failed first time everything crumbling againabout  years ago tried first attempt obviously failed looked like accident one suspected went ups downs overall fresh take life fast forward couple year met love life jump forward get married im working job love suicidal may ask constantly fear future kids never making enough never good enough hide depression problem drinking created problems nothing big recently got drunk hit mailbox possibly looking jail time wife threatened leave big disappointment everyone dont know whats wrong seems like every good thing get screw drag loved ones me im almost edge dont think ill fail time gunshot head ive researched extensively past days several guns think wife suspects something cant bring tell scared depressed helpless feel take gun carry truck more holding hope im gonna go jail im charged im going im terrified trying hold in darkness crushing im crumbling write this
failed first time everything crumbling againabout years ago tried first attempt obviously failed looked like accident one suspected went ups downs overall fresh take life fast forward couple year met love life jump forward get married im working job love suicidal may ask constantly fear future kids never making enough never good enough hide depression problem drinking created problems nothing big recently got drunk hit mailbox possibly looking jail time wife threatened leave big disappointment everyone dont know whats wrong seems like every good thing get screw drag loved ones meim almost edge dont think ill fail time gunshot head ive researched extensively past days several guns think wife suspects something cant bring tell scared depressed helpless feel take gun carry truck more holding hope im gonna go jailim charged im going im terrified trying hold in darkness crushingim crumbling write this
fallida la primera vez que todo se desmorona de nuevo hace unos años intentó primer intento obviamente falló parecía accidente uno sospechado hizo altibajos general fresco tomar la vida rápido adelante pareja año conocido amor vida salto adelante casarse im trabajo trabajo amor suicida puede preguntar constantemente miedo futuros niños nunca hacer suficiente nunca suficientemente bueno ocultar depresión problema de beber creado problemas nada grande recientemente se emborrachó buzón de correo posiblemente buscando cárcel tiempo esposa amenazada dejar gran decepción todo el mundo no sabe lo que está mal parece como cada cosa buena conseguir tornillo arrastrar seres queridos meim edge no creo que mal falle tiempo tiro cabeza ive investigada extensamente días pasados varias armas piensan esposa sospechosos algo no puede traer decir asustado deprimido impotente sentir tomar arma llevar camión más espera im va a ir carcelim cargado im va aterrorizado tratando de agarrarse en la oscuridad aplastamiento desmoronamiento escribir esto