dont want support want someone listen acknowledge sayim bad person narcissistic also time selfdeprecating piece shit im fat unhygienic unmanly horrible personality people like call friend dont know standards super low what wish heart tell much appreciate fact like me wish would ignore go better friends time feels like knife going chest see talk people im selfish need approval even wont much get jealous see men around me theyre confident responsible beaten lot uncles kid tell one feels remorse actions since hes nice years trying buy expensive things whatever abuse ripped apart every inch manhood had wasnt strong wasnt dignified wasnt brave ive bonded sisters men ive met life understood abuse gone well however could bit stoic times abuse ive grown trust many people extremely anxious shy  hear family members schoolmates etc talk lack ambition im reserved feminine im good kids sorry cant speak room full people sorry face flushes red name called sorry feel comfortable alone days visiting family fault sitting back supporting abuse younger every time took one step far id threatened thought good way control me father died  vulnerable beating threatening violence two things definitely doing punches thrown tears ive shedded lashes belts benefit even then father probably wouldnt treated nicer still alive point im runt family now im stupid weak shy manly enough cant like fucking doctor aunts lawyer uncles id kill didnt two sisters friends care im happy sisters success still hurts good job graduating suma cum laude  gpa degrees mathematics electrical engineering cried tears joy happy night could make proud did
dont want support want someone listen acknowledge sayim bad person narcissistic also time selfdeprecating piece shit im fat unhygienic unmanly horrible personality people like call friend dont know standards super low what wish heart tell much appreciate fact like me wish would ignore go better friends time feels like knife going chest see talk people im selfish need approval even wont much get jealous see men around me theyre confident responsible beaten lot uncles kid tell one feels remorse actions since hes nice years trying buy expensive things whatever abuse ripped apart every inch manhood had wasnt strong wasnt dignified wasnt brave ive bonded sisters men ive met life understood abuse gone well however could bit stoic times abuse ive grown trust many people extremely anxious shy hear family members schoolmates etc talk lack ambition im reserved feminine im good kids sorry cant speak room full people sorry face flushes red name called sorry feel comfortable alone days visiting family fault sitting back supporting abuse younger every time took one step far id threatened thought good way control me father died vulnerable beating threatening violence two things definitely doing punches thrown tears ive shedded lashes belts benefit even then father probably wouldnt treated nicer still alive point im runt family now im stupid weak shy manly enough cant like fucking doctor aunts lawyer uncles id kill didnt two sisters friends careim happy sisters success still hurts good job graduating suma cum laude gpa degrees mathematics electrical engineering cried tears joy happy night could make prouddid
No quiero apoyo quiero que alguien escuche reconocer sayim mala persona narcisista también tiempo pedazo de mierda autodepredante im gordo unhygienic unmanly horrible personalidad gente como llamar amigo no saben estándares super bajo lo que deseo corazón decir hecho mucho aprecio como yo deseo ignorar mejor amigos tiempo se siente como cuchillo ir pecho ver gente im egoísta necesidad aprobación incluso no se ponen celosos ver hombres a mi alrededor son seguros responsables lot lot tíos niño decirle a uno siente acciones remordimiento ya que él es agradable años tratando de comprar cosas caras cualquier abuso desgarrado cada pulgada de la virilidad no era fuerte no era digno valiente heve sided monthers men ive met life comprendido abuso bien sin embargo podría pedacitos tiempos estoicos abuso ive crew confianza muchas personas extremadamente ansiosas tímido escuchar familiares compañeros de escuela etc hablar falta de ambición im reservado femenino