im scared die damn want diemy greatest fear death since child even really understood meant die knew scared never exist again disappear death terrifies me brain wants die wants stop everything done like life fucking videogame brain wants press pause stop time stop life stop everything thats works cant stop thinking it want die want die fucking ironic feel numb constantly theres film senses  everythings dull cold grey justbland nothing feels real feeling real time much input time feel nothing self harm like goddamn teenage girl fucking feel something thank god nobody knows or least nobody knows person knows would mortified definitely able live thats due pure humiliation knowing someone saw pathetic even know anymore ive become sort sick hypocrite friends school always talk theyre depressed sad want tell shut fuck nobody cares problems because really nobody cares anyone im bitter disgusting helps case jump fucking bridge something but cant im scared die im stuck fucking loop like goddamn joke know do so thats life hows day going
im scared die damn want diemy greatest fear death since child even really understood meant die knew scared never exist again disappear death terrifies me brain wants die wants stop everything done like life fucking videogame brain wants press pause stop time stop life stop everything thats works cant stop thinking it want die want die fucking ironic feel numb constantly theres film senses everythings dull cold grey justbland nothing feels real feeling real time much input time feel nothing self harm like goddamn teenage girl fucking feel something thank god nobody knows or least nobody knows person knows would mortified definitely able live thats due pure humiliation knowing someone saw pathetic even know anymore ive become sort sick hypocrite friends school always talk theyre depressed sad want tell shut fuck nobody cares problems because really nobody cares anyone im bitter disgusting helps case jump fucking bridge something but cant im scareddieim stuck fucking loop like goddamn joke know do so thats life hows day going
Im miedo morir maldito querer morir mi mayor miedo muerte desde niño incluso realmente entendida significa morir conocido miedo nunca existir otra muerte desaparece me aterroriza cerebro quiere morir quiere detener todo hecho como vida mierda videojuego cerebro quiere prensa pausa detener tiempo detener vida paro todo lo que trabaja no puede dejar de pensar que quiere morir querer morir mierda irónico sentir entumecimiento constantemente cine sentidos todo aburrido frío gris simplemente nada se siente real sentir mucho tiempo entrada sentir nada auto daño como maldito adolescente mierda sentir algo gracias dios nadie sabe o al menos nadie sabe mortificado definitivamente capaz de vivir que debido a la humillación pura saber que alguien vio patético incluso saber más vivir tipo enfermo hipócrita amigos escuela siempre hablar son deprimidos triste querer decirle cerrado mierda nadie se preocupa problemas porque realmente nadie se preocupa nadie im amargo repugnante ayuda caso salto puente algo pero no puede im miedodieim pegado maldito bucle como maldito chiste saber hacer así que la vida cómo va el día