f really messed life dont hopemy family always shitty me dont speak family anymore it speak mom phone week speak brother birthdays holidays sister father contact with extended family grew isolated from dont speak either dont friends like mean isnt single person world call phone casual conversation otherwise with one person call husband got married last year knew schizophrenic knew family antisemitic mom saluted hitler front knowing im jewish married anyway werent even contact family much stopped taking meds psychosis relapsed couldnt function work staying parents house stressed psychosis triggering suicidal thoughts keep thinking much fucking hate family like zero repercussions would want actually cause physical harm mother also really angry would jeopardize finances ability work taking meds feel really alone like reason live like need divorce husband dont want kill myself divorce starting life seems harder killing myself dont know im fucking exhausted emotional support whatsoever feel like failure like made poor naive decisions im paying feel like want life doesnt matter existence doesnt matter feels like wont ever get better cheers
f really messed life dont hopemy family always shitty me dont speak family anymore it speak mom phone week speak brother birthdays holidays sister father contact with extended family grew isolated from dont speak either dont friends like mean isnt single person world call phone casual conversation otherwise with one person call husband got married last year knew schizophrenic knew family antisemitic mom saluted hitler front knowing im jewish married anyway werent even contact family much stopped taking meds psychosis relapsed couldnt function work staying parents house stressed psychosis triggering suicidal thoughts keep thinking much fucking hate family like zero repercussions would want actually cause physical harm mother also really angry would jeopardize finances ability work taking meds feel really alone like reason live like need divorce husband dont want kill myself divorce starting life seems harder killing myself dont know im fucking exhausted emotional support whatsoever feel like failure like made poor naive decisions im paying feel like want life doesnt matter existence doesnt matter feels like wont ever get better cheers
f vida realmente desordenada no espero que mi familia siempre mierda yo no hablar familia más habla mamá teléfono semana hablar hermano cumpleaños vacaciones hermana padre contacto con la familia extendida creció aislado de no hablar o no amigos como media persona soltera mundo llamada teléfono conversación casual de lo contrario con una persona llamada marido se casó el año pasado sabía esquizofrénico sabía familia antisemita mamá saludó frente hitler saber im judio casado de todos modos ni siquiera contacto familia mucho dejó de tomar medicamentos psicosis recaída no podía funcionar trabajo quedarse padres casa estrés psicosis desencadenando pensamientos suicidas seguir pensando mucho odio mierda familia como cero repercusiones querría en realidad causar daño físico madre también realmente enojado pondría en peligro finanzas trabajo capacidad tomar medicamentos se siente muy solo como razón vivir como necesidad divorcio marido no quiere suicidarse empezar la vida parece más difícil matarme a mí mismo no sé cómo mierda agotado apoyo emocional cualquier cosa se siente como fracaso como pobres decisiones ingenuas im pagar se siente como querer vida no importa existencia no importa nunca se siente como nunca mejor vítores