long story tldr want die im failureso interested reading grab popcorn soda or tea that sit down story became failure ampxb moment im  years old im third world country want die ampxb so starts typical suicidal story me shy skinny kid kind low physical capabilities high intelligence i humble time judge little me country everyone soccer father same got little brother practicing lot little like even though supposedly kind good it quite like sports general enjoyed peaceful environment quite know kind things would like free time since knew soccer school focused school everyone else elementary school also lot soccer reunited play join think consider worth bond something like forward high school changed schools since mom got arguments teachers principal befriend heavily anyone really care brother hand social went visit school couple times ampxb situation high school elementary school people liked soccer like soccer played every afternoon didnt still like soccer btw grew really shy talking new people also help kind weird since people classroom friends little brother we  years apart me ampxb country prep school or thing countries highschool rule is universities entrance exams already finished highschool take it top enter people take  years prepare exams passed finishing highschool again think much myself hadhave kind low selfesteem care anymore since matter i  enter university turned  next month tho ampxb private school family kind low income support program that around  dollars month still kind expensive tho ampxb now know said know would enjoy free time kid thing know actually wanted every way hobby goal anything wanted life kind feeling empty since career choice wondering around wikipedia ampxb also side note uncle professional my parents arent mom helped lot college years supported lot paid half english lessons half university monthly fee i forgot appropriate word ampxb so started think life actually liked study good anything else do started go classes wondered around campus thinking also go evaluations kind feeling like everybody else wanted do mean bad want children study know kind confusing me also friends neither again everyone soccer hated game point ampxb end semester failed  classes want study also want embarrassment parents uncle put lot money failed still reluctant asked give another chance started second semester ampxb second semester still like study new pressure ampxb university rules expelled fail class  times expelled finish general studies is  semesters curriculum maximum  semesters expelled general studies fail  times ampxb want study like career chose like pressure want failure always felt like everyone high expectations me also money invested ampxb head mess ampxb failed   classes semester ampxb want continue wasting everybodys money hopes left university ampxb turned  year started working call center i hated job ampxb getting end year get hospitalized tumor behind nose not cancer ampxb money earned lot parents relatives went surgery ampxb near death experience give strength hopes try again also wanted pay back money spend convinced could go college parents believed me gave new chance my uncle part time cant blame him went back continue journey ampxb first new semester passed everything second new semester failed  class third new semester passed everything ampxb fourth new semester story continues ampxb thing university merit system best qualifed students priority choosing classes went into remember failed lot there ampxb series courses passed particular order intro physics physics    ampxb one last students one semester get physics  class ampxb th official semester physics  calculus  elective digital design ampxb needed complete physics  one class finish general studies get record clean  semester left really stressed out kind okey ampxb thing even failed  class even class physics out yet take classes summer vacations here one december  february maximum  again priority order but exception people finish like me got priority that failed more  could take physics  summer physics  regular semester ampxb digital design group class one student group  clueless people campus anything shy say something even teacher hate this know could reverse time still able say anything ill see hell ampxb failed physics  digital design ampxb out ampxb brother entered college  years preparation goes parties every then titular still official general course soccer team uncle paying half monthly fee average student ampxb  months every parents indirectly mention disappointed are reason cant find job clean house help parents every way can nothing going enough one talk since could never make friend could talk problems got anime videogames scape reality started college mom always hated always room laptop gift uncle entered college never hobby could enjoy fake reality felt bad encouraged brothers soccer hobby told hobby bad mean understand sports healthy like soccer like home relaxed allowed one thing enjoyed supposed do ampxb feel bad im using laptop avoid nothing do one talk to professional future even crappy job im allowed enjoy hobby also morally speaking since im unemployed cant home playing day ampxb wanted see could get videogame development career available institutes in country shit regular one even expensive college parents focus paying brothers education even willing give another chancethat ask able afford it cant afford since even got crappy job minimum wage half regular institute costs would work  years pay  year career rd world country regular institute high hopes jobs even it ampxb ampxb im problem since parents still spend money maintain alive food im giving anything return nothing current life nothing everything owe them ampxb would better brother better version me been everyone hoped would be ampxb hate life hate fact lost everything had ampxb hate money repay everyone gave support disappoint ampxb hate able make friends maybe tried soccer mean hate it least could made friends know maybe got parties drinking i like taste alcohol cigarettes although really care people surrounding it feel really comfortable big parties ampxb always wanted die tired pressure always verge expelled feeling expelled everything else tried kill before multiple times part im also coward want feel physical pain felt go without paying back ampxb pay back cant tired ive stupid journey even asked for im paying first semester mistake know know now nowhere go nothing do ampxb even know told first half life think relevant even want go erase im phone ampxb post gets deleted care wanted write somewhere think omitted things know put them counts summary guess ampxb well im go probably kill right now ill wait morning
