years hoping get pain kinda start accept wont make alivetwo years passed since first met psychologist concerning suicidal thought ive lost passions everything visual artist musician enjoyed movie lost see everything mundane hateful aspect life hate fact everything did did distract us inevitable pain death years developed hatred people warmth social relationship even love see pain everything even joyful aspect life stop craving love human interaction even sex itself bright man difficult years slowly turns usually called late s single men whos living moms basement nothing process lost job lost community circle distant family im basically numb failure occasionally read people tried convince suicidal persons abort intention mainly saying life beautiful yet reach joyous point amidst worsening condition life be point getting better better convinced then think two years enough ive tried everything tried wake early sport stay positive time even last three days every time tried that tried involved social works ended abandoning midproject disappointing everyone tried get job always failed interview due unmotivated tendency entertained chance studying again used professors references number failed scholarship applications tried talk parent best say im apostate since money cant get professional mental therapy country even anything like national redflag prevention lifeline ive tried everything could cant hold longer
years hoping get pain kinda start accept wont make alivetwo years passed since first met psychologist concerning suicidal thought ive lost passions everything visual artist musician enjoyed movie lost see everything mundane hateful aspect life hate fact everything did did distract us inevitable pain death years developed hatred people warmth social relationship even love see pain everything even joyful aspect life stop craving love human interaction even sex itself bright man difficult years slowly turns usually called late s single men whos living moms basement nothing process lost job lost community circle distant family im basically numb failure occasionally read people tried convince suicidal persons abort intention mainly saying life beautiful yet reach joyous point amidst worsening condition life be point getting better better convinced then think two years enough ive tried everything tried wake early sport stay positive time even last three days every time tried that tried involved social works ended abandoning midproject disappointing everyone tried get job always failed interview due unmotivated tendency entertained chance studying again used professors references number failed scholarship applications tried talk parent best say im apostate since money cant get professional mental therapy country even anything like national redflag prevention lifeline ive tried everything could cant hold longer
años esperando conseguir dolor como empezar a aceptar no hacer vivir dos años pasados desde el primer encuentro psicólogo acerca de pensamiento suicida ive perdida pasiones todo artista visual músico disfrutó película perdido ver todo mundano aspecto odiosa vida odio hecho todo hizo distraernos dolor inevitable muerte años desarrollado odio personas calidez relación social incluso amor ver dolor todo incluso aspecto alegre vida dejar de antojar amor interacción humana incluso el sexo mismo hombre brillante años difíciles lentamente se convierte llamado tarde s hombres que viven mamás sótano nada proceso perdido trabajo perdido comunidad círculo distante familia