realised recently hanging pretty loose thread exams thiubht stuff getting better friends noticed getting positive last two three days crashed hard gone back nearly suicidal thoughts progress seems mostly unravelled actually know issue even anymore took snap friends going without me kind ridiculous go two mental breakdowns day ranting infront mirror usual distractions essentially stopped working even worse day today anything pull attention away want basically fast travel skip day thought issues coming fit got fit thought proper schedule rigid schedule thought grades thought socialising thought teenage issues thought trans idea declined rapidly genuinely know even mitigate circumstances let alone go anywhereanyone got advicemy last resort basically now writing thoughts going back creative writing outlet depression diagnosed sometimes doubt real sometimes think might issues total two proper good days felt like everything mostly fine guess family circumstances migt something it butit seems random things get worse
realised recently hanging pretty loose thread exams thiubht stuff getting better friends noticed getting positive last two three days crashed hard gone back nearly suicidal thoughts progress seems mostly unravelled actually know issue even anymore took snap friends going without me kind ridiculous go two mental breakdowns day ranting infront mirror usual distractions essentially stopped working even worse day today anything pull attention away want basically fast travel skip day thought issues coming fit got fit thought proper schedule rigid schedule thought grades thought socialising thought teenage issues thought trans idea declined rapidly genuinely know even mitigate circumstances let alone go anywhereanyone got advicemy last resort basically now writing thoughts going back creative writing outlet depression diagnosed sometimes doubt real sometimes think might issues total two proper good days felt like everything mostly fine guess family circumstances migt something it butit seems random things get worse
se dio cuenta recientemente colgando bastante flojo exámenes thiubht cosas conseguir mejores amigos se dio cuenta de conseguir positivo últimos dos tres días se estrelló duro atrás casi pensamientos suicidas progreso parece más bien desentrañado realidad sabe problema incluso más tomó amigos snap ir sin mí tipo ridículo ir dos crisis mentales día desposeído en el espejo distracciones habituales esencialmente dejó de trabajar peor día hoy cualquier cosa tirar de la atención lejos desea básicamente viajes rápidos skip día pensamiento problemas encajonamiento pensamiento horario adecuado horario rígido pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento pensamiento ideas trans idea declinaron rápidamente genuinamente saber incluso mitigar circunstancias mucho menos ir a cualquier lugar cualquiera tiene consejo mi último recurso básicamente ahora escribir pensamientos volver creativo escritura outlet depresión diagnosticada a veces real a veces pensar que podrían problemas total dos buenos días adecuados se sentía como todo muy bien conjetura circunstancias familiares migt algo pero parece cosas aleatorias empeorar