existence hopefully coming end maybe idkmy mind always races races find sickly foul way commit redflag time tries distance family friends give trauma mind races public online im alone find people act ways appease try get good side feel like im needed im naturally kind others time im always toes constantly guarding others incase say mugged kidnapped attacked etc trust anyone im always thinking im wrong compared others opinions politically morally etc difficult think anymore im self conscious stomach way walk close others order draw attention worry seeing hearing well forgetting shit ton things barely think that fucking burden blackened hole heart mind make better want never hurt anyone want alone forever im worthy relationships allowed live never existed fucking hate depressive asshat mind time find comfort it knowing pain go away know how maybe years move out maybe pandemic maybe bleeding alleyway alone maybe quick death gun shot know im hoping happen just hope im cut away everyone ive ever known never seen again fuck existence fuck humanity fuck self conscious fuck world all fuck existence
existence hopefully coming end maybe idkmy mind always races races find sickly foul way commit redflag time tries distance family friends give trauma mind races public onlineim alone find people act ways appease try get good side feel like im neededim naturally kind others time im always toes constantly guarding others incase say mugged kidnapped attacked etc trust anyoneim always thinking im wrong compared others opinions politically morally etc difficult think anymore im self conscious stomach way walk close others order draw attention worry seeing hearing well forgetting shit ton things barely think that fucking burden blackened hole heart mind make better want never hurt anyone want alone forever im worthy relationships allowed live never existed fucking hate depressive asshat mind time find comfort it knowing pain go away know how maybe years move out maybe pandemic maybe bleeding alleyway alone maybe quick death gun shot know im hoping happen just hope im cut away everyone ive ever known never seen again fuck existence fuck humanity fuck self conscious fuck world all fuck existence
la existencia espera llegar a su fin tal vez la mente idkmy siempre las carreras encontrar mal camino cometer redflag tiempo intenta distancia amigos familiares dar trauma mente carreras público en línea sólo encontrar personas actuar maneras apaciguar tratar de tener buen lado sentir como im needim naturalmente amable otros tiempo siempre veces proteger constantemente a otros incase dicen secuestrado atacado etc confiar en cualquier persona siempre pensar im mal comparado otras opiniones moralmente etc difícil pensar más in auto consciente estómago manera caminar otros orden llamar la atención preocuparse al oír bien olvidar mierda ton cosas apenas pensar que carga agujero ennegrecido mente corazón hacer mejor desear nunca hacer daño a nadie solo para siempre im relaciones dignas permitido vivir nunca existió maldito odio depresivo culo tiempo encontrar consuelo saber dolor irse saber cómo tal vez pandemia tal vez sangrado callejón solo tal vez rápido arma de la muerte tiro saber im esperar que suceda justo im cortar todo el mundo nunca antes conocido folla existencia mierda humanidad auto consciente mierda mundo mierda toda la existencia