constantly feeli keep thinking time limited fantasize  different redflag scenarios alcohol sleeping pills ordering cyanide salt drinking i know cant talk methods much cant stop thinking these couple years since ive depressed  months since ive started staying bed excessively desire anything including fixing situation im going run money eventually forced sell house process literally terrorizes me given little energy anything redflag ultimate avoidance now ultimate relief constant anxiety preventing perhaps becoming homeless parents offered let go there theyre getting now theyre physical pain themselves need coming back  fucking years old cant die already ive posted along lines before know cant fucking keep myself much cant tell parents understand depression want scare them scared say much dr case get sent hospital involuntarily hotline maybe thats need know want get better keep living shitty life im tired this
constantly feeli keep thinking time limited fantasize different redflag scenarios alcohol sleeping pills ordering cyanide salt drinking i know cant talk methods much cant stop thinking these couple years since ive depressed months since ive started staying bed excessively desire anything including fixing situation im going run money eventually forced sell house process literally terrorizes me given little energy anything redflag ultimate avoidance now ultimate relief constant anxiety preventing perhaps becoming homeless parents offered let go there theyre getting now theyre physical pain themselves need coming back fucking years old cant die already ive posted along lines before know cant fucking keep myself much cant tell parents understand depression want scare them scared say much dr case get sent hospital involuntarily hotlinemaybe thats need know want get better keep living shitty life im tired this
Constantemente senti seguir pensando tiempo limitado fantasear diferentes escenarios de bandera roja alcohol píldoras para dormir ordenar cianuro sal beber yo sé no puedo hablar métodos mucho no puedo dejar de pensar estos dos años desde ive deprimido meses desde ive comenzó a permanecer en la cama excesivamente deseo cualquier cosa incluyendo fijación situación I go run dinero eventualmente forzado vender casa proceso literalmente me aterroriza dado poca energía nada redflag última evitación ahora alivio último ansiedad constante prevención tal vez convertirse en indigente padres ofrecido dejar ir allí están recibiendo ahora ellos mismos dolor físico necesitan volver malditos años de edad no puede morir ya ive publicado en línea antes de saber no puedo mantenerme mucho no puedo decir a los padres entender depresión quieren asustarse dicen mucho Dr caso conseguir enviado hospital involuntariamente línea directa tal vez que necesita saber mejor seguir viviendo mierda vida im cansado esto