fucked upidk start im going start writing hope make sense im depressed anxious guess cause im anxious im beyond fucking shy job really fucking great awesome especially first job super high pay super cool managers place beautiful jw marriott las vegas resort spa im foodrunner pool last week fucked up fuck talk  weeks ago  weeks ago  crying begging parents take hospital cause afraid safety im really suicidal parents really awesome btw think bad them really supportive really know help think really believe mental problems week crying home jist causing stress fkng everything general  week ago the fuck up pool full people super busy im okay high workloads overwhelming tho asked help servers told organize myself like get started one server makes job hell tried taking  deep breaths calm panic attack told taking break said ran away let pisses off hallway crying breathing really hard security saw sent hr sent home gave another chance also giving choice quit understand super awesome im greatful awesome management told parents said ur keeping job discussion showing face work really embarrassing hard servers hate even bartenders joke like before feel really hated get jobs make friends feel lonely ill try fight it dick move feel like dick deserve feel like dick making jobs alot harder day really cant handle job tho come home crying feeling like shit everyday almost get jobs easy think job right dont think take much longer last night really close redflag
fucked upidk start im going start writing hope make sense im depressed anxious guess cause im anxious im beyond fucking shy job really fucking great awesome especially first job super high pay super cool managers place beautiful jw marriott las vegas resort spa im foodrunner pool last week fucked up fuck talk weeks ago weeks ago crying begging parents take hospital cause afraid safetyim really suicidal parents really awesome btw think bad them really supportive really know help think really believe mental problems week crying home jist causing stress fkng everything general week ago the fuck up pool full people super busy imokay high workloads overwhelming tho asked help servers told organize myself like get started one server makes job hell tried taking deep breaths calm panic attack told taking break said ran away let pisses off hallway crying breathing really hard security saw sent hr sent home gave another chance also giving choice quit understand super awesome im greatful awesome management told parents said ur keeping job discussion showing face work really embarrassing hard servers hate even bartenders joke like before feel really hated get jobs make friends feel lonely ill try fight it dick move feel like dick deserve feel like dick making jobs alot harder day really cant handle job tho come home crying feeling like shit everyday almost get jobs easy think job right dont think take much longer last night really close redflag
mierda upidk start im going start writing hope make sense im deprimido ansiedad adivinar causa im ansiedad im más allá de puto trabajo tímido realmente mierda genial especialmente primer trabajo super alto paga super cool managers place beautiful jw marriott las vegas resort spa im foodrunner pool la semana pasada jodido mierda mierda charla semanas hace semanas hace llanto pidiendo a los padres tomar hospital causa miedo seguridadim realmente suicida padres realmente impresionante btw pensar mal ellos realmente apoyo realmente realmente saben ayudar a pensar realmente creo problemas mentales semana llorando home jist causando estrés fkng todo general semana hace la mierda hasta la piscina gente llena super ocupado imokay altas cargas de trabajo abrumadoras tho pidió ayuda servidores me dijo organización como empezar un servidor hace infierno trabajo trató de tomar respiraciones profundas ataque de pánico dijo tomar descanso dijo huir orinas fuera pasillo llorando muy duro seguridad vio enviado hr enviado a casa dio otra oportunidad también dar opción dejar de entender súper impresionante