lost friendnote posted tifu subreddit found would appropriate post here im  im sure begin im scared know do now friend one person a redflag hotline worker knew situation now know friend girl ive known two years knew internet know why never able make friends one would talk me one wanted talk me friend never really understood importance relevance human interaction met her much fun talking her enjoying others company never realised much fun talk someone never realised big world really was confess perhaps harboured unhealthy attachment her time year met alone finished college course stopped going work family went vacation like months always thought certain tolerance social isolation wrong leave home except buy food internet front me never approached people it real life one girl always reached me always initiated conversations confused first little annoyed isolation getting worse anyone talked me led believe one cared me one would care ceased exist started experiencing doubt wanted kill myself know trivial thing kill ones self over thats thinking make difference anyones lives whats point living whats point living cant useful girl always talked me slow process slow realise doubts became positivity happened happy sometimes would talk week excited giddy always looked forward messaging program would light corner make sound asinine thing happy about really content let know im complete recluse im waiter even basic level social intelligence felt indebted her incredible feeling know this tell happy it certainly know suicidal time debt  weight all felt like purpose happy try repay it perhaps useful her admit fantasised partners scared would one benefiting relationship plus always relationship difficult find right time offer thought but honestly say still content friends fast forward year later gotten relationship someone strongly attached to never expected last knew person months half year best really happy enough make happy too felt horrible happened fell state depression always felt awful end relationships time hurt bad lasted longer facebook posts ominous chat program use often changed profile pictures crying people would change username something equally depressing worthless prominent one stuck really felt like needed something wanted me talk tried talking every day tried always initiate conversation maybe bombarding her gathered talking me suicidal say directly made afraid trying distract nasty stuff trying replace negativity positivity told once told take one step time told thought strong told felt saved her told talking alone but mention suicidal thoughts time moment got better last long near christmas getting worse felt friends facebook dancing around issue licking wounds dealing directly problem decided become villain thought confronted bit short term pain lay facts shell suffer moment realise world much bigger thought time time things getting heated said know felt partner told though hated say it said inexperienced relationships started online main setting all partner time someone often met real life though told insensitive replied knew was something mention depression often asked could talk again indirectly promise anything stupid feared still suicidal asked could talk again asked apologise refused saying did would mean words meant nothing apologised hurt left heated huff logged off never got response question got scared wondered really made right decision desperation started contacting friends try get contact her none responded me one point this even messaged mother depression nothing could do doubts coming back wondered killed her froze place could nothing hope going cool off friends go contact her following that thought best course action back leave alone while thought would contact ready sign chat program case want see me still facebook friends know anything christmas sent gift steam know thought it know played long time ended backing month time fears realised made post facebook talking killing herself frightened wondered really helped made things worse going respond friends quick respond believed terrible state doubt chose reply friends much better job doubts becoming heavier one point depression cleared up admit become facebook stalker point thats knew getting along everything going well her made new friends claimed found people appreciated company know meant thought would actively try seek point still logging chat program doubts taken again thought would come help like tried help her wondering worried me realise thoughts become poisoned nasty two months since stopped talking grew desperate thought care me questioned whether really existed ended creating new account facebook began adding lot friends noticed friends always flew side made scary post thought maybe could friend too could fixed using different alias know expecting made feel worse made  facebook friends two weeks felt emptier point seemed figure was know how did blocked well real accounts scared annoyed angry know me felt like somehow recognised bad qualities semblance redeeming factor blocking me messaged saying knew me chose ignore it doubt growing worse felt like complete reversal situation in took positivity confidence took negativity doubts difference was friends people could share worries with felt awful compounded fact home robbed recently felt guilty parents upset turn alarm leaving work wanted die couldnt paid debt debt parents ended calling samaritans redflag hotline said perhaps misunderstood something try talking her time person knew situation took long time muster courage talk her know cared last talked her