PC David Rathband was 'haunted by Raoul Moat like Voldemort' The Chief Constable Sue Sim said PC Rathband had been planning on returning to the force in a road safety role. She said: "We were working with David from the time this tragic incident happened when his life was changed forever. And he has been struggling to come to terms with the impact of that. We were working with him on a support package, with a welfare package and medical care provision. That was what he wanted and needed. But the police officer, who had set up the Blue Lamp Foundation for injured emergency services workers, told how he struggled to sleep after the ordeal. Speaking five months ago, he said: "The other night I was fighting him in my dream and woke up with my own hand around my own throat ... When I go to sleep I see the same as I do if my eyes were wide open. He added: "I need sleeping tablets just to get some rest. I haven't had a proper sleep in over a year. That's because I keep waking up every night at the same time I was shot. To be honest I'm exhausted by it all. He had also spoken candidly about his marriage to nurse Kath, with whom he had tried to reconcile after they announced their separation in November. Describing his wife as "amazing," he said he could not expect her to care for him for the next 30 years. He revealed he could not cry because his tear ducts had been severed. "My hope is that one day Moat will leave me alone for good and I can get on with my life," he said.