idea many different aspects lifelet preface saying although worked hard get am know im lucky person whole life ive complaints  friends played sports girlfriends sex love  experienced life average american grade schooler high schooler college student young professional would experience it im bit introverted most plenty things feel like ive wasted time worked hard high school get full ride college worry loans lucky enough career pays  year half graduating city cost living low im kind rambling im trying make point many people would kill have yet reason really want live im really sad anything feel like ive experienced enough id fine living anymore way last decade id totally okay vanished thin air everyone simply forgot ever existed hate career im passionate it knew wanted do id throw current job heartbeat idea want do enjoy really change fact desire live hobbies love like snowboarding ive good girlfriends ive love with even that often want fade existence im pretty nihilistic think life intrinsic meaning ones responsibility assign meaning life ive never able matter hard ive tried purposelessness makes feel okay wanting alive times get tougher like now often lean towards wanting dead rather simply apathetic it used think fun activities dating distractions apathy time ive sort assigned importance them them im living life like point time maybe distraction apathy life supposed like even then cant help feel bit shallow know reality cant always like that even were id likely get sick time im sorry know really cohesive way thinking things typing out tldr  im sure life ive tried hard prescribe meaningfulness life cant really it results apathetic living normal circumstances makes lean towards wanting live situations get difficult thanks reading ill check back tomorrow anyone thoughts
idea many different aspects lifelet preface saying although worked hard get am knowim lucky person whole life ive complaints friends played sports girlfriends sex love experienced life average american grade schooler high schooler college student young professional would experience it im bit introverted most plenty things feel like ive wasted time worked hard high school get full ride college worry loans lucky enough career pays year half graduating city cost living lowim kind rambling im trying make point many people would kill have yet reason really want liveim really sad anything feel like ive experienced enough id fine living anymore way last decade id totally okay vanished thin air everyone simply forgot ever existed hate careerim passionate it knew wanted do id throw current job heartbeat idea want do enjoy really change fact desire live hobbies love like snowboarding ive good girlfriends ive love with even that often want fade existenceim pretty nihilistic think life intrinsic meaning ones responsibility assign meaning life ive never able matter hard ive tried purposelessness makes feel okay wanting alive times get tougher like now often lean towards wanting dead rather simply apathetic it used think fun activities dating distractions apathy time ive sort assigned importance them them im living life like point time maybe distraction apathy life supposed like even then cant help feel bit shallow know reality cant always like that even were id likely get sick timeim sorry know really cohesive way thinking things typing out tldr im sure life ive tried hard prescribe meaningfulness life cant really it results apathetic living normal circumstances makes lean towards wanting live situations get difficult thanks reading ill check back tomorrow anyone thoughts
idea muchos aspectos diferentes prefacio lifelet decir aunque trabajó duro obtener am knowim suerte persona toda la vida ive quejas amigos jugados deportes novias sexo amor experiencia vida promedio americano estudiante de primaria estudiante universitario joven profesional experimentaría im poco introvertido la mayoría de las cosas se sienten como ive perdido tiempo duro escuela secundaria obtener viaje completo universidad preocupación préstamos bastante carrera paga año medio graduarse ciudad coste vida lowim tipo divagar im intentar punto mucha gente mataría todavía razón realmente quiero liveim realmente triste cualquier cosa se siente como ive experimentado suficiente id vida fina más manera la última década id totalmente bien desapareció aire delgado todo el mundo simplemente olvidó siempre existió odio carreraim apasionado sabía que quería hacer id lanzamiento actual latidos del corazón idea querer disfrutar realmente cambio hecho deseo live hobbies amor como snowboarding ive buenas novias amor con incluso que a menudo quieren desaparecer existenciaim bastante nihilista pensar vida