im losingim losing fight urge end strong abandoned again like anymore broken many times keep giving hope break every promise abandon over push pull push pull give hope break heart im mourning person making remourn over stranger were someone whos embodiment everything said hated opposite me happy well know im suicidal abandonment issues keep pretending care breaking soon trust again cause depression broken every way possible bad person sure dressed like one days want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die im afraid succeed mom mad mess kick out want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die urge strong im fucking tired im tired im tired im tired matter im tired let people down let down hate myself know fix me know fix feel im ugly hate im horrible want die fucking selfish wanting endure fuck off fuck you im mad im mad tired im mad tired cant stop fucking crying every fucking day every fucking night cry cry cry work ones looking crying feeling heart rip apart over crying feeling numbness creep over empty hurt numb pain think laugh bc im amused mask im pretending look puppet dancing you seem better hah no fuck off need justify feel mask on come time changes subject every time joke makes laugh everyone leaves one listens everyone goes away fucking fault fucking fault fault fault fault fault fault  hate much bc love you want anymore promised were stranger say things hurt purpose think notice bc brush off fuck you again one knew six years fucking fake fake mean one fell for used hold people made feel way one nothing  still want run though you was horrible scummy person im angry im hurt blame everything chipped walls brought holding spackle coward fuck you hate much bc good enough make stay im good enough loved listened to life meaning purpose one day ill it one day ill gone thank god counselor got back tomorrow might made th night
im losingim losing fight urge end strong abandoned again like anymore broken many times keep giving hope break every promise abandon over push pull push pull give hope break heart im mourning person making remourn over stranger were someone whos embodiment everything said hated opposite me happy well know im suicidal abandonment issues keep pretending care breaking soon trust again cause depression broken every way possible bad person sure dressed like one days want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want dieim afraid succeed mom mad mess kick out want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die urge strongim fucking tired im tiredim tiredim tired matter im tiredlet people down let down hate myself know fix me know fix feel im ugly hateim horrible want die fucking selfish wanting endure fuck off fuck you im madim mad tiredim mad tired cant stop fucking crying every fucking day every fucking night cry cry cry work ones looking crying feeling heart rip apart over crying feeling numbness creep over empty hurt numb pain think laugh bcim amused mask im pretending look puppet dancing you seem better hah no fuck off need justify feel mask on come time changes subject every time joke makes laugh everyone leaves one listens everyone goes away fucking fault fucking fault fault fault fault fault fault hate much bc love you want anymore promised were stranger say things hurt purpose think notice bc brush off fuck you again one knew six years fucking fake fake mean one fell for used hold people made feel way one nothing still want run though you was horrible scummy person im angry im hurt blame everything chipped walls brought holding spackle coward fuck you hate much bc good enough make stay im good enough loved listened to life meaning purpose one day ill it one day ill gone thank god counselor got back tomorrow might made th night
I perdido perder lucha urgencia final fuerte abandonado otra vez como más roto muchas veces seguir dando esperanza ruptura cada promesa abandono sobre empuje tirón tirón tirón dar esperanza romper corazón im duelo persona haciendo duelo sobre extraño fueron alguien que encarna todo dicho odiado frente a mí feliz bien saber im suicidio abandono problemas seguir fingiendo cuidado romper pronto confianza otra vez causa depresión roto cada manera posible mala persona seguro vestido como un día quiere morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morireim miedo éxito mamá loco desastre patear fuera de la mierda quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir quiero morir insightim maldito cansado im cansadoim cansado asunto cansado im cansado la gente abajo defraudar odio yo mismo sé fijarme lo que se siente mal odio horrible quiero morir mierda egoísta querer aguantar mierda mierda mierda usted im madim loco cansado loco cansado no puedo dejar de llorar todos los putos días todos los malditos días llanto llanto llorar llorar trabajo llorar sentir corazón desgarrar sobre llorar sensación de entumecimiento se arrastra sobre vacío dolor entumedad pensar risa bcim divertido máscara im fingir mirar danza marioneta parece mejor