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On October 18, 2005, two candidates for City Council district 5 debated issues of the city budget, noise, healthcare reform, and housing. The candidates are: Jessica Lappin (Democrat/Working Families Party) and Joel Zinberg (Republican/Independence/Liberal). The event was sponsored by Citizens Union in partnership with the Carnegie Hill Neighbors and Friends of the Upper East Side. It was moderated by Edward-Issac Dovere from Our Town newspaper.
The following is an edited transcript of the event.
Jessica Lappin: Good evening, my name is Jessica Lappin. I am the Democratic nominee for city council in the 5th district. I am a born and bred New Yorker. I grew up in Manhattan, went to Stuyvesant High School and then to Georgetown University for college, and then came back to New York City, the city that I love after a brief stint in the private sector chose to pursue a career in public service. I've been working in this community for the last seven years. I started out in 1998 doing constituent service for Gifford Miller and was most recently his district chief of staff.
I'm tackling the issues that I think are important to this community. Working with parents and teachers to improve our schools, to build additional classroom space at PS 290, which now has music and sciences classes. Working with transportation advocates on the East Side, saving bus stops on 55th street that are very important to our population. Working on housing issues with tenants on the East Side and particularly on Roosevelt Island, who have been in danger of losing their homes.
I've been working day in and day out on the ground tackling these issues. My experience in the community and down at City Hall will enable me to be an independent voice for progress and for reform within this community. And from my work in City Council, I think I have a good sense of what works well and what could work better. And then I have some reform proposals I hope we'll get to discuss tonight: to streamline the budget and the bill drafting process, to make the legislative process in general more transparent to the voters and to the public and to the membership of the City Council. I'm working to make the culture of the institution one of more transparency and accountability.
So I believe my experience will enable me to be an effective advocate, to hit the ground running, and I hope that I can earn your support tonight and your vote on November 8th. Thank you.
Joel Zinberg: Good evening. My name is Dr. Joel Zinberg. Like my opponent, I am a life-long New Yorker, also a Stuyvesant High School graduate. I went to Swarthmore College, where I graduated Phi Beta Kappa, high honors. I came back to New York for medical school at Columbia, also attended Yale Law school where I was a law journal editor, and I've been in New York ever since.
I am running because I am concerned that the progress we've made in the last few years, the last 12 years to be exact, under the Giuliani and the Bloomberg administrations is in danger. It's in danger if we don't elect council people who have real world experience, who share the experience and perspective of their constituents. I think we have a council that unfortunately is full of politicians and people who have been aides to politicians. They've never worked in the private sector; they don't share the experience and values and perspective of their constituents.
What I want to do is utilize my real-world experience so that we can bring some innovative ideas like reforming Medicaid, using city resources to save $500 million a year, a proposal that was praised by the mayor, praised by the New York Post, and praised by the New York Sun as an innovative, original idea, something you don't see from career politicians. I want to utilize my background to restore quality in the city hospital system.
I want to utilize my background to know that we have alternatives to the Second Avenue Subway by improving the Lexington Avenue line. I've also been a volunteer in the community both in the 19th precinct community council giving free breast cancer screenings and on organizations the preserve the rights and protect the rights at human research centers.
I think it's important to hit the ground running. But I think when you hit the ground you have to know which direction you're going. The only way you know that is by working in the community and having the real world experience.
Question: How do you propose the city address the projected deficit in the city's 2007-2008 budgets? Are there new revenue streams that you would propose? Are there specific inefficiencies or wasteful programs you would seek to eliminate?
Joel Zinberg: I think you were talking about the impending budget deficit, which was coming in the out year. Now we have a surplus but there's going to be a budget deficit in the future. You have to start thinking out of the box. You have to think about some innovative ideas. It's not simply a bunch of sound bites saying we're going to cut this; we're going to do that. We need some innovative ideas.
For example, like my Medicaid plan. Those of you who saw the New York Times article, know that we lose billions of dollars every year. New York City spends $5 billion a year on Medicaid. We could be saving by applying city resources to cut back Medicaid fraud and abuse $500 million a year.
I think we can do a lot of things like reform in education; we've already established standards and accountability under the Bloomberg administration, but let's expand that to the whole system. Let's look at those lengthy, complex, ridiculous contracts that create crazy work rules that cost the city money and are completely inefficient – things like the custodians' union. Let's consider the possibility of outsourcing some of the non-educational functions and possibly save that money, and get a more efficient performance.
Let's hold the line on taxing and spending. Let's look very carefully at not increasing, not simply saying that we're going to throw money at every problem. And finally let's look carefully, as the Citizens Budget Commission did, at the possibility of reforming the pension programs and the health benefits for city retirees. Not for the people who've been there already – we have a bond with them – but go forward making it much more like the private sector.
Jessica Lappin: When Gifford Miller was elected speaker during the first budget when we were facing a similar budget deficit, and we cut $3 billion dollars out of the city's budget over the last few years. We are facing this huge budget deficit next year, and I think Joel has some good ideas about Medicaid fraud and we are going to have to find a way to deal with our escalating pension costs and our debt service, which are eating up a large portion of our city's budget.
But I will say if Governor Pataki stopped appealing the Campaign for Fiscal Equity decision, we would be able to bridge our budget gap in one year. And if he would stop saying that our kids were only entitled to an 8th grade education – the state's highest court has mandated that the inequality in education funding be addressed, and the state has refused to do it. The governor has fought every step of the way to address this inequality, which has a huge impact upon our city's budget.
And I'll say that that when you balance the budget you have to do it in a way that's mindful of prioritizing and protecting our core city services. I don't think we should go back to being a city with only 20,000 cops on the streets. I think we have to make sure that we are still picking up our trash, keeping our city safe, and making sure our kids are able to go to their schools and be taught in our classrooms.
Q: Do you feel the operation of the city council is in need of reform? If so, how would you help create a more open, transparent, and effective city council?
Jessica Lappin: Having worked sort of within the City Council and at City Hall, I think there are things that the City Council should be doing better, and there are a few specific reform proposals I want to lay out briefly.
One, I think the process for the public to track legislation as it moves through City Council should be more transparent: as bills are amended, as bills are voted upon, it's very difficult for the public to follow the process, and I don't think it should be that way. I think there should be a sort of streamlining of the bill drafting process so that members know when their bill will be drafted so that their ideas can become laws. I think there should be e-mail notification to the public about the agenda about what's happening in the body and to the membership of the City Council as well. These are some things that would help to change the culture of the City Council and make it into a more transparent body and make the membership more accountable to the people they represent.
