 london life living torturing without realising it way think messed stemmed early child regretful fixing since last year realised something severely wrong me sense child friends self isolated whole life without knowing affecting kid never went high school remember primary high school came home straight school even go weekends totally warped perspective school took seriously realise anything wrong year haunting me more grew quickly young went far left mum passed  life hit hard anything bad life exaggerated due this like poor got head insecure clothes go clothes saddened could experiences buy things like kids lack support system parents fully care overprotective never showed love like growing never gave advice tips take anywhere like shops normal parents get really jealous friends talk experiences playing sports dad going shopping mum know neglect cannot balme parents care end day abusive also got addicted porn young age sure started remember trying quit  years old remember trip school redflaged watching porn scared going die well  yrs idk dying probably started  obviously probably indirect attempt brain soothe pain time vicious life think worst part first half life lost mum dad worked hard himself stepmom came worked hard eventhough know me hard part nd half loved blindly torturing myself grief childhood never felt like child cannot remember memories high redflag feel like lived negative thousand years feel like  year old going counselling since beginning year barely helps whole life feels like illusion never understood school was never social life recently started developing one realised way lived thought normal hurt teenagers actually psychological torture cannot help keep thinking lived yet even though  hurts  want live anymore
london life living torturing without realising it way think messed stemmed early child regretful fixing since last year realised something severely wrong me sense child friends self isolated whole life without knowing affecting kid never went high school remember primary high school came home straight school even go weekends totally warped perspective school took seriously realise anything wrong year haunting me more grew quickly young went far left mum passed life hit hard anything bad life exaggerated due this like poor got head insecure clothes go clothes saddened could experiences buy things like kids lack support system parents fully care overprotective never showed love like growing never gave advice tips take anywhere like shops normal parents get really jealous friends talk experiences playing sports dad going shopping mum know neglect cannot balme parents care end day abusive also got addicted porn young age sure started remember trying quit years old remember trip school redflaged watching porn scared going die well yrs idk dying probably started obviously probably indirect attempt brain soothe pain time vicious life think worst part first half life lost mum dad worked hard himself stepmom came worked hard eventhough know me hard part nd half loved blindly torturing myself grief childhood never felt like child cannot remember memories high redflag feel like lived negative thousand years feel like year old going counselling since beginning year barely helps whole life feels like illusion never understood school was never social life recently started developing one realised way lived thought normal hurt teenagers actually psychological torture cannot help keep thinking lived yet even though hurts want live anymore
London vida viviendo torturando sin darse cuenta de que la manera de pensar mal paró niño temprano lamentable fijación desde el año pasado se dio cuenta de algo gravemente mal yo niños amigos auto aislado toda la vida sin saber afectar niño nunca fue escuela secundaria recordar escuela primaria llegó a casa recta escuela incluso ir fines de semana totalmente desvirtuado perspectiva escuela tomó en serio darse cuenta de cualquier año mal me persigue más creció joven lejos izquierda madre pasó la vida duro algo malo vida exagerado debido a esto como pobre consiguió ropa insegura ropa entristecida podría experiencias comprar cosas como niños sin sistema de apoyo padres totalmente cuidado sobreprotector nunca mostró amor como crecer nunca dio consejos consejos tomar en cualquier lugar como tiendas normales padres conseguir amigos realmente celosos hablar experiencias jugar deportes papá ir de compras mamá sabe negligencia padres cuidado final maltratado también se convirtió en adicto porno joven edad seguro comenzó a recordar tratando de dejar de años de edad edad viaje escuela derrochado ver porno miedo ir a morir