ive set datethe day th birthday almost  months away ive planned trip abroad friends then im starting new better job im going meeting therapist soon words given every opportunity change mind then know im posting here guess wanted tell story cant really talk redflag people know weirds out enough trouble keeping friends without baggage so goes estranged parents awful people even awful parents standards made deeply unhappy growing decided remove life years ago alone friendships superficial longterm girlfriends never worked out love once ended badly spontaneously developed chronic medical issues past year body starting break down spent last decade trying improve myself made progress become increasingly clear best self great im depressed symptoms im unhappy cant fixed im likely ever life want gave real honest shot im tired want done it so one day th birthday going kill myself long long time coming delayed years hope think im finally ready go thanks reading
ive set datethe day th birthday almost months away ive planned trip abroad friends then im starting new better job im going meeting therapist soon words given every opportunity change mind then know im posting here guess wanted tell story cant really talk redflag people know weirds out enough trouble keeping friends without baggage so goes estranged parents awful people even awful parents standards made deeply unhappy growing decided remove life years ago alone friendships superficial longterm girlfriends never worked out love once ended badly spontaneously developed chronic medical issues past year body starting break down spent last decade trying improve myself made progress become increasingly clear best self great im depressed symptoms im unhappy cant fixed im likely ever life want gave real honest shot im tired want done it so one day th birthday going kill myself long long time coming delayed years hope think im finally ready go thanks reading
ive set datethe day th birth dies any months away ive planed trip foreign friends then im begining new better job im going terapeutic words day every opportunity main main main main main main main standards main profundamente infelice main crowing decide eliminar la vida hace años solo amistades superficiales novias de larga duración nunca trabajaron el amor una vez terminó mal desarrollado espontáneamente problemas médicos crónicos el año pasado cuerpo que comenzó a romperse pasado década tratando de mejorar me hice progreso cada vez más claro mejor se im im deprimido síntomas im infelices no se puede arreglar im probablemente siempre la vida quiere dio real tiro honesto im cansado querer lo hizo así que un día th cumpleaños va a matarme mucho tiempo viene retrasado años esperanza pensar im finalmente listo ir gracias lectura