want die thats things seem headingi want die want go want leave people care behind feel like thats im headed feeling wake morning bed nice comfy maybe even bit sick tell i want get up want go class want go work matter many times tell this know eventually going get needs done feel like right now part taken inevitability waiting time find making lose plans part fighting back trying throw many safeguards can suicidal part control find slipping messages help me conversations nobody ever listens nobody comes help rational mind control find unconsciously making small preparations war head really tearing apart cant anything times liesit mechanically go whatever needs happen big career fair school week even manage go depression hit hard even though know need go need get job next summer even make next summer im making positive change world existence hurts people good like guy last week feel like im attoning terrible things ive done know things cant change know hurt people future im writing someone sense control right now know thoughts including suicidal ones mine it know much longer get myself
want die thats things seem headingi want die want go want leave people care behind feel like thats im headed feeling wake morning bed nice comfy maybe even bit sick tell i want get up want go class want go work matter many times tell this know eventually going get needs done feel like right now part taken inevitability waiting time find making lose plans part fighting back trying throw many safeguards can suicidal part control find slipping messages help me conversations nobody ever listens nobody comes help rational mind control find unconsciously making small preparations war head really tearing apart cant anything times liesit mechanically go whatever needs happen big career fair school week even manage go depression hit hard even though know need go need get job next summer even make next summer im making positive change world existence hurts people good like guy last week feel like im attoning terrible things ive done know things cant change know hurt people futureim writing someone sense control right now know thoughts including suicidal ones mine it know much longer get myself
Quiero morir que las cosas parecen dirigirme quiero morir quiero quiero quiero dejar a la gente cuidado detrás se siente como eso me voy despertar cama de la mañana agradable cómodo tal vez incluso poco enfermo decir me quiero levantar quiero ir clase quiero ir trabajo materia muchas veces decir esto saber eventualmente conseguir necesidades hecho se siente como ahora parte tomado inevitabilidad espera tiempo encontrar hacer perder planes parte lucha atrás intentar lanzar muchas salvaguardias puede control de partes suicida encontrar mensajes deslizantes ayuda conversaciones nadie nunca escucha nadie viene ayuda control mental racional encontrar inconscientemente hacer pequeños preparativos cabeza de guerra realmente desgarrando cant cualquier cosa veces mentiras mecánicamente ir lo que sea que suceda gran carrera justa escuela semana incluso manejar ir depresión golpe duro incluso aunque saber necesita ir a conseguir trabajo el próximo verano incluso hacer que el próximo verano im hacer un cambio positivo la existencia del mundo lastima a la gente buena como chico la semana pasada se siente como im atoning cosas terribles ive hecho saber cosas no puede cambiar saber daño gente futuro im escribir a alguien control de sentidos ahora sabe pensamientos incluyendo suicidas míos sabe mucho más tiempo conseguirme a mí mismo