<s>[INST] Is it normal to always be sad and moping around? I always see the bad side of things, and I talk to myself at times. I've made up almost like imaginary friends that I tell myself are there, but deep down I know that they are not. My mood will change sometimes without warning. I'll just start crying without warning and I emotionally attach myself to objects that have no value whatsoever. I also enjoy pain. When I'm angry or sad or upset I'll pick at old scabs until they start bleeding. I like the pain that I feel when it starts to bleed and I don't know why. [/INST] Hi there,Thanks for your query. I fully understand the agony that you are passing through.From the information provided, you are suffering from severe depression and low self-esteem. Please don't worry : this is just a transient bad patch in your life. There is always light at the end of the tunnel.You will certainly begin to normalize again, provided you take regular, long-term anti-depressants. Consider your status as an emergency.I therefore suggest that you consult a well-qualified and reputed Psychiatrist, who knows what anti-depressant drugs would be most suitable for you.Dr. Rakesh Karanwal </s>