think ive ruined chance love cant keep going anymorei know else post this f met amazing guy m january  us wanted friends benefits first kept telling much missed perfect other point want fwb anymore said ready commit another relationship yet needs time kept chatting friends every time would end always come back telling much like miss other kept pushing relationship would always back point say would best stayed friends long talk one time seemed like okay trying commit long take things slow got depressed talk much anymore we would usually talk every day hours asked needed space agreed bad feeling checked dating app met back there asked space meant going look people said didnt went back dating app hours later confronted answer insulted wanted answer blocked me tried call phone got automated message saying phone number registered thought maybe gave throwaway phone number reasons next thing complicated really matter excuse it created fake account dating app part could find lied me think noticed im sure contacted ex paranoid theyre maybe still together thats ghosted me also phone number thing weird day later contacted telling contacting ex talked little really give explanations asked lied dating app first tried say never happened evaded question asked could still friends least really answer months later asked reply asked never wanted talk said still needs time message hes ready asked could promise hell message eventually got angry said pressuring want talk anymore blocked again year ago sent letter january  asking could talk person reply think im ever going love anyone again fault want talk anymore think deserve die messed up living feels pointless anyway person im ever going love even want talk me really wish could something make things right im thinking sending another letter apologise tell everything wanted tell person going get talk hes probably going read anyway think going help suicidal thoughts year im still okay wish could talk happened really know anymore im sorry post mess im mostly crying writing
think ive ruined chance love cant keep going anymorei know else post this f met amazing guy m january us wanted friends benefits first kept telling much missed perfect other point want fwb anymore said ready commit another relationship yet needs time kept chatting friends every time would end always come back telling much like miss other kept pushing relationship would always back point say would best stayed friends long talk one time seemed like okay trying commit long take things slow got depressed talk much anymore we would usually talk every day hours asked needed space agreed bad feeling checked dating app met back there asked space meant going look people said didnt went back dating app hours later confronted answer insulted wanted answer blocked me tried call phone got automated message saying phone number registered thought maybe gave throwaway phone number reasons next thing complicated really matter excuse it created fake account dating app part could find lied me think noticedim sure contacted ex paranoid theyre maybe still together thats ghosted me also phone number thing weird day later contacted telling contacting ex talked little really give explanations asked lied dating app first tried say never happened evaded question asked could still friends least really answer months later asked reply asked never wanted talk said still needs time message hes ready asked could promise hell message eventually got angry said pressuring want talk anymore blocked again year ago sent letter january asking could talk person reply think im ever going love anyone again fault want talk anymore think deserve die messed up living feels pointless anyway personim ever going love even want talk me really wish could something make things right im thinking sending another letter apologise tell everything wanted tell person going get talk hes probably going read anyway think going help suicidal thoughts yearim still okay wish could talk happened really know anymore im sorry post messim mostly crying writing
Creo ive arruinado oportunidad amor no puede seguir adelante ya sé más post este f met increíble chico m enero nosotros queríamos amigos beneficios primero se mantuvo diciendo mucho perdido perfecto otro punto want fwb más dijo listo cometer otra relación sin embargo necesita tiempo mantuvo chatting amigos cada vez que terminaría siempre volver diciendo mucho como falta otro mantenido empujar relación siempre punto de vuelta decir mejor permanecer amigos larga conversación una vez parecía como bien intentar compromiso largo tomar las cosas lento se deprimió hablar mucho más solíamos hablar cada día horas pidió espacio necesario acordado mal sentimiento comprobado datating app met back allí preguntó espacio significa ir mirada gente dijo no se fue atrás data aplicación horas después confrontó respuesta insultada respuesta deseada bloqueo me trató teléfono teléfono teléfono recibió mensaje automatizado diciendo número de teléfono se pensó tal vez dio desecho número de teléfono razones siguiente cosa complicada realmente materia excusa creó cuenta falsa aplicación citas parte podría encontrar mentira pensar notetim seguro contactado ex paranoico