nobody talk feel deadi know im posting this anybody life talk maybe want someone acknowledge existence maybe sounds weird maybe not feel like talking someone anonymously online genuine person face face person pretend care acknowledge you ive drug problem years ive clean number months now everyone says slowly gets better ive slowly getting worse seem worst luck past years even im clean ironically enough cant speak parents friends fault left college year getting degree failing classes wake feeling terrible hopeless tired gets worse throughout day therapist likes talk  minutes hour session cant change right now money im interviewing job looks promising im worried im afraid ill mess up ive felt like years years starting using drugs even cant foresee getting better every day feel like ive zombie autopilot majority last decade even nobody responds wanted type ive never said feel really terrible right now
nobody talk feel deadi know im posting this anybody life talk maybe want someone acknowledge existence maybe sounds weird maybe not feel like talking someone anonymously online genuine person face face person pretend careacknowledge you ive drug problem years ive clean number months now everyone says slowly gets better ive slowly getting worse seem worst luck past years even im clean ironically enough cant speak parents friends fault left college year getting degree failing classes wake feeling terrible hopeless tired gets worse throughout daytherapist likes talk minutes hour session cant change right now money im interviewing job looks promising im worriedim afraid ill mess up ive felt like years years starting using drugs even cant foresee getting better every day feel like ive zombie autopilot majority last decade even nobody responds wanted type ive never said feel really terrible right now
nadie hablar se siente deadki sé im publicar esto cualquier persona vida hablar tal vez quiere alguien reconocer existencia tal vez suena raro tal vez no se siente como hablar alguien anónimamente en línea persona genuina cara cara persona fingimos cuidadoconocimiento usted ve problema de drogas años ive limpio número meses ahora todo el mundo dice poco a poco mejora ive lentamente empeorar parece peor suerte pasado años incluso im limpio irónicamente suficiente hablar padres amigos falla izquierda año de la universidad conseguir grado clases fallidas despertar sentirse terrible desesperado cansado se pone peor durante todo el día terapeuta me gusta hablar minutos hora sesión no puede cambiar ahora dinero im entrevista trabajo parece prometedor im preocupado miedo mal lío se siente como años empezando a usar drogas incluso no puede prever cada día cada vez mejor sensación como zombi viva piloto automático mayoría la década pasada incluso nadie responde quería tipo ive nunca dijo sentirse realmente terrible ahora