today  years since mom died  month since dad died covid redflag ideation  euphoriai feel alone know people love me friends family parents really hurts know wont act thoughts dog would really hurt family kill myself thought dying feels liberating euphoric dealt depression life learned tolerate sadness loneliness tiredness comes that right feel fucked emotionally fees like void endless pain loneliness sadness like end sight even ends awaits stay alive baseline depressed self feels like whats point living suffering numbness
today years since mom died month since dad died covid redflag ideation euphoriai feel alone know people love me friends family parents really hurts know wont act thoughts dog would really hurt family kill myself thought dying feels liberating euphoric dealt depression life learned tolerate sadness loneliness tiredness comes that right feel fucked emotionally fees like void endless pain loneliness sadness like end sight even ends awaits stay alive baseline depressed self feels like whats point living suffering numbness
hoy años desde que mamá murió mes desde que papá murió covid redflag ideation euforiai se siente solo saber que la gente me ama amigos familia padres realmente duele saber no actuar pensamientos perro realmente daño familia matar a mí mismo pensamiento moribundo se siente liberador euforia trato depresión vida aprendido tolerar tristeza soledad cansancio viene que derecho sentirse follada emocionalmente honorarios como vacío dolor interminable soledad tristeza como fin de la vista incluso termina espera mantenerse vivo línea de base depresión se siente como lo que es punto de vida sufrimiento entumecimiento