feel like ever able escape thishi im mess ive always mess really became mess long time ago mother literally abandoned us came back reason bit left forever absolutely contact mother like people mother recently partner im suspecting narcissist discarded horrible state depression little month ago still feel horrible cant bring go nc even worse struggle ocd ocd narcissistic abuse mix well obsess narcissist myself caused this horrible person obsess people love hating me think much anybody ever loved loves now friends one talk deals issues want add theirs friends busy stuff theyve helped lot feel good enough anybody guess also mention father think going downward spiral ever since mother left ive forced endure feel much family really evil narcissist it feel hindered much feel trapped here time ive brought mental health downplayed father also busy working feel connected father really know anything me anytime ive tried open up seems dismiss me want escape cant know im going fail senior year im  never job car much way social skills either feel like creep people out ill forced stay home never able succeed life escape go college pursue want do even think id good enough it feel like piece shit horrible person someone here feel like everybody agree me probably sound like egotistical bag shit cant even fully convey feel here cant even kill means to far know maybe im overreacting im sorry everyone everything
feel like ever able escape thishi im mess ive always mess really became mess long time ago mother literally abandoned us came back reason bit left forever absolutely contact mother like people mother recently partner im suspecting narcissist discarded horrible state depression little month ago still feel horrible cant bring go nceven worse struggle ocd ocd narcissistic abuse mixwell obsess narcissist myself caused this horrible person obsess people love hating me think much anybody ever loved loves now friends one talk deals issues want add theirs friends busy stuff theyve helped lot feel good enough anybody guess also mention father think going downward spiral ever since mother left ive forced endure feel much family really evil narcissist it feel hindered much feel trapped here time ive brought mental health downplayed father also busy working feel connected father really know anything me anytime ive tried open up seems dismiss me want escape cant know im going fail senior year im never job car much way social skills either feel like creep people out ill forced stay home never able succeed life escape go college pursue want do even think id good enough it feel like piece shit horrible person someone here feel like everybody agree me probably sound like egotistical bag shit cant even fully convey feel here cant even kill means to far know maybe im overreacting im sorry everyone everything
Se siente como siempre capaz de escapar de este Hi im messive siempre desastre realmente se convirtió en desastre hace mucho tiempo madre literalmente nos abandonó volvió razón poco izquierda absolutamente contacto madre como gente madre recientemente socio im sospechar narcisista descartado horrible estado depresión poco hace un mes todavía se siente horrible no puede traer ir desdeven peor lucha ocd ocd abuso narcisista mixwell obsesión narcisista yo mismo causo esta persona horrible obsesiona a la gente me encanta odiar pensar mucho cualquiera alguna vez amado ahora amigos una charla ofertas problemas quieren añadir sus amigos ocupados cosas que han ayudado a muchos se sienten lo suficientemente bien cualquiera supongo que también mencionar padre pensar ir espiral descendente desde madre izquierda ive forzado soportar sentir mucho familia