life redflag attempta week passed since first redflag attempt ive struggling years silence best maintain facade thought finally ending pain relieving moment im still here everything changed terrifying im fearful many things including activities used effortlessly psychiatric hospital attempt three days convincing everyone around okay left still feeling empty wanting live part wants others able see pain im good composing speaking positively convince everyone around opposite real truth feel alone needy feeling hate have im returning work tomorrow far soon sick days terrified possible trigger feel perpetually anxious jittery antidepressants guilty feel much shame surrounding everything never told family major support system dark makes feel lonelier told boyfriend upset worried may affect him everyone always tells honest really mean that find hard believe someone deeply invested well would want hear intimate details demons haunt constant basis
life redflag attempta week passed since first redflag attempt ive struggling years silence best maintain facade thought finally ending pain relieving moment im still here everything changed terrifying im fearful many things including activities used effortlessly psychiatric hospital attempt three days convincing everyone around okay left still feeling empty wanting live part wants others able see pain im good composing speaking positively convince everyone around opposite real truth feel alone needy feeling hate have im returning work tomorrow far soon sick days terrified possible trigger feel perpetually anxious jittery antidepressants guilty feel much shame surrounding everything never told family major support system dark makes feel lonelier told boyfriend upset worried may affect him everyone always tells honest really mean that find hard believe someone deeply invested well would want hear intimate details demons haunt constant basis
vida redflag intento de una semana pasado desde primer intento de bandera roja ive lucha años silencio mejor mantener la fachada pensamiento finalmente final dolor alivio momento im todavía aquí todo cambió terrorífico im muchas cosas incluyendo actividades utilizadas sin esfuerzo intento de hospital psiquiátrico tres días convencer a todos alrededor de bien izquierda todavía sintiéndose vacío querer parte en vivo quiere otros capaces de ver dolor im buena composición hablar convencer positivamente a todos alrededor opuesto verdad real sentir solo necesidad sentir odio tener im volver trabajo mañana muy pronto días enfermos aterrorizado posible desencadenar sentir perpetuamente ansiosos antidepresivos culpables sentir mucha vergüenza alrededor de todo lo que nunca se le dijo familia sistema de apoyo mayor oscuridad hace sentir lonelier dijo novio molesto preocupado puede afectarle todo el mundo dice honesto realmente medio que encontrar difícil creer que alguien profundamente invertido bien querría escuchar detalles íntimos demonios perseverar constante base