gonna long rant feel free skip wanti feel fucking hopeless wrote redflag note  months ago parents found it went therapy went talk it said starting seeing therapist so  months ago about didnt believe fine took er next day could get doctor get antidepressants parents dont trust alone anymore theyre afraid might myself and feel like getting better im suicidal again like really wanted fucking die last night annoying didnt means it honestly dont even know im like really suicidal makes sense cause feel like really wanted die wouldve tried now right really staring pills thinking it scared im still school im afraid survive attempt ill thrown mental hospital allowed finished middle school maybe get held back another year idk also dont want wait school ends die feel like im overthinking honest cause want go come back alive cause try works dont worry this again dont know ill make it cause parents obviously ask why therapist would mad telling suicidal awhile now friends might hate trying leave them think im attention whore could go on dont know life even worth living know is this aching pain emptiness nothing fill it feeling something missing im hollow idea eats inside out hate everything self image constant sadness pain one else see pretend fine tiring im sick feeling like every day drains me point life temporary reason get bed everyday whats expected me try part society go school learn id rather die im tired much effort takes normal things like get bed take shower things people without second thought takes much mental energy id rather not id rather stare ceiling feel nothing may seem like lot every single fucking day gets one point feel like im loose grip reality dont want life like this feel like deserved happy would happy right im not want die dont want spend life broken shell person dont know long ill state hating every square inch body long pain last long thoughts tell dont deserve happy deserve pain fucking shitty person am dont want live life like person feel like itd better made everyone happy die im planning next week might much fucking pussy haha
gonna long rant feel free skip wanti feel fucking hopeless wrote redflag note months ago parents found it went therapy went talk it said starting seeing therapist so months ago about didnt believe fine took er next day could get doctor get antidepressants parents dont trust alone anymore theyre afraid might myself and feel like getting better im suicidal again like really wanted fucking die last night annoying didnt means it honestly dont even know im like really suicidal makes sense cause feel like really wanted die wouldve tried now right really staring pills thinking it scared im still school im afraid survive attempt ill thrown mental hospital allowed finished middle school maybe get held back another year idk also dont want wait school ends die feel like im overthinking honest cause want go come back alive cause try works dont worry this again dont know ill make it cause parents obviously ask why therapist would mad telling suicidal awhile now friends might hate trying leave them think im attention whore could go on dont know life even worth living know is this aching pain emptiness nothing fill it feeling something missing im hollow idea eats inside out hate everything self image constant sadness pain one else see pretend fine tiring im sick feeling like every day drains me point life temporary reason get bed everyday whats expected me try part society go school learn id rather die im tired much effort takes normal things like get bed take shower things people without second thought takes much mental energy id rather not id rather stare ceiling feel nothing may seem like lot every single fucking day gets one point feel likeim loose grip reality dont want life like this feel like deserved happy would happyrightim not want die dont want spend life broken shell person dont know long ill state hating every square inch body long pain last long thoughts tell dont deserve happy deserve pain fucking shitty person am dont want live life like person feel like itd better made everyone happy die im planning next week might much fucking pussy haha
va a despotricar mucho tiempo se siente libre skip wanti se siente desesperanza mierda escribió nota de bandera roja hace meses los padres encontraron que fue terapia fue hablar