first post rantive reddit account  years breaking lurking streak mine make first ever official post cant keep anymore last year month november something happened me dont wish talk much feel like overlydiscussed life makes emotionally tiring mention specifics incident again ever since then past  months never wanted leave world badly used talk closest friends ranted whenever ive felt lowest think eventually theyll get tired so hence ive since stopped all lives live too frankly feel busy care dont blame though anyway result that never felt alone past months everything feeling kept inside theres one really talk to yet despite feeling lonely reason choose push away care opting isolation instead occasionally deactivate social medias delete apps turn whatever notifications messaging apps dont talk family much anymore find really tiring even answer back simple yes no many times ive thought ending life never seem able find courage so often would sit balcony home finding courage push edge ive tried constantly researching ways kill myself tried mixing alcohol medication thinking ways leave world find redflag constantly mind im currently serving national service military now past ive handled live rounds thought everything ending simple squeeze trigger often drifted mind thoughts hanging bunk camp common too ive recently started selfharming something havent done  years feel like reason havent ended yet though people care dont wish cause inconveniences pain them feel sentiment slowly going away isnt worth anymore doesnt help slowly drifting away me honestly past always thought redflag would way would go incident last november idea seems way believable now sleeping hard me often cant seem fall asleep night whereas day think sleeping camp tend drink much alcohol takes fall asleep else would lay awake hours every night go bed wishing wont wake next morning do feeling horrible simple things irritate me sometimes tired emotionally care too live days life right huge lack motivation feeling zombie kind sleepwalking days im always either side spectrum either dont feel anything feel everything really tiring either way concludes first ever reddit post
first post rantive reddit account years breaking lurking streak mine make first ever official post cant keep anymore last year month november something happened me dont wish talk much feel like overlydiscussed life makes emotionally tiring mention specifics incident again ever since then past months never wanted leave world badly used talk closest friends ranted whenever ive felt lowest think eventually theyll get tiredso hence ive since stopped all lives live too frankly feel busy care dont blame though anyway result that never felt alone past months everything feeling kept inside theres one really talk to yet despite feeling lonely reason choose push away care opting isolation instead occasionally deactivate social medias delete apps turn whatever notifications messaging apps dont talk family much anymore find really tiring even answer back simple yes no many times ive thought ending life never seem able find courage so often would sit balcony home finding courage push edge ive tried constantly researching ways kill myself tried mixing alcohol medication thinking ways leave world find redflag constantly mind im currently serving national service military now past ive handled live rounds thought everything ending simple squeeze trigger often drifted mind thoughts hanging bunk camp common too ive recently started selfharming something havent done years feel like reason havent ended yet though people care dont wish cause inconveniences pain them feel sentiment slowly going away isnt worth anymore doesnt help slowly drifting away me honestly past always thought redflag would way would go incident last november idea seems way believable now sleeping hard me often cant seem fall asleep night whereas day think sleeping camp tend drink much alcohol takes fall asleep else would lay awake hours every night go bed wishing wont wake next morning do feeling horrible simple things irritate me sometimes tired emotionally care too live days life right huge lack motivation feeling zombie kind sleepwalking days im always either side spectrum either dont feel anything feel everything really tiring either way concludes first ever reddit post
primer post rantive reddit cuenta años romper racha al acecho mina hacer primer post oficial cant guardar más el año pasado noviembre algo me pasó no deseo hablar mucho se siente como vida demasiado discutida hace emocionalmente agotador mencionar detalles incidente de nuevo desde entonces meses pasados nunca quiso dejar mundo mal utilizado hablar amigos más cercanos ranted cada vez que se sentía más bajo pensar finalmente se cansarán por lo tanto live desde dejó todas las vidas vivir demasiado francamente se siente ocupado cuidado no culpar aunque de todos modos resultado que nunca se sintió solo meses pasados todo sentimiento mantenido dentro de Theres uno realmente hablar a pesar de sentirse solo razón elegir empujar lejos cuidado optar por aislamiento en lugar de ocasionalmente desactivar las aplicaciones de eliminación de redes sociales convertir las notificaciones aplicaciones de mensajería no hablar mucho más encontrar realmente agotador incluso respuesta atrás simple