im tiredi cant anything haircut months cant fall asleep without tv youtube movie running background distract constant thoughts loser failure worthless selfish weak sometimes hit head im dizzy like grandmother used hit herself cant stop thinking sister abandoning me cant stop thinking first time father tried strangle her cant stop angry her even thought fault cant forgive telling married eight years cant stop thinking father yelling comatose mother stop clenching spastic arm shed stroke cant stop thinking mother protect us cant ask dead ask alive remember speak yet im living house again taking abuse again feeling guilt wants feel again im fucking  barely go house im afraid seeing people know seen failure am quit job almost two years ago applied another one since last friend stopped trying get touch months ago know say her even read last message fucked too im ashamed myself miss touched like fucking hug anything miss full hope ten years ago despite everything miss last time felt hope remember was know happened think anyones ever going love again think first boyfriend time know thats insane actually miss myself feel like ive dead whole time im starting wake fact know keep going see should never stops hurting anyway
im tiredi cant anything haircut months cant fall asleep without tv youtube movie running background distract constant thoughts loser failure worthless selfish weak sometimes hit head im dizzy like grandmother used hit herself cant stop thinking sister abandoning me cant stop thinking first time father tried strangle her cant stop angry her even thought fault cant forgive telling married eight years cant stop thinking father yelling comatose mother stop clenching spastic arm shed stroke cant stop thinking mother protect us cant ask dead ask alive remember speak yet im living house again taking abuse again feeling guilt wants feel again im fucking barely go house im afraid seeing people know seen failure am quit job almost two years ago applied another one since last friend stopped trying get touch months ago know say her even read last message fucked too im ashamed myself miss touched like fucking hug anything miss full hope ten years ago despite everything miss last time felt hope remember was know happened think anyones ever going love again think first boyfriend time know thats insane actually miss myself feel like ive dead whole time im starting wake fact know keep going see should never stops hurting anyway
No puedo dormirme sin TV youtube película correr fondo distraer pensamientos constantes perdedor fracaso inútil egoísta débil a veces golpear la cabeza im mareo como abuela utilizado golpeó a sí misma no puedo dejar de pensar hermana abandonarme no puedo dejar de pensar primera vez padre intentó estrangular su cant dejar de enojado su incluso pensamiento culpa no puedo perdonar decir casado ocho años no puedo dejar de pensar padre gritando madre comatosa dejar de apretar brazo espástico derramar golpe no puedo dejar de pensar madre protegernos no puedo pedir muerto vivo recordar hablar todavía im vivir casa otra vez tomar abuso sentimiento de culpa quiere sentir otra vez im mierda apenas ir casa