tw self harm blood gaslighting but feels like option have cannot live abusive household anymore mom outrageous bpd symptoms remains undiagnosed fucking upset treats me tried talking calmly could going carnival cousin whose family despises dad convinced outside family bad going judge toxic relationship want get mad tried nicest could blame everything bad happened two younger brothers idea would happen came back womens shelter fucking mad allowed say oh remember happening your dad never hit me i remember saying this you makimg stuff againthen j start crying feels like mum beyrayed me start sobbing words shaking talking louder talking me says call cops say psycho fuckingn godsddddddd whyyy whyyeu time nicer  treats adult literally self harmed much past days one arm her fight came upstairs almost  times crying hard know iti therapjst teied calling pick up arms sting going die cannot believe mum fucking assholei want tell therapist evertthing abuse brothers get taken away scared domt want getting abused foster home want family back normali want admitted psych ward scared ill hurt worse cut deeper scared ill hit beaten dad finds cuteverytime tried telling wanted kill would tell stop talking it coward everyone household depressed special sorry making long sorta crying inbetween words here need get chest domt know get better know telling rherapist cut get cps called know telling want activsly kill also get cps called i canada domt even know fjcking cannot stand parents thw abuse neglect fucking scared going one day pretend never happened wanma show awful theyvw treated wknt care dieim going clean blood arm right still terrified crying meanwhile pretending thw whole argumwnt had mever happened making lunch evrry one me dads work idk domt want
tw self harm blood gaslighting but feels like option have cannot live abusive household anymore mom outrageous bpd symptoms remains undiagnosed fucking upset treats me tried talking calmly could going carnival cousin whose family despises dad convinced outside family bad going judge toxic relationship want get mad tried nicest could blame everything bad happened two younger brothers idea would happen came back womens shelter fucking mad allowed say oh remember happening your dad never hit mei remember saying this you makimg stuff againthen j start crying feels like mum beyrayed me start sobbing words shaking talking louder talking me says call cops say psycho fuckingn godsddddddd whyyy whyyeu time nicer treats adult literally self harmed much past days one arm her fight came upstairs almost times crying hard know iti therapjst teied calling pick up arms sting going die cannot believe mum fucking assholei want tell therapist evertthing abuse brothers get taken away scared domt want getting abused foster home want family back normali want admitted psych ward scared ill hurt worse cut deeper scared ill hit beaten dad finds cuteverytime tried telling wanted kill would tell stop talking it coward everyone household depressed special sorry making long sorta crying inbetween words here need get chestdomt know get better know telling rherapist cut get cps called know telling want activsly kill also get cps calledi canada domt even know fjcking cannot stand parents thw abuse neglect fucking scared going one day pretend never happened wanma show awful theyvw treated wknt care dieim going clean blood arm right still terrified crying meanwhile pretending thw whole argumwnt had mever happened making lunch evrry one me dadswork idk domt want
Ya no puedo vivir en casa abusivos. Los síntomas de bpd escandalosos siguen sin diagnosticar. Los malditos malos tratos me trataron de hablar tranquilamente podría ir primo de carnaval cuya familia desprecia papá convencido fuera de familia mal va juez relaciones tóxicas quiero se enojó más bien podría culpar todo lo malo pasó dos hermanos más jóvenes idea podría suceder volvió refugio mujeres puta loco permitido decir oh recuerdo sucediendo su padre nunca me golpeó recuerdo diciendo esto makimg cosas otra vez entonces j empezar llorando se siente como mamá beyrayed me comenzó a llorar palabras temblando hablando más alto me dice llamar policías dicen psycho maldito goodsdddddd por quéy por quéyeu tiempo agradable trata adulto literalmente auto lastimado mucho pasados días un brazo su lucha vino arriba casi veces llorando duro saber