late now needed chestthis post ive ever made one make need somewhere scream guess read this thank you im finally ready point cant keep handling way life shaping cant keep anymore really know start id therapy since  family history schizophrenia put many different types help medication cant even try remember safely say im beyond help now context im  year old jazz music student coming family history severe mental illness looking family around eventually joined fell apart myself loner kid  literally friends  time got first romantic relationship lasted two years two years physically sexually mentally abused parter taken advantage financially even finally found friends something come along fuck make tough weak kid bring leave eventually moved city study university chance get took never looked back point turned  ready start anew id done that made huge new group friends found surrounded love support id never felt before ended finding someone found perfect absolutely phenomenal year life something go spectacularly wrong found one best friends id met  terminally ill alongside id found family member too id talk mother killing multiple times space week alongside parteratthetime handle insecurity selfhate left understand completely time decreased self worth much more time learnt went all one week id felt overwhelmed decided take huge overdose meds time unfortunately pulled through much apparently shouldnt survived based much id taken drank everyone friends city year completely abandoned me calling attention seeker irrational ex breaking me whilst listening actual reasons id made attempt life think least damaging thing happen week never cared hear it happening th ended going absolutely nuts spending money drugs alcohol got point hugely debt unemployed falling behind uni work finding addicted getting blackout drunk time could get feel something again guess end day needed get system sort forum give reasonings whoever finds this feel like last  years constant therapy shit ive managed one single year went well even fell apart leaving failing uni student huge amount debt alcohol problem losing everything short space time cheers anyone whod taken time read little summary im done know felt need post eh end day tried long cant say least fight already planned time place weeks im looking someone talk it said felt need get out
late now needed chestthis post ive ever made one make need somewhere scream guess read this thank you im finally ready point cant keep handling way life shaping cant keep anymore really know start id therapy since family history schizophrenia put many different types help medication cant even try remember safely say im beyond help now context im year old jazz music student coming family history severe mental illness looking family around eventually joined fell apart myself loner kid literally friends time got first romantic relationship lasted two years two years physically sexually mentally abused parter taken advantage financially even finally found friends something come along fuck make tough weak kid bring leave eventually moved city study university chance get took never looked back point turned ready start anew id done that made huge new group friends found surrounded love support id never felt before ended finding someone found perfect absolutely phenomenal year life something go spectacularly wrong found one best friends id met terminally ill alongside id found family member too id talk mother killing multiple times space week alongside parteratthetime handle insecurity selfhate left understand completely time decreased self worth much more time learnt went all one week id felt overwhelmed decided take huge overdose meds time unfortunately pulled through much apparently shouldnt survived based much id taken drank everyone friends city year completely abandoned me calling attention seeker irrational ex breaking me whilst listening actual reasons id made attempt life think least damaging thing happen week never cared hear it happening th ended going absolutely nuts spending money drugs alcohol got point hugely debt unemployed falling behind uni work finding addicted getting blackout drunk time could get feel something again guess end day needed get system sort forum give reasonings whoever finds this feel like last years constant therapy shit ive managed one single year went well even fell apart leaving failing uni student huge amount debt alcohol problem losing everything short space time cheers anyone whod taken time read little summary im done know felt need post eh end day tried long cant say least fight already planned time place weeks im looking someone talk it said felt need get out
Últimamente se necesita pecho este post ive hizo que uno haga necesidad en algún lugar grito adivinar leer este gracias im finalmente punto listo no puede seguir manejando la forma en que la vida forma no puede seguir realmente saber iniciar terapia id ya historia familiar esquizofrenia poner muchos tipos diferentes ayuda medicamentos no puede incluso tratar de recordar con seguridad decir im más allá de la ayuda ahora contexto im año viejo música jazz estudiante venir familia historia grave enfermedad mental buscando familia al final se unió se vino abajo yo solo niño literalmente amigos tiempo consiguió primera relación romántica duró dos años dos años físicamente sexualmente abusado parter aprovechó financieramente incluso finalmente encontró amigos algo vienen a lo largo mierda hacer difícil chico débil traer permiso finalmente traslado ciudad estudio universidad oportunidad llegar nunca mira atrás punto vuelta listo comienzo nuevo