good reason feel like this personality makes difficult reach outmy head mess sure rambling pile garbage never talk anyone problems posting something like extremely uncomfortable me sure rethink decision make post delete havent able find help yet figure anything learned  years reddit help area everything sure enough search guys are quick rundown me middle aged married kids successful dont remember feels like happy cant recall last time felt kind joy become really good faking around friends family flip switch head time social act happy make jokes play part make sure sadness leak spoil day anyone else exhausting sometimes work smile keep shit together  hours straight im nice guy everyone depends get things done im nice guy everyone looks support advise im nice guy exhausted faking day long sit car breaking point get physically ill throw upthen flip switch time go home pretend everything fine get feeling everyone around jealous family dream wife beautiful kids amazing large home drive nice cars make good living area live in feels like costume covering reality feel like failed oldest child adult know resents me try force involved exhausting try best shield bullshit younger kids also feel like failing cant seem give attention deserve feel like hate it heard talking eachother night crushed little soul left think wife planning leave me told years felt trapped needed independence best support starting new business finally working going well always thought would make things better instead unease festered grown stronger feel it resents tell holding long enough set someplace go leaves me issues past always able flip switch put brave face whatever takes work out trying feel spent keep cracking up almost broke tears birthday party front kids simple dentist visit much almost started bawling making cup coffee after cant keep shit together normal situations hell something big business life sham feel like faking  years moment someone going call bullshit seems rock solid everyone assumes kicking ass always razors edge balance feel like family here know quick family turn shut out become damn much want done everything already set everything up plan place put end things shielding friends family much possible wont look like redflag one would ever think did another tragic accident different others happen every day took large life insurance policy established trust children prepared documents attorney handle estate past simply plan place enough keep level anything drastic last month real struggle every single day it spoken wife feeling depressed wants therapy thats another mountain climb dont know energy make happen therapist years ago called set appointment last week refused book me dont recall ended therapy last time around must said done something horrible wont take back punch gut havent able make pick phone call another one quite frankly thought sitting therapists office makes feel ill uneasy dont even know ever helped made better faking everyone elses sake tldr exhausted tired sad want done
good reason feel like this personality makes difficult reach outmy head mess sure rambling pile garbage never talk anyone problems posting something like extremely uncomfortable me sure rethink decision make post delete havent able find help yet figure anything learned years reddit help area everything sure enough search guys are quick rundown me middle aged married kids successful dont remember feels like happy cant recall last time felt kind joy become really good faking around friends family flip switch head time social act happy make jokes play part make sure sadness leak spoil day anyone else exhausting sometimes work smile keep shit together hours straight im nice guy everyone depends get things done im nice guy everyone looks support advise im nice guy exhausted faking day long sit car breaking point get physically ill throw upthen flip switch time go home pretend everything fine get feeling everyone around jealous family dream wife beautiful kids amazing large home drive nice cars make good living area live in feels like costume covering reality feel like failed oldest child adult know resents me try force involved exhausting try best shield bullshit younger kids also feel like failing cant seem give attention deserve feel like hate it heard talking eachother night crushed little soul left think wife planning leave me told years felt trapped needed independence best support starting new business finally working going well always thought would make things better instead unease festered grown stronger feel it resents tell holding long enough set someplace go leaves me issues past always able flip switch put brave face whatever takes work out trying feel spent keep cracking up almost broke tears birthday party front kids simple dentist visit much almost started bawling making cup coffee after cant keep shit together normal situations hell something big business life sham feel like faking years moment someone going call bullshit seems rock solid everyone assumes kicking ass always razors edge balance feel like family here know quick family turn shut out become damn much want done everything already set everything up plan place put end things shielding friends family much possible wont look like redflag one would ever think did another tragic accident different others happen every day took large life insurance policy established trust children prepared documents attorney handle estate past simply plan place enough keep level anything drastic last month real struggle every single day it spoken wife feeling depressed wants therapy thats another mountain climb dont know energy make happen therapist years ago called set appointment last week refused book me dont recall ended therapy last time around must said done something horrible wont take back punch gut havent able make pick phone call another one quite frankly thought sitting therapists office makes feel ill uneasy dont even know ever helped made better faking everyone elses sake tldr exhausted tired sad want done
buena razón sentir como esta personalidad hace difícil llegar a cabo mi cabeza desastre seguro divagar montón de basura nunca hablar de nadie problemas publicar algo como extremadamente incómodo yo seguro repensar la decisión hacer post eliminar no ha podido encontrar ayuda sin embargo figura cualquier cosa aprendido años reddit ayuda área todo seguro suficiente búsqueda chicos son rápido ejecución de mí mediados de edad hijos casados éxito no recuerdo se siente como feliz no recuerdo la última vez se sintió buena alegría llegar a ser muy buena fingida amigos familia cambio de cabeza acto social feliz hacer bromas juego parte asegurarse de tristeza fuga mal día cualquier otra persona agotador a veces trabajo sonrisa mantener la mierda juntos horas derecho