seriously thinking killing  days itd pretty good daymajor theme thinking killing  days ampxb how constant downing one xanax pill time swing booze repeat one gone ampxb why cant take pain feel love life  boyfriened  ex boyfriend  shitty person  person ampxb background if want know skip down known since young kids loved years ended marrying wrong girl me fast forward  years reconnect instantly fall love long time coming especially since told loved young chose ampxb dating  years first year half broke up got distant busy grad school independent need space hobbies driven passions interest friends goals etc friends goals purpose lot time looked fulfillment life soon busy stressed fantastic girlfriend time yes grad school breakdowns real reeling depression abortion things tried make understand times didnt acted toxic sometimes depressed sometimes etc ampxb first time got distant year half relationship started seeing new girl behind back found lost it would go stand outside house hours winter telling feel depressed stressed much love him get better chose her said was fun exciting option going pass up fast forward month half later decided go home day work kill myself right did called me talked forever called every day came house  days later saying broke wanted me rebound never liked her never told planning kill myself however guy friend would periodically make advances me never made advances him next two months would hang rebound ex rub face saw house crying waiting come home ampxb next year down good months bad months good summer break grad school grad school started became obsessed spending every waking moment parents house he  kids house himself point every day could hang would say hes going hang parents fast forward never came grandpas funeral hang  days later christmas mad mad priority day go shopping parents never stop funeral start middle february got mad one night went friends broke calling night passing out got mad kept breaking mad told getting back together talk work things first  weeks take it wanted right then said waiting shows sure last  weeks built shrine things living room began texting trying work things argue always defaults arguing last week went over going stay night tried sex said yet need take slower got mad told leave week talked angry argued finally day im like im sick arging lets stop really work problems maybe therapy honest wrote  page letter mature explaing could activiely really mkae work blocked blocked  days something does often ampxb habits are whenever seem need time away form arguing stressing out step back comes full force coming house middle night texting me calling me whatever whenever steps away says hes done like  days ago blocked me throw knees begging literally outside house hours cant say many times hes locked deaed winter text calls etc seems like likes want him even though said done built shrine invited week ago kid loves me thinks im one things wrong ampxb now great girlfriend first im intp im heavily displaying emotions deep emotions overthinking brain drives insane every day life great boyfriend either could argue worse never cheated never wanted anyone even though selflove issues again friends hobbies relying happiness ampxb what would wrong said never made priority grad school difficult im extensive program one morning beautiful happy weekend went school stayed went dinner fell asleep friends house never called got angry next morning broke me instantly wanted get back got mad keeps saying hes done every time mad things feel mad about mad about break someone constantly say want marry grad school hard excuse  weeks ago made cookies accept them went house kicked out together hang time even told day last broke want go special night out loves that ampxb else knows bad last year chose girl month half think hell come around however idk cant take waiting pain deal heartbreak well never ever wanted kill stop pain someone besides him third time feeling like this thinking house gets home work know sounds dumb love within bit presence love him cant unblock me tell wants work happy too ampxb anyways considering aim  days tuesday perfect day plus beautiful sit outside pop drink hour ampxb any suggestions different ways questions additional helpful methods first time wanted knew told please truly loves me im killing get back cant take pain caused us ampxb thanks ampxb
seriously thinking killing days itd pretty good daymajor theme thinking killing days ampxb how constant downing one xanax pill time swing booze repeat one gone ampxb why cant take pain feel love life boyfriened ex boyfriend shitty person person ampxb background if want know skip down known since young kids loved years ended marrying wrong girl me fast forward years reconnect instantly fall love long time coming especially since told loved young chose ampxb dating years first year half broke up got distant busy grad school independent need space hobbies driven passions interest friends goals etc friends goals purpose lot time looked fulfillment life soon busy stressed fantastic girlfriend time yes grad school breakdowns real reeling depression abortion things tried make understand times didnt acted toxic sometimes depressed sometimes etc ampxb first time got distant year half relationship started seeing new girl behind back found lost it would go stand outside house hours winter telling feel depressed stressed much love him get better chose her said was fun exciting option going pass up fast forward month half later decided go home day work kill myself right did called me talked forever called every day came house days later saying broke wanted me rebound never liked her never told planning kill myself however guy friend would periodically make advances me never made advances him next two months would hang rebound ex rub face saw house crying waiting come home ampxb next year down good months bad months good summer break grad school grad school started became obsessed spending every waking moment parents house he kids house himself point every day could hang would say hes going hang parents fast forward never came grandpas funeral hang days later christmas mad mad priority day go shopping parents never stop funeral start middle february got mad one night went friends broke calling night passing out got mad kept breaking mad told getting back together talk work things first weeks take it wanted right then said waiting shows sure last weeks built shrine things living room began texting trying work things argue always defaults arguing last week went over going stay night tried sex said yet need take slower got mad told leave week talked angry argued finally day im like im sick arging lets stop really work problems maybe therapy honest wrote page letter mature explaing could activiely really mkae work blocked blocked days something does often ampxb habits are whenever seem need time away form arguing stressing out step back comes full force coming house middle night texting me calling me whatever whenever steps away says hes done like days ago blocked me throw knees begging literally outside house hours cant say many times hes locked deaed winter text calls etc seems like likes want him even though said done built shrine invited week ago kid loves me thinks im one things wrong ampxb now great girlfriend first im intp im heavily displaying emotions deep emotions overthinking brain drives insane every day life great boyfriend either could argue worse never cheated never wanted anyone even though selflove issues again friends hobbies relying happiness ampxb what would wrong said never made priority grad school difficult im extensive program one morning beautiful happy weekend went school stayed went dinner fell asleep friends house never called got angry next morning broke me instantly wanted get back got mad keeps saying hes done every time mad things feel mad about mad about break someone constantly say want marry grad school hard excuse weeks ago made cookies accept them went house kicked out together hang time even told day last broke want go special night out loves that ampxb else knows bad last year chose girl month half think hell come around however idk cant take waiting pain deal heartbreak well never ever wanted kill stop pain someone besides him third time feeling like this thinking house gets home work know sounds dumb love within bit presence love him cant unblock me tell wants work happy too ampxb anyways considering aim days tuesday perfect day plus beautiful sit outside pop drink hour ampxb any suggestions different ways questions additional helpful methods first time wanted knew told please truly loves me im killing get back cant take pain caused us ampxb thanks ampxb
seriamente pensar matar días itd bastante bueno díamajor tema pensar matar días ampxb cómo constante derribamiento una píldora xanax tiempo swing alcohol repetir uno ido ampxb por qué no tomar dolor sentir amor vida boyfriened ex novio mierda persona persona ampxb fondo si quieres saber skip down conocido ya que los niños jóvenes amado años terminaron casándose chica equivocada yo rápido adelante años volver a conectar instantáneamente caer amor mucho tiempo viene especialmente desde que le dijo amó joven elegido ampxb años de citas primer año medio roto consiguió distante ocupado escuela de posgrado independiente necesidad hobbies espacio impulsado pasiones intereses amigos objetivos etc amigos objetivos propósito mucho tiempo mirada cumplimiento vida ocupado estrés fantástico tiempo novia