nothingive feeling bad years now starting small gradually getting worse point last year year ive wanted die ive posted feeling like garbage essentially told still things live blah blah somewhat believed it thinking family friends never thought myself i week decided take look life family away skipped weeks classes saying ill finally want hate usual things wanted change came however found have nothing job car family friends many possessions look life see clearly mean nothing obviously family friends everything else something fill void nothing enjoy never feel like make choice never wanted drive family made could go own realise never go anywhere never wanted job family wanted earn money waste things value importance try make happy cant top that one talk this tell parents im depressed i went bad state  theyll assume im stressed work uni tell get grip like last time best friend drifted away newer friends people talk stuff to would get contact best friend awkward since met fianc if guessed fancy lot one many reasons hate myself going doctor drugs help  super depressed chunked antidepressants like smarties speaking smarties im lactose intolerant cant even eat want favorites foods gone instant come about doctor said likely triggered stress feeling fucking stress jesus christ thats true im gonna intolerant fucking oxygen time im done writing this anyway digress used go counseling waste time sum told year half four words dont think it wow good advice right there hey everyone feel bad well dont so conclude nothing choice one talk to nothing important me take back one choice whether live die man die sound like great option
nothingive feeling bad years now starting small gradually getting worse point last year year ive wanted die ive posted feeling like garbage essentially told still things live blah blah somewhat believed it thinking family friends never thought myself i week decided take look life family away skipped weeks classes saying ill finally want hate usual things wanted change came however found have nothing job car family friends many possessions look life see clearly mean nothing obviously family friends everything else something fill void nothing enjoy never feel like make choice never wanted drive family made could go own realise never go anywhere never wanted job family wanted earn money waste things value importancetry make happy cant top that one talk this tell parents im depressed i went bad state theyll assume im stressed work uni tell get grip like last time best friend drifted away newer friends people talk stuff to would get contact best friend awkward since met fianc if guessed fancy lot one many reasons hate myself going doctor drugs help super depressed chunked antidepressants like smarties speaking smarties im lactose intolerant cant even eat want favorites foods gone instant come about doctor said likely triggered stress feeling fucking stress jesus christ thats true im gonna intolerant fucking oxygen time im done writing this anyway digress used go counseling waste time sum told year half four words dont think itwow good adviceright therehey everyone feel bad well dont so conclude nothing choice one talk to nothing important me take back one choice whether live die man die sound like great option
nada sentido mal años ahora empezando pequeño poco a poco peor punto el año pasado ive would die ive posted sentimiento como basura esencialmente dijo cosas todavía vivir bla bla algo creía pensando amigos de la familia nunca pensé yo misma semana decidí mirar la vida familia lejos omitió semanas clases diciendo mal finalmente deseo odio cosas habituales quería cambio vino sin embargo encontrado no tienen nada de trabajo coche amigos de la familia muchas posesiones mira la vida ver claramente significa nada obviamente amigos de la familia todo lo demás algo llenar vacío nada disfrutar nunca se siente como hacer elección nunca quería conducir familia hizo darse cuenta nunca ir a cualquier lugar nunca quería trabajo familia quería ganar dinero desperdicio cosas valor importancia hacer feliz note top que una charla este decir padres im deprimido fui mal estado