feel disconnected real worldi lived  years though thats true inner age still live home fulltime student parttime online job pays enough cover tuition owe pell grants scholarships sort ambition interest real world real life spend day fantasizing dead celebrities aching badly wish befriend them play lot video games spend significant amount time researching topics necessarily use career rarely leave room cant remember last time left house im experiencing anxiety returning school next week hate there like im studying hate around people classroom setting makes super uncomfortable makes feel trapped stifled control swore high school would never put hell again last year reality decided pay shortlived visit realized would never chance life go college get degree thing is desire work career kindi figure choice blue collar manual labor job something im least somewhat interested make better money ill go latter ive always good student quite average actually believe say like school push succeed  feel like little selfworth tied academic success  understand get anywhere life flunk everything im aromanticasexual means feel romantic sexual attraction anyone result feel extremely isolated lonely think big misconception people like us want love relationshipsnot true want kind love thats like omg want date sex blah blah would really love mentor type adult figure cant find anyone like that every adult life treats like one them even though im not im transage meaning although ive lived  years inner age matured past  causes distress imagine know never receive type love desperately long for hate feel like shit every day emotionally deprived might sound insane im jealous celebrity platonic crushs wife potential future granddaughters might have female descendants yet realize still time change yes know crazy literally would jealous little girl huge fear mine want little princess spoils protects literal daughter granddaughter im happy family get gist kind relationship less again desire whatsoever romantic sense typical crush want marry anything afterlife instead little friend know kind relationship jacob renesmee twilight books sort thing like said really goals dreams life basically going motions feel like choice true hearts desire animals meet celebrity platonic crush heaven animal dream enough make want stay earth endure lifetime working outside home suffering emotional isolation nothing look forward to feel tired sluggish days filled anxiety next time leave house thought function real world adult im makes sick full dread even career goals would still transage freak never jacob simply put meant planet im starting finally accept that feel like im one people would seriously better dead im happy here im tired pain
feel disconnected real worldi lived years though thats true inner age still live home fulltime student parttime online job pays enough cover tuition owe pell grants scholarships sort ambition interest real world real life spend day fantasizing dead celebrities aching badly wish befriend them play lot video games spend significant amount time researching topics necessarily use career rarely leave room cant remember last time left house im experiencing anxiety returning school next week hate there like im studying hate around people classroom setting makes super uncomfortable makes feel trapped stifled control swore high school would never put hell again last year reality decided pay shortlived visit realized would never chance life go college get degree thing is desire work career kindi figure choice blue collar manual labor job something im least somewhat interested make better money ill go latter ive always good student quite average actually believe say like school push succeed feel like little selfworth tied academic success understand get anywhere life flunk everything im aromanticasexual means feel romantic sexual attraction anyone result feel extremely isolated lonely think big misconception people like us want love relationshipsnot true want kind love thats like omg want date sex blah blah would really love mentor type adult figure cant find anyone like that every adult life treats like one them even though im not im transage meaning although ive lived years inner age matured past causes distress imagine know never receive type love desperately long for hate feel like shit every day emotionally deprived might sound insane im jealous celebrity platonic crushs wife potential future granddaughters might have female descendants yet realize still time change yes know crazy literally would jealous little girl huge fear mine want little princess spoils protects literal daughter granddaughter im happy family get gist kind relationship less again desire whatsoever romantic sense typical crush want marry anything afterlife instead little friend know kind relationship jacob renesmee twilight books sort thing like said really goals dreams life basically going motions feel like choice true hearts desire animals meet celebrity platonic crush heaven animal dream enough make want stay earth endure lifetime working outside home suffering emotional isolation nothing look forward to feel tired sluggish days filled anxiety next time leave house thought function real world adult im makes sick full dread even career goals would still transage freak never jacob simply put meant planet im starting finally accept that feel like im one people would seriously better dead im happy here im tired pain
Se siente desconectado mundo real vivir años aunque eso es verdadera edad interior todavía vivir en casa a tiempo completo estudiante a tiempo parcial trabajo en línea paga la cobertura suficiente matrícula debe Pell becas becas tipo ambición interés mundo real vida real pasar día fantasear celebridades muertas mal deseo ser amigo ellos jugar mucho video juegos pasar cantidad significativa tiempo investigar temas necesariamente uso carrera rara vez dejar la habitación no recuerdo la última vez izquierda casa im experimentar ansiedad volver escuela la próxima semana odio allí como im estudiar odio alrededor de la gente ambiente en el aula hace sentir super incómodo se siente atrapado control ahogado Jurado escuela secundaria nunca volvería a poner el infierno el año pasado realidad decidió pagar visita breve realizado nunca suerte vida ir universidad obtener grado cosa es deseo trabajo kindi figura trabajo algo menos un poco interesado hacer mejor dinero mal ir último