went offline answering question took mean want talk me lack responses past three months indicated that scared going bother cause trouble her thats wanted do talked things went relatively well though apologised needed to probably apparently never contacted outside chat program main medium communication felt bitter trouble sending message facebook found alias remember talked much time though appeared friends again talk much month felt like didnt felt like still nuisance wanted badly talk her knew doubts would disgust her while doubts built much let one burst her coming fourth final month talked bit seemed well felt like things going back way were doubts left last long remembered suicidal posts would accrue much support ominous usernames profile pictures ended changing mine well hoped someone necessarily her would come check me didnt else did know im idiot know thoughts nasty disgusting know heart black know im irrational another round doubt head confronted again without realising it making feel guilty situation doubts selfdeprecating behaviour felt horrible suggested block me while felt discussion going nowhere took offer blocked me leaving final piece fair goodbye all complete slamming door face heart spirit shattered happened yesterday scared backup accounts facebook contacted with got freaked creeped me told aware told least cut contact terms agree upon really necessary responded blocking accounts still one mode communication one users cant blocked certain website messaged it told thought needed cool time gather thoughts told interest friends stalkerish tendencies backed off intended try again spent entirety today working letter sorts felt rational entire thing sent her responded  im sorry ive already made mind im interested friends anymore never able trust again already told want move blocked you blocking means want talk drag thing anymore want harass anymore everything blocked constitutes harassment tolerate it fact made shake fear please move already theres nothing gain this beating dead horse leave worse impression itll start make regret friends first place please stop actually becomes true  responded this  read message kind feels like im given fair trial know im awkward this im confused especially say disappeared know ive deluded thinking case still feel like biased this really think end then im sorry im sorry ive done really enjoyed time im sorry betraying trust could start again would course stupid things lead this incredible strength believe happy least one favour ever take granted thats ask for good life heh ever change mind know find me thank least reading thoughts one last time  last message her two hours ago  read message decision respect decision avoid me thank you hope find other better people goodbye  fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up know do im horrible idiot fucked up do fucked up talk with fucked up friends fucked up want kill myself fucked up really want end really want hurt her fucked up doubts fucked up edit  thought might interested seeing letter worked sent today  well were talking stalkers one shirai kuroko much invasive blatant me intention going horror genre soon recomposed yourself i too best focus task hand im going let slam door face like this im backed corner course im going fight doubts damned want live sudden shift attitude mine  takes precedence doubt know stayed away longer response lack thereof following message serve good indication last time disappeared said have let fire back you want disappear either am idea im doing guess would good start apology apologise continuous display terrible sides know apologise things again expect forgiven ive known two years even time meant little you meant lot me theres reason feel strong towards you know suggested blocking me going bumpy believe satisfied ending either seem unlikely well ever friends again mean things ended way did know proper goodbye right goodbyes necessarily mean complete drop contact parties no something else people stop talking goodbye going say goodbye ill say hello rather good evening but want talk im hurting you please tell me case least want say proper farewell fair get say piece leave disappear think sudden really solutions mind one solution want one could face properly again think discussion going nowhere think irrational believe possibilities exploredyesterday kept asking tried leave think looking back now afraid id break know selfish makes sound like im considering feel may continue selfish id like hear rest say again im make sure want regret anything guess cant say sure you want regret anything either right right now think main issue im hurt you say waswell im probably hurting you too know sure really that casethen though may reluctant and exactly satisfied understand contact another solution try get irrational feeling hurt really think thats impossible know work but like you im given enough time replaced something positive thats theory test out need assistance know im position asking something like you perhaps hear rest say hate come this want come victim anything kind feels terrible friends seen like someone used friends with honestly intention guilt you wanted help there said it wanted help getting feeling want told it want told im capable want get clap back told go run  laps around block one else knows situation though technically speaking one person knows thats relevant wanted attract attention failed it know else turn problems guess thought again thought made scary posts before thought maybe showed reflection im thinking name image could get attention