Queens Park Rangers manager Harry Redknapp starts life at Loftus Road by saying players should be 'embarrassed' I don't spend my life holding grudges against people. Daniel has just rung up, wished me all the best. I didn't go home that night when I heard on the radio that Roy [Hodgson] had been given the England job and lock myself up in a room. And then Redknapp added: "It's only a game, only a job. You want to go up to see all these kids at the Victoria school - that is life. Redknapp is a patron of the Sparkle Appeal which raises funds for the Victoria Education Centre in Poole which works with youngsters who have physical and neurological problems. He was ready to return, though. Redknapp had missed the coaching, picking the team, the adrenalin of match-day. He was about to sign a four-year deal to coach Ukraine if QPR had not come calling. It wasn't as if I had to live in Ukraine. Fabio Capello is manager of Russia but he lives in Italy. I could have gone over at weekends, watched some games, spent a few days at home. I spoke to Andrei Shevchenko about it. He said there were some good players there. I was excited about it. I would have gone. There was a committee and one of them wanted Sheva and the rest wanted me. But what about when Ukraine play England next September? It would have been difficult! But you can't say: 'Oh, it doesn't matter if we don't win today. I would have been sent down the salt mines! He knows the size of the task at Loftus Road but he has faced similar challenges before. Portsmouth was a tough one, keeping them up when it looked like we were doomed. If I'd failed there, I probably wouldn't be alive now. This is a tough one as well. We keep saying we have a good team but how do you end up with four points? It's an embarrassing total for the players to have. They have to do better. They should be [embarrassed]. You can talk to players all day and those who aren't playing will blame those who are playing. Those who are playing will blame somebody else. The manager [Mark Hughes] has got the sack and he's an excellent manager. I've come to a good club here. I've met the people here and they're good, nice, genuine people. They're not ruthless people.