tell dadive feeling worse every day pretending parents everything fine taken toll me sleep time force wake sleep  hours get less  hours whole body feels awful fantasize throwing traffic jumping buildings hate life hate fact hard time forming relationships anyone relationship family siblings friends close hate one go to feel like dont home feel like ive tried wont let get close anyone ive joined clubs sorority volunteer places feels like form group im part of family life sucks too mom alcoholic extremely delusional dad another country honest one closest family however never around life know everyone given fair circumstance hate cant even feel independent feel trapped home time area live public transportation walking takes hours make plans someone pick take home want go shopping ask someone want go grocery store ask someone asked father car get one old happy it let mother drive totaled it i car  months destroyed brother speculated mother crashed purposely would force father buy brand new car believable delusions father rich secret family much story dont want long im currently university financial aid feel like taking time off however problem would pay financial aid given well loans  know family afford pay back im really happy here  also seen psychologist psychiatrist  months dont feel much better
tell dadive feeling worse every day pretending parents everything fine taken toll me sleep time force wake sleep hours get less hours whole body feels awful fantasize throwing traffic jumping buildings hate life hate fact hard time forming relationships anyone relationship family siblings friends close hate one go to feel like dont home feel like ive tried wont let get close anyoneive joined clubs sorority volunteer places feels like form group im part of family life sucks too mom alcoholic extremely delusional dad another country honest one closest family however never around life know everyone given fair circumstance hate cant even feel independent feel trapped home time area live public transportation walking takes hours make plans someone pick take home want go shopping ask someone want go grocery store ask someone asked father car get one old happy it let mother drive totaled it i car months destroyed brother speculated mother crashed purposely would force father buy brand new car believable delusions father rich secret family much story dont want long im currently university financial aid feel like taking time off however problem would pay financial aid given well loans know family afford pay back im really happy here also seen psychologist psychiatrist months dont feel much better
Dile a papá que se siente peor cada día fingiendo que los padres todo bien tomado me mata sueño fuerza despertar sueño horas obtener menos horas cuerpo entero se siente horrible fantasía tirar tráfico saltar edificios odio vida odio hecho duro tiempo formar relaciones cualquiera relación familia hermanos amigos cerca odio uno ir a sentir como no casa sentir como ive trial no dejar de cerrar nadie unido clubes hermandad voluntariado lugares se siente como grupo forma im parte de la vida familiar chupa también mamá alcohólico extremadamente delirante padre otro país honesto una familia más cercana sin embargo nunca en la vida saber todo el mundo dadas circunstancias justas odio no puede incluso sentirse independiente sentirse atrapado en casa zona de tiempo en vivo transporte público caminar horas hacer planes alguien recoger llevar a casa quiere ir de compras pregunta a alguien quiere ir a la tienda de comestibles pedir a alguien padre coche conseguir un viejo feliz dejar madre conducir total