feel suicidal pessimismi  yrs old tight group friends consisting  them love history anime quite ironic sarcastic know offputting people dont know me terrible reading signs ever since nd grade used bullied th grade managed get hold forcing mind care great sucess bullying stopped felt great first time quite while result started struggling lot care stopped caring opinions others unless close me stopped caring looks lot things like think pretty good history humanities general really enjoy managed pass ap  play  instruments fairly well really really like things like also despise dont result th grade ended failing year felt horrible alright came back vacation established system get better focus more simply put didnt study home knew got distracted easily instead went nearby cafe study worked great mean problem completely ignoring dificulty studying focusing tasks home thats problem right always leave chances something happening could force stay home matter study worst circumstances yeah recently graduated th grade fucking desperate always quite pessimistic  friends graduating one going study abroad two people felt like could gone ever since quarantine started terribly recently watched kon anime cute anime girls playing music second season show caught completely guard heavily focused younger character azusa inevitably beeing left behind group friends one year behind them ever since forced stop caring lots lots trouble caring connecting fiction kon first time life felt true connection combined fact idea fix problem struggles focus corona virus seemingly beeing time soon friends leaving fact pessimist believe way surviving future college work work load lot heavier know biased pessimism influencing thoughts doesnt matter still feel way point life best ever doubt ever reach heights again since halfway vacations terrified starting  grade barely passed th mom ways fighting nothing serious fact almost always right takes  minutes us forget it every time happens feel pointless kill myself even incredibly trivial things like dishes something problem doing gets confusing quite political mom staunch environmentalists i see world burning feel pointless feel like china take everything trumps presidency feels like joke way stop us beeing taken over corporations destroy environment brazilian lived brazil whole life bolsonaros antienvironmental policies drive feeling desperation isolation want kill emotions logic feel like logically speaking persons death contributes something mean much trash produce better die combined sense utter dread feel torwards future really see reason keep going emotionally dont want to terrified dying terrified living dont know do feels like major fight broke would kill myself likely thing tensions building home please help dont really money phychiatrist hate online classes sessions one would likley help me know hiw ling sorry unsure do
feel suicidal pessimismi yrs old tight group friends consisting them love history anime quite ironic sarcastic know offputting people dont know me terrible reading signs ever since nd grade used bullied th grade managed get hold forcing mind care great sucess bullying stopped felt great first time quite while result started struggling lot care stopped caring opinions others unless close me stopped caring looks lot things like think pretty good history humanities general really enjoy managed pass ap play instruments fairly well really really like things like also despise dont result th grade ended failing year felt horrible alright came back vacation established system get better focus more simply put didnt study home knew got distracted easily instead went nearby cafe study worked great mean problem completely ignoring dificulty studying focusing tasks home thats problem right always leave chances something happening could force stay home matter study worst circumstances yeah recently graduated th grade fucking desperate always quite pessimistic friends graduating one going study abroad two people felt like could gone ever since quarantine started terribly recently watched kon anime cute anime girls playing music second season show caught completely guard heavily focused younger character azusa inevitably beeing left behind group friends one year behind them ever since forced stop caring lots lots trouble caring connecting fiction kon first time life felt true connection combined fact idea fix problem struggles focus corona virus seemingly beeing time soon friends leaving fact pessimist believe way surviving future college work work load lot heavier know biased pessimism influencing thoughts doesnt matter still feel way point life best ever doubt ever reach heights again since halfway vacations terrified starting grade barely passed th mom ways fighting nothing serious fact almost always right takes minutes us forget it every time happens feel pointless kill myself even incredibly trivial things like dishes something problem doing gets confusing quite political mom staunch environmentalists i see world burning feel pointless feel like china take everything trumps presidency feels like joke way stop us beeing taken over corporations destroy environment brazilian lived brazil whole life bolsonaros antienvironmental policies drive feeling desperation isolation want kill emotions logic feel like logically speaking persons death contributes something mean much trash produce better die combined sense utter dread feel torwards future really see reason keep going emotionally dont want to terrified dying terrified living dont know do feels like major fight broke would kill myself likely thing tensions building home please help dont really money phychiatrist hate online classes sessions one would likley help me know hiw ling sorry unsure do
Se siente suicida pessimismi yrs viejos amigos apretados grupo que consisten en amor historia anime bastante irónico sarcástico saber offputing gente no me conocen terribles signos de lectura desde nd grado utilizado acosado th grado manejado conseguir holding forcing mente cuidado gran éxito bullying dejó de sentir gran primera vez mientras que el resultado comenzó lucha mucho cuidado dejó de cuidar opiniones otros a menos que cerca de mí dejó de cuidar parece mucho cosas como pensar bastante buena historia humanidades en general disfrutar manejado pase ap instrumentos bastante bien realmente como cosas como también despreciado no resultado th grado terminó fracaso año se sentía horrible bien volvió vacaciones sistema establecido conseguir mejor enfoque más simplemente poner no estudiar casa sabía que se distrajo fácilmente en lugar de ir cerca café estudio trabajó gran problema medio completamente ignorando difícil estudio Focusing Tareas Home que el problema siempre deja posibilidades de que algo suceda podría forzar quedarse casa estudio materia peor circunstancias