im even really living nowat  developed anxiety disorder ruined life path receiving ivleague education im struggling community college ability focus completely shot spent lot time reading philosophy find answers care money career children anything purpose life nothing every day string coping mechanisms designed distract fact life suffering ampxb late teens misfortune taking interest politics without going much ive found radicalized beliefs degree essentially closeted remainder life mental health existential end longer care humor mind spirit completely broken im mids best case scenario find girl treat like bronze medal find energy kid use reenter real world blend rest society family look anymore kid threw away life reason killed yet mom knows miserable told several times friends kids killed shed never recover probably divorce dad living past decade nothing despair even ego save face anymore watch rest world enjoy lives least drive exist creating envy refuse humor want become disgusting hate filled elderly person wait parents pass least go early avoid another  years remembered good person
im even really living nowat developed anxiety disorder ruined life path receiving ivleague education im struggling community college ability focus completely shot spent lot time reading philosophy find answers care money career children anything purpose life nothing every day string coping mechanisms designed distract fact life suffering ampxb late teens misfortune taking interest politics without going much ive found radicalized beliefs degree essentially closeted remainder life mental health existential end longer care humor mind spirit completely broken im mids best case scenario find girl treat like bronze medal find energy kid use reenter real world blend rest society family look anymore kid threw away life reason killed yet mom knows miserable told several times friends kids killed shed never recover probably divorce dad living past decade nothing despair even ego save face anymore watch rest world enjoy lives least drive exist creating envy refuse humor want become disgusting hate filled elderly person wait parents pass least go early avoid another years remembered good person
Im really living nowat desarrollado trastorno de ansiedad arruinado vida camino recibir educación ivleague im luchando comunidad universidad capacidad enfoque completamente tiro mucho tiempo dedicado lectura filosofía encontrar respuestas cuidado dinero carrera niños cualquier propósito vida nada cada día cadena mecanismos de afrontamiento diseñado distraer hecho vida sufrimiento ampxb finales adolescentes desgracia tomar interés política sin ir mucho ive encontrado radicaled creencias grado esencialmente cerrado resto vida salud mental final más largo cuidado humor mente espíritu completamente roto im mediados mejor caso escenario encontrar chica tratar como medalla de bronce encontrar energía niño uso volver a entrar real mundo mezcla resto sociedad familia mirada más niño arrojado a la vida razón muerto sin embargo mamá sabe miserable dijo varias veces amigos niños muertos derramarse nunca recuperar probablemente divorcio padre vivir nada desesperación ego salvar cara más ver resto mundo disfrutar vidas menos unidad existir crear envidia rechazar humor quiere convertirse en odio repugnante persona mayor espera padres pasar menos ir temprano evitar otros años recordado buena persona