nothing left death alive  years want live longer want see   always alone always unhappy things get better true lying say true time paid attention ive learned  worth remembering people beyond help inarguable  hate body hate mind hate past hate present dread future nothing here  outside everything  believe anything death clearly conceptualize anything death doubtful everything death death faith  repulsed everything experience thing driven towards death death dream   wanted police officer  wanted drummer clear dream since die  never held girls hand  scored  act started college  graduated  gpa three facts sources pride confidence nothing numbers  life nothing numbers people memories stories experiences not  cook sing draw dance  feel best drunk feel good high sometimes reading makes happy rare  remember brother showing porn kid molested several times never told anyone this  remember time redflag alien me thought theres reason kill yourself theres chance things improve die over  now redflag me leave everything else alien now  one reason killed already previous moments weakness knowledge would parents would destroy them greatest love life  alone reason live unfortunate nothing unfortunate  redflag painless
nothing left death alive years want live longer want see always alone always unhappy things get better true lying say true time paid attention ive learned worth remembering people beyond help inarguable hate body hate mind hate past hate present dread future nothing here outside everything believe anything death clearly conceptualize anything death doubtful everything death death faith repulsed everything experience thing driven towards death death dream wanted police officer wanted drummer clear dream since die never held girls hand scored act started college graduated gpa three facts sources pride confidence nothing numbers life nothing numbers people memories stories experiences not cook sing draw dance feel best drunk feel good high sometimes reading makes happy rare remember brother showing porn kid molested several times never told anyone this remember time redflag alien me thought theres reason kill yourself theres chance things improve die over now redflag me leave everything else alien now one reason killed already previous moments weakness knowledge would parents would destroy them greatest love life alone reason live unfortunate nothing unfortunate redflag painless
Nada dejó la muerte viva años quieren vivir más tiempo quieren ver siempre solos siempre cosas infelices conseguir mejor verdad mentira decir tiempo verdadero prestar atención ive aprendido vale la pena recordar personas más allá de ayuda indignable odio cuerpo odio mente odio pasado odio presente miedo futuro nada aquí fuera de todo creer cualquier cosa muerte claramente conceptualizar cualquier muerte dudosa todo muerte muerte fe repelió todo experiencia cosa conducido hacia la muerte muerte sueño querido policía quería baterista quería batería claro sueño puesto que morir nunca se llevó a cabo niñas mano anotada acto comenzó universidad graduada gpa tres hechos fuentes orgullo confianza nada números vida nada personas recuerdos historias experiencias no cocinero cantar baile se siente mejor borracho alta a veces leer hace feliz raro recordar hermano mostrando porno niño abusado varias veces nunca le dijo a nadie este recuerdo tiempo rojo bandera extranjero me pensó theres razón matarse a ti mismo te hace falta suerte las cosas mejoran morir más ahora redflag me deja todo el extranjero ahora una razón ya muerto momentos anteriores debilidad conocimiento sería padres destruirlos más grande amor vida sola razón vivir desafortunado nada desafortunado rojo sin dolor