going kill todayi everything planned note noose pills empty house thinking weeks kinda feels like something im supposed do weird mental state somewhat akin nervous procrastination really feel like im compulsively keeping busy random chores ive already done  loads laundry today ill probably try keep mind wandering feel exhausted even though got surprisingly decent sleep every time sit still moment thoughts go drizzle downpour really dont want go on burden hate myself thing holding back family good friend dont want hurt pain intolerable mental agony every day want find peace
going kill todayi everything planned note noose pills empty house thinking weeks kinda feels like something im supposed do weird mental state somewhat akin nervous procrastination really feel like im compulsively keeping busy random chores ive already done loads laundry today ill probably try keep mind wandering feel exhausted even though got surprisingly decent sleep every time sit still moment thoughts go drizzle downpour really dont want go on burden hate myself thing holding back family good friend dont want hurt pain intolerable mental agony every day want find peace
Hoy en día va a matar todo planeó nota noose píldoras vacías casa pensar semanas un poco se siente como algo im supuesto hacer extraño estado mental algo afín nervioso postrastinación realmente se siente como im compulsivamente mantener ocupado tareas al azar ive ya hecho cargas lavandería hoy mal probablemente tratar de mantener la mente vagando se siente agotado a pesar de tener sorprendentemente decente sueño cada vez que se sienta todavía pensamientos ir lluvia abajo realmente no quiero ir en carga odio yo mismo cosa contención familia buen amigo no quiero dolor dolor intolerable agonía mental cada día quiero encontrar la paz