alone need helpi see things there miss dead dad dead  nowhere miss dead cat blame seeing sick early enough save him abused years sometimes think universe telling things sometimes good sometimes bad thought radio told cut last thursday did ive cutting  years idea stop abuse medication almost matter psych put many know really feel world psychiatrist one area seeing new patients talk abuse thinks misery dad dying half session dad overcome illness too whee husband lost job got another time did whole lives changed second last semester grad school starts next week drive three hours total work three hours anything work feel overwhelmed unable focus started taking adderall hands feet always hurt literally backs alignment something weird iono burn inside out take  mg gabapentin  mg tramadol day manage it still there much less without it could work go school used bad even hold book open also get migraines lot them weekly diagnosis were treating symptoms means cure now theres clonazepam effexor risperidone im still depressed anxious hallucinating though fairly high doses dont work nightmares mom kills repeatedly right telling fault nightmares dad sells sex slavery laughs rape nightmares like every night multiples wake already miserable crystal clear want spend rest life pain grief hurt much know deal stopped eating havent stopped treadmill clears head little bit want die want live either need help currently completely alone right now psych cant see me trust either
alone need helpi see things there miss dead dad dead nowhere miss dead cat blame seeing sick early enough save him abused years sometimes think universe telling things sometimes good sometimes bad thought radio told cut last thursday did ive cutting years idea stop abuse medication almost matter psych put many know really feel world psychiatrist one area seeing new patients talk abuse thinks misery dad dying half session dad overcome illness too whee husband lost job got another time did whole lives changed second last semester grad school starts next week drive three hours total work three hours anything work feel overwhelmed unable focus started taking adderall hands feet always hurt literally backs alignment something weird iono burn inside out take mg gabapentin mg tramadol day manage it still there much less without it could work go school used bad even hold book open also get migraines lot them weekly diagnosis were treating symptoms means cure now theres clonazepam effexor risperidone im still depressed anxious hallucinating though fairly high doses dont work nightmares mom kills repeatedly right telling fault nightmares dad sells sex slavery laughs rape nightmares like every night multiples wake already miserable crystal clear want spend rest life pain grief hurt much know deal stopped eating havent stopped treadmill clears head little bit want die want live either need help currently completely alone right now psych cant see me trust either
solo necesito ayuda ver cosas allí fallece muerto padre muerto ninguna parte falta muerto gato culpa ver enfermo lo suficientemente temprano salvarlo abusado años a veces pensar universo diciendo cosas a veces bueno a veces mal pensamiento radio cont corte pasado jueves hizo ive corte años idea detener abuso medicamentos casi materia psiquiatría poner muchos saben realmente sentir mundo psiquiatra un área ver nuevos pacientes hablar abuso piensa miseria papá morir media sesión papá superar enfermedad también whee marido perdido trabajo consiguió otro tiempo cambió vidas enteras segundo semestre último graduado escuela comienza la próxima semana conducir tres horas trabajo total tres horas cualquier trabajo sentirse abrumado foco incapaz comenzó a tomar adderall manos pies siempre duele literalmente alineación algo extraño iono quemado dentro de cabo tomar mg gabapentin mg tramadol día manejarlo todavía mucho menos sin que pueda trabajar ir escuela utilizado mal incluso mantener abierto libro también tener migrañas mucho ellos diagnóstico semanal estaban tratando síntomas significa cura ahora teres clonzepam effexor risperidona