feel like deserve livefell love best friend like back was already suffering mental health issues diagnosed anything except autism im pretty sure borderline personality disorder cut regularly still sometimes frequently anyways like back felt like killing wonder have took drinking decided get girl thatd hitting ease pain got comfortable relationship months kind stopped talking bff painful drunk texting every night point considered ghosting me bff came back weeks ago feelings immediately returned thought love girl im currently apparently im not started realizing want her im terrified alone want hurt her wants marriage dont wants kids dont nothing lines us besides fact submissive im attracted apparently submissive fragile im scared hurting her soo anyways bff came back like saying sorry jumbled mess im freaking out and keeps going crush turned asshole ghosted him im like that sucks im sorry start talking more week goes said small crush me elated like seriously felt like id waiting entire year this been want date right now wants take slow acceptable theres also fact that im relationship know this ive flirting bff every day felt guilty while id feeling fucking dead inside prior time actually happy bff then text entire night lmao know fucking stupid get upset over ended drinking lot like entire bottle vodka one sitting blacked apparently id drunk texted bff saying loved shit guess annoyed her talked day today ended sex girlfriend first time weeks instantly regretted it wanted throw up worst part know idolize bff meaning life nothing believe religion want die almost constantly im literally  fucking years old fuck wrong me start dating bff im going regret days weeks feeling i got girl wears im going start feeling like shit want nothing her im narcissistic selfish deserve life want single without feeling like need companionship  want single hurt anyone emotions decisions change whim every fucking time something happens literally fucking kill me ask born world want die im still suicidal know ill end killing either today next day depresses even more makes want kill even more literally dumbfuck stereotypical playboy ive many ex girlfriends cant remember them want stop feeling numb ampxb tldr guess im trying say is feel im chasing girls chased bff won excitement end go back feeling nothing mention point basically cheated extremely fragile girlfriend reason excitement wore want anything her im douchebag want die fucking kill me send death threats want deserve them
feel like deserve livefell love best friend like back was already suffering mental health issues diagnosed anything except autismim pretty sure borderline personality disorder cut regularly still sometimes frequently anyways like back felt like killing wonder have took drinking decided get girl thatd hitting ease pain got comfortable relationship months kind stopped talking bff painful drunk texting every night point considered ghosting me bff came back weeks ago feelings immediately returned thought love girl im currently apparently im not started realizing want her im terrified alone want hurt her wants marriage dont wants kids dont nothing lines us besides fact submissive im attracted apparently submissive fragile im scared hurting her soo anyways bff came back like saying sorry jumbled mess im freaking out and keeps going crush turned asshole ghosted him im like that sucks im sorry start talking more week goes said small crush me elated like seriously felt like id waiting entire year this been want date right now wants take slow acceptable theres also fact that im relationship know this ive flirting bff every day felt guilty while id feeling fucking dead inside prior time actually happy bff then text entire nightlmao know fucking stupid get upset over ended drinking lot like entire bottle vodka one sitting blacked apparently id drunk texted bff saying loved shit guess annoyed her talked day today ended sex girlfriend first time weeks instantly regretted it wanted throw up worst part know idolize bff meaning life nothing believe religion want die almost constantly im literally fucking years old fuck wrong me start dating bff im going regret days weeks feeling i got girl wears im going start feeling like shit want nothing her im narcissistic selfish deserve life want single without feeling like need companionship want single hurt anyone emotions decisions change whim every fucking time something happensliterally fucking kill me ask born world want dieim still suicidal know ill end killing either today next day depresses even more makes want kill even more literally dumbfuck stereotypical playboy ive many ex girlfriends cant remember them want stop feeling numb ampxb tldr guess im trying say is feel im chasing girls chased bff won excitement end go back feeling nothing mention point basically cheated extremely fragile girlfriend reason excitement wore want anything herim douchebag want die fucking kill me send death threats want deserve them
se siente como merecer amor amor livefell mejor amigo como de nuevo ya estaba sufriendo problemas de salud mental diagnosticados cualquier cosa excepto autismo bastante seguro borderline trastorno de la personalidad cortado regularmente todavía a veces con frecuencia de todos modos como de nuevo se sintió como matar maravilla han tomado beber decidido conseguir chica qued golpear fácil dolor consiguió cómoda relación meses tipo dejó de hablar bff doloroso borracho mensajes de texto cada noche punto considerado fantasma me bff volvió hace semanas sentimientos inmediatamente regresó pensamiento amor chica im actualmente al parecer no empecé a darse cuenta de querer su im aterrorizado solo querer lastimar sus deseos matrimonio no quiere niños no nada nos alinea además de hecho sumisa im atraído aparentemente frágil sumisa