wish endi vent sorry understand people happy life control feel emptiness expands exponentionally minute consumed long time ago cannot escape it tried force brain make feel happy smoking weed tried heal negaitve feelings emotions going psychiatristpsychotherapist using psylocibin lsd nothing ever helped even showed escape emptiness never felt useful belonged anywhere everywhere go feel like burden go back bed cry next day like last eight nine months many urges end past two weeks even know sane something phisically wrong brain know reason killed girlfriend first met almost two half years ago gotten much hope still do every day becomes harder harder keep smile painted face want good boyfriend good person overall know much time left untill mind breaks myself want kill myself pressure feel every day becoming debilitating feel like going lose control mind body one last time finally put end all
wish endi vent sorry understand people happy life control feel emptiness expands exponentionally minute consumed long time ago cannot escape it tried force brain make feel happy smoking weed tried heal negaitve feelings emotions going psychiatristpsychotherapist using psylocibin lsd nothing ever helped even showed escape emptiness never felt useful belonged anywhere everywhere go feel like burden go back bed cry next day like last eight nine months many urges end past two weeks even know sane something phisically wrong brain know reason killed girlfriend first met almost two half years ago gotten much hope still do every day becomes harder harder keep smile painted face want good boyfriend good person overall know much time left untill mind breaks myself want kill myself pressure feel every day becoming debilitating feel like going lose control mind body one last time finally put end all
deseo endi vent lo siento entender gente feliz control de la vida sentir vacío se expande exponencialmente minuto consumido hace mucho tiempo no se puede escapar se intentó fuerza cerebro hacer sentir feliz fumar mala hierba intentado sanar sentimientos negaitve emociones ir psiquiatra psicoterapeuta utilizando psylocibin lsd nada nunca ayudó incluso mostró vacío de escape nunca se sintió útil perteneció a cualquier lugar ir a sentir como carga volver a la cama llorar al día siguiente como los últimos ocho nueve meses muchos impulsos terminan pasados dos semanas incluso saben algo cuerdo fisicamente mal cerebro saber razón novia asesinada primero se reunió hace casi dos años consiguió mucha esperanza todavía hacer cada día más difícil mantener la sonrisa pintada cara querer buen novio buena persona en general saber mucho tiempo hasta que me quiebre la mente quiero suicidarme presión sentir cada día como perder el control cuerpo una última vez finalmente poner fin a todo