im tiredi battling anxiety and according one former therapists ptsd life abused  physically emotionally  folks summer finally decided cut life father denied physically abusing told made up told threatened kill young girl became hysterical told head okay believe  guess parents think overly active imagination outted closet many years ago living indiana pennsylvania without letting know drove home mine burst apartment screaming crying took room entire day continued scream me asking god life lost professor pancreatic cancer several years ago like real father figure life passed away ive traveling undertaking job job bad experience overworking overseas minority lost job due racist situation okay believe  many people life who present time see situation eyes also told making up worth new professor time believed told saw many similar things happen also worked overseas occupation sexually assaulted another job okay believe  handful people mostly women oddly enough either insinuated fault knowing guy sleazy totally invalidate experience altogether ton people saying guy reported good guy happens going hard time currently working toxic environment consistently intimidated tenure evaluation advocates higher places empathize situation nobody seems power really anything  maybe really want help one guy particular intimidating ever since started job last year nobody seems want see outbursts point someone angry instead praise guy earned top position young age okay believe me among coworkers one seemed like wanted get closer me hoping could help look another job worked many different places landing current position honest also looking another job right now feeling stressed field extremely competitive feel using me encourage her receive none return brought issue racism working overseas completely invalidated experience insinuated making up brought issue assault workplace the assaulter mutual colleague ours also invalidated said known better expect someone strongly believes meritocracy brought bubble entire life went undergrad together guess lonely overlooked fact sheltered person fault still hurts even time energy spend helping her contemptuous attitude around work  several days later comes help again going job interview several days yesterday wished good luck encouraged her received words return even though job interview coming up done care political affiliations  trying make political statement watching dr ford kavanaugh hearings brought many feelings memories assault one colleagues work told rape catalyst selfgrowth think meant purely bad way choice words sent negative spiral president company talked length men industry ousted positions proof not allegations sexual assault said terrible pr terrible men involved made feel bad working current company knowing well might cover situations save pr blocked father phone leaves messages time get anxiety seeing messages tried therapist several work people recommended he sees people workplace free laughed several times told family  especially story outting me told call father seem care told scared felt left session feeling extremely devastated partner says feels frustrated relationship says want burden problems life therefore holds in feels upset talk problems lot feel like blamed this despite telling many times share experiences getting point feel inner rage words i want burden you also lives way australia live canada massive time difference distance help anything feel like wants take break would never express me spent eight years previous relationship feel happy happening again much stress upcoming job interview one sincere little you going great would meant world me partner says feels like know encourage me parents never encouraged her wish coworker encouraged much could say words me too wish parents could said words me instead always saying god going take care me chest pains past week heaviness makes pulse rush also makes hard breathe crying every day thinking redflag lot used think would never thing would never want put partner pain im sure would really care thing keeping alive younger brother talked long time know parents would give hell anything myself little things too might sound silly might agree many points thats fine feel heaviness unfairness world us step climb top power corrodes empathy migrant workers pick produce low pay abused employers sweat shops make clothes animals suffer food took land indigenous peoples dishonored every treaty made them systemic violence still happens marginalized people homelessness still problem modern society on sometimes get tired human get tired seeing mistakes cycle out even get tired activism sometimes  even activism feel tone deaf me sometimes need time process feeling sadness powerlessness activism constantly screams pick use energy keep fighting makes feel even tired cant share feelings partner  says makes feel bad going see new therapist next week ill read everything ive written her sometimes things feel excruciatingly painful wonder last long im wondering whats point would make difference never existed sleep night theres much suffering world lisa simpson ampxb
