social anxiety redflagi want kill never felt close anyone life come notsodecent family life filled drugs abuse history mental illness developed extreme social anxiety top everything else diagnosed with never felt true human connection closeness growing family felt like bunch strangers me even house none us ever spoke other could go easily week without uttering word eachother moved back home drug issues school think killing family myself social anxiety causing suicidal homicidal ideation slit wrists neck daily day stole one fathers guns loaded it held throat ended shooting open window want disappear get away family live normal life becoming aware possible cant live normal life middleclass job husband kids fucking suburban neighborhood even capable speaking another human without wanting murder myself really want give up whats point going forward therapy shit medication shit mental hospital shit nothing really helps
social anxiety redflagi want kill never felt close anyone life come notsodecent family life filled drugs abuse history mental illness developed extreme social anxiety top everything else diagnosed with never felt true human connection closeness growing family felt like bunch strangers me even house none us ever spoke other could go easily week without uttering word eachother moved back home drug issues school think killing family myself social anxiety causing suicidal homicidal ideation slit wrists neck daily day stole one fathers guns loaded it held throat ended shooting open window want disappear get away family live normal life becoming aware possible cant live normal life middleclass job husband kids fucking suburban neighborhood even capable speaking another human without wanting murder myself really want give up whats point going forward therapy shit medication shit mental hospital shit nothing really helps
La ansiedad social Redflagi quiere matar nunca se sintió cerca de nadie la vida nosonó la vida familiar lleno de drogas historia de abuso enfermedad mental desarrollado extrema ansiedad social top todo lo demás diagnosticado con nunca se sintió verdadera conexión humana proximidad creciente familia se sintió como grupo extraños me incluso casa ninguno nunca habló otro podría ir fácilmente semana sin pronunciar palabras se trasladó a casa de nuevo problemas de drogas escuela pensar matar a la familia yo mismo ansiedad social causar idea suicida ideación cortada muñecas cuello día a día robado un padre armas cargadas se mantuvo garganta terminó tiro ventana abierta querer desaparecer familia vivir vida normal ser consciente posible vida normal marido de clase media marido niños mierda barrio suburbano incluso capaz hablar otro humano sin querer asesinato yo realmente quiero renunciar a lo que punto de ir adelante terapia mierda mierda mierda hospital mental mierda nada realmente ayuda