want die dont want kill myselfidk begin im chick early s intj sexually abused child bullied lot growing up consider pretty smart rather shy intense social anxiety causes talk ramble between ive never really close friends dont fit in everyone thinks pretty fucking weird ive dealing depression since  multiple redflag attempts years started cutting turned  turned tattoo addiction weird obsession gore watching live leak videos anyway people fucking suck one really honest always feel people try keep lives want something me really dont get along females pretty blunt tomboyish women seem turned intimidated idk gone five therapists years help temporarily husband veteran ptsd gotten multiple fights feel like loves constantly remember shit said me sometimes think im worst piece shit world hardcore existential crisis since last year realizing going die really fucked me fuck point this remember  like yesterday pretty soon going middle age lose parents the people really love me beloved cat everyday wake think oh great one day less alive stuck loop dont know get it feel like going think like rest life got sterilized  years ago wont kids would never want put someone pain existing constantly try better work ass off thankful good job tech going back school become programmer try help people selfless gotten trampled used try take care body eat healthy delaying inevitable dont like human condition subjected terms conditions preset life great problem solver fucking destroying way life except death dont want play sick disgusting game whatever cruel diety put us shit spinning rock planet fuck hate shit god fucking damn it
want die dont want kill myselfidk begin im chick early s intj sexually abused child bullied lot growing up consider pretty smart rather shy intense social anxiety causes talk ramble between ive never really close friends dont fit in everyone thinkspretty fucking weirdive dealing depression since multiple redflag attempts years started cutting turned turned tattoo addiction weird obsession gore watching live leak videos anyway people fucking suck one really honest always feel people try keep lives want something me really dont get along females pretty blunt tomboyish women seem turned intimidated idk gone five therapists years help temporarily husband veteran ptsd gotten multiple fights feel like loves constantly remember shit said me sometimes think im worst piece shit world hardcore existential crisis since last year realizing going die really fucked me fuck point this remember like yesterday pretty soon going middle age lose parents the people really love me beloved cat everyday wake think oh great one day less alive stuck loop dont know get it feel like going think like rest life got sterilized years ago wont kids would never want put someone pain existing constantly try better work ass off thankful good job tech going back school become programmer try help people selfless gotten trampled used try take care body eat healthy delaying inevitable dont like human condition subjected terms conditions preset life great problem solver fucking destroying way life except death dont want play sick disgusting game whatever cruel diety put us shit spinning rock planet fuck hate shit godfucking damn it
quiero morir no quiero matarme a mí mismoidk comenzar im poll temprano s intj abuso sexual niño abusado mucho crecer considerar bastante inteligente bastante tímido intensa ansiedad social causas hablar divagar entre ive nunca muy amigos cercanos no caben en todo el mundo piensa bastante mierda raro trading depresión desde múltiples Redflag intentos años comenzaron a cortar convertido adicción tatuaje obsesión extraña gore ver videos en vivo de todos modos la gente chupar uno realmente honesto siempre sienten que la gente trata de mantener las vidas quieren algo me realmente no se llevan mujeres bastante francas tomboyish mujeres parecen convertidos intimidado idk ido cinco años terapeutas ayudar temporalmente marido veterano ptsd conseguir múltiples peleas se siente como amores constantemente recordar mierda me dijo a veces pensar en peor pieza mundo hardcore crisis existencial desde el año pasado darse cuenta de que va a morir realmente mierda punto de este recuerdo como ayer muy pronto va a la edad media perder padres la gente realmente amor gato despertar