think ive reached end lineim feeling little helpless overwhelmed right now ive many psychiatric drugs  years now usual story work stop med key pin keeping together showing symptoms tardive dyskinesia where cant stop certain motions happening it started intense drug clozapine get vitals done daily weekly blood tests runs risk depleting white blood cell count feel med complete last resort work takes even get started it risks associated it new drug working right im suicidal im sleeping  hours day im skipping work showering eating feel turn destiny kill myself ive daydreaming lot lately wish killed various points life thought bet future ill wish killed now im going wait big family vacation were taking feb one last time hang family say goodbye
think ive reached end lineim feeling little helpless overwhelmed right now ive many psychiatric drugs years now usual story work stop med key pin keeping together showing symptoms tardive dyskinesia where cant stop certain motions happening it started intense drug clozapine get vitals done daily weekly blood tests runs risk depleting white blood cell count feel med complete last resort work takes even get started it risks associated it new drug workingright im suicidal im sleeping hours day im skipping work showering eating feel turn destiny kill myself ive daydreaming lot lately wish killed various points life thought bet future ill wish killed now im going wait big family vacation were taking feb one last time hang family say goodbye
Creo que ive alcanzó fin lineim sintiéndose poco impotente abrumado en este momento ive muchos medicamentos psiquiátricos años ahora historia habitual trabajo detener med key pin mantenerse juntos mostrando síntomas discinesia tardía donde no puede detener ciertos movimientos sucediendo comenzó drogas intensas clozapina conseguir vitales hecho diariamente análisis de sangre semanales corren riesgo agotamiento recuento de glóbulos blancos med completo último trabajo toma incluso empezar riesgos asociados nuevo trabajo de drogas im suicida im horas de sueño día im faltar trabajo ducharse comer sentir destino me mata vida sueño últimamente deseo matado varios puntos pensamiento vida apuesta futuro mal deseo muerto ahora im va a esperar vacaciones familiares grandes estaban tomando feb una última vez colgar familia decir adiós