life stressful hard time living itwishing dead without courage go recurring theme life  peaks now  high school young stupid think plan tried hold breath sleep lot blankets hopes id manage asphyxiate myself  learned gf pregnant yeah say im shitty human being happen way wanted happen surprise managed live it night actually rolled good  minutes incoming traffic lane highway plain didnt care  minutes many plans  right now gf feeling hot  kids wants quit job become stay home parent above potential losing job coming month able find new job trying manage raise  kids financial stress working wish could stand up take measures manage emotions cant get angry try let take kids yes sometimes smallest thing make overreact feel like shit cant make anyone happy know people care thing know push people away im even trying push kids away even good days make insanely happy many plans falling asleep garage cars working haning balcony hammer head u til pass out even roof workplace always unlocked never told anyone never courage go through im scared kids im scared gf parents holy fuck want die
life stressful hard time living itwishing dead without courage go recurring theme life peaks now high school young stupid think plan tried hold breath sleep lot blankets hopes id manage asphyxiate myself learned gf pregnantyeah say im shitty human being happen way wanted happen surprise managed live it night actually rolled good minutes incoming traffic lane highway plain didnt care minutes many plans right now gf feeling hot kids wants quit job become stay home parent above potential losing job coming month able find new job trying manage raise kids financial stress working wish could stand up take measures manage emotions cant get angry try let take kidsyes sometimes smallest thing make overreact feel like shit cant make anyone happy know people care thing know push people away im even trying push kids away even good days make insanely happy many plans falling asleep garage cars working haning balcony hammer head u til pass out even roof workplace always unlocked never told anyone never courage go through im scared kidsim scared gf parents holy fuck want die
vida estresante tiempo duro vivir itwishing muerto sin coraje ir recurrente temas picos de la vida ahora escuela secundaria joven estúpido pensar plan tratado mantener el aliento mantas sueño lote esperanzas id manejar asfixiado yo mismo aprendido gf embarazadayeah decir im mierda ser humano suceder manera deseada suceder sorpresa gestionado vivir noche en realidad rodado buenos minutos entrada tráfico carril carretera llanura no les importa minutos muchos planes en este momento gf sentir niños calientes quieren dejar de trabajar convertirse en hogar padre por encima de potencial perder trabajo próximo mes capaz de encontrar nuevo trabajo tratando de gestionar criar niños estrés financiero trabajo deseo podría tomar medidas manejar emociones no se enfada tratar de dejar llevar niñossí a veces más pequeña hacer sentir exageradamente sentir como la mierda no puede hacer que nadie feliz saber gente cuidado cosa saber empujar a la gente lejos im incluso tratar de empujar a los niños lejos incluso días locos feliz muchos planes quedarse dormido coche coche coche que trabaja haning balcón martillo cabeza u hasta pasar incluso techo lugar de trabajo nunca se le dijo a nadie valor ir a través de im asustado niñosim miedo gf padres santo mierda querer morir