Millionaire's daughter: I was raped by two men just weeks before London riots Exeter University student Johnson said she was aware T-Man had been in prison before but did not know what for. She said she'd heard him talking about 'violent, gangster music' which referenced 'guns, gangs and violence' but said she did not take it terribly seriously at the time. Speaking about that night she said: "The first thing T Man said to me was 'drive.' It was short, sharp, abrupt. He had never spoken to me like that before. I felt scared, shocked, your body starts to seize up. It was unexpected. When they got in the car in that manner, in that sort of clothing it dawned on me this wasn't right. They were probably involved in looting or rioting or something," she said. Asked by her barrister Martin McCarthy if she had any desire to be part of the rioting, she replied: "No." "Did you feel able to simply say no and say get out my car?" he said. Potentially I'm a coward. I was scared. The tone of the directions, the way they were dressed, it pushed me to not resist. I was scared," Johnson answered. The former grammar school pupil said she heard the men laughing about someone getting hurt by pouring boiling water over their head. After half an hour of driving round Johnson said the men began to rob other looters at knifepoint, which then happened repeatedly through the night with them stashing their swag in her car. She said: "The first time I saw the knife was outside the car. I was told to pull over and T Man and one of the men ran towards a man carrying a plasma TV or games console. The knife was held towards the man upwards. It was a large kitchen knife. The guy then released the item to them and then they got back in my car. I was terrified. I'd never seen anyone get robbed at knife point before. Asked why she agreed to drive the men round, Johnson answered: "I didn't feel like I could say no." She said the men seemed 'amused' at looters reactions when they pulled out the knife on them. In terms of stabbing they used the words 'getting wetted' or 'boring somebody' and in general terms referred to people 'getting f***ed up.' She added: "Through the night I never knew when it was going to end." Johnson said she thought about trying to get away when they were forced to stop at a petrol station as she was running out of fuel but did not act in time. After being directed to a residential area where the loot including electrical goods, booze and cigarettes, was unloaded into a house, Johnson said T-Man threatened her when she questioned what they were doing. At that stage he put his hand round the back of my neck with his thumb pressing on my neck quite firmly and I was told effectively to shut up because I didn't know what I was talking about. Earlier Johnson, who lives in her family's country pile in Orpington, Kent, which has extensive grounds and a tennis court, admitted she had self-harmed since the age of 14. But she told a jury at Inner London Crown Court she had a 'complete breakdown' following the break up with her boyfriend. She said: "It was beyond the trouble I'd had before. I completely crumbled. I was having panic attacks. I couldn't handle my emotions. I would lash out and break through windows and ended up with my arm quite severely harmed a number of times. She said she sought help as at one point she was 'walking towards railway bridges,' and was referred by her GP to a mental health facility where she was put on sedatives and anti-depressants. There were repeated attempts to kill myself, probably about six times. Only three of them I ended up in hospital. It was overdoses," she said. Johnson denies three charges of burglary and three of handling stolen goods during the riots which swept across the country last summer.