emotional instabilityim nineteen years old constantly thinking killing myself ive always low shit selfesteem extremely selfloathing compare everyone around me know guys tell biggest problem hardly help it many girls suffer eating disorders domination super skinny girls media opposite problem knowing skin bones guys want nice curves im skinny small boobs butt whatsoever mention fucking weird looking vagina makes want vomit try gain weight goes weird places like arms thighs woman supposed accumulate weight sure guys like smaller bodies most guys age would prefer exciting body hobbies real interests ive tried getting drawing reading writing playing keyboard etc always lose desire continue really quickly ive tried several sports random activities never good anything hardly motivation leave house im driving friends away pretty happy im little miss miserable thing ever truly wanted kill myself reason moms mom died mom ten thing mom ever wanted daughter know would feel like failed parent would immediately give life gave up selfish grateful someone cares much feel resentment fact feel forced continue living want to im sure sound like spoiled brat intentionally screwing life really happy really know last time happy feel terrified surrounding world going happen it absolutely idea want life anything ive wanted major college parents told make money consider something else feels like basically telling need work butt next years get job want work life away never happy go want ill spend rest life debt still never happy understand point meh cherry cake mention last sound like real reason negative thoughts reality going since kid last event made worse dating boy last two years broke month ago always felt like league would wind leaving move on much happier eventually meet someone way better suited him last part yet happen know eventually drives nuts think about know get someone better never immediately smitten anyone else sounds bitter want happy feel like knife chest see happier someone else me like death cab cutie lyrics you better me cant better you ive felt awful everything since middle school seemed like one thing could turn around obviously work facing guaranteed struggle many months come hardly feel capable handling top racing thoughts username augustth planning ending everything summer class finishes right move back home perfect death imagined requires state taking class in however dad leaves new job new state next week leaves mom home deal without him think die even remotely soundly knowing that also would second want blame fall ex bad timing around would wish could end it feel like eventually something change know power change problem know even really want change things since said feel doomed unhappiness later life matter do wanted get chest anyone actually reads ill really appreciate it feel free offer advice although honestly know help another possibly biggest problem pick skin cant seem control it scalp causes lose fair amount hair really noticeable yet im afraid eventually got really bad year first year college ridiculously stressful year meh think it feel like fucking freak worth anyones time
emotional instabilityim nineteen years old constantly thinking killing myself ive always low shit selfesteem extremely selfloathing compare everyone around me know guys tell biggest problem hardly help it many girls suffer eating disorders domination super skinny girls media opposite problem knowing skin bones guys want nice curves im skinny small boobs butt whatsoever mention fuckingweird looking vagina makes want vomit try gain weight goes weird places like arms thighs woman supposed accumulate weight sure guys like smaller bodies most guys age would prefer exciting body hobbies real interests ive tried getting drawing reading writing playing keyboard etc always lose desire continue really quickly ive tried several sports random activities never good anything hardly motivation leave house im driving friends away pretty happy im little miss miserable thing ever truly wanted kill myself reason moms mom died mom ten thing mom ever wanted daughter know would feel like failed parent would immediately give life gave up selfish grateful someone cares much feel resentment fact feel forced continue living want to im sure sound like spoiled brat intentionally screwing life really happy really know last time happy feel terrified surrounding world going happen it absolutely idea want life anything ive wanted major college parents told make money consider something else feels like basically telling need work butt next years get job want work life away never happy go want ill spend rest life debt still never happy understand point meh cherry cake mention last sound like real reason negative thoughts reality going since kid last event made worse dating boy last two years broke month ago always felt like league would wind leaving move on much happier eventually meet someone way better suited him last part yet happen know eventually drives nuts think about know get someone better never immediately smitten anyone else sounds bitter want happy feel like knife chest see happier someone else me like death cab cutie lyrics you better me cant better you ive felt awful everything since middle school seemed like one thing could turn around obviously work facing guaranteed struggle many months come hardly feel capable handling top racing thoughts username augustth planning ending everything summer class finishes right move back home perfect death imagined requires state taking class in however dad leaves new job new state next week leaves mom home deal without him think die even remotely soundly knowing that also would second want blame fall ex bad timing around would wish could end it feel like eventually something change know power change problem know even really want change things since said feel doomed unhappiness later life matter do wanted get chest anyone actually reads ill really appreciate it feel free offer advice although honestly know help another possibly biggest problem pick skin cant seem control it scalp causes lose fair amount hair really noticeable yet im afraid eventually got really bad year first year college ridiculously stressful year meh think it feel like fucking freak worth anyones time
emocional inestabilidadim diecinueve años de edad constantemente pensar matándome a mí mismo ive siempre baja mierda autoestima extrema autoaversión comparar todos a mi alrededor saber chicos decir mayor problema apenas ayudar a muchas niñas sufren trastornos alimenticios dominación chicas super flacas medios de comunicación problema conocer huesos de piel chicos quieren curvas agradables im flacas tetas pequeñas culo cualquier cosa mencionar mierda mirada vagina hace querer vómito tratar de aumentar de peso va lugares raros como brazos muslos mujer supuesto acumular peso seguro chicos como cuerpos más pequeños mayoría chicos edad preferiría excitante cuerpo hobbies intereses reales ive tratado de conseguir dibujo lectura escritura juego teclado etc siempre perder deseo continuar muy rápidamente ive probado varios deportes actividades al azar nunca bueno nada apenas motivación dejar casa im conducir amigos lejos bastante feliz