incoherent rambling predicamentcant sleepin pretty much mental storm honestly feels like stuck underwater aching air cant think anything except offing hurricane negative emotions thoughts leading that decided stream thought problems semicoherent post brief alternative fuck me got great college decentmediocre job  years i look back absolute disgusti straight mature enough handle it got suspended year cheating yeah im bastard honestly idea it memories cheating way back first grade learning multiplication tableshow pathetic that fucked extreme disappointment pretty much everyone went huge depression itletting family fucking path etc mind always level chronic depression insane year entire fucking year youth nothing dropped face earth faced challenges opportunity nontraditional path curled ball couldnt mentally handle it filled days literally anything stop tide horrible depression suicidal thoughts rolling in sanctions complete allowed reenroll year couldnt even extract asshole like last september even things like thinking shitshow life enough bring panic attacks nowhere bad shit fucked now look thing then one biggest regrets actually getting offered counseling way back taking it stands im trying hardest get registered amass unfathomable amount moneypromises money im late starting make arrangements again head ass difficulty getting shit verified look realize screwed am fucking way come money seriousness fucked tide feelings mere possibility shit together semester really frightens might things dont pan out might little late goddamn different person last year college active friends helli even got married right good friend since pretty much day one college international student year half agreed marry could stay country afterward actually stand chance acceptance grad schools holy shit relationship go tits up  years great friendship  living together to trick govt friends havent seen spoken  months hate almost much hate myself cant believe much treated like dirt yeahsome unresolved issues sea bad blood someday soon ill file divorce screw good thats shitcovered cherry atop towering cupcake cunts social life living spare room family friends place sheer force extreme kindness pity i moved time ago whole living wife thing went nuclear needed out honestly guys kind generous owe much would literally kill man said would like better did job since seasonal shit ended though savings act chunk tuition youll proud know actually started seeing psychologist month ago family tries supportive even though one even inkling messed amshe practically shat fill phq disappointment cant hidden makes feel worse like dont deserve encouragement kind words love family difficult put words im long list fuckups closing doors existing like awful escape sounds pretty nice like refreshing deep breath air anyway guys doing many stories fucked shit ive done people ive let down times ive ambulances both emt passenger lying government like anyone curious ill probably another  hours stewing hell might even respond questionsinsultsreplies get ive pissed patterns snow concise informative paragraphs ive vomited out
incoherent rambling predicamentcant sleepin pretty much mental storm honestly feels like stuck underwater aching air cant think anything except offing hurricane negative emotions thoughts leading that decided stream thought problems semicoherent post brief alternative fuck me got great college decentmediocre job years i look back absolute disgusti straight mature enough handle it got suspended year cheatingyeah im bastard honestly idea it memories cheating way back first grade learning multiplication tableshow pathetic that fucked extreme disappointment pretty much everyone went huge depression itletting family fucking path etc mind always level chronic depression insane year entire fucking year youth nothing dropped face earth faced challenges opportunity nontraditional path curled ball couldnt mentally handle it filled days literally anything stop tide horrible depression suicidal thoughts rolling in sanctions complete allowed reenroll year couldnt even extract asshole like last september even things like thinking shitshow life enough bring panic attacks nowhere bad shit fucked now look thing then one biggest regrets actually getting offered counseling way back taking it stands im trying hardest get registered amass unfathomable amount moneypromises money im late starting make arrangements again head ass difficulty getting shit verified look realize screwed am fucking way come money seriousness fucked tide feelings mere possibility shit together semester really frightens might things dont pan out might little late goddamn different person last year college active friends helli even got married right good friend since pretty much day one college international student year half agreed marry could stay country afterward actually stand chance acceptance grad schools holy shit relationship go tits up years great friendship living together to trick govt friends havent seen spoken months hate almost much hate myself cant believe much treated like dirt yeahsome unresolved issues sea bad blood someday soon ill file divorce screw good thats shitcovered cherry atop towering cupcake cunts social life living spare room family friends place sheer force extreme kindness pity i moved time ago whole living wife thing went nuclear needed out honestly guys kind generous owe much would literally kill man said would like better did job since seasonal shit ended though savings act chunk tuition youll proud know actually started seeing psychologist month ago family tries supportive even though one even inkling messed amshepractically shat fill phq disappointment cant hidden makes feel worse like dont deserve encouragement kind words love family difficult put words im long list fuckups closing doors existing like awful escape sounds pretty nice like refreshing deep breath air anyway guys doing many stories fucked shit ive done people ive let down times ive ambulances both emt passenger lying government like anyone curious ill probably another hours stewing hell might even respond questionsinsultsreplies get ive pissed patterns snow concise informative paragraphs ive vomited out
incoherente divagante y difícil sueño en casi tormenta mental honestamente se siente como atrapado bajo el agua el aire dolorido no puede pensar nada excepto offing huracán emociones negativas pensamientos que conducen que decidió flujo problemas de pensamiento semicoherente post breve alternativa mierda me consiguió gran universidad decentemediocre trabajo años miro hacia atrás absoluto disgusto recto suficientemente maduro manejar que consiguió suspendido año engañosyeah