well feeling like im alone eggshells afraid talk anyonemy life mess thats best possible way summarize current ordeala mess complete totally fucking chaotic mess long remember shit started going wrong me im talking like hard times school mean did daddy hug me got flat tire lost job stress is glitch glitch ask well guy told believed path predestiney went path world universe whatever bullshit abstract deity want call would ratify said issue back track first romantic notion appealed me made hopeful assume probably pathetic way people cling indifferent god allows child rapes serial killers mass war go on things bad thing keep losing call humanity think must greater meaning im tell unfortunate uncomfortable brutal fucking truth bad shit happens bad shit happens greater plan god destiny nothing end gun void thoughtless empty black nothingness im sure think im jaded fuck youre probably wrong thing doesnt mean im necessary wrong either grew usaf bases mom cheated dad every chance had decent debate kid since korea seemed created dad got began travel railroad leaving behind  siblings different men psychotic mother credit loved best could thats saying much much youre small defenseless child brother would rape sister i im lucky enough infant years didnt find teen asked kicked out mom would cheat would beat accidentally let word slip mention things like motel made sister sleep nd bed next screwed guy dad traveling five years old confused ever mentioned vacation thats called took z liter bottle pepsi side head held bath tub water eventually seen liability her began locking entryway closet leaving hours made fort convinced hiding spot even though tied shut side time went dad finally made mom get job went still school age went babysitters house long long story short lucky enough find put child porn daughter nicole  year old babysitter meanwhile son set cameras room raped aladdin barbie doll amongst mcguvery rape childrens toys could think of certainly life would get better right mean predestiney fucking path right surely wasnt destined life suffering wrong dad mom divorced dad remarried abusive psychnurse loaded already alcoholic father benzos like fucking candy one point counted  different medications on hell dad developed creepy unhealthy obsession weight appearance stepmom fuming jealousy dad maintaining type relationship overtime many drugs convinced verbal abuser inherited mental illness mother couldnt trusted punished mostly shaming first date boy ever woke found house covered post say abuse cannot tolerated abuse tolerated  ran around hysterically pulling down missed one behind curtains window obviously relationship dead ended time turned  saw joined army surely free source pain real world would much kinder also fucking wrong miserably long uncomfortable situation recall ends several assaults rapes baby later it win one good bad her flawless pure unruined baby girl even longer story later wealthy creepy obsessive man manages taken me raised alone   years shes alive got her money win court cases sorry kids arent books read school right wrong good guy bad guy means shit real world money power money win end trying kill times think fairly fucking justified point game ive homeless hungry raped abandoned moment formative memory go inpatient va hospital ptsd thats met him fucking light end miserable tunnel bullshit fucking glimmer hope end phone hes sarcastic witty rough around ends hes perfect feds stories promise hope life living surviving tells end reason let heart keep beating like  months later wonderful although complicated bit pain ass man shows afghanistan mpls airport rescue hell hole ive drowning in first moment hugged knew finally safe first time since birth safe me didnt need look shoulder didnt wonder happiness even option real possibility married him best day life know looking history thats saying much imagine felt day normal people hope entire lives feel like pain bad poured moment him me perfectly fucked together rest world rules didnt matter nothing else either ever going need want there least felt im sure unsurprising anyone point trust exactly strong suit ive forced position choosing future life man living wealthy scary man able see daughter every week pretty much hardest situation ive faced yet clearly thats saying something today light hope man isnt even sure thinks im worth all hes far first look think maybe would better pass pass someone less damaged less sad less scared confused complicated honestly couldnt hold him sit looking back life wondering im glitch mentioned maybe god entity something goal erase mistake made thats im tortured hopefully ill kill set everything back order maybe fucking meaningless suffering shitty role dice
