anxiety worldcrumbling feelingive full anxiety last days contemplating last couple years life might bit lengthy apologize that well disjointedness im yearold guy issues related posting here one fact live home fouryear relationship college lived dorm first year lived girlfriends parents house another mom one drunk episodes threatened violence decided best move on traveled four hours moms house lived basement two years bit month ago broke up point im manchild ambitions energy want produce music example know im capable degree equipment expensive im afraid failure im trying find apartment currently im scared major life change like that ive souldraining cube job year half pays well easy enough think messed brain little bit first couple weeks college four years ago lots alcohol weed which always garnered borderline psychotic episodes ive thirdperson mode downer im always detached degree white film covers vision wikipedia calls derealization depersonalization course recent major event breakup girlfriend lots communication problems things built time got tired ins outs life thought maybe theres someone better me someone accepting introverted nature introversion annoyed came energy job hate regressing computer time numb mind brought doubts relationship lot happened quickly gone next night picked stuff within three days wreck night got text saying wanted talk despite much emotional one relationship acted respectful thoughtful long talk decided would weekly chats check other maybe year two assuming were available would try another relationship meantime lots honesty save chats complete separation would strive independence something neither us really had considering school parents started okcupid profile time move get leg rest life alright ive talking people somewhat met someone drunk fun time kissed end bubbly feelings around nowex lets call a chat saturday still really care her check facebook masochistically want head im curious fucking creepy weird cant help it ask dates time okcupid knowing shed made one dates ask main one attractive me says yes lot jarring couple reasons one always told attractive person knew meant sincerely type mates become whole world obviously devastated night broke up saying hated im bad previous fucked relationships also one reasons broke discussing polyamory long while adamantly testing waters seeing guys attractive totally ready feel compersion cant now always correct people say jealousy envy fear loss first time ive felt it horrible lot regret questioning badly fucked swirling around head one facebook posts last night had great date definitely seconddate material fear never loved again know one ridiculoussounding things whine about pretty pathetic realize whole time heal im averagelooking guy okc obviously great place people like that keep comparing easy get dates example taking antidepressants almost emotionless get feeling year two even interested anymore realizing im sack shit ive always without blinds limerence comfortable familiarity histocompatibility anyway thats im now im big clusterfuck stupid emotions detachment afraid change afraid alone read time life find recluse stop making friends im already introverted im afraid anxiety ive plagued becoming unending source isolated agony im unhappy whats worse im rationally hedonist atheist  believe afterlife im apathetic detached im hedonist without happiness im sort shell without purpose right stop existing die logically yeah think eventually ill move on wants date someone unsure mediocre baggage promises get back ex like year ill get live shitty apartment eating shitty food cant cook even less time creative pursuits ill take care myself people say youre special think loved ones would mourn you threads ive told specialness countless times grade school generally think people suck family friends would mourn deal anything theyd get themselves im sure im posting here guess
anxiety worldcrumbling feelingive full anxiety last days contemplating last couple years life might bit lengthy apologize that well disjointednessim yearold guy issues related posting here one fact live home fouryear relationship college lived dorm first year lived girlfriends parents house another mom one drunk episodes threatened violence decided best move on traveled four hours moms house lived basement two years bit month ago broke up point im manchild ambitions energy want producemusic example know im capable degree equipment expensiveim afraid failure im trying find apartment currently im scared major life change like that ive souldraining cube job year half pays well easy enough think messed brain little bit first couple weeks college four years ago lots alcohol weed which always garnered borderline psychotic episodes ive thirdperson mode downer im always detached degree white film covers vision wikipedia calls derealization depersonalization course recent major event breakup girlfriend lots communication problems things built time got tired ins outs life thought maybe theres someone better me someone accepting introverted nature introversion annoyed came energy job hate regressing computer time numb mind brought doubts relationship lot happened quickly gone next night picked stuff within three days wreck night got text saying wanted talk despite much emotional one relationship acted respectful thoughtful long talk decided would weekly chats check other maybe year two assuming were available would try another relationship meantime lots honesty save chats complete separation would strive independence something neither us really had considering school parents started okcupid profile time move get leg rest lifealrightive talking people somewhat met someone drunk fun time kissed end bubbly feelings around nowex lets call a chat saturday still really care her check facebook masochistically want head im curious fucking creepy weird cant help it ask dates time okcupid knowing shed made one dates ask main one attractive me says yes lot jarring couple reasons one always told attractive person knew meant sincerely type mates become whole world obviously devastated night broke up saying hated im bad previous fucked relationships also one reasons broke discussing polyamory long while adamantly testing waters seeing guys attractive totally ready feel compersion cant now always correct people say jealousy envy fear loss first time ive felt it horrible lot regret questioning badly fucked swirling around head one facebook posts last night had great date definitely seconddate material fear never loved again know one ridiculoussounding things whine about pretty pathetic realize whole time heal im averagelooking guy okc obviously great place people like that keep comparing easy get dates example taking antidepressants almost emotionless get feeling year two even interested anymore realizing im sack shit ive always without blinds limerence comfortable familiarity histocompatibility anyway thats im now im big clusterfuck stupid emotions detachment afraid change afraid alone read time life find recluse stop making friends im already introverted im afraid anxiety ive plagued becoming unending source isolated agony im unhappy whats worse im rationally hedonist atheist believe afterlifeim apathetic detached im hedonist without happiness im sort shell without purpose right stop existing die logicallyyeah think eventually ill move on wants date someone unsure mediocre baggage promises get back ex like year ill get live shitty apartment eating shitty food cant cook even less time creative pursuits ill take care myself people say youre special think loved ones would mourn you threads ive told specialness countless times grade school generally think people suck family friends would mourn deal anything theyd get themselves im sure im posting hereguess
ansiedad worldcrumbling sentitive full ansiedad los últimos días contemplando los últimos dos años la vida podría poco largo disculparse que bien disjuntednessim años viejo chico problemas relacionados publicar aquí un hecho vivo casa cuatro años relación universidad vivió dormitorio primer año vivió novias padres casa otra mamá un borracho episodios amenazada violencia decidió mejor moverse en viaje cuatro horas mamá casa vivió sótano hace dos años poco mes roto punto im manchild ambiciones energía quiere producir ejemplo música saber im grado capaz equipo caro miedo fracaso im tratar de encontrar apartamento actualmente im miedo gran cambio de vida como que ive souldraining cubo trabajo año medio paga bastante fácil pensar mal cerebro poco primero par semanas universidad hace cuatro años mucho alcohol hierba que siempre obtuvo bordeline psicóticos episodios ive tercera persona modo downer im separado grado blanco película cubre visión wikipedia llama derealización despersonalización curso reciente gran evento ruptura novia muchos problemas de comunicación cosas construido tiempo se cansan ins outs vida pensó tal vez alguien mejor me