birthday always makes feel horribleim tired burden family wasnt even supposed make here feel like ive somehow cheated redflag attempt months back relocated icu big city hospital stayed days couldnt walk using bathroom worst sorts heart monitors remember ripping chest woke up screamed cursed angry woken up one wish world even taken me remember mustering courage call two friends had one declined call second made excuse hang phone remember family coming visit family stamped thousands medical bills since pretend didnt happen reality dont think anyone wanted wake up ive trying hard dont believe friend me need time successful please
birthday always makes feel horribleim tired burden family wasnt even supposed make here feel like ive somehow cheated redflag attempt months back relocated icu big city hospital stayed days couldnt walk using bathroom worst sorts heart monitors remember ripping chest woke up screamed cursed angry woken up one wish world even taken me remember mustering courage call two friends had one declined call second made excuse hang phone remember family coming visit family stamped thousands medical bills since pretend didnt happen reality dont think anyone wanted wake up ive trying hard dont believe friend me need time successful please
cumpleaños siempre hace sentir horribleim cansado carga familia ni siquiera se suponía hacer aquí se siente como ive de alguna manera engañado Redflag intento meses atrás reubicado Icu gran ciudad hospital se quedó días no podía caminar utilizando cuarto de baño peores tipos de monitor de corazón recordar rasgado pecho despertado gritado maldito enojado despertado un mundo deseo incluso me llevó a recordar reunir coraje llamada dos amigos había una llamada rechazada segunda excusa hecho colgar teléfono recordar familia visita familiares estampó miles de facturas médicas desde pretender que no sucedió realidad no creo que alguien quería despertarse tratando duro no me creo amigo necesito tiempo éxito por favor