Joel Zinberg: I think the first thing you have to seriously consider when you talk about reforming the city council is to change it from being a one-party system. In the council, 48 of the 51 members are Democrats. Most of you know and you can remember from history when you have one-party rule you usually get no debate, you get poor results, and I think the current council speaks for itself. That's one thing we have to do, we have to elect me, we have to elect my fellow candidate from the other district, Patrick Murphy, to get some new fresh voices, new fresh perspectives. I think are some more procedural matters you could pick. You could allow committees a greater role in the budget process, so that there particular area of expertise should be allowed to be heard in the budget process, something that's now allowed now. You should allow those council committees to function more independently of the speaker so that they can exercise that expertise. You should strengthen the process of allowing council members to propose amendments to bills. It's not a matter of merely transparency; it's a matter of there being dictatorial policies by the speaker. Finally, I think you have to loosen restrictions on the discharge petitions so more things are actually voted upon. But it's not a simple question. But it's a question that easily can be undertaken if you have a two-party system and people willing to do it.
Jessica Lappin: I just wanted to say that I think it's more important to have a member of the majority party stand up and be an independent voice for progress and reform within the institution, and I have always been and will continue to be an independent voice, to stand up to the speaker, whomever that person is, if appropriate, and to make my voice and my views known on behalf of my constituents.
Q: The next question comes from Friends of the Upper East Side Historic District. We have been working for many years to landmark important examples of modern architecture on the Upper East Side. This is a threshold issue throughout the city. What are your thoughts on the preservation of modern architecture?
Jessica Lappin: Well, I've worked with Friends of the Upper East Side and Municipal Art Society, and we fought Trump because we didn't think it was a good example of modern architecture and worked with them to try to landmark pieces in this district that are. I think that part of what makes New York City dynamic is that it is a city where there is change and progress and development. But that said, you have to protect the important parts of our history so that as you look back over time we have a record of how the city evolved and became what it is today – such a special place. So I think it's important to work with our historic preservation groups to do that.
Joel Zinberg: I couldn't concur more. It's very important I don't think there's a pat answer to the question. I think each case is individual, obviously. There's no way to say that a Guggenheim Museum isn't a classic simply because it isn't old enough, or that an old building is a classic simply because it is old. It's something that has to be undertaken on a case-by-case basis. I think we have to leave this to the people who are very expert on this, people in the landmark commission. So, we can't make the city a museum, but on the other hand you can't turn it over to developers. It's a mixture, and it's a delicate balance, and it's an ongoing process.
Q: The second question from the Friends of the Upper East Side Historic District. How do you plan on working with the community boards?
Joel Zinberg: The community boards perform a very important function in our community. They are the sounding board for people in the community to be able to express their opinions, to let people in positions of power know and in government know what's on their minds, and to have a voice that can ratify those opinions, or publicize those opinions. I think it's imperative that anyone whose going to be on the City Council express their willingness to work with the community boards, whether it's on landmark-type issues or any other issues. I can tell you in my district things like the waste station on 91st street or the water shafts down in the 50s have been called to public attention because of the community boards. They have been calling the politicians to account and without their voice and without people willing to listen to their voice you have a much more political process.
Jessica Lappin: The community boards are the most basic, classic form of local government, and I've really enjoyed working with community board 6 and community board 8 over the last seven years, whether it's through on the environment and education committee of board 8, we've had meetings once a month for years about the 91st street garbage station, or having meetings about bus stops on 55th street. They are public servants who come and meet and they discuss the issues that really impact our quality of life. I have worked with them I want to continue to work with them.
The City Council member appoints members of the community board. I think it's important that our council members appoint people who are thoughtful, substantive, progressive, involved in the community, educated on the local issues. The meetings go on late, into the night, if you go to community board, they usually go until midnight sometimes. That we have people who are willing and are dedicated to do the work that needs to be done is fantastic. I look forward to continuing to work with them.
Joel Zinberg: I wanted to add that I, too, have attended community board meetings at the land use committee and the sanitation and environment committee as recently as about a week and a half ago. I also attend the 19th precinct community council, a very similar kind of community organization, which performs and important function. And I did it because I'm interested, I did it not because it was my job, but just because it's an important role for any citizen to do. Everyone in this room should be attending those meetings as well.
Q: This is from Carnegie Hill Neighbors. The question is about noise. How would you work with the City Council and the mayor to reduce noise for construction in residential areas?
Jessica Lappin:Noise is the number one complaint to 311. It is a critical quality of life issue in our community. And I have worked with neighborhood residents to organize anti-horn-honking rallies, to get the 19th precinct to come out and issue summonses to motorists who are illegally honking their horns. I've worked with neighborhood groups to address the problem of noisy bars. I think the City Council has an opportunity to pass a revised noise code and to tackle construction noise, bars, and horn honking. These are real issues that the City Council can address by re-writing the noise code. And I think that we should in the next session be doing that.
Joel Zinberg: Noise is the number one complaint and I can tell you from my years at the 19th Precinct Community Council and discussions with Inspector Rogers and the community affairs officers that they try very hard to enforce the laws. It's a very difficult task. The fact of the matter is, you hear a loud radio, you hear a loud neighbor, you call 311, you call 911, the police office comes over, by the time they're there, the noise is off. It's not a simple matter, but there are certain things that can be done and certain organizations that can be held responsible. It's very clear we have to limit construction hours and not have construction in the middle of the night. You also have to be clear that you cannot necessarily have commercial waste trucks loading at all hours of the night – you've all probably been awakened by a truck slamming that container at three in the morning and people screaming. So it requires changing the code, it requires common sense, it requires a little bit of thinking out of the box and the continued participation of our police and our citizenry.
Moderator: Candidates will now have a chance to ask questions of their opponents.
Jessica Lappin: My question ties into the question about the budget gap for next year, because we are facing a considerable budget deficit – do you support the mayor's plan to give a $400 tax rebate next year?
Joel Zinberg: The interesting thing is that most people don't realize that the only tax that the city controls obliquely is the property tax. So we have a city council that refuses to reign in spending, refuses to act responsibly, refuses to look at new ideas that could potentially save money – it forces us to raise taxes. And what's the tax we can raise? The property tax. Now, if you act fiscally responsible, then you have the opportunity to cut back taxes. So I think if indeed the budget warrants it – at the moment it appears that it does – I am in favor of continuing that. If circumstances should change then I think then we'd have to re-think that question.
