inconsequential ramblingsive hard times long time ago ive come understand troubles life result shit went  years ago now directly comes time everybodys life realize responsible choices certainly am held accountable happened me people change life change without cutting ties massive effort people really capable of maybe included idk im trying though im back school im stumbling across bull shit problems last time around  years ago seclusion hard time life go away quickly really fucks up every day faced dread peers never experienced never will prolonged exposure sort shit changes person literally changes you synapses change different neural pathways become ingrained like trenches ruts become almost impossible climb of brain fucks cope add isolation concoction result one trainwreck personality ie me dad died suddenly without warning mom confessed suicidal thoughts me still boy fucked man gone forever happy family gone forever gone god damn instant little left almost wondered even existed first place holding onto memories like grabbing smoke shit continued years later widow cant afford house anymore lose it fucking home place grew up gone likely forever im holding place heart someday successful enough buy back despite sincere fucking efforts school feel acting vain much thoughts run depraved desperate demeanor alienate myself alone crowd going motions smiling polite happy normal thin veneer nobody understands
inconsequential ramblingsive hard times long time ago ive come understand troubles life result shit went years ago now directly comes time everybodys life realize responsible choices certainly am held accountable happened me people change life change without cutting ties massive effort people really capable of maybe included idk im trying though im back school im stumbling across bull shit problems last time around years ago seclusion hard time life go away quickly really fucks up every day faced dread peers never experienced never will prolonged exposure sort shit changes person literally changes you synapses change different neural pathways become ingrained like trenches ruts become almost impossible climb of brain fucks cope add isolation concoction result one trainwreck personality ie me dad died suddenly without warning mom confessed suicidal thoughts me still boy fucked man gone forever happy family gone forever gone god damn instant little left almost wondered even existed first place holding onto memories like grabbing smoke shit continued years later widow cant afford house anymore lose it fucking home place grew up gone likely forever im holding place heart someday successful enough buy back despite sincere fucking efforts school feel acting vain much thoughts run depraved desperate demeanor alienate myself alone crowd going motions smiling polite happy normal thin veneer nobody understands
Inconsecuentes divagaciones tiempos duros hace mucho tiempo ive come entender problemas resultado vida mierda pasado años ahora directamente llega tiempo todos la vida se dan cuenta de las elecciones responsables ciertamente se hace responsable me pasó la gente cambia la vida cambio sin cortar lazos esfuerzo masivo gente realmente capaz de tal vez incluir idk im tratando aunque estoy en la escuela