oh no another suicidal formerly gifted kidwho needs another one right also formerly gifted formerly kid want get pedantic so hope ready hear white privileged kid whine buckle boys gonna long one heres short story academic life early remember odd smarter peers oddly serious early  on mothers day year told mom probably best mom world would impossible measure lol socially distant indoorsy tagged gifted program since st grade honors classes middle school  ap classes high school ultimately graduated cum laude along like half class lol received special certificate averaging  ap classes hell got  act national merit semifinalist guess what even try seldom homework never studied tests closest thing preparation act jerk school bathroom ten minutes started someone much promise much obvious talent much intelligence today why  year old college drop out depressed even employed collecting disability us government barely able remember basic words likely dead  months else so get there well that were gonna take another trip back time looking academia bit microscope interested hearing internet strangers uninteresting college years feel free skip ahead bolded words first thing know ive therapy various points life starting  like said odd kid wound talking lot death dying age got first trip mental health care worker   never really helped so major parts story senior year suicidal thoughts really kicked notch basically stopped smiling point angry irritable realized sent application get anywhere id probably wind killing myself gf pretty cool though know relationship make better holy shit helps grades slipping bit slipping as bs noticeable people including parents eventually slew rejections wait listing set sights high suppose got accepted relatively high end university university several friends girlfriend yay hooray considered getting married ultimately decided break college let chance grow end wanted get married would time would friends benefits turned pretty good course action she deep down were roommates good friends romantic inclination towards other hes easily smartest guy know truly respect him moving college first thing make appointment psychiatrist got meds figured depressing thoughts would go away nope went  meds freshman year college alone none shit also saw therapist simultaneously gave honest try also nope suggested walk my  year old self pretend i was really taking care imaginary  year old me sounded dumb tried sure enough dumb oh happening failing every class easy as art criticism class media studies gen eds get high school getting bs in turns out breezing everything previously left absolutely incapable even minor effort put grades oops second semester rolls around actually fail every class wind involuntary committed admitting friend seriously considering redflag one  dollar hospital bill and another useless pill added cocktail later announce intent take leave absence take care mental health move back dad year starting summer obamacare full swing still considered dependent covered right wrong turns dear old dad idea fill form written lowest common denominator neglected inform insurance company me involuntary hospitalization round  comes around september unsuccessfully attempt kill myself a brief aside know quote guy jumped golden gate bridge as soon jumped realized problems fixable except jumped yeah feel anything like that get method sufficed say moments think thing entered mind alright go woke up moment regret either feel anything laid floor half hour feeling thinking nothing eventually got up cleaned mess went back watching tv fact terms redflag regrets regret attempt failed ive felt regret every single day since another useless drug another  dollar hospital bill meeting sliding scale therapist psychiatrist got  sessions in made progress soon forced return school way early choice wanted medical care gave school another solid semester finally throwing towel failing classes yet again hospitalization number  time voluntary going reason now see year took off discovered something important myself turns absolutely cannot degree unskilled labor mean temperament refuse pretend happy patience rude customers question authority especially arbitrary corporate authority constantly finally cant stand work pointless menial im convinced camus claimed see sisyphus smiling man ever worked retail oh im also lazy know inclined say no depressed executive dysfunction lazy assure you lazy depression laziness not experience mutually exclusive but theres always plan b arm full medical paperwork residual student loans keeping afloat set get disability anybody whos process knows difficult is likely rejected face even incredible evidence got first attempt  months yet another stroke luck wasted lazy idiot and thats pretty much now if thought long edited around  additional paragraphs going grade school middle school days along aspects pointless life story ive made real changes progress since ive stagnated last  years sex  years job in well pretty much ever least nothing lasted two weeks ive made token attempts get help avail life experience taught things hard work success correlated odd know think take away opposite ide considering laziness pretty much got flunked college really seen pan elsewhere mother father worked asses build good lives end significantly worse off hard work trying get better way helped thing ive learned psychology really science therapists clue actually help psychiatrists mostly guessing lessons hard learned  medications  different families antidepressants plus atypical