really need someone help mei past point ever feeling happy again  years old cosmetology school live own feel ive anyone age shouldve  lost dad gunshot wound latin kings milwaukee never got dad life mom never really step dad doesnt really talk ever never really friends growing up one close friend slowly growing apart even best friends  years raped  guy really trusted relationship now really took beating self worth esteem stuck abusive relationship  forced isolate myself starve myself beat me raped convinced im worth nothing get trouble killing friends family would make suffer selfharmed since  feel show people little think cry help mom denies problems refuses let get help expensive step dad owns company makes  figures everything parents literally issue money put hospital taken lorazapam put insurance hospital bills folder put room remind much problems cost them cannot control anger temper im upset nothing stop me dont know make stop literally cannot trust another human being struggle money problems live dont like asking parents money make big deal know continue living seeing find enjoyment anything life anymore know life good im denying im fortunate im thankful cant cope problems inside head cannot keep good relationship anyone problems scare everyone away people want deal me ive told feel misunderstood life feel trapped inside head feel alone well feel like im never good enough anyone around constantly remind much burden am constantly alone roommate never here cant go lot get early everyday school struggling depression anxiety since  ive recently struggling anorexia bulimia dont drive eat someone please talk me friend help find way get help anything contemplate redflag daily feel close making end seeing way cope 
really need someone help mei past point ever feeling happy again years old cosmetology school live own feel ive anyone age shouldve lost dad gunshot wound latin kings milwaukee never got dad life mom never really step dad doesnt really talk ever never really friends growing up one close friend slowly growing apart even best friends years raped guy really trusted relationship now really took beating self worth esteem stuck abusive relationship forced isolate myself starve myself beat me raped convinced im worth nothing get trouble killing friends family would make suffer selfharmed since feel show people little think cry help mom denies problems refuses let get help expensive step dad owns company makes figures everything parents literally issue money put hospital taken lorazapam put insurance hospital bills folder put room remind much problems cost them cannot control anger temper im upset nothing stop me dont know make stop literally cannot trust another human being struggle money problems live dont like asking parents money make big deal know continue living seeing find enjoyment anything life anymore know life good im denying im fortunate im thankful cant cope problems inside head cannot keep good relationship anyone problems scare everyone away people want deal me ive told feel misunderstood life feel trapped inside head feel alone well feel like im never good enough anyone around constantly remind much burden am constantly alone roommate never here cant go lot get early everyday school struggling depression anxiety since ive recently struggling anorexia bulimia dont drive eat someone please talk me friendhelp find way get help anything contemplate redflag daily feel close making end seeing way cope
realmente necesita alguien ayuda mei punto pasado nunca sentirse feliz de nuevo años de edad escuela cosmetología vivir propia sentir ive cualquier persona edad debería haber perdido papá herida de bala reyes latinos milwaukee nunca tengo papá vida mamá nunca realmente paso papá realmente nunca realmente hablar nunca nunca realmente amigos crecer un amigo cercano crecer lentamente aparte incluso mejores amigos años violado chico realmente confianza relación ahora realmente tomó batir autoestima estima pegada relación me aíslo forzado me golpeó violado convencido im vale nada conseguir problemas matar amigos familia haría sufrir daño ya se siente la gente poco pensar llorar ayuda mamá niega problemas le permite obtener ayuda caro paso papá posee compañía hace cifras todo los padres literalmente emitir dinero poner hospital tomado lorazapam poner cartera de facturas de hospital de seguros poner habitación recordar muchos problemas les cuestan no pueden controlar ira temperamento im malestar nada me no sé hacer parar literalmente no puede confiar en otro ser humano lucha dinero problemas vivir no como pedir a los padres dinero hacer gran cosa saber seguir viendo disfrutar cualquier vida más saber vida buena im negar im afortunado