thing holding back happen dieim afraid death redflag thing holding back happen jump punished taking life god like sleeping ive thinking months still cant settle answer reason live parents terrible figures traumatized since born dad delusional raging alcoholic jumps opportunity break dishes humiliate us eyes neighbors one time brought bottle superglue aampc project accused mother poisoning food it mother submissive overdramatic woman may sound unfair mother seeing victim side parent fight begging pleading forgiveness bawling eyes verbally assaulted one traumatizing sights think of given school social life too friends talk anyone even though grades pretty good since abandoned group friends online friends shared lot issues even though extremely loyal great friends snapped once said sorts things cant bring face anymore even im sure theyll take back instantly get mad anyone tries talk  seconds im frustrated lack emotion constant anger occasional sadness know english my th language far better mother tongue ever talked aforementioned group friends never compatriots meaningful future due abysmal social skills know kind replies want post im really posting vent thank reading
thing holding back happen dieim afraid death redflag thing holding back happen jump punished taking life god like sleeping ive thinking months still cant settle answer reason live parents terrible figures traumatized since born dad delusional raging alcoholic jumps opportunity break dishes humiliate us eyes neighbors one time brought bottle superglue aampc project accused mother poisoning food it mother submissive overdramatic woman may sound unfair mother seeing victim side parent fight begging pleading forgiveness bawling eyes verbally assaulted one traumatizing sights think of given school social life too friends talk anyone even though grades pretty good since abandoned group friends online friends shared lot issues even though extremely loyal great friends snapped once said sorts things cant bring face anymore even im sure theyll take back instantly get mad anyone tries talksecondsim frustrated lack emotion constant anger occasional sadness know english my th language far better mother tongue ever talked aforementioned group friends never compatriots meaningful future due abysmal social skills know kind replies want post im really posting vent thank reading
thing holding back passe diem miedo muerte bandera roja thing holding back passe salto castigado tomar vida dios como dormir vida pensamiento meses todavía no se puede resolver respuesta razón padres vivos terribles figuras traumatizados desde nacimiento padre delirante saltos alcohólicos oportunidad romper platos humillar ojos vecinos una vez trajo botella superglue aampc proyecto acusado madre envenenado alimentos madre sumisa mujer puede sonar injusto madre ver víctima lado padre lucha mendigando suplicando perdón ojos llorosos verbalmente agredido una mirada traumatizante pensar en dada escuela vida social también amigos hablar a cualquiera aunque las calificaciones bastante bueno desde amigos abandonados grupo en línea amigos compartieron muchos problemas a pesar de que muy leales grandes amigos se rompió una vez dijo tipos las cosas no pueden traer cara ya incluso estoy seguro de que van a volver al instante cualquiera intenta hablarsesegundosim frustrado falta emoción constante cólera ocasional tristeza saber Inglés mi lengua materna mucho mejor nunca habló antes amigos grupo amigos nunca compatriotas significativo debido a habilidades sociales abysmal sabe tipo respuestas quieren realmente post im