tell fianc still feel suicidalive dating fianc  wonderful months met redflagdepression support chat given happiness stability unending loveunderstanding future goals something never thought would have truly changed life however passively actively suicidal since  genetic illness affects joints makes everyday life painful limited abilities used athletic busy slim barely walk gained weight though im still skinny really shouldnt complaining worst part illness ripped vet tech career right hands really gaining traction found dream job ericu career passion one jobs physically able honestly devastated me go phases im ok phases feel like im mourning couldve been condition gotten worse stuck internlevel position dream job because physically employer amazing worked make sure income go back icu floor hit one bad phases want selfdestruct everything around wont hurt anyone myself this second guess fianc ridiculous illegitimate reasons want push away wont get infected hurt changed life love heart cant keep going phases needing destroy everything around without knowing tell him dont want make feel like isnt good enough something like that also dont want force problems dark cloud life dont want die right now really need tell someone especially him heart squeezes every day need selfdestruct lay awake night second guessing everything word gain support without pity hurting process
tell fianc still feel suicidalive dating fianc wonderful months met redflagdepression support chat given happiness stability unending loveunderstanding future goals something never thought would have truly changed life however passively actively suicidal since genetic illness affects joints makes everyday life painful limited abilities used athletic busy slim barely walk gained weight though im still skinny really shouldnt complaining worst part illness ripped vet tech careerright hands really gaining traction found dream job ericu career passion one jobs physically able honestly devastated me go phases im ok phases feel like im mourning couldve been condition gotten worse stuck internlevel position dream job because physically employer amazing worked make sure income go back icu floor hit one bad phases want selfdestruct everything around wont hurt anyone myself this second guess fianc ridiculous illegitimate reasons want push away wont get infected hurt changed life love heart cant keep going phases needing destroy everything around without knowing tell him dont want make feel like isnt good enough something like that also dont want force problems dark cloud life dont want die right now really need tell someone especially him heart squeezes every day need selfdestruct lay awake night second guessing everything word gain support without pity hurting process
Dile a la novia que todavía se siente suicida novia maravilloso meses se reunió Redflagdepression apoyo chat dada felicidad estabilidad sin fin amorentender metas futuras algo nunca pensé que habría cambiado realmente la vida sin embargo pasivamente activamente suicida ya que la enfermedad genética afecta las articulaciones hace la vida cotidiana dolorosa habilidades limitadas utilizadas atlética ocupado delgado apenas caminar ganado peso aunque todavía flaco realmente no debería quejarse peor parte enfermedad desgarrado veterinario tecnología derecho manos realmente ganar tracción encontrado sueño trabajo ericu carrera pasión uno trabajos físicamente capaz honestamente me devastó fases ir