better die lose morality need help im point im ready fullheartedly prepared commit redflag planned every detail need im stuck time passes worse feel want die so knows this know do im trying think affect cant even think straight background life never good lot disorders mental illnesses caused trauma born with hard time living life constantly feel like dying old home dangerous new home religious beliefs conflict identity im uncomfortable am theres therapist psychiatrist theyre supposed help think im insane others say im fake liar never even understand myself find trying die lot also realized years become destructive agitated aggressive ive started thinking killing more become something think normally end hurting people lot mean to basically im becoming like parents want like keep failing changing  days plan end life  days make final decision know best path take die thats metheres nothing left existence everything would gone suffer anything live ill become like them ill continue falling apart someday able resist shitty thoughts anymore know ill act someday know do help
better die lose morality need help im pointim ready fullheartedly prepared commit redflag planned every detail need im stuck time passes worse feel want die so knows this know do im trying think affect cant even think straight background life never good lot disorders mental illnesses caused trauma born with hard time living life constantly feel like dying old home dangerous new home religious beliefs conflict identity im uncomfortable am theres therapist psychiatrist theyre supposed help think im insane others say im fake liar never even understand myself find trying die lot also realized years become destructive agitated aggressive ive started thinking killing more become something think normally end hurting people lot mean to basically im becoming like parents want like keep failingchanging days plan end life days make final decision know best path take die thats metheres nothing left existence everything would gone suffer anything live ill become like them ill continue falling apart someday able resist shitty thoughts anymore know ill act someday know do help
mejor morir perder la moral necesidad ayuda im pointim listo totalmente preparado comisión bandera roja planeada cada detalle necesidad im atascada tiempo pasa peor sentir querer morir así que sabe esto do intent pensar affect ni siquiera pensar derecho fondo vida nunca buena mucho trastornos enfermedades mentales causado trauma nacido con dificultades vivir vida constantemente sentir como morir viejo hogar nuevo hogar peligroso creencias religiosas conflicto identidad im incomodidad am theres terapeuta psiquiatra se supone que ayudan pensar im loco otros dicen im falso mentiroso nunca incluso me encuentro tratando de morir mucho también realizado años se convierten en destructivo agitado agresivo ive comenzó a pensar matar más se convierten en algo pensar normalmente fin daño gente mucho significa básicamente im llegar a ser como los padres quieren seguir cambiando planes fin vida días hacer una decisión final saber mejor camino tomar morir que me allí no queda existencia todo sufriría cualquier cosa vivir mal convertirse en mal seguir cayendo aparte algún día capaz resistir pensamientos de mierda más saber mal acto algún día saber mal ayudar