hate birthday life looking darker years go bythis literally came mind im turning  februaryand dont look forward it first memory birthday  parents took movies watch racing stripes honest mischievous child wont sit still ran cinema dad grabbed arm pulled cinema yelling im crying took car locked inside went back finish movie im sitting car crying windows opened went home disciplined me day even remembered said dont care birthday plaster wall we concrete wallsas im crying belt marks back screams dont dare talk back promise you carry die tonight birthday year wanted relax watch tv couldnt even spend whole day brothers  project helping doing none friends even called texted happy birthdayon birthday   last year high school last time even heard friends one even wished id cards display dob maybe one popular guys im always one getting left out actually found friend group group chat never even knew it birthday year whole day filled yelling swearing violence got angry took myself alone brought back memories self harming used cut burn even tied fish tank tubing stick whipped it im turning  next year dont know life going meant finish university next year instead failed repeating it feel like im wasting everyones time money determination drive left im counting days till demons win honestly dont plan live past 
hate birthday life looking darker years go bythis literally came mind im turning februaryand dont look forward it first memory birthday parents took movies watch racing stripes honest mischievous child wont sit still ran cinema dad grabbed arm pulled cinema yelling im crying took car locked inside went back finish movie im sitting car crying windows opened went home disciplined me day even remembered said dont care birthday plaster wall we concrete wallsas im crying belt marks back screams dont dare talk back promise you carry die tonight birthday year wanted relax watch tv couldnt even spend whole day brothers project helping doing none friends even called texted happy birthdayon birthday last year high school last time even heard friends one even wished id cards display dob maybe one popular guys im always one getting left out actually found friend group group chat never even knew it birthday year whole day filled yelling swearing violence got angry took myself alone brought back memories self harming used cut burn even tied fish tank tubing stick whipped it im turning next year dont know life going meant finish university next year instead failed repeating it feel like im wasting everyones time money determination drive left im counting days till demons win honestly dont plan live past
Odio la vida de cumpleaños mirar años más oscuros pasar por esto literalmente vino mente im girar febrero y no mirar hacia adelante primer recuerdo cumpleaños los padres tomaron películas ver carreras rayas honesto niño travieso no se sentará todavía corriendo cine papá agarró el brazo tiró cine gritos im llanto tomó coche encerrado en el interior se terminó película im sentado llanto ventanas abierto a casa me disciplinado día incluso recordado dijo no le importa pared de yeso cumpleaños nos paredes de hormigón como im llanto cinturón marcas atrás gritos no se atreven a hablar de nuevo promete llevar muerto esta noche cumpleaños año quería relajarse ver televisión incluso no podía pasar todo el día hermanos proyecto ayudar a hacer ningún amigo incluso llamado texto feliz cumpleaños en cumpleaños el año pasado escuela secundaria la última vez que incluso escuchó amigos uno incluso desea mostrar tarjetas de identificación