home  years  basically isolated outside world last couple years cry eyes every night wondering pain sadness feel ever go away feltfeel alonei friendsnot even onlineno one talk tountil met guy online sweet timevery religious godly timei wanted feel lovedand less lonelyless sadi wanted make feel better instead gave stithat stuck lifehe told knowand stupidly believed time later friend told sti way mei feel usedlike trash hated long thisbut  times worsei cannot even stand look mirror i felt lonely before guaranteed likely going die alone going want diseasei feel dirty stupid trusting him knowing purposefully gave disease makes feel worthless isolated world nothing thoughts company mind rn darkest place bei hate myselfi hate ami keep shit over end place time on bathroom floor crying praying pain loneliness go away feel stupid  want pain stopit hurts never goes awayeverytime try make pain stop make loneliness go away replace paini feel like escape deathi cannot take anymore cannot m purposefully gave mef hpv things could get anyworse
home years basically isolated outside world last couple years cry eyes every night wondering pain sadness feel ever go away feltfeel alonei friendsnot even onlineno one talk tountil met guy online sweet timevery religious godly timei wanted feel lovedand less lonelyless sadi wanted make feel better instead gave stithat stuck lifehe told knowand stupidly believed time later friend told sti way mei feel usedlike trash hated long thisbut times worsei cannot even stand look mirror i felt lonely before guaranteed likely going die alone going want diseasei feel dirty stupid trusting him knowing purposefully gave disease makes feel worthless isolated world nothing thoughts company mind rn darkest place bei hate myselfi hate ami keep shit over end place time on bathroom floor crying praying pain loneliness go away feel stupid want pain stopit hurts never goes awayeverytime try make pain stop make loneliness go away replace paini feel like escape deathi cannot take anymore cannot m purposefully gave mef hpv things could get anyworse
casa años básicamente aislado mundo exterior último par de años llorar ojos cada noche preguntándose dolor tristeza se siente nunca irse se siente solo amigos ni siquiera en línea nadie hablar hasta conocer chico en línea dulce tiempo muy religioso tiempo piadoso quería sentir amado y menos solitario sadi quería hacer sentir mejor en lugar dio stitha vida pegada le dijo saber y estúpidamente cree tiempo más tarde amigo dijo sti way mei se siente usado como basura odiado largo esto pero veces peor no puedo ni siquiera mirar espejo me siento solo antes garantizado probable morir solo va a querer enfermedad me siento sucio estúpido confiar en él sabiendo deliberadamente dado enfermedad hace sentir inútil mundo aislado nada pensamientos compañía mente rn lugar más oscuro bei odio yo odio ami mantener mierda sobre final lugar tiempo en el suelo del baño llanto oración dolor soledad lejos se siente estúpido quiero dolor stop duele nunca se va cada vez que intenta hacer dolor dejar de hacer la soledad ir lugar dolor me siento como escape deathi no puede tomar mfully me dio cosas hpv podría conseguir cualquierworse