im happy want diei got sober ago im happy im healthy love people life love life love everything future might become disgusted disappointed exhausted at whatwhom why sure hell know pit lower part chest hard concrete feels like crushing unity desolation loneliness hopelessness physically feel it despair involves matter well doing well think doing self harming often usually life getting better get happier spent whole week people love love me spent whole week things love good me spent whole week thinking moment would right moment cut neck spent every moment outside house wishing back bathroom razor hand ran fingernail across site im going cut good friends wanted either get locked psych ward tear fucking neck open wanted cry want die want live everything feels tasteless tiring even though everything beautiful exactly be feel powerless urge know going kill me kill im control myself always control myself tiring fighting myself hate happening actually love im might go wrote redflag notes want die feel like cant fight anymore
im happy want diei got sober ago im happy im healthy love people life love life love everything future might become disgusted disappointed exhausted at whatwhom why sure hell know pit lower part chesthard concrete feels like crushing unity desolation loneliness hopelessness physically feel it despair involves matter well doing well think doing self harming often usually life getting better get happier spent whole week people love love me spent whole week things love good me spent whole week thinking moment would right moment cut neck spent every moment outside house wishing back bathroom razor hand ran fingernail across site im going cut good friends wanted either get locked psych ward tear fucking neck open wanted cry want die want live everything feels tasteless tiring even though everything beautiful exactly be feel powerless urge know going kill me kill im control myself always control myself tiring fighting myself hate happening actually love im might go wrote redflag notes want die feel like cant fight anymore
Im happy want diei got sobria ago im happy im saludable amor gente vida amor vida todo futuro puede convertirse en asco decepcionado agotado en lo que es por qué seguro infierno sabe pit parte inferior pecho duro hormigón se siente como aplastamiento unidad desolación soledad desesperanza físicamente sentir que la desesperación implica materia bien hacer bien pensar haciendo daño a sí mismo a menudo vida cada vez mejor pasarse la semana entera la gente amor amor me pasó toda la semana cosas amor bien me pasó toda la semana pensamiento momento correcto corte cuello pasado cada momento fuera de casa deseando volver cuarto de baño rasurado mano corrida uñas a través de sitio im va corte buenos amigos quería o bien conseguir cerrado sala de psiquiatría lagrima cuello abierto deseo llorar quiero morir quiero vivir todo se siente sin sabor cansado incluso aunque todo lo hermoso exactamente ser impotente impulso saber matarme matar control yo mismo siempre control yo mismo cansado luchar conmigo mismo odio sucediendo realmente amor im puede ir escribió notas quiero morir siento como no puedo luchar más