want go hellfor longest time felt completely useless stupid like absolute failure future cant public speaking horrendous critical thinker writer spend time home trying finish masters thesis helping family restaurant working next medical school application rejected for th time honestly idea want do mediocre researcher absolute shame field embarrassed quality work also fun around friends finally cut loose invited hang out even make effort reach out see everyone else pass by stay stagnant future prospects everything touch turns trash stupid keep up struggling put thesis together selected flawed project written mcat  times idea want life everyone else know employed getting married good time im alone stupid waste life honestly tired feeling like stupidest person there unable anything right want die guts it popping pills difficult carbon monoxide sure thing noose hard family home also devout muslim redflag means go hell want get hit truck get cancer mugged killed want done with want help die
want go hellfor longest time felt completely useless stupid like absolute failure future cant public speaking horrendous critical thinker writer spend time home trying finish masters thesis helping family restaurant working next medical school application rejected for th time honestly idea want do mediocre researcher absolute shame field embarrassed quality work also fun around friends finally cut loose invited hang out even make effort reach out see everyone else pass by stay stagnant future prospects everything touch turns trash stupid keep up struggling put thesis together selected flawed project written mcat times idea want life everyone else know employed getting married good timeim alone stupid waste life honestly tired feeling like stupidest person there unable anything right want die guts it popping pillsdifficult carbon monoxide sure thing noose hard family home also devout muslim redflag means go hell want get hit truck get cancer mugged killed want done with want help die
Quiero ir al infierno durante más tiempo se sintió completamente inútil estúpido como fracaso absoluto futuro canto público habla horrendo crítico escritor pasar tiempo en casa tratando de terminar maestros tesis ayudar a la familia restaurante trabajo siguiente escuela de medicina aplicación rechazada por th tiempo honestamente idea querer hacer investigador mediocre absoluta vergüenza campo vergüenza trabajo de calidad vergüenza también diversión alrededor de amigos finalmente cortar libre invitado pasar el tiempo incluso hacer esfuerzo llegar a cabo ver a todos los demás pasar por quedarse estancado futuro perspectivas todo touch torna basura estúpido seguir luchando poner juntos tesis seleccionado proyecto defectuosos escritos mcat veces idea quieren vida todos los demás saben empleados conseguir buen tiempo en solitario estúpido desperdicio vida honestamente cansado sentirse como persona más estúpida allí incapaz de nada derecho querer morir tripas  píldorasdifícil monóxido de carbono seguro cosa noosa duro familia casa también devotos Muslim Redflag significa ir infierno quiere golpear camión conseguir cáncer asaltado matar querer hacer con la ayuda morir