laugh cry yesterday went local library goal mind subject thats mind lot lately im crack addict reading learning decided thats wanted drive happy ass there walk make bline straight desk theres always two three old women pretending work im pretty sure mutter breath please talk me keep walking fucker give customer service smile well hate ruin day lady im learn today ask old lady books redflag gives nastiest look face scrunched much couldve passed sharpei high old grandma voice shrieked no again lend anymore since never get back none happened course clever ruse make feel invested post itd harder skip it terribly sorry deception actuality post ive gotten point now throwaway account spill life story entirety internet make previous betrayal though hide ss somewhere post onto point whole show ive pretty suicidal lately ive multiple redflag attempts multiple mean thirty ive came close four times dead winter one morning walked middle woods drank bottle liquor took coat off changed mind almost make next impossible get back move next one drowning myself overdosing vsed point im early thirties ive lived life people live theyre fifties due incompetence mother ive lost siblings sorts nastiness sister managed kill alcoholism age  four years ago jaundiced hell back organs shut down went coma never woke up mother let get away drinking since ten well letting sorts people house used hard drugs her sibling got wrong side law got less deserved second born lot problems growing up lot mentally challenged made life really hard always told everyone family ill end ditch someday ill living bridge constantly berated belittled always told reason hard time lazy trying hard enough told actually sick even more get distinct impression ever viewed possession mother refer collector anymore acquires things pretty look surrounds things boast make personal shortcomings done entire life knickknacks animals pictures children house except childrens pictures would always lament fact cute grew raised servants forced massage mothers feet back neck well scratch back didnt wed grounded guilted would change cloths middle house bathe use bathroom door wide open siblings allowed walk around house naked midteens almost never food reason always money budweiser wild turkey pall malls sheer amount abuse went on itd one morning sudden bedroom door would fly open mother drunk hell screaming get living room there would yell sisters half hour everything could demean us got point id wake middle night slightest noise ready hop bed defend myself live alone still wake slightest noise bedroom door always locked im sleeping night one point took stand told asked beer money no going give her assaulted me last time unable work completely utterly always told mood disorder get crutch one deal bullshit got disability paid debts suddenly mother demanded money getting saying owed it  point life im longer contact family made attempts keep contact them reciprocate ive come realize strong chance never cared much begin with one even called see im alive number live alone im ton government programs keep going since im able work feel like ive failed society whole better am even though know people would dead worse everything ive through cant even handle minute levels stress without full blown break down people raise voice normally end breaking tears shortly after im constantly depressed im hardly able take care struggle remain functioning jump noise constantly reassure people gas lightning plotting me cant room without back wall able see points entrance sleeping speaking sleeping fear going bed anymore night go sleep experience dreadful dreams feel actual pain im either reliving experiences past brand new fresh kind hell like last night dissected alive awake excruciating every night additionally im often alienated lot social groups due political beliefs sexual preferences current climate ive told im traitor monster someone go hang themselves someone never loved constant lot people im moderate conservative also suffer gid identify woman asexual im kind shafted three different directions there clarify mood disorder rapid cycling manic depressive so short im socially isolated multitude reasons ive started question would better dead longer drain societies resources someone fixed get help need amount pain go intense im constantly paddling keep head water feel like cant get well enough go back work here friends helping get mentality around surges back want assistance rest life get worse get older reached point im considering getting certain things done ensure outcome want know is ive wards dozen times life sure hell going back again see case worker therapist week along nurse im attending groups im wind here want live way rest life place kind money cant get past this additionally im well educated im pretty cool fucking woman im also good looking even though like body cant deny good looks im lacking self confidence im blast hang with many people going even consider potential partner im horribly crippled mental illness ptsd gid ontop fact job substantial income speak of id also like clarify conditions stated diagnosed professionals entire rant im sitting wanting go bed ill go im asleep torn starting vsed not also lied again put ss here forgive me
