im monsterthis bothering life long time lurker first time posting here feel im wits end funny thing is feel like super depressed anxious feel fine today albeit littleempty woke lot pain besides that im perfectly okay im confused seemingly unending death wish  even im okay im laughing now writing this threw balance today back pain funny slight inconvenience enough make want want kill myself thought okay life mean im published author musician suck it used straight student im anymore im university plans become doctor really plans parents plans personally want musician want music thing make feel like monster hurricane katrina destroyed home  excited move practically start life over father stayed home mom siblings hopped state state settling down without father expected new start life genuinely excited expecting get molested raped however im male day never truly felt same young shaped today good thing ive bullied vast majority life religion im muslim always ass end ass kicking ass end bomb joke  joke never really took heart kid lately coming back adult life feels like th grade pe again  diagnosed tumor specifically hemangioma  collection blood cells  t vertebrae spine operated immediately year medication blood work hospital stays countless mris cat scans  surgeries later cancer free never chemotherapy family want it growing cancer highschool days never upset actuallyrelieved honestly thought gonna die never told anyone course deep down hoped cancer would kill me upset just relieved like road trip really really need pee finally stop feel whole sensation relief taking hold body thats long for went remainder highschool years neck back brace certainly help case since surgeries ive great deal pain thought could turn drugs take pain away drugs kinda just took over huge problem certainly problem hated problem all im guilty crime want explain it but ive hurt someome sexually regard hurt sexually growing up thought right thing learned learned wrong hurt poor soul probably ive hurt wish could rectify mistakes god way undo entire life fucking show way im monster want end fucking circus life ive hurt im truly sorry nothing ever forgive me wish could modicum forgiveness told okay fairy tale  real life real life sunshine happiness unicorns rainbows fucking dank miserable unforgiving im glad learned earlier rather later know im myself hope find way life wish balls myself
im monsterthis bothering life long time lurker first time posting here feel im wits end funny thing is feel like super depressed anxious feel fine today albeit littleempty woke lot pain besides that im perfectlyokayim confused seemingly unending death wish even imokayim laughing now writing this threw balance today back pain funny slight inconvenience enough make want want kill myself thought okay life meanim published author musician suck it used straight student im anymore im university plans become doctor really plans parents plans personally want musician want music thing make feel like monster hurricane katrina destroyed home excited move practically start life over father stayed home mom siblings hopped state state settling down without father expected new start life genuinely excited expecting get molested raped however im male day never truly felt same young shaped today good thing ive bullied vast majority life religion im muslim always ass end ass kicking ass end bomb joke joke never really took heart kid lately coming back adult life feels like th grade pe again diagnosed tumor specifically hemangioma collection blood cells t vertebrae spine operated immediately year medication blood work hospital stays countless mris cat scans surgeries later cancer free never chemotherapy family want it growing cancer highschool days never upset actuallyrelieved honestly thought gonna die never told anyone course deep down hoped cancer would kill me upset just relieved like road trip really really need pee finally stop feel whole sensation relief taking hold body thats long for went remainder highschool years neck back brace certainly help case since surgeries ive great deal pain thought could turn drugs take pain away drugs kinda just took over huge problem certainly problem hated problem all im guilty crime want explain it but ive hurt someome sexually regard hurt sexually growing up thought right thing learned learned wrong hurt poor soul probably ive hurt wish could rectify mistakes god way undo entire life fucking show way im monster want end fucking circus life ive hurt im truly sorry nothing ever forgive me wish could modicum forgiveness told okay fairy tale real life real life sunshine happiness unicorns rainbows fucking dank miserable unforgiving im glad learned earlier rather later knowim myself hope find way life wish balls myself
In monsterthi molestando la vida por mucho tiempo merodeador primera vez publicar aquí siento mi ingenio final divertido cosa es sentir como súper deprimido ansioso sentirse bien hoy aunque poco vacío despertar mucho dolor además de que im perfectamente okayim confundido aparentemente interminable deseo de muerte incluso imokayim risas ahora escribir este tirón equilibrio hoy dolor de espalda divertido leve inconveniente suficiente hacer querer querer matarme pensamiento bien vida meanim publicado autor músico chupa se utiliza recta estudiante