ready so booked hotel room intended end life new years eve is today live intended right actually even felt bad last week leading day kept telling going get worse anyway stick plan end pain all theres certain pattern depressive cycles know every time manage come side it keeps coming back always does feeling way years really think going get better okay days bad days very bad days bad days always regret going prior plan end life feeling bad entire december still feel great bad enough want end right now funny spent week writing final note another letter best friend things would need help wrap loose ends passwords bank details etc cleared things work thought ready go last days suddenly felt like damn still things would like stick around for shows coming  want watch albums coming still want listen to even managed clean room yet maybe time go now alone hotel room am feeling okay part think im going live again time even though also know im going regret next time feel super bad really know this ever stop hurting stop want know going worth it want bad win this even win tired
ready so booked hotel room intended end life new years eve is today live intended right actually even felt bad last week leading day kept telling going get worse anyway stick plan end pain all theres certain pattern depressive cycles know every time manage come side it keeps coming back always does feeling way years really think going get better okay days bad days very bad days bad days always regret going prior plan end life feeling bad entire december still feel great bad enough want end right now funny spent week writing final note another letter best friend things would need help wrap loose ends passwords bank details etc cleared things work thought ready go last days suddenly felt like damn still things would like stick around for shows coming want watch albums coming still want listen to even managed clean room yet maybe time go now alone hotel room am feeling okay part think im going live again time even though also know im going regret next time feel super bad really know this ever stop hurting stop want know going worth it want bad win this even win tired
listo tan reservado habitación de hotel fin de la vida prevista nuevo años víspera es hoy en día live destinado derecho en realidad incluso se sintió mal la semana pasada día líder siguió diciendo ir peor de todos modos plan de palo final dolor todos los Theres cierto patrón ciclos depresivos saber cada vez que viene lado sigue volviendo siempre se siente como años realmente pensar va a mejorar bien días mal días muy mal días mal siempre lamentarse ir plan anterior final vida se siente mal todo diciembre todavía se siente muy mal querer final ahora divertido semana pasada escribir nota final otra carta mejor amigo las cosas necesitarían ayudar a envolver cabos sueltos contraseñas banco detalles etc claro cosas trabajo pensamiento listo ir los últimos días de repente se sintió como maldito todavía las cosas como quedarse para espectáculos venir quieren ver álbumes venir todavía quieren escuchar incluso administrado habitación limpia sin embargo tal vez tiempo ir solo hotel habitación estoy sentir bien parte pensar im ir en vivo otra vez incluso aunque también sé im ir arrepentimiento la próxima vez se siente súper mal realmente saben que nunca dejar de lastimar dejar de querer saber va a valer mal ganar esta incluso ganar cansado