im  go moremy parents abusive emotionally mentally physically dealt abuse  years throughout life many traumatic things happened me im haunted words memories cant shake matter do music escape tells much failure am im sick chronic pain heart issues breathing issues bad memory loss cant even remember say halfway sentence time get lost conversations really know do ive honestly lost live keep fighting ive fought whole life exist get better emotions accepted feel worth anymore husband tries understand help feel like im ruining life one day hell realize horrible am fuck already is im selfish know it know people care me cant go like anymore power change things cant change living situation health issues past emotions  everything control choices left physically feel urge put noose around neck point think would make feel better would feel like relief never ending nightmare im scared void death im scared keep living
im go moremy parents abusive emotionally mentally physically dealt abuse years throughout life many traumatic things happened me im haunted words memories cant shake matter do music escape tells much failure am im sick chronic pain heart issues breathing issues bad memory loss cant even remember say halfway sentence time get lost conversations really knowdo ive honestly lost live keep fighting ive fought whole life exist get better emotions accepted feel worth anymore husband tries understand help feel like im ruining life one day hell realize horrible am fuck already is im selfish knowit know people care me cant go like anymore power change things cant change living situation health issues past emotions everything control choices left physically feel urge put noose around neck point think would make feel better would feel like relief never ending nightmare im scared void deathim scared keep living
I go moreMis padres abusar emocionalmente mentalmente físicamente maltratado años a través de la vida muchas cosas traumáticas me pasaron Im palabras embrujadas memorias no pueden sacudir materia hacer música escapar le dice mucho fracaso am im enfermo dolor crónico problemas cardíacos respiración problemas mal memoria pérdida ni siquiera recuerdo decir mitad frase tiempo perder conversaciones realmente saber ive honestamente perdido vivir seguir luchando ive lucha toda la vida existen conseguir mejores emociones aceptadas sentir vale más marido intenta entender ayuda sentir como im arruinar la vida un día infierno darse cuenta horrible am mierda ya es im egoísta saber que la gente me importa no puede ir como más cambio de poder las cosas no pueden cambiar vida situación salud problemas pasados emociones todo control decisiones izquierda impulso poner soga alrededor punto del cuello pensar se sentiría mejor se sentiría como alivio nunca terminar pesadilla im miedo vacío muerteim miedo seguir viviendo