rough couple years grandmother died mother kind mental break abuse escalated terrible years constant yelled violence grandfather started drinking fell deep alcoholism lot violence drinking going long time money lost friends eventually got kicked move year ago almost got evicted worse time life today everything is okay lost sense self graduated month ago got job going college month mothers meds calmed down something within wrong everyday think killing myself even choice point thoughts come me think lonely could sleep awhile thoughts creeped in new job nannying week time sleep entire week come back mothers house weekend back one day already going mad work felt way twice first day so know feel way everything cried self sleep come first time long time okay still want lay go away think would write would write anything find body whether not grandfather remember me questions kids work ask imagine memory thoughts hurting flood in used someone strong knew wanted hope hope gone know anymore recognize person mirror best life years cannot help want end all
rough couple years grandmother died mother kind mental break abuse escalated terrible years constant yelled violence grandfather started drinking fell deep alcoholism lot violence drinking going long time money lost friends eventually got kicked move year ago almost got evicted worse time life today everything is okay lost sense self graduated month ago got job going college month mothers meds calmed down something within wrong everyday think killing myself even choice point thoughts come me think lonely could sleep awhile thoughts creeped in new job nannying week time sleep entire week come back mothers house weekend back one day already going mad work felt way twice first day so know feel way everything cried self sleep come first time long timeokay still want lay go away think would write would write anything find body whether not grandfather remember me questions kids work ask imagine memory thoughts hurting flood in used someone strong knew wanted hope hope gone know anymore recognize person mirror best life years cannot help want end all
Un par de años duros abuela murió madre amable ruptura mental abuso escalado terribles años constante gritada violencia abuelo comenzó a beber profundo alcoholismo mucho violencia beber mucho tiempo dinero perdido amigos finalmente fue pateado movimiento hace un año casi fue desalojado peor tiempo vida hoy todo está bien sentido perdido auto graduado hace un mes consiguió trabajo va universidad mes madres medicamentos calmado algo dentro mal cada día pensar matarme incluso elección puntos pensamientos vienen me creo solitario podría dormir un rato pensamientos arrastrados en nuevo trabajo niñera semana tiempo sueño entero semana volver madres casa fin de semana atrás un día ya ir loco trabajo se sintió mucho dos veces el primer día así que sé sentir cómo todo llorado auto sueño viene primera vez tiempo bien todavía quiero lay lejos pensar escribiría escribir cualquier cosa encontrar cuerpo si no abuelo recordarme preguntas niños trabajo preguntar imaginar memoria pensamientos dolor inundación en uso alguien fuerte sabía esperanza ido saber más persona espejo mejor vida años no puede ayudar a querer terminar todo