im dropping falling apart m feel numb it dreamed going college years worked hard earned enough scholarships move away get paid go school cant anymore though ive anxious sleep deprived year pushed point considered redflag almost every day top would never ever sign one online class hit unbreakable wall trying adapt week ive laid off husband hours severely cut mother drug addict another city feel terrible alone medical conditions job support herself quarantined crack house lives left stopped paying mortgage electricity get turned off feel like better son stayed help things happened could help fix them dreams left pursue dying feel even worse today emailed financial aid office trying begin withdrawal process see need pay back aid leaving university grandma died less  years ago mother cared died cancer hospital bed home held hand died wanted go college badly would disappointed it tried hard im unhappy decision hard feel like failure like disrespected legacy feel like human nothing like purpose value direction neverending heaviness chest anxiety come peak day feel like deserve live consume resources especially since longer job plans continue college ive let grandma physically hurts suicidal years never like this never felt hopeless lost forgettable social distancing never leaving apt husband still job works hard support us adds feelings laziness worthlessness want escape feelings lowest low know go here
im dropping falling apart m feelnumb it dreamed going college years worked hard earned enough scholarships move away get paid go school cant anymore though ive anxious sleep deprived year pushed point considered redflag almost every day top would never ever sign one online class hit unbreakable wall trying adapt week ive laid off husband hours severely cut mother drug addict another city feel terrible alone medical conditions job support herself quarantined crack house lives left stopped paying mortgage electricity get turned off feel like better son stayed help things happened could help fix them dreams left pursue dying feel even worse today emailed financial aid office trying begin withdrawal process see need pay back aid leaving university grandma died less years ago mother cared died cancer hospital bed home held hand died wanted go college badly would disappointed it tried hard im unhappy decision hard feel like failure like disrespected legacy feel like human nothing like purpose value direction neverending heaviness chest anxiety come peak day feel like deserve live consume resources especially since longer job plans continue college ive let grandma physically hurts suicidal years never like this never felt hopeless lost forgettable social distancing never leaving apt husband still job works hard support us adds feelings laziness worthlessness want escape feelings lowest low know go here
Estoy cayendo a pedazos m feelnumb soñaba ir a la universidad años trabajado duro ganado suficientes becas moverse lejos se pagan ir a la escuela