without actually asking help im aware clumsy awkward way ask it didnt you naive part thought someone else steam would try approach me frustration built get any want help want advice im asking much try find elsewhere want continue talking you wish thrown away say before want it want it let hear answer even things turned sour mean stop talking one another even were friends want continue talking things you anime games life sorts stupid nonsense know you detest rushed endings dropping contact something painful doubt itself something happens thirdrate television dramas really think doubtful real me think depressed self real you honestly say meant things said time again hate sounds like im trying justify myself needed form perspective took considerable amount time get everything much granted privilege waited got everything too though admit ended changing result think unfair irrational behaviour punished clear im saying want punished saying deserve be maybe want understand you wanted understand me think get little better now too trying avoid nasty stuff trying avoid commotion avoiding drama maybe thats avoided doubting makes sense mentioned believe friendships destined end wonder really believe that mean regards current friendships hate bring up too im understanding must felt before say scared left thought thought found disgusting right now im feeling exact thing overcome this win want believe that want believe can know asking lot you see that say realised importance human interaction one point forgot it now become obvious i too frustrated behaviour make mistake crying begging intention either things simply wish see satisfactory conclusion discussion underestimate power debate need be ill deal doubt somehow myself never hear again would think thats favourable compromise want lose again allow it try again aforementioned conditionsif really end theres nothing stop it least make sure real im talking to depressed angry scared you means happy respect decision last letter sorts took months compose hope serves indicate serious this course id much like hear thoughts side story this  tldr sabotaged myself everything entirely doing im revolting life ive made one real friend fucked up im weak im pathetic im useful anyone exist im villain im irrational
lost friendnote posted tifu subreddit found would appropriate post here im im sure begin im scared know do now friend one person a redflag hotline worker knew situation now knowfriend girl ive known two years knew internet know why never able make friends one would talk me one wanted talk me friend never really understood importance relevance human interaction met her much fun talking her enjoying others company never realised much fun talk someone never realised big world really was confess perhaps harboured unhealthy attachment her time year met alone finished college course stopped going work family went vacation like months always thought certain tolerance social isolation wrong leave home except buy food internet front me never approached people it real life one girl always reached me always initiated conversations confused first little annoyed isolation getting worse anyone talked me led believe one cared me one would care ceased exist started experiencing doubt wanted kill myself know trivial thing kill ones self over thats thinking make difference anyones lives whats point living whats point living cant useful girl always talked me slow process slow realise doubts became positivity happened happy sometimes would talk week excited giddy always looked forward messaging program would light corner make sound asinine thing happy about really content let know im complete recluse im waiter even basic level social intelligence felt indebted her incredible feeling know this tell happy it certainly know suicidal time debt weight all felt like purpose happy try repay it perhaps useful her admit fantasised partners scared would one benefiting relationship plus always relationship difficult find right time offer thought but honestly say still content friends fast forward year later gotten relationship someone strongly attached to never expected last knew person months half year best really happy enough make happy too felt horrible happened fell state depression always felt awful end relationships time hurt bad lasted longer facebook posts ominous chat program use often changed profile pictures crying people would change username something equally depressing worthless prominent one stuck really felt like needed something wanted me talk tried talking every day tried always initiate conversation maybe bombarding her gathered talking me suicidal say directly made afraid trying distract nasty stuff trying replace negativity positivity told once told take one step time told thought strong told felt saved her told talking alone but mention suicidal thoughts time moment got better last long near christmas getting worse felt friends facebook dancing around issue licking wounds dealing directly problem decided become villain thought confronted bit short term pain lay facts shell suffer moment realise world much bigger thought time time things getting heated said know felt partner told though hated say it said inexperienced relationships started online main setting all partner time someone often met real life though told insensitive replied knew was something mention depression often asked could talk again indirectly promise anything stupid feared still suicidal asked could talk again asked apologise refused saying did would mean words meant nothing apologised hurt left