depressedanxious life spent youth moving around small outsider kid would always target bullying learned hide emotions fake okay draw attention away myself spent time books imagining fantasy worlds life made close friend rd grade another subject bullying although abused well confided th grade realised wanted live anymore shamefully tried end friendship could deal feelings felt sorryit time started dropping hints parent admired time masked panic child might issues told talking problems okay people around me grew close friends none could trust fully feelingsthese past years slowly settled gone university find failure address mental health resulted apathy studies hobbies developed real deep friendships cannot find trusting emotions people do relieved hurti completed subject past couple years past due graduate cannot keep lying parents live with cannot tell truth either one parent socially inept understanding background mental health grew abusive household difficult time confusing honesty manipulationi never hurt myself know tell people feel without like manipulating them burdening them feeling like shit receiving end know difficult hear know tell parents
depressedanxious life spent youth moving around small outsider kid would always target bullying learned hide emotions fake okay draw attention away myself spent time books imagining fantasy worlds life made close friend rd grade another subject bullying although abused well confided th grade realised wanted live anymore shamefully tried end friendship could deal feelings felt sorryit time started dropping hints parent admired time masked panic child might issues told talking problems okay people around me grew close friends none could trust fully feelingsthese past years slowly settled gone university find failure address mental health resulted apathy studies hobbies developed real deep friendships cannot find trusting emotions people do relieved hurti completed subject past couple years past due graduate cannot keep lying parents live with cannot tell truth either one parent socially inept understanding background mental health grew abusive household difficult time confusing honesty manipulationi never hurt myself know tell people feel without like manipulating them burdening them feeling like shit receiving end know difficult hear know tell parents
Deprimida vida angustiada pasó juventud moviéndose por un pequeño niño extraño siempre se centraba en el bullying aprendido emociones falsas ok llamar la atención yo mismo pasé tiempo libros imaginando mundos de fantasía vida hecho amigo cercano rd grado otro tema acoso aunque abusado bien confiado th grado realizado quería vivir más vergonzosamente probado final amistad podría tratar sentimientos sentía pena tiempo comenzó dejar pistas padre admirado tiempo miedo niño podría problemas dijo hablar gente bien gente a mi alrededor creció amigos cercanos nadie podía confiar plenamente sentimientos estos últimos años se establecieron lentamente universidad encontrar fracaso dirección salud mental resultado apatía estudios hobbies desarrollado amistades profundas reales no puede encontrar emociones confiables personas aliviadas hirdi asunto completado pasado dos años debido graduado no puede seguir mintiendo padres con vivir con no puede decir verdad o un padre socialmente inepto entender antecedentes salud mental creció abusivo hogar difícil tiempo confundir manipulación honestidadi nunca me lastima saber decir a la gente se siente sin como manipularlos cargando con ellos como recibir extremo saber difícil saber saber decir padres padres