hopes up crushed epicallyive suffering depression long remember stopped taking meds two months ago make feel keep mind good place begin with already inches swallowing  bottles pills have weeks ago encouraged apply promotion work interviewed really well according interviewer asked later on even acting supervisor days supervisors available told supervisors  sure means got it get work today check email find complete utter denial explanation nobody else applied position tonight taking pills ive saved up im worthless im  worthless deserve live nobody severe ptsd raped military twice got months later given hiv  yr old male btw want keep living maybe ill swallow pills maybe ill jump front train maybe ill even bleed out ten years left live anyways nobody would care
hopes up crushed epicallyive suffering depression long remember stopped taking meds two months ago make feel keep mind good place begin with already inches swallowing bottles pills have weeks ago encouraged apply promotion work interviewed really well according interviewer asked later on even acting supervisor days supervisors available told supervisors sure means got it get work today check email find complete utter denial explanation nobody else applied position tonight taking pills ive saved up im worthless im worthless deserve live nobody severe ptsd raped military twice got months later given hivyr old male btw want keep living maybe ill swallow pills maybe ill jump front trainmaybe ill even bleed out ten years left live anyways nobody would care
esperanzas aplastadas épicamente sufrimiento depresión largo recordar dejó de tomar medicamentos hace dos meses hacer sentir buen lugar comenzar con ya pulgadas tragar botellas píldoras han semanas ha alentado a aplicar trabajo de promoción entrevistado muy bien de acuerdo entrevistador preguntado más tarde incluso actuar supervisor días supervisores disponibles dijo a supervisores medios seguro consiguió trabajo hoy comprobar correo electrónico encontrar completa explicación negación completa nadie más aplicación posición esta noche tomar píldoras ive saved im inútil im merecer vivir nadie ptsd severo violado militar dos veces consiguió meses más tarde dado hivyr viejo macho btw quiere seguir viviendo tal vez mal tragar píldoras tal vez mal salto tren delantero tal vez mal incluso sangrar diez años de vida de todos modos a nadie le importa