lets talk throughi want die tired living tired constant heartache horrible disappointment tragedy loved ones dying me want love leaving someone else suffering feels immeasurable deep marianas trench godawful anxiety pressing chest think past recent distant see pain good outweigh bad tainted pervasive cloud negativity follows wherever go remember laughing laughing laughing best friend loved much bright blue eyes thin sly smile died car accident told facebook message steering wheel crushed heart died instant never loved way loved her loved her dead five years fell love someone else story love way loved them told incapable it theyre dating someone im cut life feel utterly alone im sure relate that no im one those wonder ive sexual partners past relationships end heartbreak abandonment must me something wrong me leave somehow want leave too ive before mental landscape vast emptiness it hissing snakes feet damned oppressive clouds hovering overhead ive even stared barrel mosin nagant shoving barrel mouth daring pull trigger eleven years ago afraid think assumed things would get better didnt keeps getting worse think im afraid more shame really sold rifle instrument fellate pull trigger wipe conscious mind clean reality im afraid dying want suffer unduly methods leave much room error lizardbrain kick scream body survive high caliber gunshot head way it best way barrel mouth point up use shotgun lethal make sure use slug good buckshot closedcasket immediate instant nothingness forever why love me anyone love love me hold close ugly undeserving must be must be must be im hideous nothingcreature crawling mud grasping branch bear feeble claws snaps disgust lets slide suffocate muck overwhelms me crystallizes around hated flesh locks away hell escape none helpless bastard hope one ever love me know it deep frame being incapable loved another especially love first something others capable loving proven me time time again ill die myself forgotten big part wants way want remembered world want remember it
lets talk throughi want die tired living tired constant heartache horrible disappointment tragedy loved ones dying me want love leaving someone else suffering feels immeasurable deep marianas trench godawful anxiety pressing chest think past recent distant see pain good outweigh bad tainted pervasive cloud negativity follows wherever go remember laughing laughing laughing best friend loved much bright blue eyes thin sly smile died car accident told facebook message steering wheel crushed heart died instant never loved way loved her loved her dead five years fell love someone else story love way loved them told incapable it theyre dating someone im cut life feel utterly aloneim sure relate that no im one those wonder ive sexual partners past relationships end heartbreak abandonment must me something wrong me leave somehow want leave too ive before mental landscape vast emptiness it hissing snakes feet damned oppressive clouds hovering overhead ive even stared barrel mosin nagant shoving barrel mouth daring pull trigger eleven years ago afraid think assumed things would get better didnt keeps getting worse think im afraid more shame really sold rifle instrument fellate pull trigger wipe conscious mind clean reality im afraid dying want suffer unduly methods leave much room error lizardbrain kick scream body survive high caliber gunshot head way it best way barrel mouth point up use shotgun lethal make sure use slug good buckshot closedcasket immediate instant nothingness forever why love me anyone love love me hold close ugly undeserving must be must be must be im hideous nothingcreature crawling mud grasping branch bear feeble claws snaps disgust lets slide suffocate muck overwhelms me crystallizes around hated flesh locks away hell escape none helpless bastard hope one ever love me know it deep frame being incapable loved another especially love first something others capable loving proven me time time again ill die myself forgotten big part wants way want remembered world want remember it
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