soul mateim  years old nearing  ive praying death year now always felt like never good enough older brother always better everything parents seemed love always felt like dissapointment got uni met girl fell madly love get insanely well would anything her person makes feel like normal person im away feels like theres nothing left me completes makes feel whole boyfriend really nice guy would get really well way treats makes despise him always late everything unorganized past laughable asked go meal old friends ex recently got engaged girl love want go persisted agreed blew friends go him tells her long shift work go something get known weeks understandably angry went home got pjs meal family finished phoned told meal asked was phone comforting her upset angry said would see evening turned turned  hours later said would said apologise would take breakfast late too still forgave him also took girl wanted sleep before see girl loves favourite play theatre understandably upset this somehow convinced unreasonable im always one comfort boyfriend whatever wants everything im left nothing ive desire death met girl found felt human since ive comforted boyfriend many times desire death never greater reason write now help found felt incredibly sad promised would stay around long needed boyfriend visiting since arrived barely says word feel use finally run out stuck girl described worst year life often referred rock always tried hardest make happy put smile face boyfriend long distance relationship btw tried make situation people made feel awful better made worse often forgets consider hard tried last year her continually mentions boyfriend perfect glandular fever thats hard says looked grim glandular fever saw pictures still looked beautiful glorifies everything feel like im becoming worth less less seem need anymore feel getting closer closer redflag even boss work realised something up know do want end
soul mateim years old nearing ive praying death year now always felt like never good enough older brother always better everything parents seemed love always felt like dissapointment got uni met girl fell madly love get insanely well would anything her person makes feel like normal person im away feels like theres nothing left me completes makes feel whole boyfriend really nice guy would get really well way treats makes despise him always late everything unorganized past laughable asked go meal old friends ex recently got engaged girl love want go persisted agreed blew friends go him tells her long shift work go something get known weeks understandably angry went home got pjs meal family finished phoned told meal asked was phone comforting her upset angry said would see evening turned turned hours later said would said apologise would take breakfast late too still forgave him also took girl wanted sleep before see girl loves favourite play theatre understandably upset this somehow convinced unreasonableim always one comfort boyfriend whatever wants everything im left nothing ive desire death met girl found felt human since ive comforted boyfriend many times desire death never greater reason write now help found felt incredibly sad promised would stay around long needed boyfriend visiting since arrived barely says word feel use finally run out stuck girl described worst year life often referred rock always tried hardest make happy put smile face boyfriend long distance relationship btw tried make situation people made feel awful better made worse often forgets consider hard tried last year her continually mentions boyfriend perfect glandular fever thats hard says looked grim glandular fever saw pictures still looked beautiful glorifies everything feel like im becoming worth less less seem need anymore feel getting closer closer redflag even boss work realised something up know do want end
Soul mateim años de edad cerca de vivir orando muerte año ahora siempre se sentía como nunca lo suficientemente bueno hermano mayor siempre mejor todo los padres parecían amor siempre se sentían como disapointment uni met girl cay locamente amor conseguir locamente bien cualquier cosa que su persona hace sentir como persona normal im lejos se siente como no hay nada me completa hace sentir todo novio realmente buen chico conseguiría muy bien go go go go go siempre tarde todo no organizado pasado risible preguntado go go amigos ex novia novia novia novia novia novia novia persistente go go le dice su trabajo largo turno go algo conocido semanas comprensiblemente enojado ir a casa consiguió pjs comida familia terminó telefoneó dijo comida preguntó era teléfono consolando su enojado enojado dijo que la tarde se volvió vuelta horas después dijo que disculparía tomar desayuno tarde demasiado aún así lo perdonó también se llevó chica quería dormir antes de ver chica ama juego favorito teatro comprensiblemente molesto este de alguna manera convencido razonable novio consuelo lo que quiere todo im quiero nada vida vida vida vida vida vida muerte encontró chica se sintió humano desde novio muchas veces deseo vida confortado muerte