im mess needed tell someoneive wanting die since ten remember trying choke trying figure tie became teenager used take pills know much time could take it feel embarrassed good life place sleep two degrees job friends warm lovely people still feel im disappointing everyone even me im  im mess im room time work sometimes like keep quiet im lying bed pretending exist love feeling enjoy nobody notices me relief hurting time ago anxiety leave go bed able see mirror used eat dark waiting midnight go bathroom want go back dark place ive thinking lot parents use money ive saving funeral would spend money that nobody knows sad im sure makes feel worse know people im happy laugh  enough money go therapy really think fix i nothing broke life family truly rejects stuff mental health ampxb would like know happy avoid thoughts kill myself mean even good motive im sorry english first language im rambling thoughts
im mess needed tell someoneive wanting die since ten remember trying choke trying figure tie became teenager used take pills know much time could take it feel embarrassed good life place sleep two degrees job friends warm lovely people still feel im disappointing everyone even me im im mess im room time work sometimes like keep quiet im lying bed pretending exist love feeling enjoy nobody notices me relief hurting time ago anxiety leave go bed able see mirror used eat dark waiting midnight go bathroom want go back dark place ive thinking lot parents use money ive saving funeral would spend money that nobody knows sad im sure makes feel worse know people im happy laugh enough money go therapy really think fix i nothing broke life family truly rejects stuff mental health ampxb would like know happy avoid thoughts kill myself mean even good motive im sorry english first language im rambling thoughts
Im desastre necesario decirle a alguien que quiere morir ya que diez recordar tratando de estrangularse tratando de la figura corbata se convirtió en adolescente utilizado tomar pastillas saber mucho tiempo podría tomar se siente vergüenza buena vida lugar sueño dos grados trabajo amigos cálidos gente encantadora todavía se siente im decepcionar a todos incluso me im im mess im habitación tiempo trabajo a veces como mantener silencio im mentira cama fingir amor sentir disfrutar nadie se da cuenta de alivio dolor tiempo hace ansiedad irse a la cama capaz de ver espejo utilizado comer oscuro espera medianoche ir baño querer volver lugar oscuro iv pensar mucho los padres utilizan dinero en vivo ahorro funeral gastaría dinero que nadie sabe triste im seguro se siente peor saber la gente im feliz risa suficiente dinero ir terapia realmente pensar arreglar i nada roto vida familia realmente rechaza cosas salud mental ampxb gustaría saber feliz evitar pensamientos matarme significa incluso buen motivo im lamentar inglés primer idioma im pensamientos