want go badbut cant leave boyfriend cats experienced lot trauma childhood still affects day dad also killed toddler mom everyone raised shunning decided want jehovahs witness anymore lost people once chronic mental physical illnesses im pain physically mentally every day able get keep job since cleaning job several years lost moved away different city im relying people live im extremely underweight hard get eat unless im medicated even enjoy meals trying choke past anxious knot throat hate body look like skeleton teeth poor condition problems neglect im joke peers feels like people around see loser look me im  accomplishments feel proud of want source love light people around weight heavy im selfish place feel guilty that think ending lot afraid survive face people disappointed me survive partner know much kind loss hurts feel trapped
want go badbut cant leave boyfriend cats experienced lot trauma childhood still affects day dad also killed toddler mom everyone raised shunning decided want jehovahs witness anymore lost people once chronic mental physical illnessesim pain physically mentally every day able get keep job since cleaning job several years lost moved away different city im relying people live im extremely underweight hard get eat unless im medicated even enjoy meals trying choke past anxious knot throat hate body look like skeleton teeth poor condition problems neglect im joke peers feels like people around see loser look me im accomplishments feel proud of want source love light people around weight heavyim selfish place feel guilty that think ending lot afraid survive face people disappointed me survive partner know much kind loss hurts feel trapped
want go badbut cant leave novio gatos experimentados mucho trauma infancia todavía afecta día papá también mató niño mamá todo el mundo criado rechazo decidido wehovahs testigo más personas perdidas una vez enfermedades físicas mentales crónicas dolor físicamente todos los días capaz de conseguir mantener el trabajo desde limpieza trabajo varios años perdido mudado diferente ciudad im confiar personas viven im extremadamente bajo peso duro conseguir comer a menos que medicated incluso disfrutar de las comidas tratando de ahogarse pasado ansioso nudo garganta odio cuerpo aspecto dientes esqueleto pobre condición problemas descuido im broma compañeros se siente como la gente alrededor ver perdedor mirarme im logros sentirse orgulloso de querer fuente de amor personas luz alrededor peso pesado lugar egoísta sentirse culpable que pensar final mucho miedo sobrevivir cara personas decepcionados sobrevivir pareja saber mucho tipo pérdida dolor sentirse atrapado