hate death despise life moredepression ptsd bpd drag people love im leech hurts like shit rip slowly killing long run wish death every second terrified people world mental capacity suffering exists hate hate hate god cant take care cat anymore cant anything lying bed takes much energy stopped things love reading drawing gaming socialising drinking eating less sad empty cant wash brush teeth get dressed eat healthy self harm still bleeding  days wasting time wasting money wasting love wasting life wasting frustrated held life loved ones cant study medical condition want go coma spend infinite amount time head nightmares painful bearable compared real life shutting talking body makes sound farting voices want fade away anger bitterness sadness disgust towards ptsd hyperventilation slight amount always gasping air time feels like im hungover even though drink look others look me see much failure never productive work tons ideas perfect redflag blanket choking shut fuck clocks tic tic bullshit im never going get better prefer die please
hate death despise life moredepression ptsd bpd drag people love im leech hurts like shit rip slowly killing long run wish death every second terrified people world mental capacity suffering exists hate hate hate god cant take care cat anymore cant anything lying bed takes much energy stopped things love reading drawing gaming socialising drinking eating less sad empty cant wash brush teeth get dressed eat healthy self harm still bleeding days wasting time wasting money wasting love wasting life wasting frustrated held life loved ones cant study medical condition want go coma spend infinite amount time head nightmares painful bearable compared real life shutting talking body makes sound farting voices want fade away anger bitterness sadness disgust towards ptsd hyperventilation slight amount always gasping air time feels like im hungover even though drink look others look me see much failure never productive work tons ideas perfect redflag blanket choking shut fuck clocks tic tic bullshit im never going get better prefer die please
odio muerte desprecia vida másdepresión ptsd bpd arrastrar gente amor im sanguijuela duele como mierda rasgar lentamente matar largo plazo desear muerte cada segundo aterrorizado gente mundo capacidad mental sufrimiento existe odio odio odio dios no puede cuidar gato más nada mentira cama toma mucha energía parado cosas amor dibujo juego socialización beber menos triste vacío cant lavar dientes cepillarse vestirse comer sano auto daño todavía sangrar días perder tiempo perder dinero perder amor desperdiciar vida frustrado vida mantenida seres queridos no puede estudiar coma quiere ir coma pasar infinito tiempo cabeza pesadillas dolorosas soportable comparado vida real cerrar cuerpo habla voz hace sonido pedos voces quieren desaparecer ira amargura tristeza disgusto hacia ptsd hiperventilación leve cantidad siempre gasping aire tiempo se siente como im resaca incluso aunque beber mirar otros me ven mucho fracaso trabajo toneladas ideas perfecto rojoflag manta mamada cerrado mierda relojes tic tic tic mierda nunca va a ser mejor prefiere morir por favor