brother killed last year want thing nowhe lifelong depression i im early s female insane amount loss pain particularly last years recent loss friend thought would one person would always me wasnt gone without even goodbye ive tried couple times reach out apologise utterly cut off knew everything me cant see meeting anyone else depressed withdrawn would able trust anyone else anyway debilitating chronic disease incurable going get better ive already enough hopsital appointments tests pain etc last five lifetimes want more also desperately desperately desperately lonely despite absolutely lovely female friend scared ultimately driving away one day too everyone else put simply nothing left live for im  mental pain nearly time ive tried   different antidepressants years none worked longer weeks  months absolute most left worse state began them interest trying antidepressants therapy unaffordable dilemma this desperately want end pain cannot go like much longer  cant want put parents second redflag would swap places dead brother nanoseconds he may thank that give shit stuck special kind hell want wait parents pass elderly could still another  years way hold long
brother killed last year want thing nowhe lifelong depression i im early s female insane amount loss pain particularly last years recent loss friend thought would one person would always me wasnt gone without even goodbye ive tried couple times reach out apologise utterly cut off knew everything me cant see meeting anyone else depressed withdrawn would able trust anyone else anyway debilitating chronic disease incurable going get better ive already enough hopsital appointments tests pain etc last five lifetimes want more also desperately desperately desperately lonely despite absolutely lovely female friend scared ultimately driving away one day too everyone else put simply nothing left live for im mental pain nearly time ive tried different antidepressants years none worked longer weeks months absolute most left worse state began them interest trying antidepressants therapy unaffordable dilemma this desperately want end pain cannot go like much longer cant want put parents second redflag would swap places dead brother nanoseconds he may thank that give shit stuck special kind hell want wait parents pass elderly could still another years way hold long
hermano asesinado el año pasado quiero lo que ahora la depresión de toda la vida i im temprana mujer loco pérdida dolor cantidad particularmente los últimos años reciente pérdida amigo pensó que una persona siempre me había ido sin incluso adiós ive probado par de veces llegar disculparse totalmente cortado sabía todo lo que no puedo ver conocer a alguien más deprimido retirado podría confiar en cualquier otra enfermedad crónica debilitante incurable va a mejorar ya bastante ive suficientes citas hopsital pruebas dolor etc últimos cinco vidas quieren más desesperadamente desesperadamente solo a pesar de absolutamente encantadora amiga asustada finalmente conducir un día también todos los demás poner simplemente nada que quede vivo para el dolor mental casi tiempo ive probado diferentes antidepresivos años ninguno trabajó más largo semanas absoluto la mayoría de estado peor comenzó interés tratar de antidepresivos terapia inasequible dilema este extremo desesperadamente quiere dolor no puede ir como mucho más tiempo no puede querer poner los padres segundo Redflag cambiar lugares muertos hermano nanosegundos él puede agradecer que dar mierda pegado tipo infierno quiere esperar padres ancianos podrían pasar otro año más