im lonelyim sobbing uncontrollably write this attempted drink death last night obviously work ive held captive suicidal depression since  im  now nearly half life longer stays less less remember life disease need companionship female companionship  maybe  friends really stretch it none women even though best people know theyve helped best anyone expected hear close friend wants kill i hate making problems everyone elses need real relationship tender intimate love save ive attempted  times nothing makes feel lower fucking redflag attempt im terrified rejection feel like keep getting shot ill known loser cant make anyone really anything common anyone age im guitarist who hardly play scales stay rhythm playing  years taking lessons teachers whove decades experience along way loves ss psychedelic blues jazz music fucking loathe todays pussy rock music shitty rap everyone know adores guess say march beat drum everyone else proverbial drum line drumming another way crowd notices one rogue drummer cant help feel embarrassed sticking like weirdo feel like alien belong rest humanity could never tell folks itd break hearts cant see happen im trapped purgatory wanting kill feeling selfish knowing ill leave void break mom dads hearts wanting anyone know whats wrong expecting everyone read mind get looking me making college impossible im hesitant see schools therapist friend went northwestern thing benzos coke alcohol making suicidal therapist got cops involved stuck inpatient facility called parents who make haul indiana chicago drop out happening option need professional help parents idea seeing
im lonelyim sobbing uncontrollably write this attempted drink death last night obviously work ive held captive suicidal depression since im now nearly half life longer stays less less remember life disease need companionship female companionship maybe friends really stretch it none women even though best people know theyve helped best anyone expected hear close friend wantskill i hate making problems everyone elses need real relationship tender intimate love save ive attempted times nothing makes feel lower fucking redflag attempt im terrified rejection feel like keep getting shot ill known loser cant make anyone really anything common anyone age im guitarist who hardly play scales stay rhythm playing years taking lessons teachers whove decades experience along way loves ss psychedelic blues jazz music fucking loathe todays pussy rock music shitty rap everyone know adores guess say march beat drum everyone else proverbial drum line drumming another way crowd notices one rogue drummer cant help feel embarrassed sticking like weirdo feel like alien belong rest humanity could never tell folks itd break hearts cant see happen im trapped purgatory wanting kill feeling selfish knowing ill leave void break mom dads hearts wanting anyone know whats wrong expecting everyone read mind get looking me making college impossible im hesitant see schools therapist friend went northwestern thing benzos coke alcohol making suicidal therapist got cops involved stuck inpatient facility called parents who make haul indiana chicago drop out happening option need professional help parents idea seeing
Im lonilim sollozando incontrolablemente escribir este intento de beber muerte anoche obviamente trabajo ive mantenido cautiva depresión suicida ya que im ahora casi media vida más tiempo se mantiene menos recordar enfermedad de la vida necesidad compañerismo femenino tal vez amigos realmente estirar a ninguna mujer a pesar de que la mejor gente sabe que han ayudado mejor cualquiera espera escuchar amigo cercano wantskill