ever since little kid grew thinking inferior culture raised colorist restrictive fact skin tone darker side made subject kinds insecurity indirectly programmed believe enough unattractive family emigrated grew country minority made even worse already expected people treat like shit would speak people almost certain would want nothing me look mirror somebody takes picture me entire moodday ruined feel sick disgusted core society incredibly hard wired evaluate worth person way look guess makes nobody boundless unconditional self hatred could hate entity universe despise myself self hatred continues perpetuate itself everywhere go see beautiful perfect faces every time check phone every time turn tv every time go walk outside feel disgusting hideous compared everybody else unable see way feel undeserving love affection friendship deserve nothing see pretty girl think pretty is disgusted would know guy like found attractive isolate friends family sometimes ask friends even want speak me want attractive want feel confident want loved want family raise children successful want somebody else somebody me want happy never be self esteem destroying life rant
ever since little kid grew thinking inferior culture raised colorist restrictive fact skin tone darker side made subject kinds insecurity indirectly programmed believe enough unattractive family emigrated grew country minority made even worse already expected people treat like shit would speak people almost certain would want nothing me look mirror somebody takes picture me entire moodday ruined feel sick disgusted core society incredibly hard wired evaluate worth person way look guess makes nobody boundless unconditional self hatred could hate entity universe despise myself self hatred continues perpetuate itself everywhere go see beautiful perfect faces every time check phone every time turn tv every time go walk outside feel disgusting hideous compared everybody else unable see way feel undeserving love affection friendship deserve nothing see pretty girl think pretty is disgusted would know guy like found attractive isolate friends family sometimes ask friends even want speak me want attractive want feel confident want loved want family raise children successful want somebody else somebody me want happy never be self esteem destroying life rant
desde que el niño creció pensando cultura inferior criado colorista hecho restrictivo tono de la piel lado oscuro hecho sujetos clases inseguridad indirectamente programada creer suficiente familia poco atractiva emigrado país minoría hecho peor ya esperada gente tratar como mierda hablaría gente casi seguro que no quiere nada me mira espejo alguien me toma imagen entero estado de ánimo arruinado sentirse enfermo núcleo sociedad asqueado increíblemente duro evaluar vale la persona manera mirar conjetura hace nadie ilimitado incondicional odio propio podría odiar entidad universo me desprecia a mí mismo auto odio sigue perpetuándose en todas partes ir ver hermosas caras perfectas cada vez ver teléfono cada vez volver TV cada vez caminar fuera de la casa se siente repugnante horrible comparado con todos los demás incapaz de ver manera sentirse inmerecido amor afecto amistad merece nada ver chica bonita pensar bastante es disgustado conocer chico como encontrado atractivo aislamiento amigos familia a veces preguntar amigos incluso quieren hablar quiero atractivo sentirse seguro querer amado familia criar hijos éxito quiere alguien más alguien me quiero feliz nunca ser autoestima destruir vida rant