ive come far im sure want go furtherive struggling depression  years maybe longer hard childhood rough young adulthood past decade completed college found supportive loving partner started making strides toward health recovery finally found therapist ive seen many feel helping me found psychiatrist feel understands need ive successfully medicated year  real setbacks long periods deep depression ive made huge strides managing anxiety disordered eating past years everything seemed getting better therapy hard ive facing lot old trauma overall feeling hopeful things around job improving well like  recently got nice raise good feedback performance ive focusing making art ive getting better liking myselfbeing kind myself still feel alone ive always struggled intimacy close friendships cant seem bring really let people help me get close me terrifying prospect worked intimate relationship outside one myself partner last ten years april partner bad reaction bout sadness issue him approached  long story asked something think deserved his words offended id even ask instead discussion it shut down revealed longer patience issues spent came shock felt making much progress seemed come nowhere turns look like progress outside know hard love me know patient years difficult love close to im finally getting better like real im facing ever have aggressively ever im becoming whole finally slowly weve seeing couples therapist weeks thought made progress recovery another awful fight im thinking im going kill myself shotgun medication would it im trying talk much would hurt people love me trying remember felt like think cowards way out used feel like escape way avoid getting stronger hard work get better feels like rest want rest felt tired long time depressed angry tired imagine much strength need wake monday work time put food body shower  let alone fix travesty relationship separate complex autonomous human being even learn alone work put together cant see me strength need theres one life feel safe enough share with one else afford burden guess thats im here throwaway know want want talked it think want commiseration think want leave something behind thought piece me intention hurt anyone love mine want go sleep want know anymore struggle wake up simply wake up maybe little ahead schedule again maybe not all none us really know were going die sure maybe need get chest get past feeling want feel proud hard fought far come think feel proud finally starting feel inherently valuable strong fought hard deserve rest deserve decide done fighting
ive come far im sure want go furtherive struggling depression years maybe longer hard childhood rough young adulthood past decade completed college found supportive loving partner started making strides toward health recovery finally found therapist ive seen many feel helping me found psychiatrist feel understands need ive successfully medicated year real setbacks long periods deep depression ive made huge strides managing anxiety disordered eating past years everything seemed getting better therapy hard ive facing lot old trauma overall feeling hopeful things around job improving well like recently got nice raise good feedback performance ive focusing making art ive getting better liking myselfbeing kind myself still feel alone ive always struggled intimacy close friendships cant seem bring really let people help me get close me terrifying prospect worked intimate relationship outside one myself partner last ten years april partner bad reaction bout sadness issue him approached long story asked something think deserved his words offended id even ask instead discussion it shut down revealed longer patience issues spent came shock felt making much progress seemed come nowhere turns look like progress outside know hard love me know patient years difficult love close to im finally getting better like realim facing ever have aggressively ever im becoming whole finally slowly weve seeing couples therapist weeks thought made progress recovery another awful fight im thinking im going kill myself shotgun medication would it im trying talk much would hurt people love me trying remember felt like think cowards way out used feel like escape way avoid getting stronger hard work get better feels like rest want rest felt tired long time depressed angry tired imagine much strength need wake monday work time put food body shower let alone fix travesty relationship separate complex autonomous human being even learn alone work put together cant see me strength need theres one life feel safe enough share with one else afford burden guess thats im here throwaway know want want talked it think want commiseration think want leave something behind thought piece me intention hurt anyone love mine want go sleepwant know anymore struggle wake up simply wake up maybe little ahead schedule again maybe not all none us really know were going die sure maybe need get chest get past feeling want feel proud hard fought far come think feel proud finally starting feel inherently valuable strong fought hard deserve rest deserve decide done fighting
ive come far im seguro quiere ir más allá lucha depresión años tal vez más duro infancia áspera joven adultez última década completado universidad encontró pareja amorosa de apoyo comenzó a dar pasos hacia la recuperación de la salud finalmente encontró terapeuta i vies muchos se sienten ayudando me encontró psiquiatra se siente entiende necesidad ive éxito año real retrocesos largos períodos profunda depresión ive hizo enormes pasos control ansiedad desordenado comer años pasados todo parecía conseguir mejor terapia duro ive frente a mucho viejo trauma en general sentir esperanza cosas alrededor del trabajo mejora bien como recientemente consiguió agradable aumento buen rendimiento enfoque ive hacer arte ive conseguir mejor gusto yo mismo siendo amable yo todavía me siento solo ive luchado intimidad cerca amistades no puede parecer traer realmente dejar que la gente me ayude a conseguir cerca terrorífica perspectiva trabajó relación íntima fuera de uno mismo socio los últimos diez años