hello emma guess  wayokay sorry dosent belong here going try anyway guess need advice right now try keep back story short lived small village middle germany parents divorced  lived mum guess emotionaly necelect since childhood big social issues whole life school lonly hell school got home locked room mostly dident even leave house mostly spend childhood front tv phone dident know better sadly yt videos podcasts realy simulate social live least wass hadi slowly got depressd ate unhealty my mum also obese got obese long remember kg yo finished idk called english realschulabschluss  grade dident know that mentaly complete mess good physikal form started bvb berufs vorbereitende bildingsmanahme something like brige jear helps find job first time life social new start new people actually enyoud live actually started lose waight people actually wanted talk meit heaven okay let us start strange parti transgender i born maleafter lost moust waight social aktiv noticed things wrongthe first thing nothing gender guess mention anyway noticed atractet guys couse woman okay blushing sitting next hot guythen resurtch internet porn found lgbt  lived small christian village school dident teach shit stuff hated months dident know gay bi anything exist even speak transgender people hrt know strange wrong okay that sorry post strange trying tell happend perspektivei found trans people everything resonated guess moust hatred still boady even lost waight could loved boady dident could simply describet hate boady male oktober  bvb got put lockdown distance work some school work per emaili lost small social live finaly permanently every day room dident talked anything meaningfull mum mental state fastly deckend new low hated boady ever even looked like normal teenager okay lonlynes necelect enough simply wanted die vanish world thought hated boady becouse lost chance coin toss becouse fucked genes would even whit hrt never able pass becouse whide shoulders haight acces working medication plan cut open wrist bleed outmy mum somehow noticed something wrong probably got aggressiv constant mood swings finaly got appointment terrible terapist hoped fix me idk terapist dident help me listend dident give advice anythinglater idk seriusly fuck thank god two months ago got psycatrie  finaly got fucking help nedet  fucking good psycatrist actually helps talks gives advice worked thro lot past a lot witch wrote hereand small social live whit patientsi got relesed yesterday honest i living dad right future still planning everything okay right now probably going go new terapist  still hrt figure future out least know still rest life whatever want it  humans chapes  boady positivity stuffi sorry sorry strange aweful grammar wanted write get heard sorry picturing mum bad mental medical problems guess dident know betterplease someone spare time would glad could talk  please talk someone
hello emma guess wayokay sorry dosent belong here going try anyway guess need advice right now try keep back story short lived small village middle germany parents divorced lived mum guess emotionaly necelect since childhood big social issues whole life school lonly hell school got home locked room mostly dident even leave house mostly spend childhood front tv phone dident know better sadly yt videos podcasts realy simulate social live least wass hadi slowly got depressd ate unhealty my mum also obese got obese long remember kg yo finished idk called english realschulabschluss grade dident know that mentaly complete mess good physikal form started bvb berufs vorbereitende bildingsmanahme something like brige jear helps find job first time life social new start new people actually enyoud live actually started lose waight people actually wantedtalk meit heavenokay let us startstrange parti transgender i born maleafter lost moust waight social aktiv noticed things wrongthe first thing nothing gender guess mention anyway noticed atractet guys couse woman okay blushing sitting next hot guythen resurtch internet porn found lgbt lived small christian village school dident teach shit stuff hated months dident know gay bi anything exist even speak transgender people hrt know strange wrong okay that sorry post strange trying tell happend perspektivei found trans people everything resonated guess moust hatred still boady even lost waight could loved boady dident could simply describet hate boady male oktober bvb got put lockdown distance work some school work per emaili lost small social live finaly permanently every day room dident talked anything meaningfull mum mental state fastly deckend new low hated boady ever even looked like normal teenager okay lonlynes necelect enough simply wanted die vanish world thought hated boady becouse lost chance coin toss becouse fucked genes would even whit hrt never able pass becouse whide shoulders haight acces working medication plan cut open wrist bleed outmy mum somehow noticed something wrong probably got aggressiv constant mood swings finaly got appointment terrible terapist hoped fix me idk terapist dident help me listend dident give advice anythinglater idk seriusly fuck thank god two months ago got psycatrie finaly got fucking help nedet fucking good psycatrist actually helps talks gives advice worked thro lot past a lot witch wrote hereand small social live whit patientsi got relesed yesterday honest i living dad right future still planning everythingokay right now probably going go new terapist still hrt figure future out least know still rest life whatever want it humans chapes boady positivity stuffi sorry sorry strange aweful grammar wanted write get heard sorry picturing mum bad mental medical problems guess dident know betterplease someone spare time would glad could talk please talk someone
Hola emma adivina wayokay lo siento dosent pertenecen aquí va a tratar de todos modos conjetura necesidad consejo en este momento tratar de mantener la historia corta vida pueblo medio Alemania padres divorciados vivir mamá conjetura emocional necelecto desde la infancia grandes problemas sociales toda la vida escuela sólo infierno escuela llegó a casa habitación cerrada mayormente dident incluso dejar casa mayormente pasar infancia frente teléfono de televisión dident saber mejor triste yt videos podcasts realy simula social en vivo menos was hadi se deprimió lentamente se comió unalty mi madre también obeso obeso largo recordar kg yo terminó idk llamado inglés realschulabschluss grado dident saber que mentalmente completo desorden buena forma fisical comenzó bvb berufs vorbeitende bildingsmanahme algo como brige jear ayuda a encontrar trabajo primera vida social nuevo comienzo gente realmente enyoud vida realmente comenzó a perder waight gente realmente quería hablar meit heavyokay dejarnos startrange parti transgénero