doeither death trying something might work make thoughts go away though another way prolong meaningless painful existence due fear dying think pussy seems coward top that nowhere go nothing do sort service would make worthwhile fit eg police forces im unstable inside head acting pretending whole life noone noticed fine doubt anyone will empathy required paramedic bachelors degree always thought work id help people since know abandoned etc fight crime stuff keep saying want save others unable save myself mind blood smell dead people cpr work out im quite cold empty inside unfortunately life like  future work would  among things hate much else say really papers filled might go next week im sure process long care it even want it id rather die could somehow fast painless see way it paramedic internship ambulance hospital quite nice importantly one things wanted do rewarding financially reality expected vast minority people need real help help all think police different force exists persecute people look opportunity fine them fucked either way saved draft might post it know many people calling kind
doeither death trying something might work make thoughts go away though another way prolong meaningless painful existence due fear dying think pussy seems coward top that nowhere go nothing do sort service would make worthwhile fit eg police forces im unstable inside head acting pretending whole life noone noticed fine doubt anyone will empathy required paramedic bachelors degree always thought work id help people since know abandoned etc fight crime stuff keep saying want save others unable save myself mind blood smelldead people cpr work out im quite cold empty inside unfortunately life like future work would among things hate much else say really papers filled might go next week im sure process long care it even want it id rather die could somehow fast painless see way it paramedic internship ambulance hospital quite nice importantly one things wanted do rewarding financially reality expected vast minority people need real help help all think police different force exists persecute people look opportunity fine them fucked either way saved draft might post it know many people calling kind
Si la muerte intenta algo puede trabajar hacer que los pensamientos desaparezcan aunque otra manera prolongar la existencia dolorosa sin sentido debido al miedo morir pensar coño parece cobarde top que nada hacer servicio de orden haría que valga la pena encajar, por ejemplo fuerzas policiales im inestable dentro de la cabeza actuando como toda la vida nadie notó buena duda cualquiera va a empatía requerido paramédico grado de licenciatura siempre pensó trabajo id ayudar a la gente desde saber abandonado etc lucha contra el crimen cosas seguir diciendo querer salvar a otros incapaces salvarme mente sangre olfato personas muertos cpr trabajo fuera im frío vacío dentro desafortunadamente la vida como trabajo futuro diría entre otras cosas odio mucho más decir realmente papeles llenos podría ir la próxima semana im seguro proceso largo cuidado que incluso quiere que id más bien morir podría de alguna manera sin dolor ver la forma en que paramédico internado hospital ambulancia bastante agradable importante una cosa quería hacer recompensa financiera realidad esperada gran minoría gente necesita ayuda real ayudar a todos pensar policía diferente fuerza existe persecución personas mirada oportunidad bien follada cualquiera manera salvo borrador podría publicar