m married kids successful almost jumped  story building todayi dealt depression minimum  years diagnosed reality likely dealing entire life depression anxiety ptsd adult due multiple traumas life including molestation family member course several years young child teen years ive countless meds counseling hospital done heavy counseling month still continue find darkness despair life ive married twice second marriage failing struggle lack sex life zero sex drive also causes issues mental stability likely due sexual abuse gotten point really care anymore im religious man believe god jesus died sins also fear committing redflag ill go hell honestly thats thing stopping me kids wife parents friends today close jumping roof parking ram work  stories concrete im pretty sure header would job quickly painfree reason though it much pain suffer much honestly believe life believe get better im ruining family depression hurting kids cant check least let live without me cant find peace continue suffer day day day pain end
m married kids successful almost jumped story building todayi dealt depression minimum years diagnosed reality likely dealing entire life depression anxiety ptsd adult due multiple traumas life including molestation family member course several years young child teen years ive countless meds counseling hospital done heavy counseling month still continue find darkness despair life ive married twice second marriage failing struggle lack sex life zero sex drive also causes issues mental stability likely due sexual abuse gotten point really careanymore imreligious man believe god jesus died sins also fear committing redflag ill go hell honestly thats thing stopping me kids wife parents friends today close jumping roof parking ram work stories concrete im pretty sure header would job quickly painfree reason though it much pain suffer much honestly believe life believe get better im ruining family depression hurting kids cant check least let live without me cant find peace continue suffer day day day pain end
m hijos casados éxito casi saltó historia edificio hoy lidiaba depresión años mínimos diagnosticados realidad probable tratar toda la vida depresión ansiedad ptsd adulto debido a traumas múltiples vida incluyendo abuso sexual familia curso varios años niño pequeño adolescente años ive incontables medicamentos asesoramiento hospital hecho pesado asesoramiento mes todavía continuar encontrar oscuridad desesperación vida vive matrimonio dos veces segundo lucha fracaso sexual vida cero sexo también causa problemas problemas de estabilidad mental debido abuso sexual conseguido punto realmente cuidadomás hombre imreligioso creer que dios Jesús murió pecados también miedo cometer Redflag mal ir infierno honestamente eso es cosa que me impide niños esposa padres amigos hoy cerca salto techo estacionamiento carnero trabajo historias concretas im bastante seguro encabezado trabajar rápidamente sin dolor razón aunque mucho dolor sufrir mucho honestamente creer que la vida cree que mejor im ruina familia depresión los niños no pueden comprobar menos dejar de vivir sin mí no pueden encontrar paz seguir sufriendo día día dolor final día día