understand everything break cycle wanting kill myself yet always returnive always felt off like part incorrect wrong missing feeling ive since started able memories explored feeling farthest reaches imagine tried find various religions scientific theories make feel purpose tried sports gaming social events helping community finding passion career tried therapy antidepressants experimenting consciousness looking family members help yet  still convinced commit redflag logically makes sense me know possibilities await if any side better stick devil know one dont still though feel like want kill frequently suicidal ideation never stops head always reoccurring event matter do merely coping existence want feel alive want feel isnt trap gift logical reasoning addition actions could take could provide feeling want know wrong correct problem im open anything want feel right
understand everything break cycle wanting kill myself yet always returnive always felt off like part incorrect wrong missing feelingive since started able memories explored feeling farthest reaches imagine tried find various religions scientific theories make feel purpose tried sports gaming social events helping community finding passion career tried therapy antidepressants experimenting consciousness looking family members help yet still convinced commit redflag logically makes sense me know possibilities await if any side better stick devil know one dont still though feel like want kill frequently suicidal ideation never stops head always reoccurring event matter do merely coping existence want feel alive want feel isnt trap gift logical reasoning addition actions could take could provide feeling want know wrong correct problem im open anything want feel right
entender todo ciclo de ruptura querer matarme a mí mismo pero siempre retorno siempre se sintió como parte incorrecta mal falta sentimiento ya que comenzó memorias capaces explorado sentimiento más lejos alcances imaginar probado encontrar varias religiones teorías científicas hacer sentir propósito probado deportes juegos eventos sociales ayudar comunidad encontrar pasión carrera terapia probado antidepresivos experimentar conciencia buscando familiares ayuda pero todavía convencido comisión bandera roja lógicamente me hace sentido saber posibilidades esperar si cualquier lado mejor palo diablo saber uno todavía aunque se siente como querer matar con frecuencia idea suicida nunca se detiene cabeza siempre repetir materia evento hacer simplemente hacer frente a la existencia querer sentir vida querer no trampa regalo razonamiento lógico añadir acciones podría proporcionar sentimiento querer saber mal problema correcto im abrir cualquier cosa querer sentirse bien