feel like ending todayi feel lonely absolutely nothing gone right life years distanced abusive family certain times choice around them watching acting happy normal regard pain remorse theyve treated  breaking me like never value them years time love put init matter care emotional state  care alone am actually laugh ignore presence like even exist like added nothing lives nothing go right people supposed love dont for years trying whats right life avail one wants me one love im even sure love myself im weird stupid insecure lonely misfit deserve die prolong it got pills could today theres nothing left wait for edit update many compassionate people took one pill far twice dose im eyeing others get drowsy enough witnessed sister berate sick father said noticed scratches car since used it hit multiple times tried hide it really bad scratches evident cried screamed told would die leave old iron there nmom trip fast enough comfort her saying dad devil uncaring hes not trying stand soft spoken manner stop recklessly driving vehicle went make sure alright shaking bad kept worrying another stroke talked softly things stopped crying able eeat lunch worry much  seem care health care wellbeing selfishness would kill himwho would take care him yet want die bad today want take pills go sleep go away maybe would join soon idk want take care him one takes care im dying im dying want let go know do
feel like ending todayi feel lonely absolutely nothing gone right life years distanced abusive family certain times choice around them watching acting happy normal regard pain remorse theyve treated breaking me like never value them years time love put init matter care emotional state care alone am actually laugh ignore presence like even exist like added nothing lives nothing go right people supposed love dont for years trying whats right life avail one wants me one love im even sure love myself im weird stupid insecure lonely misfit deserve die prolong it got pills could today theres nothing left wait for edit update many compassionate people took one pill far twice dose im eyeing others get drowsy enough witnessed sister berate sick father said noticed scratches car since used it hit multiple times tried hide it really bad scratches evident cried screamed told would die leave old iron there nmom trip fast enough comfort her saying dad devil uncaring hes not trying stand soft spoken manner stop recklessly driving vehicle went make sure alright shaking bad kept worrying another stroke talked softly things stopped crying able eeat lunch worry much seem care health care wellbeing selfishness would kill himwho would take care him yet want die bad today want take pills go sleep go away maybe would join soon idk want take care him one takes care im dying im dyingwant let go knowdo
Siento como terminar hoy me siento solo absolutamente nada ido bien vida años distante familia abusivo ciertas veces elección alrededor de ellos viendo actuar feliz normal respeto remordimiento dolor han tratado romperme como nunca valor ellos años tiempo amor poner enit materia cuidado emocional estado cuidado solo soy en realidad risa ignorar presencia como incluso existir como añadido nada vidas nada va derecho personas supuesto amor dont durante años probar lo que es la vida correcta aproveche uno quiere un amor im incluso seguro amor mí mismo soy extraño estúpido insegura solitario inadaptado merecer morir prolongar