im uselessim idiot redeeming qualities cant socialize people try make feel useful making traits wearing mask im people public try come funny interesting im boring piece shit interests passions could ever live dedicate long enough even come close getting better them im smart im attractive im sociable im athletic im nothing try make jokes create interesting stories even suck used smart atleast feel like it cant construct normal thoughts vocabulary limited im talented like kids see school specialty hobbies im mess tries catch never will im edgy idiot small brain ik true spend hours studying things people grasp minutes get distracted hours more think potential somewhere dont actually even adhd pill helped focus im fucking stupid cant form normal thoughts im always sidetracked think maybe potential im smart person cant express cant focus tap intelligence never happen nothing helped so cant fucking artist writer even handwritings shit express thoughts paper let alone draw im going zoning thinking philosophies concepts life rest mine ill never able hold normal conversation anyone long dont know express utilize thoughts thinking abilities try make feel better acting like idea whats going redeeming qualities im someone whos different good way instead fucking ball anxiety distraction insecurity endless selfconstrued facades aimed others alike think mental disorder theres something wrong me theres nothing wrong me theres excuse stupidity laziness inability grasp simple concepts act like like people around me like understand like understand me everytime someone finally gets close me relationship bound end shitty way cant help act im irresponsable keep long term relationship think im something different someone matters im slow hell cant construct simple thoughts simple things pick social cues rude fuck think maybe im nice person maybe ill finally find whatever im good finally settle someone likes finally meet someone seems like me cant express anything im stupid piece shit wishes value importance piss anyone get close to burden people im close im flowing shit hole problems needs dump people feel fine try think others like me actually manage enjoy obnoxious company think future writing films making music im never going live expectations set myself im going keep failing again could settle less live entire life wishing living greener grass write memo im gonna go back life bullshit act like im complete retard like think function normally talk people normally think might stop snapping anger im edgy fuck think might even nice reality im selfish prick cares cant try grasp concept world doesnt revolve around him think im main character movie reality ill probably stay cameo villain everyone wants see die stupid things think loathful thoughts get angry blue afterwards things wonder fuck wrong wish someone understood me knew hadnt snapped im evil person snapped im fucking idiot self control power ill go back normal life im gonna keep saying im fine everyday fine im introspective enough see useless every days ill cry heart out ask support wipe tears put mask back on ill repeat cycle eventually whoever cry get sick me eventually ill run people cry to im fucking trap negativity draws everyone around it theres nothing it many god damn masks fit well me personality mood want be perfectly feel mood emulate acts brain programs say start acting one way another acclimate setting surroundings feel happy bit ik happiness illusion facade happiness leaves anxiety depression racing mind come back thats thing im good atfaking out point dont even know real self is bunch personalities think real self would ambitious one thinks go good college smart balanced healthy kid somewhere along timeline template actions im in something change ill finally able relate socialize level two people maybe ill stop able analyze every detail around stop knowing details things inevitable ill stop running processes head like fucking computer talk people guess thoughts feelings maybe ill finally able stop racing thoughts channel intelligence onto something current ill finally able good enough good people around watch care regardless dead weight am ill finally amount undiagnosed piece shit result condom rupture wont kid whos weird fuck nutcase
im uselessim idiot redeeming qualities cant socialize people try make feel useful making traits wearing maskim people public try come funny interestingim boring piece shit interests passions could ever live dedicate long enough even come close getting better themim smartim attractive im sociable im athletic im nothing try make jokes create interesting stories even suck used smart atleast feel like it cant construct normal thoughts vocabulary limited im talented like kids see school specialty hobbies im mess tries catch never will im edgy idiot small brain ik true spend hours studying things people grasp minutes get distracted hours more think potential somewhere dont actually even adhd pill helped focus im fucking stupid cant form normal thoughts im always sidetracked think maybe potential im smart person cant express cant focus tap intelligence never happen nothing helped so cant fucking artist writer even handwritings shit express thoughts paper let alone draw im going zoning thinking philosophies concepts life rest mine ill never able hold normal conversation anyone long dont know express utilize thoughts thinking abilities try make feel better acting like idea whats going redeeming qualities im someone whos different good way instead fucking ball anxiety distraction insecurity endless selfconstrued facades aimed others alike think mental disorder theres something wrong me theres nothing wrong me theres excuse stupidity laziness inability grasp simple concepts act like like people around me like understand like understand me everytime someone finally gets close me relationship bound end shitty way cant help act im irresponsable keep long term relationship think im something different someone matters im slow hell cant construct simple thoughts simple things pick social cues rude fuck think maybe im nice person maybe ill finally find whatever im good finally settle someone likes finally meet someone seems like me cant express anything im stupid piece shit wishes value importance piss anyone get close to burden people im close im flowing shit hole problems needs dump people feel fine try think others like me actually manage enjoy obnoxious company think future writing films making music im never going live expectations set myself im going keep failing again could settle less live entire life wishing living greener grass write memo im gonna go back life bullshit act like im complete retard like think function normally talk people normally think might stop snapping anger im edgy fuck think might even nice realityim selfish prick cares cant try grasp concept world doesnt revolve around him think im main character movie reality ill probably stay cameo villain everyone wants see die stupid things think loathful thoughts get angry blue afterwards things wonder fuck wrong wish someone understood me knew hadnt snapped im evil person snapped im fucking idiot self control power ill go back normal life im gonna keep saying im fineeveryday fine im introspective enough see useless every days ill cry heart out ask support wipe tears put mask back on ill repeat cycle eventually whoever cry get sick me eventually ill run people cry to im fucking trap negativity draws everyone around it theres nothing it many god damn masks fit well me personality mood want be perfectly feel mood emulate acts brain programs say start acting one way another acclimate setting surroundings feel happy bit ik happiness illusion facade happiness leaves anxiety depression racing mind come back thats thing im good atfaking out point dont even know real self is bunch personalities think real self would ambitious one thinks go good college smart balanced healthy kid somewhere along timeline template actions im in something change ill finally able relate socialize level two people maybe ill stop able analyze every detail around stop knowing details things inevitable ill stop running processes head like fucking computer talk people guess thoughts feelings maybe ill finally able stop racing thoughts channel intelligence onto something current ill finally able good enough good people around watch care regardless dead weight am ill finally amount undiagnosed piece shit result condom rupture wont kid whos weird fuck nutcase
im inservibleim idiota redención cualidades no se puede socializar la gente tratar de hacer sentir útil haciendo rasgos usando máscara gente público tratar de venir divertido interesanteim pieza aburrida mierda intereses pasiones podría vivir dedicar suficiente tiempo incluso cerca de conseguir mejor ellosim smartim atractivo im sociable