past years alot shit happened decent bit trauma built up point painful even think time started happening moved dad previously walked years house thought could finally catch break not felt like object human let alone son every night even allowed close door room storage room barely allowed phone even allowed call mother made feel worse every day screwed even slightest  hour long lecture told purpose told going make life told make college told worth absolutely nothing everything went downhill one day risen hit rock bottom somehow going deeper point cannot life anymore point even made deadline kill myself always knew would never make it always knew worthless never wanted hear it surrounded negativity mother cannot even accept point even decided time school going cut everyone everything prepare day happens even going different country make sure even find everyday think better next life cared anyones feelings years barely throw facade time talk people even online time let bed crying sleep daily basis cannot take anymore cannot done
past years alot shit happened decent bit trauma built up point painful even think time started happening moved dad previously walked years house thought could finally catch break not felt like object human let alone sonevery night even allowed close door room storage room barely allowed phone even allowed call mother made feel worse every day screwed even slightest hour long lecture told purpose told going make life told make college told worth absolutely nothing everything went downhill one day risen hit rock bottom somehow going deeper point cannot life anymore point even made deadline kill myself always knew would never make it always knew worthless never wanted hear it surrounded negativity mother cannot even accept point even decided time school going cut everyone everything prepare day happens even going different country make sure even find everyday think better next life cared anyones feelings years barely throw facade time talk people even online time let bed crying sleep daily basis cannot take anymore cannot done
años pasados mucho mierda pasó decente poco trauma construido punto doloroso incluso pensar que el tiempo comenzó a suceder movido papá antes caminado años la casa pensó que finalmente podría coger descanso no se sentía como objeto humano mucho menos hijocada noche incluso permitió cerrar puerta cuarto de almacenamiento habitación apenas permitido teléfono incluso permitido llamada madre hizo sentir peor cada día jodido incluso la mínima hora de largo conferencia con un propósito dicho hacer la vida le dijo hacer que la universidad dijo absolutamente nada todo salió cuesta abajo todo subió golpeó fondo de alguna manera llegar más profundo punto no puede la vida más punto incluso hizo plazo matar siempre supe nunca haría que siempre sabía inútil nunca quiso escuchar rodeado negatividad madre no puede incluso aceptar punto decidido tiempo escuela va cortar todo lo que se prepara día pasa incluso va diferente asegurarse de que incluso encontrar todos los días pensar mejor siguiente vida cuidó a nadie sentimientos años apenas tirar fachada tiempo hablar personas incluso tiempo en línea dejar cama llorando sueño diario base no puede tomar más no puede hacer