alcohol numbing guilt committing redflagi dependence alcohol however drinking every day every weeks couple months may seem like much drink feel dependent it recently something horrible happened feel happy somewhat drunk now know im harm thought dying mental state makes seem much easier doi feel free somewhat happyi plan drinking awhile possibly staying  days max avoid ptsd dreamsthese usually triggered stress fear going sleep thats im staying want feel crappy staying up life feel guilt killing myself guilt family may think feel like would okay etc think im going drink daily know healthy feel like way feel alright okay
alcohol numbing guilt committing redflagi dependence alcohol however drinking every day every weeks couple months may seem like much drink feel dependent it recently something horrible happened feel happy somewhat drunk now know im harm thought dying mental state makes seem much easier doi feel free somewhat happyi plan drinking awhile possibly staying days max avoid ptsd dreamsthese usually triggered stress fear going sleep thats im staying want feel crappy staying up life feel guilt killing myself guilt family may think feel like would okay etc think im going drink daily know healthy feel like way feelalrightokay
alcohol entumecimiento culpa cometer redflagi dependencia alcohol sin embargo beber todos los días cada semanas par de meses puede parecer que mucha bebida se siente dependiente recientemente algo horrible sucedió sentirse feliz un poco borracho ahora sé que daño pensamiento morir estado mental hace parecer mucho más fácil doi se siente libre un poco happyi plan beber un rato posiblemente quedarse días máximo evitar sueños ptsdestos generalmente desencadenado estrés miedo a dormir que se queda quiero sentirse mal mantenerse arriba la vida sentir culpa matarme culpa familia puede pensar sentirse como estaría bien etc pensar im ir a beber diariamente se siente como se siente bien bien