sure want shoot myselfi gun time ive thinking using almost every day know would easy thats main reason even tried get one somehow hoped someone something would stop me nothing like happened paperwork went store legally handgun since months ago knew bad idea second got store shooting number one redflag fantasy years thats wanted one finally end it im sure im serious shooting  scares honest often sit there holding gun bring temple never pull trigger holding like that feeling heavy hands gives kind kick keep fantasizing shooting lethal like shooting shoulder arm test waters also various combat knives fantasize stabbing often also stabbed right left hand bad expected im sure really want kill mutilate body even more anyone feeling same know really fucked need seek help enough money therapy im also bad situation health care wise  im practically going lose job get psychological help insurance
sure want shoot myselfi gun time ive thinking using almost every day know would easy thats main reason even tried get one somehow hoped someone something would stop me nothing like happened paperwork went store legally handgun since months ago knew bad idea second got store shooting number one redflag fantasy years thats wanted one finally end it im sure im serious shooting scares honest often sit there holding gun bring temple never pull trigger holding like that feeling heavy hands gives kind kick keep fantasizing shooting lethal like shooting shoulder arm test waters also various combat knives fantasize stabbing often also stabbed right left hand bad expected im sure really want kill mutilate body even more anyone feeling same know really fucked need seek help enough money therapyim also bad situation health care wiseim practically going lose job get psychological help insurance
seguro quiero dispararme a mí mismo arma tiempo iive pensamiento usando casi todos los días saber que es fácil que la razón principal incluso trató de conseguir uno de alguna manera esperaba que alguien algo me detendría nada como papeleo pasado tienda legalmente pistola de mano desde hace meses sabía mala idea segundo consiguió tienda tiro número uno bandera roja fantasía años que quería uno finalmente terminar Im seguro Im serio disparos miedos honestos a menudo sentarse allí sujetando pistola traer templo nunca jalar gatillo sostener como que sentimiento manos pesadas da patada amable seguir fantaseando tiro letal como tiro hombro brazo prueba aguas también varios cuchillos fantasía apuñalamiento a menudo también apuñalado derecha mano izquierda mal esperado im seguro realmente quiero matar cuerpo mutilado incluso más cualquiera que se siente muy mal necesidad buscar ayuda suficiente dinero terapiaim también mala situación cuidado de la salud sabio prácticamente va a perder trabajo conseguir ayuda psicológica seguro