lying everyone  yearsi lying closest friends girlfriend amp family  years already   debt amp telling everyone it okay think might weekend apend little bit happy time loved ones first long story ahead tldr bottom tldr childhood molested sezually fist grade neigbour amp    grade verbally amp physically bullied blackmailed shit on pissed on sodomized amp used laughing stock atleast  beatdowns week  monday amp  friday started  year  girlfriend now ex broke could live behaving like adult trust me either started bunking best friends place  months feeling quilty income saving nothing amp freeloading friends lets call jiri place could get back moms place free rooms amp father lived way city transports school there  months finalky found cheap rental apartment next school amp also knew move could get enough money welfare pay bils amp get food moved amp first fucking happy life joyfull amp felt good winter came thing called kaamos i dont know wjat call english came sunlight always dark kids started bully school anxiety amp deppression kicked amp could sleep well amp would stay planket ir computer hanging friends lasted month long got expelled school never went there stayed home drowning sorrows playing video games mainly rs friends long jiri tried ask okay always told yeah good months later money behind rent amp bills cash food still sat amp played video games also aunt amp granpa died time took pretty jard started self harm years clean juat beginning managed somehiw get together exgf amp bunked  weeks saing i vacation school yeah fucking stupid me got caught threw amp know do visited apartment time payed bills last  months so went ro gradmas place amp stayed month summer  met soul mate amp new girlfriend friend jiri took back place stay amp promised help anything could told everybody big debt amp unemployed money got went straight paying debts believed told family amp bought it thou father diaapointed me after met  talked  times date unofficialy living jiri debt collecrors idea was baaically run months even remember it fun playing amp drinking life away jiri johanna amp friends one idea time went fast wa full year since moved ro live own always back head atill self harm drank alcohol remember all one day jiri said we move rental place could move unofficially him happy moved winter amp befire christmas moved new place lie survived officially year already started took toll me afraid phone ringing afraid going public areas amp talked dad  months said mom amp everybody else okay nothing happenes while new place drinking playing amp derping around always afraid jiri woild kick money it went debt paying reality done anything ti get rhe monwy evsn toi afraid always helped bdat could amp think enough him im glad best friend summer applied school i forced seek education myself amp knew mistake may ask summer gone amp august school again school needed put address right place house lived jiri see going school started like shit anxiety top gear alcohol amp lie tellling  years already evdn believed lie point aftrer one weel school quit it could blt handle it that came envelopes demise bills bills mlre bills wise amp saved money year thought payed all november  came bill almost  another  amp amp on cried shock made bucket list  next christmas get contact dad  take johanna real first date  get jiri something nice christmas  fun lt christmas went by always toes january  johanna invited place ever since day ca go back jiris place spoke jirk almost month now letters court told johanna anything even jiri one knows this jiri saw letters told okay just fucked badly  weeks since last letter amp think next one something bad never wanted hurt anybody never wanted involve anyone else might now regret everything jiri amp family amp friends trough im disapointment everyone lazy fuckerif only could see another way last  weeks slept all wake  am sure someway im jump balcony know  brought upon elementary school amp junior high school learned lie problems time also want worry involve anyone problems always tries make everyone around smile amp happy ques never time myself old habits die hard learn keep in never come out thought saturday last moment friends amp sunday week it railroad track nearby   rest assholes made childhood hell kylsaaren alaaste ja meriporin ylaste jasu jere sundval se kpi ja te pari junttii ja koko mun alaaste luokka se kivaa juu hakata kepeill jaloilla ja nyrkeill toista varastaa esineit ja vandalisoida nit vhemmstki pelk menn ulos ja tulee ihmiapelkoo vitu mulkut ymmrrn kyll et teil oli omat perheongelmat mut ei sit olis muhu tarttenu mullaki oli omat ongelmat sillo jo jos olisitte antanu ni olisin koittanu auttaa teit vaikka nauraan ja joni impolasta milt tuntu kytt lk aeksuaalisesri hyvks tykkaiks siit ku otin suihin tai siit ku tynsit sen sinne oki varmaa sulle mukavaa haista pitk paska tldr lied ti everyine life cared fir almist  years dead end people please lie loved one  family end hurt e eryone evenmore ecer trouble call father mother straight away someone close lt
