everything shitso landlord pestering move out last half year depressionanxiety gotten bad ive getting persistant fantasies cutting myself well lot concentration problems feeling fucked general back landlord finally accepted room somewhere else felt relatively ok it found today landlord basically screwing money would give moving went visit room found definitely way small accepted felt stuck current room deal pressure landlord good room packing found stuff care basically collection painttoolsmaterials something really space use new room ill glad get furniture fit clue id able paint build anything suppose firstworldproblems fuck mental issues building shit helps hold sanity first meeting psychologist last week first meeting psychiatrist second week march pills id get would probably take  weeks work anyway honestly ive thought calling crisis center couple times last two weeks im supposed help now looking psychologist organisation crisis center basically told problems severe enough they get homeless people severe mental illness cases too yeah really nowhere go inside myself feel like want wreck making wrong decision stupid room everything going wrong kill myself thank god basically punish myself luckily psychologist said expected hes thinking diagnosis something personality exactly say yet one session suppose im completely crazy uniquely disabled something really feel fit categories treatment leaflet gave me general im kind sceptical treatment suppose point cant really get worse anything yeah fun ive never hurt myself honestly hope never will im getting closer closer something stupid either hurting destroying something else neither good idea im sure im writing wtf supposed it people talk family already talked couple times today im internet im scared suppose cause left alone ill mentally torture good reason anyway hope people better day am thanks reading
everything shitso landlord pestering move out last half year depressionanxiety gotten bad ive getting persistant fantasies cutting myself well lot concentration problems feeling fucked general back landlord finally accepted room somewhere else felt relatively okit found today landlord basically screwing money would give moving went visit room found definitely way small accepted felt stuck current room deal pressure landlord good room packing found stuff care basically collection painttoolsmaterials something really space use new room ill glad get furniture fit clue id able paint build anything suppose firstworldproblems fuck mental issues building shit helps hold sanity first meeting psychologist last week first meeting psychiatrist second week march pills id get would probably take weeks work anyway honestly ive thought calling crisis center couple times last two weeks im supposed help now looking psychologist organisation crisis center basically told problems severe enough they get homeless people severe mental illness cases too yeah really nowhere go inside myself feel like want wreck making wrong decision stupid room everything going wrong kill myself thank god basically punish myself luckily psychologist said expected hes thinking diagnosis something personality exactly say yet one session suppose im completely crazy uniquely disabled something really feel fit categories treatment leaflet gave me general im kind sceptical treatment suppose point cant really get worse anythingyeah funive never hurt myself honestly hope never will im getting closer closer something stupid either hurting destroying something else neither good ideaim sure im writing wtf supposed it people talk family already talked couple times today im internet im scared suppose cause left alone ill mentally torture good reason anyway hope people better day am thanks reading
Todo mierda casero move out el último medio año depresiónansiedad consiguió mal ive conseguir fantasías persistentes cortarme bien muchos problemas de concentración sentirse follada general back casero finalmente aceptó habitación en otro lugar se sintió relativamente okit encontrado hoy casero básicamente tornillo dinero daría mudanza fue visita habitación encontrado definitivamente manera pequeña aceptado sentido atascado actual acuerdo habitación terrateniente buena habitación embalaje encontrado cosas cuidado básicamente colección herramientas de pinturamateriales algo realmente espacio uso nuevo habitación mal contento conseguir muebles encajar pista id capaz pintura construir cualquier cosa supone primer mundo problemas mierda problemas mentales construcción mierda ayuda a mantener cordura primera reunión psicólogo la semana pasada primera reunión psiquiatra segunda semana marzo píldoras id probablemente tomaría semanas trabajo de todos modos honestamente pensamiento vivo llamar crisis centro dos veces las últimas dos semanas im supuesto ayudar ahora buscando psicólogo organización crisis centro básicamente dijo problemas lo suficientemente severos que consiguen personas sin hogar graves casos de enfermedad mental también