struggled ptsd depression physical pain hate fear ect ect ect since left military right deployment  mental hospitals rating va issues day goes life think redflag stooping much hurt keep feeling bay time today day afraidish feel confident try attempt life tonight  sure mood getting worse every minute passes trying figure call help things consider this last time made call help mental ward topeka ks many months muuuuch longer average stay want go again many reasons one want bring bc nasty catch  understand spend days month ward it loose disability month homeless again option swore last time matter what even day ever homeless again deserve this so said reluctant ask help bc feel almost signing life away make little money va anything would fall financial hiccup would crush life know do want stop pain want old life back miss me
struggled ptsd depression physical pain hate fear ect ect ect since left military right deployment mental hospitals rating va issues day goes life think redflag stooping much hurt keep feeling bay time today day afraidish feel confident try attempt life tonight sure mood getting worse every minute passes trying figure call help things consider this last time made call help mental ward topeka ks many months muuuuch longer average stay want go again many reasons one want bring bc nasty catch understand spend days month ward it loose disability month homeless again option swore last time matter what even day ever homeless again deserve this so said reluctant ask help bc feel almost signing life away make little money va anything would fall financial hiccup would crush life know do want stop pain want old life back miss me
luchado ptsd depresión dolor físico odio miedo ect ect ect desde izquierda militar derecha despliegue hospitales mentales clasificación va problemas día va vida pensar rojo bandera rebajarse mucho dolor seguir sintiendo bahía tiempo hoy día temible sentirse confiado intentar intento vida esta noche seguro estado de ánimo empeorar cada minuto pasa tratando figura llamada ayuda cosas considerar esta última vez hecho llamada ayuda sala mental topeka ks muchos meses muuuuch más largo promedio estancia querer ir de nuevo muchas razones uno quiere traer bc desagradable captura entender pasar días medical discapacitado mes suelto sin hogar de nuevo opción juró la última vez importa lo que incluso día siempre sin hogar otra vez merece esto dijo renuente pedir ayuda bc sentir casi la firma de la vida hacer poco dinero va cualquier cosa caería hipo financiero saber si quiere detener dolor quiero vieja vida volver me echa de menos