lying everyone yearsi lying closest friends girlfriend amp family years already debt amp telling everyone it okay think might weekend apend little bit happy time loved ones first long story ahead tldr bottom tldr childhood molested sezually fist grade neigbour amp grade verbally amp physically bullied blackmailed shit on pissed on sodomized amp used laughing stock atleast beatdowns week monday amp friday started year girlfriend now ex broke could live behaving like adult trust me either started bunking best friends place months feeling quilty income saving nothing amp freeloading friends lets call jiri place could get back moms place free rooms amp father lived way city transports school there months finalky found cheap rental apartment next school amp also knew move could get enough money welfare pay bils amp get food moved amp first fucking happy life joyfull amp felt good winter came thing called kaamos i dont know wjat call english came sunlight always dark kids started bully school anxiety amp deppression kicked amp could sleep well amp would stay planket ir computer hanging friends lasted month long got expelled school never went there stayed home drowning sorrows playing video games mainly rs friends long jiri tried ask okay always toldyeah good months later money behind rent amp bills cash food still sat amp played video games also aunt amp granpa died time took pretty jard started self harm years clean juat beginning managed somehiw get together exgf amp bunked weeks saing i vacation schoolyeahfucking stupid me got caught threw amp know do visited apartment time payed bills last months so went ro gradmas place amp stayed month summer met soul mate amp new girlfriend friend jiri took back place stay amp promised help anything could told everybody big debt amp unemployed money got went straight paying debts believed told family amp bought it thou father diaapointed me after met talked times date unofficialy living jiri debt collecrors idea was baaically run months even remember it fun playing amp drinking life away jiri johanna amp friends one idea time went fast wa full year since moved ro live own always back head atill self harm drank alcohol remember all one day jiri said we move rental place could move unofficially him happy moved winter amp befire christmas moved new place lie survived officially year already started took toll me afraid phone ringing afraid going public areas amp talked dad months said mom amp everybody elseokay nothing happenes while new place drinking playing amp derping around always afraid jiri woild kick money it went debt paying reality done anything ti get rhe monwy evsn toi afraid always helped bdat could amp think enough him im glad best friend summer applied school i forced seek education myself amp knew mistake may ask summer gone amp august school again school needed put address right place house lived jiri see going school started like shit anxiety top gear alcohol amp lie tellling years already evdn believed lie point aftrer one weel school quit it could blt handle it that came envelopes demise bills bills mlre bills wise amp saved money year thought payed all november came bill almost another amp amp on cried shock made bucket list next christmas get contact dad take johanna real first date get jiri something nice christmas fun lt christmas went by always toes january johanna invited place ever since day ca go backjiris place spoke jirk almost month now letters court told johanna anything even jiri one knows this jiri saw letters toldokay just fucked badly weeks since last letter amp think next one something bad never wanted hurt anybody never wanted involve anyone else might now regret everything jiri amp family amp friendstrough im disapointment everyone lazy fuckerif only could see another way last weeks slept all wake am sure someway im jump balcony know brought upon elementary school amp junior high school learned lie problems time also want worry involve anyone problems always tries make everyone around smile amp happy ques never time myself old habits die hard learn keep in never come out thought saturday last moment friends amp sunday week it railroad track nearby rest assholes made childhood hell kylsaaren alaaste ja meriporin ylaste jasu jere sundval se kpi ja te pari junttii ja koko mun alaaste luokka se kivaa juu hakata kepeill jaloilla ja nyrkeill toista varastaa esineit ja vandalisoida nit vhemmstki pelk menn ulos ja tulee ihmiapelkoo vitu mulkut ymmrrn kyllet teil oli omat perheongelmat mut ei sit olis muhu tarttenu mullaki oli omat ongelmat sillo jo jos olisitte antanu ni olisin koittanu auttaa teit vaikka nauraan ja joni impolasta milt tuntu kytt lk aeksuaalisesri hyvks tykkaiks siit ku otin suihin tai siit ku tynsit sen sinne oki varmaa sulle mukavaa haista pitk paska tldr lied ti everyine life cared fir almist years dead end people please lie loved one family end hurt e eryone evenmore ecer trouble call father mother straight away someone close lt
mentir a todo el mundo añosi mentir amigos más cercanos novia amp años de la familia ya deuda amplificador decirle a todos está bien pensar que podría fin de semana apendir un poco de tiempo feliz seres queridos primera larga historia por delante tldr fondo tldr infancia abusado sezualmente puño grado neigbour amp grado verbalmente amp físicamente intimidado chantajeado mierda en enojado en sodomizado amp uso hazterreír alteste beatdowns semana lunes amp viernes comenzó año novia ahora ex ruptura podría vivir como adulto confiar en mí o bien comenzó literas mejores amigos lugar meses sensación de quilty ingresos ahorrar nada amp gratis cargado amigos le permite llamar a Jiri lugar podría volver mamás lugar libre habitaciones amp padre vivió manera ciudad transporte escuela allí meses finalky encontrado barato alquiler apartamento siguiente escuela amp también sabía movimiento podría conseguir suficiente dinero bienestar pagar bils amp obtener alimentos movidos amp primer feliz vida alegre amp se sintió bien invierno vino cosa llamada kaamoss