think need type outcurrently sitting car parking lot one hour stay least one hour going home told boyfriend id gone couple hours let house himself got fight yesterday didnt come bed am assumed id asleep morning stayed upstairs whole time pretty much avoid me left give space isnt major problem hurtful isolating zero friends family lives  miles away rarely reach anymore kind feels like one whole solution fight would apologizing happy welcoming again cant that issues guess want come me dont want let leave did didnt care probably prefers gone again isnt major problem think cherry top everything else ive thinking killing seriously week now thoughts life usually serious though still exhausting functional person functional cant anything life bare minimum simply dont energy really tired living pain fear every single day tried pull bootstraps make life better end cant ive tried medication best makes numb doesnt really fix anything ive tried therapy good things end still solves nothing so started thanksgiving boyfriends family bad toothache lo behold sisterinlaw nurse decided call pain meds tbh would happy ibuprofen big bottle tramadol sitting drawer never took im kind antimedicine felt like would knock out cant quit thinking giving taking whole bottle pills researched actually causes lot deaths every year overdoses think could work real option issue is doesnt theres chance could end coma give brain damage heart damage dont want fuck life even more but losing endurance planet almost  years now really sucks life fun happy good so difficult everyone hurts you everyone selfish included good place think would prefer nothingness
think need type outcurrently sitting car parking lot one hour stay least one hour going home told boyfriend id gone couple hours let house himself got fight yesterday didnt come bed am assumed id asleep morning stayed upstairs whole time pretty much avoid me left give space isnt major problem hurtful isolating zero friends family lives miles away rarely reach anymore kind feels like one whole solution fight would apologizing happy welcoming again cant that issues guess want come me dont want let leave did didnt care probably prefers gone again isnt major problem think cherry top everything else ive thinking killing seriously week now thoughts life usually serious though still exhausting functional person functional cant anything life bare minimum simply dont energy really tired living pain fear every single day tried pull bootstraps make life better end cant ive tried medication best makes numb doesnt really fix anything ive tried therapy good things end still solves nothing so started thanksgiving boyfriends family bad toothache lo behold sisterinlaw nurse decided call pain meds tbh would happy ibuprofen big bottle tramadol sitting drawer never took im kind antimedicine felt like would knock out cant quit thinking giving taking whole bottle pills researched actually causes lot deaths every year overdoses think could work real option issue is doesnt theres chance could end coma give brain damage heart damage dont want fuck life even more but losing endurance planet almost years now really sucks life fun happy goodso difficult everyone hurts you everyone selfish included good place think would prefer nothingness
Creo que el tipo de necesidad actualmente sentado estacionamiento de coches una hora estancia menos de una hora ir a casa le dijo novio id ido un par de horas dejar casa tuvo pelea ayer didt venir cama asumí id dormir mañana se quedó arriba todo el tiempo prácticamente evitar me izquierda dar espacio ist mayor problema aislamiento hiriente cero amigos vida familiar millas más lejos llegar más amable se siente como una solución completa lucha se disculparía feliz bienvenida otra vez cant que los problemas adivinan quieren venir no quiero dejar salir no me importa probablemente prefiere irse otra vez isnt mayor problema pensar cereza top todo lo demás vida pensamiento matar seriamente semana ahora pensamientos vida generalmente serio aunque todavía agotador persona funcional cant cualquier cosa vida desnuda mínimo simplemente dont energía realmente cansado dolor miedo cada día probado tirar de las correas hacer la vida mejor final cant ive probado medicación mejor hace entumecimiento dont realmente fijar cualquier cosa ive probado terapia buenas cosas terminan todavía resuelve nada tan comenzó acción de gracias novios familia mal dentíbulo lo heather help help help help meds tbh