nearly killed day im glad didntthis painful still pain better was know im going okay ampxb came yearslong emotionally avoidant selfsabotage campaign come close greatest fear realized hands id successfully ruined best thing ever happened me pushed woman dreams away much shed enough coming back manifested greatest fear rejected left alone nobody blame myself fullblown panic attack total meltdown wanted end life straight up either going jump bridge take couple valium cut open arm drift away pain knowing caused demise pain knowing id deliberately let wonderful person go misery put last years super condensed returnedtosender straight heart was word unbearable truly ampxb humbling know powerful be willed would ruin life relationship that im done that im choosing goodness love happiness muster once truly believe deserve it ive forgiven pain ive inflicted onto onto me ready person already am best version myself im sure end sharing with hope is im opening whatever might come next ampxb im glad hurt myself im sad got point
nearly killed day im glad didntthis painful still pain better was know im going okayampxb came yearslong emotionally avoidant selfsabotage campaign come close greatest fear realized hands id successfully ruined best thing ever happened me pushed woman dreams away much shed enough coming back manifested greatest fear rejected left alone nobody blame myself fullblown panic attack total meltdown wanted end life straight up either going jump bridge take couple valium cut open arm drift away pain knowing caused demise pain knowing id deliberately let wonderful person go misery put last years super condensed returnedtosender straight heart was word unbearable truly ampxb humbling know powerful be willed would ruin life relationship that im done that im choosing goodness love happiness muster once truly believe deserve it ive forgiven pain ive inflicted onto onto me ready person already am best version myself im sure end sharing with hope is im opening whatever might come nextampxbim glad hurt myself im sad got point
Un día casi muerto me alegro de que este dolor doloroso todavía mejor era saber que yo iba okayampxb vino años emocionalmente evitante campaña de auto-sabotaje venir cerca mayor miedo realizado manos exitosamente arruinado mejor cosa nunca me empujó sueños mujer lejos mucho derramar suficiente volver manifiesto mayor miedo rechazado dejado solo nadie culpa a mí mismo completo ataque de pánico total fusión quería terminar la vida directamente hacia arriba ya sea va puente toma pareja Valium corte brazo abierto derivar dolor saber causado muerte dolor saber deliberadamente dejó persona maravillosa ir miseria puso los últimos años super condensado devueltos sender hetero corazón era palabra insoportable verdaderamente ampxb humilde saber poderoso ser querido arruinaría la relación de vida que im hecho que im elección bondad amor felicidad reunir una vez que realmente creo que se lo merece live perdonado dolor se infligió sobre mí persona lista ya soy mejor versión yo mismo im seguro final compartir con esperanza es im abrir cualquier cosa que podría venir proxim ampxbim feliz daño yo mismo triste im triste