laugh cry yesterday went local library goal mind subject thats mind lot lately im crack addict reading learning decided thats wanted drive happy ass there walk make bline straight desk theres always two three old women pretending work im pretty sure mutter breath please talk me keep walking fucker give customer service smile well hate ruin day lady im learn today ask old lady books redflag gives nastiest look face scrunched much couldve passed sharpei high old grandma voice shrieked no again lend anymore since never get back none happened course clever ruse make feel invested post itd harder skip it terribly sorry deception actuality post ive gotten point now throwaway account spill life story entirety internet make previous betrayal though hide ss somewhere post onto point whole show ive pretty suicidal lately ive multiple redflag attempts multiple mean thirty ive came close four times dead winter one morning walked middle woods drank bottle liquor took coat off changed mind almost make next impossible get back move next one drowning myself overdosing vsed point im early thirties ive lived life people live theyre fifties due incompetence mother ive lost siblings sorts nastiness sister managed kill alcoholism age four years ago jaundiced hell back organs shut down went coma never woke up mother let get away drinking since ten well letting sorts people house used hard drugs her sibling got wrong side law got less deserved second born lot problems growing up lot mentally challenged made life really hard always told everyone family ill end ditch someday ill living bridge constantly berated belittled always told reason hard time lazy trying hard enough told actually sick even more get distinct impression ever viewed possession mother refer collector anymore acquires things pretty look surrounds things boast make personal shortcomings done entire life knickknacks animals pictures children house except childrens pictures would always lament fact cute grew raised servants forced massage mothers feet back neck well scratch back didnt wed grounded guilted would change cloths middle house bathe use bathroom door wide open siblings allowed walk around house naked midteens almost never food reason always money budweiser wild turkey pall malls sheer amount abuse went on itd one morning sudden bedroom door would fly open mother drunk hell screaming get living room there would yell sisters half hour everything could demean us got point id wake middle night slightest noise ready hop bed defend myself live alone still wake slightest noise bedroom door always locked im sleeping night one point took stand told asked beer money no going give her assaulted me last time unable work completely utterly always told mood disorder get crutch one deal bullshit got disability paid debts suddenly mother demanded money getting saying owed it point life im longer contact family made attempts keep contact them reciprocate ive come realize strong chance never cared much begin with one even called see im alive number live alone im ton government programs keep going since im able work feel like ive failed society whole better am even though know people would dead worse everything ive through cant even handle minute levels stress without full blown break down people raise voice normally end breaking tears shortly after im constantly depressed im hardly able take care struggle remain functioning jump noise constantly reassure people gas lightning plotting me cant room without back wall able see points entrance sleeping speaking sleeping fear going bed anymore night go sleep experience dreadful dreams feel actual pain im either reliving experiences past brand new fresh kind hell like last night dissected alive awake excruciating every night additionally im often alienated lot social groups due political beliefs sexual preferences current climate ive told im traitor monster someone go hang themselves someone never loved constant lot people im moderate conservative also suffer gid identify woman asexual im kind shafted three different directions there clarify mood disorder rapid cycling manic depressive so short im socially isolated multitude reasons ive started question would better dead longer drain societies resources someone fixed get help need amount pain go intense im constantly paddling keep head water feel like cant get well enough go back work here friends helping get mentality around surges back want assistance rest life get worse get older reached point im considering getting certain things done ensure outcome want know is ive wards dozen times life sure hell going back again see case worker therapist week along nurse im attending groups im wind here want live way rest life place kind money cant get past this additionally im well educated im pretty cool fucking woman im also good looking even though like body cant deny good looks im lacking self confidence im blast hang with many people going even consider potential partner im horribly crippled mental illness ptsd gid ontop fact job substantial income speak of id also like clarify conditions stated diagnosed professionals entire rant im sitting wanting go bed ill go im asleep torn starting vsed not also lied again put ss here forgive me
risa llorar ayer fue biblioteca local objetivo mente tema que es mente mucho últimamente im crack adicto lectura aprendizaje decidió que quería conducir feliz culo allí caminar hacer bline escritorio derecho allí siempre dos tres ancianas que fingen trabajo im bastante seguro mutter aliento por favor hablarme seguir caminando hijo de puta