want get better hardits hard enough able control thoughts actually cant even think thoughts keep interrupting other check th cant leave job need mon need get bett taking long think make next week go psych ward like every doc pushed last resort dyed hair blue even like blue mom said need clean room change litter boxes dad said get  years ago still hurts called work  days straight hate me friends busy cousin jaedon gets married january better book flight la going hospital get regulated medications im scared away room want roommate far go asking help getting help take freedom away earn parents trust again dad even know going on coping skills need get it cant hard trying might well give in yeah emotionally absent dad disabled mother raised lot today everything fine real world im prisoner head tortured every day good job great friends goals potential cant even get head stop spinning failures point listen said blow brains out defective longer capable functioning society get way really depression something else bug system needs removed make work tomorrow keep taking time off replace realize im weak ass pussy late would help energy anything energy actually follow exercises therapist gave me would it even capable getting better wasting parents money could used move better house moms medical bills keep up enough funeral lol
want get better hardits hard enough able control thoughts actually cant even think thoughts keep interrupting other check th cant leave job need mon need get bett taking long think make next week go psych ward like every doc pushed last resort dyed hair blue even like blue mom said need clean room change litter boxes dad said get years ago still hurts called work days straight hate me friends busy cousin jaedon gets married january better book flight la going hospital get regulated medications im scared away room want roommate far go asking help getting help take freedom away earn parents trust again dad even know going on coping skills need getitcant hard trying might well give in yeah emotionally absent dad disabled mother raised lot today everything fine real world im prisoner head tortured every day good job great friends goals potential cant even get head stop spinning failures point listen said blow brains out defective longer capable functioning society get way really depression something else bug system needs removed make work tomorrow keep taking time off replace realize im weak ass pussy late would help energy anything energy actually follow exercises therapist gave me would it even capable getting better wasting parents money could used move better house moms medical bills keep up enough funeral lol
Quiero conseguir mejor endurecimientos bastante capaces de control pensamientos en realidad ni siquiera puedo pensar pensamientos seguir interrumpiendo otro cheque th cant dejar trabajo necesidad mon necesidad conseguir largo pensar hacer la próxima semana ir sala de psiquiatría como cada doc empujado último recurso cabello teñido azul incluso como azul mamá dijo necesidad limpio habitación cambio cajas de arena papá dijo hace años todavía duele llamado días de trabajo derecho odio amigos ocupado primo jaedon se casa mejor libro vuelo la va hospital medicaments regular im miedo lejos habitación quiere compañero de cuarto mucho ir pidiendo ayuda conseguir ayuda para quitar la libertad ganar padres confianza de nuevo papá incluso saber ir en habilidades de afrontamiento necesidad getitcant duro intentar bien podría dar en sí emocionalmente ausente papá discapacitado madre creció mucho hoy todo mundo real bien