Frankie Dettori 'ashamed and embarrassed' following six-month ban for testing positive for cocaine Things were going bad, I was depressed and I guess a moment of weakness and I fell for it and I've only got myself to blame. I can't blame anybody else. The embarrassment of when it come out, I had to hide in my house for a week. The paparazzi outside. The embarrassment of telling the children, you know. You know they still go to school, they might get bullied and so it was a very, very difficult time. Dettori also tolds Balding why he took the drug, the impact on his personal life, and his future career in racing. The 42 year-old will also address the steroid scandal at yard of Mahmood Al Zarooni, trainer for his former retained stables Godolphin. While the interview will be shown on Thursday evening, further footage will be available on Channel 4 News online and from Friday, May 17 on Channel 4 Racing.