Cheltenham Festival 2013: Jonjo O'Neill still driven by an unbridled passion for racing O'Neill still remembers the nerves. It's your first time in an international weighing room with amateurs you don't know and the top lads in Ireland and France. In your own little mind you're thinking - I've made it," he says. He walked in at "20-years-old to see Ron Barry, Terry Biddlecombe, Bob Davies, Tommy Carberry - really good characters. Nowadays the kids go into the weighing room all the time, but for us to see the names up there - Pat Taaffe and Ankle - and to see Pat's peg, wow, that was a thrill. As we survey the gorgeous Cotswold landscape the Cheltenham hopes gallop by: Cloudy Copper, Shutthefrontdoor, Taquin Du Seuil, Alfie Sherrin, Albertas Run and Get Me Out of Here. But there is the ghost also of Sychronised, who followed the path Sunnyhillboy will take when contesting Friday's Gold Cup before a crack at Aintree. No Gold Cup winner had gone on to win the National in the same season for 78 years but O'Neill maintains there was no connection between Synchronised's "freakish" injury and the difficulty of winning both races. He should know. In 1979 he rode Alverton to Gold Cup victory but then saw the champion put down after a fall at Becher's Brook, the fence where Synchronised capsized before continuing riderless to the 11th fence, where he fractured a leg. "You wouldn't believe lightning would strike twice would you?" he said in the lounge that overlooks the yard, from where stable tours begin with breakfast. It was so unfortunate, because to lose him [Synchronised] when he was loose like that was freakish. You want to give up racing, you want to give up living. You want to give up everything because this thing's gone wrong for you, but then you pull yourself together and say - stop being a bloody spoilt kid and get on with life. He takes up the story of Synchronised's rise last year: "We didn't know he was a Gold Cup horse, to be honest, because he was such a unique type. He was only just coming right close to Cheltenham. The only worry I had about him in the Gold Cup was that they might go too fast and he might be tailed off after the first mile. Then if we were close enough, I knew we'd definitely come home. On the second circuit we were confident he would be placed. But then coming to the last AP gave him an unbelievable ride. They were made for each other, the two of them. Both full of guts. And it all went right for them. He was actually better going to Liverpool. He really was coming right. You could see it in him. He went to Aintree and going down to the start he ducked and dropped AP [unseated him]. That told me how well he was. He was a cute old monkey. This story is told with a mix of realism and affection. O'Neill, the only person to have both ridden and trained 100 winners in a season, understands better than anyone the love trainers and their staff feel for horses; and he knows too the futility of giving in to misfortune. It's tough, bloody tough, losing a horse like that, but life goes on, and at the end of the day it is an animal, and there are more important things going on in life, if you want to put it that way. The whole yard is down, everybody is down, and you have to jolly everybody up. Time is the only healer. I've seen it before. Listen, we get a horse beaten in a seller and we want to give up racing. We're a bit petty, aren't we? It's only because you're so engrossed in the whole thing. You do take it to heart, and if you didn't you wouldn't do it. Outside in the fresh spring air, O'Neill is consumed by the challenge of working out the physical and psychological make-up of every horse. "When you get it right you think - yeah, I've got it," he says, punching the air. When you get it wrong you think - why did I do that? What was I thinking of? He looks for "the little antics, the little things that tell you a horse is starting to bloom." Given his success in both roles, as pilot and trainer, I ask which he would have chosen if he could only have had one career. That's a hard one, that. The day Dawn Run won the Gold Cup was a magical day," he says. The whole of Ireland knew she was going to win. She'd only had five or six runs over fences. She wasn't a natural jumper and I was thinking - will she get around? She was a very game mare and Paddy [Mullins] was a brilliant trainer who had her sized up to a tee. Paddy would never give you any orders. He would just say - "Ah, she's well today, lad." And you thought - "ooh, that's good."" His most precious training memory, though, is from Aintree: "Winning the National with Don't Push It [in 2011] was something that really shocked me in a way. As a jockey I wasn't very successful at all [in the National], as a trainer I'd been third and second. When he won I thought - that hasn't happened to me. In my head it was a race that didn't have my name on it. Then for AP to win it - and JP [McManus, the owner] hadn't won it. It wasn't about me. With everything else happening it was bloody fantastic. So I'll say it's a draw. Cheltenham is tormenting its human cast this weekend, with anticipation and dread. O'Neill laughs. "Somebody talks up some horse and you think "that was impressive." Somebody talks up another horse and you go and watch it and think "bloody hell, that was good." By the time you get there you've nearly given up. It's funny how it works. A mixture of torture and excitement, then? "Good description," he says. Torture's probably the main one.