redflag felt like option option headive always kept redflag option things really bad could it comforting that everytime struggled life felt empowered also reassured never wanted actually take action knew id ok end now became active plan last year distinctly remember wrote journal left since even right infront me shutting door makes outside world disappear there waiting ive done lot research methods disappointed find method choice high failure rate im planning use combination approach pharmaceuticals alcohol blood loss big  ive therapy ive got support friends family although would never burden intent theyll suffer enough im gone without foreshadowing it ive got decent life outside perspective little justify thoughts truth im struggling anyway heart hurts body feels lifeless weight feel cant sleep without medication just ive reached end whatever strength kept committed life everything hurts wanted tell someone
redflag felt like option option headive always kept redflag option things really bad could it comforting that everytime struggled life felt empowered also reassured never wanted actually take action knew id ok end now became active plan last year distinctly remember wrote journal left since even right infront me shutting door makes outside world disappear there waiting ive done lot research methods disappointed find method choice high failure rate im planning use combination approach pharmaceuticals alcohol blood loss big ive therapy ive got support friends family although would never burden intent theyll suffer enough im gone without foreshadowing it ive got decent life outside perspective little justify thoughts truth im struggling anyway heart hurts body feels lifeless weight feel cant sleep without medication just ive reached end whatever strength kept committed life everything hurts wanted tell someone
Redflag sintió como opción opción cabeza siempre mantenido redflag opción cosas realmente malo podría reconfortante que cada vez luchada vida se sentía empoderado también tranquilizado nunca quiso tomar acción sabía id ok final ahora se convirtió en plan activo el año pasado recuerdo claramente escribió diario izquierda ya que incluso justo en frente de mí puerta de cierre hace desaparecer mundo exterior allí espera ive lote métodos de investigación decepcionados encontrar método elección alta tasa de fracaso im uso combinación enfoque farmacéutico alcohol pérdida de sangre uve terapia ha conseguido apoyo amigos familia, aunque nunca la carga intención sufrirán suficiente im ido sin presagiar ive ive vida decente fuera perspectiva poco justificar pensamientos verdad im lucha de todos modos corazón dolor cuerpo se siente peso sin vida se siente no puede dormir sin medicación acaba cualquier fuerza mantenida vida comprometida todo daño quería decirle a alguien