alive absolute torture every day wake everyday disappointed die night before last  months medication therapy avail hospitals danger self harmed much point scars arms doubt ever heal life huge downward spiral long remember ruining friendship someone person made feel anything meaningful long fucking time straw broke camels back complain barely anything good life fuck everything good it past weeks trying whatever escape world awful lonesome empty feel even hours drugs alcohol whatever always come back hole always am little brother every time tells loves get sad want leave much fucking pain know much longer go without ending all fought fought depression took right steps get better nothing works anything feel even worse know anyone read need vent know much longer
alive absolute torture every day wake everyday disappointed die night before last months medication therapy avail hospitals danger self harmed much point scars arms doubt ever heal life huge downward spiral long remember ruining friendship someone person made feel anything meaningful long fucking time straw broke camels back complain barely anything good life fuck everything good it past weeks trying whatever escape world awful lonesome empty feel even hours drugs alcohol whatever always come back hole always am little brother every time tells loves get sad want leave much fucking pain know much longer go without ending all fought fought depression took right steps get better nothing works anything feel even worse know anyone read need vent know much longer
vida tortura absoluta cada día despertar todos los días decepcionado morir noche antes de los últimos meses terapia de la medicación aprovechar hospitales peligro auto daño mucho punto cicatrices brazos duda nunca sanar vida enorme espiral descendente largo recordar arruinar amistad alguien persona hizo sentir cualquier cosa significativa largo tiempo paja camellos rotos volver quejarse apenas cualquier buena vida follar todo lo bueno durante semanas tratando de cualquier escape mundo terrible solitario vacío sentir incluso horas drogas alcohol lo que siempre vuelven agujero siempre soy hermano pequeño cada vez le dice a los amores conseguir triste deseo dejar mucho puto dolor saber mucho más sin terminar todos luchados depresión tomó medidas correctas mejorar nada funciona nada peor saber alguien leer necesita ventilación saber mucho más