im tiredi battling anxiety and according one former therapists ptsd life abused physically emotionally folks summer finally decided cut life father denied physically abusing told made up told threatened kill young girl became hysterical told head okay believe guess parents think overly active imagination outted closet many years ago living indiana pennsylvania without letting know drove home mine burst apartment screaming crying took room entire day continued scream me asking god life lost professor pancreatic cancer several years ago like real father figure life passed away ive traveling undertaking job job bad experience overworking overseas minority lost job due racist situation okay believe many people life who present time see situation eyes also told making up worth new professor time believed told saw many similar things happen also worked overseas occupation sexually assaulted another job okay believe handful people mostly women oddly enough either insinuated fault knowing guy sleazy totally invalidate experience altogether ton people saying guy reported good guy happens going hard time currently working toxic environment consistently intimidated tenure evaluation advocates higher places empathize situation nobody seems power really anything maybe really want help one guy particular intimidating ever since started job last year nobody seems want see outbursts point someone angry instead praise guy earned top position young ageokay believe me among coworkers one seemed like wanted get closerme hoping could help look another job worked many different places landing current position honest also looking another job right now feeling stressed field extremely competitive feel using me encourage her receive none return brought issue racism working overseas completely invalidated experience insinuated making up brought issue assault workplace the assaulter mutual colleague ours also invalidated said known better expect someone strongly believes meritocracy brought bubble entire life went undergrad together guess lonely overlooked fact sheltered person fault still hurts even time energy spend helping her contemptuous attitude around work several days later comes help again going job interview several days yesterday wished good luck encouraged her received words return even though job interview coming up done care political affiliations trying make political statement watching dr ford kavanaugh hearings brought many feelings memories assault one colleagues work told rape catalyst selfgrowth think meant purely bad way choice words sent negative spiral president company talked length men industry ousted positions proof not allegations sexual assault said terrible pr terrible men involved made feel bad working current company knowing well might cover situations save pr blocked father phone leaves messages time get anxiety seeing messages tried therapist several work people recommended he sees people workplace free laughed several times told family especially story outting me told call father seem care told scared felt left session feeling extremely devastated partner says feels frustrated relationship says want burden problems life therefore holds in feels upset talk problems lot feel like blamed this despite telling many times share experiences getting point feel inner rage words i want burden you also lives way australia live canada massive time difference distance help anything feel like wants take break would never express me spent eight years previous relationship feel happy happening again much stress upcoming job interview one sincere little you going great would meant world me partner says feels like know encourage me parents never encouraged her wish coworker encouraged much could say words me too wish parents could said words me instead always saying god going take care me chest pains past week heaviness makes pulse rush also makes hard breathe crying every day thinking redflag lot used think would never thing would never want put partner pain im sure would really care thing keeping alive younger brother talked long time know parents would give hell anything myself little things too might sound silly might agree many points thats fine feel heaviness unfairness world us step climb top power corrodes empathy migrant workers pick produce low pay abused employers sweat shops make clothes animals suffer food took land indigenous peoples dishonored every treaty made them systemic violence still happens marginalized people homelessness still problem modern society on sometimes get tired human get tired seeing mistakes cycle out even get tired activism sometimes even activism feel tone deaf me sometimes need time process feeling sadness powerlessness activism constantly screams pick use energy keep fighting makes feel even tired cant share feelings partner says makes feel bad going see new therapist next week ill read everything ive written her sometimes things feel excruciatingly painful wonder last long im wondering whats point would make difference never existed sleep night theres much suffering world lisa simpson ampxb
Im tinthi lucha contra la ansiedad y según un ex terapeutas ptsd vida abusado físicamente emocionalmente gente verano finalmente decidió cortar la vida padre negado abuso físicamente contada contada contada contada matar chica joven se volvió histérica contada cabeza bien creo que los padres piensan imaginación demasiado activa outted closet hace muchos años vivir indiana pennsilvania sin dejar saber condujo a casa mi apartamento explosión gritos llanto tomó habitación todo el día me gritó pidiendo vida de dios profesor perdido cáncer pancreático hace varios años como verdadero padre figura vida pasó en vivo viaje empresa trabajo mala experiencia trabajo sobre trabajo minoría extranjera perdido debido a situación racista bien creo mucha gente vida que en la actualidad ver situación ojos también dijo hacer valer nuevo profesor cree que dijo ver muchas cosas similares también trabajo ocupación en el extranjero sexualmente agresión a otro trabajo