know doi firmly want kill myself keep thinking it know thoughts pass then absence thoughts feel unsupported scared isolated friends ones understanding problems own triggered panic attack someone earlier talking feelings grandad said go home im house im going upset complain things im guessing cos bad blood pressure thought going aampe im physical danger thats probably recommended gp said something like things get worse redflag ideation like crisis call helpline go aampe remember exact words someone online said would better call nhs  like  hours ive either sleeping sitting around wondering feel seems messaged best friend asking whether would go aampe  hours ago hes still responded still feel shitty before think im particularly impulsive person ive thought many times actually killing never actually something undo im kind nothing id decided family worth living for potential pain worth it etc mean im really despairing feel like never get sufficient help maybe one day decide worth pain loss opportunity im  might late anyone help me now im making move kill myself people particularly care many people ill nhs could busy with makes feel kind cheated though teen threatened section anorexia recall feeling despair desire actually die time want help forced i sectioned cos accepted forcefed desperately want help gp surgery literally available appointments every three weeks making emergency appointment like aampe thing would feel selfish plus cant stand gps even appear diagnosis depression although psychiatrist diagnosed years back say low mood patient summary depressed mood priority severity whatever section suspected uti years back
know doi firmly want kill myself keep thinking it know thoughts pass then absence thoughts feel unsupported scared isolated friends ones understanding problems own triggered panic attack someone earlier talking feelings grandad said go home im house im going upset complain things im guessing cos bad blood pressure thought going aampe im physical danger thats probably recommended gp said something like things get worse redflag ideation like crisis call helpline go aampe remember exact words someone online said would better call nhs like hours ive either sleeping sitting around wondering feel seems messaged best friend asking whether would go aampe hours ago hes still responded still feel shitty before think im particularly impulsive person ive thought many times actually killing never actually something undo im kind nothing id decided family worth living for potential pain worth it etc mean im really despairing feel like never get sufficient help maybe one day decide worth pain loss opportunity im might late anyone help me now im making move kill myself people particularly care many people ill nhs could busy with makes feel kind cheated though teen threatened section anorexia recall feeling despair desire actually die time want help forced i sectioned cos accepted forcefed desperately want help gp surgery literally available appointments every three weeks making emergency appointment like aampe thing would feel selfish plus cant stand gps even appear diagnosis depression although psychiatrist diagnosed years back say low mood patient summary depressed mood priority severity whatever section suspected uti years back
saber doi firmemente quiero matarme seguir pensando que sabe que los pensamientos pasan entonces los pensamientos de ausencia se sienten sin apoyo amigos aislados asustados que entienden problemas propios desencadenaron ataque de pánico alguien antes hablando sentimientos abuelo dijo ir a casa