thinking much keeps alivewhat mean ive thought multiple ways end myself wierd common thoughts are feels pretty normal decade lost best friend rollover catapulted mental rock bottom state didnt help deployed time stateside anyway  years since finding out ive since pushed dozens life became recluse care outside world ive spent countless nights laying awake fantasizing ending all mental exhaustion constant battles inner demons dirt nap sounds good however countless nights planning redflag im also countering thoughts happens fail end vegetable forced stay alive machines bad hurt noose doesnt kill im suffering would pretty awkward situation someone walk seeing like right ive thought slitting wrists id rather kids see aftermath that jumping bridge standing tracks waiting train turn bits popping many pills ive thought up thought failure thats kept attempting it today feeling like im fucking cursed live days death finally takes me typical day wouldnt bother say due disdain society anyone reading feels hopeless dont give up matter hardships enduring keep fighting sometimes gets worse gets better take upon reach out follow another path know definitely alone
thinking much keeps alivewhat mean ive thought multiple ways end myself wierd common thoughts are feelspretty normal decade lost best friend rollover catapulted mental rock bottom state didnt help deployed time statesideanyway years since finding out ive since pushed dozens life became recluse care outside world ive spent countless nights laying awake fantasizing ending all mental exhaustion constant battles inner demons dirt nap sounds good however countless nights planning redflagim also countering thoughts happens fail end vegetable forced stay alive machines bad hurt noose doesnt kill im suffering would pretty awkward situation someone walk seeing like right ive thought slitting wrists id rather kids see aftermath that jumping bridge standing tracks waiting train turn bits popping many pills ive thought up thought failure thats kept attempting it today feeling like im fucking cursed live days death finally takes me typical day wouldnt bother say due disdain society anyone reading feels hopeless dont give up matter hardships enduring keep fighting sometimes gets worse gets better take upon reach out follow another path know definitely alone
Pensar mucho mantiene vivo lo que significa pensamiento vivo múltiples maneras terminan yo mismo wierd pensamientos comunes son se siente bastante normal década perdido mejor amigo rollover catapultado mental rock fondo estado no ayudó desplegado tiempo Estadode cualquier manera años desde descubrir ive desde empujado decenas de vida se convirtió en cuidado de recluso fuera mundo ive pasado incontables noches puesta despierto fantaseando terminar todo agotamiento mental batallas constantes demonios interior siesta de tierra suena bien sin embargo incontables noches planificación Redflagim también contrarrestar pensamientos sucede fracaso final vegetal forzado permanecer vivo máquinas mal domesticado noose noe mata im sufrimiento situación bastante incómoda alguien caminar viendo como derecho pensamiento vivo de corte de muñecas ID más bien niños ver secuelas que saltar puente pendientes pistas pendientes tren turno bits popping muchas píldoras ive pensamiento fracaso que sigue intentando hoy sentir como im maldito día en vivo muerte finalmente me lleva día típico no se molestaría decir debido desprecio sociedad nadie leer se siente desesperado no renunciar a la materia dificultades sigue luchando a veces se pone peor tomar al llegar a cabo sabe otro camino definitivamente solo