basically long blogpost think ive got pretty good reasons myself see think otherwiseim end line folks although would like hear lads would say personally think ive done good job making long blogpost explanation bit top usual cocktail anxiety depression substance abuse chemically addicted  thing prescribed not fact dropped school highschool freshman amp elongated social interaction since bout  years job doesnt count ive chronic disease since baby ibd turned crohns disease large intestine removed amp ulcers kept popping replacement small intestine this two choices first option connected jpouch w pouchitis little remission relative people jpouches ive developed antibodies hardhitting immunosuppressants ie remicade since pumped full stuff kid im likely die extreme pain sometime ss meds stop working regardless meaning constant diarrhea constantly shitting bed night nearconstant internal pain amp constant fear stricture complications leading extreme pain option ostomy amp ostomy bag due fact scar indent  inch deep amp  inches long abdomen dozen surgeries child bag leaks constantly without ton extra adhesive thus put adhesive leading x diameter circle basically painful fungus infection thats especially raw thanks acidic nature shit antifungal things hamper it never notpainful turn leads a extreme pain upon taking shower touching it applying new bag b pain bend wrong goddamn direction sleep angle slight lean right yes issue brought wound care nurses well relevant doctor cant anything right now due stricture im stuck ostomy without active intervention monthly endoscopies balloon dilation area intestinal fluid pool said stricture eventually leading internal expansion amp thus mindrending pain  speaking experience due covid operations stopped guess halfyear absolutely negative desire condition passed onto kid point ive informed parents intentions  yes course theyve tried help appreciate efforts despite futile are point believe keeping alive sake others is lack better word phrase simply worth it ampxb relevant bit think obvious anyone anxiety  little social interaction  constant fucking pain nearly every second day  multiple addictions due aforementioned things tends make man suicidal id prolly psychologists fucking field day ive picked nice area woods although near road first responders go much effort  plan call  killing order streamline things despite possible risk main thing yet decide upon whether go  head unfortunately meaning none family members would want keep rifle mm head unlikely possible become vegetable rather dying exit baghave wait materials cant transported car higher risk failure two things yet decide upon are know whether drive place question walk driving would mean family would trouble getting car back walking might get cops called ass decide  head would impossible decide exit bag also itd give much time back out another thing ive drafted redflag letter family amp ive planned short post chat servers frequent im still trying think something give first responders either means apology something make laugh either sorry mess letter joke something maybe both less id appreciate opinions question regarding leave first responders
basically long blogpost think ive got pretty good reasons myself see think otherwiseim end line folks although would like hear lads would say personally think ive done good job making long blogpost explanation bit top usual cocktail anxiety depression substance abuse chemically addicted thing prescribed not fact dropped school highschool freshman amp elongated social interaction since bout years job doesnt count ive chronic disease since baby ibd turned crohns disease large intestine removed amp ulcers kept popping replacement small intestine this two choices first option connected jpouch w pouchitis little remission relative people jpouches ive developed antibodies hardhitting immunosuppressants ie remicade since pumped full stuff kid im likely die extreme painsometime ss meds stop working regardless meaning constant diarrhea constantly shitting bed night nearconstant internal pain amp constant fear stricture complications leading extreme pain option ostomy amp ostomy bag due fact scar indent inch deep amp inches long abdomen dozen surgeries child bag leaks constantly without ton extra adhesive thus put adhesive leading x diameter circle basically painful fungus infection thats especially raw thanks acidic nature shit antifungal things hamper it never notpainful turn leads a extreme pain upon taking shower touching it applying new bag b pain bend wrong goddamn direction sleep angleslight leanrightyes issue brought wound care nurses well relevant doctor cant anything right now due stricture im stuck ostomy without active intervention monthly endoscopies balloon dilation area intestinal fluid pool said stricture eventually leading internal expansion amp thus mindrending pain speaking experience due covid operations stopped guess halfyear absolutely negative desire condition passed onto kid point ive informed parents intentions yes course theyve tried help appreciate efforts despite futile are point believe keeping alive sake others is lack better word phrase simply worth it ampxb relevant bit think obvious anyone anxiety little social interaction constant fucking pain nearly every second day multiple addictions due aforementioned things tends make man suicidal id prolly psychologists fucking field day ive picked nice area woods although near road first responders go much effort plan call killing order streamline things despite possible risk main thing yet decide upon whether go head unfortunately meaning none family members would want keep rifle mm head unlikely possible become vegetable rather dying exit baghave wait materials cant transported car higher risk failure two things yet decide upon are know whether drive place question walk driving would mean family would trouble getting car back walking might get cops called ass decide head would impossible decide exit bag also itd give much time back out another thing ive drafted redflag letter family amp ive planned short post chat servers frequent im still trying think something give first responders either means apology something make laugh either sorry mess letter joke something maybe both less id appreciate opinions question regarding leave first responders
Básicamente largo blogpost pensar ive consiguió bastante buenas razones yo mismo ver pensar de otra maneraim final gente, aunque me gustaría escuchar chicos diría personalmente pensar ive hecho buen trabajo hacer largo blogpost explicación bit top coctel habitual ansiedad depresión sustancia abuso de sustancias químicamente adicto cosa prescrito no hecho abandonado escuela secundaria estudiante de primer año amp alargada interacción social desde hace algunos años trabajo no cuenta ive enfermedad crónica puesto que baby ibd convertido crohns enfermedad intestino grueso removido úlceras AMP siguió apareciendo reemplazo intestino delgado estas dos opciones primera opción conectada jpouch w pouchitis poca remisión relativa personas jpouches ive desarrollado anticuerpos resistentes inmunosupresores es decir, remicade puesto que bombeado cosas completas niño im probablemente morir dolor extremotiemposometime