alone feeling wayhi all joined reddit come reach out feel pretty lonely really want know people similar experience actively suicidal danger myself ive struggling lot im teenager six weeks since got discharged residential treatment program ive really hard time ive never real redflag attempt ive depressed anxious long time ive lived suicidal ideation since  family abusive past realize case late treatment residential difficult came home lot unresolved issues ive every level care steadily declining put residential treatment facility also needed  hour care due nonfunctional was got realized peers facility attempted redflag suicidal actions writing lettersnotes collecting pills figuring ways end life starting attempt etc ever since got treatment resolve actually attempt gotten stronger stronger im afraid pain valid unless ive tried kill myself narrative cycling mind years wake middle night thinking it many many times ive actively suicidal least gotten truly suicidal meaning really really wanted die in thats wanted life residential really wanted kill tried  times none worked actually wanted use really frustrating time odd thing ive realized attempting outside treatment lived staying bed day sleeping day watching youtube day meant actually think pain stayed limbo numbing pain constantly getting caught it guess way keeping suffering bay actually think pain pain suicidal thoughts became rampant also help im suicidal im good day im sick enough narrative there im actually actively suicidal want die narrative adds even resolve need kill myself im afraid seen wanting attention thats exact opposite want really hard attempt home  want family know  want people find worry  want get hospitalized  want talk anyone talk emotions behind it weird im actually suicidal im thinking time wanting attempt redflag prove im pain pain valid im actually suicidal want die end pain you need prove it feels like added reinforcer even thats primary reason want die again kind fucked baseline i need prove im pain risking life andor dying know maybe im looking reassurance maybe im looking someone relate odd feel like cant talk anyone this havent im still trying im still reaching out hard think im sad alone exhausted
alone feeling wayhi all joined reddit come reach out feel pretty lonely really want know people similar experience actively suicidal danger myself ive struggling lot im teenager six weeks since got discharged residential treatment program ive really hard time ive never real redflag attempt ive depressed anxious long time ive lived suicidal ideation since family abusive past realize case late treatment residential difficult came home lot unresolved issues ive every level care steadily declining put residential treatment facility also needed hour care due nonfunctionalwas got realized peers facility attempted redflag suicidal actions writing lettersnotes collecting pills figuring ways end life starting attempt etc ever since got treatment resolve actually attempt gotten stronger stronger im afraid pain valid unless ive tried kill myself narrative cycling mind years wake middle night thinking it many many times ive actively suicidal least gotten truly suicidal meaning really really wanted die in that s wanted life residential really wanted kill tried times none worked actually wanted use really frustrating time odd thing ive realized attempting outside treatment lived staying bed day sleeping day watching youtube day meant actually think pain stayed limbo numbing pain constantly getting caught it guess way keeping suffering bay actually think pain pain suicidal thoughts became rampant also help im suicidalim good day im sick enough narrative there im actually actively suicidal want die narrative adds even resolve need kill myself im afraid seen wanting attention thats exact opposite want really hard attempt home want family know want people find worry want get hospitalizedwant talk anyone talk emotions behind itweird im actually suicidal im thinking time wanting attempt redflag prove im pain pain validim actually suicidal want die end pain you need prove it feels like added reinforcer even thats primary reason want die again kind fucked baseline i need prove im pain risking life andor dying know maybe im looking reassurance maybe im looking someone relate odd feel like cant talk anyone this havent im still trying im still reaching out hard think im sad alone exhausted
solo sentimiento wayhi todos unido reddit venir llegar a sentir bastante solitario realmente quiero saber personas experiencia similar activamente suicida peligro yo mismo ive forceking lot im adolescente seis semanas desde que se dio de alta programa de tratamiento residencial ive realmente difícil tiempo ive real Redflag intento ive deprimido ansiedad mucho tiempo viví suicida ideación desde familia abusivo pasado realizar caso tratamiento tardío residencial difícil llegó a casa problemas sin resolver ive cada nivel de atención constantemente declinado poner centro de tratamiento residencial también necesitaba atención por hora debido a que no funciona se llevó a cabo instalaciones de pares intento de bandera roja acciones suicidas escribir notas recopilando píldoras averiguar maneras de terminar la vida intento de empezar, etc desde que consiguió resolución de tratamiento en realidad intento más fuerte im dolor miedo válido a menos que se trató de matar a mí mismo narrativa bicicleta mente años despertar media noche pensando que muchas veces ive activamente suicida menos conseguido verdaderamente suicida significado realmente quería morir en que