im aboutim talkative person really enjoy spilling thoughts people topic find hard bring im people care decided go anonymous want go overly detail im average yo male college student go apparent hardships life loving family although parents divorced was finishing highschool old enough negatively impact me plenty supportive friends enjoyed life traveled lot got relationships experienced things many people cant need much longer to extremely strong urge die whenever im alone cant help feel strong pressure chest area describe it feels like anxiety asking girl first time much negative although examined psychiatrist though ive asked come meeting school mental heath test went told im perfectly okay denying anything thew me clearly guess feeling depression feeling keeps telling end everything way make go away battle urge started cutting leg helps although temporarily gives feeling actually killing although im not since im cutting important veins helps ease pressure also makes feel better next days makes feel like im healing reason temporary solution that like drug slowly loses effectiveness times began cutting deeper make it first times basically scraped skin im cutting flesh it ive basically become numb physical pain point mean still feel pain simply care anymore depression going since highschool  years already lasted kept finding kind motivation continue despite situation right motivation care wake tomorrow enough feeling constant bickering time im smart enough know easy decision go back on want absolutely sure resolute ive decided basically setup exact timer death based life going bought  small glass vials whenever im feeling urge point absolutely needing cut myself fill  blood ill kill fill   months since came idea  filled id guess number id say that pace  months live honest im sure feel that moment feel like even last weekend ritual ive set least prevent anything extremely rash however guarantee fill  im sure exactly im expecting come post nothing else good look thoughts write out welcome kind feedback even rules just send pm managed go text find funny everyone meet mentions positive cheerful am even current girlfriend says one things attracted positive vibe exact opposite really am feel like im compensating something lack im others putting fake mask pretending someone im not say im confident extroverted reality im extremely insecure cant deal disappointment all
im aboutim talkative person really enjoy spilling thoughts people topic find hard bring im people care decided go anonymous want go overly detailim average yo male college student go apparent hardships life loving family although parents divorced was finishing highschool old enough negatively impact me plenty supportive friends enjoyed life traveled lot got relationships experienced things many people cant need much longer to extremely strong urge die whenever im alone cant help feel strong pressure chest area describe it feels like anxiety asking girl first time much negative although examined psychiatrist though ive asked come meeting school mental heath test went told im perfectly okay denying anything thew me clearly guess feeling depression feeling keeps telling end everything way make go away battle urge started cutting leg helps although temporarily gives feeling actually killing although im not since im cutting important veins helps ease pressure also makes feel better next days makes feel like im healing reason temporary solution that like drug slowly loses effectiveness times began cutting deeper make it first times basically scraped skin im cutting flesh it ive basically become numb physical pain point mean still feel pain simply care anymore depression going since highschool years already lasted kept finding kind motivation continue despite situation right motivation care wake tomorrow enough feeling constant bickering time im smart enough know easy decision go back on want absolutely sure resolute ive decided basically setup exact timer death based life going bought small glass vials whenever im feeling urge point absolutely needing cut myself fill blood ill kill fill months since came idea filled id guess number id say that pace months live honest im sure feel that moment feel like even last weekend ritual ive set least prevent anything extremely rash however guarantee fill im sure exactly im expecting come post nothing else good look thoughts write out welcome kind feedback even rules just send pm managed go text find funny everyone meet mentions positive cheerful am even current girlfriend says one things attracted positive vibe exact opposite really am feel like im compensating something lack im others putting fake mask pretending someone im not say im confident extroverted reality im extremely insecure cant deal disappointment all
Im aboutim talkative person really disfrut spolling thinks topic hard king im people care decided go anónimo want go overly detailim yo masculino estudiante universitario ir aparente dificultades vida amorosa familia aunque los padres divorciados estaba terminando secundaria edad suficientemente negativamente impacto me mucho apoyo amigos disfrutaron de la vida viajó mucho tener relaciones experimentado cosas muchas personas no pueden necesitar mucho más tiempo a extremadamente fuerte impulso morir cada vez que im solo no puede ayudar a sentir fuerte presión área torácica describir se siente como ansiedad preguntar niña primera vez mucho negativo aunque examinado psiquiatra aunque le preguntó venir a la escuela reunión examen de salud mental fue le dijo im perfectamente bien negar cualquier cosa que claramente supongo sensación de depresión sentimiento de decir fin todo camino hacer desaparecer impulso batalla comenzó cortar pierna ayuda aunque temporalmente da sensación de matar aunque im im cortar venas importantes ayuda a aliviar la presión también se siente mejor los próximos días hace sentir como im curación razón temporal que como la droga lentamente pierde tiempos de eficacia comenzó a cortar más profundamente hacer que las primeras veces básicamente raspada piel im cortar carne carne