struggling  years depression suicidal thoughts always thought keeping work best thing i would sleeping entire day working no big mistakeit th week sick leave mess feeling day day cannot imagine difference feel connected myself even smiling feel useful again even shit entire day needed sleep take nap waking up needed think annoying coworkers needed go bike ride pm wednesday needed days front tv eating crap watching stupid shows nothing neededpeople go work every day feeling like shit crying work hours talk whoever supports discuss taking time off responsible it take advantage it office job course makes easier boss read much bottom sub wanted give bit light better timesi  sure feel like forever always ups downs mental health learned important lessons myself everything help get depressive episode future welcome burn depression
struggling years depression suicidal thoughts always thought keeping work best thing i would sleeping entire day working no big mistakeit th week sick leave mess feeling day day cannot imagine difference feel connected myself even smiling feel useful again even shit entire day needed sleep take nap waking up needed think annoying coworkers needed go bike ride pm wednesday needed days front tv eating crap watching stupid shows nothing neededpeople go work every day feeling like shit crying work hours talk whoever supports discuss taking time off responsible it take advantage it office job course makes easier boss read much bottom sub wanted give bit light better timesi sure feel like forever always ups downs mental health learned important lessons myself everything help get depressive episode future welcome burn depression
lucha años depresión pensamientos suicidas siempre pensó mantener el trabajo mejor cosa que yo dormiría todo el día trabajo no gran error th semana enfermo dejar desastre sentir día día no se puede imaginar la diferencia sentirse conectado incluso sonreír sentir útil incluso mierda día entero necesario dormir dormir dormir dormir necesita pensar molesto compañeros de trabajo necesita ir bicicleta paseo pm miércoles necesarios días front tv comer basura ver estúpidos shows nada necesita gente ir trabajo todos los días sentir mierda llorar horas de trabajo hablar quien apoya discutir tomar tiempo libre responsable tomar ventaja de él oficina trabajo curso hace más fácil jefe leer mucho fondo sub quería dar un poco de luz tiempos mejores seguro sentir como siempre altibajos salud mental aprendido lecciones importantes yo mismo todo ayudar a conseguir episodio depresivo futuro bienvenida quemar depresión