theres something saidtheres something said man thats planning death children grown leading lives own  years minimum finally end pain im constantly in problem is nobody believes im much pain blame noticing tend hide things quite well time resolve slowly starting fade day feel clawing psychosis edge mind desire end finally find semblance peace day gets harder harder deal with feel slowly slipping backwards real hope desire stop it ive come accept thing painful so im tired tired visions voices tired demon see mirror tired seeing dead son every day unable touch him matter much want hard try torture torture nobody know could ever hope understand im fragment person used be even wish like this ive seen parents like myself problems inadvertently children grow up son knows something wrong see face looks me happy yet sad time im glad hes still young enough understand never want understand lest hate ive become im going stick rest lives im gone want them them think all im worth remembering day go bed last concious thought hoping never wake again ive thought killing times count ive almost done several times back last minute wife cant understand matter try explain it often cant weather unable refuses cant say long ive come realize want to sad thing love much hurt people ive heard much many times ever question it everybody else right wrong always way even childhood wonder anybody actually even believes me again doubt it show it care frankly theyre better care make easier forget im finally dead cruel heartless ignorant stupid selfish lazy im nothing eyes know me faux friendships serve reinforce beliefs act distraction simply wait years tick by i wish never met wife say anger hatred say feel sorry her stuck monster like bound break even resolute person ive ever known know loves me wish didnt would free this free kids free live life pleases like always wanted to even blame leaving without kids id right take solace fact finally happy thoughts relentless even mind drifts various kitchen knives disposal easy would simply slice open quiet enough could right nobody would know till morning tempting honest myself im problem ive always problem know try deny it im cancer everyone know cancer really one recourse cut out irradiate shit bury deep ground even time forgets it secretly thats want thats want buried forgotten way cant anymore harm love sure pain would feel might considerable somebody like would should forgotten quickly demise celebrated good thing world im nothing poison wish would keel die toxicity possible again something would welcome thing would deserve thing deserve nobody honest though see eyes even mouths never speak words hard miss know deserve too something im argue theyre correct simply deserve die
theres something saidtheres something said man thats planning death children grown leading lives own years minimum finally end pain im constantly in problem is nobody believes im much pain blame noticing tend hide things quite well time resolve slowly starting fade day feel clawing psychosis edge mind desire end finally find semblance peace day gets harder harder deal with feel slowly slipping backwards real hope desire stop it ive come accept thingpainfulso im tired tired visions voices tired demon see mirror tired seeing dead son every day unable touch him matter much want hard try torture torture nobody know could ever hope understand im fragment person used be even wish like this ive seen parents like myself problems inadvertently children grow up son knows something wrong see face looks me happy yet sad time im glad hes still young enough understand never want understand lest hate ive become im going stick rest lives im gonewant them them think all im worth remembering day go bed last concious thought hoping never wake again ive thoughtkilling times count ive almost done several times back last minute wife cant understand matter try explain it often cant weather unable refuses cant say long ive come realize want to sad thing love much hurt people ive heard much many times ever question it everybody else right wrong always way even childhood wonder anybody actually even believes me again doubt it show it care frankly theyre better care make easier forget im finally dead cruel heartless ignorant stupid selfish lazy im nothing eyes know me faux friendships serve reinforce beliefs act distraction simply wait years tick by i wish never met wife say anger hatred say feel sorry her stuck monster like bound break even resolute person ive ever known know loves me wish didnt would free this free kids free live life pleases like always wanted to even blame leaving without kids id right take solace fact finally happy thoughts relentless even mind drifts various kitchen knives disposal easy would simply slice open quiet enough could right nobody would know till morning tempting honest myself im problem ive always problem know try deny it im cancer everyone know cancer really one recourse cut out irradiate shit bury deep ground even time forgets it secretly thats want thats want buried forgotten way cant anymore harm love sure pain would feel might considerable somebody like would should forgotten quickly demise celebrated good thing world im nothing poison wish would keel die toxicity possible again something would welcome thing would deserve thing deserve nobody honest though see eyes even mouths never speak words hard miss know deserve too something im argue theyre correct simply deserve die
Hay algo dicho hay algo dicho hombre que planea la muerte niños crecidos llevar vidas años propios mínimo final dolor constantemente en el problema es nadie cree mucho dolor culpa tienden esconder las cosas muy bien tiempo resolver lentamente comenzar el tiempo se desvanecen sensación garra garrazos filo mente deseo final finalmente encontrar apariencia paz día se hace más difícil trato con sentirse lentamente deslizarse hacia atrás esperanza real deseo stop ive come come thingdowfulso im cansado visiones cansadas voces demonio ver espejo cansado ver hijo muerto cada día incapaz de tocar materia mucho deseo duro intentar tortura tortura nadie sabe nunca podría esperar entender im fragmento persona utilizado ser incluso deseo como este viv padres como yo problemas inadvertidamente niños crecer hijo sabe algo mal ver cara me parece feliz pero triste momento im alegrar hes todavía joven entender nunca quieren entender no es odio se convierten en im ir palo descanso vidas im ido quieren ellos piensan todo im vale la pena recordar día ir cama último pensamiento concienzudo esperar nunca volver a despertar otra vez