wonder im person intentionally tries eat deathim sure right place post this im guy early s  think around lbs ive suicidal least extent since maybe  remember really life always sucked growing violent parents violent way society  support nothing special problems school adult problems internal alone world always been fucked head care anything enjoy little so guess started joke maybe ive fan eating since age  so fat since guess th grade weight lower s early s said something wanting die heart attack joking im coming elizabeth da bears last words point decided wanted eat junk food killed me honestly think id live long im scared cut wrist take pills part fear is im agnostic find blasphemous humor particularly amusing im good person ive lived society tell ya hell bullshit part believes it maybe part looks bad guy behind shower curtain get pee night me im funny make light anything think im serious honest still alive getting worse mentally neglecting ones health decade predictable results see coming comfortable carrying around legs hurt tired time junk squished pubic fat thigh fat expensive eating habits impossible find fitting pants offline etc ugly disgusting looking thing added benefit better excuse seeking impossible romantic attachment utterly fucked head am low opinion people eager become find spot back knife would fit best like idea fatal heart attack sudden unpredictable over like pressure actually pulling trigger taking pills taken hands put onto something almost like chance mean like one redflag pill taking would hard  cyanide pill  placebos mixed real good took one pill day thats easy right instead pill  tasty burgers lunch another  dinner even so think options continue see long last unless worsening depression drives take direct action cant turn back theres nothing world one trust talk to ive finally admitted sweet lies told cheer lies redacted cant seek therapy trust therapists least honorable professions charge hundreds dollars hour make feel better id rather die talk redacted damage ive done body hard work self denial surgeries dental work plastic surgery would take make normal serve convenient burnt bridge know anyone read this doubt could help wanted to think feel little better writing down least talk strangers respond getting offended would dare try hurt feelings hurt every single day poor babies
wonder im person intentionally tries eat deathim sure right place post this im guy early s think around lbs ive suicidal least extent since maybe remember really life always sucked growing violent parents violent way society support nothing special problems school adult problems internal alone world always been fucked head care anything enjoy little so guess started joke maybe ive fan eating since age so fat since guess th grade weight lower s early s said something wanting die heart attack joking im coming elizabeth da bears last words point decided wanted eat junk food killed me honestly think id live longim scared cut wrist take pills part fear is im agnostic find blasphemous humor particularly amusing im good person ive lived society tell ya hell bullshit part believes it maybe part looks bad guy behind shower curtain get pee nightme im funny make light anything think im serious honest still alive getting worse mentally neglecting ones health decade predictable results see coming comfortable carrying around legs hurt tired time junk squished pubic fat thigh fat expensive eating habits impossible find fitting pants offline etc ugly disgusting looking thing added benefit better excuse seeking impossible romantic attachment utterly fucked head am low opinion people eager become find spot back knife would fit best like idea fatal heart attack sudden unpredictable over like pressure actually pulling trigger taking pills taken hands put onto something almost like chance mean like one redflag pill taking would hard cyanide pill placebos mixed real good took one pill day thats easy right instead pill tasty burgers lunch another dinner even so think options continue see long last unless worsening depression drives take direct action cant turn back theres nothing world one trust talk to ive finally admitted sweet lies told cheer lies redacted cant seek therapy trust therapists least honorable professions charge hundreds dollars hour make feel better id rather die talk redacted damage ive done body hard work self denial surgeries dental work plastic surgery would take make normal serve convenient burnt bridge know anyone read this doubt could help wanted to think feel little better writing down least talk strangers respond getting offended would dare try hurt feelings hurt every single day poor babies
wonder im persona intenta intencionalmente comer deathim lugar correcto seguro este im chico temprano s pensar alrededor de lbs ive suicida menor grado ya que tal vez recordar realmente la vida siempre chupado crecimiento violentos padres violencia manera sociedad apoyo nada problemas especiales escuela adultos problemas internos solo mundo siempre se ha follado cuidado de la cabeza cualquier cosa disfrutar poco así que supongo comenzó broma tal vez ive fan comer desde edad tan gordo desde conjeturas th grado peso más bajo s temprano s dijo algo que quería morir ataque al corazón broma im venir elizabeth da osos última palabra punto decidido quería comer comida chatarra me mató honestamente creo id vivo longim asustado cortar la muñeca tomar píldoras parte miedo es im agnóstico encontrar humor blasfemo particularmente divertido im buena persona viva sociedad contar ya infierno mierda parte cree que tal vez parte se ve mal chico detrás cortina ducha orina nocheme