titlei dont know anymore made dumb decisions fucked around senior year high school instead planning future  years passed since ive still never worked would consider real job let alone going school quickly losing live keep thinking hanging myself taking aspirin cutting wrists thing thats kept numb glimmer hope still left fear fucking live failed attempt loveliness entails met girl failed shooting stuck wheelchair scares fuck could happen me ive applying really simple retail jobs need around people im going lose it ive socially isolated since left highschool every time try reach meet somebody either too busy anything me meet thats ive sitting ass almost  years honestly dont know ive made fucking far horrible diagnosed social anxiety disorder probably borderline avoidant personality disorder unable leave house anything social  years post high school ive therapy helped anxiety still horrible self esteem every job interview ends call back reinfornces horrible feel mself top that therapist moved away left second therapist seemed completely disinterested helping didnt get problems told leaving job couple months agreeing new regular therapist lady go fuck herself timing told leaving impeccable told scared getting suicidal nothing life seemed working out threw oh yeah im leaving good luck top im also transgender hate it cant find anybody love am everyone fucking stick ass completely repulsed even im apparently one beautiful women theyve ever seen get comments model pretty time yet one shows sort romantic interest me would they im damaged goods hate body time hate voice anything hate wish could disappear right im taking larger normal doses klonopin keep complete meltdown want release want go sleep forever im tired trying im tired every day goes leaves feeling like literally nothing live for family treats like shit lack motivation finally get motivated nothing ever seems work go back hating wishing someone would come house put misery please give reason keep going on dont know keep trying feels like vain truly feel like cant go like much longer new years resolution apply one job day far ive gotten two interviews anxiety already fucked second one lady apparently couldnt hear phone probably ive taken enough klonopin calm horse feel like ive already fucked chances even though interview hasnt gone through one hopeful yet got callback like told would interested even though interviewer made sound like going get it always happens me get hopes invest much energy something happening doesnt follow completely crushed
titlei dont know anymore made dumb decisions fucked around senior year high school instead planning future years passed since ive still never worked would consider real job let alone going school quickly losing live keep thinking hanging myself taking aspirin cutting wrists thing thats kept numb glimmer hope still left fear fucking live failed attempt loveliness entails met girl failed shooting stuck wheelchair scares fuck could happen me ive applying really simple retail jobs need around people im going lose it ive socially isolated since left highschool every time try reach meet somebody either too busy anything me meet thats ive sitting ass almost years honestly dont know ive made fucking far horrible diagnosed social anxiety disorder probably borderline avoidant personality disorder unable leave house anything social years post high school ive therapy helped anxiety still horrible self esteem every job interview ends call back reinfornces horrible feel mself top that therapist moved away left second therapist seemed completely disinterested helping didnt get problems told leaving job couple months agreeing new regular therapist lady go fuck herself timing told leaving impeccable told scared getting suicidal nothing life seemed working out threwoh yeahim leaving good luck top im also transgender hate it cant find anybody love am everyone fucking stick ass completely repulsed even im apparently one beautiful women theyve ever seen get comments model pretty time yet one shows sort romantic interest me would they im damaged goods hate body time hate voice anything hate wish could disappear right im taking larger normal doses klonopin keep complete meltdown want release want go sleep forever im tired trying im tired every day goes leaves feeling like literally nothing live for family treats like shit lack motivation finally get motivated nothing ever seems work go back hating wishing someone would come house put misery please give reason keep going on dont know keep trying feels like vain truly feel like cant go like much longer new years resolution apply one job day far ive gotten two interviews anxiety already fucked second one lady apparently couldnt hear phone probably ive taken enough klonopin calm horse feel like ive already fucked chances even though interview hasnt gone through one hopeful yet got callback like told would interested even though interviewer made sound like going get it always happens me get hopes invest much energy something happening doesnt follow completely crushed
titlei no sé más toma decisiones tontas follada alrededor de la escuela secundaria de último año en lugar de la planificación de años futuros pasados ya que ive todavía nunca trabajado consideraría trabajo real y mucho menos ir a la escuela perder rápidamente en vivo seguir pensando colgarme tomando aspirina cortando muñecas cosa que se mantiene entumecido brillo esperanza todavía dejó miedo puta vida intento fallido belleza implica conocer chica fallido tiro atascada miedos silla de ruedas mierda podría pasarme