want people know whats happening life since cant really tell someone irl without freaking somethingi really dont want to stuff going happen soon resulting loosing family school long term girlfriend im really scared im coward honestly would rather dead try fix mess mess putting lightly though life large puzzle itd like throwing entire thing fire shame im thinking cutting artery idt id stomach that ill figure something out hear takes bleed out dont hit artery people usually discovered saved fortunately live alone dorm room one ever visits lot time wrote note class addressed girlfriend looking back it kinda place dont feel like fixing it hear slit arm cause permanent damage fuck up got medical stuff case wake decide try right after guess im writing make sure people know dont history depression havent really shown obvious reasons something think id ever kill myself feel certain sense control calmness im actually looking forward time make decision decide go it ill let guys know
want people know whats happening life since cant really tell someone irl without freaking somethingi really dont want to stuff going happen soon resulting loosing family school long term girlfriendim really scared im coward honestly would rather dead try fix mess mess putting lightly though life large puzzle itd like throwing entire thing fire shame im thinking cutting artery idt id stomach that ill figure something out hear takes bleed out dont hit artery people usually discovered saved fortunately live alone dorm roomone ever visits lot time wrote note class addressed girlfriend looking back it kinda place dont feel like fixing it hear slit arm cause permanent damage fuck up got medical stuff case wake decide try right after guess im writing make sure people know dont history depression havent really shown obvious reasons something think id ever kill myself feel certain sense control calmness im actually looking forward time make decision decide go it ill let guys know
Quiero que la gente sepa lo que está pasando la vida ya que no puede realmente decirle a alguien irl sin freaking somethingi realmente no quiero hacer cosas va a suceder pronto resultando perder escuela familiar noviaim de largo plazo realmente asustado im cobarde honestamente preferiría muerto tratar de arreglar desastre desastre poner a la ligera aunque la vida gran rompecabezas como tirar todo fuego vergüenza im pensar cortar arteria itt id estómago que mal figura algo oye sacar sangre no golpear arteria personas por lo general se descubren salvados por suerte vivir solo dormitorio una vez visitas mucho tiempo escribió nota clase dirigida novia mirando hacia atrás un poco lugar no se siente como repararlo escuchar corte brazo causa daño permanente mierda tiene cosas médicas caso despertar decidir intentar derecho después de adivinar im escribir asegurarse de que la gente sabe historia depresión no ha demostrado realmente razones obvias algo piensa id nunca me mata sentir cierto control de sentido calma im mirar hacia adelante tiempo decidir ir mal dejar que los chicos saben