everything hurtsmy best friend saved life day kind weird think now thinking back hours mean try it always weird always me weird numbness feeling acceptance almost thinking feelings odd gonna hang night plan asked okay started asking things loved which mean distracting me know were worked even know bad was still dont makes feel worse mean really nice know good friends idea someone would miss hurts hurts lot last time bad anyone like that feel bad everything feeling way notes plans feelings everything id hurting people makes everything worse hate feeling way big spiral keeps going want die feel bad people love makes feel worse makes want end all keeps going like that constant feedback loop hurt physically emotionally nothing left give theres energy going spare yet keep pushing past limits help people keep life even despite many things getting much better last year want go want hurt anymore wish easily distracted
everything hurtsmy best friend saved life day kind weird think now thinking back hours mean try it always weird always meweird numbness feeling acceptance almost thinking feelings odd gonna hang night plan asked okay started asking things loved which mean distracting me know were worked even know bad was still dont makes feel worse meanreally nice know good friends idea someone would miss hurts hurts lot last time bad anyone like that feel bad everything feeling way notes plans feelings everything id hurting people makes everything worse hate feeling way big spiral keeps going want die feel bad people love makes feel worse makes want end all keeps going like that constant feedback loop hurt physically emotionally nothing left give theres energy going spare yet keep pushing past limits help people keep life even despite many things getting much better last year want go want hurt anymore wish easily distracted
Todo duele mi mejor amigo salvó la vida día tipo raro pensar ahora pensar horas atrás significa intentar siempre raro siempre meweird entumecimiento sentimiento aceptación casi pensar sentimientos extraño va a colgar plan de la noche preguntó bien comenzó a preguntar cosas queridas que significa distraerme saber que estaban trabajados incluso saber mal era todavía no hace sentir peor malo realmente agradable saber buenos amigos idea alguien podría faltar dolor mucho mal cualquiera como que siente mal todo manera notas planes sentimientos todo id daño gente hace todo peor odio manera espiral sigue queriendo morir sentir mala gente amor hace sentir peor final todo sigue yendo como ese constante bucle de retroalimentación duele físicamente nada le queda energía ir sin embargo seguir empujando límites pasados ayudar a la gente a mantener la vida incluso a pesar de muchas cosas que se ponen mucho mejor el año pasado quieren ir lastimado más fácilmente deseo distraído