lamentations wasterthis life whatever make it know need change want results pain loneliness losing every friend family relation drug habit took life privileged complete waste price pay although im fucking miserable cant recover soon get money im high cant enjoy world sober everything try never stick heart nothing do see snakes eyes staring mirror want drift off place world sensitive overthinking junkie connect anyone selfhate locks prison atrocities commit myself never resting incessant thoughts life passing by lost dark hell made inside skull drugs turn everything dead hate selfishness suffering helped one ive tried ultimately im lost empty ive ever been want finally die am trying hard enough wait pain revelation god waiting savior cant anything beyond exist point mindnumbing insanity live ive cut world  dad lives me leaves alone im erratic violent sometimes hate everything ive done ive become life bleak really know do i happened upon emergency stash good enough now suicidal thoughts hold life bearable know thinking posting here advice might get would along lines get help stay sober gets better could suboxone dad want pay anything treatment ive rehab three times one year
lamentations wasterthis life whatever make it know need change want results pain loneliness losing every friend family relation drug habit took life privileged complete waste price pay although im fucking miserable cant recover soon get money im high cant enjoy world sober everything try never stick heart nothing do see snakes eyes staring mirror want drift off place world sensitive overthinking junkie connect anyone selfhate locks prison atrocities commit myself never resting incessant thoughts life passing by lost dark hell made inside skull drugs turn everything dead hate selfishness suffering helped one ive tried ultimately im lost empty ive ever been want finally die am trying hard enough wait pain revelation god waiting savior cant anything beyond exist point mindnumbing insanity live ive cut world dad lives me leaves alone im erratic violent sometimes hate everything ive done ive become life bleakreally know do i happened upon emergency stash good enough now suicidal thoughts hold life bearable know thinking posting here advice might get would along lines get help stay sober gets better could suboxone dad want pay anything treatment ive rehab three times one year
Lamentaciones erateresta vida lo que lo hacen saber cambio necesidad necesidad resultados dolor soledad perder cada amigo familia relación droga hábito tomó la vida privilegiado desperdicio completo precio paga aunque im maldito miserable no puede recuperar pronto conseguir dinero im alto disfrutar mundo sobrio todo tratar nunca palo corazón nada ver serpientes ojos mirar espejo querer deriva fuera lugar mundo sensible a pensar yonki conectar a nadie selfote cerraduras prisión atrocidades cometerme nunca descansar pensamientos incesante vida pasando por perdido infierno oscuro hecho dentro cráneo drogas convertir todo muerto odio egoísmo sufrimiento ayudó a uno en última instancia se intentó en última instancia se perdió vacío siempre se quiere finalmente morir estoy tratando lo suficientemente duro espera dolor revelación dios esperando salvador no puede nada más allá de existir punto mente entumecimiento vida vida corte vivo mundo papá vive me deja solo im errática violenta a veces odio todo lo que se hizo en vida se convirtió en vida sombría sé que me pasó en emergencia reserva buena ahora pensamientos suicidas mantener la vida sabe pensar podría conseguir a lo largo de líneas conseguir ayuda mantenerse sobrio mejor suboxone papá quiere pagar cualquier tratamiento en vida rehabilitación tres veces un año