need venthi dont really know start begin ill say need simple can im suicidal no havent cut hurt myself havent stood edge building wishing could muster courage leap off havent put gun head wishing could pull trigger ive severely depressed years since young dont know why maybe im obese maybe social anxiety maybe im sort joke whatever higher power is loving family friends care me got whatever wanted since young always close mom dad always wanted writer creator tv show cartoon something would able show different kinds characters good despite skin color sexual identity was thought thousands ideas story never skilled enough write like professional find even pitch suxh show even animate often feel like wasted potential wanted great couldnt anything make right friends weight began feel lonely time sure friends spend time me cant help feel disconnected like theyre bothered me waste time dont feel like im one deserves millions others never got chance born recently mom died one closest to dad cancer im fearful come back refuses stop smoking matter much try beg quit stopped long cant deal parents gone  brother one seemed everything work right highschool always wants attempt get job learn drive stuff im lazy ill honest put year highschool learning drive roads crippling fear getting wreck hurting someone else getting fined something wrong scary im sure getting job wouldnt bad im afriad couldnt asked since overweight would get fired reprimanded it im afraid means im losing free time ill never able play games stuff love anymore piling once driving stress job stress weight dad potentially sick loneliness dont know do sleep lay bed motivation left want fall asleep dream forever dont deserve life im using it stop existing
need venthi dont really know start begin ill say need simple can im suicidal no havent cut hurt myself havent stood edge building wishing could muster courage leap off havent put gun head wishing could pull trigger ive severely depressed years since young dont know why maybe im obese maybe social anxiety maybe im sort joke whatever higher power is loving family friends care me got whatever wanted since young always close mom dad always wanted writer creator tv show cartoon something would able show different kinds characters good despite skin color sexual identity was thought thousands ideas story never skilled enough write like professional find even pitch suxh show even animate often feel like wasted potential wanted great couldnt anything make right friends weight began feel lonely time sure friends spend time me cant help feel disconnected like theyre bothered me waste time dont feel like im one deserves millions others never got chance born recently mom died one closest to dad cancer im fearful come back refuses stop smoking matter much try beg quit stopped long cant deal parents gone brother one seemed everything work right highschool always wants attempt get job learn drive stuffim lazy ill honest put year highschool learning drive roads crippling fear getting wreck hurting someone else getting fined something wrong scaryim sure getting job wouldnt bad im afriad couldnt asked since overweight would get fired reprimanded it im afraid means im losing free time ill never able play games stuff love anymore piling once driving stress job stress weight dad potentially sick loneliness dont know do sleep lay bed motivation left want fall asleep dream forever dont deserve life im using it stop existing
need venthi dont know really start begin mal say need simple im suicida no havelt short hire me havet stated edge building wishing pour breated havett gun pitch head wishing pour active live live severaly deprimido años desde joven no sé por qué tal vez im obeso tal vez ansiedad social tal vez im sort broma lo que sea mayor poder es cariñoso amigos de la familia cuidado me consiguió lo que quería ya joven siempre cerca mamá papá siempre quería escritor creador show dibujos animados algo podría mostrar diferentes tipos personajes buenos a pesar de piel color identidad sexual se pensaba miles de ideas historia nunca lo suficientemente hábil escribir como profesional encontrar incluso pitch suxh show incluso animate a menudo sentir como perdido potencial quería grande no podía hacer nada correcto amigos peso comenzó solo tiempo seguro amigos no me pueden ayudar a sentirse desconectado como si me molestaran perder el tiempo no se sienten como im merece millones otros nunca tuvieron oportunidad de nacer recientemente mamá murió uno más cercano a papá cáncer