happy life thats im sadi dont know want life parents always wonderful trying support me even though dont lot friends especially close ones ones still nice around im middle class white guy real personality kinda drifting life real aspirations goals find self destructive practices stress thing make feel alive anymore thats probably hate myself wonderful girlfriend made wrong decisions relationship recently lost her one blame myself frankly hardest part life right living regret hold heart im college graduating degree mathematics soon degree dont even remotely care about thought crippling debt strengthens shame earning degree im even proud of truly ive thought redflag every day last  years days wake angry couldnt died sleep want kill myself dont want put effort actually go it want leave knowing leave behind take guilt shame comes losing loved one maybe dont want die wish never born all im torn whats point living things actually get better im seeing therapist end month figure hell tell get hobby focus things make happy nothing really makes happy even try reason sad sad guys
happy life thats im sadi dont know want life parents always wonderful trying support me even though dont lot friends especially close ones ones still nice around im middle class white guy real personality kinda drifting life real aspirations goals find self destructive practices stress thing make feel alive anymore thats probably hate myself wonderful girlfriend made wrong decisions relationship recently lost her one blame myself frankly hardest part life right living regret hold heart im college graduating degree mathematics soon degree dont even remotely care about thought crippling debt strengthens shameearning degree im even proud of truly ive thought redflag every day last years days wake angry couldnt died sleep want kill myself dont want put effort actually go it want leave knowing leave behind take guilt shame comes losing loved one maybe dont want die wish never born all im torn whats point living things actually get better im seeing therapist end month figure hell tell get hobby focus things make happy nothing really makes happy even try reason sad sad guys
vida feliz que es im sadi no sé querer vida padres siempre maravillosos tratando de apoyarme a pesar de que no muchos amigos especialmente cerca de los que todavía agradable alrededor de im clase media chico blanco personalidad real un poco a la deriva vida real aspiraciones objetivos encontrar prácticas autodestructivas estrés cosa hacer sentir vivo ya que probablemente me odio a mí mismo maravilloso novia hizo malas decisiones relación recientemente perdió su culpa francamente parte más duro vida derecho arrepentimiento mantener corazón graduarse grado de matemáticas pronto grado ni siquiera remotamente cuidado de pensamiento paralizante deuda fortalece vergüenza grado im incluso orgulloso de verdaderamente vivo pensamiento rojo bandera cada día los últimos años días despertar enojado no podía morir sueño querer matarme quiero hacer esfuerzo en realidad ir quiere dejar saber dejar atrás tomar culpa vergüenza viene perder a un ser querido tal vez no quiero morir deseo nunca nacer todo im desgarrado punto vivir cosas en realidad conseguir mejor im ver terapeuta fin mes figura infierno decir conseguir enfoque pasatiempo cosas hacer feliz nada realmente hace feliz incluso intentar razón triste triste chicos tristes