want outhi im  im failure everything do motivation much days days seem little brighter comes crashing again today one days know long ive depressed many years sure last proper job  months ago father talk anymore hes prick sisters birthday dinner couple days ago kinda pretended exist last relationship ended months ago since ive living moms house ive gotten back together ex  months ago decided go  month trip another continent everything planned went last week decided wanted be alone find herself called telling contact weekend believe her think wanted fuck someone feel guilty told never wanted see again dont feel like never loved me know is wanted us get back together one ended accept abandonment needed take control one make decision mother told much time hinted would put house soon quite times mocked everytime talked killing myself looks conflict constantly even confidence stand ground today terrible day ive response cv sent then first exgf texted told want listen could get things chest disturbed quite bit second mother came yelling forgot wash plate yelled quite bit sent  cvs today told time running every opportunity life lie know fault noone hates myself strength anymore cant pull fucking bootstraps like society demands to want pain wanted anyone go away want die ive looking balcony thinking want it want pain either know do strength anymore anything beaten outof me real friends anymore everyone liked end alienating went away treatment option money wanted write something hopes would calm down want homeless decided kill comes it ive picked spot ill jump comes it im tired lonely sad angry weak im going sleep kill today sorry torrent uncohesive thoughts
want outhi imim failure everything do motivation much days days seem little brighter comes crashing again today one days know long ive depressed many years sure last proper job months ago father talk anymore hes prick sisters birthday dinner couple days ago kinda pretended exist last relationship ended months ago since ive living moms house ive gotten back together ex months ago decided go month trip another continent everything planned went last week decided wanted be alone find herself called telling contact weekend believe her think wanted fuck someone feel guilty told never wanted see again dont feel like never loved me know is wanted us get back together one ended accept abandonment needed take control one make decision mother told much time hinted would put house soon quite times mocked everytime talked killing myself looks conflict constantly even confidence stand ground today terrible day ive response cv sent then first exgf texted told want listen could get things chest disturbed quite bit second mother came yelling forgot wash plate yelled quite bit sent cvs today told time running every opportunity life lie know fault noone hates myself strength anymore cant pull fucking bootstraps like society demands to want pain wanted anyone go away want die ive looking balcony thinking want it want pain either know do strength anymore anything beaten outof me real friends anymore everyone liked end alienating went away treatment option money wanted write something hopes would calm down want homeless decided kill comes itive picked spot ill jump comes it im tired lonely sad angry weak im going sleep kill today sorry torrent uncohesive thoughts
Querer outhi imim fracaso todo hacer motivación muchos días días parece poco más brillante viene estrellarse de nuevo hoy un día sabe largo ive deprimido muchos años seguro último trabajo adecuado meses hace padre hablar más hes polla hermanas cena cumpleaños hace un par de días un poco fingido existe última relación hace meses desde viv vivo mamás casa ive volvió a estar juntos hace meses decidió viaje de un mes otro continente todo planeado fue la semana pasada decidió quería estar sola se encontró llamada contar contacto fin de semana creo que piensa quería mierda alguien se siente culpable dijo nunca quería volver a ver no siento que nunca me amaba saber es querido volver juntos un final aceptar abandono necesario tomar control una decisión hacer madre dijo mucho tiempo insinuó poner casa pronto bastante veces se burlaba cada vez que hablaba de matarme parece conflicto constantemente incluso confianza mantenerse en pie hoy terrible día respuesta ive cv enviado entonces primero exgf texto dicho querer escuchar podría conseguir cosas pecho perturbado