constantly feel like shit see ever happyno matter many steps forward try take life feel like im running place doomed keep falling flat face job sucks raise barely anything still make enough ever afford live own plus stress running entire company sole employee  crushing causing fuck school even school people genuinely mentally retarded bar set pretty low fucked midterms which sucks major basically entire identity admitting fucking suck thing im supposed good at risk needing essentially take semester ever getting parents house even overcome bullshit somehow manage live own think would make anywhere near happy think ill ever allow happy id really love blow money booze bullshit kill rather cleaning neverending mess life top off since im crazy depressed people get along crazy hell well every time date someone slits wrists fingernails argue reminder im crazy loved anyone psycho ill never worth someone elses time lives impossible standards anyone nearly normal ghosts long ones stick around insane desperate like me want go back therapy ive tried therapy onoff since th grade first attempted redflag none done much anything me last one never said anything likeever insight offer argued  minutes get speak repeating insight already said uncertain terms one likely molested one patients lost license one misdiagnosed bpd turned irrelevant conversation one drinking far problematic truly awful enough told friend raped asking it ontop that even find someone competent solution problems problem fucking suck fail attempting change im reminded pushing forward fucking sunk cost fallacy grandest level
constantly feel like shit see ever happyno matter many steps forward try take life feel like im running place doomed keep falling flat face job sucks raise barely anything still make enough ever afford live own plus stress running entire company sole employee crushing causing fuck school even school people genuinely mentally retarded bar set pretty low fucked midterms which sucks major basically entire identity admitting fucking suck thing im supposed good at risk needing essentially take semester ever getting parents house even overcome bullshit somehow manage live own think would make anywhere near happy think ill ever allow happy id really love blow money booze bullshit kill rather cleaning neverending mess life top off since im crazy depressed people get alongcrazy hell well every time date someone slits wrists fingernails argue reminder im crazy loved anyone psycho ill never worth someone elses time lives impossible standards anyone nearly normal ghosts long ones stick around insane desperate like me want go back therapy ive tried therapy onoff since th grade first attempted redflag none done much anything me last one never said anything likeever insight offer argued minutes get speak repeating insight already said uncertain terms one likely molested one patients lost license one misdiagnosed bpd turned irrelevant conversation one drinking far problematic truly awful enough told friend raped asking it ontop that even find someone competent solution problems problem fucking suck fail attempting change im reminded pushing forward fucking sunk cost fallacy grandest level
Siempre sentir como mierda ver siempre feliz no importa muchos pasos adelante tratar de tomar la vida sentir como Im running lugar condenado seguir cayendo cara plana trabajo chupa levantar apenas cualquier cosa todavía hacer suficiente vivir propio más estrés dirigir toda la empresa único empleado aplastando causando mierda escuela incluso la gente de la escuela genuinamente retrasado bar set muy mal follada mitades que apesta mayor básicamente identidad completa admitir mierda mierda im supuesto bueno en riesgo esencialmente tomar semestre conseguir casa de padres incluso superar mierda de alguna manera manejar vivir propio pensar haría cualquier lugar cerca feliz pensar mal nunca permitir feliz id realmente amor soplar dinero alcohol mierda matar lugar limpieza sin fin desastre vida top desde im loco deprimidos la gente se vuelve loco infierno