Big Brother's Lawson Reeves opens up about cheating on his girlfriend on national TV Lawson's out ... one of Big Brother's most controversial housemates has been booted and is now facing the music for cheating on his long-term girlfriend. AFTER watching her boyfriend of four years cheat with another woman on national television, the partner of Big Brother housemate Lawson Reeves is now refusing to take his calls. After leaving the reality show house last night, the 23-year-old apprentice electrician from Perth reached out to Candice Leeder to explain his very public affair with fellow contestant Cat. Cold shoulder ... She now won't return his calls. "Very understandably, she does not want to speak to me," Reeves said today. She may never want to speak to me. If she does, I'll be here to take the call or talk in person. It's up to her and whatever her decision, I understand it. CHEATER OUT: Lawson Reeves gets evicted from Big Brother house All I can say is that I'm sorry. I don't need to explain the situation because it has been played out in front of all of Australia. It's more just giving her a chance to speak to me. But incredibly, Reeves revealed he knows how Leeder must be feeling in the wake of his infidelity given another ex-girlfriend once cheated on him. Hot and heavy ... Lawson and Cat's very open relationship with a sticking point for many of their fellow housemates. I do know what it feels like. That's probably even worse, now that I've done it to someone else. I'll have to deal with that. Before entering the house in September, Reeves said he and Leeder had gone through a rough patch but simply "ran out of time" to discuss the status of their relationship. GIRLFRIEND REVEALED: Candice Leeder, the girlfriend of Big Brother love rat Lawson emerges after cheating scandal The idea was to figure out where we were with our relationship and our lives when I got out of the house, because we didn't get a chance to beforehand and we couldn't rush that conversation. Boozy love ... when Lawson and Cat said they love each other, he says it was the alcohol talking. Picture: Supplied Source: Channel 9 In the meantime, the amateur magician met Cat, a 31-year-old midwife from Melbourne, and sparks flew. Despite initially distancing himself from her, the pair eventually began a full-blown relationship. The scandal intrigued the viewing public and divided the housemates. All the while, Reeves said he imagined what his scorned girlfriend must be thinking. NOT LOVE: Big Brother's Lawson clears up who he really loves What I've struggled with and what I'm going to struggle with is knowing I've broken someone's heart, someone I do care about. I'll never be forgiven for that. Copping it ... Lawson has already had some backlash from members of the public over the cheating scandal, but says he expected it. I never intended for this to happen. I knew it was wrong. It just sort of happened. It's horrible, it's not a good thing. Another regret was telling Cat he loved her during a salacious conversation in the bedroom a few weeks ago, which he blamed on being drunk. We've spoken about that since. There was a lot of alcohol involved on that night and we both understand that. "The word "love" isn't one to be thrown about. Even though we both have genuine feelings for each other, neither of us feel that it's love. No hanky panky ... despite speculation and show sources saying otherwise, Lawson insists he and Cat did not get physical in the house. Despite speculation, Reeves denied claims from a show source that suggested he and Cat had been "physical" with each other while in the house. It didn't go any further than what you saw on television. I can't do anything about rumours. We didn't (have sex). Nothing like that happened. But that's the least of his concerns today, he said. Reeves is aware that the road ahead will be bumpy, particularly when he and Cat discuss their next steps together. Logistical difficulties ... he lives in Perth, she lives in Melbourne, and Lawson and Cat have a lot to figure out now, he says. I have to wait until she's out to have a conversation with her to decide where we go from here. We didn't discuss the finer details of it while we were in the house. I had already been thinking of moving, but it could be anywhere. I want to chase an actor career, a job in radio or follow some sort of line with my magic. Wherever that takes me, I don't know. It might be Melbourne, it might be Sydney. I'll play it by ear. Big Brother airs on Channel Nine tonight at 8.40pm Originally published as "She doesn't want to speak to me"