feel shame thinking suicidaltheres escape endless loop wanna feel like special sad snowflake yet mind craves kind validation see glimpse future get overwhelmed guilt doubt never suicidal begin with ive done attention theres escape loop happiness hope seem bittersweet yet reason prefer something bitter pity need feel control im actually one controlled choosing suicidal make different interesting compared people choosing death secure ending mean im control means im weak let go little pride take feeling miserable others theres escape loop keep spinning spinning im getting dizzy soon ill drop dead ill finally stop going circles behind ill leave trail blood pain others carry shoulders since mine weak wrinkly slightly ripped bag full sharp rocks ripped enough let fall off bag ill put backs around me pretend exist day breaks spine makes unable anything else stay still drown thoughts behind ill leave sphere angst perhaps decided leave life me since tad bit powerful disappear perhaps stay behind help karma perhaps itll hurt ones hurt caused trauma thats pretty monochromatic shiny yet boring fantasies shiny perspective bland peoples tastes course thats completely understandable healthy would strive greater shiny things since im ill settle pretty burgundy tiny diamond put display end tunnel end
feel shame thinking suicidaltheres escape endless loop wanna feel like special sad snowflake yet mind craves kind validation see glimpse future get overwhelmed guilt doubt never suicidal begin with ive done attention theres escape loop happiness hope seem bittersweet yet reason prefer something bitter pity need feel control im actually one controlled choosing suicidal make different interesting compared people choosing death secure ending mean im control means im weak let go little pride take feeling miserable others theres escape loop keep spinning spinning im getting dizzy soon ill drop dead ill finally stop going circles behind ill leave trail blood pain others carry shoulders since mine weak wrinkly slightly ripped bag full sharp rocks ripped enough let fall off bag ill put backs around me pretend exist day breaks spine makes unable anything else stay still drown thoughts behind ill leave sphere angst perhaps decided leave life me since tad bit powerful disappear perhaps stay behind help karma perhaps itll hurt ones hurt caused trauma thats pretty monochromatic shiny yet boring fantasies shiny perspective bland peoples tastes course thats completely understandable healthy would strive greater shiny things since im ill settle pretty burgundy tiny diamond put display end tunnel end
Sentir vergüenza pensar suicidaTheres escapar bucle sin fin querer sentirse como especial triste copo de nieve pero la mente anhela amable validación ver vislumbre futuro conseguir abrumada culpa duda nunca suicida comenzar con ive hecho atención Theres escapar bucle felicidad esperanza parecer agridulce pero la razón prefiere algo amarga lástima necesidad sentir control