 fulfilled life want outhi all wanted come share slice wonderful hellscape call life im subreddit ive fantasised pondered killing multiple times throughout life last days probably intense yet tried kill  times issues pretty complex guess im really good cloaking mental health word use describe exactly im feeling life exhausted im recent graduate degree music production so useful struggled lot mental health university uni developed epilepsy brought anxiety sleep deprivation diagnosis fucked me began live life completely opposite doctors telling me wreckless drugs alcohol dangerous situations wanted closer closer death sort like game me spending lockdown own spending thousands pounds not even money drugs give escape depression anxiety even worse live home dad makes suicidal thoughts increase tenfold feel absolutely worthless like old paper  note bit worth couple years ago useless currently still want die set various dates ways go ill never know im moment gives chance step back think lil bit thanks reading got far
fulfilled life want outhi all wanted come share slice wonderful hellscape call life im subredditive fantasised pondered killing multiple times throughout life last days probably intense yet tried kill times issues pretty complex guess im really good cloaking mental health word use describe exactly im feeling life exhausted im recent graduate degree music production so useful struggled lot mental health university uni developed epilepsy brought anxiety sleep deprivation diagnosis fucked me began live life completely opposite doctors telling me wreckless drugs alcohol dangerous situations wanted closer closer death sort like game me spending lockdown own spending thousands pounds not even money drugs give escape depression anxiety even worse live home dad makes suicidal thoughts increase tenfold feel absolutely worthless like old paper note bit worth couple years ago useless currently still want die set various dates ways go ill never knowim moment gives chance step back think lil bit thanks reading got far
vida cumplida quiere outhi todos quieren venir compartir corte maravilloso infierno llamado vida im subreditive fantasised ponderated matanzas varias veces a través de la vida los últimos días probablemente intensos pero intentado matar tiempos bastante complejos conjetura im realmente bueno camuflaje salud mental uso palabra describir exactamente im sensación de vida agotado im reciente graduado producción de música tan útil lucha mucho salud mental universidad uni desarrollado epilepsia trajo ansiedad sueño privación diagnóstico follada me comenzó vida completamente opuesto médicos que me dicen drogas sin restos alcohol situaciones peligrosas quería más cerca muerte tipo juego me gasto bloqueo propio gasto miles de libras ni siquiera dinero drogas escapar depresión ansiedad incluso peor vivir casa papá hace pensamientos suicidas aumentar diez veces se sienten absolutamente inútil como viejo billete de papel vale la pena hace un par de años inútil actualmente todavía quiero morir se establecen varias fechas maneras de ir mal nunca sabe momento da un paso atrás pensar lil poco gracias lectura llegó lejos