im scared myselfive wrote  times dont want judgements please even begin im  almost  used athletic nickname phoenix always somehow pulled ashes save youre decaying body literally  changed life  welli bad car accident bad airlifted   days hospital aprilnovember lost use legs june relearn walk still barely walk foot never regained feeling july told going hill fast im chronically ill conditions ingredients fake food little morbid joke got life expectancy  im lucky used independent still kept spirit than october came flulike illness spinal leak almost killed me literally edge death body isnt putting fights anymore somehow im here know much offer world body biggest enemy happened june happen time body wasting away takes toll mind im  serious court cases peoplecompany cannot say much about that ticking time bomb body become pain much physical pain becoming shell was knowing never parent knowing anything happen time mental toll legal things hospital bills family problems everyone tells im strong brave inspirational inside dont feel way feel weak feel scared feel like burden yes knew summer people get less time yes know many people could shoes going spunky person nothing could stop me disabled dependent others operation operation im sorry theres much except help things go on cannot fix sorry eventually need feeding tube body biggest challenge caused confused feel like need finish court things want go know selfish recently began self harm again pain control im control yes im help yes im professionals mental state hate this controlled medication doctor visits body turn scares bring back crippled want live dream theres wheelchairs walkers let ask this close eyes imagine beach feeling sand feet smallest things freedom youre young appreciate it feeling run dance hike go friendsappreciate it wish knew got sick look back go damn im happy this want live want die dont want leave friends family want leave cannot escape im afraid theres nothing die ive  friends die something happened mother grandfather afraid even though life point is im afraid maybe reading small smudge story make someone appreciate beautiful body is beautiful health valuable thing see even type fingers dislocating type hospital home where go sick low funds must near hospital want play sun things youve never done always reply messages friends never tell peoplefamily things regret ive met many people sick supported believe me right now dont smile inside scream youre biggest lie youre okay im kinder person smallest things biggest im scared im scared death im scared myself hard im alive dont want hurt everyone truly stepped others stepped out many ways im blessed wish body could love like others do want make tell story help people right im physically weak mentally exhausted im grateful im much pain im trying get justice hurt many ways hug more love more things youd never imagined do dance sing im suicidal im afraid it im afraid me know im good person otherwise wouldnt people around do still hope hope ill rise ashes even wings broken thatll ill stand body greatest tool love it know long dont need hear generic shall pass maybe emotions im chronically ill theres things life cannot control control can whether die body hand im sure im gonna keep trying literally cant but im scared thankyou
im scared myselfive wrote times dont want judgements please even begin im almost used athletic nickname phoenix always somehow pulled ashes save youre decaying body literally changed life welli bad car accident bad airlifted days hospital aprilnovember lost use legs june relearn walk still barely walk foot never regained feeling july told going hill fast im chronically ill conditions ingredients fake food little morbid joke got life expectancyim lucky used independent still kept spirit than october came flulike illness spinal leak almost killed me literally edge death body isnt putting fights anymore somehow im here know much offer world body biggest enemy happened june happen time body wasting away takes toll mind im serious court cases peoplecompany cannot say much about that ticking time bomb body become pain much physical pain becoming shell was knowing never parent knowing anything happen time mental toll legal things hospital bills family problems everyone tells im strong brave inspirational inside dont feel way feel weak feel scared feel like burden yes knew summer people get less time yes know many people could shoes going spunky person nothing could stop me disabled dependent others operation operation im sorry theres much except help things go on cannot fix sorry eventually need feeding tube body biggest challenge caused confused feel like need finish court things want go know selfish recently began self harm again pain controlim controlyes im help yesim professionals mental state hate this controlled medication doctor visits body turn scares bring back crippled want live dream theres wheelchairs walkers let ask this close eyes imagine beach feeling sand feet smallest things freedom youre young appreciate it feeling run dance hike go friendsappreciate it wish knew got sick look back go damnim happy this want live want die dont want leave friends family want leave cannot escape im afraid theres nothing die ive friends die something happened mother grandfather afraid even though life point is im afraid maybe reading small smudge story make someone appreciate beautiful body is beautiful health valuable thing see even type fingers dislocating type hospital home where go sick low funds must near hospital want play sun things youve never done always reply messages friends never tell peoplefamily things regret ive met many people sick supported believe me right now dont smile inside screamyoure biggest lie youre okayim kinder person smallest things biggestim scared im scared deathim scared myself hard im alive dont want hurt everyone truly stepped others stepped out many ways im blessed wish body could love like others do want make tell story help people right im physically weak mentally exhausted im gratefulim much pain im trying get justice hurt many ways hug more love more things youd never imagined do dance sing im suicidalim afraid it im afraid me know im good person otherwise wouldnt people around do still hope hope ill rise ashes even wings broken thatll ill stand body greatest tool love it know long dont need hear generic shall pass maybe emotions im chronically ill theres things life cannot control control can whether die body handim sure im gonna keep trying literally cantbut im scared thankyou
Im miedo mestizo escribió tiempos no quieren juicios por favor incluso comenzar im casi utilizado apodo atlético fénix siempre de alguna manera sacó cenizas salvar youre cuerpo en descomposición literalmente cambio vida welli mal accidente de coche mal transporte aéreo días hospital albornovember perdido uso piernas june reaprender caminar todavía apenas caminar pie nunca recuperado sentimiento july dijo ir colina rápido im enfermedades crónicas condiciones ingredientes comida falsa poco morbosa broma tuvo vida esperanza de suerte utilizado independiente todavía mantenido espíritu que october vino gripe similar enfermedad fuga espinal casi me mató literalmente borde cuerpo muerte no está poniendo peleas más de alguna manera aquí sé mucho oferta mundo cuerpo mayor enemigo sucedió junio sucede tiempo cuerpo derroche lleva a la mente im graves casos de la corte gente empresa no puede decir mucho acerca de que tictac tiempo cuerpo bomba se convierte en dolor mucho dolor físico convertirse en cáscara era saber nunca padres saber cualquier cosa que sucede tiempo mental peaje legal cosas hospitales facturas familia