state  years ago back years ago march th  purchased mm handgun box bullets sat hotel room seattle washington ready die time processing military knew went home would regress work done growth would longer amount anything significant memories father beating screaming top lungs frivolous things outside always outcast family traditional methods discipline didnt work needed room grow support didnt receive apparently made shit kid didnt see anything joined military hotel room staring weapon recieved messages battle buddies believed needed get head that spent night carrying like bunch idiots night drinking saved life instead going back went college got back work setting plans accomplishing goals graduated back may nightmare realized familys home thing knew waiting me resentful father past prime bemoaning personal failures claiming superior knower things sister doctor married sister engaged settling successful career still single jobless honestly dont care anymore want die
state years ago back years ago march th purchased mm handgun box bullets sat hotel room seattle washington ready die time processing military knew went home would regress work done growth would longer amount anything significant memories father beating screaming top lungs frivolous things outside always outcast family traditional methods discipline didnt work needed room grow support didnt receive apparently made shit kid didnt see anything joined military hotel room staring weapon recieved messages battle buddies believed needed get head that spent night carrying like bunch idiots night drinking saved life instead going back went college got back work setting plans accomplishing goals graduated back may nightmare realized familys home thing knew waiting me resentful father past prime bemoaning personal failures claiming superior knower things sister doctor married sister engaged settling successful career still single jobless honestly dont care anymore wantdie
Estado hace años atrás hace años marzo th compró mm balas de la caja de la pistola sentado hotel habitación Seattle lavado listo morir tiempo procesamiento militar sabía que iba a casa retroceso trabajo hecho crecimiento más largo cantidad cualquier memoria significativa padre golpes gritos pulmones superiores frívolos cosas fuera siempre paria familia métodos tradicionales disciplina no trabajo necesario habitación crecimiento apoyo no recibió aparentemente hecho mierda niño no vio nada unido habitación militar hotel miradas armas mensajes de batalla amigos creían que era necesario conseguir cabeza que pasó la noche llevando como grupo idiotas noche beber vida salvada en lugar de volver a la universidad volvió a trabajar planes de ajuste logro de objetivos graduados volver pesadilla se dio cuenta familia casa lo sabía esperar padre más resentido padre primero gemir fracasos personales reclamando superior sabedores cosas hermana doctor casado hermana comprometido arreglo carrera exitosa todavía soltero sin trabajo honestamente no le importa más querer