suffer massive religious stress selfhatred anxiety lack confidence im starting consider redflagi going constant internal struggle religion caused selfhatred anxiety taken away confidence used have started two years ago realized bible large number contradictions loved one mine died cancer began lose faith god loved immensely before started intrusive thoughts loved ones hell hell nightterror told done unforgivable sin  crying it also discovered bisexual worsened problems eventually got moved life atheist everything fine year intrusive thoughts went away entirely however come last summer religious stress returned stronger ever im starting hate even more even selfharm via beating myself feel absolutely useless also live constant state fear specific stress started get worse july nd year heard potential isis terror threat july th started intrusive thoughts telling isis correct exactly evil thoughts also consisted god hating me wanting burn hell wanting suffer bisexual doubting him past weeks stress gone far beyond usual level go anywhere without lingering feeling dread constantly think religion right try get help talking people various faiths talked christians muslims atheists agnostics pantheists wiccans even mormon yet still cannot find internal peace think bible quran books hatred war rather peace love idea religion correct theyre false im leaning towards latter massive fear hell keeps fully leaving religion feel like im stuck rock hard place dangling string constantly smashed both ive many thoughts mutilating killing lately even received call crisis hotline last week telling friend concerned wellbeing absolutely idea point im engulfed anguish fear selfhatred depression
suffer massive religious stress selfhatred anxiety lack confidence im starting consider redflagi going constant internal struggle religion caused selfhatred anxiety taken away confidence used have started two years ago realized bible large number contradictions loved one mine died cancer began lose faith god loved immensely before started intrusive thoughts loved ones hell hell nightterror told done unforgivable sin crying it also discovered bisexual worsened problems eventually got moved life atheist everything fine year intrusive thoughts went away entirely however come last summer religious stress returned stronger ever im starting hate even more even selfharm via beating myself feel absolutely useless also live constant state fear specific stress started get worse july nd year heard potential isis terror threat july th started intrusive thoughts telling isis correct exactly evil thoughts also consisted god hating me wanting burn hell wanting suffer bisexual doubting him past weeks stress gone far beyond usual level go anywhere without lingering feeling dread constantly think religion right try get help talking people various faiths talked christians muslims atheists agnostics pantheists wiccans even mormon yet still cannot find internal peace think bible quran books hatred war rather peace love idea religion correct theyre false im leaning towards latter massive fear hell keeps fully leaving religion feel like im stuck rock hard place dangling string constantly smashed both ive many thoughts mutilating killing lately even received call crisis hotline last week telling friend concerned wellbeing absolutely idea point im engulfed anguish fear selfhatred depression
Sufrir estrés religioso masivo odio a sí mismo ansiedad falta de confianza im comenzar considerar Redflagi ir constante lucha interna religión causado auto odio ansiedad quitada confianza han comenzado hace dos años cuenta biblia gran número contradicciones querida mina murió cáncer comenzó a perder fe dios amado inmensamente antes comenzó pensamientos intrusivos seres queridos infierno infierno terror nocturno dicho hecho pecado imperdonable llanto también descubrió bisexual empeorar problemas finalmente se movieron vida ateo todo fin año pensamientos intrusivos se fue completamente sin embargo llegó el verano pasado estrés religioso volvió más fuerte cada vez empezar odio incluso autolesión a través de golpearme a mí mismo se siente absolutamente inútil también vivir constante estado miedo específico estrés comenzó peor julio y año oído potencial isis amenaza de terror july th comenzó pensamientos intrusivos diciendo isis correcto exactamente malos pensamientos también consistía dios odio querer quemar el infierno querer