suicidality came back years peacehelloive struggled suicidal thoughts since  years old im  now self harm since young  so comes back different forms  sometimes spontaneous attempts sometimes planned sometimes unbearable need die wanted ask particular question were supposed survival instinct humans earth want die time therapist tells say want disappear instead die want something cease need break etc always quite precisely wanting die good  years barely self harm suicidal urges cbt moved countries recently diagnosed ptsd huge breakdown resurfacing suicidality crossing street every bridge rooftop calling me bus coming way sidewalk lost touch reality control body genuinely idea moved body front bus runs still standing sidewalk opened eyes realized alive
suicidality came back years peacehelloive struggled suicidal thoughts since years old im now self harm since young so comes back different forms sometimes spontaneous attempts sometimes planned sometimes unbearable need die wanted ask particular question were supposed survival instinct humans earth want die time therapist tells say want disappear instead die want something cease need break etc always quite precisely wanting die good years barely self harm suicidal urges cbt moved countries recently diagnosed ptsd huge breakdown resurfacing suicidality crossing street every bridge rooftop calling me bus coming way sidewalk lost touch reality control body genuinely idea moved body front bus runs still standing sidewalk opened eyes realized alive
suicidaidad volvió años pazhelloive luchado pensamientos suicidas desde años de edad im ahora autolesión ya joven así que vuelve diferentes formas a veces intentos espontáneos a veces planificados a veces insoportable necesidad morir quería hacer una pregunta particular fueron supuestos instinto de supervivencia humanos tierra querer morir tiempo terapeuta cuenta decir querer desaparecer en lugar de morir querer algo dejar de necesidad romper etc siempre muy precisamente querer morir buenos años apenas autolesión impulsos suicidas cbt países recientemente diagnosticados ptsd enorme ruptura resucitar suicidio cruzar calle cada puente azotea llamarme autobús que viene camino acera perdido control cuerpo realidad idea movida frente cuerpo correr acera abierta ojos realizo vivo