feel like even hypothetical chance improve existencehello people point life completely stuck  currently master studies apparently life looks decent outside reality hell point identify person anymore feel like nothing rotting body feelings perspectives things improve even theory struggled eating disorder since  tried get help several medical institutions psychologists pills etc gets worse time last  years living hell cannot deal longer top that also bipolar help try control myself basically cannot care look want pretty thin want productive useful makes feel good problem focus studying living life general restrict cannot anymore eating disorder took form bed before anorexia ednos anorexia again couple bulimic months inhaled spoon bed couple years thin anymore care that feel worthless constantly thinking stuffing that makes unproductive sincerely try care studies pretty good forcing it reality go well got worse last  moths that even constant internal struggle passionate learning stuff became chore everything became chore even washing hair basic hygiene go out friends understand cannot formulate feel accurately even typing realize sound basic cheesy like put together woman children africa starving care stupid problem invented believe me impossible live like that identify young woman even person constantly feel like somekind cartoon character pleasant around i nice people ready help ask good sense humor really person full life goals want good carreer able support parents necessity able control eating habits never wished feel stupid basic thing controls life reality does accept minimize suffering trying function get back control tried everything work got patience tried commit redflag  times last  weeks magically work the car stopped got scratches bruises head arms second time passed  days taking overdose pills woke bunch vomit sorry details yes know
feel like even hypothetical chance improve existencehello people point life completely stuck currently master studies apparently life looks decent outside reality hell point identify person anymore feel like nothing rotting body feelings perspectives things improve even theory struggled eating disorder since tried get help several medical institutions psychologists pills etc gets worse time last years living hell cannot deal longer top that also bipolar help try control myself basically cannot care look want pretty thin want productive useful makes feel good problem focus studying living life general restrict cannot anymore eating disorder took form bed before anorexia ednos anorexia again couple bulimic months inhaled spoon bed couple years thin anymore care that feel worthless constantly thinking stuffing that makes unproductive sincerely try care studies pretty good forcing it reality go well got worse last moths that even constant internal struggle passionate learning stuff became chore everything became chore even washing hair basic hygiene go out friends understand cannot formulate feel accurately even typing realize sound basic cheesy like put together woman children africa starving care stupid problem invented believe me impossible live like that identify young woman even person constantly feel like somekind cartoon character pleasant around i nice people ready help ask good sense humor really person full life goals want good carreer able support parents necessity able control eating habits never wished feel stupid basic thing controls life reality does accept minimize suffering trying function get back control tried everything work got patience tried commit redflag times last weeks magically work the car stopped got scratches bruises head arms second time passed days taking overdose pills woke bunch vomit sorry detailsyes know
sentir como incluso hipotética oportunidad mejorar existenciahello personas punto vida completamente atascado actualmente estudios maestros aparentemente la vida se ve decente fuera realidad infierno punto identificar persona ya sentir como nada podrido sentimientos cuerpo perspectivas cosas mejoran incluso teoría lucha contra el trastorno alimenticio desde probado obtener ayuda varias instituciones médicas psicólogas píldoras etc empeora tiempo los últimos años vivir infierno no puede lidiar con más tiempo superior que también bipolar ayudar a tratar de controlarme básicamente no me importa buscar bastante delgado querer útil hace sentir buen problema foco estudio vida vida en general restricción no puede más trastorno alimentario tomó forma cama antes de anorexia ednos anorexia de nuevo pareja bulímica meses inhalado cuchara cama