wish redflag agonizingso ive cycle wanting die thinkingplanning it tired scared pull  years now ive already decided method  drowning sticking head bucketdrum water ps live near easily accessible body water thought would sure fire way die given couple hours without discovered would fairly easy clean up prepared tried  times already agony always gets me times held breath times aware inhaling water beginning would expedite process times thought sister shed devastated times id break bathroom decided stop attempts hold idea living someone wanted live sister every time thought redflag visited mind let linger long im fixating thought loved one would devastated came family abuse family lies person considered real family thought maybe id stick around long needed me fast forward now im good place life im suicidal thoughts again time im sure living someone anymore sister gained close friends act support system grown distant lying like everyone else family thought relationship better that recently discovered shallow water black out thought would take care agony part drowning almost instantly pass hyperventilation tried minutes ago still bring pull through know anymore ive wanting die long ive tired angry pain long im much wuss it part thinks whole living someone stint masking cowardice know anymore want live cant kill next
wish redflag agonizingso ive cycle wanting die thinkingplanning it tired scared pull years now ive already decided method drowning sticking head bucketdrum water ps live near easily accessible body water thought would sure fire way die given couple hours without discovered would fairly easy clean up prepared tried times already agony always gets me times held breath times aware inhaling water beginning would expedite process times thought sister shed devastated times id break bathroom decided stop attempts hold idea living someone wanted live sister every time thought redflag visited mind let linger longim fixating thought loved one would devastated came family abuse family lies person considered real family thought maybe id stick around long needed me fast forward now im good placelifeim suicidal thoughts again time im sure living someone anymore sister gained close friends act support system grown distant lying like everyone else family thought relationship better that recently discovered shallow water black out thought would take care agony part drowning almost instantly pass hyperventilation tried minutes ago still bring pull through know anymore ive wanting die long ive tired angry pain long im much wuss it part thinks whole living someone stint masking cowardice know anymore want live cant kill next
Deseé agonizingso ive cycle querer morir pensar planificación cansado tirón asustado años ahora ive ya decidido método ahogarse clavando cabeza cubo tambor agua ps viven cerca fácilmente accesible agua corporal pensamiento seguro fuego manera morir dado un par de horas sin descubrir sería bastante fácil limpiar preparados tiempos probados ya agonía siempre me consigue tiempos retenidos respiración tiempos conscientes inhalar agua principio acelerar los tiempos del proceso pensó hermana derramar tiempo devastado id break cuarto de baño decidió parar intentos mantener la idea vivir alguien quería vivir hermana cada vez pensó redflag visitada mente dejar persistir longim fijating pensamiento amado uno devastado vino familia abuso persona persona considerada familia real pensamiento tal vez id stick alrededor de largo me necesitaba rápido ahora im buen lugar vida suicida pensamientos otra vez im seguro vivir alguien más hermana ganó amigos cercanos sistema de apoyo creció distante mentira como todos los demás familia pensó mejor relación que recientemente descubrió agua superficial negro pensamiento tomar cuidado agonía parte ahogamiento casi instantáneamente pasar hiperventilación intenta hace minutos todavía traer pulg a través de saber más vida querer morir mucho tiempo