name jesus  yearold male want dieive thoughts since freshman year highschool dont know much want say part wants bawl lifes story let everything note says hey alive another part wants disappear abyss bother anyone hurt anyone else all ive already let family down let others too theres small part wants live continue hopeful naive fool used be want die always remembered quote friend anthony used say favorite game little the heart may weak sometimes may even give in ive learned that deep down theres light never goes out stopped attempting multiple times now nomatter much want shake die cant ive panic attacks manic episodes years keeping family knowing anything wanna worry them want shun like others opening up dont think life meaningless theres lot things world love family friends significant other music games animals food things cant think deserve this im stubborn opinionated asshole friends openly make fun good fun know lot people care now want die every time try every time resolve myself remember care for dont want hurt them already hurt them want die lived th floor dorms college now roommate differences room myself every night looked window wondering itd like fall never balls it now want die ever ive got word academic suspension university ive poor academic standing continuous threats parents get kicked nowhere stay continue poorly school received threat first term freshman year college since regular panic attacks crying sleep even significant unaware this two  former roommates do consider close friends ive here drinking last  days knowing talk family im here drinking homemade moonshine friend got late birthday preset wanting close eyes die painless death dont know do talk family keep living every plan thrown window even college education look fiancee confidence finding place together already enough depression anxiety severe own ive pull knife away hands cried tried stab herself theres reason im alive try give happy life cant even that name jesus garcia  yearold male former student msoe software engineering program  weeks ago someone campus know committed redflag leading week finals failed classes leading go academic suspension want follow suit cant matter much want die cant
name jesus yearold male want dieive thoughts since freshman year highschool dont know much want say part wants bawl lifes story let everything note says hey alive another part wants disappear abyss bother anyone hurt anyone else all ive already let family down let others too theres small part wants live continue hopeful naive fool used be want die always remembered quote friend anthony used say favorite game little the heart may weak sometimes may even give in ive learned that deep down theres light never goes out stopped attempting multiple times now nomatter much want shake die cant ive panic attacks manic episodes years keeping family knowing anything wanna worry them want shun like others opening up dont think life meaningless theres lot things world love family friends significant other music games animals food things cant think deserve this im stubborn opinionated asshole friends openly make fun good fun know lot people care now want die every time try every time resolve myself remember care for dont want hurt them already hurt them want die lived th floor dorms college now roommate differences room myself every night looked window wondering itd like fall never balls it now want die ever ive got word academic suspension university ive poor academic standing continuous threats parents get kicked nowhere stay continue poorly school received threat first term freshman year college since regular panic attacks crying sleep even significant unaware this two former roommates do consider close friends ive here drinking last days knowing talk family im here drinking homemade moonshine friend got late birthday preset wanting close eyes die painless death dont know do talk family keep living every plan thrown window even college education look fiancee confidence finding place together already enough depression anxiety severe own ive pull knife away hands cried tried stab herself theres reason im alive try give happy life cant even that name jesus garcia yearold male former student msoe software engineering program weeks ago someone campus know committed redflag leading week finals failed classes leading go academic suspension want follow suit cant matter much want die cant
nombre jesus yearold macho quiere pensamientos dieive desde primer año de la escuela secundaria no sé mucho quieren decir parte quiere bawl vida historia dejar todo nota dice