got situation pushing redflag  still suicidali still take great comfort owning item know end life whenever desire hear somewhat painlessly suicidal perceived ambition pursue mathematics going crushed still ive given time sit exams many reasons main one cant get feeling like terrible person ive made mistakes people forgiven ive spent sleepless nights crying mistakes made efforts never make constant guilt shame makes extremely depressive person im seeing therapist bipolar  know isnt disorder talking cant find peace anything let alone feeling satisfaction content best people would consider rumination moping perpetually self hating depressed know make people love show love low theyre around somewhat contagious know world would better place without breaks heart say initial period suffering killing would cause parents girlfriend would break forever rippling effect would last rest lives better live like zombie trying numb possible outwardly minimise risk infecting people melancholy much hate seems pathetic existence going terms ive realised much
got situation pushing redflag still suicidali still take great comfort owning item know end life whenever desire hear somewhat painlessly suicidal perceived ambition pursue mathematics going crushed still ive given time sit exams many reasons main one cant get feeling like terrible person ive made mistakes people forgiven ive spent sleepless nights crying mistakes made efforts never make constant guilt shame makes extremely depressive person im seeing therapist bipolar know isnt disorder talking cant find peace anything let alone feeling satisfaction content best people would consider rumination moping perpetually self hating depressed know make people love show love low theyre around somewhat contagious know world would better place without breaks heart say initial period suffering killing would cause parents girlfriend would break forever rippling effect would last rest lives better live like zombie trying numb possible outwardly minimise risk infecting people melancholy much hate seems pathetic existence going terms ive realised much
La situación tiene empujando rojo todavía suicidas todavía tomar gran comodidad propiedad elemento saber vida final cuando el deseo escuchar algo sin dolor suicida percepción ambición perseguir matemáticas va aplastado todavía ve dado tiempo exámenes de sentarse muchas razones principales uno no puede sentirse como persona terrible ive errores cometidos personas perdonadas pasar noches sin dormir errores llorando esfuerzos hechos nunca hacer culpa constante vergüenza hace persona extremadamente depresiva im ver terapeuta bipolar saber trastorno no puede encontrar la paz nada mucho menos sentir satisfacción contenido mejor la gente consideraría ruminación mojarse perpetuamente auto odio deprimido saber hacer que la gente amor mostrar amor bajo son alrededor de un poco contagioso saber mundo mejor lugar sin rupturas corazón decir período inicial sufrimiento matar causaría padres rompería para siempre efecto desgarro vidas mejor vivir como zombi tratando de entumecer posible exterior mínimo riesgo infectar a la gente melancolía mucho odio parece patético existencia va términos se ha realizado mucho