done everythingdear sw im sick tired mistreated whole life ive good fucking person gotten anywhere life im  yr old male im local univ kid grew south major city used get bullied time ive stabbed twice like oh got stabbed small knife like stood myself took switchblade stabbed stomach second time stabbed knee stopped standing myself didnt really try stick got end high school im bad looking kid  dated captain cheerleading squad  pretty popular nerd somehow fit in dad military moved base base lot turned ten moved base base lot fucking sucked bc person ive ever able call best friend ended hard drugs six years left died overdose know fact wouldnt done im child halfsister  dads first child first marriage greedy shit always pesters dad money dad used pay needed support mother and new bf stole dad basically steal able lunch money real young dad found good job right middle school settled down mom got cancer thought going lose her blocked memory section life dont remember iw good son bad son kills me ended surviving one worst portions life smoked weed friends try calm bring back reality never worked every relationship ive im dependent one im always dependent one im looking girl always make happy im looking someone cares equal much care them im good boyfriend know cook i taught growin up used bake stuff shapes hearts write em poems sorts nice things somehow would always get trampled throughout high school people would always start rumors reason dated new girl really liked new friend would say things like oh hes gay something like them tried sports dad forced football three years lacrosse six when middle school_ liked lacrosse didnt like football still made anyways one done anything ever try think me sometimes dad go buy something said wanted never treats like respects son good intentions me always bicker usually starts yelling reason graduated high school thought id start clean slate joined fraternity became best friends  great guys helped girls cheating me parental feud sister stealing money savings finally landing scholarship university able decide fate met her met getting another cheated me met friend legitimately fell love first sight like cared girlfriends never understood word love met her never really tossed around word wanted felt it knew it loved weve dating almost year half now shes beautiful fun around shes gone abroad semester told lovedme went away fight me tell loves hangs up tells danced another guy fight makeup tells cant without me next day tells shouldnt together next day tells loves anyone else shes ever loved rinse repeat rinse and fucking repeat im tired it like one thinks me ever one ever places first even theyre in love me parents dont even place first theyre love think other sister doesnt even care  loves money best friend sure ive got friends one talk anything lately ive dreams dying dying able anything it im tired all im tired pain im tired even considered im tired objectified thing feel like thats ive ever been matter interesting am people think im constant never worry me dont show im trembling inside wnat die havent lived easiest life havent lived hardest life really cant take it know things better kid things financially easier know dont worry much feel like im utterly obviously neglected want kill myself want end it want someone fucking love like love them want someone loves me anyone guy girl want god damn best friend maybe thats consider girlfriend too best friend thats hurts fight person im love real best friend want end pain im tired pain im tired worried losing someone  mother friend passed away girlfriend want lose myself feel like theyd learn dying appreciate everyone around them theyd learn even im smiling may happy theyre driving insane thinking following heart dont even see look pain face completely wash without giving second glance want die dont even want kill myself want end want stop story exist die know theres god friend pronounced dead minute half said didnt see anything didnt feel anything woke back said understood everything knew felt everything turned completely said theres nothing side us havent believed religion since want turn everything want end dont know deal
done everythingdearsw im sick tired mistreated whole life ive good fucking person gotten anywhere lifeim yr old male im local univ kid grewsouth major city used get bullied time ive stabbed twice like oh got stabbed small knife like stood myself took switchblade stabbed stomach second time stabbed knee stopped standing myself didnt really try stick got end high schoolim bad looking kid dated captain cheerleading squad pretty popular nerd somehow fit in dad military moved base base lot turned ten moved base base lot fucking sucked bc person ive ever able call best friend ended hard drugs six years left died overdose know fact wouldnt done im child halfsister dads first child first marriage greedy shit always pesters dad money dad used pay needed support mother and new bf stole dad basically steal able lunch money real young dad found good job right middle school settled down mom got cancer thought going lose her blocked memory section life dont remember iw good son bad son kills me ended surviving one worst portions life smoked weed friends try calm bring back reality never worked every relationship ive im dependent one im always dependent one im looking girl always make happy im looking someone cares equal much care themim good boyfriendknow cook i taught growin up used bake stuff shapes hearts write em poems sorts nice things somehow would always get trampled throughout high school people would always start rumors reason dated new girl really liked new friend would say things like oh hes gay something like them tried sports dad forced football three years lacrosse six when middle school_ liked lacrosse didnt like football still made anyways one done anything ever try think me sometimes dad go buy something said wanted never treats like respects son good intentions me always bicker usually starts yelling reason graduated high school thought id start clean slate joined fraternity became best friends great guys helped girls cheating me parental feud sister stealing money savings finally landing scholarship university able decide fate met her met getting another cheated me met friend legitimately fell love first sight like cared girlfriends never understood word love met her never really tossed around word wanted felt it knew it loved weve dating almost year half now shes beautiful fun around shes gone abroad semester told lovedme went away fight me tell loves hangs up tells danced another guy fight makeup tells cant without me next day tells shouldnt together next day tells loves anyone else shes ever loved rinse repeat rinse and fucking repeat im tired it like one thinks me ever one ever places first even theyre in love me parents dont even place first theyre love think other sister doesnt even care loves money best friend sure ive got friends one talk anything lately ive dreams dying dying able anything it im tired all im tired painim tired even considered im tired objectified thing feel like thats ive ever been matter interesting am people think im constant never worry me dont show im trembling inside wnat die havent lived easiest life havent lived hardest life really cant take it know things better kid things financially easier know dont worry much feel like im utterly obviously neglected want kill myself want end it want someone fucking love like love them want someone loves me anyone guy girl want god damn best friend maybe thats consider girlfriend too best friend thats hurts fight personim love real best friend want end painim tired pain im tired worried losing someone mother friend passed away girlfriend want lose myself feel like theyd learn dying appreciate everyone around them theyd learn even im smiling may happy theyre driving insane thinking following heart dont even see look pain face completely wash without giving second glance want die dont even want kill myself want end want stop story exist die know theres god friend pronounced dead minute half said didnt see anything didnt feel anything woke back said understood everything knew felt everything turned completely said theres nothing side us havent believed religion since want turn everything want end dont know deal
made everythingdearsw im enfermo cansado maltratado toda la vida ive buena puta persona consiguió cualquier vida y viejo hombre im local univ kid creció sur ciudad grande utilizado conseguir matón tiempo ive apuñalado dos veces como oh fue apuñalado pequeño cuchillo como estaba yo mismo tomó switchblade apuñalado estómago segunda vez apuñalado rodilla dejó de pie yo mismo no realmente tratar de palo se puso fin High Schoolim mal niño de aspecto fecha capitán porrista equipo bastante popular nerd de alguna manera encajar en papá militar movieron base lote base vuelta diez movido bc base lote chupado bc persona ive siempre capaz llamar mejor amigo terminó drogas duras seis años izquierda muerto sobredosis saber hecho no haría im niño mitad padre primeros hijos codiciosos mierda siempre plagados papá dinero papá uso pagar necesario apoyo madre y nuevo bf robó papá básicamente robar capaz almuerzo dinero real joven papá encontró buen trabajo derecho escuela media establecido mamá tuvo cáncer pensó perder su bloqueado memoria vida sección dont recuerdo iw buen hijo malo hijo mata terminó de sobrevivir una peor porciones de vida fumados amigos tratar de volver la realidad nunca trabajó cada relación live dependiente