slow deathjacob drank rest bottle emptied much life could this wished better wasnt tried best alleviate suffering distraction work birthday week hed  years old life would meaningless time spent alive wasted literally figuratively wanted meds work didnt pain still there suicidal thoughts overrode him erased little left alcohol made honest least done unforgivable deserved suffer deserved pain least could make right could control suffering suffered  years enough could sweet release redflag save him deserve die well afraid death subconscious decided kill instead eating slow painful one day free one day suffering end one day dead
slow deathjacob drank rest bottle emptied much life could this wished better wasnt tried best alleviate suffering distraction work birthday week hed years old life would meaningless time spent alive wasted literally figuratively wanted meds work didnt pain still there suicidal thoughts overrode him erased little left alcohol made honest least done unforgivable deserved suffer deserved pain least could make right could control suffering suffered years enough could sweet release redflag save him deserve die well afraid death subconscious decided kill instead eating slow painful one day free one day suffering end one day dead
muerte lenta jacob bebida botella de descanso vaciado mucha vida podría este deseo mejor no se trató mejor aliviar el sufrimiento trabajo distracción semana cumpleaños hed años vida sin sentido tiempo pasado vivo perdido literalmente figurativamente quería trabajo medicamentos no dolor todavía hay pensamientos suicidas desautorizarlo borrado poco alcohol izquierdo hecho honesto menos hecho imperdonable merecido sufrimiento merecido dolor mínimo podía hacer bien podría controlar el sufrimiento sufrido años suficiente podría dulce liberación Redflag salvarlo merecer morir bien miedo muerte subconsciente decidió matar en lugar de comer lento doloroso un día libre un día sufrimiento final un día muerto