user24700: I’ve gone through quite a few periods of meditation everyday, but usually something happens and I tend to off the rails stop for a long period to bad effects.
I started learning with Headspace and went through all the Pro lessons and now I meditate without a timer or guide.
I’m not really into the religious side of things (sorry if I’m posting in the wrong place.)
I’m wondering if I am missing something that is preventing me from furthering my practice.
I don’t know where to look or ask.
I saw The Mind Illuminated being recommended but then later on being unrecommended due to controversy.
I find it hard to trust anyone that says they are on any particular path these days.

user24505: Mind Illuminated is an excellent book regardless of what you think of Culadasa and his indiscretions.  Read it.  Practice it.  It will take you very far along the path of samatha or “calm” meditation.  If you’re more interested in insight meditation, sign yourself up for a 10 day vipassana retreat.  They’re offered all over the world and they might even be free.  It’s been ages since I’ve checked.  Lastly, find people to sit with.  This alone will take your practice further than any book or retreat.  It will teach you commitment and accountability for your practice.  This, more than anything, is the hardest thing to develop.

24700: <p>I’ve gone through quite a few periods of meditation everyday, but usually something happens and I tend to off the rails stop for a long period to bad effects.</p>
<p>I started learning with Headspace and went through all the Pro lessons and now I meditate without a timer or guide.</p>
<p>I’m not really into the religious side of things (sorry if I’m posting in the wrong place.)</p>
<p>I’m wondering if I am missing something that is preventing me from furthering my practice.</p>
<p>I don’t know where to look or ask.</p>
<p>I saw The Mind Illuminated being recommended but then later on being unrecommended due to controversy.</p>
<p>I find it hard to trust anyone that says they are on any particular path these days.</p>
 24505: <p>Mind Illuminated is an excellent book regardless of what you think of Culadasa and his indiscretions.  Read it.  Practice it.  It will take you very far along the path of samatha or “calm” meditation.  If you’re more interested in insight meditation, sign yourself up for a 10 day vipassana retreat.  They’re offered all over the world and they might even be free.  It’s been ages since I’ve checked.  Lastly, find people to sit with.  This alone will take your practice further than any book or retreat.  It will teach you commitment and accountability for your practice.  This, more than anything, is the hardest thing to develop.</p>
