spirals keep getting worse  hopei keep falling intense depressive spirals  lead emotional outbursts make situation worse wife probably going leave cant deal that fallout pornsex addiction helped much either im boring deadend job pays well put geographically somewhere ive wanted years  live ocean away close friends im still nowhere musical dreams  beginning think never keep screwing everything up ive medication therapy keep falling apart  keep losing cool putting marraige gutter leads feeling hopeless know family cares im tired calling worry  theres nothing do thinking would losing effectiveness stopping committing redflag im sure anymore know theres future me im trouble feeling  beginning think going filled disappointing im broken advice
spirals keep getting worse hopei keep falling intense depressive spirals lead emotional outbursts make situation worse wife probably going leave cant deal that fallout pornsex addiction helped much eitherim boring deadend job pays well put geographically somewhere ive wanted years live ocean away close friends im still nowhere musical dreams beginning think never keep screwing everything up ive medication therapy keep falling apart keep losing cool putting marraige gutter leads feeling hopeless know family cares im tired calling worry theres nothing do thinking would losing effectiveness stopping committing redflagim sure anymore know theres future meim trouble feeling beginning think going filled disappointing im broken advice
espirales siguen empeorando esperanza seguir cayendo intensa espirales depresivas conducen estallidos emocionales empeorar la situación esposa probablemente va a salir no puede hacer que la adicción porno pornoprótesis ayudó mucho oreim aburrido trabajo de callejón sin salida paga bien puesto geográficamente en algún lugar live buscado años en vivo océano lejos amigos cercanos todavía en ninguna parte comienzan los sueños musicales pensar nunca seguir jodiendo todo ive medication terapia seguir cayendo a pedazos seguir perdiendo fresco poner marraige canalter conduce sin esperanza saber familia se preocupa estoy cansado llamar preocupación no hay nada pensar podría perder la eficacia dejar de cometer flagim rojo seguro saber no hay futuro meim problema sentir comenzar pensar va lleno decepcionante im consejo roto