unhappy want end always end thinking others worse everyones hard time right now feel even guilty suicidalim  done anything worth mentioning life far show marriage dog love much change feel many plans gotten execute exactly none im fucked every level really bad physical health top everything else im liver failure feel like shit constantly im sick enough need transplant yet puts shitty position life im kind stuck low end home job energy almost non existent without continuing education pushing back graduation date even concentrating difficult finally enter workforce healthy capable individual knows ever will doctor told start applying ssi job one reasons killed yet but even physically healthy im fucked head knows id actually able accomplish goals im terrified criticism shut slightest inkling sort negative test score lowering gpa passed one semester  next semester got b important test realized  end semester it next semester gave got two failing grades two five classes gpa like  now serious ptsd mental health issues past trauma even healthy physically always held back want risk success failure painful now cares im sick try anyway life direction plans cant plan anything liver could fail completely time could never completely fail could waste life always feeling way feel fucking trapped due covid too least could go outside normal healthy people pretend hours everything ok everyone wearing masks everyone struggling everything mess almost everyone cant escape nothing ok anywhere feel trapped feel like way way out wish wasted good health younger wish wouldve gotten therapy money access neither know much longer this
unhappy want end always end thinking others worse everyones hard time right now feel even guilty suicidalim done anything worth mentioning life far show marriage dog love much change feel many plans gotten execute exactly none im fucked every level really bad physical health top everything else im liver failure feel like shit constantly im sick enough need transplant yet puts shitty position life im kind stuck low end home job energy almost non existent without continuing education pushing back graduation date even concentrating difficult finally enter workforce healthy capable individual knows ever will doctor told start applying ssi job one reasons killed yet but even physically healthy im fucked head knows id actually able accomplish goals im terrified criticism shut slightest inkling sort negative test score lowering gpa passed one semester next semester got b important test realized end semester it next semester gave got two failing grades two five classes gpa like now serious ptsd mental health issues past trauma even healthy physically always held back want risk success failure painful now cares im sick try anyway life direction plans cant plan anything liver could fail completely time could never completely fail could waste life always feeling way feel fucking trapped due covid too least could go outside normal healthy people pretend hours everything ok everyone wearing masks everyone struggling everything mess almost everyone cant escape nothing ok anywhere feel trapped feel like way way out wish wasted good health younger wish wouldve gotten therapy money access neither know much longer this
Infeliz querer terminar siempre terminan pensando otros peor todo el mundo tiempo duro en este momento se siente incluso culpable suicida hizo algo digno de mención vida lejos mostrar matrimonio perro amor mucho cambio sentir muchos planes conseguido ejecutar exactamente ninguno im follado cada nivel realmente mal salud física top todo lo demás im insuficiencia hepática se siente como mierda constantemente im enfermo suficiente necesidad trasplante sin embargo pone mierda posición vida im especie atascados bajo extremo trabajo en casa energía casi inexistente sin educación continua empujando hacia atrás fecha de graduación incluso difícil finalmente entrar en la fuerza de trabajo sano individuo capaz sabe que el médico le dijo empezar a aplicar el trabajo ssi una razón asesinada aún, pero incluso físicamente saludable im puta cabeza sabe id realmente capaz lograr objetivos