hello guys first all sorry advance english native language struggling suicidal thoughts months need advice problem advice cope situation would appreciated come middleclass family third world country  years ago borrowed savings money family around  interested stock markets wanted earn side money higher education parents especially dad checking updates every month money doing techsavvy believes tell him long story short noob lost  money could tell lost  since huge amount us lied told invested money bucket stocks according current prices stocks told value  both bad good luck ig lied have  money lose invested index funds thinks  worth stocks reality far different although financially well would ask withdraw fictional money thinks have scared shit would find out cannot tell truth lost money  years ago would break lied him cannot hold lies anymore too since every month ask updates hurts mentally suicidal thoughts now cannot take anymore cannot talk situtation anyone guilt shame posting using throwaway account advice deal would appriciated thankyou struggling suicidal thoughts advice needed
hello guys first all sorry advance english native language struggling suicidal thoughts months need advice problem advice cope situation would appreciated come middleclass family third world country years ago borrowed savings money family around interested stock markets wanted earn side money higher education parents especially dad checking updates every month money doing techsavvy believes tell him long story short noob lost money could tell lost since huge amount us lied told invested money bucket stocks according current prices stocks told value both bad good luck ig lied have money lose invested index funds thinks worth stocks reality far different although financially well would ask withdraw fictional money thinks have scared shit would find out cannot tell truth lost money years ago would break lied him cannot hold lies anymore too since every month ask updates hurts mentally suicidal thoughts now cannot take anymore cannot talk situtation anyone guilt shame posting using throwaway account advice deal would appriciated thankyou struggling suicidal thoughts advice needed
Hola chicos primero todos lo siento avance Inglés nativo lucha contra pensamientos suicidas meses necesidad consejo problema consejo hacer frente situación apreciaría venir familia de clase media tercer mundo país hace años dinero prestado dinero familia alrededor de los mercados de valores interesados quería ganar dinero lado educación superior padres especialmente papá comprobar actualizaciones cada mes dinero haciendo techsavvy cree decirle larga historia corto noob dinero perdido podría decir perdido ya gran cantidad nos mintió dijo dinero invertido acciones cubo de acuerdo a precios actuales acciones dicho valor tanto mala suerte ig mentira han perdido dinero inversión índice fondos piensa que vale la pena realidad mucho diferente aunque financieramente bien pediría retiro dinero ficticio piensa que la mierda miedo descubriría no decir la verdad dinero perdido hace años romper le mintió no puede mantener mentiras también ya ya ya que cada mes pedir actualizaciones duele pensamientos suicidas mentales ahora no puede hablar más persona culpa vergüenza publicar utilizando cuenta despojado acuerdo asesoramiento appriciated thanksy you lucha pensamientos suicidas consejo necesario