antipsychotic now may looking thinking thats great all actually suicidal honestly im entirely sure im basically miserable nothing brings pleasure joy nothing feels meaningful hell things barely even feel real everything annoys me people seem slow dull get frustrated sometimes downright mad look around world shit everything monitored monotized marketed parasocial relationships weird bizarrely intermingled capitalism branding companies try obfuscate friendly individuals behind sassy twitter messages paying workers peanuts know ceo wendys major trump supporter bullshit bootstrap mentality omnipresent attempting point institutionalized flaws system means looking excuses days ago phones keyboard started displaying microsofts name reason even type im advertised at world morphed comical exaggeration they live feels like anytime try show someone like  minute long fight scene they live want guy put god damn glasses oh said before sex  years face that knowledge that realistically theres much anything change face apathetic majority see redflag bad idea yes family friends sad honestly job keep happy anymore job keep happy thats imposition impose them id hope me ive set date best friend roommate former so finishes last semester school know death absolutely destroy him im sorry will but going happen want degree fall back recovers leave think probably best microcosm life back friend dating would go every dance together stand socially awkward generally bored them neither could he since dresses uncomfortable made feel wrong though time understand never told me senior year prom coming up seriously considering going something else even nothing asked dad advice said you go never know might like it even like ones proms different special besides your so wants go her even enjoy time look back glad went sucked went hated it bad every dance big hotel ballroom hated well would later tell me went because well thing do day im glad went ultimately feels like people tangentially related got anything it people directly involved knew pointless life lot like that lots people really idea want telling keep living future benefit one except negligibly related close know want feel obligated participate keeping alive vague idea theyre supposed do finally really want it
oh no another suicidal formerly gifted kidwho needs another one right also formerly gifted formerly kid want get pedantic so hope ready hear white privileged kid whine buckle boys gonna long one heres short story academic life early remember odd smarter peers oddly serious early on mothers day year told mom probably best mom world would impossible measure lol socially distant indoorsy tagged gifted program since st grade honors classes middle school ap classes high school ultimately graduated cum laude along like half class lol received special certificate averaging ap classes hell got act national merit semifinalist guess what even try seldom homework never studied tests closest thing preparation act jerk school bathroom ten minutes started someone much promise much obvious talent much intelligence today why year old college drop out depressed even employed collecting disability us government barely able remember basic words likely dead months else so get there well that were gonna take another trip back time looking academia bit microscope interested hearing internet strangers uninteresting college years feel free skip ahead bolded words first thing know ive therapy various points life starting like said odd kid wound talking lot death dying age got first trip mental health care worker never really helped so major parts story senior year suicidal thoughts really kicked notch basically stopped smiling point angry irritable realized sent application get anywhere id probably wind killing myself gf pretty cool though know relationship make better holy shit helps grades slipping bit slipping as bs noticeable people including parents eventually slew rejections wait listing set sights high suppose got accepted relatively high end university university several friends girlfriend yay hooray considered getting married ultimately decided break college let chance grow end wanted get married would time would friends benefits turned pretty good course action she deep down were roommates good friends romantic inclination towards other hes easily smartest guy know truly respect him moving college first thing make appointment psychiatrist got meds figured depressing thoughts would go away nope went meds freshman year college alone none shit also saw therapist simultaneously gave honest try also nope suggested walk my year old self pretend i was really taking care imaginary year old me sounded dumb tried sure enough dumboh happening failing every class easy as art criticism class media studies gen eds get high school getting bs in turns out breezing everything previously left absolutely incapable even minor effort put grades oops second semester rolls around actually fail every class wind involuntary committed admitting friend seriously considering redflag one dollar hospital bill and another useless pill added cocktail later announce intent take leave absence take care mental health move back dad year starting summer obamacare full swing still considered dependent covered right wrong turns dear old dad idea fill form written lowest common denominator neglected inform insurance company me involuntary hospitalization round comes around september unsuccessfully attempt kill myself a brief aside know quote guy jumped golden gate bridge as soon jumped