For the past 3 years, you've been trying to understand it because you're afraid of what happened to you and of what you've become, so you're running from it.
طی 3 سال گذشته تلاش می کردی اینو بفهمی چون از چیزی که سرت اومده می ترسیدی و از چیزی که تبدیل بهش شدی میترسی