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Mirar hacia adelante moribundo im listo final i ive tratado de llegar a la ayuda i ive intento de mejorar la vida intentar volver a la escuela ive hecho camino norte carolina washington estado buscar trabajo permitiría pagar facturas dejar de lado poco lluvia día pasado años ive parlantes drogoterapeutas drogoterapeutas intento de fuerza aceptar la vida está cansado como las cosas siempre resultan estoy cansado empezar a golpear bloqueos de carretera de nuevo estoy cansado hablar de ventilación ayuda necesidad solución viable matar a mí mismo ive toying idea años ahora viernes realmente golpeado duro uno capaz ayudar a tratar de llegar a soluciones reales en línea parece que la gente se acerca a los problemas como hace años comenzó a esperar cualquier cosa diferente realmente ive jodido mal avance vida vida todos incluso de la manera arreglar todo im punto podría ahorrar lo suficiente podría retirarse un día cualquier cosa grave sucedió pagar arreglar adolescentes muchos recursos disposición no puede permitirse incluso conseguir visión fija ojo izquierdo cosas mejor normal querrían quedarse vida ya que incluso cosas básicas difícil conseguir pensar im va a final esta noche quieren competir cualquier más im feliz matar final ahora menos allí me control