tired constant failureyesterday mom asked keep going looked normal emotionless face shrugged thinks therapy dont heart tell therapy doesnt help me ive started cutting cope constant failure tbh since early high school cant talk due culture male cant tell ive found comfort alcohol im trying keep binging becoming harder drink bottle medication im tired always failing ive worked hard many years sacrificed much slip fingers like water last several years comprised financial hardship rejections med schools deaths breakup literally havent even taken time mourn lossesfailures dont know mourn feel nothing void space nothing exists yet widens everyday consumes me think loneliness whats getting most relationship lasted months im grateful first experience healthy left craving affection dont get much attention women eat away me feeds suicidal thoughts feelings inadequacy want end cant find ways end peacefully cant share thoughts anyone since friends run ignore acknowledging others feel im failure worthless perhaps better let void consume me
tired constant failureyesterday mom asked keep going looked normal emotionless face shrugged thinks therapy dont heart tell therapy doesnt help me ive started cutting cope constant failure tbh since early high school cant talk due culture male cant tell ive found comfort alcohol im trying keep binging becoming harder drink bottle medication im tired always failing ive worked hard many years sacrificed much slip fingers like water last several years comprised financial hardship rejections med schools deaths breakup literally havent even taken time mourn lossesfailures dont know mourn feel nothing void space nothing exists yet widens everyday consumes me think loneliness whats getting most relationship lasted months im grateful first experience healthy left craving affection dont get much attention women eat away me feeds suicidal thoughts feelings inadequacy want end cant find ways end peacefully cant share thoughts anyone since friends run ignore acknowledging others feel im failure worthless perhaps better let void consume me
cansado fracaso constante ayer mamá preguntó seguir adelante mirada normal cara sin emoción encogida piensa terapia no corazón decir terapia no me ayuda a mí ive comenzó a cortar fracaso constante tbh desde principios de escuela secundaria no puede hablar debido cultura masculino no puede contar ha encontrado comodidad alcohol im tratando de seguir atragantando convertirse en más difícil bebida medicamento im cansado siempre fracaso ive trabajó duro muchos años sacrificó mucho dedos resbaladizos como el agua pasado varios años comprendía dificultades financieras rechazos educación médica muertes ruptura literalmente ni siquiera ha tomado tiempo duelo pérdidas fracasos no sé llorar sentir nada espacio vacío nada existe pero se ensancha todos los días me consume pensar soledad lo que es conseguir la mayoría de la relación duró meses im experiencia agradecida primero salud izquierda antojo afecto no obtener mucha atención mujeres comer lejos me alimenta pensamientos suicidas sentimientos indefectibles fin no puedo encontrar maneras fin pacíficamente no puedo compartir pensamientos nadie ya que los amigos corren ignorar reconocer reconocimiento de otros no vale la pena tal vez mejor dejar sin consumirme