idea doi kinda realized recently im going die alone social circle small ive never really comfortable apps like tinder abysmal social skills ill explain bit but ive thinking last days maybe it born life threatening medial condition left going hospital checkups around first twelve years life also meant partake lot sports social activities told whole life different everyone else diagnosed another life threatening condition fourteen effect seventeen meaning missed formative years told end eighteen clear forced adapt social norms absolutely understand then college sexually assaulted groomed someone considered close friend three years left without ever facing consequences grooming turned someone hate ever becoming although ive worked hard change better that always look back hate myself also every night nightmares groped raped either predator closest friends random people mixed sleep paralysis means cant fight wait wake up left fear people general like outside feel vulnerable found may autism highfuntioning presents even challenges fitting in know autism worst thing could happen person far it everything else makes socialising nightmare even closest family members even ive known years still cant talk them first tried kill around ten thought killing kitchen knife stood kitchen contemplating never anything second time drank third bottle whiskey planned grab meds kitchen never made ended calling ambulance im currently still college classes late im home time quit last job chest pains due anxiety everpresent fear leave college ill lost even less structure ive tried help myself saw therapist long time go gym three times week come home idea feel empty feel like ive ever alive always felt like like camera watching others lives know want live way think life change honestly know do
idea doi kinda realized recently im going die alone social circle smallive never really comfortable apps like tinder abysmal social skills ill explain bit but ive thinking last days maybe it born life threatening medial condition left going hospital checkups around first twelve years life also meant partake lot sports social activities told whole life different everyone else diagnosed another life threatening condition fourteen effect seventeen meaning missed formative years told end eighteen clear forced adapt social norms absolutely understand then college sexually assaulted groomed someone considered close friend three years left without ever facing consequences grooming turned someone hate ever becoming although ive worked hard change better that always look back hate myself also every night nightmares groped raped either predator closest friends random people mixed sleep paralysis means cant fight wait wake up left fear people general like outside feel vulnerable found may autism highfuntioning presents even challenges fitting in know autism worst thing could happen person far it everything else makes socialising nightmare even closest family members even ive known years still cant talk them first tried kill around ten thought killing kitchen knife stood kitchen contemplating never anything second time drank third bottle whiskey planned grab meds kitchen never made ended calling ambulance im currently still college classes late im home time quit last job chest pains due anxiety everpresent fear leave college ill lost even less structure ive tried help myself saw therapist long time go gym three times week come home idea feel empty feel like ive ever alive always felt like like camera watching others lives know want live way think life change honestly know do
idea doi un poco se dio cuenta recientemente me voy a morir solo círculo social pequeño nunca muy cómodo aplicaciones como tintura abismal habilidades sociales mal explicar poco