meant ever existhey rsw ive posted one earliest submissions reddit im mistaken really feel like need help unfamiliar me ive suffering depressive symptoms several years started fairly traumatic episode youth about  years ago caused become extremely distrusting people especially officials kind past year ive tried multitude different selfhelp methods ranging meditation excercise even psychedelic drugs helped while really fix issues issues im extremely emotionless i even remember last time cried seldom display emotion exception hatred rage frustration seems emotions replaced everything else respond emotions whatever situations encounter theyve gone mind replaced every emotion there ive also noticed im becoming increasingly isolated increasingly harder approach its real effort get even respond phone call one remaining friends ive started think humans world extremely negative light yes thats right see street first impression would probably what fucking pretentious dickhead wished fell hurt himself even innocent interactions such greeted grocery store clerk provoke extremely hateful violent reactions im kidding anyone talks makes furious wish could left alone forever want see people want partake society want left alone never approached course possible thoughts sometimes led believe rest world incompatible me im one fit in perhaps would best started final journey unknown unexplainable rage hate turn paranoia delusional violence
meant ever existhey rsw ive posted one earliest submissions reddit im mistaken really feel like need help unfamiliar me ive suffering depressive symptoms several years started fairly traumatic episode youth about years ago caused become extremely distrusting people especially officials kind past year ive tried multitude different selfhelp methods ranging meditation excercise even psychedelic drugs helped while really fix issues issues im extremely emotionlessi even remember last time cried seldom display emotion exception hatred rage frustration seems emotions replaced everything else respond emotions whatever situations encounter theyve gone mind replaced every emotion there ive also noticed im becoming increasingly isolated increasingly harder approach its real effort get even respond phone call one remaining friends ive started think humans world extremely negative light yes thats right see street first impression would probably what fucking pretentious dickhead wished fell hurt himself even innocent interactions such greeted grocery store clerk provoke extremely hateful violent reactions im kidding anyone talks makes furious wish could left alone forever want see people want partake society want left alone never approached course possible thoughts sometimes led believe rest world incompatible meim one fit in perhaps would best started final journey unknown unexplainable rage hate turn paranoia delusional violence
En realidad siento que la necesidad de ayuda no me familiariza los síntomas depresivos del sufrimiento vivo varios años comenzaron episodio bastante traumático juventud hace unos años causado se convirtió en extremadamente desconfiado personas especialmente funcionarios tipo año pasado ive intentó multitud diferentes métodos de autoayuda que van meditación ejercicio incluso psicodélicas drogas ayudados mientras que realmente solucionar problemas im extremadamente emocionalmente incluso recordar la última vez lloraba rara vez mostrar emoción excepción odio rabia frustración parece que las emociones reemplazó todo lo demás responder emociones independientemente de las situaciones encuentro han ido mente reemplazó cada emoción allí ive también notó im cada vez más aislado enfoque cada vez más difícil su esfuerzo real conseguir incluso responder llamada telefónica un amigo restante ive comenzó a pensar mundo humano extremadamente luz negativa