im lazy deserve die long rambly im sorryi genuinely lazy im busy got shit done overwhelmed im stressed im lazy honestly know describe experience solution simple if know need do i acknowledged currently procrastinating i stop go thing almost want say feel control actions want say depressed lazy im depressed knowingly actively making decision time time again choosing supposed do tried change time time again ive made plans ive tried start good habits try listen music motivate work theyve worked week drop ball say ill pick tonight codeword for really now know this still say it realize try think specific time whatever thing almost always miss time even still one late day away fired work late problem ive always had middle school now exact reason first days week ill arrive early sometimes rare twice times even hour early wander around area need arrive ill pumped energized fully convinced every day going like this starts become routine ill convinced know what ive arriving early start fudge little still leave little later still make time continues becomes problem today arrived late manager told point blank im late one time ill fired edit im writing post it today different day ive fired emphasized want this one better employees store which something ive told multiple people store may retail may super easy im still little proud it reflected fact ive able get away write ups ever seen locations store thats explained next one last one honestly going try like hell break habit know myself going late going happen and think ive made decision going kill myself one petty little thing whats weighing mind today rather like every aspect life much want do life planned out defining restrictive way rather bit road map changed along way see fit want get associates science community college want apply disney college program spend semester there want transfer university get bachelors mechanical engineering list universities picked out even know local transfer advisors university are made effort contact them know im ready ill get minute want move live la i know many people hate pretty valid reasons reasons too theyre hard explain want giant alaskan malamute ill name mako husky ill name mischief mis short know ill keep cool giving plenty water giving kiddie pool play in heard tip filling old milk cartons ice freezing it maybe adding food coloring effect letting play ice ill continue look things like that want exercise every day maybe hiking biking dogs use take big long walks read every day whole list daily habits want start think lead life goes depth that know im going it ive interconnected things made list traits attribute ideal self late work definitely not list hate people say care know im thinking know care lot screw hate even more problem me know need do need reach it deciding kill exactly new thing back last summer made plan knew going it decided become homeless would kill myself time graduated high school aunt uncle who mom roommates with threatening kick unless paid  of money rent every month decided figured lazy much procrastinator cant pick homeless everything packed ready august actually found job think may saved life want underemphasize killing myself im trying explain why terrible shitty person leeches burden around me fact note im going leave going say something effect im burden deserve die ive tried long lengthy things trying explain ask people blame themselves turned rambly like whole thing wound inadvertently blaming people last thing want do person blame me went short point ive thoughts killing since high school which long ago im  life homework even study passed good taking tests without studying even would get b one honestly even still shouldntve passed earn it college plan ready everything ready thing happened except time stopped showing halfway semester wound confessing plan kill councilor time make long story longer get help needed time frankly community college offer it cant afford it took semester hoping start list good habits knowing went time would fail again know go now im going fail again want fix myself would work would well would excel classes im waiting go fix myself lose job ill boat again owing roommates money cusp homeless basically plan kill live again might save embarrassment save frustration leave early chance threaten kicking out ill clean room bag packed leave im sorry feel like sound like im overdramatic words i deserve die keep repeating inside head think anyone deserves die yet somehow exception words like weird kind doublethink sort thing objectively know true thats seek help believe it started writing one day finished another since lost job feel like terrible person right now im really looking sympathy honestly right even tried convince im terrible person believe it whats interesting that feel like kind clearly see thoughts seem clear organized one day total mess another theres definite split two start turn rambling mess im sorry dumping thoughts here honestly know clean bit know wanted end ill end this past ive told people plan kill myself explain words go head feel consumed it always ask why ill answer im lazy procrastinate tell that cant all believe it whole thing tried focus less plan kill myself less ive tried change myself less thoughts lead it etc im sorry thank patience somebody might respond even nobody does nice putting thoughts there read this thank you tldr im lazy ruining life think deserve die
