Ian Thorpe: I battled crippling depression It didn't happen every night, but there were numerous occasions, particularly between 2002 and 2004 as I trained to defend my Olympic titles in Athens, that I abused myself this way - always alone and in a mist of disgrace. Thorpe said he was able to hide the effects of alcohol from team-mates and coaches and continued to enjoy one of the best periods of his career, despite his private battle with depression. The swimmer said he also felt the need to stay silent about his depression, thinking it was a "character flaw." As a result he has never spoken about it to his parents. "Not even my family is aware that I've spent a lot of my life battling what I can only describe as a crippling depression," he wrote. Now I realise it's time to be open. I need to talk to them about it...I know how Mum will react; she'll cry and ask me why I didn't tell her and then she'll tell me how proud she is that I've finally talked about it. Dad is different. I'm not sure how he'll react. I know it'll take time for him to come to terms with it and how it fits in with his religious beliefs. I hope it does because family means a lot to me.