want stop drinking time want stopi lost best friend reality had talked family long time interest reconnect messy childhood friends think made codependent first week long time text theres one im looking new friend no anyway ex best friend said want friend anymore much piece shit become drink said verbally abusive see am get drunk sometimes hate almost much hate myself  hate life choices im always bad guy feel like better met her time different way better now like emotionally better image lifestyle better now feel im ranting im sorry know ive felt hopeless before ive never lonely before feeling mean ive driven across many state city town village before alone ive never truly alone maybe thats im writing post feel alone know ampxb want kill myself time dont thats fear comes next im scared process no want quick gun ive never fan them im highest floor apartment think jump kill me luxury crashing car going hope car hits me might survive that want quick way out one alcohol maybe ill get courage figure way out ampxb sorry waste time
want stop drinking time want stopi lost best friend reality had talked family long time interest reconnect messy childhood friends think made codependent first week long time text theres one im looking new friendno anyway ex best friend said want friend anymore much piece shit become drink said verbally abusive see am get drunk sometimes hate almost much hate myself hate life choices im always bad guy feel like better met her time different way better now like emotionally better image lifestyle better now feel im ranting imsorry know ive felt hopeless before ive never lonely before feeling mean ive driven across many state city town village before alone ive never truly alone maybe thats im writing post feel alone know ampxb want kill myself time dont thats fear comes next im scared process no want quick gunive never fan them im highest floor apartment think jump kill me luxury crashing car going hope car hits me might survive that want quick way out one alcohol maybe ill get courage figure way out ampxb sorry waste time
Quiero dejar de beber tiempo quiero stopi perdido mejor amigo realidad había hablado familia largo tiempo interés volver a conectar desorden amigos infancia piensan hecho codependiente primera semana largo tiempo texto Theres one im looking new friendno de todos modos ex mejor amigo dijo querer amigo ya mucho pedazo mierda convertirse en bebida dijo verbalmente abusivo ver soy conseguir borracho a veces odio casi mucho odio a mí mismo opciones de vida im siempre chico malo se siente como mejor conocido su tiempo diferente mejor ahora como emocionalmente mejor imagen estilo de vida mejor ahora se siente im ranting insomry sé ive se sentía desesperanzado antes de vivir nunca solitario antes de sentirse medio vivo conducido a través de muchos estado ciudad ciudad pueblo antes de vivir solo nunca realmente solo tal vez eso es im escritura post sentir solo saber ampxb querer matarme tiempo dont thats miedo viene siguiente im proceso asustado no quiero rápido gunitivo nunca ventilador ellos im piso más alto pensar salto me mata lujo accidente coche va esperanza me golpea