thinking giving im really uselesstbh dont saddest story makes feel even worse im actually really blessed im hopeless useless same so story is parents especially mother really abusive me mom would constantly tell ugly fat developed anorexia  shed manipulate thinking garbage daughter loving enough that dad kinda absent worked lot dont resent much dont feel close either parents really hard deal with didnt suck purpose flawed left place  go college living w pretty manageable deal functional depression since left parents place ok kind relationship however gave degree personal reasons since extremely disappointed parents always sort habit lie hide stuff manipulate wanted sabotaging wanted didnt quit college didnt tell them lost job september last year ask financial support im full control again let stay place beginning year hoping id get back feet didnt ill moving back weeks sinked deep depression since losing job sleep day tired time drink smoke never leave house thats basic routine thing makes keep living neglect world pets two lovely angels form beautiful tiny cats darling baby dog saved times count clean house give dignified space live  werent here id living filth let sun exclusively know like sunbathing get bed feed play walk them werent wouldnt leave bed all anyways straight reason im alive functioning pets feeling like garbage lot since losing job contemplated redflag greatly decided love pets life worth living around me recently tho something really great happened me university europe got contact study there wanted go bad itd dream come true parents wont help unless give pets  wont help financially take me wont take go cant this cant get rid beings literal reason im living now things love life decided cant go know matter time depression hits im alone finally kill myself cant stand idea getting parents hopes finally failure waste money die abroad also would never give pets circumstance see way move back parents take pets house killing myself cant stand perspective disappointing parents refusing amazing education opportunity refusing im sentencing burden entire life  im already jobless know dont future id never able get myself plan make parents already adopt pets leave note asking get rid angels im dead give instead dealing continuous disappointment failure idk else could
thinking giving im really uselesstbh dont saddest story makes feel even worse im actually really blessed im hopeless useless same so story is parents especially mother really abusive me mom would constantly tell ugly fat developed anorexia shed manipulate thinking garbage daughter loving enough that dad kinda absent worked lot dont resent much dont feel close either parents really hard deal with didnt suck purpose flawed left place go college living w pretty manageable deal functional depression since left parents place ok kind relationship however gave degree personal reasons since extremely disappointed parents always sort habit lie hide stuff manipulate wanted sabotaging wanted didnt quit college didnt tell them lost job september last year ask financial support im full control again let stay place beginning year hoping id get back feet didnt ill moving back weeks sinked deep depression since losing job sleep day tired time drink smoke never leave house thats basic routine thing makes keep living neglect world pets two lovely angels form beautiful tiny cats darling baby dog saved times count clean house give dignified space live werent here id living filth let sun exclusively know like sunbathing get bed feed play walk them werent wouldnt leave bed all anyways straight reason im alive functioning pets feeling like garbage lot since losing job contemplated redflag greatly decided love pets life worth living around me recently tho something really great happened me university europe got contact study there wanted go bad itd dream come true parents wont help unless give pets wont help financially take me wont take go cant this cant get rid beings literal reason im living now things love life decided cant go know matter time depression hits im alone finally kill myself cant stand idea getting parents hopes finally failure waste money die abroad also would never give pets circumstance see way move back parents take pets house killing myself cant stand perspective disappointing parents refusing amazing education opportunity refusing im sentencing burden entire life im already jobless know dont future id never able get myself plan make parents already adopt pets leave note asking get rid angels im dead give instead dealing continuous disappointment failure idk else could
pensar dándome realmente inútil tbh no la historia más triste hace sentir aún peor im realmente bendecida mi inútil desesperanza igual