feeling suicidal need helpfor past  years ive felt like want kill various reasons want explain committed redflag  main reasons upsetsad family would question feeling goes away would mistake either way  years feel like ive gone insane waiting feelings change hiding fact feel depressed friends family wanted keep secret entire time wanted something would full control friends family standing way drawback cant ask anyone questions redflag anything alike would revealcause suspicion im suicidal ampxb week ago decided enough wanted finally commit redflag lot problems life getting much bigger feelings doesnt seem changing anytime soon want wait feels like hell longer searching online vpn ways kill myself learned ways kill  guaranteed die anything really high percentage would available me ampxb overdose pills something learned high percentage people survive would likely sorta brain damage did hang dont anything hang anything suspend except belt shoot head gun im high schooler get one anyway cut anyway research learned highest redflag attempt people survive plus would lot pain die old toaster bathtub outlets modern homes something stop higher amounts electricity something way attempt also bathrooms really moist thing get lot co car pass would require parents home work order helium tank gas obviously id questioned id that jump building live suburbs tall enough buildings jump without huge chance surviving fall disabled way physically brain damage couldnt use chemical products certain ways know would work want endanger family members oets make shift gas something products would linger ampxb last paragraph want ask anyone believes people right take life way thing would possible kill myself ive considering jumping front metro feeling able get that please need answer ive become mad knowing might even able commit redflag anyone wants convince live something right im really open minded really want find reason live ive already tried past  years anything might say probably similar thought already examined it ampxb thank anyone help me
feeling suicidal need helpfor past years ive felt like want kill various reasons want explain committed redflag main reasons upsetsad family would question feeling goes away would mistake either way years feel like ive gone insane waiting feelings change hiding fact feel depressed friends family wanted keep secret entire time wanted something would full control friends family standing way drawback cant ask anyone questions redflag anything alike would revealcause suspicion im suicidal ampxb week ago decided enough wanted finally commit redflag lot problems life getting much bigger feelings doesnt seem changing anytime soon want wait feels like hell longer searching online vpn ways kill myself learned ways kill guaranteed die anything really high percentage would available me ampxb overdose pills something learned high percentage people survive would likely sorta brain damage did hang dont anything hang anything suspend except belt shoot head gun im high schooler get one anyway cut anyway research learned highest redflag attempt people survive plus would lot pain die old toaster bathtub outlets modern homes something stop higher amounts electricity something way attempt also bathrooms really moist thing get lot co car pass would require parents home work order helium tank gas obviously id questioned id that jump building live suburbs tall enough buildings jump without huge chance surviving fall disabled way physically brain damage couldnt use chemical products certain ways know would work want endanger family members oets make shift gas something products would linger ampxb last paragraph want ask anyone believes people right take life way thing would possible kill myself ive considering jumping front metro feeling able get that please need answer ive become mad knowing might even able commit redflag anyone wants convince live something right im really open minded really want find reason live ive already tried past years anything might say probably similar thought already examined it ampxb thank anyone help me
Sentirse suicida necesita ayuda en los últimos años se sintió como querer matar varias razones quieren explicar cometido bandera roja principales razones distressad familia preguntaría la sensación desaparece se equivocaría de cualquier manera los años se siente como ive ido loco esperando sentimientos cambio ocultar hecho se siente deprimido amigos familia quería guardar secreto todo el tiempo quería algo control completo amigos familia de pie manera inconveniente no se puede hacer a nadie preguntas Redflag cualquier cosa por igual revelaría causa sospecha im