thinkingive wrote many times want kill myself really want pain stop know happen would die oh scared whats come next do know would hurt mother die cowardly sees broken pays mind knew gay probably now wouldnt matter died going hell anyway direction feel unloved whole life never felt anyone wanted cared existence outside blood relatives feel like monster physically mentally homosexuality disgusts makes feel x worse myself hate degenerate feel less person joke mental health taking toll feel anxious  state anxiety getting worse depression becoming crippling jealous happy people especially straight envy normalcy lust life know pain people attraction deserve cant keep living like cant see marrying woman hide hard seeing worth used it feel bad redflag knowing people really suffering redflag brings peace remember back mind might suffer eternally wish knew certain
thinkingive wrote many times want kill myself really want pain stop know happen would dieoh scared whats come next do know would hurt mother die cowardly sees broken pays mind knew gay probably now wouldnt matter died going hellanyway direction feel unloved whole life never felt anyone wanted cared existence outside blood relatives feel like monster physically mentally homosexuality disgusts makes feel x worse myself hate degenerate feel less person joke mental health taking toll feel anxious state anxiety getting worse depression becoming crippling jealous happy people especially straight envy normalcy lust life know pain people attraction deserve cant keep living like cant see marrying woman hide hard seeing worth used it feel bad redflag knowing people really suffering redflag brings peace remember back mind might suffer eternally wish knew certain
Pensingive escribió muchas veces querer matarme a mí mismo realmente querer dolor paro saber sucedería dieoh miedo lo que viene siguiente saber haría daño madre morir cobardemente ve mal paga mente sabía gay probablemente ahora no importa morir ir infiernoen cualquier dirección sentir no amado vida entera nunca se sintió alguien querido existencia cuidado fuera parientes de sangre se siente como monstruo físicamente mental homosexualidad disgusto hace sentir x peor yo odio degenerado sentir menos persona broma salud mental tomar peaje sentir ansiedad estado ansiedad conseguir peor depresión convertirse en celosos celosos especialmente envidia recta lujuria vida saber dolor personas atracción merece seguir viviendo como no se puede ver casarse mujer ocultar duro ver que vale la pena utilizar se siente mal Redflag saber personas realmente sufriendo rojo bandera trae la paz recordar la mente de nuevo podría sufrir eterno deseo sabía seguro