suicidal mostly on since  sometimes better sometimes worse past weeks awfuli graduated loads jobs field could get one easy i hope cannot face job hunting cannot bear prospect rejected industry also incredibly high suicide rate terrified burn make worse back living parents get job place helping either friends live couple hours awayi spent past months self sabotaging degree half arsed finals revision left organising compulsory placement last second think part hoping would fail would finally excuse end it passed honours proud feel numb whole timei eat cannot sleep want die cannot bear thought much would hurt friends family spend time playing computer games instead anything productive speaking friends exhaustingi speaking counsellor helped completely massive breakdown  months ago abusive relationshipi want sleep forever tired whole time know fix head spent many years feeling way know begin fixing myself cannot go like this know get it obviously suicidal think would ever actually anythingplease need advice know begin get life together feeling hopeless need vent advice would help
suicidal mostly on since sometimes better sometimes worse past weeks awfuli graduated loads jobs field could get one easyi hope cannot face job hunting cannot bear prospect rejected industry also incredibly high suicide rate terrified burn make worse back living parents get job place helping either friends livecouple hours awayi spent past months self sabotaging degree half arsed finals revision left organising compulsory placement last second think part hoping would fail would finally excuse end it passed honours proud feel numb whole timei eat cannot sleep want die cannot bear thought much would hurt friends family spend time playing computer games instead anything productive speaking friends exhaustingi speaking counsellor helped completely massive breakdown months ago abusive relationshipi want sleep forever tired whole time know fix head spent many years feeling way know begin fixing myself cannot go like this know get it obviously suicidal think would ever actually anythingplease need advice know begin get life together feeling hopeless need vent advice would help
suicidas sobre todo puesto que a veces mejor a veces peor semanas pasados horribles cargas graduadas campo podría conseguir una fácil esperanza no se puede enfrentar a la búsqueda de empleo no puede soportar la perspectiva rechazada industria increíblemente alta tasa de suicidio aterrorizado quemar hacer peor volver a vivir padres conseguir lugar de trabajo ayudar a cualquiera de los amigos vivir pareja horas awayi pasados meses auto saboteo grado medio arsed final revisión izquierda organización colocación obligatoria último segundo pensar parte esperanzaría fracasaría finalmente fin honores pasados orgullo se siente entumecido todo el tiempo comer no puede dormir querer morir no puede soportar pensar mucho daño amigos familia pasar tiempo jugar juegos de ordenador en lugar de cualquier cosa productiva hablando amigos agotados hablando consejero ayudó a romper completamente masivo meses hace relaciones abusivas quiero dormir para siempre cansado todo el tiempo saber fijar la cabeza pasó muchos años sentir manera de saber empezar a arreglarme a mí mismo no puede ir como este saber obviamente suicida pensar en realidad cualquier cosa por favor necesita consejo saber comenzar a conseguir la vida juntos sin necesidad de consejo de ventilación ayudaría