helpthis something sent someone today im currently drunk knife hands really know ill make day want to wanna bother wont sending messages this stop reading delete want ok wanted say someone since kind know ill say you get emotional charge would come wanna pile day kind hope reading anymore gone day decent chance making next week ive tried kill november failed woke regret alive knowing try long time piling since im getting feeling hopelesness desolace day im tired pretending right now fake smiles fake laughs fake conversations fake one smile say im ok one time today im gonna break ironic always considered rational logical end emotions mental disorders taking me know believe disconnected feel think lost importance know id much offer partner friend feel social interactions everyone better staying away me fake smile plastic conversation end quickly can never real never vulnerable adding layers protect much logically want break cant thick much work im tired failed make real human connection life never real friend real relationship seems crave most completely effortless people even though biggest source anguish im failing anything it could say logically want would flick switch end desire could understand ways would effect brain end thats wanted happy tried hard long know keep trying set lot difficult goals thought would make happy worked years accomplished much everything worse feel things nothing everything seems nothing im lost abandoning possible positive outcomes end darkness negative ones seems really good trade right now guess comes wanted leave last note somewhere last piece real ever one
helpthis something sent someone today im currently drunk knife hands really know ill make day want to wanna bother wont sending messages this stop reading delete want ok wanted say someone since kind know ill say you get emotional charge would come wanna pile day kind hope reading anymore gone day decent chance making next week ive tried kill november failed woke regret alive knowing try long time piling since im getting feeling hopelesness desolace day im tired pretending right now fake smiles fake laughs fake conversations fake one smile say im ok one time today im gonna break ironic always considered rational logical end emotions mental disorders taking me know believe disconnected feel think lost importanceknow id much offer partner friend feel social interactions everyone better staying away me fake smile plastic conversation end quickly can never real never vulnerable adding layers protect much logically want break cant thick much work im tired failed make real human connection life never real friend real relationship seems crave most completely effortless people even though biggest source anguish im failing anything it could say logically want would flick switch end desire could understand ways would effect brain end thats wanted happy tried hard long know keep trying set lot difficult goals thought would make happy worked years accomplished much everything worse feel things nothing everything seems nothing im lost abandoning possible positive outcomes end darkness negative ones seems really good trade right now guess comes wanted leave last note somewhere last piece real ever one
helpthis something mand someone today im actualmente borracho cuchillo manos realmente saben mal hacer el día quieren molestarse no quiere enviar mensajes esta parada lectura borrar quieren bien quería decir alguien desde amable sabe mal decir que usted recibe carga emocional vendría amontonar día especie esperanza leer más ido día oportunidad decente hacer la próxima semana i trip kill november failed arrepentimiento vivo saber intentar mucho tiempo amontonarse desde im sentirse esperanza desolace día im cansado pretender ahora sonrisas falsas risas falsas conversaciones falsas una sonrisa decir im ok una vez hoy voy a romper irónico siempre considerado racional final emociones trastornos mentales que me dan cuenta creen desconectado sentir perdido importanciasaben id mucho oferta amigo sentir interacciones sociales socio amigo