cant deal life anymorewarning past redflag attempt mention generally fucking annoying combination school living house living ptsd add making want kill myself ive wanted kill since  earliest remember clearly imagining to ive already failed redflag twice since family hides resources now theres real me im still looking it permit license yet since failed learners test first time ive constant panic state since pm yesterday almost am studying least time cant focus class fucked ptsd brain yet realistically know much better real world job fine first semester im taking two classes one person online one inpperson class keeps sending anxiety attacks late drop theres  weeks cant bring go classes necessary ive already pushed missing class much im cheating assignments get by feel pathetic also family money doubt ill able afford books even attend next semester get job know ill get job skills positive traits nothing im nothing feel pathetic went hospital help would end costing family wasted money time wish right choose die want die cant cope life tried failed again nothing going get better im almost  literally part enjoyable besides things bring life like sleep reading time felt true lightheaded relief moments second nearly successful attempt remembered absolutely nothing unsettling things happened hours after want feel like know ill never feel way without taking action come across level happinessrelief reality even way fucking care find unless end story want go happiness going back regular depression pain everything life since miserable comparison wish right choose die were going keep fucking painful horrific ways alone suicidal people get support illusion support years decades making endure therapy medications work
cant deal life anymorewarning past redflag attempt mention generally fucking annoying combination school living house living ptsd add making want kill myself ive wanted kill since earliest remember clearly imagining to ive already failed redflag twice since family hides resources now theres real meim still looking it permit license yet since failed learners test first time ive constant panic state since pm yesterday almost am studying least time cant focus class fucked ptsd brain yet realistically know much better real world job fine first semester im taking two classes one person online one inpperson class keeps sending anxiety attacks late drop theres weeks cant bring go classes necessary ive already pushed missing class much im cheating assignments get by feel pathetic also family money doubt ill able afford books even attend next semester get job know ill get job skills positive traits nothing im nothing feel pathetic went hospital help would end costing family wasted money time wish right choose die want die cant cope life tried failed again nothing going get better im almost literally part enjoyable besides things bring life like sleep reading time felt true lightheaded relief moments second nearly successful attempt remembered absolutely nothing unsettling things happened hours after want feel like know ill never feel way without taking action come across level happinessrelief reality even way fucking care find unless end story want go happiness going back regular depression pain everything life since miserable comparison wish right choose die were going keep fucking painful horrific ways alone suicidal people get support illusion support years decades making endure therapy medications work
No se puede tratar la vida más aviso pasado Redflag intento mención generalmente molesto combinación escuela vida casa ptsd añadir haciendo querer matar a mí mismo ive querido matar ya más temprano recordar claramente imaginar a ive ya fallida Redflag dos veces desde familia esconde recursos ahora hay real meim todavía buscando permiso licencia sin embargo desde fracaso estudiantes prueba por primera vez ive constante pánico estado desde pm ayer casi estoy estudiando menos tiempo cant focus class focked ptsd cerebro pero realísticamente saber mucho mejor mundo real trabajo fino primer semestre im tomar dos clases una persona en línea una clase persona sigue enviando ataques de ansiedad tarde caída allá semanas no se puede traer clases necesarios ive ya empujado falta clase im tareas trampa conseguir por se siente patético también dinero familiar duda mal capaz pagar libros incluso asistir el próximo semestre saber trabajo mal conseguir habilidades laborales rasgos positivos nada im nada se siente patético fue hospital ayuda terminar costar familia dinero tiempo desear derecho morir quiero morir no hacer frente a la vida intentó otra vez nada va a mejorar