friends im big dumb failureive lurked lot never posted pretty bad tonight though im going talk while ive always sad cant remember time fighting deepseated sadness even happy surface  tried kill myself mom found took therapist gearing try express feeling drove desperate measures prepared let out started telling id tried kill myself laughed face asked world would want that really fucked up going open id ever anyone saying really fucking difficult things acted like big joke really fucking difficult time talking people trusting now trigger that certainly help im college im pretty shy many friends im weirdly jealous have hate myself thats somebody want be shynesswithdrawal people become worse lately grandpa died one best friends fucked cant handle idea seeing anyone anything wonder im lonely friends throughout theres thoughts head like could always kill yourself cant get rid thoughts know im trying say here want friend want feel like dying seconds think anyones online thanks letting talk anyway
friends im big dumb failureive lurked lot never posted pretty bad tonight though im going talk while ive always sad cant remember time fighting deepseated sadness even happy surface tried kill myself mom found took therapist gearing try express feeling drove desperate measures prepared let out started telling id tried kill myself laughed face asked world would want that really fucked up going open id ever anyone saying really fucking difficult things acted like big joke really fucking difficult time talking people trusting now trigger that certainly help im collegeim pretty shy many friends im weirdly jealous have hate myself thats somebody want be shynesswithdrawal people become worse lately grandpa died one best friends fucked cant handle idea seeing anyone anything wonder im lonely friends throughout theres thoughts head like could always kill yourself cant get rid thoughts know im trying say here want friend want feel like dying seconds think anyones online thanks letting talk anyway
amigos im grande tonto fracaso acechado lote nunca publicado bastante malo esta noche aunque me voy a hablar mientras que siempre triste no recuerdo tiempo luchando tristeza profunda incluso feliz superficie trató de matar a mí mamá encontró take terapeuta engranajes intento expreso sentimiento conducido medidas desesperadas preparadas dejar salir comenzó a decirle id intento matarme risa cara preguntado mundo querría que realmente jodido va a abrir id siempre alguien diciendo cosas realmente jodidamente difíciles actuar como gran broma muy jodida difícil tiempo hablar gente ahora dispara que sin duda ayuda im universidadim bastante tímido muchos amigos im extrañamente celoso me han odiado que alguien quiere ser tímido condimentado gente se vuelve peor últimamente abuelo murió un mejor amigos follada no puede manejar idea ver a alguien cualquier cosa maravilla im solitario amigos a través de Theres pensamientos cabeza como siempre puede matarse pensamientos no puede deshacerse de saber Im tratar de decir que quiere amigo quiero sentirse moribunda segundos creo que cualquiera en línea gracias dejar hablar de todos modos