know feelmy antidepressants make feel good stop wanting kill constantly friends theyre closer eachother me feel like im kinda observing case far remember friend groups enjoy parts life still love playing dog watching movies chess dad lately depression fucking horrible ex left  months ago distant months worst possible time octoberdecember hardest part year mom passed would always lot shit around time worst part objectively life good family loves me things enjoy reason feel way compared ive seen here life perfect makes feel guilty feeling feel even know wanna kill myself wish ever born could cease existence memory me least things get better shitty cycle wanna happy without gnawing thought back mind everything is existence meaningless were less billionth billionth billionth billionth universe nothing matter long run wash away hate knowing nothing matters wanna give say fuck worry things feel like cause feel worse bad people care about sorry rant im even sure place post this know need help
know feelmy antidepressants make feel good stop wanting kill constantly friends theyre closer eachother me feel like im kinda observing case far remember friend groups enjoy parts life still love playing dog watching movies chess dad lately depression fucking horrible ex left months ago distant months worst possible time octoberdecember hardest part year mom passed would always lot shit around time worst part objectively life good family loves me things enjoy reason feel way compared ive seen here life perfect makes feel guilty feeling feel even know wanna kill myself wish ever born could cease existence memory me least things get better shitty cycle wanna happy without gnawing thought back mind everything is existence meaningless were less billionth billionth billionth billionth universe nothing matter long run wash away hate knowing nothing matters wanna give say fuck worry things feel like cause feel worse bad people care about sorry rant im even sure place post this know need help
Sé que mis antidepresivos hacen sentir bien dejar de querer matar constantemente amigos que están más cerca de mí me siento como si observar caso lejos recordar amigos grupos disfrutar partes vida todavía amor jugar perro ver películas ajedrez papá últimamente depresión mierda horrible ex izquierda meses hace distante meses peor posible tiempo octubredecember peor mitad año que pasó mamá siempre mucho mierda alrededor tiempo peor parte objetivamente vida buena familia ama las cosas disfrutar de la razón sentir la manera en que se compara ive visto aquí la vida perfecto hace sentir culpa sentir incluso saber querer matarme deseo alguna vez nacer podría dejar de existencia memoria me menos las cosas mejoran ciclo de mierda quiero feliz sin rechinar pensamiento volver mente todo es existencia sin sentido eran menos millonésima millonésima millonésima millonésima universo nada importa larga carrera lavarse lejos odio saber nada importa quiere decir mierda preocuparse las cosas se sienten como causa peor gente se preocupa por lo siento rant im seguro lugar post este saber necesidad ayuda