heres thingive suicidal life first id get really depressed teen early adult would grab whatever bottle pills swallow them someone would find id end waking hospital day later then  years ago really depressed things dark deeply hurt wife left parents taking divorce attorney making things nothing daggers heart stood everything wasnt made breathe wake morning get bed etc devastated still trying nobody wanted listen so made decision end life read online ordered meds went state booked hotel couple nights took pills found  hours later helicopter ride couple ambulances  days later miraculously woke coma so last  years down get really down recovered month two time felt up last months very bad feel totally hopeless ordered sodium nitrite online thinking taking end life however last time serious attempt felt peace it actually happy peace day it time feels different cant reach sort peace felt feel like may making mistake it ive thought much would rather let family get with know
heres thingive suicidal life first id get really depressed teen early adult would grab whatever bottle pills swallow them someone would find id end waking hospital day later then years ago really depressed things dark deeply hurt wife left parents taking divorce attorney making things nothing daggers heart stood everything wasnt made breathe wake morning get bed etc devastated still trying nobody wanted listen so made decision end life read online ordered meds went state booked hotel couple nights took pills found hours later helicopter ride couple ambulances days later miraculously woke coma so last years down get really down recovered month two time felt up last months very bad feel totally hopeless ordered sodium nitrite online thinking taking end life however last time serious attempt felt peace it actually happy peace day it time feels different cant reach sort peace felt feel like may making mistake it ive thought much would rather let family get with know
heres thingive suicida life first id get really deprimido adolescente adulto temprano tomaría cualquier botella píldoras tragaría alguien encontraría id fin de despertar hospital día más tarde años atrás cosas realmente deprimidas oscuro profundamente herido esposa dejó padres tomando abogado divorcio hacer cosas nada dagas corazón se mantuvo todo no se hizo respirar despierta mañana conseguir cama etc devastado todavía tratando nadie quería escuchar tan hecho decisión fin de la vida leer en línea orden meds was state reservado hotel par de noches tomó pastillas encontradas horas más tarde helicóptero paseo par ambulancias días más tarde milagrosamente despierto coma así que los últimos años se recuperan realmente abajo mes dos veces se sintió muy mal los últimos meses muy mal sentir totalmente ordenado nitrito de sodio en línea pensar tomar fin de la vida sin embargo la última vez intento serio se sintió paz en realidad día de paz feliz se siente diferente no puede alcanzar tipo de paz se siente como puede cometer error i ve mucho más bien dejar que la familia llegar con saber