Joel Zinberg: In the September 7th Democratic primary debate, one of your opponents, Eric Cesnick, asked if you would call on Gifford Miller to return the $1.6 million in taxpayer money that he used to pay for what were clearly campaign mailings. Your answer was evasive and not responsive and you refused a request by Mr. Cesnick and the moderator, Dominick Carter, to answer yes or no. Mr. Carter finally concluded, quote, "that's a no answer." My question is, why won't you publicly urge your mentor, Mr. Miller, to return this taxpayer money that was obtained by circumventing normal council bidding rules and used to benefit Mr. Miller's campaign?
Jessica Lappin: I have answered this question publicly at forums before the NY1 debate, and again on NY1, and I want to do it again. I was not working for Gifford Miller in April when… I left his office in April, when he sent out those mailings. I think it was a mistake. He didn't ask my advice. If he had asked my advice, I would have told him that I thought it was a mistake. And beyond that, you know I'm here to discuss my campaign, my race, my issues, and my ideas. For him to give back the money, that's a decision that he has to make on his own. I've answered this question many times, and I'd like to move on and discuss some issues that impact this community.
Joel Zinberg: Interestingly, that's almost verbatim the answer that was given at that September 7th debate and I think anyone who reads that transcript or heard the answer tonight can conclusively say it's a non-responsive answer. It's not an answer to, yes or no, will you urge him to give back the money. It's a simple question.
Q: What is your plan to preserve affordable housing in New York City?
Jessica Lappin: I have been actively working with tenants on the East Side and on Roosevelt Island to tackle this issue. When the rent laws were set to expire a couple years ago, I traveled to Albany with East Side tenants. We lobbied together, side-by-side, at the state's capital, and rallied, talked to our legislators, and convinced them to renew the rent laws.
I've worked with the tenants out on Roosevelt Island, one of the poorest, probably the poorest residents in the district. They're Section 8 tenants, and they now have a deal they have brokered with their landlords, they're going to be able to stay in their homes. And I'm working with the middle-income tenants who live across the street so that they can do the same. And I think a lot of what you're City Council member can do and should do is work one-on-one with tenants in this community.
On the broader scale, I favor inclusionary zoning as a way, if developers are coming to City Council and asking for something, they should give something back. They should give affordable housing to the community. And then I think that's a tool that our City Council members should use to promote the building of new affordable units. I like the idea of creating a vehicle for people - whether it's developers or tenants - to purchase their homes with low-interest loans. That's something that would greatly benefit the middle-income tenants on Roosevelt Island. And I think encouraging some of the tax credits for green building and for the building of middle-income that already exists are also ways that we can continue to address this crisis in our city.
Joel Zinberg: The key issue here is how to increase the stock of affordable housing. And you increase it by utilizing government programs in partnership with private programs. And I think what Mayor Bloomberg has been doing the last few years is a fantastic example of that. He's managed to get $130 million from the Battery City fund downtown for building affordable housing, he promoted inclusionary zoning, and he recently announced a partnership between private foundations, banks, and the government to build affordable housing.
It's not something you do by fiat; it's not something that the government can or should order. It just doesn't work that way; it can't be mandatory.
I think that what Mayor Bloomberg is showing is that if you put your mind to it, when you're flexible, when you're willing to negotiate, and take into account the interests both of the tenants and of the people who are seeking to build the housing, you can accomplish great things. In addition, he has also been right there negotiating to extend Section 8 housing for people, in their negotiating to convince landlords to stay in the Mitchell-Lama program. You can't put people in who have taken a deal twenty years ago and simply change the rules. He knows that. But he's been in there, offering incentives, trying to get them to do it, and I think he's been very successful and I think that's what we need to be doing.
Jessica Lappin: I think it does matter not just the affordable housing we create, but working in this war of attrition to save what we can. And I think that is an important component that the city should be looking at moving forward. For example, if the city offered low-interest loans to families on Roosevelt Island and enabled them to purchase those apartments, we would be saving a thousand units. We should keep people in this city and we should stop this hemorrhage. To lose a thousand units of affordable housing, that means we have to build a thousand more just to stand still. I think that's important.
Q: And our next question is about the MTA. For those of you don't know, the MTA is currently run by a board, which has several members appointed by the mayor and the majority of members appointed by the governor, so it is controlled by Albany. The question is, are you in favor of the city taking over the MTA?
Joel Zinberg: The MTA was formed several years back by merging several different transit authorities. And I'm not sure that the city taking over is necessarily a solution. I do know about one thing that very easily can be done to improve the MTA. What the MTA has done is maintain separate structures back from the old days when it was four different agencies. You have four duplicates on many different aspects of their administrative staff. You just don't need it, it's wasteful, and you could save tremendous amounts of money by eliminating that. I just don't know that having the city run it. It covers a much broader area that just New York City is necessarily a solution. Aside from which, it's a state agency and it may be out of our hands under in any event.
Jessica Lappin: I imagine this question has grown out of frustration from some people in this room who are feeling that the MTA is one of the most unresponsive agencies known to man. And it's really unbelievable.
When people protest simple things they're completely unwilling to take any input from the public. And I don't know I haven't really thought much about the city taking over the MTA. There are some things that trouble me – keeping more than one set of books, raising fares, cutting service, not really giving the people who live here a say in how the agency is run. I want to note that there's going to be a Transportation Bond Act on the ballot that impacts MTA and their future projects, particularly the Second Avenue subway, but other projects across the city and the state as well. And if you are in favor of the Second Avenue subway and other infrastructure enhancements to MTA then I would urge you to vote yes on the Transportation Bond Act in November.
Q: How would you manage health care in New York City?
Jessica Lappin: Well, I'm not a provider, and we have one here I'm sure he's going to talk about his ideas. But I have tried to find ways to bridge the gap. I think there should be universal health care in this country. I think that there should be universal health care in this country. Until that happens, until the Constitution mandates that we provide our citizens with care, for me, that's part of what being a Democrat means, is taking care of people who should have access to health care and not leaving our poor and our seniors to lie ill and die in their homes and on the street.
I have tried to find creative ways working with the community to bridge the gap. The city is somewhat limited in what they can do, by offering free mammograms to those without health insurance. Working with neighborhood health last year when we were getting panicked calls from seniors during the flu vaccine shortage with people who were afraid that they wouldn't make it through the winter, finding a way to get almost all of our seniors their shots. I've tried to find creative solutions to a really difficult problem.
Joel Zinberg: The problem of health care in New York is kind of a microcosm of the country. I think a good example of misguided attempts by the current City Council is the Health Reform Act they recently passed by overriding the mayor's veto. And this was termed by an editorial in the New York Times as such chop a block solution for local governments of what is indeed a national problem.
The council decided they were going to require... they start off with a very broad idea then they finally narrowed it down to large grocery stores and... they were going to require them to provide health care. I submit, and I think the Times agrees, that, number one, it's probably pre-empted by federal legislation. Number two, it's just a bad idea. A single locality cannot mandate something, then it puts itself at a tremendous disadvantage.
What we need to do in health care is we need to be innovative, we need to, for example, my idea for reforming Medicaid utilizing our resources so that we can save that $500 million and then actually use the $500 million for things like hiring more teachers, for firefighters or police, or, heaven forbid, letting people actually get health care with that $500 million rather than throwing it out the window. I think you also have to look seriously in involving the community in breast cancer screenings. I have done— I didn't just arrange for breast cancer screenings, I was there, I performed it as a public service, and I've done it for ten years. I ran the breast clinic at the city hospital. I was trauma surgeon at a city hospital. I know about disaster planning. This is something you need someone with real-world experience to approach.
Q: Next questions is very much a neighborhood issue. What are your positions on the 91st Street marine transfer station?
Joel Zinberg: I have publicly and repeatedly said that I am against reopening the 91st Street marine transfer station in any form. I am very concerned that we have heavily residential community, we are talking about retrofitting and doing construction on a station which sits immediately adjacent to the Asphalt Green Recreation Center, where thousands of children go every week for recreational purposes. We are talking about a road that bisects that center. I am against opening it in any form.
Now, I think here is an area where I am clearly different from my opponent. She has said on several occasions including the September 7 debate, on her Web site, and in her answers to Citizens Union as reflected in their primary voter guide, that is OK with her if they open that station as a recycling center.
I think that gives you no advantage and gives you all of the disadvantage. Because you still have to do construction. You still have an active road; you still have trucks on the street; you still have snarled traffic; you still have pollution; and you still have a station that endangers our kids. So I am against it. And I can't not figure out why she is not.
Jessica Lappin: I am happy to have an opportunity to clarify my position, which maybe you have misunderstood, which has been consistent with that of the community. The city has been overburdening communities throughout the city unfairly through this current plan, which is in place. And I think the next solid waste management plan has to address that. The answer is not putting a garbage station in the heart of a densely populated residential neighborhood and a public park.
The mayor, for some reason, is dead set on opening a garbage station on 91st Street. Working with the community, I testified at City Hall, I helped organized rallies and letter writing campaigns, and we convinced the chairman of the sanitation committee and the majority of the City Council that we were right.
Unfortunately, when the land use application came up for a vote and the City Council turned it down, which would have ended this project, the mayor vetoed the bill and said we have to have a garbage station there. And in that time frame, the Gracie Point Community Council executive committee, Asphalt Green, and the speaker of the City Council all worked together to come up with a potential compromise to help negotiate with the mayor a plan that would be less devastating and that involved recycling.
That hasn't worked. We are back to square one. Community council is no longer supporting that position. They are currently filing papers to litigate this matter. When this comes up next term, if I am in the City Council I am going to do whatever I can to defeat the mayor because we can not, should not, have a 24 hour a day, six day a week commercial and residential facility in the heart of our residential community.
Q: How will your past experience define your work in the City Council and give you an advantage as a member?
Jessica Lappin: I have worked in this community over the last seven years as a volunteer, as a senior level staff person at the City Council, as Gifford Miller's district chief of staff working on the ground with tenants, neighbors, seniors, community activists, and transportation advocates to improve our quality of life and to tackle the issues that are important.
When it comes to education, I am in the schools, I visit them twice a year, I meet with the principal, I go to the PTA meetings so that I can hear what the issues are and help to address them.
When it comes to working on transportation issues, I meet with transportation advocates, whether its discussing the Second Avenue subway and discussing how that is going to impact the community and how we move it forward or pushing for bus rapid transit on First and Second Avenues. I have been the community, on the ground, and will be an effective advocate, and hit the ground running from day one.
Joel Zinberg: As I said before, when you hit the ground you have to know which direction you are running in. And if your only perspective is that you've worked for a politician for seven years and you have never been in the real world, I would argue that that is not the appropriate perspective, it's not the perspective of your constituents. When I say real world experience, it is not simply an abstraction. It is not simply a slogan. It is a prerequisite for knowing what is important and what is not important.
So when I talk about health care, it is because I worked in a city hospital for ten years, I ran a breast clinic there.
When I talk about a disaster plan, it is because I was a trauma surgeon for 10 years at a City Hall.
I know what it is to deal with emergencies and those kinds of situations. When I talk about Medicaid, it is because I had that experience.
When I talk about the Second Avenue subway, it is because I ride the Lexington Avenue line and I know that the Second Avenue line probably won't be built in any of our lifetimes whether the Bond Act is approved or not. And we need to improve the Lexington Avenue line now.
When I talk about education, it is because I have been a professor at Columbia Law School and a professor at Mt. Sinai and Columbia Medical School, and I have four-year-old daughter who will be attending public school next year. Because you see some candidates have actually thought about where their daughters are going next year and they have spoken with their wives about it.
Joel Zinberg: This November 8th, New Yorkers who living on the Upper East Side in District 5 have a choice. I think it's a crystal clear choice. They can continue the progress that New York has made under the Giuliani and Bloomberg administrations. They can do it by reelecting Michael Bloomberg. They can do it by electing council members who will work with him. And not toe the party line and work reflexively against him.
They can elect someone who has real world experience. Or they can elect someone whose sole experience and sole qualification is that they worked as a political aide. They can elect someone who has innovative ideas, thinking outside of the box. Someone who wants to save $500 million in Medicaid fraud and abuse. Someone who would like to improve the Lexington Avenue signaliing line so you have greater capacity now while we wait for the Second Avenue Subway line to be built. Or you can elect someone who repeats the same old tired nostrums that we have heard for years and years, the same sound bites. They can elect someone who is independent, who is not afraid to say what he believes regardless of which party is involved. Or they can elect somebody who is the product of a political machine. They can restore integrity and two-party balance to the council. Or they can continue business as usual.
I offer a fresh alternative to the council, which is dominated by poliiticans who have little private sector experience. They live in a hermetically sealed world, which I think destroys their perspective. They are more concerned with debating national and international issues, than addressing local problems. They are more concerned about their own political advancement than with the interests of their constituents.
I think Michael Bloomberg said it best when he endorsed me, and I will quote him; "I know that district 5 needs someone like Dr. Zinberg who has years of real world experience to offer. His many years as a surgeon, lawyer, and professor and volunteer in the community make him exceptionally well qualified for the City Council. He continues to impress me with original and innovative ideas. This November 8, please vote for Dr. Joel Zinberg who will be my partner in continuing to move this city forward."
