feel bad today suicidal thoughts bad theyve ever been made tiny progress lately come crashing back feel like could call quits right nowi think im gonna probably text  number feel guilty texting always seem trying push get next person feel comfortable calling  redflag hotline like said made tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny progress  step forward  steps back live alcoholic parents terrible house got new jobs see way often triggers hell even around cant anything else ive spending lot time library friends houses stay away theres much do point id seriously consider living car cold wisconsin already tried yet another med change really recently course done nothing number million thats point im seriously considering cold turkeying  meds done it almost  weeks next therapy appointment im pretty sure hates anyway tried get kicked clinic accidentally noshowing appointment psychiatrist stuck said needed stay im gonna comfortable talking therapist refuse try another one hes already number   cant even remember sure also fucked up totally fault excuses im gonna completely financially destitute least month account overdrawn im gonna able afford phone bill real friends live far away phone plan able talk time im home and try home little possible ive selfharming lot one injury id even consider seeing doctor could afford  copay convenient care mean serious burn happened trying firstaid well can ironically still selfharming places body stuck scars life top stretch marks im stuck brings next point weight im literally obese bmi  fluctuate  lbs back years ago healthy liked body numbers    pounds emotional binge eating absolute inability exercise consistently try get hyperaware weight stop cry probably go home hurt ironically binge eat top everything ive talking old friend finally able meet coffee we see maybe year seems great im starting feelings develop knowing theyll never reciprocated know best thing distance her one biggest support systems me theres good way handle situation yes chances feeling  already this big problem top everything else feels like it
feel bad today suicidal thoughts bad theyve ever been made tiny progress lately come crashing back feel like could call quits right nowi think im gonna probably text number feel guilty texting always seem trying push get next person feel comfortable calling redflag hotlinelike said made tiny tiny tiny tiny tiny progress step forward steps back live alcoholic parents terrible house got new jobs see way often triggers hell even around cant anything else ive spending lot time library friends houses stay away theres much do point id seriously consider living car cold wisconsin already tried yet another med change really recently course done nothing number million thats point im seriously considering cold turkeying meds done it almost weeks next therapy appointment im pretty sure hates anyway tried get kicked clinic accidentally noshowing appointment psychiatrist stuck said needed stay im gonna comfortable talking therapist refuse try another one hes already number cant even remember sure also fucked up totally fault excuses im gonna completely financially destitute least month account overdrawn im gonna able afford phone bill real friends live far away phone plan able talk time im home and try home little possible ive selfharming lot one injury id even consider seeing doctor could afford copay convenient care mean serious burn happened trying firstaid well can ironically still selfharming places body stuck scars life top stretch marks im stuck brings next point weight im literally obese bmi fluctuate lbs back years ago healthy liked body numbers pounds emotional binge eating absolute inability exercise consistently try get hyperaware weight stop cry probably go home hurt ironically binge eat top everything ive talking old friend finally able meet coffee we see maybe year seems great im starting feelings develop knowing theyll never reciprocated know best thing distance her one biggest support systems me theres good way handle situation yes chances feeling already this big problem top everything else feels like it
Sientan mal hoy pensamientos suicidas malos nunca se han hecho pequeños progresos últimamente vienen estrellarse atrás se siente como podría llamar parados ahora mismo creo que probablemente voy a texto número sentir culpable mensajes de texto siempre parece tratar de empujar conseguir próxima persona se siente cómodo llamando redflag línea directa como dicho hizo diminuta diminuta diminuta progreso paso adelante pasos atrás vivo padres alcohólicos terrible casa tienen nuevos trabajos ver manera a menudo desencadena el infierno incluso alrededor de cualquier otra cosa ive gasto mucho tiempo biblioteca amigos casas permanecer lejos allí mucho punto id seriamente considerar vida coche frío wisconsin ya probado todavía otro cambio médico realmente recientemente curso hecho nada número millón que apunta im seriamente considerando frio pavoing meds hecho casi semanas próxima cita de terapia im bastante seguro odios de todos modos trató de conseguir patadas clínica accidentalmente ninguna cita psiquiatra atascado dijo que necesitaba quedarse im va a cómodo hablar terapeuta rechazo probar otro número ya número no puede recordar siquiera seguro también jodido culpa excusas im va completamente financieramente destituido menos cuenta mensual sobretirado