police officer struggling suicidal thoughts cannot openly talk aboutthis throwaway intend reading responses think mostly want type get things chest tldr talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call  years old live work southern california deputy last  years spring chicken wife  years struggling infertility  years now lots surgery medication end sight stress scheduled sex lives absolutely taken toll us were still much love same july  fairly routine call involving child abuse kind pushed edge call mental breakdown work since then take mg day buspar my wife says help me sure xanax needed prescribed i originally tookalprazam rare side effect stop asked see psychiatrist next avail appointment midjanuary digress line work talk redflag be well career redflag no pun intended keep thoughts absolutely bottled inside act like therapists asks it therapist provided work specializes law enforcement issues nice times think killing myself hourly usually wake  night middle panic attack cannot get away pain almost physical pain specific plans would kill myself works think entire process detail often drink usually come close actually really fear matter time happens ironic type out clearly reservations killing right state mind wrong state mind sounds like realistic idea physically exhausted genuinely want pain end seeing answers make happen want talk someone without putting job line being put  hold ca means cannot carry gun therefore yeah heartbroken frustrated know anymore every day seems like groundhog day desperately want wife leave deserves better would make lot easier end life hated me completely gotten rid social media blocked parents life really good reason downward spiral last months been talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call really think end killing within next months ironically want talk anyone might able stop me backwards ampxb typing exhausting might go bed night thank listening
police officer struggling suicidal thoughts cannot openly talk aboutthis throwaway intend reading responses think mostly want type get things chest tldr talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call years old live work southern california deputy last years spring chicken wife years struggling infertility years now lots surgery medication end sight stress scheduled sex lives absolutely taken toll us were still much love same july fairly routine call involving child abuse kind pushed edge call mental breakdown work since then take mg day buspar my wife says help me sure xanax needed prescribed i originally tookalprazam rare side effect stop asked see psychiatrist next avail appointment midjanuary digress line work talk redflag be well career redflag no pun intended keep thoughts absolutely bottled inside act like therapists asks it therapist provided work specializes law enforcement issues nice times think killing myself hourly usually wake night middle panic attack cannot get away pain almost physical pain specific plans would kill myself works think entire process detail often drink usually come close actually really fear matter time happens ironic type out clearly reservations killing right state mind wrong state mind sounds like realistic idea physically exhausted genuinely want pain end seeing answers make happen want talk someone without putting job line being put hold ca means cannot carry gun therefore yeah heartbroken frustrated know anymore every day seems like groundhog day desperately want wife leave deserves better would make lot easier end life hated me completely gotten rid social media blocked parents life really good reason downward spiral last months been talk strong desire kill without fear repercussions every outlet find wants know location contact info theyll talk me want call redflag hotline trace call really think end killing within next months ironically want talk anyone might able stop me backwards ampxb typing exhausting might go bed night thank listening
policía forcejeo pensamientos suicidas no puede hablar abiertamente de este descarte intención de lectura respuestas pensar mayormente tipo de deseo conseguir cosas cofre tldr hablar fuerte deseo matar sin temor repercusiones cada salida encontrar quiere saber ubicación contacto información ellos hablar me quieren llamar redflag línea directa de seguimiento llamada años de edad trabajo en vivo sur california diputado los últimos años primavera pollo años lucha contra la infertilidad años ahora lotes cirugía medicamentos fin estrés sexual programadas vidas nos afectaban eran todavía mucho amor igual julio bastante rutina llamada que implica abuso de niños tipo borde empujado llamar trabajo crisis mental desde entonces tomar mg día buspar mi esposa dice que me ayude seguro xanax necesita recetado