This November 8, please vote for a fresh perspective. Vote for someone with real world experience. Vote for a change. Thank you.
Jessica Lappin: It's been a pleasure to be here, talking about my record in the community, tackling the issues that I think are important. And there a couple we can get to.
I want to discuss briefly part of what makes this city special, is that it is the cultural capital of the world. The City Council has historically been a defender against the mayor's repeated attempt to cut funding for our parks, our libraries, for our cultural institutions, not just the Met and the MOMA, but smaller institutions like the York Theater and the Turtle Bay Music School, that make this city special. I think it is important for the next council to continue to stand up to the mayor and to do that.
On public safety: we are the safest large city in America and we have to keep it that way. I am very proud to have been endorsed by the police union, the detective, and the firefighters because I have proved that I am dedicated to public safety.
And I am proud to have received the endorsement of our Congresswoman Carolyn Maloney, or State Senator Liz Kruger, of Assemblymember Bing and Granis, the League of Conservation Voters, National Organization for Women in New York City, because I have shown that I am an independent voice for progress and reform, willing to tackle the issues, to stand up, to speak out when its important and necessary. The New York Times said that "steely resolve, dedication and energy" that would serve the residents of this district well. And I hope that on November 8 that I can count on your vote and your support.


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P.J. Carlesimo Says Nets' 2-Year Plan 'Not Totally Realistic'
NEW YORK (CBSNewYork/AP) -- P.J. Carlesimo thinks the Brooklyn Nets' goal of winning a championship within the next two years is "maybe not totally realistic," though he believes they are a contender in the Eastern Conference.
Carlesimo went 35-19 as interim coach after Avery Johnson was fired in December, but the Nets told him he wouldn't return the day after a Game 7 loss to Chicago in the first round. He is working on ESPN as an analyst through the rest of the playoffs.
"Everybody starts the year saying we want to win a championship. Brooklyn has more reason to say that than a lot of the other teams in the league. I still would not call them one of the favorites," said Carlesimo. "I wouldn't put that on whoever is lucky enough to get the coaching job."
The Nets finished 49-33 in their first season in Brooklyn. They haven't hired a new coach, and Carlesimo said whoever gets the job will take over what he believes is one of the best teams in the league because of the opportunity to win right away.
"Having said that, the expectations to win a championship in two years, that's a heavy load for anybody, not just for Brooklyn. But I don't know if that's realistic the way the roster is right now," Carlesimo said Thursday on a conference call.
"I wouldn't say that team cannot win a championship, because we thought we could this year if things broke a little better for us. But if that's on your plate that you need to win a championship in two years, I think that makes it a little challenging."
Owner Mikhail Prokhorov said after buying the team in 2010 his goal was to win a championship within five years. The Nets made a big leap up the standings this season after they hadn't made the playoffs since 2008, but further improvement will be difficult. They have five players scheduled to make at least $10 million next season - four of them are under contract for two more years after that - so it will be difficult to add pieces.
The Russian billionaire has shown a willingness to spend, but not the patience to improve gradually. The Nets were 14-14 when he fired Johnson, who had been Eastern Conference coach of the month in November.
Carlesimo thinks Prokhorov has a team capable of winning 50 games, but not one that he would consider a favorite for the title.
"I also think the expectations are maybe not totally realistic, but you'd rather have that from your owner, and then he's got the wherewithal to back it up," Carlesimo said. "That's his goal. We talked about that from day one. He doesn't make any bones about it. He doesn't want to have a nice team, he doesn't want to just sell tickets in Brooklyn and make the team competitive. He wants to win an NBA championship, and as a coach you can't ask for more that. So if what comes with that is a short leash, well, so be it."
Carlesimo, who previously held head coaching jobs with Portland, Golden State and Seattle/Oklahoma City, said he would be interested in remaining in TV but was only committed to doing it through the postseason and would consider a coaching job if he had an opportunity afterward.
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Hazel Court passed away Tuesday at the age of 82. She starred in Hammer Studios' groundbreaking The Curse of Frankenstein as well as several of Roger Corman's Poe flicks – Premature Burial, The Raven, and The Masque of the Red Death. She also starred in Dr. Blood's Coffin. Additionally, she did a lot of TV work in things like Alfred Hitchcock Presents, Boris Karloff's Thriller, and The Twilight Zone. Her last role, that I am aware of, was an uncredited part in Omen III: The Final Conflict.
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I was a little disheartened to receive my first rejection e-mail from an American literary agent yesterday. Not disheartened I received one but, rather, I received it less than ten hours after submitting it to said agent. I had been told it could be anything between 4-12 weeks to receive a reply, given agents are so busy. Given this agent works for a top U.S. agency I therefore had my suspicions.
To be fair, at least I received a response. Some agents state they will only contact you if they are interested in your work, otherwise you are left hanging in suspense until you eventually give up hope, assume the worst, and move on. I was prepared for rejection, it's part of the process, but not quite so soon. Was this some sort of a world record? Were my sample chapters really that bad?
Or had the agent even bothered to read my submission? Given the five hour time gap between where I am and the Big Apple, it appeared she had dropped everything and spent her working day reading the query letter, synopsis and 50 page sample of an unknown Northern Irish unpublished author. High powered meetings were rescheduled and working lunches cancelled for little old me.
Her rejection e-mail offered little in the way of clues. I wasn't named and it's bland, generic quality suggested it was a standard automated rejection. It offered no feedback, stating I wasn't the right fit and something about her heavy workload. I sighed, added it to my newly created rejection e mail folder and went to bed, the excitement of the last few days a distant memory.
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I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that Alchemy was 'the real deal' within reality to obtain the ultimate knowledge wherein I could finally obtain 'the truth' and be enlightened through knowledge and information.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to justify the lives of suffering and 'misfortune' as 'lessons to be learned' wherein we had to first reach our lowest bottom to then rebirth from the ashes like a phoenix, and in this allowing me to use all knowledge and information as myths and gnostic meanings in order to make sense of life, without ever pondering that life has always been here as myself, as my physical body that I used and abused in order to obtain some 'higher knowledge' that could lead me to 'the ultimate power' as eternal life, which I now see, realize and understand cannot in any way exist as a piece of information at all.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to indulge in the 'spiritual entheogen exploration' wherein I believed that seeing the patterns on everything and dancing on the walls was really being seeing life moving and dancing for me, which I had kept as a memory that I didn't want to 'let go of' because of how wonderful if was.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was special because I could see all of these patterns, figures and energetic experiences that I have defined as 'blissful,' while having no idea whatsoever to what it actually implies to Live, which has nothing to do with any symbol, any pattern, any thought, any feeling or emotion – but self, here, stable as the I that stands aligned as a physical being that is no longer crucified by knowledge and information as the mind's experience seeking 'life' in knowledge and information generating experiences that are finite and induced just like any other drug-related enlightenment.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to ever believe that the truth of reality could only be accessed through knowledge, information or chemically induced experiences wherein everything that I saw was only myself, my own mind and in no way was I actually 'being here' as the actual realization of who I am as one and equal as life, but it was only a temporary mind-experience that lead me to seek further into knowledge and information, missing out the basic point which is: not having to 'seek' something outside of myself to live, but rather stopping the constant thinking, believing, perceiving, mind chatter and be here, breathing, being still yet self directive which is what I always overlooked when it came to seeking 'enlightenment,'
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to seek enlightenment as a way to evade taking Responsibility for myself, my world, my reality because I thought that through my own purification, I would have an 'easy-access' to life, eternity and all the blissful experiences I sought – never taking into consideration the totality that is self-here as one and equal, but only minding my own business, only being concerned about 'my' experience only, which is the ultimate form of selfishness and self-interest that all-seeking spiritual people are currently perpetuating and feeding as themselves.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become obsessed with alchemy, its symbols, its illustrations and the depiction of the 'majesty' of life after walking a process of self-purification from the nigredo, to the albedo to the rubedo which is what I sought to be and become 'no matter what,' wherein I neglected at all times the actuality of the world that is here, wherein billions are having no means to eat – yet there I was, wanting to 'ascend' and be a super-consciousness being that could 'the pattern of life' which was only the patterns of consciousness itself as my own mind, reminding me that I have enslaved life to a pair of figures and symbols in an attempt to live.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to become infatuated with knowledge, believing that 'I was on to something' and I was 'this close' to 'get it' wherein the chemical marriage implied that I had to fulfill a 'journey' in my life that was related to higher knowledge, higher understanding that made 'me' special and 'unique' because I felt as if it was 'calling me,' when in fact, it was all self induced and learned from examples in popular culture, just like from Jodorowsky and other 'masters' that I would read in order to make 'my own religion' based on personal self-interest to 'be one with God'
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to seek God in patterns that I could see with my physical eyes, seeking god in the 'abject,' seeking god in Hebrew words, symbols, alchemical terms and trying to find a meaning to life, without ever realizing that life has no meaning but is and exists in itself –
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to deposit my attention to 'wonderful words' that would mean something 'too cryptic' for me to understand, which made me want to understand and study more to be this 'erudite' in the matter, which would apparently make me 'more' than myself which is how intellectualism operates: the more you store as knowledge and information, the more 'valuable' you are in a system where life has been sold in the name of money, which provides enough 'power' that creates self-importance.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that my life was being 'tested' by life itself to see whether I could find and get all the clues to 'get to god/ life/ eternal life' which is how I became rather obsessed with numbers, religions, alchemy, gnosticism, tarot and anything that could 'guide me' to understand who I was and what I was doing here, following a self-importance journey to 'enlightenment' that only existed in my own head, feeling like John Nash having an entire conspiracy in the head, watching Pi and the Holy Mountain wherein I thought I could find 'the meaning' to it all.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that the symmetry and composition in a work of art was pointing out that I was trying to 'give myself messages through images/ drawings' which is nothing but the ultimate mindfuck that I participated in and created for myself, wherein I believed that I was drawing out my past lives and pointing out to me 'the road to follow' in this lifetime, which is nothing else but the product of knowledge and information that I used in order to make myself special, 'unique' and somehow more 'powerful' than the rest of the mortals because of having this 'unique' fascination with 'all things divine' which was only me in my mind seeking some grand entertainment to evade my responsibility in the world, evade actually planning a physical tangible practical living plan that I could use in order to LIVE in this physical reality, but instead being planning 'who I would be' once that 'I've reached the ultimate step of enlightenment' on Earth.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that smoking weed in any way was 'opening consciousness' and allowing me to 'see more of reality' which is one of the justifications I used to not give it up at the time.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that all bits of experience, all people, all events had a meaning in the puzzle I was busy building as my 'spiritual journey,' without realizing or even wanting to accept that I had created it in my mind all the way, and I was just giving more attention to that which 'fascinated me,' rather than toward that which represented facing myself, facing my own responsibility and getting to know my own mind as the real creator of this extensive mindfuck.
I realize that I used and abused my physical body in the name of seeking 'life' outside of itself as knowledge and information, which proves to what extent we have never even questioned the fact that we are not even aware of every breath that we take, of every single piece of the Earth that we consume in order to continue living and the processes it goes through in ourselves, IN our own physical body – it is ludicrous, yet we are here and walking the process to stop all mind-curiosity toward 'elevated/ higher/ drugged knowledge' that has had In No Way any consequence to life.
I realize that my initial 'Love for Knowledge' as philosophy, as the desire to 'know more' was merely self interest, and that my knowledge became my own cross to bear of which I now take Self-Responsibility for, because I am realizing the simplicity of who I really am here as the physical body that breathes and is able to exist without experiences.
I commit myself to share my process with anyone that is currently 'in the journey' to enlightenment or any other form of spiritual endeavor, to share with them how I have realized the mindfuck that it all was while abusing the physical body, the physical reality and neglecting the actual problems on Earth while seeking my personal satisfaction fueled by chemicals, thoughts and experiences that only made 'one' special, while disregarding the rest of the world as equally HERE as ourselves.
I commit myself to establish myself as the physical body to ensure that I am no longer bound to the memories of that which I perceived as blissful as all the experiences induced by chemical reactions that I equated to 'god' and 'enlightenment,' which would have been rather addictive if I had not stopped right away – thanks to Desteni because that's the only way I realized what I was in fact doing to myself.
I commit myself to expose the fact that no knowledge, no special gnostic information, no alchemic process will create LIFE as Life is already HERE as each one of us, wherein all that we have done is veiled it through further knowledge and information, instead of realizing it as who we are, here as our very physical body that is not bound to the mind's processes to exist.
I commit myself to expose the desire for enlightenment as self interest as that continual desire to be 'more than' who we already are here as physical beings.
I commit myself to continue walking my process of writing, applying Self Forgiveness and Self-Corrective Application to ensure that all knowledge that I had used to define life is purified and equalized as Self, wherein there is no trace of greatness or 'grandeur' existent within and as myself, but actually walk the process to let go of this energetic fascinations that I had been so keen toward.
I commit myself to reveal how no enlightenment or spiritual endeavor creates an actual physical change in the world that is visible to ALL or creating any form of best for all outcome, but is merely self interest linked to money as that state of 'happiness' and 'bliss' that can only be obtained as an experience whenever your stomach has enough food, your body is properly hydrated and your environment is safe and secure from 'the evil' in this world that is created ever moment that positivity is sought and pursued in this world.
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51 thoughts on "Life goes on."
One of my favorite TV shows was Northern Exposure and I watch it now on dvd. One of the characters, a crusty old lady name Ruth Anne who ran the general store always had poignant things to say. The last time I watched she reminded me "life can turn on a dime but somehow we muddle through it."
So, Danny, you're not alone when you muddle along….
Take heart.
Thank you for sharing this with us. You've articulated the grieving process in such a comprehensive way that I'm saving it for the next time I need it….it's a great testimonial and reminds me that I am not alone in this process. And that you aren't, either.
dearest Danny. Beautifully expressed and written. "so our sadness has been ironed into us, a layer of who we are" is profound. My heart goes out to you and Jack. I was just thinking about you this morning, wondering how you were doing, when I saw the post on facebook. You will and are clearly surviving, and there's no doubt that it will suck for a while, and often. I'm so glad you're writing about your feelings and sharing. (I know that's one thing you and I have in common, we express.) I see a another book in your future. this one about grief and recreating one's life. Save a chapter for me, dear man. xo
Going through a big loss myself, I wrote a poem. I hope it touches you, for I have been keeping you and Jack in my meditations.
How hard it is to get away
from loaned places- a corner
of a heart,
a sliver of a smile.
However carefully I keep
my mind serene,
the small easy attachments
curtail my heavy steps-
the sprinkling of sweet rain,
the silver of moonlight.
Shreds of my sorrow hang
from the clothesline,
from the trees,
fluttering in the wind
like prayer flags
in the mountains.
Christina Trevino.
Thank you for introducing thousands of us to your beautiful Patti through EDM and your books; we would never have known of her uncommon grace without you. Thank you also for continuing to inspire through your words. Peace and love to you and Jack Tea, your families and your friends.
Oh your words are so sadly poignant – soul searching, the meaning of life, the inevitability of death, the faith in the unknown. Loss to the extreme, and yet there is Jack, there is today, and yes a tomorrow – life does go on, even when We are no longer here, Lessons learned, doors closed others opened, Dan P is very wise – time will tell where you are led – there will be more joy and life – change is inevitable – and you are a wise man, still very blessed – thank you for sharing and reminding us every day matters –
And I love the cookie jar 😉
Oh Danny. There is love and air and breath, silence, wonder, healing, movement, trial, error, everything all at once. This life hurts sometimes but we get through, we work our way through. We morph. I am so sorry, I have no idea what I would do without my David. Love Jack fierce. Love those dogs. Love you and accept how it feels to be you. And keep drawing. Everything.
Thank you for sharing your grief in such an articulate manner. You describe so well the process of living with loss….I'm saving it for inspiration for the next time I need it…..I pray for peace for you and Jack, acceptance and release.
Maybe a trip to Hawaii is in the cards? Why not take some time to see those distant friends and beaches?
When I think of you and Patti I think of Rock, Paper, Scissors.
Rock–you enjoyed the rock stars and you were each others rock.
Paper–so much to share in drawings, and letters and stamps –all on paper…and the Wallpaper story that featured you both.
Scissors–the master editors–to share so elegantly with a cut out and re-creation.
Love to you and your continuing adventures..
so touched by this.
What a perfect place to have Patti still in your lives. She provided the cozy comforts, the warmth and the sweetness at the end of your day. It is hard to think of you and Jack without her, but she is with you in Jack and in your memories every day. All of us are sending you love to lift you both so that you may not feel so alone. Share your stories with her, continue to tell her you love her. Make yourself cry when you have to, and then grab the dogs, Jack and your friends to ride with you on the new road your lives have taken. Really, that jar IS perfect. Andy
Sometimes, it can be difficult but life surely does go on after loss and it's how we choose to continue on our life path that really counts. Well wishes continue for you and Jack ~
Btw, cute cookie jar!
Your thoughts, your words are so deeply moving, Danny. I share your tears but in you there is such a great strength, a great dignity, a mission to be accomplished that comes through even in the lowest of times. I do believe your Patti will always be with you and Jack.
As SARK puts it, you are an amazing "human bean". My heart goes out to you as you struggle to find what your life will be without Patti. Your stories, your writing, your art, and all that you share is a precious gift that I, and so many others are extremely grateful for. I don't know you personally. I have a once removed connection to you, sort of . . . I know Roz of Minneapolis, and she often talks about your work as she gets her visual journal collective students to sketch in their journals.
Anyway, I send you healing and love as you continue on this journey of life.
Gratefully yours,
Patti is around you, saying, "draw your way through, onward"–for Jack and the future grandchildren and for all of us out here hurting in our own stories.
Life is terrible and wonderful simultaneously. That's what makes us crazy, and makes us keep looking around the next corner.
Danny, your loss has touched us all. I feel like we are all connected by this tiny thread and we all feel like we have actually known her too. Through your sketches and books. You have so perfectly expressed what so many of us have felt or fear we will feel in the future. I will hug my Jennifer a bit tighter today, 10 years into her disablility. I will try to not feel tired and put out as I deal with the difficulties of the day in the disability. I will keep this post, tucked away, for those days when I need it. You are in our prayers.
Dearest Danny, I dont write enough hear, I leave that to only special things and todays one of them. I'm 62 now lost my last parent just six years and do not have any other family members now its just me
I have moved on but theres always an emptyness there as you walk your path of life. Your feelings now are good for you for you have a handle on those feelings instead of not letting yourself have any feelings at all .Take care my dear friend,and just wanted to let you know that what your feeling is just a part of loving someone and its okay to carry them with you because of this love.
Dear Danny,
Your words have touched me deeply. First, thank you, for having been so open all this time. You have no idea how profound your courage in life and in art (one and the same, as you have always taught) has touched me. First from one tiny book with giant wisdom, Everyday Matters followed by Creative License which I'm reading now…and reading your blog.
I'm amazed at how much strength one human being possesses and then chooses to share.
I've said it before and I want to say it again: I wish the best for you and Jack during this most trying time. I know what you mean when you said "Why can't the universe just leave me the fuck alone?" and like d.price it made me laugh, too.
