really know come right say i want kill myself so keyboard vomited insteadi know actually belong im still sort new reddit so like someone let know somewhere else yeah little long know whats funny life always felt like series one day middle school one day closer summer meant entire break grandmothers house made day one day tally whole summer parents tell worthless turn around shower sister affection whole summer stepdads parents tell the spawn devil not kidding honestly thing grandparents said me several occasions honestly being godfearing southern baptists starting time turned  biological grandchild got high school never ending series one day responsibility could relax i never relaxed packed schedule full every day never acknowledge avoiding fact feel happy ever yes know high school prime time teenage angst but saw friends go angsty phases relate connect anything desperately wanted to things made happy didnt always hollow feeling like feeling something never knew was learned mimic friends feelings happy happy forth never felt genuine relied feelings own odd thing know explain anyone could feel deeply people yet feel nothing own turned  always making one day closer  could move parents house dad hit anymore mom tell much awful human was learned feel little bit own hated it decided feelings bad things could feel bad learned box up reflected good feelings people around me ended boyfriend it got house struggle counting one day boyfriend got back basic training came home said army changed him said want more feelings still sucked could connect people though sort of people meant feelings emotions shitty ones empty spaces almost feel empty like clothes almost fit every day past one day excuses look easy way out one day wanting sister grow alone one day work make enough money school one day trying figure actually wanted married not one day without boys slugging deployments grandda got sick keeping healthy one day really dark place sick kept tally days much his if makes one day i met last boyfriend well call nerd seeing face first thing morning made want see one day would look like one glorious year stopped thinking one day stopped caring making reasons try one day living life taking care grandda dancing music kitchen nerd made pancakes felt things real things things stopped putting bad feelings boxes explode examine later date dealt things came smiled nothing generally let life happen thought crossed mind long sucks back here granddas gone lost back december cancer cant measure days able take care anymore supposed live supposed go another cruise supposed see get married supposed able retire properly supposed live didnt failed left go stupid vacation got sicker came back recovery him late that didnt push hard enough hospital scans let cancer spread mom tasked taking care him couldnt grandda told found love hold onto forever lost it failed left asked me couldnt keep hospital let mother watch father die that asked stay got hospital didnt think could take care anymore even though year myself put mother that failed pay it lost everything gave joy past year deserve it nerd dipped blame him talked getting married army wanted send alaska mentioned solution separation already facing said i want ask like this so decided wait sent texas instead decided worth it try me texas supposed much doable alaska texas supposed easier manage waiting supposed smarter guess absence really make heart grow fonder orders first deployment got new girlfriend now im back one day one day im selfish enough afraid one would miss me im scared original shock wore off one would really care way back middle school hardest time understanding this spend life cultivating things it end point know thats existential angst catch thinking time spent long time trying find something live for something survive for anything fill void make feel like anything matters dont feel anything except despair despondency again mean honestly die end bother one truly say are going leave end dont want fight claw hurt everyday trying make through die dont want get better fall dont want that want this make it want to ive always sucker ruining ending afraid im afraid would happen sister suffered much loss short  years im afraid would happen mother lost parents less two years barely holding together im afraid roommates thinking failed way see happening yet think almost every day voice whispering easy would be quiet would finally be fact cant feel emotions properly matter more mom would figure out parents love sister young would adjust roommates theyre dating probably makes whole alone thing harder deal with hey single person whos world would stop spinning even moment without me tired time fight getting bed would nothing but if quieter voice always whispers funny thing keep living life even sure want see another day of ridiculous excuse pulled air someone afraid give something hates
