know posting helpi tried kill last friday tried od almost succeeded second attempt year everyones already moved on im okay know family realize this know psychiatrist realize this know therapist realize this cant deal this im try again know plea help what ive always skeptical empathy strangers know help me every time feel anything leads this shut whenever start feeling anxious sad happy scared leads suicidal tendencies worked past earlier today managed contact close friend talked while happy few fucking hours ago happy cant even feel empty do middle night cant call psychiatrist therapist family see redflag hotline could possibly help cant go sleep like this im lost cant allowed feel anything without wanting kill myself whats point living all want this allowed feel happy know whats wrong brain mood stabilizers antipsychotics antidepressants anything me edited add know terrible say this think this but wish sort terminal illness wish cancer could make alone anything would fine would mean would excuse physically sick pathetic anything would fine need something know is something change cant stop thinking would it need hate feeling way too thats blunt honest truth edited add feel like im me im person six years ago im one voices used head started antipsychotics get rid got rid well that try get them me back keep trying move on strange even two years control my body might delusional either way im crazy medications helping
know posting helpi tried kill last friday tried od almost succeeded second attempt year everyones already moved onimokay know family realize this know psychiatrist realize this know therapist realize this cant deal this im try again know plea help what ive always skeptical empathy strangers know help me every time feel anything leads this shut whenever start feeling anxious sad happy scared leads suicidal tendencies worked past earlier today managed contact close friend talked while happy few fucking hours ago happy cant even feel empty do middle night cant call psychiatrist therapist family see redflag hotline could possibly help cant go sleep like this im lost cant allowed feel anything without wanting kill myself whats point living all want this allowed feel happy know whats wrong brain mood stabilizers antipsychotics antidepressants anything me edited add know terrible say this think this but wish sort terminal illness wish cancer could make alone anything would fine would mean would excuse physically sick pathetic anything would fine need something know is something change cant stop thinking would it need hate feeling way too thats blunt honest truth edited add feel like im me im person six years ago im one voices used head started antipsychotics get rid got rid well that try get them me back keep trying move on strange even two years control my body might delusional either way im crazy medications helping
sabe publicar helpi intentado matar el pasado viernes intentado od casi tuvo éxito segundo intento año todo el mundo ya se movió onimokay saber familia darse cuenta de este saber psiquiatra darse cuenta de este saber terapeuta se dan cuenta de este no puedo tratar de nuevo ayudar a lo que siempre escéptica empatía extraños saber me ayudan cada vez sentir cualquier cosa conduce este cerrado cada vez que se siente ansioso triste feliz miedo pistas suicida tendencias trabajado pasado hoy manejado contacto amigo cercano hablado mientras feliz hace pocas horas feliz no puedo incluso sentir vacío hacer media noche no puedo llamar psiquiatra terapeuta familia ver redflag línea directa posiblemente podría ayudar a dormir como este im perdido no puedo permitir sentir nada sin querer matarme lo que punto de vida todos quieren este permitido sentirse feliz saber lo que está mal estabilizadores del humor cerebral antipsicóticos antidepresivos cualquier cosa que me editó añadir saber terrible decir esto creo que esto pero deseo tipo enfermedad terminal deseo cáncer podría hacer solo cualquier cosa bien significaría excusa físicamente enfermo patético cualquier cosa bien necesita algo saber es algo cambio no puede dejar de pensar que odiaría sentir también que la verdad honesta franca edición añadir sentir como im me