im trying tonighti let live once extra time living showed living worth it care anymore still gotten better school fact ive gotten worse cant focus think hurt people classes halls ive previously wronged im failure well  classes instead one now come home homework fall asleep stress wake go back school saturday waste life sunday im dragged church im unintentionally berated am waste rest day physically able concentrate homework im overloaded im burnt out cant tutoring im scared talk teachers either like get mad know content ill never able meet goal pet fox one fucking thing could possibly give life meaning even id suck it pass college cant get easily fail high school im stupid college point want to cant get job lazy ive gotten want stay parents burden down cant take five years school everything seems broken sexuality work ethic speech way look way think memory hearing eyesight everything nobody ever expressed interest me one case someone has turned away stupid impulsive assholish side myself cant talk professional cant fix situation medicate lie situation care leave theyll get it letting suffer people might get sad most people school probably get disappointed best finally end seems selfish part me im getting put meds want blind drugs hellish situation im living in parents get real care apparently real therapists christian enough many reasons im stupid remember right now im tired im trying new version last time likely real time even know im posting im set this end miserable cycle soon im lost cause id rather pass away radar everyone forgets ever existed im sorry make sense forgot something im god awful writer  cst im it  hours left goodbye
im trying tonighti let live once extra time living showed living worth it care anymore still gotten better school fact ive gotten worse cant focus think hurt people classes halls ive previously wronged im failurewell classes instead one now come home homework fall asleep stress wake go back school saturday waste life sundayim dragged churchim unintentionally berated am waste rest day physically able concentrate homework im overloadedim burnt out cant tutoring im scared talk teachers either like get mad know content ill never able meet goal pet fox one fucking thing could possibly give life meaning even id suck it pass college cant get easily fail high school im stupid college point want to cant get job lazy ive gotten want stay parents burden down cant take five years school everything seems broken sexuality work ethic speech way look way think memory hearing eyesight everything nobody ever expressed interest me one case someone has turned away stupid impulsive assholish side myself cant talk professional cant fix situation medicate lie situation care leave theyll get it letting suffer people might get sad most people school probably get disappointed best finally end seems selfish part meim getting put meds want blind drugs hellish situation im living in parents get real care apparently real therapists christian enough many reasons im stupid remember right now im tired im trying new version last time likely real time even know im posting im set this end miserable cycle soon im lost cause id rather pass away radar everyone forgets ever existed im sorry make sense forgot something imgod awful writercstim it hours left goodbye
Estoy tratando de esta noche dejar vivir una vez más tiempo de vida mostró vivir vale la pena cuidado todavía mejor escuela hecho ive peor foco no puedo pensar lastimar a la gente clases salas ive previamente equivocado im fracaso clases en lugar de uno ahora llega casa deberes dormirse estrés despertar volver escuela sábado desperdicio vida Sundayim arrastró iglesiaim intencionadamente censurado soy desperdicio día de descanso físicamente capaz de concentración tarea im sobrecargaedim quemado tutoría cant im miedo hablar profesores o como llegar loco saber contenido mal nunca capaz cumplir objetivo mascota zorro una cosa podría dar a la vida significado incluso id chupar pase universidad no puede obtener fácilmente fracaso secundaria