tried kill i gotten theni  depression  years seeing therapists psychologists social workers since     medications tried kill first time  stayed psych wards   times the last time  tired depressed energy could would lie bed day caffeine help mg today pm im ready go bed drive motivation everything flat want normal able function like people can want live like more seems like constantly irritable cant focus anything increasingly suicidal  weeks now decided go see therapist college earlier gone talk doctor medications first feeling suicidal doubled medicationthis made less suicidal throwing lot think straight also stop taking medication cant afford more so went see counselor basically  responses oh sucks yes verbatim left said remember need emergency help call  told financially possible me said oh sucks it tired live like this much effort little payoff fucking energy killing me would kill tonight roommate find body
tried killi gotten theni depression years seeing therapists psychologists social workers since medications tried kill first time stayed psych wards times the last time tired depressed energy could would lie bed day caffeine help mg today pmim ready go bed drive motivation everything flat want normal able function like people can want live like more seems like constantly irritable cant focus anything increasingly suicidal weeks now decided go see therapist college earlier gone talk doctor medications first feeling suicidal doubled medicationthis made less suicidal throwing lot think straight also stop taking medication cant afford more so went see counselor basically responses oh sucksyes verbatim left said remember need emergency help call told financially possible me said oh sucks it tired live like this much effort little payoff fucking energy killing me would kill tonight roommate find body
tryed killi get theni depresión años ver terapeutas psicólogos trabajadores sociales desde medicamentos probados matar por primera vez estancias psiquiátricas veces la última vez cansado energía deprimida podría acostarse cama día cafeína ayuda mg hoy pmim listo ir conducir cama motivación todo plano querer normal capaz función como la gente puede querer vivir como más parece como constantemente irritable cant foco nada cada vez más suicida semanas ahora decidido ir ver terapeuta universidad antes ido hablar médico medicamentos primero sentir suicida doble medicaciónesto hizo menos suicida tirar mucho pensar directamente también dejar de tomar medicamentos no puede permitirse más así que fue ver consejeros básicamente respuestas oh suckyes left dicho recuerda necesidad de ayuda de emergencia llamada me dijo financieramente posible me dijo oh chupa cansado vivir como este esfuerzo poco pago puta energía matarme mataría esta noche compañero de cuarto encontrar cuerpo