Jack Frew trial: Accused had "no memory" of carrying out attack Published on Friday 27 January 2012 16:12 A TEENAGER accused of murdering schooly Jack Frew in woodland said today that he had no memory of carrying out the attack. Craig Roy said he was "terrified" when he realised 16-year-old Jack was lying on the ground with his throat cut because he thought he could have been the one who knifed him. Roy, 19, was giving evidence for the second day in the trial at the High Court in Glasgow. He is accused of murdering Jack in East Kilbride on May 6 2010. It is alleged that Roy repeatedly struck and stabbed Jack in the neck and body with a knife. The trial has previously been told Jack was left with 20 separate stab wounds and a slash across his throat. The jury was told today that at an earlier hearing Roy had entered a guilty plea to culpable homicide, but it was rejected by the Crown. Roy said he had taken a knife out after Jack had exposed his erect penis during a walk. He said he thought the younger man had wanted either oral or penetrative sex. The trial has previously heard that Jack was "blackmailing" Roy by threatening to tell Roy's boyfriend about an earlier sexual encounter. Roy said the next thing he remembered was Jack lying bleeding on the ground. He said: "I remember being angry. Extremely angry. Jack was lying on the ground. I was trying to help him. He was bleeding from the neck. I was still holding the knife. It was covered in blood. I was terrified that it was me that had caused this to Jack. I was crying quite a lot. His lawyer, David Burns QC, asked him: "Do you accept that it was you who delivered these many blows?" He replied: "I came to that conclusion. Even now, logically, I accept it, but part of me just won't accept it. Mr Burns asked him: "Do you take responsibility for the killing of Jack Frew?" The teenager replied: "I don't want to believe it, but, logically, yes." Roy also spoke of the impact Jack's death had had on his family: "Obviously I can't imagine what they think. They lost a son. He wasn't just a son - he was a friend, a best friend, a nephew, a cousin. He was a lot of things to a lot of people. If I could make things right again, I would. But I can't. Members of Jack's family wept during Roy's evidence. Roy broke down in the witness box and the trial was adjourned. He wept openly during cross-examination from the advocate depute Jennifer Bain. She had been asking him about a text sent to him by Jack on the night he died. He previously told the court that he had been angered by the message, which contained a sexually explicit desire. Ms Bain asked him why his mother and sister had not noticed he was angry. When she asked him if he was close to his sister, he began to cry. Ms Bain previously accused Roy of trying to paint Jack "in a bad light" by claiming he was blackmailing him. She said: "There wasn't blackmail, was there? You just felt guilty about what you had done with Jack Frew. It was your guilt that caused you to take the knife on May 6. He replied: "I didn't want him blackmailing me. I was quite impulsive, otherwise I wouldn't have taken the knife. It goes against my morals and my beliefs. She also asked him: "Are trying to say negative things about Jack Frew to try to justify what you have done?" He said: "No, not at all. You can't justify killing someone. Ms Bain put it to Roy that he could actually remember attacking Jack with the knife. She said: "Is it not the case that you remember stabbing Jack Frew that night? Is it not the case that you remember Jack Frew fighting back? Is the reason you won't tell anyone because Jack was screaming in pain and fighting for his life? He replied: "No. I wouldn't know. The advocate depute said: "Did you even care about what you had done?" Roy answered: "When I came to the conclusion that it must have been me, yes, I did care." He said: "I was trying to help Jack Frew." Ms Bain retorted: "Trying to help him by stabbing him 20 times and slitting his throat?" Roy said: "I don't recall stabbing him 20 times and slitting his throat. I did try to help. Ms Bain asked why Roy had told his boyfriend he had stabbed Jack, revealed to his sister that he had slashed his throat and admitted to a policeman that he had stabbed him in the back. She said: "Is this lack of memory just a convenience?" Roy became emotional as he answered, saying: "If I could know I would want to know. I want to know what happened that night. I don't like putting people through so much. I don't want to put anyone through this. If I knew the truth I would say. I don't recall doing anything and that's what makes this hard for me. The trial was briefly adjourned after Roy broke down again in the witness box. Roy insisted: "I did not murder Jack Frew." And under examination from his lawyer, he said: "I would not go out of my way to harm someone. I would not go out of my way. I would not go out of my way to kill someone. Mr Burns asked him: "Did you plan to stab him 20 times? Did you plan to slash his throat? "No," Roy replied. Mr Burns said: "Something must have happened, but you can't tell the ladies and gentlemen what it was?" Roy answered: "I wish I could." The trial was adjourned until Monday.