dont know anymoreive struggling eating disorder nearly two decades always bulimia anorexia keep telling weigh much die cant get thoughts stop weeks ago drunk exfriend we dated couple months  friends since pick apparently took bunch pills nearly called rescue carried inside house instead blacked completely begged call figured theyd transfer er used work im engaged cant get excited wedding cant get excited anything love fianc know do cant feel it cant feel anything work mental health myself substance abuse specifically feel like theres nothing without running clients anywhere may even want go im sure want go anywhere ive meds bipolar ii since  immensely helpful would hospital even anyway there done that didnt quite help physically hard impossible cry ive started restarted note several times im terrified death causes panic attacks somehow im incredibly dark hopeless place dont know do needed get out guess
dont know anymoreive struggling eating disorder nearly two decades always bulimia anorexia keep telling weigh much die cant get thoughts stop weeks ago drunk exfriend we dated couple months friends since pick apparently took bunch pills nearly called rescue carried inside house instead blacked completely begged call figured theyd transfer er used work im engaged cant get excited wedding cant get excited anything love fianc know do cant feel it cant feel anything work mental health myself substance abuse specifically feel like theres nothing without running clients anywhere may even want go im sure want go anywhere ive meds bipolar ii since immensely helpful would hospital even anyway there done that didnt quite help physically hard impossible cry ive started restarted note several times im terrified death causes panic attacks somehow im incredibly dark hopeless place dont know do needed get out guess
No sé más que lucha desorden alimenticio casi dos décadas siempre bulimia anorexia seguir diciendo peso mucho morir no puedo conseguir pensamientos paro semanas atrás borracho examigo salimos un par de meses amigos ya que al parecer tomó pastillas grupo casi llamado rescate llevado dentro de casa en lugar de negro completamente suplicado llamada pensé que wed transfer er trabajo usado im comprometido no puedo emocionarme boda no puedo emocionarme nada amor novio saber no puedo sentir que no se puede sentir nada trabajo salud mental yo mismo abuso de sustancias específicamente se siente como no hay nada sin clientes corriendo en cualquier lugar puede incluso querer ir Im seguro quiero ir a cualquier lugar ive meds bipolar ii ya que inmensamente útil hospital incluso de todos modos hecho que no ayudó físicamente duro imposible llorar ive comenzó nota reiniciada varias veces im muerte aterrorizada causa ataques de pánico de alguna manera im increíblemente oscuro lugar desesperado no sé necesario salir adivinar