ready go right placeim sat end plan front me healthcare professionals told foolproof could gone two hours thing stopping im currently staying parents unfair ones find me could gone within two hours want anymore childhood trauma fucked up raped kid fucked chances healthy relationship eventually people get sick able fake smile realise matter happy might able make me never lasts ill back rut cant get bed shower drink water eat drugs used help escape im wanting temporary escape want out last time attempted didnt succeed much better place back then wish could fortunate keep experiencing trauma cant fixed anymore multiple therapists give cant help antidepressants havent ever worked ive fluoxetine sertraline mirtazapine citalopram venlafaxine nada help stuck docs dosage schedules ive doses raised ive tried different types specialist therapies nothing works nothing stop shit im going possible change pain intolerable flashbacks intolerable dissociate much im missing things important keep getting told things get better without fail life gets harder harder cope with dont think im going see end year through guess  year old right wasnt going live past age  all
ready go right placeim sat end plan front me healthcare professionals told foolproof could gone two hours thing stopping im currently staying parents unfair ones find me could gone within two hours want anymore childhood trauma fucked up raped kid fucked chances healthy relationship eventually people get sick able fake smile realise matter happy might able make me never lasts ill back rut cant get bed shower drink water eat drugs used help escape im wanting temporary escape want out last time attempted didnt succeed much better place back then wish could fortunate keep experiencing trauma cant fixed anymore multiple therapists give cant help antidepressants havent ever worked ive fluoxetine sertraline mirtazapine citalopram venlafaxine nada help stuck docs dosage schedules ive doses raised ive tried different types specialist therapies nothing works nothing stop shit im going possible change pain intolerable flashbacks intolerable dissociate much im missing things important keep getting told things get better without fail life gets harder harder cope with dont think im going see end year through guess year old right wasnt going live past age all
listo ir derecho placeim sat find plan front me profesionales de la salud me dijeron que a prueba de tontos podía ir dos horas cosa parar mi estancia actualmente padres injustos encontrarme podría ir dentro de dos horas querer más trauma infantil jodido violado niño follada posibilidades relación finalmente la gente consigue enfermo capaz sonrisa falsa realidad feliz hecho capaz capaz hacer nunca dura mal espalda rut cant conseguir cama ducha beber agua drogas usadas ayuda escapar im querer escape temporal querer la última vez intento no tener éxito mucho mejor lugar en ese entonces deseo podría tener suerte seguir experimentando trauma cant fijo más múltiples terapeutas dar cant ayuda antidepresivos nunca han trabajado ive fluoxetina sertraline mirtazapine citalopram venlafaxine nada ayudar a los médicos atascados dosis programa ive dosis aumentadas ive probado diferentes tipos terapias especializadas nada funciona nada paro mierda im posible cambio intolerable flashbacks intolerables faltando muchas cosas importantes seguir diciendo cosas mejores sin fallar la vida se vuelve más difícil lidiar con dont pensar im ir al final del año a lo largo de adivinar año a la derecha no iba a vivir más allá de la edad todos los años