His agricultural pursuits had not only ceased to interest him but had become repulsive, and he could no longer give his mind to them. Added to this there was Kitty Shcherbatskaya not more than twenty miles away, and he wanted to meet her, yet could not.
"Я не в силах буду говорить с нею без чувства упрека, смотреть на нее без злобы, и она только еще больше возненавидит меня, как и должно быть.