im happy relationship feelings heartache guilt regarding ex making feel terriblei long distance relationship  years things got rocky one fights broke enough want crawl back like before stood ground think spite wanted fix things let him started feeling guilty decided go try enjoy life hanging boyfriend got involved intimately one thing lead another hes boyfriend ex well call v wanted try fix things said changed could work things out hed finally fly see family after  years never did always went there hed visit move whatever begged begged said no left alone week felt wanted take life asked stay phone decided could talk outside mosquitoes eating me know suicidal said left alone wanted put head lap wanted talk left alone many times dark place matter going on hed set aside come help me betrayed him cant say felt like wanted go back stuck decision theres much more may write out want make huge post basically im friend spending time with ex moved telling dead him girlfriend understand happy think im happy sometimes remember hurt caused again theres tons layers this feel horrible wonder things could ended differently sometimes feel horrible boyfriend right kind caring always looking me care deeply told loved once cant feel like say ever again know im still love v keep trying pretend like im not like think him push memory aside alot christmas coming the time year id go visit anxiety getting worse feel like crying see things remind him mother loved own cant anymore im scared feelings regret hate man one point told id side eternity life planned together year supposed close distance hate keep holding this want pack things run want leave everything everyone know behind alone myself maybe go west lay field fucking overdose lost want kill myself thing stopping lack solid plan along guilt feel hurt man loved point want myself terrible pain want hurt anyone anymoreim scared loving again miss man called lover best friend v miss friends lost end relationship spent many nights playing games together wish could somehow still friends im scared hurting anyone anymore thats thing thats keeping just finding whatever means end it know im loved many people im blessed friends like ones do im blessed family like one have im blessed caring boyfriend wants find happiness feel fucking alone scared right now bringing anyone gonna cause trouble again cant tell anyone cant afford therapy want vanish edited missing words
im happy relationship feelings heartache guilt regarding ex making feel terriblei long distance relationship years things got rocky one fights broke enough want crawl back like before stood ground think spite wanted fix things let him started feeling guilty decided go try enjoy life hanging boyfriend got involved intimately one thing lead another hes boyfriend ex well call v wanted try fix things said changed could work things out hed finally fly see family after years never did always went there hed visit move whatever begged begged said no left alone week felt wanted take life asked stay phone decided could talk outside mosquitoes eating me know suicidal said left alone wanted put head lap wanted talk left alone many times dark place matter going on hed set aside come help me betrayed him cant say felt like wanted go back stuck decision theres much more may write out want make huge post basically im friend spending time with ex moved telling dead him girlfriend understand happy think im happy sometimes remember hurt caused again theres tons layers this feel horrible wonder things could ended differently sometimes feel horrible boyfriend right kind caring always looking me care deeply told loved once cant feel like say ever again know im still love v keep trying pretend like im not like think him push memory aside alot christmas coming the time year id go visit anxiety getting worse feel like crying see things remind him mother loved own cant anymore im scared feelings regret hate man one point told id side eternity life planned together year supposed close distance hate keep holding this want pack things run want leave everything everyone know behind alone myself maybe go west lay field fucking overdose lost want kill myself thing stopping lack solid plan along guilt feel hurt man loved point want myself terrible pain want hurt anyone anymoreim scared loving again miss man called lover best friend v miss friends lost end relationship spent many nights playing games together wish could somehow still friends im scared hurting anyone anymore thats thing thats keeping just finding whatever means endit know im loved many people im blessed friends like ones do im blessed family like one have im blessed caring boyfriend wants find happiness feel fucking alone scared right now bringing anyone gonna cause trouble again cant tell anyone cant afford therapy want vanish edited missing words
Im feliz relación sentimientos dolor de corazón culpa con respecto a ex hacer sentir terrible larga distancia relación años las cosas se puso rocoso una peleas se rompió lo suficiente querer arrastrarse de vuelta como antes plantado pensar a pesar quería arreglar las cosas le dejó empezar a sentirse culpable decidió ir a tratar de disfrutar de la vida colgando novio se involucró íntimamente una cosa llevar a otro hes novio