im desperate please help me long sorryi posted recently certain im going commit redflag concern well cat hid decided repost felt something strange heart hope think im  struggling areas life diagnosed severe depression anxiety sometime middle school recently trauma induced rather mild ptsd therapists never humoured this believe actually suffering bpd could reason repeated therapy multiple medications done little nothing help all treated broken leg actually hip heal right anyway redflag mind constantly past months now before passing thought something joked cover pain small list preferred methods plans probably healthy every joke become serious statement regular meltdowns resorted scratching shit lieu razor blade cuts dreams still kind do believe  never achieve them even come close nothing seems work feel like total failure seems ive begun sabotaging achievements whether subconsciously intent im terrified ask want feel guilty manage get words out return therapy th november id admit hospital finances already make basics hard afford disregarding fact need money coming arrange live somewhere i currently living friends couch im grateful feel current situation beginning harm difficulty keeping basic self care always manage convince im somehow unworthy even baseline help sustainable cant live like want give up really dont need help badly know anymore please help me im scared
im desperate please help me long sorryi posted recently certain im going commit redflag concern well cat hid decided repost felt something strange heart hope think im struggling areas life diagnosed severe depression anxiety sometime middle school recently trauma induced rather mild ptsd therapists never humoured this believe actually suffering bpd could reason repeated therapy multiple medications done little nothing help all treated broken leg actually hip heal right anyway redflag mind constantly past months now before passing thought something joked cover pain small list preferred methods plans probably healthy every joke become serious statement regular meltdowns resorted scratching shit lieu razor blade cuts dreams still kind do believe never achieve them even come close nothing seems work feel like total failure seems ive begun sabotaging achievements whether subconsciously intent im terrifiedask want feel guilty manage get words out return therapy th november id admit hospital finances already make basics hard afford disregarding fact need money coming arrange live somewhere i currently living friendscouch im grateful feel current situation beginning harm difficulty keeping basic self care always manage convince im somehow unworthy even baseline help sustainable cant live like want give up really dont need help badly know anymore please help me im scared
Im desesperado por favor ayúdame long dorsi publicado recientemente cierto im va a cometer Redflag preocupación bien gato escondió decidió repost sentía algo extraño corazón esperanza pensar im áreas de lucha vida diagnóstico depresión severa ansiedad en algún momento de la escuela secundaria recientemente trauma inducido terapistas ptsd leve nunca humored esta creencia en realidad sufrimiento bpd podría razón terapia repetida múltiples medicamentos hecho poco nada ayudar a todos tratados pierna rota en realidad hip sanar bien de todos modos Redflag mente constantemente pasados meses antes de pasar pensamiento algo broma cubierta dolor lista pequeña métodos preferidos planes probablemente saludable cada broma se convierten en una declaración seria regular derribos recurren a rasguños mierda lieu cuchilla corta sueños todavía amable creo que nunca llegar a ellos incluso cerca nada parece trabajo parece que el fracaso total parece ive comenzado saboteando logros si subconscientemente intención im terrorask desea sentirse culpable manejar las palabras de retorno terapia en noviembre id admitir las finanzas del hospital ya hacen básicos difícil ignorar hecho necesidad de dinero venir arreglo en vivo en algún lugar i actualmente vivo amigoscouch