well feeling like im alone eggshells afraid talk anyonemy life mess thats best possible way summarize current ordeala mess complete totally fucking chaotic mess long remember shit started going wrong me im talking like hard times school meandid daddy hug me got flat tire lost job stress is glitch glitch askwell guy told believed path predestiney went path world universe whatever bullshit abstract deity want call would ratify said issue back track first romantic notion appealed me made hopeful assume probably pathetic way people cling indifferent god allows child rapes serial killers mass war go on things bad thing keep losing call humanity think must greater meaning im tell unfortunate uncomfortable brutal fucking truth bad shit happens bad shit happens greater plan god destiny nothing end gun void thoughtless empty black nothingness im sure think im jadedfuck youre probably wrong thing doesnt mean im necessary wrong either grew usaf bases mom cheated dad every chance had decent debate kid since korea seemed created dad got began travel railroad leaving behind siblings different men psychotic mother credit loved best could thats saying much much youre small defenseless child brother would rape sisteri im lucky enough infant years didnt find teen asked kicked out mom would cheat would beat accidentally let word slip mention things like motel made sister sleep nd bed next screwed guy dad traveling five years old confused ever mentioned vacation thats called took z liter bottle pepsi side head held bath tub water eventually seen liability her began locking entryway closet leaving hours made fort convinced hiding spot even though tied shut side time went dad finally made mom get job went still school age went babysitters house long long story short lucky enough find put child porn daughter nicole year old babysitter meanwhile son set cameras room raped aladdin barbie doll amongst mcguvery rape childrens toys could think of certainly life would get better right mean predestiney fucking path right surely wasnt destined life suffering wrong dad mom divorced dad remarried abusive psychnurse loaded already alcoholic father benzos like fucking candy one point counted different medications on hell dad developed creepy unhealthy obsession weight appearance stepmom fuming jealousy dad maintaining type relationship overtime many drugs convinced verbal abuser inherited mental illness mother couldnt trusted punished mostly shaming first date boy ever woke found house covered post say abuse cannot tolerated abuse tolerated ran around hysterically pulling down missed one behind curtains window obviously relationship dead ended time turned saw joined army surely free source pain real world would much kinder also fucking wrong miserably long uncomfortable situation recall ends several assaults rapes baby later it win one good bad her flawless pure unruined baby girl even longer story later wealthy creepy obsessive man manages taken me raised alone years shes alive got her money win court cases sorry kids arent books read school right wrong good guy bad guy means shit real world money power money win end trying kill times think fairly fucking justified point game ive homeless hungry raped abandoned moment formative memory go inpatient va hospital ptsd thats met him fucking light end miserable tunnel bullshit fucking glimmer hope end phone hes sarcastic witty rough around ends hes perfect feds stories promise hope life living surviving tells end reason let heart keep beating like months later wonderful although complicated bit pain ass man shows afghanistan mpls airport rescue hell hole ive drowning in first moment hugged knew finally safe first time since birth safe me didnt need look shoulder didnt wonder happiness even option real possibility married him best day life know looking history thats saying much imagine felt day normal people hope entire lives feel like pain bad poured moment him me perfectly fucked together rest world rules didnt matter nothing else either ever going need want there least felt im sure unsurprising anyone point trust exactly strong suit ive forced position choosing future life man living wealthy scary man able see daughter every week pretty much hardest situation ive faced yet clearly thats saying something today light hope man isnt even sure thinks im worth all hes far first look think maybe would better pass pass someone less damaged less sad less scared confused complicated honestly couldnt hold him sit looking back life wondering im glitch mentioned maybe god entity something goal erase mistake made thats im tortured hopefully ill kill set everything back order maybe fucking meaningless suffering shitty role dice
Bueno, sentir como si yo sola cáscaras de huevo miedo hablar a cualquiera mi vida desastre que es la mejor manera posible resumen actual ordeño desastre completo completo mierda caos largo recordar mierda comenzó a ir mal yo im hablar como duro tiempo escuela mezquino papá abrazo me tiene pinchado neumático perdido trabajo estrés es fallo técnico error askwell chico le dijo que el camino creído predestino camino universo mundo camino cualquier mierda de la deidad abstracta quiere llamar ratificar dicho tema de nuevo pista primero noción romántica me hizo esperar asumir probablemente patético manera la gente se aferra indiferente dios permite violaciónes niños asesinos en serie guerra masiva ir en cosas malas seguir perdiendo humanidad pensar debe mayor significado Im decir desafortunado incómodo brutal verdad mierda malo sucede mierda malo sucede mayor plan destino dios nada final arma vacío pensamiento vacío negro nada im seguro pensar im jadedfuck