suicidal also particularly want live im pretty sure heart attack yesterdayso ive struggled thoughts redflag since kid ive strongly convinced want kill myself number reasons im issues figuring think recent events im currently selfemployed uninsured uninsured part stupid know think makes too much difference here given feel this running errand motorcycle yesterday started feeling uncomfortable  particular chest feeling tight started feeling weak tried ignore first pretty soon felt like stop get water would pass out pulled fast food place ordered fries got water bites several cups water felt bit better minutes later wanted lay  vomit went outside walked nearby parking lot hopefully people wouldnt see me laid pavement threw bit later left arm went numb kinda suspected going point phone told even wasnt heart attack needed go hospital right now heh looked much heart attack costs decided call  figured that super pathetic way place die im ok letting go here andafter hour felt ok today felt tired tried going walk chest hurt again head back home im pretty sure survived heart attack yesterday im wrong relatively fine still obviously right thing go doctor get checked out im that heart isnt halfdead thats great really is id rather die face rest life financial ruin guess im struggling figure think this do seems like bunch things think im die even maybe almost died yesterday  even heart attack  could still also probably live years dont want scare people talking dying also dont want gone unexpectedly opportunity say goodbye make arrangements do
suicidal also particularly want liveim pretty sureheart attack yesterdaysoive struggled thoughts redflag since kid ive strongly convinced want kill myself number reasons im issues figuring think recent events im currently selfemployed uninsured uninsured part stupid know think makes too much difference here given feel this running errand motorcycle yesterday started feeling uncomfortable particular chest feeling tight started feeling weak tried ignore first pretty soon felt like stop get water would pass out pulled fast food place ordered fries got water bites several cups water felt bit better minutes later wanted lay vomit went outside walked nearby parking lot hopefully people wouldnt see me laid pavement threw bit later left arm went numb kinda suspected going point phone told even wasnt heart attack needed go hospital right now heh looked much heart attack costs decided call figured that super pathetic way place dieim ok letting go here andafter hour felt ok today felt tired tried going walk chest hurt again head back home im pretty sure survived heart attack yesterday im wrong relatively fine still obviously right thing go doctor get checked out im that heart isnt halfdead thats great really is id rather die face rest life financial ruin guess im struggling figure think this do seems like bunch things think im die even maybe almost died yesterdayeven heart attack could still also probably live years dont want scare people talking dying also dont want goneunexpectedly opportunity say goodbye make arrangements do
suicidas también particularmente quieren liveim bastante seguro ataque al corazón ayersoive pensamientos luchados bandera roja ya niño ve fuertemente convencido querer matarme número razones im problemas pensar eventos recientes im actualmente autónomo no asegurado parte estúpido saber pensar hace demasiada diferencia aquí dado sentir esta carrera motocicleta ayer comenzó a sentirse incómodo particular pecho sentirse apretado comenzó a sentirse débil intentó ignorar primero muy pronto se sintió como parar conseguir agua se pasaría tirado comida rápida lugar pedido patatas fritas tienen picaduras de agua varias tazas agua se sentía un poco mejor minutos después quería lay vomito salió caminando cerca estacionamiento espero que la gente no me vería pavimento tendido tiró poco más tarde brazo izquierdo se entumeció un poco sospechado ir punto teléfono dijo incluso no era necesario ataque al corazón hospital en este momento heh parecía mucho ataque al corazón costos decididos llamada pensó que super patético lugar dieim ok dejar ir aquí y después hora se sintió bien hoy se sintió cansado tratar de caminar pecho herido de nuevo casa