want visit beachy headhello used farcry deleted account embarrassed pathetic past posts anyways thats important right now fact is depression social anxiety completely defeated me used wake feeling depressed wake crying physical painnumbness i know crying could cause physical pain now also wrote redflag letter sister closest person friend become distant always working ive made way many serious mistakes life im scared everything remotely involves people talking people applying jobs simply outdoors im scared call therapist book appointment im scared use redflag hotline i telephobia never normal person again part really want to many said subreddit whats point working everyday if lucky retire old anything finally die thought leaving house travelling rvagabond im unfit untrained yes skills need survive hobo figured money run eventually might well start hobo now well turns im knowledgeable enough even hobo survival skills last week outside plan im going next flight beachy head or wherever nearest airport is ive always wanted visit uk im going destroy ids phone sit cliffs drink soda enjoy view hours might sit entire day weather nice want see beachy heads sunrise sunset stars night heard patrols there hope theyll come talk me current state sure hell aint got courage motivation approachtalk someone btw friends cant talk family sit  hours nobody helps me ill jump actually might jump bit sooner depression clenches start crying pain part destroying id ex passport important itll help chicken out ill stranded uk able come back want come back do ill right back now also jump want anyone know im dead want disappear forever quietly patrol officer stop jumping im going give fake name story beg job food shelter refuses ill jump too think drastic measure ought bring pit despair one way another ill essentially start life completely either uk hell
want visit beachy headhello used farcry deleted account embarrassed pathetic past posts anyways thats important right now fact is depression social anxiety completely defeated me used wake feeling depressed wake crying physical painnumbness i know crying could cause physical pain now also wrote redflag letter sister closest person friend become distant always working ive made way many serious mistakes life im scared everything remotely involves people talking people applying jobs simply outdoors im scared call therapist book appointment imscared use redflag hotlinei telephobia never normal person again part really want to many said subreddit whats point working everyday if lucky retire old anything finally die thought leaving house travelling rvagabond im unfit untrained yes skills need survive hobo figured money run eventually might well start hobo now well turns im knowledgeable enough even hobo survival skills last week outside plan im going next flight beachy head or wherever nearest airport is ive always wanted visit uk im going destroy ids phone sit cliffs drink soda enjoy view hours might sit entire day weather nice want see beachy heads sunrise sunset stars night heard patrols there hope theyll come talk me current state sure hell aint got courage motivation approachtalk someone btw friends cant talk family sit hours nobody helps me ill jump actually might jump bit sooner depression clenches start crying pain part destroying id ex passport important itll help chicken out ill stranded uk able come back want come back do ill right back now also jump want anyone know im dead want disappear forever quietly patrol officer stop jumping im going give fake name story beg job food shelter refuses ill jump too think drastic measure ought bring pit despair one way another ill essentially start life completely either uk hell
want visit beachy headhello used farcry eliminate account thoused patentious past posts anyways thats important fact is depression social anyness completely derroted me used wake sentite deprimy state state lloron fisical dolpnumbness yo sé que llorar podría causar dolor físico ahora también escribió rodflag letter roadflag letter roadflag lineali telefobia nunca más persona normal parte realmente quiere a muchos dijo subreddit qué punto de trabajo todos los días si suerte jubilar viejo cualquier cosa finalmente morir pensamiento dejar casa viajar rvagabond