Hello! I have a problem and I dont know what to do about it, my life is very screwed up. Ii dont know how to be happy, Ill hurt people and Ill wake up angry for no reason, my mood will change and I will feel attacked by everything, I cant be comfortable when people say my name and I dont know what its about, anything that happens hurts my head, it wont stop thinking and it gets painful, i get hateful with my self for it, I dont know what to do anymore... I have a therapist appointment but its getting worse. I checked my boyfriends phone because Ii was paranoid that I was being talked about, I dont understand what is wrong, I just want to be happy and not hurt people, I want to stop running away and getting angry for no reason, please answer me, I want answers.
Hi. I understand your concern. Sad mood /mood swings /irritability / lack of sleep are features of depression.paranoid features suggest psychosis or psychotic depression. It can be treated with medicine s/ psychotherapy / behavior therapy / ECT etc. Choice of therapy is depended upon symptoms and its severity. Medicines like SSRI can be useful. In SSRI sertraline / Escitalopram / paroxetine can help. It is useful for moderate to severe depression. Psychotherapy and psychological counselling can help in mild depression. ECT means electroconvulsive therapy is the choice in psychotic depression. Go for proper psychological evaluation and get well soon. Consult psychiatrist and get help. I hope I have answered your question. Thank you.