im scared come  years im supposed university like think everything sorted mere thought actually becoming responsible member society makes anxious am good enough something ask every day without finding answer try making answer try to simply get distracted keep failing come terms fact maybe im best could be maybe ill never since place mental state live in constant fear living expectations dissapointing parents two younger siblings look since im oldest ever competing family see who best way want live im tired many times ive suicidal thoughts simply push aside since matter do need keep going forward even feel like crying no cry help trying accept reality push forward again like many times before  years im supposed university know life
im scared come years im supposed university like think everything sorted mere thought actually becoming responsible member society makes anxious am good enough something ask every day without finding answer try making answer try to simply get distracted keep failing come terms fact maybe im best could be maybe ill never since place mental state live in constant fear living expectations dissapointing parents two younger siblings look since im oldest ever competing family see who best way want live im tired many times ive suicidal thoughts simply push aside since matter do need keep going forward even feel like crying no cry help trying accept reality push forward again like many times before years im supposed university know life
Im miedo vienen años im supuesto universidad como pensar todo organizado mero pensamiento realmente convertirse en miembro responsable sociedad hace ansioso soy bastante bueno algo preguntar todos los días sin encontrar respuesta tratar de hacer respuesta tratar de simplemente distraerse seguir fallando realidad hecho tal vez mejor podría ser tal vez nunca desde lugar estado mental vivir en constante miedo expectativas de vida padres decepcionantes dos hermanos más jóvenes mirar desde mi más viejo nunca competir familia ver quién mejor manera de querer vivir estoy cansado muchas veces ive pensamientos suicidas simplemente dejar de lado ya que la materia tiene que seguir adelante incluso sentir como llorar sin llorar ayuda tratar de aceptar realidad empujar de nuevo como muchas veces antes de años im supuesto universidad saber vida