wrong mei lost years reason ever since little wanted girl grew playing bratz dolls dress  dad told stop fag always tried get guy things interest in want go shopping drink venti girls could go examples idk feel way going try start hrt im scared dont understand wanted bad opportunity presented scared away dont know would even explain family cant even explain myself due years suicidal thoughts alienate everyone around me tried make obvious sometimes talk nobody seems notice bitch feelings never ask feel nobody cares me dont even care im scared commit redflag either dont think ever able actually transition even transitioned would fix problems suicidal thoughts dont know im sure id happier dont want regret it hate way look dont know why crossdress feel great pretty top world feel like im trapped current situation im  dont want regret im age im still confused deeper source pain giving thoughts dont actually want become female instead want mend mental issues dont know brain like this dont even feel like going anymore seems never ending fight prize unachievable happiness never felt true happiness dont understand im full much pain
wrong mei lost years reason ever since little wanted girl grew playing bratz dolls dress dad told stop fag always tried get guy things interest in want go shopping drink venti girls could go examples idk feel way going try start hrt im scared dont understand wanted bad opportunity presented scared away dont know would even explain family cant even explain myself due years suicidal thoughts alienate everyone around me tried make obvious sometimes talk nobody seems notice bitch feelings never ask feel nobody cares me dont even careim scared commit redflag either dont think ever able actually transition even transitioned would fix problems suicidal thoughts dont know im sure id happier dont want regret it hate way look dont know why crossdress feel great pretty top world feel like im trapped current situation im dont want regret im ageim still confused deeper source pain giving thoughts dont actually want become female instead want mend mental issues dont know brain like this dont even feel like going anymore seems never ending fight prize unachievable happiness never felt true happiness dont understand im full much pain
wore mei perdido años razón desde que la niña pequeña quería crecer jugando Bratz dolls vestido papá dijo parar maricón siempre trató de conseguir cosas chico interés en ir de compras bebida venti niñas podrían ir ejemplos idk sentir manera de ir a tratar start hrt im asustado no entender quería mala oportunidad presentada asustado lejos no sé incluso explicar familia ni siquiera me puede explicar debido a años pensamientos suicidas alienar a todo el mundo a mi alrededor tratar hacer obvio a veces hablar nadie parece notar sentimientos de perra nunca preguntar sentir que nadie me importa ni siquiera cuidar miedo come redflag o bien no creo que nunca capaz realmente transición incluso transición solucionaría problemas pensamientos suicidas no sé estoy seguro id más feliz no quiero arrepentirme odio manera mirada no sé por qué travesura se siente muy bien mundo superior sentir como im atrapada situación actual im no quiero arrepentirme im ageim aún confundido fuente más profundo dolor dar pensamientos no quiero realmente convertirse en mujer en cambio quiero problemas mentales mend cerebro como este dont incluso se siente como ir más nunca final lucha premio inalcanzable felicidad nunca se sintió verdadera felicidad no entiendo im total dolor mucho