Mother feels like she's been 'buried alive' after lover gouged out her eyes Tina said: "I feel like I have been buried alive, I feel like a ghost. I can hear everyone but I can't even see my kids' faces. That is really harsh. I actually wish I wasn't here. I'd rather not be here. I miss the world, my kids' faces, I miss everything. I like sleeping because I am dreaming but then I wake up and I think 'this again'. I wonder if he brags that he's the last person I saw. The attacked happened on April 21 last year at Tina's home in Hayle, Cornwall, after they spent the night having drinks with friends. She went to bed but woke up to find Jenkin, who had a history of domestic violence, attacking her. He kept her imprisoned for 12 hours and police believe he deliberately throttled her into unconsciousness before inflicted the worst injuries. After the attack her face was so horrifically injured that friends could not bear to be in the same room as her. Tina, whose two sons are aged 14 and four, had to undergo several operations on her head and face during four weeks of hospital treatment but surgeons couldn't save her eyes. After the court hearing yesterday, she said: "I am pleased that Jenkin has today pleaded guilty and has at least taken responsibility for changing my life forever. I truly feel that, when he was strangling me, he was trying to murder me. He has taken everything from me and robbed me of one of the most precious things in life - my sight. I miss the things which people take for granted the most such as seeing the sky and the sea. Sometimes I feel as though I've been buried alive, claustrophobic and not in control of my life. I actually look forward to going to sleep because in my dreams I have sight. It's when I wake up that the truth hits home. Some days I just don't want to get up but I'm determined to provide a future for my children and this is my motivation. I would like to take this opportunity to thank my friends and family for their amazing support which has helped me to cope with what has happened to me. Detective Inspector Chris Strickland of Devon and Cornwall Police described Tina's ordeal as the "most shocking attack" he had ever seen. He said: "This was a premeditated, sustained and vicious attack on a defenceless woman. Our view is that Jenkin deliberately strangled Tina into a state of unconsciousness in order that he could inflict these terrible injuries. Tina's life will never be the same and her lifelong disability will be a constant reminder of the attack. Her injuries were so shocking that, friends who saw her soon after the incident, found it difficult to stay in the room. Tina has displayed incredible strength however and has shown great desire to be able to care for her two children despite not being able to see them as they grow up. We would publicly like to thank the members of the public from Penzance and Hayle who helped us locate Jenkin when he fled following the attack. Their help was invaluable to our enquiry. Jenkin was remanded in custody and will be sentenced at Truro Crown Court next month.