heated huff logged off never got response question got scared wondered really made right decision desperation started contacting friends try get contact her none responded me one point this even messaged mother depression nothing could do doubts coming back wondered killed her froze place could nothing hope going cool off friends go contact her following that thought best course action back leave alone while thought would contact ready sign chat program case want see me still facebook friends know anything christmas sent gift steam know thought it know played long time ended backing month time fears realised made post facebook talking killing herself frightened wondered really helped made things worse going respond friends quick respond believed terrible state doubt chose reply friends much better job doubts becoming heavier one point depression cleared up admit become facebook stalker point thats knew getting along everything going well her made new friends claimed found people appreciated company know meant thought would actively try seek point still logging chat program doubts taken again thought would come help like tried help her wondering worried me realise thoughts become poisoned nasty two months since stopped talking grew desperate thought care me questioned whether really existed ended creating new account facebook began adding lot friends noticed friends always flew side made scary post thought maybe could friend too could fixed using different alias know expecting made feel worse made facebook friends two weeks felt emptier point seemed figure was know how did blocked well real accounts scared annoyed angry know me felt like somehow recognised bad qualities semblance redeeming factor blocking me messaged saying knew me chose ignore it doubt growing worse felt like complete reversal situation in took positivity confidence took negativity doubts difference was friends people could share worries with felt awful compounded fact home robbed recently felt guilty parents upset turn alarm leaving work wanted die couldnt paid debt debt parents ended calling samaritans redflag hotline said perhaps misunderstood something try talking her time person knew situation took long time muster courage talk her know cared last talked her went offline answering question took mean want talk me lack responses past three months indicated that scared going bother cause trouble her thats wanted do talked things went relatively well though apologised needed to probably apparently never contacted outside chat program main medium communication felt bitter trouble sending message facebook found alias remember talked much time though appeared friends again talk much month felt like didnt felt like still nuisance wanted badly talk her knew doubts would disgust her while doubts built much let one burst her coming fourth final month talked bit seemed well felt like things going back way were doubts left last long remembered suicidal posts would accrue much support ominous usernames profile pictures ended changing mine well hoped someone necessarily her would come check me didnt else did know im idiot know thoughts nasty disgusting know heart black know im irrational another round doubt head confronted again without realising it making feel guilty situation doubts selfdeprecating behaviour felt horrible suggested block me while felt discussion going nowhere took offer blocked me leaving final piece fair goodbye all complete slamming door face heart spirit shattered happened yesterday scared backup accounts facebook contacted with got freaked creeped me told aware told least cut contact terms agree upon really necessary responded blocking accounts still one mode communication one users cant blocked certain website messaged it told thought needed cool time gather thoughts told interest friends stalkerish tendencies backed off intended try again spent entirety today working letter sorts felt rational entire thing sent her responded imsorry ive already made mind im interested friends anymore never able trust again already told want move blocked you blocking means want talk drag thing anymore want harass anymore everything blocked constitutes harassment tolerate it fact made shake fear please move already theres nothing gain this beating dead horse leave worse impression itll start make regret friends first place please stop actually becomes true responded this read message kind feels like im given fair trial knowim awkward thisim confused especially say disappeared know ive deluded thinking case still feel like biased this really think end then im sorryim sorry ive done really enjoyed time im sorry betraying trust could start again would course stupid things lead this incredible strength believe happy least one favour ever take granted thats ask for good life heh ever change mind know find me thank least reading thoughts one last time last message her two hours ago read message decision respect decision avoid me thank you hope find other better people goodbye fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up fucked up know do im horrible idiot fucked up do fucked up talk with fucked up friends fucked up want kill myself fucked up really want end really want hurt her fucked up doubts fucked up edit thought might interested seeing letter worked sent today well were talking stalkers one shirai kuroko much invasive blatant me intention going horror genre soon recomposed yourself i too best focus task hand im going let slam door face like this im backed corner course im going fight doubts damned want live sudden