chronic intractable pain redflagthe doctors helping anymore know do crying wheelchair pleading quality life meaningless seemingly everyone honestly reason im still is fear end life painful pain dealt every day honestly much coward anything falling asleep never waking back up thought waking indefinite amount days months years knowing night get less  hours sleep wake gasping pain heart racing sit awful painmoan sounds like demons hear eraampe sometimes cannot that thought im stuck everyone around healthy fine almost perfect life wake every morning new hell makes angry want hurt others thats terrifying never want anyone suffer even fraction like have ever know else do think turning hospital saying im much pain want kill myself earn anything psych ward stay least  hour hold doubt psych ward would clear able go physical issues  id probably get thrown top floor embarrassing  days never able return hospital bc nurses think im crazy never take seriously again sort options live waking hell constant physical pain make attempt probably agony might even fail leave mangled ive never less idea carry living
chronic intractable pain redflagthe doctors helping anymore know do crying wheelchair pleading quality life meaningless seemingly everyone honestly reason im still is fear end life painful pain dealt every day honestly much coward anything falling asleep never waking back up thought waking indefinite amount days months years knowing night get less hours sleep wake gasping pain heart racing sit awful painmoan sounds like demons hear eraampe sometimes cannot that thought im stuck everyone around healthy fine almost perfect life wake every morning new hell makes angry want hurt others thats terrifying never want anyone suffer even fraction like have ever know else do think turning hospital saying im much pain want kill myself earn anything psych ward stay least hour hold doubt psych ward would clear able go physical issues id probably get thrown top floor embarrassing days never able return hospital bc nurses think im crazy never take seriously again sort options live waking hell constant physical pain make attempt probably agony might even fail leave mangled ive never less idea carry living
dolor crónico intratable dolor tratado todos los días honestamente mucho cobarde cualquier cosa que se queda dormido nunca despertarse pensamiento de nuevo noche cantidad indefinida meses años saber noche dormir dormir despertar dolor dolor agudo dolor agudo dolor agudo sentarse ruidos como demonios escuchar eraampe a veces no puede que pensamiento im pegado todo el mundo alrededor sano bien vida perfecta despertar cada mañana nuevo infierno hace enojado querer herir a otros que aterrorizar nunca quieren que alguien sufra incluso fracción como nunca han sabido más pensar vuelta hospital diciendo im mucho dolor querer matarme ganar cualquier cosa estancia psiquiátrica menos hora mantener duda sala psiquiátrica podría claro capaz ir problemas físicos id probablemente se tiran arriba piso embarazosos días nunca capaz volver hospital bc enfermeras pensar im loco nunca tomar seriamente clase opciones vivir despertar infierno dolor físico constante hacer intento probablemente agonía podría incluso fallar