Dereck Chisora 'embarrassed' by Munich behaviour ahead of BBBC hearing into David Haye brawl I just hope they realise how sorry I am and that all I really want is for me to be allowed to get back in the ring again and do what I do best, and fight. Because I know one day I will be the world heavyweight champion and that Britain will be proud of me. The 28 year-old admits he has already suffered repercussions after his mother collapsed following the incident. "I got a call to say she'd had a panic attack and been rushed to hospital," he revealed. Her first words to me when I got back and went straight to the hospital were: 'What are you going to do if they take away your licence?' There was nothing I could say to her. All I could do was keep quiet. Believe me, I'm more afraid of my mother than any opponent in the ring. She is worried they'll take away my licence to box and where I'll go to from here. She depends on me. Chisora - who insists his actions were partly prompted by the Klitschkos' attempts to "wind me up" - added: "When I look back on it all now I am really embarrassed. There was nothing premeditated. It was all spontaneous. Something kicked in. It just happened. When I slapped Vitali I immediately regretted it. I was thinking to myself: 'What did I do that for?"' He also insists his repeated vows to "shoot David Haye" were empty threats. I was shouting, 'I am going to shoot you', but I would never do that, I don't have a gun, I've never owned one and never will. It was just a stupid remark. Obviously I regret everything I did and said. Looking back, it would have been better had I stayed at home.