truman burbankim psychotic schizoeffective im legal trouble irresponsibility im violent im probably going jail soon feel numb it feels like im truman burbank except never actually find fake feels like life running joke everyone laughing behind scenes waiting finally reach cross line end it psychosis feels real realer real always proves wrong family thinks im crazy understand completely change feel inside head maybe die ill finally know wish never existed fantasize time dying falling asleep never waking up paying someone shoot fatal dose fentanyl crashing car full speed highway buying shotgun blowing roof mouth out jumping death drowning cinderblocks chained ankles wandering aimlessly wilderness night starving death therapists worked hospitals worked meds worked  months sobriety worked despise waking every day im ungrateful im majorly depressed idealize death feel void everything positive wish could wipe memory wish could start over wish everyone forgot was wish never existed first place
truman burbankim psychotic schizoeffective im legal trouble irresponsibility im violent im probably going jail soon feel numb it feels likeim truman burbank except never actually find fake feels like life running joke everyone laughing behind scenes waiting finally reach cross line end it psychosis feels real realer real always proves wrong family thinks im crazy understand completely change feel inside head maybe die illfinally know wish never existed fantasize time dying falling asleep never waking up paying someone shoot fatal dose fentanyl crashing car full speed highway buying shotgun blowing roof mouth out jumping death drowning cinderblocks chained ankles wandering aimlessly wilderness night starving death therapists worked hospitals worked meds worked months sobriety worked despise waking every day im ungrateful im majorly depressed idealize death feel void everything positive wish could wipe memory wish could start over wish everyone forgot was wish never existed first place
Truman burbankim psicótico schizoeffective im legal problema irresponsabilidad im violenta im probablemente ir a la cárcel pronto se siente adormecido se siente comoim truman burbank excepto nunca encontrar falso se siente como la vida corriendo broma todos riendo detrás de escenas esperando finalmente llegar a la línea de cruce final que psicosis se siente real real siempre prueba mal familia piensa im loco entender completamente cambio sentir dentro de la cabeza tal vez morir mal finalmente saber deseo nunca existió fantaseo tiempo morir dormido nunca pagar a alguien disparar dosis fatal fentanilo estrellarse coche carretera completa comprar escopeta soplando boca del techo saltar muerte ahogando ceniceros bloques encadenados tobillos vagando sin rumbo salvaje noche muerte muerte terapeutas trabajados hospitales trabajados meses sobria trabajado despreciar despertar cada día im desagradecido im mayormente deprimido idealizar la muerte sentir vacío todo deseo positivo podría borrar deseo de memoria podría empezar de nuevo deseo todo olvidado era deseo nunca existió primer lugar