I realised that for a long time I had not shed one tear, nor had I been outrageously happy, you know, or filled with that wonderful feeling that something or other was going to turn out well.
Tajusin, etten pitkään aikaan ollut itkenyt enkä ollut uskomattoman onnellinen. Tai kokenut ihanaa varmuutta siitä, että jokin asia onnistuu.