reaching limit ive turned  yesterday im double college dropout redflag intentions ive normal cute kind rather shy kid friends one best friend hes alongside childhood simon lets call that probably greatest partner remember countless hours playing football picking cans bottles crap money exchange enough play metal slug near video arcades everything fine th year elementary school started selection fit boys newly made sport class managed get in grave mistake probably first chapter failure life started gradually spent less less time simon probably least athletic even weakest new environment nightmare ive bullied ridiculed psychically abused new classmates even one friend get class too change classes could stay peace bullying period effects me considering whats going happen yes probably ever since ive avoiding pe costs graduation moved city even properly bid farewell simon seen since then totally change environment turned tremendous task me get used new people ive afraid go school ive crying fear bed holidays somehow managed accommodate still remained background ive avoiding people much possible thought whole race fucking dumb shallow human body mind complicated yet repeating patterns simpleminded every girl cunt liking shitty music haircut fighting grades drinking smoking could describe boys similar way ive never good anything never shown sign talent anything interested considerable degree anything games anime two ive spent life kinda bearable though ive going school immediately spent rest time computer kind peace everything somehow stable went on worth note grades awful ive barely passing classes would try better could turn back time would same hated every possible subject english its native language simply learned playing games something started change first faced reality real problems grades possibility repeating year top noticed everyone copy paste pile meat individuals really great talents simply famous way envied guys darkest depths me yet ignored that world computer thats started maladaptive daydreaming could lie hours music imagine famous guy stage playing guitar drawing simply one talented tried turn daydreaming reality started playing guitar never could devote seriously it ended knowing chords intros coming back gaming mid school ive struggling subjects repeat year somehow succeed end games nothing else mattered graduation somehow terrifying found scared even going signing high school everyone happily going pack friends go mum go school bus first time life trembling thought it able ignore everything knowing come back home room found completely hidebound compared peers seeing peers living friday get drunk gross parties vision humans worthless shitheads extended ive started hate everyone dumb interests someone partner envy towards talented guys turned hate towards every person even good grades anything become better anything nothing liked besides playing games came moment want alone going school getting harder harder without anyone could least talk to decided get friends everything ive done towards goal total failure started accepting cigarettes people around coughing out even vomiting after days passed laughing vomiting smoke ceased accepted vodka classmate ive never tasted alcohol before underestimated amount shit possibly drink felt nothing first first step break happened immediately started swaying trying hide people around me ended drunk saying shit front class think teacher knew drunk pay attention since knew bit failure milestone started feeling strange pain chest regularly ive started taking anti depressants ssri shit ive trying quite time wake up seeing games real much time ive devoted them ive tried pick guitar more ive even tried drawing writing voice acting programming nothing really turned tides games able ease pain wanted spend every bit time room never wanted come back school started go school middle lessons last grade ended subjects  presence repeat half year geography history ive getting prescribed stronger stuff since nothing worked cheating crying mothers assistance managed pass subjects graduation choose college since good english ive chosen english philology place could study far place big city thought maybe open place become bit independent failed get in got prescribed another needless ssri velaxin  pills day sign somewhere else upon pressure family started afraid work couldnt imagine giving half day work ridiculed boss afraid failing signed class fucking class ive waiting like execution left bed last weeks holidays started thinking could talented passionate something early years even liked anything spend time it bullies would look envy like envied them would link passion job ended daydreaming whole days passionate successful living game time came go school forget world made head found listen music anymore hearing someone good something making hitting head seeing hearing lorde age star early years caused pain like burn chest thought hey end class good job maybe work game designer first day college ive holding tears whole day math physics overwhelmed me know thinking dumb understand things mention even remember anything high school chest pains getting stronger know going leave college yet bear thought going work month two passed come back college ended kind hikikomori started cutting shaved head realised much failure am day noticed people age driving licenses linking work education even getting married ive trying harm every possible way bear thought lorde ed sheeran leto anyfuckingone shit behind great lives talents passions money hitting real happy smiling look sky breath easily knowing achieved something something more saw facebook bullies rappers clubs saw classmate highschool model ad tv ive heard one cousins getting degree one got offer study abroad ve heard brother  year college working director company laughing girlfriend looked myself naked samaralike pose bald cutted thigh still obese despite eating less remember anything think head started hurt thinking whats going happen me cant like anything ended psychiatric night passed sleep hospital obscure saw people there want like them veins dots amount blood taken me like fucking clue it resigned shortly possible head doctor confront fucking cunt mention wait mum get there ouy see much fucking trash am  months passed since ive tried anything never like again ive running learning piano tried programming again read tons bodybuilding sites bought weights barbell tried drawing end place crying old times could peacefully play games crying old friends totally alone since many years everything pitiful attempt become something more selfish thinking successful people like that theyve training hard lived problems struggle everything try learn learn guitar end labor anyway programming may actually work cant understand simplest things fatiguing makes head hurt simply dumb everything hard redflags happen people never fall love anything theres nothing keep alive anyway  billion people earth counting amount people lived past big competition money lies fist truly rule world right now cant even get level peers anymore im tired like world hard equipped tools help begin with pain ass everyone around me
