loseshey past months ive lost things made identity live gone leave school financial reasons move back home best friend girlfriend  years separated completely fault wanted marry her im allowed near her cant even drive time license suspended bullshit law ive flashbacks sexual abuse kid mothers relationship isnt best feel completely alone even tho feel closer everyone love point life still feel really fuckin alone ya know focal point light life taken one one empty battle self harm daily basis cant even wear short sleeves outside work scars left ive never depressed entire life hurts light end tunnel turned giant forrest fire serious problems thats effect relationships im paying price alone  months ago never saw like this never saw license school studio friends girlfriend ive attempted slitting wrist didnt work idk dont trust alone support gone long time forever im point giving life trying kill again feel like burden pain everyone around me never enough wrong things stress people good intentions darker sides psyche get way abused emotionally neglected childhood feel like constantly fight demons adult life ive lost everything due fact ive abused others way ive abused isnt fair anyone ive tried hard change stop shitty person always always insecure ass loser im really interested living anymore due fact everyone everything left life fault fault understand need help serious help positive youtube video numb pain drugs sex years professional therapy want happiness back confidence self esteem live creativity girlfriend best friends money license freedom sense self attempted hang wasnt strong leather belt seconds broke fell floor im alive im sure else do want get better need get better ive depressed suicidal almost decade want breathe once childhood crushing weight im gasping air breathe itll okay youll fine cuz every time think itll okay im severely disappointed wish wasnt am im good people life lot people good me wish didnt let bad events manifest inside deeply are yes vague didnt want go much detail feel relief writing little since bottled up since im alive ill try best remain healthy mentally even tho easy wrong thing ignore problems want anything care back cant keep letting demons control me thanks rredflagwatch existing
loseshey past months ive lost things made identity live gone leave school financial reasons move back home best friend girlfriend years separated completely fault wanted marry her im allowed near her cant even drive time license suspended bullshit law ive flashbacks sexual abuse kid mothers relationship isnt best feel completely alone even tho feel closer everyone love point life still feel really fuckin alone ya know focal point light life taken one one empty battle self harm daily basis cant even wear short sleeves outside work scars left ive never depressed entire life hurts light end tunnel turned giant forrest fire serious problems thats effect relationships im paying price alone months ago never saw like this never saw license school studio friends girlfriend ive attempted slitting wrist didnt work idk dont trust alone support gone long time forever im point giving life trying kill again feel like burden pain everyone around me never enough wrong things stress people good intentions darker sides psyche get way abused emotionally neglected childhood feel like constantly fight demons adult life ive lost everything due fact ive abused others way ive abused isnt fair anyone ive tried hard change stop shitty person always always insecure ass loser im really interested living anymore due fact everyone everything left life fault fault understand need help serious help positive youtube video numb pain drugs sex years professional therapy want happiness back confidence self esteem live creativity girlfriend best friends money license freedom sense self attempted hang wasnt strong leather belt seconds broke fell floorim aliveim sure else do want get better need get better ive depressed suicidal almost decade want breathe once childhood crushing weight im gasping air breatheitll okayyoull fine cuz every time think itllokayim severely disappointed wish wasnt am im good peoplelife lot people good me wish didnt let bad events manifest inside deeply are yes vague didnt want go much detail feel relief writing little since bottled up since im alive ill try best remain healthy mentally even tho easy wrong thing ignore problems want anything care back cant keep letting demons control me thanks rredflagwatch existing
lossshey meses pasados ive cosas perdidas hecho identidad viva ido salir de la escuela razones financieras se mueven de vuelta a casa mejor amiga novia años separados completamente la culpa quería casarse con ella im permitido cerca de su licencia de conducir tiempo incluso suspensión mierda ley ive flashbacks sexual abuso hijo madres relación no es mejor sentirse completamente solo incluso tho se siente más cerca todos amor punto de la vida todavía se siente muy jodidamente solo