goes againthe past week tough depression kicking again lifelong issue tend coast okay fall again started tell people im struggling keeping casualnoninvasive trouble sleeping feeling fragile rather low selfdestructive actually feel tomorrow appt support worker see occasionally hope talking help change appointments occasional frequent help learned past warning signs look for almost every time hits bad start clinging selfhate seeing hope despite knowing ive done got it start feel like every suicidal moment leading current moment chance fulfill im desperate achieve know get til tomorrow start reaching getting help still worried feel strongly feel it despise myself feel need run escape cant escape myself recently trying sleep battle hours  die live hard deal thoughts feelings anyone relate anything stop thinking im going try take prn medication listen podcasts hope sleep eventually
goes againthe past week tough depression kicking again lifelong issue tend coastokay fall again started tell people im struggling keeping casualnoninvasive trouble sleeping feeling fragile rather low selfdestructive actually feel tomorrow appt support worker see occasionally hope talking help change appointments occasional frequent help learned past warning signs look for almost every time hits bad start clinging selfhate seeing hope despite knowing ive done got it start feel like every suicidal moment leading current moment chance fulfill im desperate achieve know get til tomorrow start reaching getting help still worried feel strongly feel it despise myself feel need run escape cant escape myself recently trying sleep battle hours die livehard deal thoughts feelings anyone relate anything stop thinking im going try take prn medication listen podcasts hope sleep eventually
la semana pasada la depresión dura pateando de nuevo el tema de toda la vida tienden costa okay caída de nuevo comenzó a decirle a la gente im luchando mantener informalno invasivo problema dormir sentirse frágil bastante baja autodestructivo realmente sentir mañana appt apoyo trabajador ver ocasionalmente esperanza hablar ayuda cambiar citas ocasionales ayuda frecuente aprendido señales de advertencia buscar casi cada vez golpes mal empezar a aferrarse a sí mismo ver esperanza a pesar de saber que ha hecho empezar sentir como cada momento suicida liderando momento actual oportunidad cumplir in desesperado lograr saber hasta mañana empezar a llegar a conseguir ayuda todavía preocupado sentirse fuertemente sentir necesidad de fuga escapar no puedo escapar recientemente tratando de dormir batalla horas livehard acuerdo pensamientos sentimientos que alguien relaciona cualquier cosa dejar de pensar im va a tratar de tomar prn medicación escuchar podcasts esperanza dormir eventualmente