tomorrow going home visited dad first time year probably last time ever plan equipment date even time know stop me friends more like acquaintances know mental health optimal family life family abusive anything dysfunctional one knows thought daily last months one last therapy session goes down unrelated issues seriously doubt going tell anything all get tiny little moments doubt like right now sure choice pass way soon mindset completely decided it everything cold meaningless here supposed stuff plan stuff good person really want disappear one fucking day wake wish not drift middle conversations fantasizing ending it snappy total nightmare around starting lose grip reality fucking hard deal bullshit stuff bad going get worse want happens ask this want this want this fuck know want know whatever is would never able achieve it know trying here sorry hope grandma sad think anymore
tomorrow going home visited dad first time year probably last time ever plan equipment date even time know stop me friends more like acquaintances know mental health optimal family life family abusive anything dysfunctional one knows thought daily last months one last therapy session goes down unrelated issues seriously doubt going tell anything all get tiny little moments doubt like right now sure choice pass way soon mindset completely decided it everything cold meaningless here supposed stuff plan stuff good person really want disappear one fucking day wake wish not drift middle conversations fantasizing ending it snappy total nightmare around starting lose grip reality fucking hard deal bullshit stuff bad going get worse want happens ask this want this want this fuck know want know whatever is would never able achieve it know trying here sorry hope grandma sad think anymore
mañana ir a casa visitó papá primera vez año probablemente la última vez planificación equipo fecha incluso tiempo saber detenerme amigos más como conocidos saber salud mental vida familiar óptima abusar de cualquier cosa disfuncional uno sabe pensamiento diario los últimos meses una última sesión de terapia cae cuestiones no relacionadas duda seriamente va a decir nada todos conseguir pequeños momentos duda como ahora seguro elección pasar manera pronto mentalidad completamente decidido todo frío sin sentido aquí supuesto cosas plan cosas buena persona realmente quiere desaparecer un día despertar deseo no deriva conversaciones medio fantaseando terminarlo rápido pesadilla total alrededor de empezar a perder agarre realidad mierda duro negocio mierda mal ir peor quiere sucede preguntar esto quiero este mierda saber quiero saber lo que es nunca sería capaz de lograr saber tratando aquí lo siento esperanza abuela triste pensar más