Starved twins' mum says she loved them A BRISBANE mother accused of starving her twin toddlers to death says she loved them and can't explain why she stopped feeding them solid food. The 35-year-old woman gave evidence on the ninth day of her trial for murder in the Brisbane Supreme Court on Monday. The trial against the 18-month-old toddlers' father was abandoned earlier in the day after prosecutors accepted his plea of guilty to manslaughter. During questioning by her barrister the woman explained that in 2008 her relationship with her de facto partner had broken down. He stopped showing interest in their six children leaving her to raise them virtually alone, she said. The woman described losing motivation to live and becoming a virtual recluse in her home, neglecting basic hygiene, hiding from visitors and ignoring telephone calls. She told her partner and relatives she could no longer cope but no one believed her, she said. I was very anxious towards the twins. I loved them. It's hard to believe that but honestly I loved them ... Her care of the twins "changed dramatically" around March 2008, she estimated. Until then they had eaten solid food with the rest of the family but she began feeding them only "jar food," packet food, and baby formula. "Somewhere along the line it just became formula," she said. I think it was easier. I don't recall why I assumed it was easier. I think I've responded in the past it was because of my laziness. I honestly don't know why I even did it. The infants' decomposing bodies were discovered by their 11-year-old sister in June 2008 at their home in Sunnybank Hills in Brisbane's south. Autopsies revealed the boy and girl had died from malnutrition about a week earlier. Earlier the woman described a childhood of sexual and physical abuse at the hands of her adoptive family. She had ran away from home aged 15, become pregnant in Year 12 and had four children by age 26. She said she had been using an IUD contraception when she had accidentally fallen pregnant with the toddlers.