help available me doi tried kill second time last night took random assortment  pills went sleep make left side head throb way actually quite pleasurable second redflag attempt  first  involuntarily committed mental health hospital it it actually prison ive asked help soooooooo many times ive ever got seek help seek therapy ive tried that hundreds times job cant afford medications cant afford  session therapists going anything tell just change thinking im done this im  years old ive done nothing life average day involves harming masturbating boredom one favorite things take ruler beat back legs look like ground beef longer interests nothing makes happy drive more late im  freakin years old  waaaaaay late learn ive always thought autistic since totally get social cues unlucky enough go school time autism totally ignored kid school today id likely placed special education afforded luxury though im paying now im totally socially clueless one willing help im invisible nothing matters nothing ever ever matter want productive human matter people could die right nothing would change certain members family might sad short time theyd go back normal lives im point need constant reassurance im getting any im tired ignored they always ask why men seek help depression know why one cares doctors mental health community going ignore me bother want live more let die already
help available me doi tried kill second time last night took random assortment pills went sleep make left side head throb way actually quite pleasurable second redflag attempt first involuntarily committed mental health hospitalit it actually prison ive asked help soooooooo many times ive ever got seek help seek therapy ive tried that hundreds times job cant afford medications cant afford session therapists going anything tell just change thinking im done this im years old ive done nothing life average day involves harming masturbating boredom one favorite things take ruler beat back legs look like ground beef longer interests nothing makes happy drive more late imfreakin years old waaaaaay late learn ive always thought autistic since totally get social cues unlucky enough go school time autism totally ignored kid school today id likely placed special education afforded luxury though im paying now im totally socially clueless one willing help im invisible nothing matters nothing ever ever matter want productive human matter people could die right nothing would change certain members family might sad short time theyd go back normal lives im point need constant reassurance im getting any im tired ignored they always ask why men seek help depression know why one cares doctors mental health community going ignore me bother want live more let die already
ayuda disponible doi intento matar segunda vez anoche tomó pastillas surtido al azar fue sueño hacer lado izquierdo throb manera en realidad bastante placentero segundo intento de bandera roja primero involuntariamente cometido hospital de salud mental it en realidad prisión ive pidió ayuda soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo