wish endim done im fucking exhausted fighting brain live honest dont even want anymore people say im kind  opened heart ive used atm lot money dont ever see getting back ive blocked said person borrowed money ask mom borrow money havent done ages shows im useless hate debt anyone especially mom works damn hard money medication made fat dont know shift it absolutely zero motivation literally move bed go downstairs watch tv want slim pretty again sharp objects taken away crave release feeling blade across skin family told disappointed self harm cut im cutting ive pushed friends family away wish could go euthanised everyone favour im fat ugly mess  cant even look mirror  im disgusted myself medication increased months back isnt working ive saving up getting courage end want pain stop please whichever higher power may there kill end suffering
wish endim done im fucking exhausted fighting brain live honest dont even want anymore people say im kind opened heart ive used atm lot money dont ever see getting back ive blocked said person borrowed money ask mom borrow money havent done ages shows im useless hate debt anyone especially mom works damn hard money medication made fat dont know shift it absolutely zero motivation literally move bed go downstairs watch tv want slim pretty again sharp objects taken away crave release feeling blade across skin family told disappointed self harm cut im cutting ive pushed friends family away wish could go euthanised everyone favourim fat ugly mess cant even look mirror im disgusted myself medication increased months back isnt working ive saving up getting courage end want pain stop please whichever higher power may there kill end suffering
deseo endim hecho im jodidamente agotado lucha cerebro vivo honesto ni siquiera quiero más la gente dice im tipo abierto corazón ive uso atm mucho dinero nunca ver cómo volver ive bloqueado dijo persona dinero prestado pedir dinero prestado mamá dinero no ha hecho años muestra im inútil odio deuda alguien especialmente mamá trabaja maldito dinero duro medicamentos hecho grasa no sé cambiar absolutamente cero motivación literalmente mover cama ir abajo ver televisión quiere delgado bonito otra vez objetos afilados quitarse ansía liberación hoja a través de la piel familia dijo decepcionado auto daño corte i corte i i i drive familia deseo podría ir eutanised todo el mundo favorim gordo feo desastre no puedo mirar espejo im disgusto me medicamento aumento meses atrás trabajo ive ahorro conseguir valor final quiero dolor parada por favor cualquier poder superior puede matar extremo sufrimiento