know else turn to feels like brain hates me happy good job roof head clothes back lot people have able smile drains energy possibly describe voices head tell good enough never good enough pathetic useless worthless stupid waste space time energy matter world would better without me besides small screw grand scheme things world still spin family move on maybe without dragging down finally happy look mirror harbor nothing disgust resentment thing looking back me speaks me pathetic useless learned young age people pretend care see scars cut legs cannot see those one ever see those pretend care talk behind back oh look cutting again pathetic grow up be man told family monsters say phase its fucking phase want feel ok ok motherfucker got attention need change couple things change eat right exercise literally drink water dog thing world keeping here made decision kill june rd   am tied noose hung closet wrote note one would ever care stepped closet thought last time dog barked never that cannot her live her pathetic staying alive dog animal would forget month family would forget month friends even care now bring past family parent told impossible man get raped well guess impossible happened twice life   secluded away women hard time opening trying get relationship understand that exactly something bring first date heh never get second ones pathetic typing bunch strangers care they tried getting help meds make feel worse them therapists push agendas one you themselves myself one is worthless even done things thought id never do prayed prayed looking asking help strength get rid demons monsters avail monster laughs me useless used smart used lot practical knowledge superficial stupid nothing life make difference words say bring impact anyone else want one  person read this suppose lot ask would waste time energy precious internet activity someone so pathetic want reach out waste space time energy matter matter never will die history books never say name never look me bones ground turning dust least ill useful fungus probably even right place post this many people need am made promise intend keep it die give dog best life deserves mean spend every waking moment wishing thinking planning death one day disappear never seen again would go canada northern forests find spot summer already picked day june rd good day die method sure guns messy pills unreliable rope trick anyone read this thank you sorry decided waste time reading words something like me thank nonetheless typed  days hovering post button wanting burden others stupid problems gets sent all id surprised monster mirror
know else turn to feels like brain hates me happy good job roof head clothes back lot people have able smile drains energy possibly describe voices head tell good enough never good enough pathetic useless worthless stupid waste space time energy matter world would better without me besides small screw grand scheme things world still spin family move on maybe without dragging down finally happy look mirror harbor nothing disgust resentment thing looking back me speaks me pathetic useless learned young age people pretend caresee scars cut legs cannot see those one ever see those pretend care talk behind backoh look cutting again pathetic grow up be man told family monsters say phase its fucking phase want feel ok ok motherfucker got attention need change couple things change eat right exercise literally drink water dog thing world keeping here made decision kill june rd am tied noose hung closet wrote note one would ever care stepped closet thought last time dog barked never that cannot her live her pathetic staying alive dog animal would forget month family would forget month friends even care now bring past family parent told impossible man get raped well guess impossible happened twice life secluded away women hard time opening trying get relationship understand that exactly something bring first date heh never get second ones pathetic typing bunch strangers care they tried getting help meds make feel worse them therapists push agendas one you themselves myself one is worthless even done things thought id never do prayed prayed looking asking help strength get rid demons monsters avail monster laughs me useless used smart used lot practical knowledge superficial stupid nothing life make difference words say bring impact anyone else want one person read this suppose lot ask would waste time energy precious internet activity someone so pathetic want reach out waste space time energy matter matter never will die history books never say name never look me bones ground turning dust least ill useful fungus probably even right place post this many people need am made promise intend keep it die give dog best life deserves mean spend every waking moment wishing thinking planning death one day disappear never seen again would go canada northern forests find spot summer already picked day june rd good day die method sure guns messy pills unreliable rope trick anyone read this thank you sorry decided waste time reading words something like me thank nonetheless typed days hovering post button wanting burden others stupid problems gets sent all id surprised monster mirror
saber más se vuelve a sentir como el cerebro me odia feliz buen trabajo ropa de cabeza de techo lote posterior la gente ha podido sonreír drena la energía posiblemente describir voces cabeza decir lo suficientemente bueno nunca lo suficientemente patético inútil inútil inútil espacio inútil espacio tiempo materia energía mundo mejor sin mí además de pequeño tornillo gran esquema cosas todavía hilar familia seguir tal vez sin arrastrar hacia abajo finalmente espejo feliz refugio nada asco resentimiento cosa mirar atrás me habla patético inútil gente joven edad pretende cuidado ver cicatrices cortadas piernas no puede ver a los que uno nunca ver esos pretende cuidado hablar detrás backoh mirar cortando otra vez patético crecer ser