looking around liking itwell feel like end rope im  life horrible one spent half life homeless bouncing around foster homes broken family brothers homes grandparents cant stand site me father walked  feel like im empty shell walking around waiting die thought keeps popping head why take easy way out attempted task before told join military medical purposes one knows fact ashamed tell broken family lack motivation anything feel like wasting space burden family cant find job college take me life really lost meaning me sit around nothing chain smoke bad cant breath wake up smoke little miracle makes feel ok cancer runs family find hoping get cancer called friends deserted me feel alone want fall asleep never wake up least dream happy another thing makes want end it fact think gay want be find women sexually attractive urges thoughts tell wise want life cant stand much longer understand punished life fate disappear become nothing know else say get chest thank you
looking around liking itwell feel like end rope im life horrible one spent half life homeless bouncing around foster homes broken family brothers homes grandparents cant stand site me father walked feel like im empty shell walking around waiting die thought keeps popping head why take easy way out attempted task before told join military medical purposes one knows fact ashamed tell broken family lack motivation anything feel like wasting space burden family cant find job college take me life really lost meaning me sit around nothing chain smoke bad cant breath wake up smoke little miracle makes feel ok cancer runs family find hoping get cancer called friends deserted me feel alone want fall asleep never wake up least dream happy another thing makes want end it fact think gay want be find women sexually attractive urges thoughts tell wise want life cant stand much longer understand punished life fate disappear become nothing know else say get chest thank you
Mirando alrededor gusto itwell se siente como final cuerda im vida horrible uno pasó la mitad vida sin hogar rebotando alrededor hogares de acogida rotos hermanos hogares abuelos pie sitio me padre caminaba sentir como im cáscara vacía caminar alrededor espera morir pensamiento sigue abriéndose cabeza ¿por qué tomar fácil manera intento tarea antes de unirse militar propósitos médicos uno sabe hecho vergüenza decirle familia roto falta motivación nada se siente como desperdiciar espacio carga familia no puede encontrar trabajo universidad me lleva a la vida realmente perdido significa me sentarse alrededor nada cadena humo mal no puede respirar despertar humo pequeño milagro hace sentir ok cáncer corre familia encuentra la esperanza conseguir cáncer llamadas amigos desiertos me siento solo quiero quedarme dormido nunca menos sueño feliz otra cosa hace fin hecho pensar gay quiere ser encontrar mujeres sexualmente atractivas impulsos pensamientos dicen sabio querer la vida no puede soportar mucho más tiempo entender castigado destino desaparecer nada más decir obtener pecho gracias