reaching limit ive turned yesterday im double college dropout redflag intentions ive normal cute kind rather shy kid friends one best friend hes alongside childhood simon lets call that probably greatest partner remember countless hours playing football picking cans bottles crap money exchange enough play metal slug near video arcades everything fine th year elementary school started selection fit boys newly made sport class managed get in grave mistake probably first chapter failure life started gradually spent less less time simon probably least athletic even weakest new environment nightmare ive bullied ridiculed psychically abused new classmates even one friend get class too change classes could stay peace bullying period effects me considering whats going happen yes probably ever since ive avoiding pe costs graduation moved city even properly bid farewell simon seen since then totally change environment turned tremendous task me get used new people ive afraid go school ive crying fear bed holidays somehow managed accommodate still remained background ive avoiding people much possible thought whole race fucking dumb shallow human body mind complicated yet repeating patterns simpleminded every girl cunt liking shitty music haircut fighting grades drinking smoking could describe boys similar way ive never good anything never shown sign talent anything interested considerable degree anything games anime two ive spent life kinda bearable though ive going school immediately spent rest time computer kind peace everything somehow stable went on worth note grades awful ive barely passing classes would try better could turn back time would same hated every possible subject english its native language simply learned playing games something started change first faced reality real problems grades possibility repeating year top noticed everyone copy paste pile meat individuals really great talents simply famous way envied guys darkest depths me yet ignored that world computer thats started maladaptive daydreaming could lie hours music imagine famous guy stage playing guitar drawing simply one talented tried turn daydreaming reality started playing guitar never could devote seriously it ended knowing chords intros coming back gaming mid school ive struggling subjects repeat year somehow succeed end games nothing else mattered graduation somehow terrifying found scared even going signing high school everyone happily going pack friends go mum go school bus first time life trembling thought it able ignore everything knowing come back home room found completely hidebound compared peers seeing peers living friday get drunk gross parties vision humans worthless shitheads extended ive started hate everyone dumb interests someone partner envy towards talented guys turned hate towards every person even good grades anything become better anything nothing liked besides playing games came moment want alone going school getting harder harder without anyone could least talk to decided get friends everything ive done towards goal total failure started accepting cigarettes people around coughing out even vomiting after days passed laughing vomiting smoke ceased accepted vodka classmate ive never tasted alcohol before underestimated amount shit possibly drink felt nothing first first step break happened immediately started swaying trying hide people around me ended drunk saying shit front class think teacher knew drunk pay attention since knew bit failure milestone started feeling strange pain chest regularly ive started taking anti depressants ssri shit ive trying quite time wake up seeing games real much time ive devoted them ive tried pick guitar more ive even tried drawing writing voice acting programming nothing really turned tides games able ease pain wanted spend every bit time room never wanted come back school started go school middle lessons last grade ended subjects presence repeat half year geography history ive getting prescribed stronger stuff since nothing worked cheating crying mothers assistance managed pass subjects graduation choose college since good english ive chosen english philology place could study far place big city thought maybe open place become bit independent failed get in got prescribed another needless ssri velaxin pills day sign somewhere else upon pressure family started afraid work couldnt imagine giving half day work ridiculed boss afraid failing signed class fucking class ive waiting like execution left bed last weeks holidays started thinking could talented passionate something early years even liked anything spend time it bullies would look envy like envied them would link passion job ended daydreaming whole days passionate successful living game time came go school forget world made head found listen music anymore hearing someone good something making hitting head seeing hearing lorde age star early years caused pain like burn chest thought hey end class good job maybe work game designer first day college ive holding tears whole day math physics overwhelmed me know thinking dumb understand things mention even remember anything high school chest pains getting stronger know going leave college yet bear thought going work month two passed come back college ended kind hikikomori started cutting shaved head realised much failure am day noticed people age driving licenses linking work education even getting married ive trying harm every possible way bear thought lorde ed sheeran leto anyfuckingone shit behind great lives talents passions money hitting real happy smiling look sky breath easily knowing achieved something something more saw facebook bullies rappers clubs saw classmate highschool model ad tv ive heard one cousins getting degree one got offer study abroad ve heard brother year college working director company laughing girlfriend looked myself naked samaralike pose bald cutted thigh still obese despite eating less remember anything think head started hurt thinking whats going happen me cant like anything ended psychiatric night passed sleep hospital obscure saw people there want like them veins dots amount blood taken me like fucking clue it resigned shortly possible head doctor confront fucking cunt mention wait mum get there ouy see much fucking trash am months passed since ive tried anything never like again ive running learning piano tried programming again read tons bodybuilding sites bought weights barbell tried drawing end place crying old times could peacefully play games crying old friends totally alone since many years everything pitiful attempt become something more selfish thinking successful people like that theyve training hard lived problems struggle everything try learn learn guitar end labor anyway programming may actually work cant understand simplest things fatiguing makes head hurt simply dumb everything hard redflags happen people never fall love anything theres nothing keep alive anyway billion people earth counting amount people lived past big competition money lies fist truly rule world right now cant even get level peers anymore im tired like world hard equipped tools help begin with pain ass everyone around me
Alcanzar el límite ive vuelta ayer im doble universidad abandono intenciones bandera roja ive normal lindo tipo bastante tímido amigos niños un mejor amigo hes junto infancia simon le permite llamar que probablemente mejor socio recordar incontables horas jugando fútbol picking latas botellas basura intercambio de dinero suficiente play metal slug cerca de video arcadas todo fine th año escuela primaria comenzó selección ajuste chicos recién hecho clase de deporte manejado conseguir en grave error probablemente primer capítulo fracaso vida comenzó poco a poco menos tiempo Simon probablemente menos atlético incluso más débil nuevo entorno pesadilla live bullyed ridiculizado nuevo compañeros de clase abusado psíquicamente incluso un amigo conseguir clase también cambio clases podría permanecer paz bullying efectos período considerar lo que va a pasar