month since partner  years left birthday bags packed said leaving closure still even know happened physically emotionally abusive never told anyone account emasculating feels know tell people female partner punches home arguments begged go therapy years started covid worked hard become better person mentally healthy hated version me waste life s reason live took friends anyone anymore drove cross country family try sort out quickly reminded spend much time family made mental health worse happier alone dog car go anything stopped taking medication drinking heavily done year really took last ativan today thing keeping going deep end doubt psychiatrist prescribe seems like end me think people suicide lifes purpose feel like finally becoming content that cannot even talk like openly therapist psychiatrist fear committed know self know lie get drive killing myself understand people thought loved want hurt badly guess bad karma done something deserve feel like nature telling time die expect one respond even read this one cry help
month since partner years left birthday bags packed said leaving closure still even know happened physically emotionally abusive never told anyone account emasculating feels know tell people female partner punches home arguments begged go therapy years started covid worked hard become better person mentally healthy hated version me waste life s reason live took friends anyone anymore drove cross country family try sort out quickly reminded spend much time family made mental health worse happier alone dog car go anything stopped taking medication drinking heavily done year really took last ativan today thing keeping going deep end doubt psychiatrist prescribe seems like end me think people suicide lifes purpose feel like finally becoming content that cannot even talk like openly therapist psychiatrist fear committed know self know lie get drive killing myself understand people thought loved want hurt badly guess bad karma done something deserve feel like nature telling time die expect one respond even read this one cry help
mes desde pareja años dejó bolsas de cumpleaños empacadas dijo dejar el cierre incluso saber que sucedió físicamente emocionalmente abusivo nunca le dijo a nadie cuenta emasculating se siente saber decirle a la gente pareja golpes casa argumentos suplidos ir terapia años comenzó covid trabajado duro convertirse en mejor persona mentalmente saludable odiado versión me desperdicio vida vida vida vivir llevó amigos nadie más condujo familia de campo tratar de resolver rápidamente recordar pasar mucho tiempo familiar hizo peor salud mental solo perro coche ir cualquier cosa dejó de tomar medicamentos beber muy hecho año realmente tomó último ativan hoy cosa manteniendo va profundo extremo duda psiquiatra prescribir parece como fin yo creo que la gente suicidio vida propósito se siente como finalmente convertirse en contenido que no puede hablar como abiertamente psiquiatra miedo comprometido saber auto saber mentira conseguir conducir matando a mí mismo entender personas pensado querido querer mal adivinar mal karma hecho algo merece sentir como naturaleza contar tiempo morir esperar incluso leer este grito ayuda