im lazy deserve die long rambly im sorryi genuinely lazy im busy got shit done overwhelmed im stressed im lazy honestly know describe experience solution simple if know need do i acknowledged currently procrastinating i stop go thing almost want say feel control actions want say depressed lazyim depressed knowingly actively making decision time time again choosing supposed do tried change time time again ive made plans ive tried start good habits try listen music motivate work theyve worked week drop ball say ill pick tonight codeword for really now know this still say it realize try think specific timewhatever thing almost always miss time even still one late day away fired work late problem ive always had middle school now exact reason first days week ill arrive early sometimes rare twice times even hour early wander around area need arrive ill pumped energized fully convinced every day going like this starts become routine ill convinced know what ive arriving early start fudge little still leave little later still make time continues becomes problem today arrived late manager told point blankim late one time ill fired edit im writing post it today different day ive fired emphasized want this one better employees store which something ive told multiple people store may retail may super easyim still little proud it reflected fact ive able get away write ups ever seen locations store thats explained next one last one honestly going try like hell break habit know myself going late going happen and think ive made decision going kill myself one petty little thing whats weighing mind today rather like every aspect life much want do life planned out defining restrictive way rather bit road map changed along way see fit want get associates science community college want apply disney college program spend semester there want transfer university get bachelors mechanical engineering list universities picked out even know local transfer advisors university are made effort contact them knowim ready ill get minute want move livela i know many people hate pretty valid reasons reasons too theyre hard explain want giant alaskan malamute ill name mako husky ill name mischief mis short know ill keep cool giving plenty water giving kiddie pool play in heard tip filling old milk cartons ice freezing it maybe adding food coloring effect letting play ice ill continue look things like that want exercise every day maybe hiking biking dogs use take big long walks read every day whole list daily habits want start think lead life goes depth that know im going it ive interconnected things made list traits attribute ideal self late work definitely not list hate people say care know im thinking know care lot screw hate even more problem me know need do need reach it deciding kill exactly new thing back last summer made plan knew going it decided become homeless would kill myself time graduated high school aunt uncle who mom roommates with threatening kick unless paid of money rent every month decided figured lazy much procrastinator cant pick homeless everything packed ready august actually found job think may saved life want underemphasize killing myself im trying explain why terrible shitty person leeches burden around me fact note im going leave going say something effect im burden deserve die ive tried long lengthy things trying explain ask people blame themselves turned rambly like whole thing wound inadvertently blaming people last thing want do person blame me went short point ive thoughts killing since high school which long ago im life homework even study passed good taking tests without studying even would get b one honestly even still shouldntve passed earn it college plan ready everything ready thing happened except time stopped showing halfway semester wound confessing plan kill councilor time make long story longer get help needed time frankly community college offer it cant afford it took semester hoping start list good habits knowing went time would fail again know go now im going fail again want fix myself would work would well would excel classes im waiting go fix myself lose job ill boat again owing roommates money cusp homeless basically plan kill live again might save embarrassment save frustration leave early chance threaten kicking out ill clean room bag packed leaveim sorry feel like sound like im overdramatic words i deserve die keep repeating inside head think anyone deserves die yet somehow exception words like weird kind doublethink sort thing objectively know true thats seek help believe it started writing one day finished another since lost job feel like terrible person right now im really looking sympathy honestly right even tried convince im terrible person believe it whats interesting that feel like kind clearly see thoughts seem clear organized one day total mess another theres definite split two start turn rambling messim sorry dumping thoughts here honestly know clean bit know wanted end ill end this past ive told people plan kill myself explain words go head feel consumed it always ask why ill answer im lazy procrastinate tell that cant all believe it whole thing tried focus less plan kill myself less ive tried change myself less thoughts lead it etcim sorry thank patience somebody might respond even nobody does nice putting thoughts there read this thank you tldr im lazy ruining life think deserve die
Im perezoso merecer morir largo rambly im wolpi genuinamente perezoso im ocupado consiguió mierda hecho abrumado im estresado im perezoso honestamente saber describir experiencia solución simple si saber necesidad I reconoce actualmente procrastinante I stop go cosa casi querer decir sentir control acciones querer decir deprimido lazyim deprimido a sabiendas activamente tomar decisión tiempo otra vez elegir supuesto intentar cambio tiempo otra vez ive hizo planes ive intentó comenzar buenos hábitos intentar escuchar música motivar trabajo han trabajado bola de caída de la semana decir mal pick esta noche realmente ahora saber esto todavía decir intentar pensar tiempo específico lo que sea casi siempre perder tiempo incluso un día tarde lejos despedido trabajo tarde problema ive siempre tenía escuela media ahora razón exacta primeros días semana mal llegar temprano a veces raras veces dos veces hora temprano vagar alrededor de la zona necesita llegar mal bombeado energizado totalmente convencido cada día que va como esto comienza a ser rutina mal convencido saber lo que viene principio temprano fudge poco todavía dejar poco más tarde sigue haciendo que el tiempo se convierte en problema hoy llegado tarde gerente dijo punto blakim tarde una vez mal despedido edición