wonder even need existim  im gay man born broken family father put last name left us week  years old accident trying climb kitchen busted head causing mild brain injury would root undiagnosed adhd severe anxiety issues raised hostile environment mom retaliated anger frustrations beating crap time grandma light childhood seizure  years old ended crippled wheelchair died  years later turned biggest annoying burden small family endure mom obsessed idea matter cost privileged private school even bullied different many ways made fun everything height im also  sudden queer manners clumsinessetci even developed severe dermatillomania hands due severe anxiety hell  attempts redflag totally ignored everyone like didnt really matter friend close friend lasted year half mom passed away middle first year school poorest classroom worst house mom drove cheapest car even dogs ugly fuck neighbors would always made fun pets house disgusting always dirtymy mom semi hoarder would always accumulate clothes books would never invite anybody deep shame grades school ok good horrible others spend extra hours memorizing stuff would understand simple shit sometimes every time speak public would panic stutter people would laugh scape video games would play much it started affecting visual impairment started developing strabismus  years old graduated got hometown got private university paid mom struggled lot college felt stupid place always awkward lacked social skills would annoy fuck people would ignore me time focused try hard physically attractive would go gym tons protein supplements would also go play magic thegathering whenever could eventually got good due undiagnosed adhd would mess time would get angry losing  lost hair balding bad since  hated look always angry wear hat look like age would look almost  years older college started forcing internships would difficult work due behavior forgetfulness last semesters would try work side got fired twice gave th semester quit college year deep shame myself felt humiliated constantly fix visual impairment managed get surgery public hospital  months wait fixed itwhen back college struggles areas didnt give time suffered lot get thesis done thesis barely passedit basic shitty didnt make friends even invited default college graduation party barely knew anybody awkward fuck college started internships neither didnt last long tbh would sugarcoat resume death appeal employers ended hired couple places surprise got fired first second horrible abusive position nobody else would take therefore ended year got depressed ended taking medication depression quit job got hired ad agency fired month gave everything sold mtg cards buy ticket us tattooed head micropigmentation style gave younger appearance somehow made feel less shitty genetic makeup ended server multiple places worked busser server even cleaning labors would throw bathrooms panic anger shame got hospitalized  severe depression ended working total  places got fired  them got diagnosed adhd  fired like th time messy scattered minded forgetful meds saw light started getting creative like miracle bad lost s teens miserable way even  years new life ive improved lot still cant get job lack experience creating business takes lot investment havent able acquire social media makes sick gives ptsd every time get see accomplishments people studied successful relationships amount mental disorders ive gathered much abuse way much handle paying friend therapy hasnt solved issue cptsd rejection sensitivity dysphoria probably mild form autism point suffering ive gone oddsfought many battles endit doesnt even matter people like exist like someone going give life medal overcoming gigantic struggles life nobody wants date im emotionally damaged im total fear meeting new people isolation made everything worse im couple months away possibly homeless get point definitely over life even worth shit feel like hanging thin string break anytime soon shouldve broken neck 
wonder even need existim im gay man born broken family father put last name left us week years old accident trying climb kitchen busted head causing mild brain injury would root undiagnosed adhd severe anxiety issues raised hostile environment mom retaliated anger frustrations beating crap time grandma light childhood seizure years old ended crippled wheelchair died years later turned biggest annoying burden small family endure mom obsessed idea matter cost privileged private school even bullied different many ways made fun everything heightim also sudden queer manners clumsinessetci even developed severe dermatillomania hands due severe anxiety hell attempts redflag totally ignored everyone like didnt really matter friend close friend lasted year half mom passed away middle first year school poorest classroom worst house mom drove cheapest car even dogs ugly fuck neighbors would always made fun pets house disgusting always dirtymy mom semi hoarder would always accumulate clothes books would never invite anybody deep shame grades school ok good horrible others spend extra hours memorizing stuff would understand simple shit sometimes every time speak public would panic stutter people would laugh scape video games would play much it started affecting visual impairment started developing strabismus years old graduated got hometown got private university paid mom struggled lot college felt stupid place always awkward lacked social skills would annoy fuck people would ignore me time focused try hard physically attractive would go gym tons protein supplements would also go play magic thegathering whenever could eventually got good due undiagnosed adhd would mess time would get angry losing lost hair balding bad since hated look always angry wear hat look like age would look almost years older college started forcing internships would difficult work due behavior forgetfulness last semesters would try work side got fired twice gave th semester quit college year deep shame myself felt humiliated constantly fix visual impairment managed get surgery public hospital months wait fixed itwhen back college struggles areas didnt give time suffered lot get thesis done thesis barely passedit basic shitty didnt make friends even invited default college graduation party barely knew anybody awkward fuck college started internships neither didnt last long tbh would sugarcoat resume death appeal employers ended hired couple places surprise got fired first second horrible abusive position nobody else would take therefore ended year got depressed ended taking medication depression quit job got hired ad agency fired month gave everything sold mtg cards buy ticket us tattooed head micropigmentation style gave younger appearance somehow made feel less shitty genetic makeup ended server multiple places worked busser server even cleaning labors would throw bathrooms panic anger shame got hospitalized severe depression ended working total places got fired them got diagnosed adhd fired like th time messy scattered minded forgetful meds saw light started getting creative like miracle bad lost s teens miserable way even years new life ive improved lot still cant get job lack experience creating business takes lot investment havent able acquire social media makes sick gives ptsd every time get see accomplishments people studied successful relationships amount mental disorders ive gathered much abuse way much handle paying friend therapy hasnt solved issue cptsd rejection sensitivity dysphoria probably mild form autism point suffering ive gone oddsfought many battles endit doesnt even matter people like exist like someone going give life medal overcoming gigantic struggles life nobody wants date im emotionally damaged im total fear meeting new people isolation made everything worse im couple months away possibly homeless get point definitely over life even worth shit feel like hanging thin string break anytime soon shouldve broken neck
me pregunto incluso necesidad existim im gay hombre nacido roto familia padre poner apellido nos dejó semana años accidente tratando de escalar cocina roto cabeza causando leve lesión cerebral raíz adhd problemas de ansiedad severa planteado ambiente hostil mamá represalias rabia frustraciones paliza tiempo mierda abuela ligera niño crisis años de edad terminados lisiado silla de ruedas murió años más tarde convertido mayor molesto carga pequeña familia soportar mamá obsesión idea materia costo privilegiado escuela privada incluso intimidado diferentes maneras se divirtió todo altim también repentino queer modales clumsinseetci incluso desarrolló severas manos dermatillomanía debido a ansiedad severa infierno intentos de bandera roja totalmente ignorado todos como no importa realmente amigo amigo cercano duró el año