way start well  year old male thoughts every fucking day get gun shoot injure myself course life rough  fall mega christian church completely fucked life making religious subreddit first religion made happy exploited music back ground dining playing guitar bass electric guitar drums etc talented touched instrument months well would serve church everyday joke cuz service everyday even getting paid wanted thought serving lord job fast forward drained want fucking blow brains tell take break say leave turning back god left turned back spoke since beliefs god dead probably borderline atheist fear going hell stops wanting end way miss old church life gave false hope depressing happy thankfully got health insurance want get therapy psychiatry help adhere feelings yeah venting feelings incase anyone gone friends high expectations hate live day day yes thank listening wanting die constantly mind
way start well year old male thoughts every fucking day get gun shoot injure myself course life rough fall mega christian church completely fucked life making religious subreddit first religion made happy exploited music back ground dining playing guitar bass electric guitar drums etc talented touched instrument months well would serve church everyday joke cuz service everyday even getting paid wanted thought serving lord job fast forward drained want fucking blow brains tell take break say leave turning back god left turned back spoke since beliefs god dead probably borderline atheist fear going hell stops wanting end way miss old church life gave false hope depressing happy thankfully got health insurance want get therapy psychiatry help adhere feelingsyeah venting feelings incase anyone gone friends high expectations hate live day dayyes thank listening wanting die constantly mind
manera comenzar bien años pensamientos masculinos de edad cada puto día conseguir disparo arma me hiere curso vida dura otoño mega iglesia cristiana completamente follada vida haciendo religión religiosa subredit primera religión hizo feliz música explotada volver comedor de tierra tocar guitarra bajo batería eléctrica guitarra etc talentoso tocado instrumento meses bien serviría iglesia cotidiana broma servicio cuz diario incluso se le pagó pensamiento sirviendo señor trabajo rápido adelante drenado deseo maldito golpe cerebros decir tomar descanso decir dejar volver atrás dios izquierda atrás habló desde creencias dios muerto probablemente borderline ateo miedo infierno deja de querer final manera señorita vieja iglesia vida dio falsa esperanza deprimente feliz feliz conseguido seguro de salud quieren terapia psiquiatría ayudar a adherirse sentimientos sí ventilar sentimientos en caso de que alguien ido amigos altas expectativas odio día vivo sí gracias escuchar querer morir constantemente mente