guiltin order live world one must accept good bad yes trouble that think many people entirely aware bad theyre accepting maybe care maybe care know im guilty too ampnbsp child father family friend sexually abused me pimped out really cam shows sold pictures me saw children animals corpses sexually abused kinds bizarre degradation purely entertainment truly careless individuals cant describe less crimes humanity humankind indicted complicit mere act existing cost seemed living world ampnbsp left family eventually therapy tried various medications decade temporary distraction truth cant seem escape sum good world worth sum bad discount good world ive seen it ive felt it ive part it theres sunsets symphonies laughter kisses music art friendship love deny it understand significance think worth it ampnbsp good world blot evil balance out make up anything ampnbsp went therapy several kinds fact cbt dbt transpersonal psychodynamic gestalt trauma based schema etc took pills prescribed listened therapists advice homework exercised ate well engaged community made friends read said hopeful little affirmations forgiving gentle others time least ampnbsp frustrating right things still feel way do realized denying know true want live world want breathe air others want community want relationships want happiness want well want saved want alone want die alone ampnbsp good mentioned would trade every happy memory every kindness every moment peace simply remember ignorant mans cruelty would false too exists whether one aware it world greater magnitude fathomable always always be cruelty much human nature kindness thats duality man thats rich tapestry ampnbsp want part it late hate people hurt anyone else evil monstrous other hate exactly same ampnbsp go cowardly way longing death feels like died many years ago young child makes sense way world nothing less hell
guiltin order live world one must accept good badyes trouble that think many people entirely aware bad theyre accepting maybe care maybe care know im guilty too ampnbsp child father family friend sexually abused me pimped out really cam shows sold pictures me saw children animals corpses sexually abused kinds bizarre degradation purely entertainment truly careless individuals cant describe less crimes humanity humankind indicted complicit mere act existing cost seemed living world ampnbsp left family eventually therapy tried various medications decade temporary distraction truth cant seem escape sum good world worth sum bad discount good world ive seen it ive felt it ive part it theres sunsets symphonies laughter kisses music art friendship love deny it understand significance think worth it ampnbsp good world blot evil balance out make up anything ampnbsp went therapy several kinds fact cbt dbt transpersonal psychodynamic gestalt trauma based schema etc took pills prescribed listened therapists advice homework exercised ate well engaged community made friends read said hopeful little affirmations forgiving gentle others time least ampnbsp frustrating right things still feel way do realized denying know true want live world want breathe air others want community want relationships want happiness want well want saved want alone want die alone ampnbsp good mentioned would trade every happy memory every kindness every moment peace simply remember ignorant mans cruelty would false too exists whether one aware it world greater magnitude fathomable always always be cruelty much human nature kindness thats duality man thats rich tapestry ampnbsp want part it late hate people hurt anyone else evil monstrous other hate exactly same ampnbsp go cowardly way longing death feels like died many years ago young child makes sense way world nothing less hell
culpa en orden mundo vivo uno debe aceptar los buenos problemas de los malos que piensan que mucha gente sabe completamente mal que están aceptando tal vez el cuidado tal vez el cuidado tal vez saber