rambling guessive debating think reasons to try convince theres solutions go circles hours end result always same heavy feeling isolation realization worthless always wins out think people ill leave behind ill devastate family every day feels wrong like dead long ago wasting space tried calling hotline once talk listen all said want talk redflag reassured waste time tying phone lines people truly need needed get phone hung burned myself exactly deserve im sick cleaning mess wiping blood cleaning wounds cleaning wounds cleaning fucking wounds scars form disfigure arms even already were times truly forget im stoned ass get drunk go parties live high laugh night next morning leave im alone again im nobody im nothing know kills silence live in stuck head cutting nights not pretend okay make deans list future im going find career make life myself scars hundreds scars go class lie teeth jobs ive applied to reality applied anywhere all everything coming close nowhere move to classes falling apart done final projects im supposed graduate fucking know happens next even bothered getting cap gown parents reminded months ago feel bad relatives coming state watch graduate think might coming funeral instead
rambling guessive debating think reasons to try convince theres solutions go circles hours end result always same heavy feeling isolation realization worthless always wins out think people ill leave behind ill devastate family every day feels wrong like dead long ago wasting space tried calling hotline once talk listen all said want talk redflag reassured waste time tying phone lines people truly need needed get phone hung burned myself exactly deserve im sick cleaning mess wiping blood cleaning wounds cleaning wounds cleaning fucking wounds scars form disfigure arms even already were times truly forget im stoned ass get drunk go parties live high laugh night next morning leave im alone again im nobody im nothing know kills silence live in stuck head cutting nights not pretend okay make deans list future im going find career make life myself scars hundreds scars go class lie teeth jobs ive applied to reality applied anywhere all everything coming close nowhere move to classes falling apart done final projects im supposed graduate fucking know happens next even bothered getting cap gown parents reminded months ago feel bad relatives coming state watch graduate think might coming funeral instead
divagar conjeturas debate pensar razones para tratar de convencer a Theres soluciones ir círculos horas final resultado siempre la misma sensación pesada aislamiento realización inútil siempre gana pensar personas mal dejar detrás familia mal devastatorio cada día se siente mal como muerto hace mucho tiempo desperdiciar espacio intentado llamar línea telefónica una vez charla escucha todos dicen quieren hablar bandera roja tranquilizada pérdida de tiempo atar líneas telefónicas la gente realmente necesita que se cuelguen teléfono me quemen exactamente me merecen enfermizo limpieza limpieza limpieza sangre heridas limpieza heridas heridas mierda cicatrices forma desfigurar brazos incluso ya veces se olvidan de verdad im drogado culo conseguir borracho ir fiestas en vivo alta risa noche mañana siguiente dejar Im solo otra vez