need talkhello ampxb need talk english mother tong ill try say things me need write somewhere alone anyone tell even someone talk would think pieces years since life look like real life struggle keeping job struggle girls lost friends tried help breackdown happened kept stupid shit nonsensical stuff ampxb im  almost perfect life  mean everything money friends time girl normal mental health felt sometimes bit unconfortable like alone even surrounded friends family happened dad felt sick mental illness nothing do becam stupid lets say debilitated doctors said  years live ok hard year grandpa died loved him year break long relationship girl hard too became get down last year master th year mom left dad sister couldnt handle converted islam problems years couldnt find place life struggled school religion helped immensely way radical wanted full islamic like kind religious veil that way talk like normal person since education converted sect religion whatever lost her ampxb much me couldnt pass exams second semester attend shit began best friends pass graduated moved city went life got job all stayed there brother handle shit happened year either september school begins again came back parents house saw bed like noon said wtf doing school said bullshit like heyy days ok elder man move fucking ass  years younger me said ok go school stops so said bit fucked anyway noone gives fuck dad sick mom gave up since always successful one kinda protective strict brother sister good said ok bro find school city study in gonna live me so find appartment  people call schools withing week school again could start schoolyear again ampxb thats everything hit face started school motivation since exams pass last year friends anymore say social like almost loneliness anxiety could stay alone hours day needed see people hang go out drink dance chat fun less like that me feeling like wanted alone like problems worth hanging people anymore know enough problems need chill good sign begining year  months beautiful girl life still now still wtf much wow everyone doctor blond best body best smile kind sweet bitch all like best girlfriend idea got her chance really liked me fucked up said started take cocaine end last year couldnt pass exams every friend mine tried last try give fuck really said fuck it ok let put nose it like nothing couldnt feel something special friend laughing like said yeah nothing special immediate effect talkative relaxed confident even know it good night like it continued come back girl time summer take lot cocaine kill totaly anxiety made relax feeling good myself best feeling best medicine girl one day got really drunk coke day coke began disapear super drunk started lose memories met people chat got drinks them knew before good mood coke descent super drunk said yes girlfriend said wtf way way perfect look messages yes is cant feel love sweet cant feel anything talk drunk one point say ok guys call tell over wtf guys know laugh lot really jealous huge douchebags call her say something like yeah yeah ok wants story over ok stupid excuse could tell next day couldnt save me over thats it could see times next days talk strict over deserve attention love anymore ampxb ok point pieces girlfriend lot crap save money lot drugs motivation year seemed easy pass exams seemed like waste time plus shit endure last year point remember living brother since took put school again ampxb one two months that time nothing i nothing second semester drugs playing video games seeing friends less less told first time life needed see noone totally alone home know why know later couple months met party cool girl small dark hair super cute face younger me like  something  make night nothing else one friend girlfriend friend mine told hey man really invite drink meal best girl ever sure likes you ok shambles kind of said hm ok not later one month went way decided invite her good started date long story short important stayed together two years incredible courage suffer shit threw her ampxb last thing want share you girl feel anything fall love problem previous knew liked much felt good company thats all know mental problems time year continued girl cool going deeper deeper drugs alcohol cocaine nothing constructive reallt strange begining state now begining end end shit suffer  years ampxb drive head ahead drugs felt place totally handle seeing good friends cool life cool job project there dead inside waiting healing drugs know sick girl helped understand needed see doctor went ok big breackdown need stop alcholol drugs take medicines get better ok ampxb no could not took medicines drink lot it getting crazy fastforward now ampxb ampxb say could make go better girl pass exams tried  years row attend exams down druged drunk there  still master degree like  exams pass bachelor  years studies nothing actually  years first  years  next years tried kills think it ampxb killed break girl killed me physical pain mental disease harder stronger painful toothpain wanted die hitting every wall could screaming crying dying ampxb ampxb anyway loose mind cannot concentrate much whatever ampxb totally dead inside family left brother grandma talk grandparents mother cousins family members  years single friend left everyone tried save me failed make progress came back  times worse everyone let me ampxb totally alone cant keep job tried  different medications  months hospital read philosophy psychology theology whatever help feel complete ampxb cocaine th month almost money left last week ended hospital overdose  grams day everyday  days tought heart would explode cant stop cocaine totally addicted even medication anymore pure drug try feel something get high much used it need huge quantities bullshit ampxb cant handle anymore  weeks ago second time swallow medicines  boxes somehow woke next morning pissed reliefed time ampxb today write email rehabpsychiatric center cant manage life alone anymore ampxb needed talk ampxb thank reading wish best
