us built survivethats lately ive thinking life endless myriad suffering consistently used tossed away miss pills least pills feel like throwing moving car fantasize almost every day want die somewhere beautiful cold somewhere snow survived cult endured childhood full rejection rape abuse beatings death  continue teenage years family disowned religion denied education medical treatment place call home fell love thought could cured married foolishly cant seem overcome disorders ive fully diagnosed plethora them broken relationship treat well have im proficient music hold job im good things put hand cant happy nightmares anxiety depression lack friends lack family lack support eats away every day everything overwhelming hurts im afraid want check hospital theyll forcefeed pills ill away wife thing keeps grounded tried start family failed want stop sick used afraid feel apathetic feel resigned ive thinking gentlest best way end come solid decision thinking something quietly put sleep im tired trying ive tried years better situation ive therapists doctors pills tried almost everything think improve nothing working darkness winning
us built survivethats lately ive thinking life endless myriad suffering consistently used tossed away miss pills least pills feel like throwing moving car fantasize almost every day want die somewhere beautiful cold somewhere snow survived cult endured childhood full rejection rape abuse beatings death continue teenage years family disowned religion denied education medical treatment place call home fell love thought could cured married foolishly cant seem overcome disorders ive fully diagnosed plethora them broken relationship treat well have im proficient music hold job im good things put hand cant happy nightmares anxiety depression lack friends lack family lack support eats away every day everything overwhelming hurts im afraid want check hospital theyll forcefeed pills ill away wife thing keeps grounded tried start family failed want stop sick used afraid feel apathetic feel resigned ive thinking gentlest best way end come solid decision thinking something quietly put sleep im tired trying ive tried years better situation ive therapists doctors pills tried almost everything think improve nothing working darkness winning
Nos construyó sobrevivir que últimamente vida pensamiento vida sin fin miríada de sufrimiento consistentemente utilizado lanzado a la basura pérdida píldoras menos píldoras se siente como tirar coche en movimiento fantasear casi todos los días quieren morir en algún lugar hermoso frío nieve culto perdurado infancia completo rechazo violación abuso palizas muerte continuación adolescente años familia desautorización religión negado educación tratamiento médico lugar call home caída amor pensamiento podría curarse tontamente no puede parecer superar trastornos ive totalmente diagnosticados plethora ellos tratamiento roto relación bien have im competente música mantener trabajo im buenas cosas puso mano cant feliz pesadillas ansiedad amigos falta de apoyo familia falta comer todos los días todo dolor abrumador im miedo quieren cheque hospital ellos forcefeed píldoras mal lejos esposa thing threat tryed start family failed what try tryed start tryed start family failed stop used se siente apathetic resignado ive thinking neverththrough working winning