foundation future lost hopei lost younger brother redflag nowhere last fall strong one future ahead wasted  years degree chance succeed interested found out doubts since  years still went on alternative live outside us expensive country not scandinavia either get masters degree work minimum wage bare surviving minor alternative formations without uni degree old interested jobs theres branch would interest enough university degree choice limited since brothers death need live parents pain big literally get bed otherwise feel even worse pretty intense agoraphobia meaning practically friends none meet new people with know im strange pretty asocial phobia together intense anxiety disorder depression of make impossible go classes leave alone work  hours day hate monotony jobs mostly private life monotone problems leg often immobile cant walk cycle thing making happy giving feeling success currently nothing gives feeling success always phases depression  years ago deep ones went away education crumbled health problems got worse soon thrown current education goes complete shit find job pays enough find one all housing expensive home country means living border hours stuck trafficday less life quality practically social security fucked big time masters degree friends girlfriend bright life ahead instead nothing besides end all making parents grandma even worse killing last chance legacy have siblings even cousins see psychologist monday seen therapist weeks ago tell solution redflag prescribed ssri work pill make calm evening makes sleep day might tell psychologist monday break parents kill big trust theyll cancel needed holidays definitely fall real pit now much think go studying get serious pull through chance succeed even try hard possible going downhill sleepy time motiviation anything even enough play video games leave alone study bit exams month tldr see future me family left life sustaining education friends girlfriend uncertain health i already best with failed big time shall  besides ending life destroying parents life sorry missing structure anxiety attack again
foundation future lost hopei lost younger brother redflag nowhere last fall strong one future ahead wasted years degree chance succeed interested found out doubts since years still went on alternative live outside us expensive country not scandinavia either get masters degree work minimum wage bare surviving minor alternative formations without uni degree old interested jobs theres branch would interest enough university degree choice limited since brothers death need live parents pain big literally get bed otherwise feel even worse pretty intense agoraphobia meaning practically friends none meet new people with know im strange pretty asocial phobia together intense anxiety disorder depression of make impossible go classes leave alone work hours day hate monotony jobs mostly private life monotone problems leg often immobile cant walk cycle thing making happy giving feeling success currently nothing gives feeling success always phases depression years ago deep ones went away education crumbled health problems got worse soon thrown current education goes complete shit find job pays enough find one all housing expensive home country means living border hours stuck trafficday less life quality practically social security fucked big time masters degree friends girlfriend bright life ahead instead nothing besides end all making parents grandma even worse killing last chance legacy have siblings even cousins see psychologist monday seen therapist weeks ago tell solution redflag prescribed ssri work pill make calm evening makes sleep day might tell psychologist monday break parents kill big trust theyll cancel needed holidays definitely fall real pit now much think go studying get serious pull through chance succeed even try hard possible going downhill sleepy time motiviation anything even enough play video games leave alone study bit exams month tldr see future me family left life sustaining education friends girlfriend uncertain health i already best with failed big time shall besides ending life destroying parents life sorry missing structure anxiety attack again
fundación futuro perdido hopei perdido hermano menor bandera roja en ninguna parte el otoño pasado fuerte un futuro por delante perdido años grado oportunidad éxito interesado encontró dudas desde años todavía se fue en alternativa vivir fuera de nosotros caro país no scandinavia o conseguir máster trabajo salario mínimo desnudo supervivencia menor alternativas formaciones sin uni grado antiguo interesados empleo Theres rama interés suficiente universidad elección de grado limitado puesto hermanos muerte necesidad de padres vivos dolor grande literalmente conseguir cama de lo contrario se siente incluso peor bastante intenso agorafobia significa prácticamente amigos nadie conocer gente nueva con conocimiento