life fine want diei desire die cant get rid of life objectively bad issues anxiety bipolar disorder depressive state right now panic attacks response stress cry everywhere  home walking reading gym bus  honestly even feel shame nothing matters reason kill think would waste organs corneas since would brought hospital soon enough viable would kill violently outside hospital pretty sure kill least suitable method order cant anywhere find least one person going feel knowing alone makes unsure survive feeling much longer mystical experience something beautiful side life flat pale comparison utterly pointless cannot feel pleasure strong desire end waste life love everything everyone want hurt anyone dissociated body want free used feel ok feeling think ashamed feeling like this start feel horrible guilt want die someone help tell alone crazy cant take feeling anymore one talk cant keep alone edit know talk anyone scared me whenever someone says redflag people call cops come get me feeling better getting mental ward worse life less organized effed up makes even worse cant even tell anyone feelings
life fine want diei desire die cant get rid of life objectively bad issues anxiety bipolar disorder depressive state right now panic attacks response stress cry everywhere home walking reading gym bus honestly even feel shame nothing matters reason kill think would waste organs corneas since would brought hospital soon enough viable would kill violently outside hospital pretty sure kill least suitable method order cant anywhere find least one person going feel knowing alone makes unsure survive feeling much longer mystical experience something beautiful side life flat pale comparison utterly pointless cannot feel pleasure strong desire end waste life love everything everyone want hurt anyone dissociated body want free used feel ok feeling think ashamed feeling like this start feel horrible guilt want die someone help tell alone crazy cant take feeling anymore one talk cant keep aloneedit knowtalk anyone scared me whenever someone says redflag people call cops come get me feeling better getting mental ward worse life less organized effed up makes even worse cant even tell anyone feelings
vida fine deseo diei deseo morir no puede deshacerse de la vida objetivamente problemas malos ansiedad trastorno bipolar estado depresivo en este momento pánico ataques respuesta estrés llorar por todas partes casa caminar gimnasio autobús honestamente incluso sentir vergüenza nada importa razón matar pensar residuos órganos córneas ya que llevaría hospital pronto lo suficientemente viable mataría violentamente fuera de hospital bastante seguro matar menos adecuado método orden cant dondequiera encontrar menos una persona va a sentir solo hace sentir insegura experiencia mística algo hermoso lado vida plana comparación pálida completamente inútil no puede sentir placer deseo fuerte final desperdicio vida amor todo lo que todo el mundo quiere lastimar a alguien cuerpo disociado desea libre uso ok sentir vergüenza sentir como este comienzo sentir horrible culpa quiero morir alguien ayuda decir solo loco no puede tomar sentimientos más una charla no puede mantener soloEditar saber hablar alguien me asusta cada vez que alguien dice Redflag gente llamar policías me hacen sentir mejor conseguir mental cuidado peor vida menos organizada effed arriba hace incluso peor no puede decir a nadie sentimientos