im fifteen already want dieim tired living spend day alone ive lost track time last months flew cant focus anything im constantly exhausted lived toxic family ive gotten beat belt thirteen punched twice constantly insulted father tried telling mom brushed everything told her sister completely invalidated anything said whenever said something little please that got attacked ends family trust anyone that cant talk people whenever someone tries talking freeze up whenever adult tells anything completely spiral teacher would tell stop something would feel shameful got bullied pretty much entirety middle school schools punching bag everyone would always make fun barely spoke all teachers joined too would get called on go silent would wait speak everyone waited around found friends least thought did im anybody else talk too year entered high school terrible get through felt empty time would pass would stay room im scared leave im scared talk anyone now feel like one life trust then first semester went home got called retard dumbass idiot days got pushed around yelled at etc know feel now im completely lost alone isolated im tired haul everyday want sleep things used pull work anymore anything friends anything enjoy anybody turn too cant much longer feel like escape this keep waiting get better suddenly four years passed nothing changed nothing seems change know else do im hopeless
im fifteen already want dieim tired living spend day alone ive lost track time last months flew cant focus anything im constantly exhausted lived toxic family ive gotten beat belt thirteen punched twice constantly insulted father tried telling mom brushed everything told her sister completely invalidated anything said whenever said something little please that got attacked ends family trust anyone that cant talk people whenever someone tries talking freeze up whenever adult tells anything completely spiral teacher would tell stop something would feel shameful got bullied pretty much entirety middle school schools punching bag everyone would always make fun barely spoke all teachers joined too would get called on go silent would wait speak everyone waited around found friends least thought did im anybody else talk too year entered high school terrible get through felt empty time would pass would stay room im scared leave im scared talk anyone now feel like one life trust then first semester went home got called retard dumbass idiot days got pushed around yelled at etc know feel now im completely lost alone isolated im tired haul everyday want sleep things used pull work anymore anything friends anything enjoy anybody turn too cant much longer feel like escape this keep waiting get better suddenly four years passed nothing changed nothing seems change know else do im hopeless
Im quince ya quieren dieim cansado vivir pasar el día solo ive perdido track time los últimos meses voló no puede centrarse en nada im constantemente agotado vida tóxico familia i Ive recibió golpe cinturón trece golpeado dos veces constantemente insultado padre trató de decirle a mamá cepilló todo le dijo a su hermana completamente invalidado cualquier cosa dicho cada vez que dijo algo poco por favor que fue atacado extremos familia confiar en cualquiera que no puede hablar gente cuando alguien intenta hablar congelación cuando alguien dice algo completamente espiral profesor diría parar algo se sentiría vergonzoso fue intimidado casi todo escuela secundaria bolsa de boxeo todos siempre se burlarían apenas hablaban todos los profesores se unieron también se llaman en silencio esperar hablar todo el mundo se encontraron amigos menos pensado im alguien habló demasiado año entró en la escuela secundaria terrible conseguir a través de sensación de tiempo vacío pasaría estancia im miedo salir