trying stay strong know options want throw life awayive long history depression anxiety usually im able push things stabilize enjoy life next wave hits another wave hit weeks ago one hit hard hard enough first time ive taken action woke next spilt bottle pills vodka dry heaved hour calling work sick next two days scared shit me scared enough touched alcohol past two weeks still feel bad day want whatever snapped inside night happen again six months ago started new job knew would challenge opportunity turn down lately barely make show even fill spot desk know made huge mistake feel stomach tighten up thats feel time depression affecting performance makes feel even worse know people noticing want better cant right now im afraid theyll either find someone better ill drive snap again want feel like failure certainly stupid brain know options are keep grinding im afraid ill snap soon leave ill ruin opportunity possible future ones im leaving  months unclear reasons want throw career away never want end couple weeks ago either know right now
trying stay strong know options want throw life awayive long history depression anxiety usually im able push things stabilize enjoy life next wave hits another wave hit weeks ago one hit hard hard enough first time ive taken action woke next spilt bottle pills vodka dry heaved hour calling work sick next two days scared shit me scared enough touched alcohol past two weeks still feel bad day want whatever snapped inside night happen again six months ago started new job knew would challenge opportunity turn down lately barely make show even fill spot desk know made huge mistake feel stomach tighten up thats feel time depression affecting performance makes feel even worse know people noticing want better cant right now im afraid theyll either find someone better ill drive snap again want feel like failure certainly stupid brain know options are keep grinding im afraid ill snap soon leave ill ruin opportunity possible future ones im leaving months unclear reasons want throw career away never want end couple weeks ago either know right now
intentar permanecer fuerte saber opciones quieren tirar la vida awayive larga historia depresión ansiedad generalmente im capaz empujar cosas estabilizar disfrutar vida próxima ola golpea otra ola golpea semanas hace un golpe duro bastante primera vez ive toma acción despertó próxima botella píldoras vodka seco pesado hora llamar trabajo enfermo siguiente dos días mierda asustada me miedo bastante tocado alcohol pasado dos semanas todavía se siente mal día querer lo que se rompió dentro de la noche volver a pasar hace seis meses comenzó nuevo trabajo sabía oportunidad desafío vuelta hacia abajo últimamente apenas hacer show incluso llenar punto escritorio saber hecho enorme error sentir estómago apretarse que siente tiempo depresión que afecta rendimiento hace sentir peor saber gente que quiere mejor ahora mismo me temo que van a encontrar a alguien mejor mal drive chasque de nuevo quiero sentir como fracaso ciertamente estúpido cerebro saben opciones son seguir moliendo im mal golpe pronto dejar mal ruina oportunidad posibles futuros im im dejar meses sin duda razones para tirar carrera nunca quieren terminar pareja semanas atrás o bien saber ahora mismo