dont know go on shouldwhen moved different school suddenly got really bad  first experienced social phobia eventually got bad cried threw every time went outside wasnt able go school fucked grades missed  percent classes ocd came eating disorder managed get help started taking zoloft almost two years now got better yes still feel like shit parents alcoholics im attached them fucking rollercoaster make feel loved cherished theyre sober feel theyre best parents anyone could ever dream of happens something dies within me summer graduating high school attempted move city far mine far painful period life never felt bad still aware parents ruining life made fucked way felt like couldnt live without side love much hurts think much love them hurts think people would violently die horrible things towards me moved back wasnt able go uni still trying things still trying study contact best friends getting weird im sure frienship anymore yesterday dog died  got her stray skinny little diaster wasnt even able eat drink herself took home dirty first thought brownish fur turned pure white couple spots baby sweet little baby smart shy would always come cried cling knees sat there silently  years old god still cant believe gone cant fucking gone baby baby sweet little baby gone friends said nothing understood first know pretty well hard might show empathy managed hurt even more why for for spoke mom today extremely drunk still is reminded awful child am shitty person am loss dog feels last things holding vanishing things making happy second now only dog video game live asshole russia bad here really really bad grey pointless whole setting pushing towards ending all tragically funny humans hypersensitive creatures live world doesnt give single fuck feelings go on go on even go on dont know anything anymore want rest want stop want catch breath
dont know go on shouldwhen moved different school suddenly got really bad first experienced social phobia eventually got bad cried threw every time went outside wasnt able go school fucked grades missed percent classes ocd came eating disorder managed get help started taking zoloft almost two years now got better yes still feel like shit parents alcoholics im attached them fucking rollercoaster make feel loved cherished theyre sober feel theyre best parents anyone could ever dream of happens something dies within me summer graduating high school attempted move city far mine far painful period life never felt bad still aware parents ruining life made fucked way felt like couldnt live without side love much hurts think much love them hurts think people would violently die horrible things towards me moved back wasnt able go uni still trying things still trying study contact best friends getting weird im sure frienship anymore yesterday dog died got her stray skinny little diaster wasnt even able eat drink herself took home dirty first thought brownish fur turned pure white couple spots baby sweet little baby smart shy would always come cried cling knees sat there silently years old god still cant believe gonecant fucking gone baby baby sweet little baby gone friends said nothing understood first know pretty well hard might show empathy managed hurt even more why for for spoke mom today extremely drunk still is reminded awful child am shitty person am loss dog feels last things holding vanishing things making happy second now only dog video game live asshole russia bad here really really bad grey pointless whole setting pushing towards ending all tragically funny humans hypersensitive creatures live world doesnt give single fuck feelings go on go on even go on dont know anything anymore want rest want stop want catch breath
No lo sé seguir debería cuando se movió diferente escuela de repente se puso muy mal primero experimentado fobia social finalmente se puso mal llorado lanzado cada vez que salió fuera no era capaz de ir a la escuela puta notas perdidas porcentaje clases ocd vino trastorno alimenticio manejado conseguir ayuda comenzó a tomar zoloft casi dos años ahora mejor sí todavía se siente como mierda padres alcohólicos im adjuntos ellos puta montaña rusa hacer sentir querido son sobria sentir que son mejores padres cualquiera podría soñar que pasa algo muere dentro de mí verano graduarse secundaria intento de mover ciudad lejos mi período doloroso vida nunca se sintió mal todavía consciente de padres arruinando la vida follada manera se sentía como no podía vivir sin amor lado mucho dolor pensar mucho amor ellos duele pensar que la gente moriría violentamente cosas horribles hacia mí se trasladó no era capaz de ir uni todavía tratando de cosas estudio contacto mejores amigos conseguir raro