really know im posting hereits throwaway account really struggling know theory things dosay right care totally alone recently friend tell loved cut out top ongoing problems anyone turn to one talk nothing with vivid memories previous trauma im waiting able see psych thats  weeks away steady downhill months know feelings wholly mine feel like giving truely care anything anymore im sick cycle numbness intense feelings im sick feelings abandoned used tossed aside quit studies taken leave work feel guilty many work now part wants leave everything behind know left would easy excuse cover intent want wake anymore mostly want continue occasionally activly want finish it im self destructive best times much once sick going one fight next remember last time happy longer distraction lasted severely neglecting physical health lately drink alcohol essentially living coffee havent slept   hours months even coffee part hoping something health wise give soon decision hands easier around me
really know im posting hereits throwaway account really struggling know theory things dosay right care totally alone recently friend tell loved cut out top ongoing problems anyone turn to one talk nothing with vivid memories previous trauma im waiting able see psych thats weeks away steady downhill months know feelings wholly mine feel like giving truely care anything anymore im sick cycle numbness intense feelings im sick feelings abandoned used tossed aside quit studies taken leave work feel guilty many work now part wants leave everything behind know left would easy excuse cover intent want wake anymore mostly want continue occasionally activly want finish it im self destructive best times much once sick going one fight next remember last time happy longer distraction lasted severely neglecting physical health lately drink alcohol essentially living coffee havent slept hours months even coffee part hoping something health wise give soon decision hands easier around me
realmente sé im publicar aquí su cuenta de desecho realmente luchando saber teoría cosas hacer bien cuidado totalmente solo recientemente amigo le dicen amor corte superior problemas en curso cualquiera se convierte en una conversación nada con recuerdos vívidos trauma anterior im esperar capaz ver psych que semanas de distancia constante cuesta abajo meses saber sentimientos totalmente mío se siente como dar verdadero cuidado cualquier cosa más im ciclo enfermo entumecimiento intenso sentimientos im enfermo sentimientos abandonados acostumbrados dejados a un lado estudios tomados dejar el trabajo se siente culpable muchos trabajo ahora parte quiere dejar todo lo que se sabe izquierda excusa fácil excusa intención querer despertarse más quiere continuar ocasionalmente querer terminarse im autodestructivo mejores veces mucho una vez enfermo ir una pelea siguiente recordar la última vez feliz más distracción duró gravemente descuidando la salud física últimamente beber alcohol vivir café haber dormido horas incluso parte de café esperar algo de salud sabio dar pronto manos de decisión más fácil alrededor de mí