new years eve im alone again feels inevitableive depressed months meds work little bit stop feeling hopeless theres nights lay bed sob sleep tried asking friends doing one wants spend time obviously ive tried talking one friends it says head perceptions filtered depression change fact want around either fact couple months ago others said theyd come birthday one showed up devastating almost went night acted apologetic think want responsible me cut thanksgiving christmas spent alone im slightly estranged entire family except mother point im hanging solely her made mistake opening depression sounded truly concerned might one person miss me want hurt her im tired hurting myself im tired time everything takes effort know go on im scared im starting scared living more know much endure theres lot going on shitty job debt bad making friends nothing interests more etc already longer thought mentioned im tired think ill go work tomorrow then everyone great time without me ill jump front train od sleeping pills walk lake anything cold take even water doesnt might best mom know sure intentional
new years eve im alone again feels inevitableive depressed months meds work little bit stop feeling hopeless theres nights lay bed sob sleep tried asking friends doing one wants spend time obviously ive tried talking one friends it says head perceptions filtered depression change fact want around either fact couple months ago others said theyd come birthday one showed up devastating almost went night acted apologetic think want responsible me cut thanksgiving christmas spent alone im slightly estranged entire family except mother point im hanging solely her made mistake opening depression sounded truly concerned might one person miss me want hurt herim tired hurting myself im tired time everything takes effort know go on im scared im starting scared living more know much endure theres lot going on shitty job debt bad making friends nothing interests more etc already longer thought mentioned im tired think ill go work tomorrow then everyone great time without me ill jump front train od sleeping pills walk lake anything cold take even water doesnt might best mom know sure intentional
Hace un par de meses otros dijeron que vendrían cumpleaños uno apareció devastador casi se fue noche actuaron apologético pensar quieren responsable me cortaron acción de gracias Navidad pasados solos im poco separados familia entera excepto madre punto im colgar solamente su error apertura depresión sonó realmente preocupado puede una persona me falta quiero herim herido cansado yo mismo cansado tiempo todo toma esfuerzo saber ir en im miedo im comenzar miedo vivir mucho soportar mucho Theres mucho ir en mierda trabajo deuda mal hacer amigos nada intereses más etc ya más largo pensamiento mencionado Im cansado pensar mal ir trabajo mañana entonces todo el mundo gran tiempo sin mí mal salto frente tren o somníferos píldoras caminar lago cualquier cosa frío tomar agua mejor mamá puede ser que sabe mejor mamá