think im finally going end lifei never thought id make  im  feel like ive tried long enough gave good run went therapy took meds even went hospital time felt better crash worse worse every time happiness ever lasts weeks back square one tell people getting sick shit constantly tell things again feel guilty every day im here everyone tries hard still nothing give them say thank you im sorry i love you ill try harder meaningless keep picturing downing whole bottle pills alone favorite park hanging bridge near house ive already written notes people care about walk traffic think might believe accident hide notes find weeks write email write blog post set publish days now want ask help hospital expensive treatment expensive try stop means someone work cover shift parents call make excuse cant go work ill miss semester grandparents upset sad easier die point least around see happens next told friend id see today im scared cancel itll better find dead ive run excuses siblings home school ill catch bus something want find body gotta finish notes first kind want eat one last big meal maybe take nice hot bath one last time maybe ill go catch movie go pet store look cute animals one time take one last walk park go museum one last time want make last day nice feel lot calmer knowing end feel serene knowing pain anymore im gonna make peaceful last day thanks reading
think im finally going end lifei never thought id make im feel like ive tried long enough gave good run went therapy took meds even went hospital time felt better crash worse worse every time happiness ever lasts weeks back square one tell people getting sick shit constantly tell things again feel guilty every day im here everyone tries hard still nothing give them say thank you im sorry i love you ill try harder meaningless keep picturing downing whole bottle pills alone favorite park hanging bridge near house ive already written notes people care about walk traffic think might believe accident hide notes find weeks write email write blog post set publish days now want ask help hospital expensive treatment expensive try stop means someone work cover shift parents call make excuse cant go work ill miss semester grandparents upset sad easier die point least around see happens next told friend id see today im scared cancel itll better find dead ive run excuses siblings home school ill catch bus something want find body gotta finish notes first kind want eat one last big meal maybe take nice hot bath one last time maybe ill go catch movie go pet store look cute animals one time take one last walk park go museum one last time want make last day nice feel lot calmer knowing end feel serene knowing pain anymore im gonna make peaceful last day thanks reading
Creo que por fin voy a acabar con la vida nunca pensé que id hacer que me siento como ive probado suficiente tiempo dio buen funcionamiento fue terapia tomó medicamentos incluso fue hospital tiempo se sintió mejor accidente peor cada vez que la felicidad dura semanas atrás uno decir a la gente enfermar mierda constantemente decir las cosas de nuevo sentirse culpable cada día Im aquí todo el mundo intenta duro todavía nada darles decir gracias im