backits months ago since seriously thought ending life ive depressed  years never bothered get solutions recently  months ago went therapy  months stop due logistical reasons found replacement therapist cancelled appointment last minute thought getting better  im going often im willing meet trust new people im starting like again im functioning like _normal_ viewed everything rosecolored glasses im getting better get progress gain friends ive built delusion belongingness family thought ive steered away demons head theyre still here never left made things worse hate myself _friends_ better without someone like life world infinitely better place without it voices back want stop
backits months ago since seriously thought ending life ive depressed years never bothered get solutions recently months ago went therapy months stop due logistical reasons found replacement therapist cancelled appointment last minute thought getting better im going often im willing meet trust new people im starting like again im functioning like _normal_ viewed everything rosecolored glasses im getting better get progress gain friends ive built delusion belongingness family thought ive steered away demons head theyre still here never left made things worse hate myself _friends_ better without someone like life world infinitely better place without it voices back want stop
hace meses desde que se pensó seriamente terminar la vida deprimidos años nunca se molestó conseguir soluciones hace meses fue terapia meses detener debido a razones logísticas encontrado reemplazo terapeuta cita cancelada último minuto pensamiento conseguir mejor I going a menudo estoy dispuesto conocer confianza nueva gente im comenzar como de nuevo i funcionamiento como _normal_ visto todo color rosa gafas im conseguir mejor progreso ganar amigos iive construido delirio pertenencia familia pensamiento ive lejos demonios cabeza todavía están aquí nunca izquierda hizo las cosas peor odio a mí mismo _amigos_ mejor sin alguien como la vida mundo infinitamente mejor lugar sin él voces volver quieren parar