broken memoriesive always broken often wonder mother aborted me always stated almost learned her sometimes makes wonder let neighbors rape  purpose horrible things happened child  years ago real memories dark thoughts invade head lights see open closet door remember later school pe teacher watched change asked shower others run laps time out office remember happened twice told touched would friend carlos kill sleep thank god never found never knew carlos anyone willing commit murder matter remember best friend asking out getting mad told no remember doctor said miscarried remember able accept creating persona unborn child keep losing more remember many times ive told family want die remember telling suck up remember mom telling stop threatening it remember wanted say ok remember moment realized different remember learning word changed way parents looked me remember day realized man womans body remember feeling love anyone including myself remember feels like happy remember feels like someone cares want remember anything anymore want memories want finally put knife wrist watch life fade away nothing always been
broken memoriesive always broken often wonder mother aborted me always stated almost learned her sometimes makes wonder let neighbors rape purpose horrible things happened child years ago real memories dark thoughts invade head lights see open closet door remember later school pe teacher watched change asked shower others run laps time out office remember happened twice told touched would friend carlos kill sleep thank god never found never knew carlos anyone willing commit murder matter remember best friend asking out getting mad told no remember doctor said miscarried remember able accept creating persona unborn child keep losing more remember many times ive told family want die remember telling suck up remember mom telling stop threatening it remember wanted say ok remember moment realized different remember learning word changed way parents looked me remember day realized man womans body remember feeling love anyone including myself remember feels like happy remember feels like someone cares want remember anything anymore want memories want finally put knife wrist watch life fade away nothing always been
recuerdos rotos siempre rotos a menudo maravilla madre abortó siempre dijo casi aprendió a veces se pregunta que los vecinos propósito violación cosas horribles pasó niño años reales recuerdos oscuros pensamientos invadir luces de cabeza ver puerta abierta armario recordar después escuela pe profesor ver cambio pidió ducha otros correr vueltas tiempo fuera oficina recordar sucedió dos veces contada conmovido amigo Carlos matar sueño gracias a Dios nunca se encontró nadie conocido Carlos nadie dispuesto cometer materia asesinato recordar mejor amigo preguntar fuera se enojó dijo no recuerdo doctor dijo abortado recordar capaz aceptar creación persona niño nonato seguir perdiendo más recordar muchas veces le dijo a la familia quiere morir recordar decirle chupar recordar mamá diciendo dejar de amenazar recordar quería decir ok recuerdo momento realizado diferente aprender palabra cambió manera los padres me mira recordar día realizado hombre mujeres cuerpo recordar sentir amor nadie incluyendo yo recordar se siente feliz recordar se siente como alguien se preocupa desea recordar cualquier cosa más desea poner cuchillo muñeca reloj vida se desvanecen nada siempre ha sido