went hospital called nsph visited psych still feel emptyso sunday overwhlemed everything im  im decently high corporate ladder technically support system nothing helping heart mind see everything okay im aware enough know sound like whiny bitch throwing tantrum attention however rest doesnt want live anymore sunday called national redflag hotline got response line another caller shed call back literally nothing happened felt even like sign finish wasnt worth it went hospital got asked typical questions sent way home told visit psych following day werent open mlk day feel uncomfortable skin im half mexicanhalf white gay overweight food makes feel temporarily happy gained  lbs past year half it im east tennessee  things feel like case even worse actually is people expressed important them much love much ive done life feel nothing except wanting stop living brain wont stop going back dark side whatever hell is life guess want magic pill stop thinking everyone lying dont really care theyre using me past keeps coming like elevator started floor  someone pressed every button floor  cant un press them someone felt way advice pulled want help understand trust people life honest true word want pain thoughts stop want make world better place want one feel way feel terrible thing shake off want happy again
went hospital called nsph visited psych still feel emptyso sunday overwhlemed everything im im decently high corporate ladder technically support system nothing helping heart mind see everythingokayim aware enough know sound like whiny bitch throwing tantrum attention however rest doesnt want live anymore sunday called national redflag hotline got response line another caller shed call back literally nothing happened felt even like sign finish wasnt worth it went hospital got asked typical questions sent way home told visit psych following day werent open mlk day feel uncomfortable skin im half mexicanhalf white gay overweight food makes feel temporarily happy gained lbs past year half it im east tennessee things feel like case even worse actually is people expressed important them much love much ive done life feel nothing except wanting stop living brain wont stop going back dark side whatever hell is life guess want magic pill stop thinking everyone lying dont really care theyre using me past keeps coming like elevator started floor someone pressed every button floor cant un press them someone felt way advice pulled want help understand trust people life honest true word want pain thoughts stop want make world better place want one feel way feel terrible thing shake off want happy again
El hospital llamado nsph visitó psiquiatría todavía se siente vacío así que el domingo sobrevoló todo im im decentemente alta escala corporativa sistema de apoyo técnico nada ayuda corazón mente ver todookayim conciente bastante saber sonido como perra quejumbrosa lanzando atención rabieta sin embargo el descanso no quiere vivir más domingo llamado nacional redflag línea de línea directa consiguió respuesta línea otra persona que llamó a cabo llamada de vuelta literalmente nada se sintió incluso como signo final no valió la pena fue hospital se hizo preguntas típicas enviado camino a casa le dijo a visita psiquiatría después día no estaban abiertos mlk día se siente incómodo piel im medio mexicanomedio blanco gay alimentos con sobrepeso hace sentirse temporalmente feliz ganado lbs el año pasado medio