keep writing parting notes people ive ever loved throw away could grow balls mail finish off bit background  years old female university boyfriend love much hes kind sometimes though feel like hes settling me feel like knows could much better cant tell signals im picking him thinking things head ive suicidal thoughts years now since  think dont know started know ive long dont think im depressed person people know might describe goofy otherwise happy girl dont think anyone would ever guess keep suicidal thoughts honestly thats reason havent offed yet cant imagine killing leaving parents knowing why boyfriend close friends have dont want leave unsettled again maybe theres way without leaving way feel like killing without talking would selfish me feel like cant talk anyone without damaging relationships still have dont even good reason wanting kill myself ive thought reasons would long time recognize none justifiable still doesnt remove want need it happens lot get stressed out like make mistakes school work even minor mistakes like exam forgetting step work at university lab make feel like it world would better place like cant even simple things happens think weight know im horribly obese still significantly overweight every attempt lose pounds fails either diet exercise fails contributes intense feelings failure thinking myself face belly arms try hide long sleeves even summer feel repulsive think everyone else grossed way oddly im grossed fat people started diet tried exercising boyfriend hes supportive attempts starting feel like good everything making things worse cant even articulate properly even came back home goddamned dog didnt want come me stupid reason could keep thinking was well even puppy prefers someone else stupid reason stupid stupid reason theyre always stupid reasons noticed time seem reasonable theyre not good enough reason sometimes ill sitting bus staring window content be wham it kill yourself swift enough wouldnt even feel anything times dont need reason it long it world would better place wouldnt deal waking every morning facing day every day find looking tall buildings sometimes dream would like get top fall slowly backwards edge always dream leaving note parents telling love much none fault imagine crying tell stop brat deserve hurt stupid thoughts feel like coward thinking escape reality finishing off sometimes weak seems like good enough reason it hate fact want kill myself even without knowing times why dont even know want escape shitty future promise destined breakup eventual death dog parents im sorry long dont anyone talk to thought id able find someone listen here
keep writing parting notes people ive ever loved throw away could grow balls mail finish off bit background years old female university boyfriend love much hes kind sometimes though feel like hes settling me feel like knows could much better cant tell signals im picking him thinking things head ive suicidal thoughts years now since think dont know started know ive long dont think im depressed person people know might describe goofy otherwise happy girl dont think anyone would ever guess keep suicidal thoughts honestly thats reason havent offed yet cant imagine killing leaving parents knowing why boyfriend close friends have dont want leave unsettled again maybe theres way without leaving way feel like killing without talking would selfish me feel like cant talk anyone without damaging relationships still have dont even good reason wanting kill myself ive thought reasons would long time recognize none justifiable still doesnt remove want need it happens lot get stressed out like make mistakes school work even minor mistakes like exam forgetting step work at university lab make feel like it world would better place like cant even simple things happens think weight know im horribly obese still significantly overweight every attempt lose pounds fails either diet exercise fails contributes intense feelings failure thinking myself face belly arms try hide long sleeves even summer feel repulsive think everyone else grossed way oddly im grossed fat people started diet tried exercising boyfriend hes supportive attempts starting feel like good everything making things worse cant even articulate properly even came back home goddamned dog didnt want come me stupid reason could keep thinking was well even puppy prefers someone else stupid reason stupid stupid reason theyre always stupid reasons noticed time seem reasonable theyre not good enough reason sometimes ill sitting bus staring window content be wham it kill yourself swift enough wouldnt even feel anything times dont need reason it long it world would better place wouldnt deal waking every morning facing day every day find looking tall buildings sometimes dream would like get top fall slowly backwards edge always dream leaving note parents telling love much none fault imagine crying tell stop brat deserve hurt stupid thoughts feel like coward thinking escape reality finishing off sometimes weak seems like good enough reason it hate fact want kill myself even without knowing times why dont even know want escape shitty future promise destined breakup eventual death dog parents im sorry long dont anyone talk to thought id able find someone listen here
Sigue escribiendo notas de despedida la gente siempre amada tirar lejos podría crecer bolas correo terminar poco de fondo años de edad novio universidad amor mucho hes amable a veces aunque siento que él me asienta sentir como sabe podría mucho mejor no decir señales i picking él pensar cosas cabeza ive pensamientos suicidas años ahora desde pensar no sé comenzó saber ive long no creo im persona deprimida la gente sabe podría describir goofy de otro modo chica feliz no creo que nadie adivine mantener pensamientos suicidas honestamente que razón no se han apagado sin embargo no puedo imaginar matar dejando a los padres saber por qué novio amigos cercanos no quieren dejar tranquilo de nuevo tal vez Theres manera sin dejar de sentir como matar sin hablar me egoísta me siento como no puede hablar nadie sin tener relaciones perjudiciales todavía no tiene ni siquiera buena razón querer matarme a mí mismo ive pensamiento razones reconocería ninguno justificable todavía no quitar necesidad necesidad sucede mucho se estresa como cometer errores trabajo escolar incluso errores menores como examen olvidar el trabajo paso en el laboratorio universitario hacer sentir como si fuera mejor lugar como no puede incluso cosas simples pasa pensar peso sabe