im tired  year old girl senior high school sick all think analyze everythingits two parts one always telling good enough thin pretty smart enoughand part telling okay unrealistic expect many things myself really cant take anymore used eating disorder not specifically diagnosed parents never sent doctor would cost money failed too difficult starve extent still keep grades up hardly ever speak parents because well cant even begin explain mindfuckery behind all ill honest admit make easy mother not applicable dad give fuck me quite nasty know things im fairly certain times parents want rid me mother ever talks email nowand forcing get birth control pills believes pmddits embarrassing insulting me wrong cant depressed getting birth control make problems disappear ill still hate school believe im good enough ill still think im ugly wish could skeletonill still cut myself problems mother go away magic pill quick fix welli mean one leaves alive desperately want someone important life push away guy comes near me cant let find messed ami know ill screw somehow also feel repulsive allow anyone close way disgusts guys find sexually attractiveso much feel sick stomach strange also little respect body even know cant accept affection though want it future want live rest life like this also interest college get scholarship notifications applied prestigious school sent special application mother believe get large enough scholarship able afford going discouraged pursuing art the thing im remotely interested in really wants go community college nearly perfect gpa high act score better go community college ill definitely kill myself cant believe im still alive begin with lethal dosage pills ready summer supposed do
im tired year old girl senior high school sick all think analyze everythingits two parts one always telling good enough thin pretty smart enoughand part telling okay unrealistic expect many things myself really cant take anymore used eating disorder not specifically diagnosed parents never sent doctor would cost money failed too difficult starve extent still keep grades up hardly ever speak parents because well cant even begin explain mindfuckery behind all ill honest admit make easy mother not applicable dad give fuck me quite nasty know things im fairly certain times parents want rid me mother ever talks email nowand forcing get birth control pills believes pmddits embarrassing insulting me wrong cant depressed getting birth control make problems disappear ill still hate school believe im good enough ill still think im ugly wish could skeletonill still cut myself problems mother go away magic pill quick fix welli mean one leaves alive desperately want someone important life push away guy comes near me cant let find messed ami know ill screw somehow also feel repulsive allow anyone close way disgusts guys find sexually attractiveso much feel sick stomach strange also little respect body even know cant accept affection though want it future want live rest life like this also interest college get scholarship notifications applied prestigious school sent special application mother believe get large enough scholarship able afford going discouraged pursuing art the thingim remotely interested in really wants go community college nearly perfect gpa high act score better go community college ill definitely kill myself cant believe im still alive begin with lethal dosage pills ready summer supposed do
La chica cansada del año senior school enfermo todos piensan analizar todo sus dos partes uno siempre diciendo lo suficientemente bueno delgado bastante inteligente y parte diciendo bien poco realista esperar muchas cosas yo realmente no puedo tomar más usado trastorno alimenticio no específicamente diagnosticado padres nunca enviado médico costaría dinero falló demasiado difícil grado de hambre todavía mantener grados hasta casi nunca hablar padres porque bien no puede incluso empezar a explicar mierda mental detrás de todo mal honesto admitir hacer fácil madre no aplicable papá me dan bastante desagradable saber cosas im bastante ciertas veces los padres quieren deshacerse de mí madre siempre habla correo electrónico ahora y obligar a conseguir píldoras anticonceptivas cree pmddits vergonzoso insultarme mal cant deprimido conseguir anticonceptivos hacer desaparecer problemas mal todavía odio escuela creo im bastante bueno todavía pensar im feo deseo podría esqueletoill todavía cortarme a mí mismo problemas madre ir magia píldora rápida arreglar welli significa que uno se va vivo desesperadamente quiere que alguien importante vida empuja lejos chico se acerca a mí no puede dejar encontrar mal ami sabe tornillo enfermo de alguna manera también se sienten repulsivos permitir a alguien cerca manera