really know come right say i want kill myself so keyboard vomited insteadi know actually belongim still sort new reddit so like someone let know somewhere elseyeah little long know whats funny life always felt like series one day middle school one day closer summer meant entire break grandmothers house made day one day tally whole summer parents tell worthless turn around shower sister affection whole summer stepdads parents tell the spawn devil not kidding honestly thing grandparents said me several occasions honestly being godfearing southern baptists starting time turned biological grandchild got high school never ending series one day responsibility could relax i never relaxed packed schedule full every day never acknowledge avoiding fact feel happy ever yes know high school prime time teenage angst but saw friends go angsty phases relate connect anything desperately wanted to things made happy didnt always hollow feeling like feeling something never knew was learned mimic friends feelings happy happy forth never felt genuine relied feelings own odd thing know explain anyone could feel deeply people yet feel nothing own turned always making one day closer could move parents house dad hit anymore mom tell much awful human was learned feel little bit own hated it decided feelings bad things could feel bad learned box up reflected good feelings people around me ended boyfriend it got house struggle counting one day boyfriend got back basic training came home said army changed him said want more feelings still sucked could connect people though sort of people meant feelings emotions shitty ones empty spaces almost feel empty like clothes almost fit every day past one day excuses look easy way out one day wanting sister grow alone one day work make enough money school one day trying figure actually wanted married not one day without boys slugging deployments grandda got sick keeping healthy one day really dark place sick kept tally days much his if makes one day i met last boyfriend well call nerd seeing face first thing morning made want see one day would look like one glorious year stopped thinking one day stopped caring making reasons try one day living life taking care grandda dancing music kitchen nerd made pancakes felt things real things things stopped putting bad feelings boxes explode examine later date dealt things came smiled nothing generally let life happen thought crossed mind long sucks back here granddas gone lost back december cancer cant measure days able take care anymore supposed live supposed go another cruise supposed see get married supposed able retire properly supposed live didnt failed left go stupid vacation got sicker came back recovery him late that didnt push hard enough hospital scans let cancer spread mom tasked taking care him couldnt grandda told found love hold onto forever lost it failed left asked me couldnt keep hospital let mother watch father die that asked stay got hospital didnt think could take care anymore even though year myself put mother that failed pay it lost everything gave joy past year deserve it nerd dipped blame him talked getting married army wanted send alaska mentioned solution separation already facing said i want ask like this so decided wait sent texas instead decided worth it try me texas supposed much doable alaska texas supposed easier manage waiting supposed smarter guess absence really make heart grow fonder orders first deployment got new girlfriend now im back one day one day im selfish enough afraid one would miss me im scared original shock wore off one would really care way back middle school hardest time understanding this spend life cultivating things it end point know thats existential angst catch thinking time spent long time trying find something live for something survive for anything fill void make feel like anything matters dont feel anything except despair despondency again mean honestly die end bother one truly say are going leave end dont want fight claw hurt everyday trying make through die dont want get better fall dont want that want this make it want to ive always sucker ruining ending afraid im afraid would happen sister suffered much loss short years im afraid would happen mother lost parents less two years barely holding together im afraid roommates thinking failed way see happening yet think almost every day voice whispering easy would be quiet would finally be fact cant feel emotions properly matter more mom would figure out parents love sister young would adjust roommates theyre dating probably makes whole alone thing harder deal with hey single person whos world would stop spinning even moment without me tired time fight getting bed would nothing but if quieter voice always whispers funny thing keep living life even sure want see another day of ridiculous excuse pulled air someone afraid give something hates
Realmente sé venir a la derecha decir que quiero suicidarme así teclado vomitado en lugar de sé que en realidad pertenecen todavía tipo nuevo reddit así como alguien le dejó saber en otro lugar sí poco largo saber lo que es la vida divertida siempre se sentía como serie un día escuela media un día más cerca verano significaba vacaciones enteras abuelas casa hecho día un día cuenta todo verano padres decir sin valor vuelta vuelta ducha hermana afecto todo verano padrastros padres decir el diablo desove no bromeando honestamente cosa abuelos me dijo varias ocasiones honestamente ser baptistas sureños temerosos de dios comenzado tiempo convertido nieto biológico nunca terminar secundaria serie un día responsabilidad podría relajarse nunca relajado lleno horario cada día nunca reconocer evitar hecho sentirse feliz nunca