kinda dont wanna alive anymorei undiagnosed mental illness im pretty sure borderline maybe stuff anxiety childhood trauma yknow cant afford therapist im also petrified death idea killing makes really nervous fucking suicidal breakdowns every days literally anything set off cut hit slam head wall cry hours sucks one talk to mh boyfriend says talk says im sorry whoch fine hes therapist goddamn hurts like im really hard time right close committing redflag person say im sorry like yea get isnt good way respond every single time im upset way always im sorry goddamn hurt want stay alive sake siblings boyfriend dog hate alive much stressed im basically parent siblings continue semester college home im suicidal like every  days pressure already getting me hell school without extra stressors huge freakouts per week im drastically scary im becoming violent im scared ill do god sure know want alive anymore people say listen dont even anything say im fucking scared im abusive guilt trippy im scared everyone going leave cant afford therapy im scared im gonna hospitalized also redflag hotline fucking blows last time tried use told lady wrong like wow sucks yea know really sucks absolutely help all therapy awful  went shitty therapist told nothing wrong even though self harm suicidal intense reactions minor things severe rejection sensitivity yea god want dead bad im scared kill basically im depressed
kinda dont wanna alive anymorei undiagnosed mental illnessim pretty sure borderline maybe stuff anxiety childhood trauma yknow cant afford therapist im also petrified death idea killing makes really nervous fucking suicidal breakdowns every days literally anything set off cut hit slam head wall cry hours sucks one talk to mh boyfriend says talk says im sorrywhoch finehes therapist goddamn hurts like im really hard time right close committing redflag person say im sorry like yea get isnt good way respond every single time im upset way always im sorry goddamn hurt want stay alive sake siblings boyfriend dog hate alive much stressed im basically parent siblings continue semester college home im suicidal like every days pressure already getting me hell school without extra stressors huge freakouts per week im drastically scary im becoming violent im scared ill do god sure know want alive anymore people say listen dont even anything say im fucking scared im abusive guilt trippy im scared everyone going leave cant afford therapy im scared im gonna hospitalized also redflag hotline fucking blows last time tried use told lady wrong like wow sucks yea know really sucks absolutely help all therapy awful went shitty therapist told nothing wrong even though self harm suicidal intense reactions minor things severe rejection sensitivity yea god want dead badim scared kill basically im depressed
Un poco no quiero vivir morei enfermedad mental no diagnosticadaim bastante seguro borderline tal vez cosas ansiedad trauma infantil yknow cant pagar terapeuta im también petrificado muerte idea matar hace realmente nervioso mierda ataques suicidas todos los días literalmente cualquier cosa cortada corte golpe golpe slam pared llanto horas chupa una charla a mh novio dice hablar dice habla im lamentwhoch finhes terapeuta maldito duele como im muy difícil momento cerca cometer Redflag persona decir im lo siento como yea get ist buena manera responder cada vez im molesto manera siempre lo siento maldito daño quieren mantenerse vivos sake hermanos novio perro odio vivo mucho estresado im básicamente padres hermanos continuar semestre universidad