idk must do living dying easyso ive suffering toxic household effects sudden fall grades social anxiety feeling bad myself extremely low selfesteem considering redflag option year now sometimes get depressed start hurting myself now think death could solve problems honestly parents care dead somehow survive suffer entire life  now lot research first attempt hanging retreated later read lot articles paralysis due suicidal hanging right confusedwhether must live die one even cry vent out hug pillow tightly move corner bed cry shit out feel ashamed myself want die nothing else ready accept tolerate pain want survive attempt
idk must do living dying easyso ive suffering toxic household effects sudden fall grades social anxiety feeling bad myself extremely low selfesteem considering redflag option year now sometimes get depressed start hurting myself now think death could solve problems honestly parents care dead somehow survive suffer entire life now lot research first attempt hanging retreated later read lot articles paralysis due suicidal hanging right confusedwhether must live die one even cry vent out hug pillow tightly move corner bed cry shit out feel ashamed myself want die nothing else ready accept tolerate pain want survive attempt
idk debe hacer la vida moribunda easyso ive sufring efectos domésticos tóxicos caída repentina grados ansiedad social sentirse mal yo mismo extremadamente baja autoestima teniendo en cuenta la opción de bandera roja año ahora a veces se deprime empezar a lastimarme ahora pensar que la muerte podría resolver problemas honestamente los padres cuidan muertos de alguna manera sobrevivir sufrir toda la vida ahora mucho investigación primero intento de colgarse retirado después leer lote artículos parálisis debido suicida colgar derecho confusosi debe vivir uno incluso llorar ventilación abrazo almohada firmemente mover esquina cama grito mierda me siento avergonzado quiero morir nada más listo aceptar dolor querer sobrevivir intento