see future myself think means im supposed onei know im actively suicidal actually redflag attempt years really view self harm redflag attempt since really point life threatening see point living though feel sort hollow numb time like smile laugh enjoy things think actually ever happy im ashamed myself im ashamed way body looks im ashamed fact im fat ive ruined self harm scars im ashamed cant seem keep people life fact im anxious depressed always comes out even though try hard normal functional partners im ashamed relationships ive in significant others greatest people im ruined fucked one would actually good long term would ever want me ive honestly given ever another loving relationship im slutty chick people fuck leave one would ever proud me even worthless im imposter job know anything hardly anything office im sort here know fired me let alone hired first place im school specific job field actually see graduating getting job see anything life ive never able see future myself honestly big emptiness there ive living day day basically past decade im surprised killed already honest always kind head think maybe fact right completely alone means optimal time it fuck life even more one really going miss devastated passing could sort pretty much affairs like hour so biggest issue would making sure house clean organized want anyone deal cleaning messes feel like even serious thing im experiencing sort mania sadness im just calm exactly resigned like im ready life supposed end
see future myself think means im supposed onei knowim actively suicidal actually redflag attempt years really view self harm redflag attempt since really point life threatening see point living though feel sort hollow numb time like smile laugh enjoy things think actually ever happy im ashamed myself im ashamed way body looks im ashamedfact im fative ruined self harm scars im ashamed cant seem keep people life fact im anxious depressed always comes out even though try hard normal functional partners im ashamed relationships ive in significant others greatest people im ruined fucked one would actually good long term would ever want me ive honestly given ever another loving relationship im slutty chick people fuck leave one would ever proud me even worthless im imposter job know anything hardly anything office im sort here know fired me let alone hired first place im school specific job field actually see graduating getting job see anything life ive never able see future myself honestly big emptiness there ive living day day basically past decade im surprised killed already honest always kind head think maybe fact right completely alone means optimal time it fuck life even more one really going miss devastated passing could sort pretty much affairs like hour so biggest issue would making sure house clean organized want anyone deal cleaning messes feel like even serious thing im experiencing sort mania sadness im just calm exactly resigned like im ready life supposed end
ver futuro yo mismo pensar significa im supuesto onei knowim activamente suicida en realidad Redflag intento años realmente ver auto daño Redflag intento puesto que realmente punto vida amenazante ver punto vida aunque siento tipo hueco entumecimiento tiempo como sonrisa risa disfrutar de las cosas pensar en realidad siempre feliz im vergüenza mí mismo im vergüenza manera cuerpo se ve im vergüenza im fativo arruinado auto daño cicatrices im vergüenza no parece mantener a la gente vida hecho im ansiedad deprimido siempre sale a pesar de intentar duro parejas funcionales normales im vergüenza relaciones ive in significant others grandes personas im arruinado follado uno en realidad bueno largo plazo me gustaría vivir honestamente dado siempre otra relación amorosa im puta chica gente mierda dejar uno alguna vez me enorgullecería incluso inútil