found something helped loti know going help anyone know helped me weeks now ive spiraling destructive nearly suicidal path day sitting cafe wrote down ever since wrote it woke found reason live again guess wakeup call figured sharing guys might help someone also feel little better myself gt november  life gotten hard lately hard wake morning little things made happy slowly turning diminishing memories falling apart seams quickly one constant rock ive past year getting harder harder reach to think future together starting get bleaker bleaker depressing think woman love want marry slowly turning unknown person  someone used know everything know nothing about time honest im coming terms it decided want die hand know im going it thoughts much handle family love much used to fiancee looks remorse fear one morning ill turn dead honestly right live far away used call home friends here im far debt want pay anything it good thing were married save enough costs ill put money somewhere write note details know ill yet afraid guns probably euthanasia maybe ill crawl top mountain wno supplies maybe bridge knows best im tired names omitted that edits post also moved  miles away home feel like big part felt like that writing really big wake call realized still life live deadline anymore im going it really hope guys thinking ending lives little shimmer hope too im thinking you ive there get better
found something helped loti know going help anyone know helped me weeks now ive spiraling destructive nearly suicidal path day sitting cafe wrote down ever since wrote it woke found reason live again guess wakeup call figured sharing guys might help someone also feel little better myself gt november life gotten hard lately hard wake morning little things made happy slowly turning diminishing memories falling apart seams quickly one constant rock ive past year getting harder harder reach to think future together starting get bleaker bleaker depressing think woman love want marry slowly turning unknown person someone used know everything know nothing about time honest im coming terms it decided want die hand know im going it thoughts much handle family love much used to fiancee looks remorse fear one morning ill turn dead honestly right live far away used call home friends here im far debt want pay anything it good thing were married save enough costs ill put money somewhere write note details know ill yet afraid guns probably euthanasia maybe ill crawl top mountain wno supplies maybe bridge knows best im tired names omitted that edits post also moved miles away home feel like big part felt like that writing really big wake call realized still life live deadline anymore im going it really hope guys thinking ending lives little shimmer hope too im thinking you ive there get better
Encontraron algo ayudado loti saber ir ayudar a alguien saber me ayudó semanas ahora live espiraling destructivo camino día sentado café escrito desde que escribió se despertó encontró razón en vivo de nuevo adivinar despertar llamada pensó compartir chicos podría ayudar a alguien también se siente poco mejor gt vida de noviembre se puso duro últimamente duro despertar la mañana pequeñas cosas se hizo feliz poco a poco volver recuerdos decrecientes que se desmoronan costuras rápidamente una constante rock ive año pasado conseguir más difícil llegar a pensar en el futuro juntos empezar más sombrío más deprimente pensar mujer amor querer casarse lentamente convertirse en persona desconocida alguien utilizado saber todo sobre tiempo honesto im venir términos