feels inevitablehi first time posting reddit dont really know begin im sixteen didnt think id make far dont deserve alive im burden everybody feel like monster ive selfharming now two years people progressed time went on started cuts barely leaving mark ive got nasty purple raised scars mums told ive ruined body it already ruined find agreeing her im walking trigger warning fair others theyre exposed scars theyd better seeing burn too feels pathetic hurts though suppose job used take lots overdoses never tell anyone them nothing ever happened never even passed out attempted redflag back march hadnt planned deep knew wasnt going work hospital five days discharged attentionseeking stunt part ruined things family friends selfish know hoping things might get better might got support attempt counselling year depression anxiety selfharm month got referred somewhere else restrictive eating disorder im honest eating helped many ways id stopped selfharming starting feel positive put meal plan told hospital i healthy weight meal plan month followed almost problems started overexercising abusing laxatives time didnt lose weight though thought everything fine mum hated meal plan me acted though toughest part day plan eat stopped it myself shed say wasnt eating enough exercising much would call names shed make eat lots night would lead bingeing gained stone lowest weight started purging since october life consisted nothing eating lots unhealthy foods getting rid it noone noticed six months mum called cleaning toilet properly told psychiatrist support worker werent particularly concerned refused weighed that im fluoexetine moment hasnt helped greatly caused extremely vivid dreams manic episodes manic episodes included giving address public forum asking someone help run away trying solicit pills alcohol take overdose shoplifting razor blades think able smaller amounts reckless things id able get energy out take mind things instead gonna end killing myself problems lie within myself mainly appearance pretty personality wouldnt matter much unfortunately me redeeming qualities im rotten person inside out thats feel like inevitable im going kill myself plan now didnt before believe it could work could start starving unlikely control would almost definitely work im allowing time see lose weight either things get better me like things remain certain way out gonna soon exams another week ill see restrict intake lose weight ill also go shops unsupervised i live middle nowhere within walking distance point get one last thing need im bored life depressed teenager isnt tragically beautiful unless beautiful sad lonely dont want feel anymore much
feels inevitablehi first time posting reddit dont really know begin im sixteen didnt think id make far dont deserve aliveim burden everybody feel like monster ive selfharming now two years people progressed time went on started cuts barely leaving mark ive got nasty purple raised scars mums told ive ruined body it already ruined find agreeing her im walking trigger warning fair others theyre exposed scars theyd better seeing burn too feels pathetic hurts though suppose job used take lots overdoses never tell anyone them nothing ever happened never even passed out attempted redflag back march hadnt planned deep knew wasnt going work hospital five days discharged attentionseeking stunt part ruined things family friends selfish know hoping things might get better might got support attempt counselling year depression anxiety selfharm month got referred somewhere else restrictive eating disorder im honest eating helped many ways id stopped selfharming starting feel positive put meal plan told hospital i healthy weight meal plan month followed almost problems started overexercising abusing laxatives time didnt lose weight though thought everything fine mum hated meal plan me acted though toughest part day plan eat stopped it myself shed say wasnt eating enough exercising much would call names shed make eat lots night would lead bingeing gained stone lowest weight started purging since october life consisted nothing eating lots unhealthy foods getting rid it noone noticed six months mum called cleaning toilet properly told psychiatrist support worker werent particularly concerned refused weighed that im fluoexetine moment hasnt helped greatly caused extremely vivid dreams manic episodes manic episodes included giving address public forum asking someone help run away trying solicit pills alcohol take overdose shoplifting razor blades think able smaller amounts reckless things id able get energy out take mind things instead gonna end killing myself problems lie within myself mainly appearance pretty personality wouldnt matter much unfortunately me redeeming qualities im rotten person inside out thats feel like inevitable im going kill myself plan now didnt before believe it could work could start starving unlikely control would almost definitely work im allowing time see lose weight either things get better me like things remain certain way out gonna soon exams another week ill see restrict intake lose weight ill also go shops unsupervised i live middle nowhere within walking distance point get one last thing need im bored life depressed teenager isnt tragically beautiful unless beautiful sad lonely dont want feel anymore much
Se siente inevitablehi primera vez publicación reddit no sé realmente comenzar im dieciséis no pensé que id hacer lejos no merece liveim carga todo el mundo se siente como monstruo ive autolesión ahora dos años la gente progresó el tiempo comenzó cortes apenas dejar marca Ive consiguió desagradable púrpura levantadas cicatrices mamás le dijo a ive cuerpo arruinado que ya arruinado encontrar de acuerdo en su i caminar gatillo advertencia otros están expuestos cicatrices que sería mejor ver quemar también se siente dolor patético aunque suponga que el trabajo utilizado tomar un montón de sobredosis nunca decir a nadie nunca les pasó nada nunca nunca pasó intento Redflag marcha atrás había planeado profundamente sabía que no iba a trabajar hospital cinco días descargado atención busca truco parte arruinar cosas familiares amigos egoísta saber esperar que las cosas podrían conseguir mejor apoyo intento de asesoramiento año depresión ansiedad autolesión mes se refirió a algún otro trastorno alimenticio restrictivo