planning redflag life boringim  ever since high school life became gray boring cycle work gt gym gt maybe meeting friends gt sleep nothing fun anymore everything barely tolerable come home exhausted job absolutley hate im welder construction worker go gym meet maybe friends tiresome seems like nothing fun anymore everything used enjoy dull pale used enjoy video games back dont entertain anymore dont smoke dont drink dont masturbate thing keeps half alive somehow music playing guitar band another issue comes alot head fact often miss emotional physical intimacy point become frustrated actually burst crying midday last girlfriend ever high school together  years breaking up ever since woman tried ask outflirt straight rejected ghosted unexplained reasons tried every thing possible funny smart myself nah nothing works best explanation im straight unattractive casual woman reasons beyond control i guess im  balding work  days week  years already upside muscular body gives me nothing stopped trying goes nothingness zero dating life like had without lot headaches emotional torment put through way dont social anxiety mental blockages interacting people friends lot female friends too no problem there ili ask one female friends theyll reject like happened female friends mine past im depressed dont problem sleeping eating really burnt fucking bored bottom line life wanted things really turned opposite imagined be wake everyday fucking thing tiresome dont want bothered annoyed people anymore dont want deal romantic loneliness bullshit anymore shoulders far long desire continue dwell boring mess live alone since dont believe god endless abyss death me one would give fuck abillity care anything ill free pain plan ending soon enough
planning redflag life boringim ever since high school life became gray boring cycle work gt gym gt maybe meeting friends gt sleep nothing fun anymore everything barely tolerable come home exhausted job absolutley hate im welder construction worker go gym meetmaybe friends tiresome seems like nothing fun anymore everything used enjoy dull pale used enjoy video games back dont entertain anymore dont smoke dont drink dont masturbate thing keeps half alive somehow music playing guitar band another issue comes alot head fact often miss emotional physical intimacy point become frustrated actually burst crying midday last girlfriend ever high school together years breaking up ever since woman tried ask outflirt straight rejected ghosted unexplained reasons tried every thing possible funny smart myself nah nothing works best explanation im straight unattractive casual woman reasons beyond control i guess im balding work days week years already upside muscular body gives me nothing stopped trying goes nothingness zero dating life like had without lot headaches emotional torment put through way dont social anxiety mental blockages interacting people friends lot female friends too no problem there ili ask one female friends theyll reject like happened female friends mine pastim depressed dont problem sleeping eating really burnt fucking bored bottom line life wanted things really turned opposite imagined be wake everyday fucking thing tiresome dont want bothered annoyed people anymore dont want deal romantic loneliness bullshit anymore shoulders far long desire continue dwell boring mess live alone since dont believe god endless abyss death me one would give fuck abillity care anything ill free pain plan ending soon enough
planning redflag life aburrim desde que la vida secundaria se convirtió en gris aburrido ciclo trabajo gt gimnasio gt tal vez conocer amigos gt dormir nada divertido más todo apenas tolerable volver a casa agotado trabajo absolutley odio im soldador constructor ir gimnasio reunióntal vez amigos cansados parece como nada divertido ya todo utilizado disfrutar de pálido aburrido utilizado disfrutar de videojuegos volver no entretener más no fumar no beber no se masturba cosa mantiene medio vivo de alguna manera música tocar banda de guitarra otro problema viene un hecho de cabeza a menudo falta emocional punto de intimidad física frustrarse realmente explosión llorando mediodía última novia siempre secundaria juntos