need talkhello ampxb need talk english mother tong ill try say things me need write somewhere alone anyone tell even someone talk would think pieces years since life look like real life struggle keeping job struggle girls lost friends tried help breackdown happened kept stupid shit nonsensical stuff ampxbim almost perfect life mean everything money friends time girl normal mental health felt sometimes bit unconfortable like alone even surrounded friends family happened dad felt sick mental illness nothing do becam stupid lets say debilitated doctors said years live ok hard year grandpa died loved him year break long relationship girl hard too became get down last year master th year mom left dad sister couldnt handle converted islam problems years couldnt find place life struggled school religion helped immensely way radical wanted full islamic like kind religious veil that way talk like normal person since education converted sect religion whatever lost her ampxb much me couldnt pass exams second semester attend shit began best friends pass graduated moved city went life got job all stayed there brother handle shit happened year either september school begins again came back parents house saw bed like noon said wtf doing school said bullshit like heyy days ok elder man move fucking ass years younger me said ok go school stops so said bit fucked anyway noone gives fuck dad sick mom gave up since always successful one kinda protective strict brother sister good said ok bro find school city study in gonna live me so find appartment people call schools withing week school again could start schoolyear again ampxb thats everything hit face started school motivation since exams pass last year friends anymore say social like almost loneliness anxiety could stay alone hours day needed see people hang go out drink dance chat fun less like that me feeling like wanted alone like problems worth hanging people anymore know enough problems need chill good sign begining year months beautiful girl life still now still wtf muchwow everyone doctor blond best body best smile kind sweet bitch all like best girlfriend idea got her chance really liked me fucked up said started take cocaine end last year couldnt pass exams every friend mine tried last try give fuck really said fuck itok let put nose it like nothing couldnt feel something special friend laughing like saidyeahnothing special immediate effect talkative relaxed confident even know it good night like it continued come back girl time summer take lot cocaine kill totaly anxiety made relax feeling good myself best feeling best medicine girl one day got really drunk coke day coke began disapear super drunk started lose memories met people chat got drinks them knew before good mood coke descent super drunk said yes girlfriend said wtf way way perfect look messages yes is cant feel love sweet cant feel anything talk drunk one point say ok guys call tell over wtf guys know laugh lot really jealous huge douchebags call her say something likeyeahyeahok wants story over ok stupid excuse could tell next day couldnt save me over thats it could see times next days talk strict over deserve attention love anymore ampxb ok point pieces girlfriend lot crap save money lot drugs motivation year seemed easy pass exams seemed like waste time plus shit endure last year point remember living brother since took put school again ampxb one two months that time nothingi nothing second semester drugs playing video games seeing friends less less told first time life needed see noone totally alone home know why know later couple months met party cool girl small dark hair super cute face younger me like something make night nothing else one friend girlfriend friend mine told hey man really invite drink meal best girl ever sure likes you ok shambles kind of said hm ok not later one month went way decided invite her good started date long story short important stayed together two years incredible courage suffer shit threw her ampxb last thing want share you girl feel anything fall love problem previous knew liked much felt good company thats all know mental problems time year continued girl cool going deeper deeper drugs alcohol cocaine nothing constructive reallt strange begining state now begining end end shit suffer years ampxb drive head ahead drugs felt place totally handle seeing good friends cool life cool job project there dead inside waiting healing drugs know sick girl helped understand needed see doctor went ok big breackdown need stop alcholol drugs take medicines get better ok ampxb no could not took medicines drink lot it getting crazy fastforward now ampxb ampxb say could make go better girl pass exams tried years row attend exams down druged drunk there still master degree like exams pass bachelor years studies nothing actually years first years next years tried kills think it ampxb killed break girl killed me physical pain mental disease harder stronger painful toothpain wanted die hitting every wall could screaming crying dying ampxb ampxb anyway loose mind cannot concentrate much whatever ampxb totally dead inside family left brother grandma talk grandparents mother cousins family members years single friend left everyone tried save me failed make progress came back times worse everyone let me ampxb totally alone cant keep job tried different medications months hospital read philosophy psychology theology whatever help feel complete ampxb cocaine th month almost money left last week ended hospital overdose grams day everyday days tought heart would explode cant stop cocaine totally addicted even medication anymore pure drug try feel something get high much used it need huge quantities bullshit ampxb cant handle anymore weeks ago second time swallow medicines boxes somehow woke next morning pissed reliefed time ampxb today write email rehabpsychiatric center cant manage life alone anymore ampxb needed talk ampxb thank reading wish best
Necesito hablarhello ampxb necesito hablar inglés madre Tong mal tratar de decir cosas que necesito escribir en algún lugar solo alguien decir incluso alguien hablar pensaría piezas años ya que la vida parece vida real lucha mantener trabajo lucha niñas perdidos amigos intentaron ayuda breackdown sucedió mantenido estúpida mierda cosas sin sentido ampxbim vida casi perfecta significa todo dinero amigos tiempo chica normal salud mental se sentía a veces poco cómodo como solo