f mei cant take life anymore everything falling apart nothing ever same worst thing thats happening right brother arrested something horrible cant talk anybody still ongoing matter whole family torn apart this mom wont even talk shes concerned him im afraid shes going spend families money college fund him feel like selfish piece shit even worrying right now even found yesterday wanted kill myself ive wanting kill long time dont think anything matters anymore cant imagine feeling worse right now ive suicidal before ive mental hospital twice raped ive suicidal ideation long time pretty much long remember even though family gave financial help could always sad child molested starting age  older boss restaurant worked at went college raped guy thought really liked me dumb think anyone could like me im extremely fat ugly one even believe rape police made feel like fault couldnt cope trauma rape dropped college started drinking heavily raped several times got bad situations know fault things got little better stopped drinking started going therapy happened brother see going horrible downward spiral dont think anything ever get better dont think theres hope
f mei cant take life anymore everything falling apart nothing ever same worst thing thats happening right brother arrested something horrible cant talk anybody still ongoing matter whole family torn apart this mom wont even talk shes concerned himim afraid shes going spend families money college fund him feel like selfish piece shit even worrying right now even found yesterday wanted kill myself ive wanting kill long time dont think anything matters anymore cant imagine feeling worse right now ive suicidal before ive mental hospital twice raped ive suicidal ideation long time pretty much long remember even though family gave financial help could always sad child molested starting age older boss restaurant worked at went college raped guy thought really liked me dumb think anyone could like me im extremely fat ugly one even believe rape police made feel like fault couldnt cope trauma rape dropped college started drinking heavily raped several times got bad situations know fault things got little better stopped drinking started going therapy happened brother see going horrible downward spiral dont think anything ever get better dont think theres hope
F mei no puede tomar la vida más todo cayendo a pedazos nada nunca lo mismo peor que está sucediendo hermano derecho arrestado algo horrible no puede hablar nadie asunto todavía en curso toda la familia destrozada esta mamá no habla siquiera le preocupa miedo ella va a gastar familias dinero universidad fondo él se siente como pieza egoísta mierda incluso preocupado ahora incluso ayer quería matar a mi mismo ive querer matar mucho tiempo no creo que nada importa más no puedo imaginar sentirse peor ahora viva suicida antes de ive hospital mental violada dos veces idea suicida viva mucho tiempo bastante tiempo recordar incluso aunque la familia dio ayuda financiera siempre podría triste niño abusado a partir de edad mayor restaurante jefe trabajó en la universidad fue violado chico pensó que realmente me gustaba tonto pensar que alguien podría como yo im extremadamente fea uno incluso creer que la policía violación hizo sentir como culpa no podía hacer frente a trauma violación caída universidad comenzó a beber muy violado varias veces tiene malas situaciones saber culpa cosas tienen poco mejor dejar de beber comenzó terapia hermano ver ir horrible espiral descendente no creo que nunca mejor no creo que hay esperanza