cant cope am im evil need stop harmevery day throat closes up every day find somewhere hide feel rising tears start coming sometimes hide sometimes cry silently desk nobody notices go home work little room live shared accommodation never speak anyone close door cry panic attacks random times cant let near people terrified might them twisted evil psychologically manipulative emotionally abusive know get interact world without causing pain ive stopped living constant internal pain chaos nearly two years thing is living like pointless tried move healthily read articles forgive sound fucking stupid idealistic naive ive doctor told im depressed need treatment refused refer me know except killing myself never happy like past chose shit throw away like less nothing severely fucked mentally ill woman  years old dark bags eyes entirely grey hair make look   years older look like meth addict nobody could love me nobody should whats point toiling awful life ive built evil choices actions im coward know im going bring actually it really want gas im pathetic cant even drive wish somebody would murder me every day wish that please come stab throw deep valley never found
cant cope am im evil need stop harmevery day throat closes up every day find somewhere hide feel rising tears start coming sometimes hide sometimes cry silently desk nobody notices go home work little room live shared accommodation never speak anyone close door cry panic attacks random times cant let near people terrified might them twisted evil psychologically manipulative emotionally abusive know get interact world without causing pain ive stopped living constant internal pain chaos nearly two years thing is living like pointless tried move healthily read articles forgive sound fucking stupid idealistic naive ive doctor told im depressed need treatment refused refer me know except killing myself never happy like past chose shit throw away like less nothing severely fucked mentally ill woman years old dark bags eyes entirely grey hair make look years older look like meth addict nobody could love me nobody should whats point toiling awful life ive built evil choices actions im coward knowim going bring actually it really want gas im pathetic cant even drive wish somebody would murder me every day wish that please come stab throw deep valley never found
No puedo hacer frente a mi mal necesidad dejar de daño todos los días garganta cierra cada día encontrar algún lugar escondite sentir lágrimas crecientes comienzan a venir a veces ocultar llorar silenciosamente escritorio nadie nota ir a casa trabajo poco habitación vivo alojamiento compartido nunca hablar nadie cerrar puerta gritos ataques de pánico horarios aleatorios no dejar cerca de la gente aterrorizado podría retorcido mal psicológicamente manipulador emocionalmente abusivo saber interactuar mundo sin causar dolor ive dejó de vivir constante dolor interno caos casi dos años cosa es vivir como inútil probado mover saludablemente leer artículos perdonar sonido mierda estúpido idealista ingenuo ive doctor let im deprimido need treatment need refer me know excepto matarme nunca feliz como pasado eligió mierda tirar como nada peor gravemente enfermo mental mujer años viejo bolsas oscuras ojos totalmente gris pelo hacer parecer años más viejo aspecto como meth adicto nadie podría amar a nadie lo que hace falta duro vida horrible construido mal acciones im cobarde saber va a traer en realidad que realmente quiero gas im patético cant conducir deseo alguien me mataría cada día deseo que por favor venga apuñalar profundo valle nunca encontrado