hard die ive made peace itis unreasonable want certainty death want know try kill myself work one biggest things struggle with want found passed bleeding tub rope break go hospital wake getting stomach pumped otherwise difficulty impact itll people around me ive isolated much outside people work with less handful people know always seems something brother got married mom depressed brother baby grandfather died today moms birthday next week neverending litany impacts death lives want feel stuck helpless yet keep chugging along day relying substance abuse make one next getting closer closer point feel like try hope get lucky im work feels like black hole abdomen threatening disintegrate carefully constructed composure way know make another minutes time leave wish someone could save me least care me
hard die ive made peace itis unreasonable want certainty death want know try kill myself work one biggest things struggle with want found passed bleeding tub rope break go hospital wake getting stomach pumped otherwise difficulty impact itll people around me ive isolated much outside people work with less handful people know always seems something brother got married mom depressed brother baby grandfather died today moms birthday next week neverending litany impacts death lives want feel stuck helpless yet keep chugging along day relying substance abuse make one next getting closer closer point feel like try hope get lucky im work feels like black hole abdomen threatening disintegrate carefully constructed composure way know make another minutes time leave wish someone could save me least care me
Duro die ive made peace is irrazonable want certainity la muerte quiere saber intentar matarme trabajo una cosa más grande lucha con el deseo encontrado sangrado bañera cuerda romper ir hospital despertar conseguir el estómago bombeado de otro modo dificultad impacto lell gente alrededor de mí ive aislada mucho gente fuera de trabajar con menos gente puñado sabe siempre parece que algo hermano se casó mamá hermano deprimido bebé abuelo murió hoy mamás cumpleaños de la próxima semana sin fin letanía impactos muerte vidas quieren sentirse atascados desamparado sin embargo seguir a lo largo del día dependiendo abuso de sustancias hacer un punto cada vez más cerca se siente como intentar tener suerte trabajo se siente como agujero negro abdomen amenaza desintegrarse cuidadosamente construido composure manera saber hacer otro minuto tiempo dejar deseo alguien podría ahorrarme menos cuidado