im terrified getting helpfirst thank taking time read this please excuse bitching complaining ive struggled suicidal thoughts years past several months become intolerable ive made several attempts pills husband stopped time threw away medication house times desperate commit redflag method far ive told husband every time thoughts impulses come up reason stay alive attempt make life work least three times think needed go hospital however im terrified going cant stand thought going hospital idea happen im there patients would be happen get out much cost insurance husband work  hours week im terrified doctors care think im fake deserve there think deserve go all im getting better need help know get it cant afford anything think deserve help deep feel like phony do edit thank help suggestions
im terrified getting helpfirst thank taking time read this please excuse bitching complaining ive struggled suicidal thoughts years past several months become intolerable ive made several attempts pills husband stopped time threw away medication house times desperate commit redflag method far ive told husband every time thoughts impulses come up reason stay alive attempt make life work least three times think needed go hospitalhowever im terrified going cant stand thought going hospital idea happen im there patients would be happen get out much cost insurance husband work hours week im terrified doctors care think im fake deserve there think deserve go all im getting better need help know get it cant afford anything think deserve help deep feel like phony do edit thank help suggestions
Im aterrorizado conseguir ayuda primero gracias tomar tiempo leer esto por favor excusa quejarse ive luchado pensamientos suicidas años pasados varios meses se vuelven intolerables ive hecho varios intentos marido dejó de tiempo tirar la medicación casa tiempo desesperado cometer método de bandera roja lejos le dijo a marido cada vez pensamientos impulsos vienen para arriba razón mantenerse vivo intento hacer que la vida funcione por lo menos tres veces creo que es necesario ir hospital sin embargo im aterrorizado ir no puedo estar de pie pensamiento ir hospital idea pasar Im allí los pacientes serían suceden salir mucho costo seguro marido trabajo horas semana im cuidados médicos aterrorizados creen que im falso merecer allí creo que merecer ir todo im conseguir mejor necesidad ayuda saber conseguir que no puede permitirse nada pensar merecer ayuda profundo sentir como falso editar gracias ayuda sugerencias