realized narcissistic family main reason feel like cant kill myselfi born grew abusive environment abused home family phisically emotionally bullied school harassed street hospital years ago went contact everyone family thats full narcissists except father toxic codependent relationship im one whos aware this heres problem id kill myself father would inevitably tell whole family would give indirectly great great satisfaction feel like war created them like years still manage control letting taking life would make happy want make happy deserve that time simply cant move forward neither life right worth living never worth living ive lot feel like im damaged ever function properly dreams desperately need instant gratification  know get that like abusive family let live life wanted that now finally want give up let kill neither want live life allowed that want kill yourself allowed that
realized narcissistic family main reason feel like cant kill myselfi born grew abusive environment abused home family phisically emotionally bullied school harassed street hospital years ago went contact everyone family thats full narcissists except father toxic codependent relationship im one whos aware this heres problem id kill myself father would inevitably tell whole family would give indirectly great great satisfaction feel like war created them like years still manage control letting taking life would make happy want make happy deserve that time simply cant move forward neither life right worth living never worth living ive lot feel like im damaged ever function properly dreams desperately need instant gratification know get that like abusive family let live life wanted that now finally want give up let kill neither want live life allowed that want kill yourself allowed that
familia narcisista realized familia principal razón se siente como cant kill melfi nacido ambiente abusivo abuso hogar familia phisicamente emocionalmente acosado escuela acosado hospital de la calle hace años se puso en contacto con todos familia que es narcisistas completos excepto padre tóxico codependiente relación im uno que es consciente de este problema heres id matar a mí mismo padre inevitablemente le diría a toda la familia indirectamente gran satisfacción se siente como la guerra creado como años todavía manejar control dejar tomar la vida haría feliz deseo hacer feliz merecer que el tiempo simplemente no puede avanzar ni la vida derecho vale la pena vivir nunca vale la pena vivir mucho sentir como im dañado siempre funciona correctamente sueños desesperadamente necesidad instantánea satisfacción saber obtener que como familia abusivo dejar vivir la vida quería que ahora finalmente quiero dejar de matar ni querer vivir la vida permitido que querer matar se permite que