idki happy right now im not cant fun like friends can always feel alone crowded rooms always exclude purpose cant hang multiple people without genuinely wanting kill every single time people much want cut everyone think ever again think general god think much hate thinking worst part friends love much people love much dont even anything sometimes wish kid disappears background im good her mean im partially really good her make friends reason im alive feel bad dying theres nothing keeping going even though love close ones dearly theres nothing life me nothing makes happy nothing makes feel anything really want lock room never talk anyone ever again would nice maybe disappear while self made mental ward get keep goddamn shoelaces miracle havent cut while think again crave guess arm itching scratch doesnt same isnt dumb metaphor actually like that maybe year year finally end all dont think be since im huge pussy really cant people girl dream guess sad thing look forward too looking forward weekend girlfriend six month anniversary hanging friends im literally right now think may start drugs drinking too ive avoiding eighteen years now dont know long hold anymore dont want feel like anymore really cant keep going like this ive like longer remember hard fucking hard maybe world isnt me thats okay right society isnt me im sick trying change everyone tiring everything tiring waking every morning tiring dont know make life less tiring anymore dont dont even want die dont want wake every morning anymore dont want think want thoughtless happy thats want
idki happy right now im not cant fun like friends can always feel alone crowded rooms always exclude purpose cant hang multiple people without genuinely wanting kill every single time people much want cut everyone think ever again think general god think much hate thinking worst part friends love much people love much dont even anything sometimes wish kid disappears background im goodher mean im partially really good her make friends reason im alive feel bad dying theres nothing keeping going even though love close ones dearly theres nothing life me nothing makes happy nothing makes feel anything really want lock room never talk anyone ever again would nice maybe disappear while self made mental ward get keep goddamn shoelaces miracle havent cut while think again crave guess arm itching scratch doesnt same isnt dumb metaphor actually like that maybe year year finally end all dont think be since im huge pussy really cant people girl dream guess sad thing look forward too looking forward weekend girlfriend six month anniversary hanging friends im literally right now think may start drugs drinking too ive avoiding eighteen years now dont know long hold anymore dont want feel like anymore really cant keep going like this ive like longer remember hard fucking hard maybe world isnt me thatsokay right society isnt me im sick trying change everyone tiring everything tiring waking every morning tiring dont know make life less tiring anymore dont dont even want die dont want wake every morning anymore dont want think want thoughtless happy thats want
idki feliz en este momento no puedo divertirme como los amigos siempre pueden sentirse solos habitaciones abarrotadas siempre excluir propósito no puedo colgar a varias personas sin realmente querer matar cada vez que la gente mucho quiere cortar a todos pensar de nuevo pensar en general dios mucho odio pensar peor parte amigos amor mucha gente mucho no lo hacen incluso cualquier cosa a veces deseo niño desaparece fondo im goodher media