plan dont courageits quite tough put thoughts together maybe thats way move somehow since long time ive struggling intrusive suicidal thoughts whats sometimes connected concrete plans sometimes not course lot periods wasnt bad dont feel saying good okay im good life least others people perspective good job cool place nice living conditions one could say shouldnt complain all feel since quite time something going wrong cant bear anymore nothing specific mind right now thats overwhelms much knowing exactly whats problem would try solve it ive long dont feel makes sense anymore try chase this im sure im writing call help let know plan tried reach help im kind people hundreds friends everywhere spread across europe one neighbourhood more point behaviour wrong relationships buried family also lives quite far away makes contacts difficult really wanted get specialists help felt still made sense didnt enough courage own friend rather ignored fact asked help reaching someone fixed mind thoughts dont make sense try deal own right dont feel anything last days really tough me yesterday went day trip going town always helped felt like existence makes real sense im calling emergency trips doesnt help anymore dont feel neither good bad things nothing mind whatever happens impact me plan simple simpler better bridge call emergency tell something strange happening cant know im calling myself otherwise sure try discourage me dont think cause much trouble people that sure now dont even feel make difference many people around me probably even make everything better last days cleaned open projects easy possible people keep going dont think anything else minimize consequences idea im really writing this sorry keeping long wanted put everything thinking about thanks take care
plan dont courageits quite tough put thoughts together maybe thats way move somehow since long time ive struggling intrusive suicidal thoughts whats sometimes connected concrete plans sometimes not course lot periods wasnt bad dont feel sayinggoodokayim good life least others people perspective good job cool place nice living conditions one could say shouldnt complain all feel since quite time something going wrong cant bear anymore nothing specific mind right now thats overwhelms much knowing exactly whats problem would try solve it ive long dont feel makes sense anymore try chase this im sure im writing call help let know plan tried reach help im kind people hundreds friends everywhere spread across europe one neighbourhood more point behaviour wrong relationships buried family also lives quite far away makes contacts difficult really wanted get specialists help felt still made sense didnt enough courage own friend rather ignored fact asked help reaching someone fixed mind thoughts dont make sense try deal own right dont feel anything last days really tough me yesterday went day trip going town always helped felt like existence makes real sense im calling emergency trips doesnt help anymore dont feel neither good bad things nothing mind whatever happens impact me plan simple simpler better bridge call emergency tell something strange happening cant know im calling myself otherwise sure try discourage me dont think cause much trouble people that sure now dont even feel make difference many people around me probably even make everything better last days cleaned open projects easypossible people keep going dont think anything else minimize consequences idea im really writing this sorry keeping long wanted put everything thinking about thanks take care
plan no se atreva a poner pensamientos bastante difíciles tal vez esa manera de moverse de alguna manera desde hace mucho tiempo ive lucha pensamientos suicidas intrusivos lo que a veces conecta planes concretos a veces no períodos de curso no era malo no se siente diciendogoodokayim buena vida por lo menos otras personas perspectiva buen trabajo buen lugar agradable condiciones de vida uno podría decir no debe quejarse todos sentir ya que bastante tiempo algo que va mal no puede soportar más nada específico mente ahora que es abrumar mucho saber exactamente lo que el problema intentaría resolverlo por mucho tiempo no siento que tiene sentido más tratar de perseguir esto