sabotaged academically want diemy school work far biggest problem right now immediate one slept night class  hours im failing classes senior year weeks behind every single one classes done multiple projects tests tried catching looking fucked am making feel discouraged want give again truth loathed years feel like ive died inside used well school ive fell behind partially due numbness partially feel like deserve well so sabotaged myself now slowly realizing graduate even fucked would mean ive wasted years moms life buying school supplies driving school honestly want kill myself tried one two summers ago got scared last minute told anyone burden many ways really cherry top wanted die since  cant explain teachers get family involved whole fucking shit show another problem longer even focus on understand school work swear god brain shrunken something nothing sticks anymore like good spending hours nothing worrying finding reasons hate myself literally know way dying fault know do want get back regular suffering without top point
sabotaged academically want diemy school work far biggest problem right now immediate one slept night class hours im failing classes senior year weeks behind every single one classes done multiple projects tests tried catching looking fucked am making feel discouraged want give again truth loathed years feel like ive died inside used well schoolive fell behind partially due numbness partially feel like deserve well so sabotaged myself now slowly realizing graduate even fucked would mean ive wasted years moms life buying school supplies driving school honestly want kill myself tried one two summers ago got scared last minute told anyone burden many ways really cherry top wanted die since cant explain teachers get family involved whole fucking shit show another problem longer even focus on understand school work swear god brain shrunken something nothing sticks anymore like good spending hours nothing worrying finding reasons hate myself literally know way dying fault know do want get back regular suffering without top point
Saboteado académicamente quiere morir mi trabajo escolar mucho mayor problema ahora mismo inmediato una noche dormida horas de clase im fracaso clases último año semanas detrás de cada una de las clases hecho múltiples proyectos pruebas intentadas capturando follada estoy haciendo sentir desanimado querer dar de nuevo verdad año odiado sentir como ive murió dentro usado bien escolar cayó parcialmente debido a entumecimiento parcialmente me siento como merecer tan saboteado ahora poco a poco realización graduado incluso jodido significaría vida desperdiciado años mamás comprando material escolar conducir escuela honestamente quiero matarme probado hace dos veranos se asustó hace último minuto le dijo a alguien carga muchas maneras realmente cereza top quería morir ya no puedo explicar los profesores se involucran toda la mierda show otro problema más tiempo incluso centrarse en entender trabajo escolar jura dios cerebro encogido algo nada se pega más como buenas horas de gasto nada preocupante encontrar razones odio literalmente saber cómo morir culpa saber quieren volver sufrimiento regular sin punto superior