even keep going im useless world hates ityesterday average day went work job friendly small talk fun colleagues shift over sat car drove home switched light set pc chair booting pc comparably good day could happy felt nothing went online played games talked online friends went bed woke next day went back pc looked steam profile page looking high level  smile felt sad life im skyrocketing steam level compensate emptiness soul one real life friend hardly ever meet hes deeply buried uni work live alone pets interact neighbours online friends impressive steam account yet switch pc feel nothing nothing hobbies everything ever dedicated energy eventually dropped tried learn drawing express myself dropped picked bass make music dropped tried think third activity write here dropped lost motivation life day playing games chatting people never met life pass time work fast go back empty steam life online addiction probably started young five six years old got first pc game playing games way dad found interact me lot got drawn towards games more first always single player games thenth grade school discovered online gaming fun new exciting totally emptied anything else interest in spent hundreds maybe thousands bucks pixels neglecting everything else ever interest in top that seriously dislike job im number single cog machine instead something like im good at rot away company simple worker im pretty good english especially consider even native language yet never got make anything useful besides chatting people online first redflag thoughts came second year apprenticeship which different company job now five years ago now stood top floor warehouse looked ground floor jumping seemed like solution emptiness colleagues hated me vented anger every day already knew job nothing me wanted end thing kept away jumping fear pain landed stupid way survived seriously injured broken life even now stumbled back edge shook head went work ever since then wish could bring it minutes pain ends then keeps alive nothing really fear pain want end redeeming features nobody likes me parents divorced family shambles job crap cant get better one cant imagine id ever graduate better school bad maths cant end
even keep going im useless world hates ityesterday average day went work job friendly small talk fun colleagues shift over sat car drove home switched light set pc chair booting pc comparably good day could happy felt nothing went online played games talked online friends went bed woke next day went back pc looked steam profile page looking high level smile felt sad life im skyrocketing steam level compensate emptiness soul one real life friend hardly ever meet hes deeply buried uni work live alone pets interact neighbours online friends impressive steam account yet switch pc feel nothing nothing hobbies everything ever dedicated energy eventually dropped tried learn drawing express myself dropped picked bass make music dropped tried think third activity write here dropped lost motivation life day playing games chatting people never met life pass time work fast go back empty steam life online addiction probably started young five six years old got first pc game playing games way dad found interact me lot got drawn towards games more first always single player games thenth grade school discovered online gaming fun new exciting totally emptied anything else interest in spent hundreds maybe thousands bucks pixels neglecting everything else ever interest in top that seriously dislike job im number single cog machine instead something like im good at rot away company simple worker im pretty good english especially consider even native language yet never got make anything useful besides chatting people online first redflag thoughts came second year apprenticeship which different company job now five years ago now stood top floor warehouse looked ground floor jumping seemed like solution emptiness colleagues hated me vented anger every day already knew job nothing me wanted end thing kept away jumping fear pain landed stupid way survived seriously injured broken life even now stumbled back edge shook head went work ever since then wish could bring it minutes pain ends then keeps alive nothing really fear pain want end redeeming features nobody likes me parents divorced family shambles job crap cant get better one cant imagine id ever graduate better school bad maths cant end
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