ive wavering suicidal thoughts since  im almost  nothing going right im ready give uptitle remember miserable far back consciously remember remember calling redflag hotline  hung making excuses everything lady end saying trying help ive loser forever always picked on always forgotten always pushed aside im black sheep family theyre bunch pious christian straight white baptist fanatics im white bisexual atheist mom constantly tells need god tell anything personal dad brushes tells need happy tell anything personal ive downward fucking spiral since graduated high school moved parents got slapped paying stupid amount rent every month failed college programming class lost scholarship flopped around looking jobs dropped out took credit card debt fix car struggled paying rent lease ran out kept flopping around one job next moved back parents crashed car thats mention health issues ive got exact issues mom fibromyalgia though diagnosed benign tumor growing inside femoral neck hip causing suffer basically constant back hip neck pain today im living parents nowhere else go sleeping air mattress relying parents bicker constantly sort travel staffing agency im currently employed work thats within affordable travel range much job interview past  months despite efforts send applications even know fuck decided write this think anyone gives shit sure hell dont im ready give put bullet skull even privilege parents firearms wat do
ive wavering suicidal thoughts since im almost nothing going rightim ready give uptitle remember miserable far back consciously remember remember calling redflag hotline hung making excuses everything lady end saying trying help ive loser forever always picked on always forgotten always pushed aside im black sheep family theyre bunch pious christian straight white baptist fanatics im white bisexual atheist mom constantly tells need god tell anything personal dad brushes tells need happy tell anything personal ive downward fucking spiral since graduated high school moved parents got slapped paying stupid amount rent every month failed college programming class lost scholarship flopped around looking jobs dropped out took credit card debt fix car struggled paying rent lease ran out kept flopping around one job next moved back parents crashed car thats mention health issues ive got exact issues mom fibromyalgia though diagnosed benign tumor growing inside femoral neck hip causing suffer basically constant back hip neck pain today im living parents nowhere else go sleeping air mattress relying parents bicker constantly sort travel staffing agency im currently employed work thats within affordable travel range much job interview past months despite efforts send applications even know fuck decided write this think anyone gives shit sure hell dont im ready give put bullet skull even privilege parents firearms wat do
viviendo pensamientos suicidas vacilantes desde im casi nada va a la derecha listo dar el título recordar miserable muy atrás conscientemente recordar llamar a redflag línea telefónica colgada haciendo excusas todo fin dama decir tratar ayuda ive perdedor para siempre siempre siempre elegido siempre olvidados dejados a un lado im familia de ovejas negras son un montón de devotos cristianos recta blanco baptistas fanáticos im blanco bisexual ateo mamá constantemente dice necesidad Dios decir cualquier cosa personal papá cepillos dice necesidad feliz decir cualquier cosa personal ive hacia abajo espiral de mierda desde graduada escuela secundaria trasladado padres fueron abofeteados pagar estúpida cantidad de alquiler cada mes clase de programación universitaria fallida pérdida de beca beca se desplomó alrededor de buscar puestos de trabajo dejados de lado tarjeta de crédito pagar deuda coche lucha pagar alquiler de alquiler corrió fuera se mantuvo flotando alrededor de un trabajo siguiente se trasladó atrás padres se estrelló coche que mencionan problemas de salud tienen problemas exactos mamá fibromialgia aunque diagnosticado tumor benigno crecimiento dentro femoral cuello cadera causar sufrimiento básicamente constante espalda cadera cuello dolor hoy im padres en ningún otro lugar ir dormir colchón de aire confianza padres bicker constantemente clase viajes personal agencia