needed talk thisim second semester college right things exactly going way barely made pretty depressing first semester im stem major enrolled rotc last semester dream longest time go space one day id settle pilot too anyway first semester depressed shift difficulty academics incredibly jarring me trouble making friends made think something wrong me failing math class rotc inherently stressful felt alone ashamed shitty lot time barely passed math class made lot friends second semester rolls around things starting look up finally feel comfortable rotc get  first chem exam still things im sad about ill talk later anyway im feeling generally happy semester far get  first math exam dug hole again thats okay though ill better next one final academic performance starts slipping across board im trouble math class fast forward month so im told medically qualify rotc adhd medication  years ago devastating me finally feeling comfortable finally made friends thought adhd going obstacle anymore never identified certain group felt like part something worth part before dangled front face ripped away felt horrible okay though end world im still eligible apply officer training school graduate two days later meet cadre review case tell certain skin condition medically qualify military service means cant pilot went back dorm first time life seriously considered redflag felt like nightmare like presented puzzle solve wanted hurt someone myself anything though really know do week later take second math exam semester week that find failed ill drop class studied really hard thought got least  incredibly frustrating go high school never studied anything almost never got  test quiz good math science academics general college actually study quizzes exams almost never get  even frustrating friends people floor talk got bs exams took im running ways convince im fucking moron feel like fraud ways one ive also never girlfriend thats always reason feel like waste skin ive never experienced mutual romantic love friends yeah need me ive always problem comparing people thats ive recently start feel awful im alone thoughts long feel like nothing proud anymore sorry making really long ive never talked stuff anyone friends family good comforting im pretty sure nobody knows im unhappy im afraid change that need talk someone
needed talk thisim second semester college right things exactly going way barely made pretty depressing first semester im stem major enrolled rotc last semester dream longest time go space one day id settle pilot too anyway first semester depressed shift difficulty academics incredibly jarring me trouble making friends made think something wrong me failing math class rotc inherently stressful felt alone ashamed shitty lot time barely passed math class made lot friends second semester rolls around things starting look up finally feel comfortable rotc get first chem exam still things im sad about ill talk lateranyway im feeling generally happy semester far get first math exam dug hole again thats okay though ill better next one final academic performance starts slipping across board im trouble math class fast forward monthso im told medically qualify rotc adhd medication years ago devastating me finally feeling comfortable finally made friends thought adhd going obstacle anymore never identified certain group felt like part something worth part before dangled front face ripped away felt horribleokay though end world im still eligible apply officer training school graduate two days later meet cadre review case tell certain skin condition medically qualify military service means cant pilot went back dorm first time life seriously considered redflag felt like nightmare like presented puzzle solve wanted hurt someone myself anything though really know do week later take second math exam semester week that find failed ill drop class studied really hard thought got least incredibly frustrating go high school never studied anything almost never got test quiz good math science academics general college actually study quizzes exams almost never get even frustrating friends people floor talk got bs exams took im running ways convince im fucking moron feel like fraud ways one ive also never girlfriend thats always reason feel like waste skin ive never experienced mutual romantic love friendsyeah need me ive always problem comparing people thats ive recently start feel awfulim alone thoughts long feel like nothing proud anymore sorry making really longive never talked stuff anyone friends family good comforting im pretty sure nobody knows im unhappyim afraid change that need talk someone
Necesario hablar de este segundo semestre universidad derecho cosas exactamente yendo manera apenas hecho bastante deprimente primer semestre im stall major matriculado rocc último semestre sueño tiempo más largo ir espacio un día id arreglo piloto también de todos modos primer semestre depresión cambio dificultad académicos increíblemente jarrón problemas hacer amigos hizo pensar algo mal yo fallando clase matemática rotc inherentemente estresante sentirse solo vergüenza montón de tiempo apenas pasó clase matemática hizo mucho amigos segundo semestre rollos alrededor de las cosas empezando miradas finalmente sentirse cómodo rotc obtener primer examen químico todavía cosas im tristes mal hablar más tarde cualquier manera im sentimiento generalmente feliz semestre lejos conseguir primer examen matemático agujero excavado otra vez eso está bien aunque mal mejor siguiente un rendimiento académico final comienza a deslizarse a través de la tabla im problemas clase matemática rápido hacia adelante meseso im me dijo médicamente calificar rotc adhd medicación años atrás devastadora finalmente me sentía cómodo finalmente amigos pensó adhd ir obstáculo más nunca identificado cierto grupo se sentía como parte algo digno de parte antes dangled cara frontal se sintió horriblemente