current situationso guess ill start saying girl seeing past almost  years told cant see us together anymore started  months ago drunk fight phone died couldnt find how stupid hey kind broke continued see eachother prior next ill say  months break up constantly told dont want her im love anymore lying couldnt bare around made happy kept telling things like using didnt know wanted everytime went fully cut couldnt couldnt bare lose her last weeks tho slowly started accept fact lying infact want life loved much even planned really special like lunchdinner going tell felt apologize been last week felt way found briefly used dating app hated every moment deleted account prior finding about friends saw showed top fact pushing away switch went head says doesnt want me despite tho ive seen  times past week weve kissed multiple times weve held eachother cuddled even came work hinted wanted she said suprised happy see me last night saw eachother genuinely like always been sex felt fucking love her top spent whole night laughing mucking around like always felt normal like wanted there see things great feel much enjoys around goes home defense mechanism dwells negatives protect hurt like im trying hard force feel things past got like impossible see perspective unless showed myself literally see conflict avoiding it probably come across forcing see it idk do want back killing leads rn ive tried talk friends feel like im drowning cant sleep constantly break multiple times day gotten point hate much literally dont even see point alive pushed away person made unbelievably happy past  years like cant even remember good times spoilt fool treating badly ive told felt wished didnt dont want feel like im guilting her want back badly literally never happy whole drama im struggling see point continuing try need help do want back badly im scared getting upset something irrational said tho mainly want back im literally open advice desperate try anything
current situationso guess ill start saying girl seeing past almost years told cant see us together anymore started months ago drunk fight phone died couldnt find how stupid hey kind broke continued see eachother prior next ill say months break up constantly told dont want her im love anymore lying couldnt bare around made happy kept telling things like using didnt know wanted everytime went fully cut couldnt couldnt bare lose her last weeks tho slowly started accept fact lying infact want life loved much even planned really special like lunchdinner going tell felt apologize been last week felt way found briefly used dating app hated every moment deleted account prior finding about friends saw showed top fact pushing away switch went head says doesnt want me despite tho ive seen times past week weve kissed multiple times weve held eachother cuddled even came work hinted wanted she said suprised happy see me last night saw eachother genuinely like always been sex felt fucking love her top spent whole night laughing mucking around like always felt normal like wanted there see things great feel much enjoys around goes home defense mechanism dwells negatives protect hurt like im trying hard force feel things past got like impossible see perspective unless showed myself literally see conflict avoiding it probably come across forcing see it idk do want back killing leads rn ive tried talk friends feel like im drowning cant sleep constantly break multiple times day gotten point hate much literally dont even see point alive pushed away person made unbelievably happy past years like cant even remember good times spoilt fool treating badly ive told felt wished didnt dont want feel like im guilting her want back badly literally never happy whole drama im struggling see point continuing try need help do want back badly im scared getting upset something irrational said tho mainly want back im literally open advice desperate try anything
situaciones actuales conjetura mal empezar diciendo chica viendo pasados casi años dicho no nos puede ver juntos más comenzó meses atrás borracho teléfono de la lucha muerto no podía encontrar lo estúpido hey tipo roto continuar ver antes siguiente enfermo decir meses romper constantemente dijo no quiero su amor ya no podía desnuda alrededor hecho feliz seguía diciendo cosas como el uso no sabía quería cada vez que iba totalmente cortado no podía desnuda perder la última semana tho comenzó lentamente aceptar hecho mentira de hecho quieren la vida amada mucho incluso planeado muy especial como almuerzo va a contar se sintió