hey thanks reading m europe diagnosed major depressive disorder ocd redflag last year also spent time psychiatric ward ssris benzodiazapenes depression series traumatic embarrassments mistakes mostly caused myself never really good decision maker even though read ton selfimprovement books whatnot real hard time remembering things learned often act emotionimpulse make everything even worse rejected girl infatuated behaving cringey found embarrassing stuff me left open vulnerable people deserve sense hurtsi high school drop biggest passion pursue music career rap however also thinking finishing last year school go college mostly want plan b able make money rap also think would help depression depression actual thing keeps stuff love keeping stuck past feeling intense redflag afraid people think me never problem now possible reach happiness become athletic quickwitted confident happy guy things went south life also want dedicate time gym amp writing lyrics lack motivation so pull dark amp scary rock bottom fulfill dreams hate wasting life time cannot shut depression peace  years old depressed regain confidence amp happiness become successful life
hey thanks reading meurope diagnosed major depressive disorder ocd redflag last year also spent time psychiatric ward ssris benzodiazapenes depression series traumatic embarrassments mistakes mostly caused myself never really good decision maker even though read ton selfimprovement books whatnot real hard time remembering things learned often act emotionimpulse make everything even worse rejected girl infatuated behaving cringey found embarrassing stuff me left open vulnerable people deserve sense hurtsi high school drop biggest passion pursue music career rap however also thinking finishing last year school go college mostly want plan b able make money rap also think would help depression depression actual thing keeps stuff love keeping stuck past feeling intense redflag afraid people think me never problem now possible reach happiness become athletic quickwitted confident happy guy things went south life also want dedicate time gym amp writing lyrics lack motivation so pull dark amp scary rock bottom fulfill dreams hate wasting life time cannot shut depression peace years old depressed regain confidence amp happiness become successful life
hey gracias lectura meurope diagnóstico trastorno depresivo mayor ocd redflag el año pasado también pasó tiempo sala psiquiátrica ssris benzodiazapenes depresión serie vergüenza traumática errores sobre todo me causó nunca realmente buena toma de decisiones a pesar de leer libros de superación de sí mismo lo que no es tiempo duro real recordar cosas aprendidas a menudo actuar emociónimpulso hacer todo peor rechazado chica infatuado comportamiento cringey encontrado cosas embarazosas me dejó abierta personas vulnerables merecer sentido hiersi escuela secundaria gota más grande pasión perseguir música carrera rap sin embargo también pensar terminar el año pasado escuela universidad mayormente quieren plan b capaz hacer dinero rap también pensar que ayudaría depresión depresión real mantiene cosas el amor quedarse atascado pasado sensación intenso rojoflag miedo gente pensar que nunca problema ahora posible llegar a la felicidad atlética rápidawitted confiado chico feliz cosas fue sur vida también quieren tiempo dedicado gimnasio amplificador escritura letra falta motivación así tirar oscuro amplificador miedo rock fondo cumplir sueños odio perder vida tiempo no cerrar depresión depresión años de depresión recuperar confianza amp felicidad convertirse en éxito vida