shift attitude mine takes precedence doubt know stayed away longer response lack thereof following message serve good indication last time disappeared said have let fire back you want disappear either am idea im doing guess would good start apology apologise continuous display terrible sides know apologise things again expect forgiven ive known two years even time meant little you meant lot metheres reason feel strong towards you know suggested blocking me going bumpy believe satisfied ending either seem unlikely well ever friends again mean things ended way did know proper goodbye right goodbyes necessarily mean complete drop contact parties no something else people stop talking goodbye going say goodbye ill say hello rather good evening but want talk im hurting you please tell me case least want say proper farewell fair get say piece leave disappear think suddenreally solutions mind one solution want one could face properly again think discussion going nowhere thinkirrational believe possibilities exploredyesterday kept asking tried leave think looking back now afraid id break know selfish makes sound like im considering feel may continue selfish id like hear rest say again im make sure want regret anything guess cant say sure you want regret anything either right right now think main issue im hurt you say waswell im probably hurting you too know sure really that casethen though may reluctant and exactly satisfied understand contact another solution try get irrational feeling hurt really think thats impossible know work but like you im given enough time replaced something positive thats theory test out need assistance know im position asking something like you perhaps hear rest say hate come this want come victim anything kind feels terrible friends seen like someone used friends with honestly intention guilt you wanted help there said it wanted help getting feeling want told it want told im capable want get clap back told go run laps around block one else knows situation though technically speaking one person knows thats relevant wanted attract attention failed it know else turn problems guess thought again thought made scary posts before thought maybe showed reflection im thinking name image could get attention without actually asking help im aware clumsy awkward way ask it didnt you naive part thought someone else steam would try approach me frustration built get any want help want advice im asking much try find elsewhere want continue talking you wish thrown away say before want it want it let hear answer even things turned sour mean stop talking one another even were friends want continue talking things you anime games life sorts stupid nonsense know you detest rushed endings dropping contact something painful doubt itself something happens thirdrate television dramas really think doubtful real me think depressed self real you honestly say meant things said time again hate sounds like im trying justify myself needed form perspective took considerable amount time get everything much granted privilege waited got everything too though admit ended changing result think unfair irrational behaviour punished clear im saying want punished saying deserve be maybe want understand you wanted understand me think get little better now too trying avoid nasty stuff trying avoid commotion avoiding drama maybe thats avoided doubting makes sense mentioned believe friendships destined end wonder really believe that mean regards current friendships hate bring up too im understanding must felt before say scared left thought thought found disgusting right now im feeling exact thing overcome this win want believe that want believe can know asking lot you see that say realised importance human interaction one point forgot it now become obvious i too frustrated behaviour make mistake crying begging intention either things simply wish see satisfactory conclusion discussion underestimate power debate need be ill deal doubt somehow myself never hear again would think thats favourable compromise want lose again allow it try again aforementioned conditionsif really end theres nothing stop it least make sure real im talking to depressed angry scared you means happy respect decision last letter sorts took months compose hope serves indicate serious this courseid much like hear thoughts side story this tldr sabotaged myself everything entirely doing im revolting life ive made one real friend fucked up im weakim patheticim useful anyone exist im villainim irrational
perdido friendnote posteado tifu subreddit encontrado sería apropiado post aquí im seguro comenzar im miedo saber hacer ahora amigo una persona un trabajador de línea directa redflag sabía situación ahora saber amigo chica ive conocido dos años sabía Internet saber por qué nunca capaz hacer amigos uno me hablaría uno quería hablar yo amigo nunca realmente entendió importancia interacción humana se reunió con ella mucho diversión hablando de ella disfrutando de otros empresa nunca se dio cuenta de mucha diversión charla alguien nunca se dio cuenta gran mundo realmente se confesó tal vez protegido malsano apego año se reunió solo universidad curso dejó de ir a trabajar familia vacaciones como meses siempre pensé cierta tolerancia aislamiento social mal salir de casa excepto comprar comida Internet frente a mí nunca se acercó a la gente vida real una chica siempre me llegó a conversaciones siempre inició conversaciones confusas primero poco molesto aislamiento cada vez peor alguien me habló me llevó a creer que me importaba uno se iba a preocupar cesó