lost live january still cant find reason continuei gonna post feel ashamed feeling way cant find continue really wanna end all tried couple weeks ago pills woke couple hours later puke out cant even right  years life never done wanted do mostly idiotic decisions ive made partly anytime try something like someone always something negative say bring down wanna play video games oh thats waste time wanna writer theres money that want smoke weed stay home relax oh never go never stop depressed sick tired living life job least live with family loves friends support me cant stop feeling like waste time never achieve things want life ive tried happy ive tried go enjoy people enjoy ive tried trying belong group like minded people nothing helped beyond initial high trying something new im lose job barely get bed mornings im tired everything ashamed even though good life cant find reason continue it currently thinking killing thanks antidepressants anxiety pills im also opposed idea falling roof building work getting run train full disclosure whole trigger comes fact interested girl work became friends saw actually interested someone else problem her still good friend problem stems fact every time want something never good enough pretty enough social enough tldr others would call good life feel like things want feel worthy good things general im loser
lost live january still cant find reason continuei gonna post feel ashamed feeling way cant find continue really wanna end all tried couple weeks ago pills woke couple hours later puke out cant even right years life never done wanted do mostly idiotic decisions ive made partly anytime try something like someone always something negative say bring down wanna play video gamesoh thats waste time wanna writer theres money that want smoke weed stay home relax oh never go never stop depressed sick tired living life job least live with family loves friends support me cant stop feeling like waste time never achieve things want life ive tried happy ive tried go enjoy people enjoy ive tried trying belong group like minded people nothing helped beyond initial high trying something new im lose job barely get bed mornings im tired everything ashamed even though good life cant find reason continue it currently thinking killing thanks antidepressants anxiety pills im also opposed idea falling roof building work getting run train full disclosure whole trigger comes fact interested girl work became friends saw actually interested someone else problem her still good friend problem stems fact every time want something never good enough pretty enough social enough tldr others would call good life feel like things want feel worthy good things general im loser
perdido vivo enero todavía no puede encontrar la razón continui va a post sensación de vergüenza manera cant encontrar continuar realmente querer terminar todo lo probado hace un par de semanas píldoras despertó un par de horas más tarde vomitar cant incluso derecho años la vida nunca hecho quería hacer decisiones idioteces mayormente ive hecho en parte en cualquier momento intentar algo como alguien siempre algo negativo decir threen down quiere jugar videojuegosoh que pierde el tiempo querer escritor hay dinero que quiere fumar hierba quedarse en casa relajarse