ive miserable long rememberim almost thirty goddamned tired living like this sad scared lonely miserable    reference point peaceful content life like like trying imagine completely new color get hold there get past crisis thats whole damned life im tired surviving crisis crisis never getting feel like real human being fuck human being do tried getting smarter getting kinder making useful enough never enough point straightup cruel string person along vague promises one day feeling pain know whatll stop pain one responsible me hell responsible myself responsibility take care myself unless someone else going step in im one decides looks like know did understand could done little kid whole goddamned world denied me itll always denied me ill always feel like ive never felt different yet am held almost three decades dream cant even see im damned tired want end one person  one person whole damned life  genuinely cared helped me died completely unexpectedly know ill never meet anyone else like them one sliver goodness world gone never deserved it
ive miserable long rememberim almost thirty goddamned tired living like this sad scared lonely miserable reference point peaceful content life like like trying imagine completely new color get hold there get past crisis thats whole damned life im tired surviving crisis crisis never getting feel like real human being fuck human being do tried getting smarter getting kinder making useful enough never enough point straightup cruel string person along vague promises one day feeling pain know whatll stop pain one responsible me hell responsible myself responsibility take care myself unless someone else going step in im one decides looks like know did understand could done little kid whole goddamned world denied me itll always denied me ill always feel like ive never felt different yet am held almost three decades dream cant even see im damned tiredwant end one person one person whole damned life genuinely cared helped me died completely unexpectedly know ill never meet anyone else like them one sliver goodness world gone never deserved it
live miserable long rememberim casi treinta malditos cansados viviendo como este triste asustado solo miserable punto de referencia contenido pacífico vida como intentar imaginar completamente nuevo color se mantienen allí conseguir más allá crisis que toda la maldita vida im cansado sobrevivir crisis crisis nunca llegar a sentirse como verdadero ser humano mierda ser humano hacer más inteligente hacerse más amable hacer suficientemente útil nunca suficientemente punto recta persona cuerda cruel a lo largo de vagas promesas un día sentir dolor saber lo que va a dejar de dolor uno responsable yo mismo responsable responsabilidad cuidar a mí mismo a menos que alguien más va paso en im uno decide que sabe lo que sí entender podría hacer niño niño entero maldito mundo me negó siempre me negó que siempre se siente mal como vivir nunca se sintió diferente sin embargo estoy celebrado casi tres décadas sueño no puede incluso ver el maldito cansado querer terminar una persona toda la vida realmente cuidado me ayudó a morir completamente inesperadamente saber mal nunca conocer a nadie más como ellos un mundo de bondad más vivo ido nunca me lo merecía