getting help leads painabout  months ago met girl really liked first  months quasi relationship going on time first person could tell suicidal thoughts first great problem felt little great couple really pathetic reasons still told problems even though knew interested hearing even talk me fucked up talked things also one last friends shitty little social life crumbling away last december told mym mum suicidal thoughts awkward fuck next couple days tried talk hated it regret telling her still cant sometimes look eyes military told doctor thoughts waste lot time convince bad shape none even slightly respected need military straight desires matter us well take freedom away well feel like attitude lost one friends lose tell friends made things awkward capable loving purely genetics almost lost choice military people respect free make decisions me completely alone im uncapable anything alone hence im completely fucked
getting help leads painabout months ago met girl really liked first months quasi relationship going on time first person could tell suicidal thoughts first great problem felt little great couple really pathetic reasons still told problems even though knew interested hearing even talk me fucked up talked things also one last friends shitty little social life crumbling away last december told mym mum suicidal thoughts awkward fuck next couple days tried talk hated it regret telling her still cant sometimes look eyes military told doctor thoughts waste lot time convince bad shape none even slightly respected need military straight desires matter us well take freedom away well feel like attitude lost one friends lose tell friends made things awkward capable loving purely genetics almost lost choice military people respect free make decisions me completely aloneim uncapable anything alone hence im completely fucked
conseguir ayuda leads dolor hace unos meses conocí chica realmente me gustó primeros meses cuasi relación yendo en el tiempo primera persona podía decir pensamientos suicidas primero gran problema se sentía poco gran pareja realmente patético razones todavía dijo problemas a pesar de saber escuchar incluso hablar mal hablado cosas también un último amigos mierda pequeña vida social desmoronarse el pasado diciembre le dijo a mi mamá pensamientos suicidas incómodos mierda los próximos dos días intentó hablar odio la pena decirle todavía no puede mirar a veces los ojos militares dijo pensamientos doctor perder mucho tiempo convencer mala forma ninguno siquiera un poco respetado necesidad militar deseos rectos importa bien nos importa bien sentir como actitud perdido un amigo perder decir amigos hizo cosas torpes capaz amar puramente genética casi perdido elección militar personas respeto libre tomar decisiones me completamente soloim incapaz cualquier cosa sola por lo tanto im completamente follada