my dad was in the hospital recently . he was in very bad condition and did n't look like he was gon na pull through . thankfully he did . i 'm really happy that he made it . i bet it was a tough thing to go through . yeah , i ca n't imagine life without my dad . it 'll happen someday , i just would prefer it to happen once he 's lived a full life . i know what you mean . i wish my dad were still around .
The father's grave illness and imminent possibility of death caused the feeling of devastation.