want diei really see point living anymore im going spend rest life alone friendless ill go work day put good face keep moving career along  career im really suited  go home empty house waste time fall asleep friends see regularly long distance friends live parents im looking houses right thats do financially responsible thing think could live another year parents im waste space resources theres point alive anymore im disappointment parents even admit themselves im burden world even want risk passing fucked brain chemistry children probably have ive tried exerciise that helped bit ended back here something everything  choices actions  pretty much determined genetics past im pretty much doomed fail time might try get healthy eeod im lost cause ive watching reading lot horror stuff lately guess because kind wish could get killed monster ghost whatever itd make things easier probably easier family too im probably going kill weeks maybe sleeping pills itd kind nice go sleep never wake up im sorry friends family deal awkward annoying depressing alloftheabove bullshit me im sorry mom amp dad im sorry ali  good friends good family ok without me probably better even never even nice except big sister college sorry incoherent ramblings im halfasleep moment im going try get rest another week work
want diei really see point living anymore im going spend rest life alone friendless ill go work day put good face keep moving career along careerim really suited go home empty house waste time fall asleep friends see regularly long distance friends live parents im looking housesright thats do financially responsible thing think could live another year parents im waste space resources theres point alive anymore im disappointment parents even admit themselves im burden world even want risk passing fucked brain chemistry children probably have ive tried exerciise that helped bit ended back here something everything choices actions pretty much determined genetics past im pretty much doomed fail time might try get healthy eeodim lost cause ive watching reading lot horror stuff lately guess because kind wish could get killed monster ghost whatever itd make things easier probably easier family too im probably going kill weeks maybe sleeping pills itd kind nice go sleep never wake up im sorry friends family deal awkward annoying depressing alloftheabove bullshit meim sorrymom amp dad im sorry ali good friends good family ok without me probably better even never even nice except big sister college sorry incoherent ramblings im halfasleepmoment im going try get rest another week work
Quiero diei realmente ver punto de vida más voy a pasar la vida de descanso solo friendless mal ir trabajo día poner buena cara seguir moviéndose carrera a lo largo de carreraim realmente adecuado ir casa vacía pérdida de tiempo amigos ver regularmente amigos de larga distancia vivir padres im buscando casas derecha eso hace cosa financieramente responsable pensar podría vivir otro año padres im desperdicio espacio recursos theres punto vivo más im decepción padres incluso admitirse im mundo carga incluso quieren riesgo pasar jodido cerebro química niños probablemente han tratado de ive ejercicio que ayudó poco terminó aquí algo todas las decisiones acciones genéticas bastante determinadas pasado im casi condenado fracaso tiempo podría tratar de conseguir sano eeodim perdido causa ive ver leer mucho horror cosas últimamente adivinar porque amable deseo podría ser asesinado monstruo fantasma lo que sea que haría las cosas más fáciles probablemente familia también im probablemente va a matar semanas tal vez dormir píldoras tipo agradable dormir nunca despertar im lo siento amigos familia trato incómodo molesto deprisión todo el above mierda meim lamentom amp papá