think going kill myself year old male know father left  years old negligent disconnected alcoholic kid mom used abuse relentlessly would beat belts extension chords punch face tell im stupid burned cigarettes times taken years pay student loan debt degree completely useless live poverty hurt knee month ago cant even manual labour jobs used get by everything seems completely hopeless clue doing totally atomised family support live pay check pay check cause living high even though work  hours week barely scraping by whenever start get ahead something bad happens  months ago shell  dollars get car fixed needed new control arm plus new tires plus alignment tow need new muffler pass emission test cannot legally drive work knee gets better grinding like mad man shelling physio therapy get knee fixed costing ton ill laid bed months able work able pay rent  bank account needs last rest month life exhausting work hard can never pull pit im sad anything hopeless depressed stuck escape me
think going kill myself year old male know father left years old negligent disconnected alcoholic kid mom used abuse relentlessly would beat belts extension chords punch face tell im stupid burned cigarettes times taken years pay student loan debt degree completely useless live poverty hurt knee month ago cant even manual labour jobs used get by everything seems completely hopeless clue doing totally atomised family support live pay check pay check cause living high even though work hours week barely scraping by whenever start get ahead something bad happens months ago shell dollars get car fixed needed new control arm plus new tires plus alignment tow need new muffler pass emission test cannot legally drive work knee gets better grinding like mad man shelling physio therapy get knee fixed costing ton ill laid bed months able work able pay rent bank account needs last rest month life exhausting work hard can never pull pitim sad anything hopeless depressed stuck escape me
Creo que me voy a matar a mí mismo año hombre saber padre izquierda años negligente desconectado niño alcohólico abuso utilizado implacablemente golpes cinturones extensión acordes ponche cara contar im estúpido cigarrillos quemados tiempos tomados años pagar estudiante préstamo deuda grado completamente inútil vivir pobreza dolor rodilla hace meses incluso trabajo manual trabajos utilizados conseguir por todo parece completamente sin esperanza hacer totalmente atomizado familia apoyo apoyo vivo cheque de pago causa vivir alto a pesar de horas de trabajo semana apenas raspar por cada vez que empezar a salir adelante algo malo sucede hace meses shell dólares conseguir coche fijo nuevo brazo de control necesario más neumáticos nuevos además de alineación remolque necesidad de nuevo silenciador pase prueba de emisión no puede legalmente conducir trabajo rodilla consigue mejor molienda como loco hombre bombardeo fisioterapia obtener rodilla fija costo ton enfermo cama meses capaz de pagar alquiler cuenta bancaria necesidades último descanso vida agotador trabajo duro nunca puede tirar pitim triste nada desesperado