seems like woken today knowing thinking full clarity sitting desk thinking mistakes made  feel calm scared lost everything lead fault manipulative second language hurt people meant everything me marriage failed held tight needed let go words say apologize take back pain caused suffocating eventually cheating her still crosses mind everyday even relationship tried everything right failed inherently bad person gaslighting without even knowing made miserable point fight air lungs get away ill never know make right you hope someday forgive meeven joined navy sense normalcy life messed left little pocket meant to stay awake night suffocating memories almost dying hope morning light bring life every part knows situation would pain now terrible person know deserve happiness life calm knowing calm knowing everything end somehow lowest ever felt also calmest ever felt anyone takes time read this thank you everything end
seems like woken today knowing thinking full clarity sitting desk thinking mistakes made feel calm scared lost everything lead fault manipulative second language hurt people meant everything me marriage failed held tight needed let go words say apologize take back pain caused suffocating eventually cheating her still crosses mind everyday even relationship tried everything right failed inherently bad person gaslighting without even knowing made miserable point fight air lungs get away ill never know make right you hope someday forgive meeven joined navy sense normalcy life messed left little pocket meant to stay awake night suffocating memories almost dying hope morning light bring life every part knows situation would pain now terrible person know deserve happiness life calm knowing calm knowing everything end somehow lowest ever felt also calmest ever felt anyone takes time read this thank you everything end
Parece que despertó hoy sabiendo pensar la claridad completa escritorio pensar errores hecho sentir calma miedo perdido todo plomo culpa manipulador segundo lenguaje lastimar a la gente significaba todo mi matrimonio fracasado mantenido apretado necesario dejar ir palabras decir disculpa tomar dolor causado asfixiar finalmente engañar todavía cruza la mente incluso la relación intentó todo correcto inherentemente mala persona gaslighting sin siquiera saber hecho miserable punto lucha pulmones de aire mal nunca se sabe hacer derecho espero que algún día me perdonen incluso se unió a la marina sentido normalidad vida desordenada poco bolsillo significado para permanecer despierto noche sofocante recuerdos casi morir luz de la mañana traer vida cada parte sabe situación dolor ahora terrible persona saber merece felicidad vida calma saber todo final de alguna manera más bajo nunca se sintió más calma nunca se sintió alguien se toma el tiempo leer este gracias todo final