small backstory used counselor suicide hotline hated job felt like could truly help anyone unfortunately also going depression thought would better leave job tried using hotline online honestly really sucked felt empty like solve anything swore would never use againampxbi extremely depressed suicidal lately due fact little social interactions others social redflag hard talk others overthink everything trying say wrong things mainly scared talk othersfor fear saying wrong things judgement etc seen therapist due scheduling able til end month today felt like could wait long talking new person redflaging talk annoying them message something made upset turned mess thought messed friendship little amount friends fear losing nothing understand overreact looking back now hard ampxbi called local suicide hotline one talk get like this worse decision ever called line told feeling upset suicidal told feeling sad know properly socialize making redflag depression stronger told know talk people right talking her okay sure get it asked friends talk to said no many friends two have feel comfortable talking this said why friends said i know talk others said why talk people talk okay fuck dude quickly ends call saying you talk people okay try ask make therapy appointment earlier it even  mins legit told suicidal active thoughts support got made feel even worse proved really cannot talk properly others like full conversation ended bad panic attack  mins ampxbtldr sad told suicide hotline lady feeling suicidal reason bad social redflag hard coversate others deveop meaningful notredflag told talk people easy  bye crisis hotline useless
small backstory used counselor suicide hotline hated job felt like could truly help anyone unfortunately also going depression thought would better leave job tried using hotline online honestly really sucked felt empty like solve anything swore would never use againampxbi extremely depressed suicidal lately due fact little social interactions others social redflag hard talk others overthink everything trying say wrong things mainly scared talk othersfor fear saying wrong things judgement etc seen therapist due scheduling able til end month today felt like could wait long talking new person redflaging talk annoying them message something made upset turned mess thought messed friendship little amount friends fear losing nothing understand overreact looking back now hard ampxbi called local suicide hotline one talk get like this worse decision ever called line told feeling upset suicidal told feeling sad know properly socialize making redflag depression stronger told know talk people right talking her okay sure get it asked friends talk to said no many friends two have feel comfortable talking this said why friends said i know talk others said why talk people talk okay fuck dude quickly ends call saying you talk peopleokay try ask make therapy appointment earlier it even mins legit told suicidal active thoughts support got made feel even worse proved really cannot talk properly others like full conversation ended bad panic attack mins ampxbtldr sad told suicide hotline lady feeling suicidal reason bad social redflag hard coversate others deveop meaningful notredflag told talk people easy bye crisis hotline useless
pequeño backstory usado consejero suicidio línea directa trabajo odiado se sentía como podría ayudar a alguien desafortunadamente también la depresión pensamiento mejor dejar el trabajo tratado utilizando línea directa en línea honestamente chupado se sentía vacío como resolver cualquier cosa jurada nunca usar de nuevo ampxbi extremadamente deprimido suicida últimamente debido a hecho poco interacciones sociales otros social redflag duro hablar otros sobrepensar todo tratando de decir cosas equivocadas principalmente miedo hablar otros por miedo a decir cosas equivocadas juicio etc visto terapeuta debido a programación capaz hasta fin de mes de hoy se sentía como podría esperar mucho hablar de nuevo persona eufórico hablar molestos mensaje algo hecho desordenado mal pensado mala amistad poca cantidad amigos miedo perder nada entender exageradamente mirar hacia atrás ahora duro ampxbi llamada local suicidio línea directa una charla se pone como esta peor decisión nunca se llama línea se dice malestar suicida se siente triste sabe socializarse adecuadamente hacer redflag depresión más fuerte dijo saber hablar gente derecho hablar ella