think every day refuse go would familylike title says struggled heavy depression last  years  months ago whole life plan wrecked id moved different state follow plans friends feel distant day date romantic interactions since november feel invisible radioactive time thinking lot killing myself thought past depressed lately ive thinking heavily details how when best way least impact family folks know struggling wrestling thoughts think understand serious become much im still thinking it im  years old single lonely feel like dying would less painful also feel trapped refuse kill parents pass sister brother law busy family forget easily given time never considered unlovableundesirable within last  months really become convinced going alone rest life may way uglier inside initially thought thoughts realizing may alone rest life well knowing go know least impactful possible makes feel stuck idea never talked thoroughly really sorry rambling run mess  morning sort thinking things besides sentence structure bear me
think every day refuse go would familylike title says struggled heavy depression last years months ago whole life plan wrecked id moved different state follow plans friends feel distant day date romantic interactions since november feel invisible radioactive time thinking lot killing myself thought past depressed lately ive thinking heavily details how when best way least impact family folks know struggling wrestling thoughts think understand serious become much im still thinking it im years old single lonely feel like dying would less painful also feel trapped refuse kill parents passsister brother law busy family forget easily given time never considered unlovableundesirable within last months really become convinced going alone rest life may way uglier inside initially thought thoughts realizing may alone rest life well knowing go know least impactful possible makes feel stuck idea never talked thoroughly really sorry rambling run mess morning sort thinking things besides sentence structure bear me
Creo que cada día rechazo ir título familiar dice lucha fuerte depresión los últimos años hace meses todo plan de vida destrozado id movido diferente estado seguir planes amigos se sienten distante día fechas interacciones románticas ya noviembre se siente invisible tiempo radioactivo pensar mucho matar pensar mucho pensamiento pasado deprimido últimamente ive pensamiento pesada cómo cuando mejor manera menos impacto familia amigos saben lucha pensamientos pensar seriamente entender mucho aún pensar en que im años de edad solo sentir como morir menos doloroso también se siente atrapado basura matar padres pasa hermana ley ocupado familia olvidar fácilmente dado tiempo nunca considerado inservibleindesirable dentro de los últimos meses realmente se convence ir solo descanso vida puede ser más feo en el interior pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento que puede solo descansar la vida bien saber menos impacto posible hace sentirse atascada idea nunca hablado a fondo realmente lo siento rambling correr desastre mañana tipo pensar cosas además de la estructura de la oración me llevan