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wanna hold gun headits car emotions erratic cant calm down google says tell two close friends any basically much less im comfortable telling im suicidal could actually help plus late idk text one person vaguely sleeping fine feel like cry wolf lotim dramatic attempted told today significant people think im fine bc say im fine make lot jokes whole thingim comfortable opening people around people see often allat all random person asks whats wrong really always feel suicidal lately im just im hyperventilatingi cant see would happen immediate future killed besides messy see awful visuals hanging neck weird look reflection id look like holding gun head thinking calling hotline really bad anxiety phone calls ive heard bad experiences good feel stuck wanna bring gun inside idk im scared also want stopped seeing therapist earlier month bc support around keep seeing him esp feel much worse trying work lot childhood trauma sitting days afterwards next appointment making sick really manic self harming lot option since normally feel better come whatever feeling another option texting im afraid awake either notify authorities since address im afraid get shower hurt im going straight gun want feel like think really want kill actively seeking ways avoid think scared upset really want alive single person really tell feel safe around validated idk found im
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