In the depths of his heart he did not respect his mother and (though this he never acknowledged to himself) did not love her, but in accordance with the views of the set he lived in, and as a result of his education, he could not imagine himself treating her in any way but one altogether submissive and respectful; the more submissive and respectful he was externally, the less he honoured and loved her in his heart.
Он в душе своей не уважал матери и, не отдавая себе в том отчета, не любил ее, хотя по понятиям того круга, в котором жил, по воспитанию своему, не мог себе представить других к матери отношении, как в высшей степени покорных и почтительных, и тем более внешне покорных и почтительных, чем менее в душе он уважал и любил ее.