know doim recovering metheverything junkie going year two weeks last night went visit sister friend place ive never really before ended rather going home right sister left flight sitting buffalo wild wings drinking turned  year never drunk bar suppose wanted feel like everybody else place felt absolutely terrible three beers decided drive home told roomates happened entire three hour drive could think disappointed myself made progress life throw away peer pressure felt like failure still right now know silly seems even think silly feel though let everyone around me want give up solid support system set trying get sober feel disappointed well feel horrible called work today let boss down lied calling place recently got promoted actually rising ranks great job im lost desperately want like people went high school college partying acting normal becoming suicidal fact drank couple beers ive thought today giving up drive home last night took everything slam gas pedal let drift something time past year actually looking forward future im back last  years feeling like shit ashamed deeply wanting anything take away worst part drugs now used use drugs take pain away worked time anymore even picked meth heroin whatever chemical gave put much could make feel better thats worst part want end im tired trying hard better go right back demoralizing tunnel leads bitter end either directly killing slowly dying addict death
know doim recovering metheverything junkie going year two weeks last night went visit sister friend place ive never really before ended rather going home right sister left flight sitting buffalo wild wings drinking turned year never drunk bar suppose wanted feel like everybody else place felt absolutely terrible three beers decided drive home told roomates happened entire three hour drive could think disappointed myself made progress life throw away peer pressure felt like failure still right now know silly seems even think silly feel though let everyone around me want give up solid support system set trying get sober feel disappointed well feel horrible called work today let boss down lied calling place recently got promoted actually rising ranks great jobim lost desperately want like people went high school college partying acting normal becoming suicidal fact drank couple beers ive thought today giving up drive home last night took everything slam gas pedal let drift something time past year actually looking forward future im back last years feeling like shit ashamed deeply wanting anything take away worst part drugs now used use drugs take pain away worked time anymore even picked meth heroin whatever chemical gave put much could make feel better thats worst part want endim tired trying hard better go right back demoralizing tunnel leads bitter end either directly killing slowly dying addict death
Sé doim recuperando methththing yonkie va año dos semanas anoche fue visita hermana amigo lugar ive nunca realmente antes terminó en lugar de ir a casa derecha hermana izquierda vuelo sentado búfalo salvaje alas beber vuelta año nunca borracho bar supongamos que quería sentir como todo el mundo lugar se sentía absolutamente terrible tres cervezas decidió conducir a casa dijo a los compañeros de viaje pasó entero viaje de tres horas podría pensar decepcionado a mí mismo hizo progreso la presión de los compañeros se sintió como fracaso todavía ahora sabe tonto parece incluso pensar tonto sentir aunque dejar que todo el mundo a mi alrededor quiere dejar de sistema de apoyo sólido establecido tratando de sentirse sobrio sentirse decepcionado bien sentirse horrible llamado trabajo hoy dejar jefe abajo mentira llamar lugar recientemente fue promovido en realidad filas ascendentes gran trabajoim perdido desesperadamente querer como la gente fue secundaria escuela fiesta actuando normal hecho suicida bebió pareja cervezas uve pensamiento hoy dio vuelta a casa anoche tomó todo slam pedal de gas dejar deriva algo pasado año realmente mirando hacia adelante futuro