realized problems fixable except jumped yeah feel anything like that get method sufficed say moments think thing entered mind alright go woke up moment regret either feel anything laid floor half hour feeling thinking nothing eventually got up cleaned mess went back watching tv fact terms redflag regrets regret attempt failed ive felt regret every single day since another useless drug another dollar hospital bill meeting sliding scale therapist psychiatrist got sessions in made progress soon forced return school way early choice wanted medical care gave school another solid semester finally throwing towel failing classes yet again hospitalization number time voluntary going reason now see year took off discovered something important myself turns absolutely cannot degree unskilled labor mean temperament refuse pretend happy patience rude customers question authority especially arbitrary corporate authority constantly finally cant stand work pointless menial im convinced camus claimed see sisyphus smiling man ever worked retail oh im also lazy know inclined say no depressed executive dysfunction lazy assure you lazy depression laziness not experience mutually exclusive but theres always plan b arm full medical paperwork residual student loans keeping afloat set get disability anybody whos process knows difficult is likely rejected face even incredible evidence got first attempt months yet another stroke luck wasted lazy idiot and thats pretty much now if thought long edited around additional paragraphs going grade school middle school days along aspects pointless life story ive made real changes progress since ive stagnated last years sex years job in well pretty much ever least nothing lasted two weeks ive made token attempts get help avail life experience taught things hard work success correlated odd know think take away opposite ide considering laziness pretty much got flunked college really seen pan elsewhere mother father worked asses build good lives end significantly worse off hard work trying get better way helped thing ive learned psychology really science therapists clue actually help psychiatrists mostly guessing lessons hard learned medications different families antidepressants plus atypical antipsychotic now may looking thinking thats great all actually suicidal honestly im entirely sure im basically miserable nothing brings pleasure joy nothing feels meaningful hell things barely even feel real everything annoys me people seem slow dull get frustrated sometimes downright mad look around world shit everything monitored monotized marketed parasocial relationships weird bizarrely intermingled capitalism branding companies try obfuscate friendly individuals behind sassy twitter messages paying workers peanuts know ceo wendys major trump supporter bullshit bootstrap mentality omnipresent attempting point institutionalized flaws system means looking excuses days ago phones keyboard started displaying microsofts name reason even type im advertised at world morphed comical exaggeration they live feels like anytime try show someone like minute long fight scene they live want guy put god damn glasses oh said before sex years face that knowledge that realistically theres much anything change face apathetic majority see redflag bad ideayes family friends sad honestly job keep happy anymore job keep happy thats imposition impose them id hope me ive set date best friend roommate former so finishes last semester school know death absolutely destroy himim sorry will but going happen want degree fall back recovers leave think probably best microcosm life back friend dating would go every dance together stand socially awkward generally bored them neither could he since dresses uncomfortable made feel wrong though time understand never told me senior year prom coming up seriously considering going something else even nothing asked dad advice said you go never know might like it even like ones proms different special besides your so wants go her even enjoy time look back glad went sucked went hated it bad every dance big hotel ballroom hated well would later tell me went because well thing do day im glad went ultimately feels like people tangentially related got anything it people directly involved knew pointless life lot like that lots people really idea want telling keep living future benefit one except negligibly related close know want feel obligated participate keeping alive vague idea theyre supposed do finally really wantit
Oh no otro suicida antes dotado niño que necesita otro derecho también anteriormente dotado antes niño quieren ponerse pedante así que la esperanza listo escuchar blanco privilegiado niño lloriqueo hebilla chicos va a largo uno aquí historia corta vida académica temprano recordar impares compañeros más inteligentes extrañamente serio temprano en las madres día año le dijo a mamá probablemente mejor mundo mamá imposible medida lol socialmente distante interiory etiquetado programa dotado puesto que st grado honores clases escuela media ap clases secundaria en última instancia se graduó cum laude como media clase lol recibió certificado especial promedio clases ap infierno consiguió acto nacional mérito semifinalista adivinar lo que incluso tratar rara vez tarea nunca estudió pruebas más cercano acto preparación acto idiota escuela cuarto de baño diez minutos comenzó alguien mucho promesa mucho talento obvio mucha inteligencia hoy por qué año viejo universidad dejar deprimido incluso empleado recoger discapacidad nos gobierno apenas capaz