always thought depression jokei depressed large part life never would admit it make excuse anything depression always hidden boredom exhaustion never sadness always saw depressed people pathetic crying time feeling sorry cutting way get pity attention kind people stay bed day always thought fix it stop feeling sorry yourself realize depression comes many forms impacts everyone differently depressed sadness even feel bad mentally life over lost desire participate human being turned  august job currently sleeping mothers couch br apartment bouncing living mother  sisters decade havent friend since highschool recluse never kept job year currently unemployable due extremely high risk turnover thing get bored quickly leave job never consequences thoughts redflag everyday coward dont balls it thought lately things changed thought anymore feeling feel first time going kill myself almost confidence hear head time even told family got expected result dont care mother told didnt need me older sister said go it dont tell do almost disbelief life come this years bad choices suddenly blindsided seemingly  solution worst part is hindsight one decision made highschool started path path long numb it almost like getting fat dont notice happening one day suddenly open eyes say fuck happen dont want kill myself blind options now everything would require apply put forth effort somehow convinced beyond point life opinion isnt worth living miserible everyday even concern would impact family sadness confusion might feel subsided life go them forget move on dead capacity care people knew everything happens death problem selfish thing do life even plan buy shotgun go woods morning hours everyone hustling meaningless jobs pull trigger noone would even hear shot wouldnt found days longer ill leave note telling family decided leave wont even bother trying find me
always thought depression jokei depressed large part life never would admit it make excuse anything depression always hidden boredom exhaustion never sadness always saw depressed people pathetic crying time feeling sorry cutting way get pity attention kind people stay bed day always thought fix it stop feeling sorry yourself realize depression comes many forms impacts everyone differently depressed sadness even feel bad mentally life over lost desire participate human being turned august job currently sleeping mothers couch br apartment bouncing living mother sisters decade havent friend since highschool recluse never kept job year currently unemployable due extremely high risk turnover thing get bored quickly leave job never consequences thoughts redflag everyday coward dont balls it thought lately things changed thought anymore feeling feel first time going kill myself almost confidence hear head time even told family got expected result dont care mother told didnt need me older sister said go it dont tell do almost disbelief life come this years bad choices suddenly blindsided seemingly solution worst part is hindsight one decision made highschool started path path long numb it almost like getting fat dont notice happening one day suddenly open eyes say fuck happen dont want kill myself blind options now everything would require apply put forth effort somehow convinced beyond point life opinion isnt worth living miserible everyday even concern would impact family sadness confusion might feel subsided life go them forget move on dead capacity care people knew everything happens death problem selfish thing do life even plan buy shotgun go woods morning hours everyone hustling meaningless jobs pull trigger noone would even hear shot wouldnt found days longer ill leave note telling family decided leave wont even bother trying find me
Siempre pensé que la depresión bromeo deprimido gran parte de la vida nunca admitiría hacer excusas nada depresión siempre oculta aburrimiento agotamiento nunca tristeza siempre vio personas deprimidas patéticas llorando tiempo sentir lástima cortar manera conseguir la atención amable gente quedarse cama día siempre pensado solucionarlo dejar de sentir lástima se da cuenta de depresión viene muchas formas impactos todos diferente tristeza deprimida incluso sentirse mal vida mental sobre deseo perdido participar ser humano convertido en augusto trabajo actualmente dormir madres sofá br apartamento rebotando vivas madres hermanas década havent amigo desde escuela secundaria recluso nunca mantuvo empleo año actualmente inempleable debido a muy alto riesgo rotación cosa se aburren rápidamente dejar trabajo nunca consecuencias pensamientos rojoflag cobardía diario