life death really bad year me allergy broke nowhere leaving k bill er surgery tim got got sent icu crashed car stupid way got really bad haircut hair growth slowing about recede renewal visa marriage falling apart anxiety depression insomnia stress  cant believe im still here ive suicidal thoughts around  years ago  learned could deported away family things actually go wrong started saving back then sometimes friends family would think im cheap frugal im actually saving coffin burial parents worry costs clean room lot do might think ill run things time go every time renewal visa date comes up would stop seeing friends get denied commit redflag would make easier watch go away used scared want  right im going hell  made excuses left right move forward nowadays feel scared anymore actually worries whats best way it gun hang jump something would end quick remedy friends nowadays everybodys busy work dayoffs matching everybody close friends mia busy relationships school whatnot group changed met new people connect  feel place first time life  feel alone im living  like last year go every weekends ask friends lot usually hangout invite anymore thats ok im trying new things soon ill sign organ donor somehow could still use people want live ive saved enough money burial support siblings college ive distanced self friends quite bit im almost done bucket list  thing done clean room im almost  ive always wanted tell someone im scared theyll probably think im asking attention overreacting talk anyone nobody knows give single hint anyone feel way look happy whenever see friends family thats time feel something  rest blank page life probably shittiest game ive ever played might game ill never get finish visa gets denied year guess thats  im exhausted
life death really bad year me allergy broke nowhere leaving k bill er surgery tim got got sent icu crashed car stupid way got really bad haircut hair growth slowing about recede renewal visa marriage falling apart anxiety depression insomnia stress cant believe im still here ive suicidal thoughts around years ago learned could deported away family things actually go wrong started saving back then sometimes friends family would think im cheap frugalim actually saving coffin burial parents worry costs clean room lot do might think ill run things time go every time renewal visa date comes up would stop seeing friends get denied commit redflag would make easier watch go away used scared want right im going hell made excuses left right move forward nowadays feel scared anymore actually worries whats best way it gun hang jump something would end quick remedy friends nowadays everybodys busy work dayoffs matching everybody close friends mia busy relationships school whatnot group changed met new people connect feel place first time life feel alone im living like last year go every weekends ask friends lot usually hangout invite anymore thats ok im trying new things soon ill sign organ donor somehow could still use people want live ive saved enough money burial support siblings college ive distanced self friends quite bit im almost done bucket list thing done clean room im almost ive always wanted tell someone im scared theyll probably think im asking attention overreacting talk anyone nobody knows give single hint anyone feel way look happy whenever see friends family thats time feel something rest blank page life probably shittiest game ive ever played might game ill never get finish visa gets denied year guess thats im exhausted
vida muerte realmente mal año me alergia se rompió en ninguna parte dejando k bill er cirugía tim consiguió enviado Icu accidente coche estúpido manera consiguió muy mal corte de pelo crecimiento del cabello ralentizando sobre retroceso renovación visado matrimonio desintegrarse ansiedad depresión insomnio estrés no puedo creer todavía aquí ive pensamientos suicidas alrededor de hace años aprendidos podrían deportar cosas familiares realmente van mal comenzó a ahorrar entonces a veces amigos familia pensaría im barato frugalim en realidad salvar ataúd padres preocupación costes limpieza habitación lote podría pensar mal correr cosas tiempo cada vez que la fecha de renovación visa aparece dejaría de ver amigos se niegan compromiso Redflag haría más fácil reloj ir usados