attempted  years thoughts getting worsei started college recently going well far love professors subjects get interested time hold focus class get anxious every day little things get depressed im anxious be im feeling like future worthwhile back attempted redflag yo yo exact thoughts were if life really this want here getting anxious every day putting borderlinenarcissist parents another  years want here four years spent high school living parents long painful im looking least another repeat going college parents paying job job experience im one took therapy parents disorders worked alone wanted stay could become doctor college realize much time effort money goes that would rather assistant parents look say salary im looking  ptas small wanted day get small rural home acres continue breeding small group animals like ive farm told got bad stay anymore would enlist military happy law enforcement later like field work im worried would letting rest extended family expected doctor like im quitting myself ill end live citysuburb never animals rural life feel trapped hate city suburbs also horse therapy animal years kill leave feel im letting down would get rid animals left im concerned horse love much cant imagine bonding animal closely im attached thing keeps going know much handle know impulses going get strong ill scream public know call quits leave everything behind cut parents enlist im afraid fail college fail military feel guilty either way keeps popping head maybe better leave entirely even im actively thinking it thoughts purposefully crashing car jumping top parking garage come up want die
attempted years thoughts getting worsei started college recently going well far love professors subjects get interested time hold focus class get anxious every day little things get depressed im anxious be im feeling like future worthwhile back attempted redflag yo yo exact thoughts were if life really this want here getting anxious every day putting borderlinenarcissist parents another years want here four years spent high school living parents long painful im looking least another repeat going college parents paying job job experience im one took therapy parents disorders worked alone wanted stay could become doctor college realize much time effort money goes that would rather assistant parents look say salary im looking ptas small wanted day get small rural home acres continue breeding small group animals like ive farm told got bad stay anymore would enlist military happy law enforcement later like field work im worried would letting rest extended family expected doctor like im quitting myself ill end live citysuburb never animals rural life feel trapped hate city suburbs also horse therapy animal years kill leave feel im letting down would get rid animals left im concerned horse love much cant imagine bonding animal closely im attachedthing keeps going know much handle know impulses going get strong ill scream public know call quits leave everything behind cut parents enlist im afraid fail college fail military feel guilty either way keeps popping head maybe better leave entirely even im actively thinking it thoughts purposefully crashing car jumping top parking garage come up want die
años intentos pensamientos empeorando universidad recientemente va bien amor profesores temas se interesan tiempo mantener la clase de enfoque se ponen ansiosos todos los días pequeñas cosas se deprimen im ansiedad ser im sentimiento como futuro vale la pena volver intento rojo yo yo pensamientos exactos era si la vida realmente este deseo aquí ponerse ansioso cada día poner padres narcisistas límite otros años quieren aquí cuatro años pasado la escuela secundaria padres vivos mucho dolorosos Im buscar menos otra repetición va padres universitarios pagar trabajo experiencia