death guiltwe lost family friend cancer hes sick deteriorating while similarly grandpa passed earlier year watched weeks go coherent incoherent barely last hours watched bottom feet turn purple slowly complexion turned yellow last breath inconsistent shallow definitely traumatized me tried use image experience light life torch march im still really deep hole really feel like prisoner mind today hear family friend went similar way feel like wasted life like waste space fun life fun think hope gets fun relatively soon want live like long im really trying hard get better eyes heavy even often fake smile anymore whats wrong me know going comment theres nothing wrong me clearly be somethings wrong brain nobody cares believes me people think create misery ive lot trauma think ive lost little natural resilience lifes unpredictable events im scared die alone want to hope yall okay tonight still breathing
death guiltwe lost family friend cancer hes sick deteriorating while similarly grandpa passed earlier year watched weeks go coherent incoherent barely last hours watched bottom feet turn purple slowly complexion turned yellow last breath inconsistent shallow definitely traumatized me tried use image experience light life torch marchim still really deep hole really feel like prisoner mind today hear family friend went similar way feel like wasted life like waste space fun life fun think hope gets fun relatively soon want live like long im really trying hard get better eyes heavy even often fake smile anymore whats wrong me know going comment theres nothing wrong me clearly be somethings wrong brain nobody cares believes me people think create misery ive lot trauma think ive lost little natural resilience lifes unpredictable events im scared die alone want to hope yall okay tonight still breathing
muerte culpa perdimos familia amigo cáncer hes enfermo deterioro mientras que el abuelo pasó el año anterior semanas ir coherente incoherente apenas las últimas horas observó pies inferiores vuelta púrpura tez lentamente amarillo último aliento inconsistente superficial definitivamente traumatizado me intentó uso experiencia de la imagen luz vida antorcha marchim todavía realmente profundo agujero realmente sentir como prisionero mente hoy escuchar amigo de la familia fue similar se siente como vida perdida como desperdicio espacio diversión vida diversión pensar esperanza se divierte relativamente pronto quiero vivir como largo im realmente tratando duro conseguir mejores ojos pesada incluso a menudo sonrisa falsa más lo que me mal saber va a comentar no hay nada mal me claramente ser algo mal cerebro nadie se preocupa cree que la gente cree crear miseria ive mucho trauma pensar vida pérdida poco natural vida impredecible eventos im miedo morir solo quiero esperar yull bien esta noche todavía respirando