tried kill myselfi tried kill oding paracetamol took  pills g each took played music tried fall asleep head spinning fall asleep pretty long time eventually did im here feel nothing mentally pyshically feel numb stomach aches little dry mouth theres weird chemical smell know coming from thats it honest part expected this hoping would work im scared kill way thought going sleep never waking wonderfull feel like attention kind way self harm instead actual redflag attempt whole thing pretty impulsive thought before never followed through evening confronted reality started thinking suffer anymore kill myself waited parents go bed could get pills waiting wrote letter made sure cool friends sibling one would feel guilty anything like that it im even phased now know feel strange know now am took pills around am know effects get worse part hopes do know tho
tried kill myselfi tried kill oding paracetamol took pills g each took played music tried fall asleep head spinning fall asleep pretty long time eventually did im here feel nothing mentally pyshically feel numb stomach aches little dry mouth theresweird chemical smell know coming from thats it honest part expected this hoping would work im scared kill way thought going sleep never waking wonderfull feel like attention kind way self harm instead actual redflag attempt whole thing pretty impulsive thought before never followed through evening confronted reality started thinking suffer anymore kill myself waited parents go bed could get pills waiting wrote letter made sure cool friends sibling one would feel guilty anything like that it im even phased now know feel strange know now am took pills around am know effects get worse part hopes do know tho
intento matarme a mí mismo intento matar oding paracetamol tomaba pastillas g cada una tomaba música tocada intentaba quedarse dormida cabeza giraba dormir bastante tiempo finalmente hice aquí no siento nada mentalmente pyshicamente sentir adormecimiento estómago dolor poco seco boca theresweird olfato químico saber venir de eso es honesto parte esperaba que esta esperanza funcionaría im miedo matar manera pensamiento ir a dormir nunca despertar maravilloso sentir como atención amable manera de auto daño en lugar real intento de bandera roja todo pensamiento bastante impulsivo antes nunca seguido a través de la noche confrontó realidad comenzó a pensar sufrir más me esperaba a los padres ir a la cama podía conseguir píldoras esperando carta escrita hizo amigos cool hermano uno se sentiría culpable cualquier cosa como que im incluso gradual ahora saber sentir extraño saber ahora estoy tomó píldoras alrededor de am saben efectos peores parte esperanzas saben tho