thought end thing makes happy im entirely sure say often find lost words need ever depressed tried oh lord tried get rid it make disappear longer think capability happy seems almost impossible im going apologize advance inevitable essay first post lot things need aired need someone hear me listen explode first all mother died   died suddenly obviously lot heart ache sadness on stuff would normally expect anyone loved mother father worked away sister never stable home sometimes lived nan grandfather times would stay auntie occasionally nan would look us mothers mother wonderful person finally allowed open someone took open arms person would tell father wrong died  day seeing grandfather cry heart wrenching thing ever witnessed found wonderful boyfriend treated like everything course best friend like sharing time someone else left life i still miss her time noticed eczema started get worse nothing curing it took skin problem doctor referred dermatologist baffled idea was tried different tests treatments avail since various doctors around uk travelling far wide seek treatment condition got even worse body wasis covered itchy sore later year uncle died grandfather started think fault maybe curse family tried commit redflag three times carved shit thighs stopped eating properly thought enormous weighed kg boyfriend could longer handle me erratic self destructive left two years suffering me point really decided life me pain day every day skin leave school gcses pain unbearable could hardly motivate leave bed got diagnosed new illness called myasthenia gravis for wish google disease simply something makes muscles incredibly weak point hard walk eat sometimes even talk steroids helping condition curable hoping go remission someday top this look  year old sister since grandparents longer around so huff starting feel like writing wrong reasons feel like im writing sob story wanted ill quickly explain happens that decided get better mentally tried unbelievably hard finally felt like succeeded got boyfriend back year trying moved house boyfriends parents housebecause father verbally abusive kind got social life back track now back started rejected friends again afraid leave house boyfriend wonderful feel like cant give need sit every day feeling like massive empty space inside me im desperately trying find something fill nothing want nothing life anymore knew could die tomorrow without hurting boyfriend sister would it would end it one talk afraid losing boyfriend trust anyone else poor shit leave school illnesses get job reason government also unwilling help all kg heavier medicines feel like elephant terribly unsatisfied way look seen glimpse happiness totally worth effort this sounds incredibly gay idea anymore scared future want curl ball fade away tried leave father even thinking makes angry however tell this man go hell put through living im wasting time tldr  depressed happyish see point living
thought end thing makes happy im entirely sure say often find lost words need ever depressed tried oh lord tried get rid it make disappear longer think capability happy seems almost impossible im going apologize advance inevitable essay first post lot things need aired need someone hear me listen explode first all mother died died suddenly obviously lot heart ache sadness on stuff would normally expect anyone loved mother father worked away sister never stable home sometimes lived nan grandfather times would stay auntie occasionally nan would look us mothers mother wonderful person finally allowed open someone took open arms person would tell father wrong died day seeing grandfather cry heart wrenching thing ever witnessed found wonderful boyfriend treated like everything course best friend like sharing time someone else left life i still miss her time noticed eczema started get worse nothing curing it took skin problem doctor referred dermatologist baffled idea was tried different tests treatments avail since various doctors around uk travelling far wide seek treatment condition got even worse body wasis covered itchy sore later year uncle died grandfather started think fault maybe curse family tried commit redflag three times carved shit thighs stopped eating properly thought enormous weighed kg boyfriend could longer handle me erratic self destructive left two years suffering me point really decided life me pain day every day skin leave school gcses pain unbearable could hardly motivate leave bed got diagnosed new illness called myasthenia gravis for wish google disease simply something makes muscles incredibly weak point hard walk eat sometimes even talk steroids helping condition curable hoping go remission someday top this look year old sister since grandparents longer around so huff starting feel like writing wrong reasons feel like im writing sob story wanted ill quickly explain happens that decided get better mentally tried unbelievably hard finally felt like succeeded got boyfriend back year trying moved house boyfriends parents housebecause father verbally abusive kind got social life back track now back started rejected friends again afraid leave house boyfriend wonderful feel like cant give need sit every day feeling like massive empty space inside me im desperately trying find something fill nothing want nothing life anymore knew could die tomorrow without hurting boyfriend sister would it would end it one talk afraid losing boyfriend trust anyone else poor shit leave school illnesses get job reason government also unwilling help all kg heavier medicines feel like elephant terribly unsatisfied way look seen glimpse happiness totally worth effort this sounds incredibly gay idea anymore scared future want curl ball fade away tried leave father even thinking makes angry however tell this man go hell put through living im wasting time tldr depressed happyish see point living
pensamiento fin cosa hace feliz im completamente seguro decir a menudo encontrar palabras perdidas necesidad nunca deprimido tratado