feel losti decided im going start writing things noteson phone similar journal started tonight ive feeling pretty bad lately tonight made everything worse id looking little bit never commenting posting seeing others finding hope am finally posting something first entry journal really know im looking this even know respond really know anything anymore im new this probably good too dont seem good anything really ill give shotlol kinda big fight fianceewanted take names out whole thing almost ended feeling bad awhile now least months money sucks big surprise friends busy want play videogames find boring now spent much money nice computer cool stuff playing games awhile back really enjoyed sitting room alone playing friends give time day outside playing another game anyway back tonight think died mother would get big stack cash shotun loaded hands hours ago didnt want couldnt it obviously im writting this despite wanting to feel like should like everyone would win did idk texted come stairs sat there reason even got heard coming didnt want see gun even though heard thats came down course probably thinks im monster going shoot her feel like im monster one likes cant control should theres key moment life something head forces fuck up act like asshole ive bed  hrs now last hour ive dark staring table dark cant really see anything trittium sights glowing dark definitely staring back me dont want cant feel like should even think could wanted to couldnt that here theres way could traumatize like that im getting mad self right even thinking possibility forcing see blood stuff place worst part thisfor least is im huge gun guy love going range even cleaning guns that feel like ask help im risking losing one things brings pure joy im going bed im sure ill check later point hate you im sorry know kind place im great writing expressing feelings im sure lot seems dumb yall idk really know stop typing feel like justify everything said could keep typing hoursthis post taking  minutes journal copy paste part problem really wish feel like this feel like need someone talk time think woukd commit redflag even though feel like solution time probably better spent talking someone else another post
feel losti decided im going start writing things noteson phone similar journal started tonight ive feeling pretty bad lately tonight made everything worse id looking little bit never commenting posting seeing others finding hope am finally posting something first entry journal really know im looking this even know respond really know anything anymoreim new this probably good too dont seem good anything really ill give shotlol kinda big fight fianceewanted take names out whole thing almost ended feeling bad awhile now least months money sucks big surprise friends busy want play videogames find boring now spent much money nice computer cool stuff playing games awhile back really enjoyed sitting room alone playing friends give time day outside playing another game anyway back tonight think died mother would get big stack cash shotun loaded hands hours ago didnt want couldnt it obviously im writting this despite wanting to feel like should like everyone would win did idk texted come stairs sat there reason even got heard coming didnt want see gun even though heard thats came down course probably thinks im monster going shoot her feel like im monster one likes cant control should theres key moment life something head forces fuck up act like asshole ive bed hrs now last hour ive dark staring table dark cant really see anything trittium sights glowing dark definitely staring back me dont want cant feel like should even think could wanted to couldnt that here theres way could traumatize like that im getting mad self right even thinking possibility forcing see blood stuff place worst part thisfor least is im huge gun guy love going range even cleaning guns that feel like ask help im risking losing one things brings pure joy im going bedim sure ill check later point hate you im sorry know kind place im great writing expressing feelings im sure lot seems dumb yall idk really know stop typing feel like justify everything said could keep typing hoursthis post taking minutes journal copy paste part problem really wish feel like this feel like need someone talk time think woukd commit redflag even though feel like solution time probably better spent talking someone else another post
Se siente perdidoi decidí empezar a escribir cosas en el teléfono diario similar comenzó esta noche ive sentirse bastante mal últimamente esta noche hizo todo peor id aspecto poco nunca comentar publicar ver a otros encontrar esperanza estoy finalmente publicar algo primer diario de entrada realmente sé im mirar esto incluso saber responder realmente saber nada másim nuevo esto probablemente bueno demasiado no parece bueno nada realmente mal dar shotlol un poco gran pelea fianceewanted quitar nombres todo casi terminó sentirse mal tiempo ahora menos meses dinero chupa gran sorpresa amigos ocupados quieren jugar videojuegos aburridos ahora gastar mucho dinero buena computadora cosas geniales jugar juegos un tiempo atrás realmente disfrutaba estar solo amigos jugar el día fuera jugar otro juego de todos modos esta noche creo que murió madre conseguiría gran pila de efectivo shotun cargado manos hace horas no quería no podría obviamente im escribir esto a pesar de querer sentirse como si todo el mundo ganara idk envió mensajes de texto escaleras sentado allí razón incluso se escuchó venir no quería ver pistola incluso aunque se escuchó que llegó curso probablemente piensa