going kill myself theni took sertraline  months still want kill myself lt lt lt see drive motivation like used to feel thrill planning redflag anymore took pills plan written set ready leave shit behind april lowest ever point enough live near coast england cold water shock makes drowning sure thing around here much fun researching reading euphoria drowning salt water limited resources no guns cyanide basically access painless methods redflag decided drowning salt water beautiful fatal method oh ophelia never read hamlet time went it friends family intervened fantasies thoughts spoke doc upped meds started feel better put mg sertraline point really felt working think killing anymore happy best version myself dare say felt confident almost invincible even  months road serotonin super powers worn off leaving quite hollow shell past self really feel anything days aside irritability care anything little empathy almost diluted feeling wanting die yet quite concentrated enough bothered act it understand feels like im limbo somewhere inbetween wanting feel good things again wanting feel bad desperate enough kill myself like numbness feeling neither there im bored dumb desire self destructive things like drug up ive taking codeine relax occasion think wow heroin something  subscribes ropiates  thats even joke actually subscribe lmao yeah feel though might well take something feel something cant get excited anything hard enough find purpose within stupid unescapable system without burden weighed whatever weight crushing skull obviously logical rational thing go tell doctor ya know appointments take  weeks well weekend closed so drreddit anybody else similar experiences feeling numb medication medication feeling wanting die motivation it
going kill myself theni took sertraline months still want kill myself lt lt lt see drive motivation like used to feel thrill planning redflag anymore took pills plan written set ready leave shit behind april lowest ever point enough live near coast england cold water shock makes drowning sure thing around here much fun researching reading euphoria drowning salt water limited resources no guns cyanide basically access painless methods redflag decided drowning salt water beautiful fatal methodoh ophelia never read hamlet time went it friends family intervened fantasies thoughts spoke doc upped meds started feel better put mg sertraline point really felt working think killing anymore happy best version myself dare say felt confident almost invincible even months road serotonin super powers worn off leaving quite hollow shell past self really feel anything days aside irritability care anything little empathy almost diluted feeling wanting die yet quite concentrated enough bothered act it understand feels like im limbo somewhere inbetween wanting feel good things again wanting feel bad desperate enough kill myself like numbness feeling neither there im bored dumb desire self destructive things like drug up ive taking codeine relax occasion think wow heroin something subscribes ropiates thats even joke actually subscribelmaoyeah feel though might well take something feel something cant get excited anything hard enough find purpose within stupid unescapable system without burden weighed whatever weight crushing skull obviously logical rational thing go tell doctor ya know appointments take weeks well weekend closed so drreddit anybody else similar experiences feeling numb medication medication feeling wanting die motivation it
lt lt ver motivación de la unidad como se utiliza para sentir la emoción planificación bandera roja más tomó píldoras plan escrito listo listo dejar mierda detrás de abril más bajo nunca punto suficiente vivir cerca de costa england shock agua fría hace ahogarse seguro cosa por aquí mucho diversión investigar la euforia ahogando agua salada recursos limitados no pistolas cianuro básicamente acceso métodos indoloros redflag decidió ahogar agua salada hermoso fatal methodooh ophelia nunca leyó aldea tiempo fue amigos familia intervino fantasías pensamientos habló doc meds upped comenzó a sentir mejor poner mg sertraline punto realmente se sintió trabajando pensar matar más feliz mejor versión me atrevo a decir se sentía seguro casi invencible incluso meses carretera serotonina super poderes gastados dejando bastante cáscara vacía pasado sí mismo realmente sentir cualquier cosa días aparte de irritabilidad cuidado poco empatía casi diluido sentir querer morir pero bastante concentrado acto molestado