literally escape brainthis really really really really long one ive always great mentally tried commit redflag several times mostly pills bad times blood loss simply tried coke overdose went maybe  years since teens stuff happened maybe warrantedvalidated felt i dont mean diminish anyone elses feelings  warranted head ended horrible relationship wanted help sort of girlfriend brother committing redflag gave black eye time  excused  somehow ended married despite abusive behaviour changing lost nan complications regular surgery mum  cancer space month mother law who gentlest caring person ive ever known and helped wife less abusive died miss fucking much years finally sense push divorce switched antidepressants fellhad first time seizure possibly new antidepressants brain haemorrhage lost hearing playing musicbandplaying shitty gritty clubs etc everything me made lose sense smelltaste i loved food cooking brain isnt was aside music thing made feel useful writing joking cant spell read well find words easily get stuck part way joke makes people laugh scramble wrong words thats funny itself head injury ive developed epilepsy seizures landed hospital get dizzy nauseous cant leave bed sometimes even get stairs get frequent night terrors ive without headache since three nearly four years ago head injury three years headache headache bad makes want smash face wall genuinely mean literally  theres nothing else pain  despite every sensible pain treatment cant take pain supposed stop childhood home divorce got married early s previously mentioned older woman  supposed stop till found another place  haemorrhage im stuck childhood bedroom incapable anything able contribute anything cant leave cant sleep cant taste cant smell cant hear well struggle understand words conversation alwayshaveanexcruciatingheadache night terrors make sleep rest awful cant help it fall asleep part way work in job im blagging takes long understand im readinghearing wake up desk feeling fucking terrified push day im lucky enough working home dont feel like it genuinely wish seizure would take out way noone feel responsible take cocktail epilepsypain meds four times day every time think miss one skip day time stop breathing indefinitely instead paramedics round inject put mask on dad said reason brother got sectioned psychotic depression seizure kept night depressingly paragraphs took long write ive look spelling spelling literally taken  hours write doesnt even feel real dont even feel real im leaning tablets dont want leeching people shouldnt accommodate someone barely formulate sentence real time im completely lost mentally physically person cant mentally physically function pain specialist told xmany years pain isnt going do do im stuck every sense word youve got way far youre fucking trouper lol know everyones struggling know many people much much much grapple with make feel proud
literally escape brainthis really really really really long one ive always great mentally tried commit redflag several times mostly pills bad times blood loss simply tried coke overdose went maybe years since teens stuff happened maybe warrantedvalidated felt i dont mean diminish anyone elses feelings warranted head ended horrible relationship wanted help sort of girlfriend brother committing redflag gave black eye time excused somehow ended married despite abusive behaviour changing lost nan complications regular surgery mum cancer space month mother law who gentlest caring person ive ever known and helped wife less abusive died miss fucking much years finally sense push divorce switched antidepressants fellhad first time seizure possibly new antidepressants brain haemorrhage lost hearing playing musicbandplaying shitty gritty clubs etc everything me made lose sense smelltaste i loved food cooking brain isnt was aside music thing made feel useful writing joking cant spell read well find words easily get stuck part way joke makes people laugh scramble wrong words thats funny itself head injury ive developed epilepsy seizures landed hospital get dizzy nauseous cant leave bed sometimes even get stairs get frequent night terrors ive without headache since three nearly four years ago head injury three years headache headache bad makes want smash face wall genuinely mean literally theres nothing else pain despite every sensible pain treatment cant take pain supposed stop childhood home divorce got married early s previously mentioned older woman supposed stop till found another place haemorrhage im stuck childhood bedroom incapable anything able contribute anything cant leave cant sleep cant taste cant smell cant hear well struggle understand words conversation alwayshaveanexcruciatingheadache night terrors make sleep rest awful cant help it fall asleep part way work in job im blagging takes long understand im readinghearing wake up desk feeling fucking terrified push day im lucky enough working home dont feel like it genuinely wish seizure would take out way noone feel responsible take cocktail epilepsypain meds four times day every time think miss one skip day time stop breathing indefinitely instead paramedics round inject put mask on dad said reason brother got sectioned psychotic depression seizure kept night depressingly paragraphs took long write ive look spelling spelling literally taken hours write doesnt even feel real dont even feel real im leaning tablets dont want leeching people shouldnt accommodate someone barely formulate sentence real time im completely lost mentally physically person cant mentally physically function pain specialist told xmany years pain isnt going do do im stuck every sense word youve got way far youre fucking trouper lol know everyones struggling know many people much much much grapple with make feel proud
Literalmente escapar del cerebro esto realmente realmente realmente muy largo uno vive siempre grande mentalmente tratado cometer bandera roja varias veces sobre todo píldoras malos tiempos pérdida de sangre simplemente probado sobredosis de coca pasó tal vez años desde adolescentes cosas sucedió tal vez justificados sentía que no significa disminuir cualquier otra persona sentimientos justificados cabeza final horrible relación quería ayuda tipo de novia hermano cometer Redflag dio ojo negro tiempo excusado de alguna manera terminó casado a pesar de comportamiento abusivo cambio pérdida de complicaciones nene cirugía normal mamá cáncer espacio mes madre ley que amable persona cariñosa nunca ha conocido y ayudado esposa menos abusivo murió falta mierda muchos años finalmente sentido empujar divorcio cambio antidepresivos falhhad primera vez crisis posiblemente nuevos antidepresivos cerebro hemorragia pérdida audición música bandplaying mierda clubs etc todo lo que me hizo perder sentido olor sabor a comida cocina cerebro esnt fue aparte música hecho sentir útil escritura broma cant hechizo leer bien encontrar palabras fácilmente se atascó parte broma hace que la gente se ríe mal palabras que sí mismo gracioso lesión en la cabeza