ive thinking redflag moreive really suicidal twice life well sort of first time planned told someone anything second time told then girlfriend suicidal belonged hospital ended happening thought put detox instead alcoholism lately thoughts coming back im rehab sober three months still there lately ive even thinking would include redflag note like formatting it know would it sucks much feel like tonight im going door it always lingers mind brought psychiatrist today told thoughts returning extent it pretty much said start going outside shit blah blah like said want tell therapist rehab case manager afraid send higher level care want sent somewhere like hospital whatever job trying start new life here maybe stress getting me like things start going bad mind goes could kill myself everything end worry it also worry sometimes think want it attempt it attention makes feel like piece shit even worse starts circle making think even more taking medication every night like should alcohol fuck man wrong me know normal thinking would like dead im sorry ramble need fucking tell somebody started get point think lot everyday thanks reading
ive thinking redflag moreive really suicidal twice life well sort of first time planned told someone anything second time told then girlfriend suicidal belonged hospital ended happening thought put detox instead alcoholism lately thoughts coming back im rehab sober three months still there lately ive even thinking would include redflag note like formatting it know would it sucks much feel like tonight im going doorit always lingers mind brought psychiatrist today told thoughts returning extent it pretty much said start going outside shitblah blah like said want tell therapist rehab case manager afraid send higher level care want sent somewhere like hospital whatever job trying start new life here maybe stress getting me like things start going bad mind goes could kill myself everything end worry it also worry sometimes think want it attempt it attention makes feel like piece shit even worse starts circle making think even more taking medication every night like should alcohol fuck man wrong me know normal thinking would like deadim sorry ramble need fucking tell somebody started get point think lot everyday thanks reading
Ive thinking Redflag moreive realmente suicida dos veces la vida bien planeó por primera vez le dijo a alguien algo segunda vez le dijo a la novia suicida pertenecía al hospital terminó sucediendo pensamiento puso desintoxicación en lugar alcoholismo últimamente pensamientos volver im rehabilitación sobria tres meses todavía allí últimamente ive incluso pensar incluir nota de redflag como formatear saber que sería una mierda mucho sentir como esta noche im ir puerta siempre se queda mente trajo psiquiatra hoy dijo pensamientos volver extensión bastante dijo empezar a salir mierda bla bla bla como dijo quiere decirle terapeuta gerente de caso rehabilitación miedo enviar mayor nivel de atención quieren enviado a algún lugar como hospital cualquier trabajo tratando de empezar una nueva vida aquí tal vez estrés conseguirme como las cosas empezar a ir mal mente va podría matarme todo extremo preocupación también preocupación a veces creo que quiero intentar que la atención hace sentir como pedazo mierda peor comienza círculo pensar aún más tomando medicamentos cada noche como debería alcohol mierda hombre mal saber normal pensar como deadim lo siento ramble necesidad mierda decir alguien empezó a punto pensar mucho todos los días gracias lectura