quick diary someone might depressioni dont really expect people even ready this quick diary happened today pm rn im cafeteria college im first semi panick attack think im fuck up hate life even though lot better lot people im fuck up singlehandedly fucked life think point actually see future nobody job college drop out one around me friends family wrongdoings dont ever cry dont think im physically capable so ive felt like absolute shit tears cant come out im sitting table eyes starting water dont want let out reason im panic attack missed final exam important class semester taking two classes im fucking idiot thats classes take since ive failed prerequisites get major courses pass bullshit class semester important class math im failing hard im depressed piece shit missed class month literally two classes im failing this fuck wrong me hate much havent even studied final exam which ive missed thought going wednesday morning going cram tf go take exam even im failing anyways no im typing stupid note reason called professor three times obviously hes office didnt pick up going email right now fucked obviously though oh im adderall thought today going study ass exam also high xanax backpack later tonight go bed say im fuck up mean im fuck up friends family dont know anything im pretty sure im kicked college semester find obviously probably rather die wait happen know told since beginning fuck that never put situation parents always given support world everything literally best parents world love family love close friends one knows im going through ive many opportunities change better always seem throw away hate much dont know depression is dont know im fuck up  blow face soon im afraid that though best thing thing tell parents myself cant imagine heartbroken be would worst letdown history cant them would never ever even consider killing myself never died reason wouldnt mind thats hard say or type even though dont actually wish ever happen me wouldnt suck reason spontaneously dying would suck wouldnt want family suffer like that love much them much would never hurt myself think im much pussy anyways would hate randomly die pain id inflict others wouldnt suck me think way id happy really happy way finally feel anything tried xanax first time last night smoke little pen love smoking weed makes forget everything sometimes watch comedy movie laugh block world laugh movie whatever well xanax something else laid bed floated earth typed realize stupid ridiculous sounds read thing ill probably realize doesnt even make sense now thats im going describe it floated earth bedroom lights laid bed blanket literally floated earth one thing mind meditating mind body blank like eyeballs floating darkness see dark room with tv playing  jump street yeah movie playing getting sleepy next thing knew from remember right now turning alarm set am wasnt sitting watching movie laying bed normally sleep xbox tv off cant remember happened really guess thing people usually black forget happened took small dosage though wasnt expecting happen anyway dont know got sidetracked whats going on yeah entire life fucked even crazier think fact worse gunna be still find im kicked school still tell parents everything maybe drug stuff son failure yeah guess im really panicky anymore feel bit calm now typed heart rate started going feel like might pass again anyway life today actually  pm now lmao im embarrassing emailed professor yet friend college library im cafeteria told earlier today study together im head pretend like im happy okay nothing happening dont actually hate every aspect literally failing every aspect life thats fucking crazy really me fault im fucking loser anyways ive now im going go pee friend study math final already missed maybe next diary note streets make far thats joke yeah bye real quick want point fact knew going happen last year even knew kept way being would position yet continued almost like asked this like wanted this didnt stop myself dont know whatever late start giving shit life anymore obviously do bye sorry long didnt realize long stopped typing dont know posted here did yeah ask questions remind stupid want list much hate could go forever
quick diary someone might depressioni dont really expect people even ready this quick diary happened today pm rn im cafeteria collegeim first semi panick attack think im fuck up hate life even though lot better lot people im fuck up singlehandedly fucked life think point actually see future nobody job college drop out one around me friends family wrongdoings dont ever cry dont think im physically capable so ive felt like absolute shit tears cant come out im sitting table eyes starting water dont want let out reasonim panic attack missed final exam important class semester taking two classes im fucking idiot thats classes take since ive failed prerequisites get major courses pass bullshit class semester important class math im failing hard im depressed piece shit missed class month literally two classes im failing this fuck wrong me hate much havent even studied final exam which ive missed thought going wednesday morning going cram tf go take exam even im failinganywaysno im typing stupid note reason called professor three times obviously hes office didnt pick up going email right now fucked obviously though oh im adderall thought today going study ass exam also high xanax backpack later tonight go bed say im fuck up mean im fuck up friends family dont know anything im pretty sure im kicked college semester find obviously probably rather die wait happen know told since beginning fuck that never put situation parents always given support world everything literally best parents world love family love close friends one knows im going through ive many opportunities change better always seem throw away hate much dont know depression is dont know im fuck up blow face soon im afraid that though best thing thing tell parents myself cant imagine heartbroken be would worst letdown history cant them would never ever even consider killing myself never died reason wouldnt mind thats hard say or type even though dont actually wish ever happen me wouldnt suck reason spontaneously dying would suck wouldnt want family suffer like that love much them much would never hurt myself think im much pussy anyways would hate randomly die pain id inflict others wouldnt suck me think way id happy really happy way finally feel anything tried xanax first time last night smoke little pen love smoking weed makes forget everything sometimes watch comedy movie laugh block world laugh movie whatever well xanax something else laid bed floated earth typed realize stupid ridiculous sounds read thing ill probably realize doesnt even make sense now thats im going describe it floated earth bedroom lights laid bed blanket literally floated earth one thing mind meditating mind body blank like eyeballs floating darkness see dark room with tv playing jump streetyeah movie playing getting sleepy next thing knew from remember right now turning alarm set am wasnt sitting watching movie laying bed normally sleep xbox tv off cant remember happened really guess thing people usually black forget happened took small dosage though wasnt expecting happen anyway dont know got sidetracked whats going onyeah entire life fucked even crazier think fact worse gunna be still find im kicked school still tell parents everything maybe drug stuff son failureyeah guess im really panicky anymore feel bit calmnow typed heart rate started going feel like might pass again anyway life today actually pm now lmao im embarrassing emailed professor yet friend college library im cafeteria told earlier today study together im head pretend like im happyokay nothing happening dont actually hate every aspect literally failing every aspect life thats fucking crazy really me fault im fucking loseranyways ive now im going go pee friend study math final already missed maybe next diary note streets make far thats jokeyeah bye real quick want point fact knew going happen last year even knew kept way being would position yet continued almost like asked this like wanted this didnt stop myself dont know whatever late start giving shit life anymore obviously do bye sorry long didnt realize long stopped typing dont know posted heredid yeah ask questions remind stupid want list much hate could go forever
Diario rápido alguien podría depresión no realmente esperar gente incluso listo este diario rápido sucedió hoy pm rn im cafetería universidad primer ataque semi pánico pensar i mierda odio vida incluso aunque mucho mejor gente im mierda sin ayuda follada vida pensar punto realmente ver futuro nadie trabajo universidad abandonar uno alrededor de mí amigos familia males nunca llorar no creo que soy físicamente capaz tan live se sentía como mierda lágrimas no puede salir im sentado mesa ojos comenzar agua no quiero dejar salir razón pánico ataque perdido examen final importante semestre tomar dos clases im maldito idiota que las clases tomar desde ive fallidas prerrequisitos obtener cursos mayores mierda clase semestre importante clase matemáticas im fracaso duro im deprimido pieza mierda faltado clase mes literalmente dos clases im fracaso este mal me odio mucho havet incluso estudiar examen final que he perdido pensamiento ir miércoles por la mañana va cram tf ir examen incluso im failpanywaysno im escribir estúpida nota razón llamada profesor tres veces obviamente hes oficina no recoger correo electrónico derecho ahora follado obviamente aunque