scared might make mistake ive thinking it cant say would also cant say wouldnt feel weary point feel like im fooling continue trying make something life grew raised mom im halfwhite halfother mom country made things hard especially south dad physically life emotionally lived less mile away id probably see year constantly told could better son need me close friends like said grew south wrong skin tone generally treated outsider focused school making excel classes teachers praised necessarily help made outsider molested young age ive never told anyone besides one exgirlfriend upon time since then never cared sex kind physical love honest repulsed me girlfriends highschool due unwillingness perform made gay jokestongueincheek course still stung unfortunately stuck cliques ive never told wife this married love much event past feels dirty makes feel unclean im scared share it im afraid shell reject meshe wouldnt im afraid change view me want see victim survivor whatever event want see part all guess im ashamed it say past makes depressed maybe makes bit detached life depressed fact see life getting better depresses me im stuck crap jobi went college scholarships dried really funds support continue neighbors racistcant really move old view world changed now certainly stand chance changing it house almost literally shit feel like real excuses reasons depressed theres overwhelming feeling disconnect weariness makes feel like want go time things stopping wife nephew im pretty sure people life move on im foolish enough say others miss me theyll able recover fear wife would blame herself want leave her makes happy im disconnected guy feel urge continue strongly urge stop nephew two going three probably notice passed soon things wanted teach though wanted make life never poor mine first attempt week ago attempt might right word still think wouldve done honest maybe entertaining thought rented motel room planned taking bottle pillsi know wouldve felt bad hotel staff want wife one find me nephew called right opened bottle knows use cell phone tapping picture person listed case emergency somehow got moms phone hes raised grandma told loved wanted come play wept like baby went home late visited next day think could done day im sure really follow this thought keeps popping head constant urge sleep rest forget get with im scared might make mistake in one moment anger fear depression ill something cant reverse
scared might make mistake ive thinking it cant say would also cant say wouldnt feel weary point feel like im fooling continue trying make something life grew raised momim halfwhite halfother mom country made things hard especially south dad physically life emotionally lived less mile away id probably see year constantly told could better son need me close friends like said grew south wrong skin tone generally treated outsider focused school making excel classes teachers praised necessarily help made outsider molested young age ive never told anyone besides one exgirlfriend upon time since then never cared sex kind physical love honest repulsed me girlfriends highschool due unwillingness perform made gay jokestongueincheek course still stung unfortunately stuck cliques ive never told wife this married love much event past feels dirty makes feel unclean im scared shareit im afraid shell reject meshe wouldnt im afraid change view me want see victim survivor whatever event want see part all guess im ashamed it say past makes depressed maybe makes bit detached life depressed fact see life getting better depresses me im stuck crap jobi went college scholarships dried really funds support continue neighbors racistcant really move old view world changed now certainly stand chance changing it house almost literally shit feel like real excuses reasons depressed theres overwhelming feeling disconnect weariness makes feel like want gotime things stopping wife nephewim pretty sure people life move on im foolish enough say others miss me theyll able recover fear wife would blame herself want leave her makes happy im disconnectedguy feel urge continue strongly urge stop nephew two going three probably notice passed soon things wanted teach though wanted make life never poor mine first attempt week ago attempt might right word still think wouldve done honest maybe entertaining thought rented motel room planned taking bottle pillsi know wouldve felt bad hotel staff want wife one find me nephew called right opened bottle knows use cell phone tapping picture person listed case emergency somehow got moms phone hes raised grandma told loved wanted come play wept like baby went home late visited next day think could done day im sure really follow this thought keeps popping head constant urge sleep rest forget get with im scared might make mistake in one moment anger fear depression ill something cant reverse
miedo podría cometer error ive pensamiento que no puede decir también no podría decir no se siente punto cansado sentir como tonto seguir tratando de hacer algo la vida creció momim mitad blanco otra madre país hizo las cosas difíciles especialmente sur papá vida física vida emocional vivió menos millas de distancia id probablemente ver año constantemente dicho podría mejor hijo me necesita amigos cercanos como dijo creció sur mal tono de piel generalmente tratado outsider centrado escuela haciendo excelentes profesores elogiados necesariamente ayuda hecho forastero abusado joven edad ive nunca le dijo a nadie además de una ex novia a tiempo desde entonces nunca le importó sexo amable amor físico honesto repulsión me novias escuela secundaria debido a falta de voluntad actuar hizo gay bromas stonesngueincheek curso todavía punteado por desgracia cliques ive nunca le dijo a esposa este matrimonio amor mucho pasado se siente sucio se siente sucio im miedo compartir im miedo cáscara rechazar meshe im miedo