need ventim suicidal think got hit car tomorrow would okay it year sad yet happy hopeful time im awful rut boyfriend broke last april compatible knew start still remember walking room asking sit downugh cant even think it makes sick felt hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving week later best friend is recently rocky relationship ended good life happy me felt like relationship wasnt good enough her me compared lives time wasnt boyfriend taking dates telling beautiful making plans me two weeks that parents split mom moved out help move things shit talked dad perfect dad whos given world became human mistakes faults put blast trying deal breakup deal parents shit talking other went therapy vented vented analyzed soul searched vented more started feel better ex new girlfriend still friendly ran other hope sadness would stop best friend started repairing relationship parents figured shit got back together feeling much better mean sad about graduated college got job major awesome friends best friend killed december technically november roommate find three days jesus still remember call i tell something hung herself know coldhot feeling stomach drops happened asking wait what why  times got phone took deep breath felt numb felt like duty man tell friends ill deal grief later breaking news people strange everyones reaction same lot like own best friend dead person never realized things need do calling friends giving funeral information answering questions meeting family friends heard of etc know lot people sub want end friend wanted end notebook filled much hated herself self conscious was shes far gone help nothing going save according notebook saw different saw her happy soooo beautiful funny best cheering shit previously talked post feel shitty asking doing could know always happy dismissive talking life kept arms reach realize reason much going her much cool shit kept everyone dark hatred herself loved her wake open casket dead  weeks time body able put rest know shitty open casket is shitty literally forced view her two best friends mother basically carrying see her needed to know needed to see one last time wanted last memory presence us sushi together laughing shit high school know needed this would done me thats was loyal loving caring life ended day funeral next day blur moving motions watching mother screaming casket lowered forever haunt dreams held  people basically trying climb inside daughters casket always thought mother cold interested her buying love shopping trips funeral show that visiting mother funeral show that worst thing happen mother happened memorial sits living room candles friends light visit senior year picture displayed center prayer books dream catchers room small trinkets give peace mind bring flowers cake visit mother cuts slice places next picture eat slices swap funny stories im sure form ptsd two days services cry much long ive heard voice tears streaming write this im sad much going miss on wont around many things wish would around for know thought needed go really wish stayed wish finding happiness peace mean lose her feel hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving
need ventim suicidal think got hit car tomorrow would okay it year sad yet happy hopeful time im awful rut boyfriend broke last april compatible knew start still remember walking room asking sit downugh cant even think it makes sick felt hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving week later best friend is recently rocky relationship ended good life happy me felt like relationship wasnt good enough her me compared lives time wasnt boyfriend taking dates telling beautiful making plans me two weeks that parents split mom moved out help move things shit talked dad perfect dad whos given world became human mistakes faults put blast trying deal breakup deal parents shit talking other went therapy vented vented analyzed soul searched vented more started feel better ex new girlfriend still friendly ran other hope sadness would stop best friend started repairing relationship parents figured shit got back together feeling much better mean sad about graduated college got job major awesome friends best friend killed december technically november roommate find three days jesus still remember call i tell something hung herself know coldhot feeling stomach drops happened asking wait what why times got phone took deep breath felt numb felt like duty man tell friends ill deal grief later breaking news people strange everyones reaction same lot like own best friend dead person never realized things need do calling friends giving funeral information answering questions meeting family friends heard of etc know lot people sub want end friend wanted end notebook filled much hated herself self conscious was shes far gone help nothing going save according notebook saw different saw her happy soooo beautiful funny best cheering shit previously talked post feel shitty asking doing could know always happy dismissive talking life kept arms reach realize reason much going her much cool shit kept everyone dark hatred herself loved her wake open casket dead weeks time body able put rest know shitty open casket is shitty literally forced view her two best friends mother basically carrying see her needed to know needed to see one last time wanted last memory presence us sushi together laughing shit high school know needed this would done me thats was loyal loving caring life ended day funeral next day blur moving motions watching mother screaming casket lowered forever haunt dreams held people basically trying climb inside daughters casket always thought mother cold interested her buying love shopping trips funeral show that visiting mother funeral show that worst thing happen mother happened memorial sits living room candles friends light visit senior year picture displayed center prayer books dream catchers room small trinkets give peace mind bring flowers cake visit mother cuts slice places next picture eat slices swap funny stories im sure form ptsd two days services cry much long ive heard voice tears streaming write this im sad much going miss on wont around many things wish would around for know thought needed go really wish stayed wish finding happiness peace mean lose her feel hopeless powerless nothing could stop leaving
Need Ventim suicida pensar que fue atropellado coche mañana estaría bien año triste pero feliz esperanza tiempo im horrible rut novio rompió último abril compatible sabía comenzar todavía recuerdo caminar habitación preguntando sentarse downugh cant incluso pensar que se siente enfermo sin poder nada podía dejar de salir semana después mejor amigo es recientemente rocoso relación terminó buena vida feliz me sentía como la relación no era lo suficientemente bueno