest some medicine for me to feel happy and positive. [/INST] Hi. I can understand your concern. For further information consult a psychiatrist online ---> </s>