know dofirst all im native speaker please understand english so goes traumas deprived background such somehow always little depressed around  years ago thing exploded major depression dulled emotions life become convenient rarely feel depressed problem lost fond life nothing want do nothing care even families friends want live really ive therapists taking medicines past  years depression getting worse become suicidal im planning die months well im still taking medicines therapies hoping something would happen futile guess honest even know im writing here felt like still want give shot
know dofirst all im native speaker please understand english so goes traumas deprived background such somehow always little depressed around years ago thing exploded major depression dulled emotions life become convenient rarely feel depressed problem lost fond life nothing want do nothing care even families friends want livereally ive therapists taking medicines past years depression getting worse become suicidal im planningdie monthswell im still taking medicines therapies hoping something would happen futile guess honest even know im writing here felt like still want give shot
know dofirst all im nativo speaker please entended english so gos traumas prive background tales de alguna manera siempre poco deprimido alrededor de hace años cosa explotó depresión mayor embotado emociones vida se vuelven convenientes rara vez se siente deprimido problema perdido vida amorosa nada quiere hacer nada cuidado incluso familias amigos quieren livereally ive terapeutas tomando medicamentos años pasados depresión empeorando convertirse suicida im planificación bien todavía estoy tomando medicamentos terapias esperando que algo suceda inútil adivinar honesto incluso saber im aquí se sentía como todavía quiero dar una inyección