want outim done hoping things get better cant continue like this im exhausted kind gets better sleep not get much that really continue want end primary reason want out anxiety unbearable reasons mystery abuse mom boyfriends probably underlies lot it memory many close friends family members attempting redflag getting accidents haunts noticeably now stopped im constantly waiting next one theres always next one night worst lot sun goes feel unsafe particularly home cant im alone im stuck walking around city staying office night still horrible less bad home im afraid feels like im electrocuted cant night night years getting worse worse im getting anxious night feels like could kill me wish would im kicking taking it eating disorder got bad starting die anyways best friend convinced go treatment wish hadnt wish id let take me treatment got medically stable fix anything psychologically eating disorder still there almost died heart failure one night let fix semi conscious immediately regretted morning wish id never gone treatment wish still dying anorexia even consider myself lost faith im going get better feel like actually tried everything desperately need medication unfortunately thanks rare brain condition psychiatric medication all classes antidepressant antianxiety medication makes hallucinate tried cbt dbt interpersonal therapy emotion focused therapy deep breathing mindfulness meditation group therapy effect ive tried art therapy although pleasant activity really reduce anxiety especially im alone night anything pleasurable reading watching movies going internet listening music cant night im anxious cant keep mind body still long enough it exercise helps little im it trying balance want relief elliptical literally night ive tried everything recommended roughly dozen mental health professionals first  pages google nothing helps enough give quality life actually live with anxiety killing relationships the have point people getting annoyed anxiety disorder theyre tired freaking out theyre tired feeling guilty cant make stop theyre annoyed cant left alone night without losing mind friends gone either cant handle anxiety hung hate hanging bars make anxious frequently careers families lives scheme things im really important anymore good miss much truly believe people better without me hope come realize this theyll much freedom without consider me lives easier im terrified see way theres people care lot feel excruciatingly guilty leaving them want leave them love them love enough get terrifying night terrifying night face that know cant stay reason im really logistics method im comfortable with im concerned implications work im okay life right now know worst ever get want psych ward since cant anything like medicate me id anxious psych ward provide help im still im scared fail wish could find another way think one ive tried every treatment find theyve failed im getting worse better really cant take anymore really seems like way out months want over want feel anxiety anymore thing seems like make go away make go away cant take feeling like anymore cant day day night night cant face monster anymore want out
want outim done hoping things get better cant continue like this im exhausted kind gets better sleep not get much that really continue want end primary reason want out anxiety unbearable reasons mystery abuse mom boyfriends probably underlies lot it memory many close friends family members attempting redflag getting accidents haunts noticeably now stopped im constantly waiting next one theres always next one night worst lot sun goes feel unsafe particularly home cant im aloneim stuck walking around city staying office night still horrible less bad homeim afraid feels like im electrocuted cant night night years getting worse worse im getting anxious night feels like could kill me wish would im kicking taking it eating disorder got bad starting die anyways best friend convinced go treatment wish hadnt wish id let take me treatment got medically stable fix anything psychologically eating disorder still there almost died heart failure one night let fix semi conscious immediately regretted morning wish id never gone treatment wish still dying anorexia even consider myself lost faith im going get better feel like actually tried everything desperately need medication unfortunately thanks rare brain condition psychiatric medication all classes antidepressant antianxiety medication makes hallucinate tried cbt dbt interpersonal therapy emotion focused therapy deep breathing mindfulness meditation group therapy effect ive tried art therapy although pleasant activity really reduce anxiety especially im alone night anything pleasurable reading watching movies going internet listening music cant night im anxious cant keep mind body still long enough it exercise helps little im it trying balance want relief elliptical literally night ive tried everything recommended roughly dozen mental health professionals first pages google nothing helps enough give quality life actually live with anxiety killing relationships the have point people getting annoyed anxiety disorder theyre tired freaking out theyre tired feeling guilty cant make stop theyre annoyed cant left alone night without losing mind friends gone either cant handle anxiety hung hate hanging bars make anxious frequently careers families lives scheme things im really important anymore good miss much truly believe people better without me hope come realize this theyll much freedom without consider me lives easier im terrified see way theres people care lot feel excruciatingly guilty leaving them want leave them love them love enough get terrifying night terrifying night face that know cant stay reason im really logistics method im comfortable with im concerned implications work im okay life right now know worst ever get want psych ward since cant anything like medicate me id anxious psych ward provide help im still im scared fail wish could find another way think one ive tried every treatment find theyve failed im getting worse better really cant take anymore really seems like way out months want over want feel anxiety anymore thing seems like make go away make go away cant take feeling like anymorecant day day night night cant face monster anymore want out
quiere outim hecho esperando que las cosas mejoran no puede continuar como esta clase de im exhausto consigue mejor dormir no consigue mucho que realmente continuar quiere final razón primaria quiere salir ansiedad insoportable razones misterio abuso mamá novios probablemente subyace mucho memoria muchos amigos cercanos familiares tratando de Redflag conseguir accidentes encantamientos notoriamente ahora paró im constantemente esperando siguiente uno siempre hay siguiente una noche peor suerte de sol va sentirse inseguro particularmente casa cant im solidim pegado caminando por la ciudad quedarse noche oficina todavía horrible menos mal homeim miedo se siente como im electrocutado