ive given life yet im still alivei constantly think killing myself ive done endless amounts research trying figure methods least likely fail ive planned redflag again setting dates writing notes yet ive never gone it maybe im lazy maybe im unmotivated mostly think afraid failure really know im going this anyway feel like im constantly waiting waiting magically get better waiting perfect opportunity kill myself like im stuck inbetween place im able get better time im able end suffering mentally completely given living even attempt live life anymore physically im still here know im here certainly want here am
ive given life yet im still alivei constantly think killing myself ive done endless amounts research trying figure methods least likely fail ive planned redflag again setting dates writing notes yet ive never gone it maybe im lazy maybe im unmotivated mostly think afraid failure really know im going this anyway feel like im constantly waiting waiting magically get better waiting perfect opportunity kill myself like im stuck inbetween place im able get better time im able end suffering mentally completely given living even attempt live life anymore physically im still here know im here certainly want here am
ive dad life yetm im still livei constantemente pensar matándome a mí mismo ive hecho cantidades interminables investigación tratando de métodos figura menos probable fracaso ive planeed redflag de nuevo fijar fechas escribiendo notas y sin embargo ive nunca se fue tal vez im perezoso tal vez im no motivado mayormente pensar miedo fracaso realmente sé que voy esto de todos modos me siento constantemente esperando mágicamente conseguir mejor espera oportunidad perfecta matarme como im atrapado en medio lugar im capaz conseguir mejor tiempo im capaz terminar sufriendo mentalmente completamente dado el vivir incluso intento de vida más físicamente todavía aquí sé im aquí ciertamente quiero aquí estoy