ive hit rock bottomm ish ive suffering lot depression lately ive depressed month now time since stopped going office cant get basic things without breaking crippling anxiety ive good dad mom sister feeling good enough matter anyone world close friends anyone talk right fucked state mind cant bear misery living wanted put rest it part wants run away live like nomad without human contact become saint part wants die it took amount rat poison two weeks ago apparently fucking enough swallowed  tablets fucking aspirin last week still nothing happened know now access firearms anything would little bit easier thinking stabbing heart sometime soon cannot carry living like this ive nothing live for ive hobbies anything help distract me ive tried various things thought liked found fad someone really not totally hate myself strength would totally rip head apart two know writing either probably place could talk it
ive hit rock bottomm ish ive suffering lot depression lately ive depressed month now time since stopped going office cant get basic things without breaking crippling anxiety ive good dad mom sister feeling good enough matter anyone world close friends anyone talk right fucked state mind cant bear misery living wanted put rest it part wants run away live like nomad without human contact become saint part wants die it took amount rat poison two weeks ago apparently fucking enough swallowed tablets fucking aspirin last week still nothing happened know now access firearms anything would little bit easier thinking stabbing heart sometime soon cannot carry living like this ive nothing live for ive hobbies anything help distract me ive tried various things thought liked found fad someone really not totally hate myself strength would totally rip head apart two know writing either probably place could talk it
ive hit rock stomm ish ive sufring lot depression Últimamente ive deprimido mes ahora tiempo desde que dejó de ir a la oficina no puedo conseguir cosas básicas sin romper la ansiedad ive bueno papá mamá hermana sentir lo suficientemente buena materia cualquier mundo amigos cercanos cualquiera hablar derecho mierda mente estado no puede soportar miseria vivir quería descansar parte quiere huir vivir como nómada sin contacto humano santo parte quiere morir tomó cantidad de veneno de rata hace dos semanas aparentemente bastante tragada pastillas mierda aspirina la semana pasada todavía nada pasó saber ahora acceso a las armas de fuego nada poco más fácil pensar corazón apuñalante algún día pronto no puede llevar a vivir como esta vida nada vivir para aficiones vivos nada ayudar a distraerme ha tratado varias cosas pensado como encontrado fad alguien realmente no totalmente odio a mí mismo fuerza rompería totalmente la cabeza aparte dos saben escritura cualquiera de los dos probablemente lugar podría hablarlo