thinkingi got home hospital  days ago want go back hate life im tired living here hospital wasnt even fun either felt safe dont know boring thinking life even worse dont even want try anymore cope life dont understand anybody contempt living ive wondered theyre faking like me maybe im good faking them either way really dont enjoy single thing life know least something sometimes dont even feel human im pretty sure feeling complete emptiness whats gotten far im bad kid try school get good grades cant take anymore also left home awhile back help little bit im still feeling like shit hate it im homeschooled ive tried hard keep afloat ive done lot try recover depression maybe bad personality im negative hard feel happy im always let down hate family hate myself wish wouldve helped sooner think late now diagnosed dysthymia double depressive episode hospital dont expect get better ive tried tried tried nothing ever changes family might well strangers hobbies drawing which pass time and like hobby skill art hate art anyways dont see getting better cannot see enjoying life matter happens didnt attempt redflag get hospital awhile ive planning running away jump high area probably wont happen thought makes feel better hated childhood hate teenager ill probably hate adult too nothing seems good ive already lost hope im going either drop high school soon kill years kill sometime soon truly hate life nothing cruel thus far im sorry writing this im feeling god awful
thinkingi got home hospital days ago want go back hate lifeim tired living here hospital wasnt even fun either felt safe dont know boring thinking life even worse dont even want try anymore cope life dont understand anybody contempt living ive wondered theyre faking like me maybeim good faking them either way really dont enjoy single thing life know least something sometimes dont even feel human im pretty sure feeling complete emptiness whats gotten far im bad kid try school get good grades cant take anymore also left home awhile back help little bit im still feeling like shit hate it im homeschooled ive tried hard keep afloat ive done lot try recover depression maybe bad personality im negative hard feel happy im always let down hate family hate myself wish wouldve helped sooner think late now diagnosed dysthymia double depressive episode hospital dont expect get better ive tried tried tried nothing ever changes family might well strangers hobbies drawing which pass time and like hobby skill art hate art anyways dont see getting better cannot see enjoying life matter happens didnt attempt redflag get hospital awhile ive planning running away jump high area probably wont happen thought makes feel better hated childhood hate teenager ill probably hate adult too nothing seems good ive already lost hope im going either drop high school soon kill years kill sometime soon truly hate life nothing cruel thus far im sorry writing this im feeling god awful
Pensando que llegué a casa hospital hace días quiero volver odio vidaim cansado vivir aquí hospital ni siquiera era divertido ni siquiera se sentía seguro no sé aburrido pensar vida aún peor ni siquiera quiero intentar más hacer frente a la vida no entiendo a nadie desprecio vivir ive se preguntó que están fingiendo como yo tal vez bueno fingir de cualquier manera realmente no disfrutar de una sola cosa la vida sabe menos algo a veces ni siquiera me siento humano im bastante seguro sentir vacío completo lo que se hizo lejos im chico malo tratar de la escuela obtener buenas notas no puede tomar también dejar casa un tiempo atrás ayuda poco todavía me siento como mierda odio