honestly hate know feeling feel nothing wake up always feel that cry every night personal things online things know nobody wanna support especially since im  years old turning  feel bad everyone around me experience sad look everyone else wonder happy usually try hide emotions im afraid getting called pathetic child sad im forced look happy hate it feels like im wearing fucking mask ive suicidal thoughts plans things ive self harmed many ways like cutting scratching punching even slamming fucking wall time time sometimes feel lonely like friends slowly disappearing guess keep venting without even knowing it brothers friend recently took life bad relationship father feel pathetic therapy doesnt shit me make fucking life worse dont know anymore life worthless always think negatively myself hate myself want stop pain
honestly hate know feeling feel nothing wake up always feel that cry every night personal things online things know nobody wanna support especially since im years old turning feel bad everyone around me experience sad look everyone else wonder happy usually try hide emotions im afraid getting called pathetic child sad im forced look happy hate it feels like im wearing fucking mask ive suicidal thoughts plans things ive self harmed many ways like cutting scratching punching even slamming fucking wall time time sometimes feel lonely like friends slowly disappearing guess keep venting without even knowing it brothers friend recently took life bad relationship father feel pathetic therapy doesnt shit me make fucking life worse dont know anymore life worthless always think negatively myself hate myself want stop pain
Honestamente odio saber sentir sentir nada despertar siempre sentir que llorar todas las noches cosas personales en línea las cosas saben que nadie quiere apoyar especialmente desde im años a su vez sentirse mal todo el mundo a mi alrededor experiencia triste mirada todos los demás se preguntan feliz generalmente tratar de ocultar emociones im miedo ser llamado patético niño triste im forzado mirar feliz odio se siente como im usando puta máscara ive pensamientos suicidas planes cosas ive yo mismo dañado muchas maneras como cortar rasguños incluso golpear golpes de mierda pared tiempo a veces se siente solo como amigos lentamente desaparecer adivinar seguir ventilando sin siquiera saberlo hermanos amigo recientemente tomó la vida mala relación padre sentir terapia patética no mierda me hace peor la puta vida no sé más la vida sin valor siempre pensar negativamente yo mismo odio quiero detener el dolor