adam thanks telling cant problems dont know honest anymore treat life like equation constants variables ive proven wrong anything attempt quantify accomplish try live life momenttomoment end nothing lack success opposite direction ive disciplined nice mean chaotic ive changed everything many times dont remember used be still outcome always same im alone worse that im desperate shows everything do everyone read like book open mouth shitty feeling know one wants you good enough them anyone whats worse though knowing ill probably settle someone tolerates me id rather own oh boo hoo fucking ric boy sad thats reaction always seem get focus college youre find girl well dont even know fuck you like im allowed problems resent come from like im less are youve rough fucking hypocrite think enjoyed telling folks depressed counselor explained feared safety think like fucking attention like want problem like attention whore remember hyperbolic sometimes im bothered lot questions one im usually centered on think maybe meant alone forever would explain read many things strength takes walk alone see glimpses life id live good company someone loved throw everything learned window desperate telegraphed scramble keep little bit memory time impose reality world forget look is never relationship never intimate level anyone didnt pay for writing know going come around someday looking answers heres one needed find want care anymore want keep failing getting hurt broken nothing rebuild flawed person always was failures shortsighted dreams entomb in care enough pull eject lever enough actually change see wrong myself thought could wait died bury me didnt im sorry that intention problems seem petty everyone know everyone thinks im well means im happy wont today wont tomorrow never shake feeling unless fix this wont get images head put friends pistol head played russian roulette could feel something know keeps it matter timing then initial shock wears off ill use like drug kills me might monday saturday fuck it start today dont want feel alone anymore even means feeling nothing ive alone entire life nobody wants me one ever wanted me feel stuck me tolerate me sickening terms now
adam thanks telling cant problems dont know honest anymore treat life like equation constants variables ive proven wrong anything attempt quantify accomplish try live life momenttomoment end nothing lack success opposite direction ive disciplined nice mean chaotic ive changed everything many times dont remember used be still outcome always sameim alone worse that im desperate shows everything do everyone read like book open mouth shitty feeling know one wants you good enough them anyone whats worse though knowing ill probably settle someone tolerates me id rather own oh boo hoo fucking ric boy sad thats reaction always seem get focus collegeyoure find girl well dont even know fuck you like im allowed problems resent come from like im less are youve rough fucking hypocrite think enjoyed telling folks depressed counselor explained feared safety think like fucking attention like want problem like attention whore remember hyperbolic sometimes im bothered lot questions one im usually centered on think maybe meant alone forever would explain read many things strength takes walk alone see glimpses life id live good company someone loved throw everything learned window desperate telegraphed scramble keep little bit memory time impose reality world forget look is never relationship never intimate level anyone didnt pay for writing know going come around someday looking answers heres one needed find want care anymore want keep failing getting hurt broken nothing rebuild flawed person always was failures shortsighted dreams entomb in care enough pull eject lever enough actually change see wrong myself thought could wait died bury me didnt im sorry that intention problems seem petty everyone know everyone thinks im well means im happy wont today wont tomorrow never shake feeling unless fix this wont get images head put friends pistol head played russian roulette could feel something know keeps it matter timing then initial shock wears off ill use like drug kills me might monday saturday fuck it start today dont want feel alone anymore even means feeling nothing ive alone entire life nobody wants me one ever wanted me feel stuck me tolerate me sickening terms now
adam gracias diciendo problemas cant no saben honesto más tratar la vida como ecuaciones constantes variables iv probado mal cualquier cosa intento cuantificar lograr probar vida viva momentomomento final nada falta éxito contrario dirección ive disciplinado agradable medio caótico ive cambiado todo muchas veces no recuerdo utilizado ser todavía resultado siempre solo sameim peor que Im desesperado muestra todo leer como libro boca abierta mierda sentimiento saber que uno quiere lo suficientemente bueno cualquiera lo que es peor aunque sabiendo mal alguien me tolera bastante propio oh boo hoo puto ric boy triste que la reacción siempre parece conseguir foco universidad encuentras chica bien ni siquiera sabes mierda te gusta problemas permitidos resentimiento vienen de como im menos son usted maldito hipócrita duro pensar le dijo a la gente deprimido consejero explicó seguridad pensar como mierda atención como querer problema como la atención que recuerda hiperbólica a veces im molestado muchas preguntas