feel like manipulative abusive person pressured ex come back selfish desires want ruin reputation future cant find way outmy first relationship ever  girl dating also  early know everyone school beginning date age happy couple kissed cuddled told much loved gave gifts thought everything going great good things come end wanted break me reason felt good her disagreed much possible true ive low selfesteem long could remember ended breaking me still give up thought kept asking come back me would could happy again things before missed seeing her thats did kept asking come deeply missed her want get back together eventually agreed unfortunately relationship beyond repair eyes broke up again talk several years now realise done kept begging come back selfish desires want to end made give coming back me blind fact want relationship anymore yet made come back me feel absolutely terrible thing guilt feel every day last couple months overwhelming fast forward   finally talked first time  years apologised everything told changed desperate selfish kid was bit confused apologising accepted anyway im sure forgiven me mad first place maybe forgotten happened shell remember one day realise dumb mistakes made im pretty terrified past affect future especially pressuring come back me could kiss cuddle again would affect rest life mental health know get rid guilt feel every day long time ago remember like yesterday overthinking things reasonable thing worry about tldr pressured ex come back did work out think still good terms other feel guilt feel like manipulative person pressured ex things want do know better something worry future common mistake someone age make
feel like manipulative abusive person pressured ex come back selfish desires want ruin reputation future cant find way outmy first relationship ever girl dating also early know everyone school beginning date age happy couple kissed cuddled told much loved gave gifts thought everything going great good things come end wanted break me reason felt good her disagreed much possible trueive low selfesteem long could remember ended breaking me still give up thought kept asking come back me would could happy again things before missed seeing her thats did kept asking come deeply missed her want get back together eventually agreed unfortunately relationship beyond repair eyes broke up again talk several years now realise done kept begging come back selfish desires want to end made give coming back me blind fact want relationship anymore yet made come back me feel absolutely terrible thing guilt feel every day last couple months overwhelming fast forward finally talked first time years apologised everything told changed desperate selfish kid was bit confused apologising accepted anyway im sure forgiven me mad first place maybe forgotten happened shell remember one day realise dumb mistakes made im pretty terrified past affect future especially pressuring come back me could kiss cuddle again would affect rest life mental health know get rid guilt feel every day long time ago remember like yesterday overthinking things reasonable thing worry about tldr pressured ex come back did work out think still good terms other feel guilt feel like manipulative person pressured ex things want do know better something worry future common mistake someone age make
Siento como manipulador abusivo persona presionada ex volver deseos egoístas quieren ruina reputación futuro no puedo encontrar manera de salir de mi primera relación chica citas también temprano saber todos escuela edad feliz pareja beso abrazo dijo mucho amado dio regalos pensó todo yendo grandes cosas buenas fin quería romper la razón se sintió bien ella no estaba de acuerdo mucho posible verdad baja autoestima durante mucho tiempo podría recordar terminó rompiendo todavía me dejó de pensar seguir pidiendo volver me podría volver cosas felices antes de perderla que no la veía venir profundamente perdido su deseo volver juntos finalmente acordado por desgracia relaciones más allá de reparación ojos rotos de nuevo hablar varios años ahora se dio cuenta se siguió pidiendo volver deseos egoístas quiero terminar hecho dar volver ciego hecho querer relación más y más hecho hecho volver me siento absolutamente terrible culpa sentir cada día último par de meses abrumando rápido hacia adelante finalmente habló primero años se disculpó todo lo dicho cambió desesperado chico egoísta estaba un poco confundido disculparse aceptó