ive accepted itive thoughts redflag since  years old im  really thru much handle mental health dad died mom abandoned  months bounced around different family member homes feeling im good enough one wanted keep me ive gone thru lot dealt lot death always contemplated redflag could never think way actually go it today ive lost hope completely girl told loved wanted foreveri soul mate told today wasnt sure meant it im sick feeling alone one actually cares me many failed relationships mother abandoning ive convinced im unlovable ill alone forever cant that decided today im gonna buy gun week work last shift friday enjoy time friends weekend sunday june rd im going take peaceful place get drugs drink finally shoot head finally end pain cant handle anymore pain constant life long remember im past breaking point thanks giving place put thoughts existence hope go thru
ive accepted itive thoughts redflag since years old im really thru much handle mental health dad died mom abandoned months bounced around different family member homes feeling im good enough one wanted keep me ive gone thru lot dealt lot death always contemplated redflag could never think way actually go it today ive lost hope completely girl told loved wanted foreveri soul mate told today wasnt sure meant it im sick feeling alone one actually cares me many failed relationships mother abandoning ive convinced im unlovable ill alone forever cant that decided today im gonna buy gun week work last shift friday enjoy time friends weekend sunday june rd im going take peaceful place get drugs drink finally shoot head finally end pain cant handle anymore pain constant life long remember im past breaking point thanks giving place put thoughts existence hope go thru
ive aceptó pensamientos idiving redflag desde años de edad im realmente a través de mucho manejar la salud mental papá murió mamá abandonado meses rebotado alrededor de diferentes hogares miembros de la familia sentir im lo suficientemente bueno uno quería mantenerme ive ido a través de lote repartido muerte siempre contemplado redflag nunca podría pensar manera realmente ir hoy ive perdido esperanza completamente chica contada querido para siempre alma gemela contada hoy no estaba seguro de que im enfermo sentimiento solo uno realmente me cuida muchas relaciones fallidas madre abandonando ive convencido im inamorable mal para siempre cant que decidió hoy im va a comprar pistola semana trabajo el último turno viernes disfrutar tiempo amigos fin de semana junio rd im ir a tomar un lugar pacífico bebida finalmente tiro en la cabeza final dolor no puede manejar más dolor constante vida durante mucho tiempo recordar im pasado romper punto gracias dar lugar poner pensamientos existencia esperanza ir through