today brother told looked like tired livingi thought good hiding day mind keeps getting clouded gets harder enjoy life back dad got cancer got big depression yes always mild depression getting cancer something else led redflag attempts realizing die live life whatever want thinking fact thay dad got better made happy months think im relapsing mind getting clouded point become self destructive simply care living feel like theres meaning life time want die theres nothing life die become nothingness theres something took life punish it want stop time bed nothing eternity want think want anything want alone eternity way see things two things happen end ending sure nothing life regretting get older want go doctor seek help planning months yet go im afraid im old enough go alone still fear parents finding out brother looking like crazy person like loser yes loser loner putting face meds probably therapy would given sure makes feel worse sorry guys wanted vent bit idk right sub ill play thought seeking help likely delete post later
today brother told looked like tired livingi thought good hiding day mind keeps getting clouded gets harder enjoy life back dad got cancer got big depressionyes always mild depression getting cancer something else led redflag attempts realizing die live life whatever want thinking fact thay dad got better made happy months think im relapsing mind getting clouded point become self destructive simply care living feel like theres meaning life time want die theres nothing life die become nothingness theres something took life punish it want stop time bed nothing eternity want think want anything want alone eternity way see things two things happen end ending sure nothing life regretting get older want go doctor seek help planning months yet go im afraid im old enough go alone still fear parents finding out brother looking like crazy person like loseryes loser loner putting face meds probably therapy would given sure makes feel worse sorry guys wanted vent bit idk right sub ill play thought seeking help likely delete post later
Hoy hermano le dijo que parecía cansado viviri pensamiento buen escondite mente día sigue siendo más difícil disfrutar de la vida volver papá tuvo cáncer tuvo gran depresiónsí siempre depresión leve tener cáncer otra cosa llevó intentos de bandera roja realización muerte vida vida lo que quiera pensar hecho realidad thay papá consiguió mejor hecho feliz meses pensar im volver mente punto nublado llegar a ser autodestructivo simplemente cuidar la vida sentir como theres significado vida tiempo querer morir allí nada vida morir llegar nada nada allí algo tomó vida castigar que quiere detener tiempo cama nada eternidad quiere pensar querer nada solo eternidad manera ver cosas dos cosas suceden terminar seguro nada la vida lamentarse conseguir mayor quiere ir doctor buscar ayuda planificación meses sin embargo ir im edad suficiente ir solo todavía miedo padres encontrar hermano que parece una persona loca como perdedores y perdedor solitario poner cara meds probablemente la terapia se asegura se siente peor chicos quería vent bit idk derecho sub mala juego pensamiento buscar ayuda probable eliminación post más tarde