left school pursue career enjoy love partner want alivei left school  take internship software company really enjoyed ended staying  months later got job company overworked paid peanuts put it age  flat living myself anyone elses standards well myself felt nothing owe parents copious amount money spending problems poor diet weight becoming problem real friends point feeling pretty down attributed mostly bad job had thought could fix getting another job did ive new job  months now feeling worse enjoy career love partner particularly feel like alive either keep invasive thoughts waiting train public ill stand right safety line train approaches think jump it nobody cares anyway physically turn away track train stop myself similar thing crossing roads late ill see car approaching ill slow think go on hit me please feel like im following routine dayin dayout waiting finally die im scared know get this need talk things someone
left school pursue career enjoy love partner want alivei left school take internship software company really enjoyed ended staying months later got job company overworked paid peanuts put it age flat living myself anyone elses standards well myself felt nothing owe parents copious amount money spending problems poor diet weight becoming problem real friends point feeling pretty down attributed mostly bad job had thought could fix getting another job did ive new job months now feeling worse enjoy career love partner particularly feel like alive either keep invasive thoughts waiting train public ill stand right safety line train approaches think jump it nobody cares anyway physically turn away track train stop myself similar thing crossing roads late ill see car approaching ill slow think go on hit me please feel like im following routine dayin dayout waiting finally dieim scared know get this need talk things someone
Dejo la escuela perseguir carrera disfrutar pareja amor querer vivoi de la escuela tomar prácticas empresa de software realmente disfrutado terminó estancia meses después consiguió trabajo empresa sobretrabajado pago cacahuetes puso edad plana vivir yo mismo cualquier otra norma bien yo sentía nada debe padres copiosa cantidad dinero gasto problemas de dieta peso convertirse en problema amigos reales punto sentirse bastante mal atribuido mayormente trabajo había pensado podría arreglar conseguir otro trabajo live nuevo trabajo meses ahora sentirse peor disfrutar carrera pareja amor particularmente se siente como vivo o mantener pensamientos invasivos espera tren público mal pie derecha línea de seguridad tren enfoques pensar salto de todos modos físicamente volver a distancia tren parada de pista mí mismo similar cosa cruzando carreteras tarde mal ver coche acercarse mal lento pensar ir golpearme por favor se siente como im después rutina día en espera finalmente dieim miedo saber conseguir esta necesidad hablar cosas alguien