til dont think actually get helpi went psychiatrist didnt get diagnosed straight told depression anxiety followed saying really suicidal im going put inpatient care make sure safe pretty much asked things looked made realize suicidal pretty much scared actually admitting want need help lied said plans future tell everyone else cant even get meds bc im  shits going get worse cant get anything done bc sleep dont sleep cant get anything done bc procrastinate cant even finish single load laundry start everything never finish im always deep back out make friends never actually get close them im pretty sure accidentally lead people avoid friendship bc everything going get weird awkward like last year actually told two friends thought comfortable talking bc would listen abt really suicidal beginning year as changed better dont acknowledge talk essentially summarize said oh feel like got used lying faking im thinking killing every waking moment crying sleep sleeping chance get bc better way cope cant actually open person problems tldr talking psychiatristfriends made paranoid made lying norm im afraid actually getting help
til dont think actually get helpi went psychiatrist didnt get diagnosed straight told depression anxiety followed saying really suicidal im going put inpatient care make sure safe pretty much asked things looked made realize suicidal pretty much scared actually admitting want need help lied said plans future tell everyone else cant even get meds bcim shits going get worse cant get anything done bc sleep dont sleep cant get anything done bc procrastinate cant even finish single load laundry start everything never finish im always deep back out make friends never actually get close themim pretty sure accidentally lead people avoid friendship bc everything going get weird awkward like last year actually told two friends thought comfortable talking bc would listen abt really suicidal beginning year as changed better dont acknowledge talk essentially summarize said oh feel like got used lying faking im thinking killing every waking moment crying sleep sleeping chance get bc better way cope cant actually open person problems tldr talking psychiatristfriends made paranoid made lying norm im afraid actually getting help
Hasta que no creo que realmente conseguir helpi fue psiquiatra no se diagnosticó directamente a la depresión la ansiedad siguió diciendo realmente suicida im va a poner atención hospitalaria asegúrese de seguro bastante preguntas cosas hizo realidad suicida bastante asustado realmente admitir necesidad de ayuda mentira dijo planes futuro decir a todos los demás ni siquiera conseguir meds bcim mierdas va a empeorar no conseguir nada hacer bc sueño no dormir no puede conseguir nada hecho bc procrastinate cant incluso terminar una sola carga lavandería empezar todo nunca terminar im siempre muy atrás hacer amigos nunca llegar cerca de ellos muy seguro accidentalmente conducir a la gente evitar amistad bc todo va a ser raro incómodo como el año pasado en realidad dijo dos amigos pensó que cómodo hablar bc escucharía abt realmente suicida principio año como cambió mejor no reconocer hablar esencialmente resumen dijo oh siento como se utiliza mentira fingiendo im pensar matar cada momento despierto llorando sueño oportunidad conseguir mejor manera de hacer frente puede abrir persona problemas tldr hablar psiquiatra amigos hizo mentira norma im miedo