I was in fear of my life, says Ricky Nixon's former fiancee Tegan Gould Ricky Nixon and Tegan Gould during happier times. THE former fiancee of disgraced AFL player agent Ricky Nixon has spoken publicly about the night he attacked her, saying she feared she was going to die. Tegan Gould has told the Australian Women's Weekly magazine she was still having nightmares about the attack Nixon launched on her in his Port Melbourne apartment in July. "I have no doubt that if I hadn't escaped, he would've killed me," Ms Gould told the magazine. I thought he was going to start stabbing me with the knife and I thought he'd probably kill me first, then hurt himself. On March 25, Nixon, 50, pleaded guilty in the Melbourne Magistrates' Court to charges of intentionally causing injury to Ms Gould, 28, and escaping from police custody. He avoided a jail term and was instead given a corrections order of 200 hours unpaid community work, sparking outrage from women's advocates. In the AWW interview, Ms Gould told how Nixon became controlling and aggressive towards her, and belittled her in public. She said she left his apartment after their relationship ended, but went back the night of the attack after his friends called her. "I was worried he was harming himself, I wasn't thinking about what he'd do to me," she said. After Nixon came home, an argument broke out, and Ms Gould said Nixon tried to choke her and left her battered. He came into the bedroom with a knife and she said he told her he was going to kill her. Anyone needing assistance can call the Women's Domestic Violence Crisis Service of Victoria on 1800 015 188 or 03 9322 3555 (24-hour Crisis Line).