long story tldr want die im failureso interested reading grab popcorn soda or tea that sit down story became failure ampxb moment im years old im third world country want die ampxb so starts typical suicidal story me shy skinny kid kind low physical capabilities high intelligence i humble time judge little me country everyone soccer father same got little brother practicing lot little like even though supposedly kind good it quite like sports general enjoyed peaceful environment quite know kind things would like free time since knew soccer school focused school everyone else elementary school also lot soccer reunited play join think consider worth bond something like forward high school changed schools since mom got arguments teachers principal befriend heavily anyone really care brother hand social went visit school couple times ampxb situation high school elementary school people liked soccer like soccer played every afternoon didnt still like soccer btw grew really shy talking new people also help kind weird since people classroom friends little brother we years apart me ampxb country prep school or thing countries highschool rule is universities entrance exams already finished highschool take it top enter people take years prepare exams passed finishing highschool again think much myself hadhave kind low selfesteem care anymore since matter i enter university turned next month tho ampxb private school family kind low income support program that around dollars month still kind expensive tho ampxb now know said know would enjoy free time kid thing know actually wanted every way hobby goal anything wanted life kind feeling empty since career choice wondering around wikipedia ampxb also side note uncle professional my parents arent mom helped lot college years supported lot paid half english lessons half university monthly fee i forgot appropriate word ampxb so started think life actually liked study good anything else do started go classes wondered around campus thinking also go evaluations kind feeling like everybody else wanted do mean bad want children study know kind confusing me also friends neither again everyone soccer hated game point ampxb end semester failed classes want study also want embarrassment parents uncle put lot money failed still reluctant asked give another chance started second semester ampxb second semester still like study new pressure ampxb university rules expelled fail class times expelled finish general studies is semesters curriculum maximum semesters expelled general studies fail times ampxb want study like career chose like pressure want failure always felt like everyone high expectations me also money invested ampxb head mess ampxb failed classes semester ampxb want continue wasting everybodys money hopes left university ampxb turned year started working call center i hated job ampxb getting end year get hospitalized tumor behind nose not cancer ampxb money earned lot parents relatives went surgery ampxb near death experience give strength hopes try again also wanted pay back money spend convinced could go college parents believed me gave new chance my uncle part time cant blame him went back continue journey ampxb first new semester passed everything second new semester failed class third new semester passed everything ampxb fourth new semester story continues ampxb thing university merit system best qualifed students priority choosing classes went into remember failed lot there ampxb series courses passed particular order intro physics physics ampxb one last students one semester get physics class ampxb th official semester physics calculus elective digital design ampxb needed complete physics one class finish general studies get record clean semester left really stressed out kind okey ampxb thing even failed class even class physics out yet take classes summer vacations here one december february maximum again priority order but exception people finish like me got priority that failed more could take physics summer physics regular semester ampxb digital design group class one student group clueless people campus anything shy say something even teacher hate this know could reverse time still able say anything ill see hell ampxb failed physics digital design ampxb out ampxb brother entered college years preparation goes parties every then titular still official general course soccer team uncle paying half monthly fee average student ampxb months every parents indirectly mention disappointed are reason cant find job clean house help parents every way can nothing going enough one talk since could never make friend could talk problems got anime videogames scape reality started college mom always hated always room laptop gift uncle entered college never hobby could enjoy fake reality felt bad encouraged brothers soccer hobby told hobby bad mean understand sports healthy like soccer like home relaxed allowed one thing enjoyed supposed do ampxb feel bad im using laptop avoid nothing do one talk to professional future even crappy job im allowed enjoy hobby also morally speaking since im unemployed cant home playing day ampxb wanted see could get videogame development career available institutes in country shit regular one even expensive college parents focus paying brothers education even willing give another chancethat ask able afford it cant afford since even got crappy job minimum wage half regular institute costs would work years pay year career rd world country regular institute high hopes jobs even it ampxb ampxb im problem since parents still spend money maintain alive food im giving anything return nothing current life nothing everything owe them ampxb would better brother better version me been everyone hoped would be ampxb hate life hate fact lost everything had ampxb hate money repay everyone gave support disappoint ampxb hate able make friends maybe tried soccer mean hate it least could made friends know maybe got parties drinking i like taste alcohol cigarettes although really care people surrounding it feel really comfortable big parties ampxb always wanted die tired pressure always verge expelled feeling expelled everything else tried kill before multiple times part im also coward want feel physical pain felt go without paying back ampxb pay back cant tired ive stupid journey even asked for im paying first semester mistake know know now nowhere go nothing do ampxb even know told first half life think relevant even want go erase im phone ampxb post gets deleted care wanted write somewhere think omitted things know put them counts summary guess ampxbwellim go probably kill right now ill wait morning
larga historia tldr quiere morir im fracasos interesado leyendo agarrar popcorn soda o té que sentarse historia se convirtió en fracaso ampxb momento im años de edad im tercer mundo país quiere morir ampxb así que comienza típica historia suicida me tímido chico delgado tipo baja capacidad física alta inteligencia