im doomed life eternal misery death escapeage  sexually assaulted first time naivete told dad said go room sleep never addressed it age  sexually assaulted second time wiser time age  two year long abusive relationship made petrified men loud voices sudden movements would trigger me parents best severely bullied th grade became suicidal mum found suicidal tendencies said go ahead it im watching first fullblown panic attack age  parents rubbished it said theres thing panic attack said probably much drink they like people drink theyre orthodox asians im  graduated college one best times life became independent anxiety time low well school published newspaper journal found love life professors became closest friends graduated applied eight different places job everyone reverted letter rejection last hope rejected today stuck parents place love controlling me autonomy mental health goes shit become different person nowhere else apply ive exhausted list contacts networks parents debt im exhausted ive realized happiness fleeting cruel joke job got one paid  times average sales job interested academia research said wanted follow passion fool im paying it goodbye
im doomed life eternal misery death escapeage sexually assaulted first time naivete told dad said go room sleep never addressed it age sexually assaulted second time wiser time age two year long abusive relationship made petrified men loud voices sudden movements would trigger me parents best severely bullied th grade became suicidal mum found suicidal tendencies said go ahead it im watching first fullblown panic attack age parents rubbished it said theres thing panic attack said probably much drink they like people drink theyre orthodox asians im graduated college one best times life became independent anxiety time lowwell school published newspaper journal found love life professors became closest friends graduated applied eight different places job everyone reverted letter rejection last hope rejected today stuck parents place love controlling me autonomy mental health goes shit become different person nowhere else apply ive exhausted list contacts networks parents debt im exhausted ive realized happiness fleeting cruel joke job got one paid times average sales job interested academia research said wanted follow passion fool im paying it goodbye
Im vida condenada miseria eterna muerte fugaje sexualmente agredido primera vez ingenuidad le dijo a papá que go room sleep nunca abordó la edad sexualmente agredido segunda vez tiempo más sabio edad dos años larga relación abusivo hombres fuertes voces fuertes movimientos repentinos me disparan los padres mejor severamente intimidado th grado se convirtió en suicida mamá tendencias suicidas dijo seguir adelante im ver primer ataque de pánico plena edad padres basura dijo que Theres cosa pánico ataque dijo probablemente mucho beber como la gente bebe son ortodoxos asians im graduado universidad un mejor momento la vida se convirtió en independiente ansiedad tiempo Lowwell escuela periódico publicado revista encontrado amor profesores se graduaron amigos más cercanos aplicado ocho lugares diferentes trabajo todo el mundo revertido carta rechazo última esperanza rechazada hoy se pegan padres lugar amor control me autonomía salud mental va mierda se convierte en diferente persona en ningún otro lugar aplicar en vida exhausto lista contactos redes padres deuda im exhausto ha realizado felicidad efímera broma cruel trabajo consiguió un pago veces promedio ventas trabajo interesado investigación académica dijo que quería seguir pasión tonto pagarle adiós im