Sometimes, it's all a human being can do…
Thank you, thank you, thank you, Danny Gregory.
I came here this morning and read your sad news. I am so sorry. Today is the "born day" of my son who died 12 years ago. He would have been 28 today. I remember thinking when he died that I could not believe that traffic was still moving. This is such a loving tribute to the woman who added life to your days and I will pass on the best advice I got back then…cry until you quit, grieve any way you need to and tell anyone who tells you different to go to hell! And while I believe that every occurrence builds character, when do you get to have enough character? soft touches, well spoken words, and space when you both need it is what I wish for you today and the days to come. smooches from the Land of Enchantment
I'm devastated by your news. Via your books, you three have become a part of my life. Bless you Danny & Jack; you are in my thoughts constantly. And Patti, wherever you are; thank you!
"Huil maar niet
ik ben niet echt dood, moet je weten,
het is maar een lichaam dat ik achterliet
Dood ben ik pas als jij me bent vergeten"
(Bram Vermeulen)
"Don't cry
I'm not really dead, you know,
it's just a body I left behind.
Dead I will be only, when you will have forgotten me"
Barbara Luel (Brussels, Belgium)
D. Price is very wise, I'd go and hang out with him on his beach. In the mean time, keep on keeping on, there's no hurry to find out what's coming next.
How beautifully you phrased all of these thoughts. I just love that Patti's remains are in the cookie jar–somehow, from things you've told us about her, I think she'd be so smiling to know that.
You sound like a really good, thoughtful, loving dad, and Jack has a wonderful role model to learn from in terms of life's adversities and how to respond to them with dignity and grace. It really is so true that it's not the things that happen to us in this life, but how we handle the things that happen to us in this life that speaks volumes about who we are as people.
Jack is one lucky young man to have had you and Patti to help shape his world. Poignant, honest post.
God bless……..
Danny…Isn't it amazing how, by going through horrific times, you learn the process, and you know the steps you have to take to get to the other side? You also understand more than most, even if you HATE it, that those times bring a richness and insight that others can't begin to grasp. What you and Patti and Jack have done to inspire the world is of greatness. I cannot imagine what gifts will come from your unbearable loss. Thank you for sharing whatever that may be. In the meantime, just breathe and take care of you and Jack.
Good thoughts always,
p.s. after an absence from sketching due to a small stoke that left me blind in one eye, I started again, on the day you lost Patti
…and let's not forget that the universe can be a real a**hole sometimes…
((((( BIG HUGS))))) to you and Jack. I am so sad for your loss of beautiful Patti
Love Annde
I have begun to follow your blog, because I have become inspired by your work and it's rawness. This is the first blog I have ever followed. And I'm just catching up to speed, and this is the first full post from your blog I've read, but I have followed your art for a bit longer.
I can't imagine what it feels like to lose someone like you have. I don't know you personally, and you don't know me. And I don't know your friend D. Price, and I don't mean to disrespect their views on the universe. But I wanted to present a different idea than something greater than us peering down, throwing circumstances at us, then kicking back and spectating for sport. I have no doubt your friend's comments were well-intentioned, and perhaps they're correct. But what if the universe had nothing to do with this, because for some odd reason really bad things happen to good people. But the "universe" cared nonetheless, and something greater than any of us grieves with you, and wants you to know this life is temporary, but certain things are not held by death. And while we're trapped in this place of limited understanding, on the other side are eternal days of your talks with Patti , and she's healthy and strong, and the trials of this life only proved to be ways to carry more love into those moments.
Hi Jack, I just found out about your web site from Ken O'Connell. His course on sketchbook creation was truly transformative. My new habit of drawing a bit everyday in my own book is simpler than I had hoped. I am so sorry to hear about your recent loss. I don't know how any of us can go one when the unbelievable happens, but we do. Often times I get up in the morning just because the person who passed would have wanted me to. However, the roller coaster ride of emotions are exhausting so do get lots of rest. Thanks for your wonderful web site, it is filled with inspiration and good tips. Your fan, sandra moreano
Danny; thank-you for sharing the raw emotions of life without Patti. All of us here have been deeply touched by you and your family's lives and our lives are changed too. Many of us cry along with you sharing in the grief of lost ones and lives changed forever. The 'universe' is a tough place to hang out in, but that is our life – yet with the artists of the world this place is a little better, a little kinder and a whole lot easier to live in. Danny, live out each day as best you can, know that there is that world-wide community of people carrying and caring for you, Jack, Joe and Tim. Every day does matter.
I wish you peace.
Only found out today and cried as I read this. So sorry for your and Jack's loss. I'm glad to know you've been able to start drawing again and it's so good that the support of faithful friends and family has helped to empty the void and buoy your spirits.
And, as the grief continues, I hope that the many wonderful memories of your dear Patti will bring much comfort to you all.
Thanks for sharing the picture of the bear cookie jar. It's terrific.
It may not feel like it at times, but she is with you. What a beautiful, talented, courageous and fun spirit was she! How loving and how loved!
Was just sharing your site with someone yesterday, and about how you inspired me. Not having visited for a while, I just came across this.
Praying for you and Jack. ❤
I'm going to start shopping for the "right" cookie jar or tea pot. Your photo made me smile.
And your narration of ups and downs, alone and with Jack and the dogs is one of the wisest, most honest and most helpful (brief) grief guides I've ever read. (And I've read a bunch.)
PS: I don't think the universe "tests" us. What happens happens. It's what we do next that matters.
I'm a big fan of your work and your remarkable book An Illustrated Life. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your partner, Patty. Sending you and your son Jack healing energy and warm wishes…
I haven't been here for quite a while. I just stopped back by today, and want to tell you I am so sorry for the loss of your dear Patti. You are an inspiration to me and many others. You and Jack are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sending love and comfort to you and Jack from here in Brooklyn. Hope you can feel all the good vibes being sent your way from all over. You and your work are important to a lotta people.
Much love,
Every so often I come to the site to see how you are both doing and if there is any news from you. I know you don't know me but just hope you are OK. I believe there are many concerned people like me. With heartfelt good wishes from Pam
Danny. Miss your wisdom, wit and truthfulness. You have been tested, but also gifted. The bonds you shared, the love you had, was richer and more special than most get to experience. I remember those days after the accident vividly. Watching you two pull out of that was still one of the most inspiring experiences I've witnessed. Say those words, not just into your pillow.
Danny…I understand EXACTLY what you are going through right now. I am today, four weeks beyond the moment I came home to find that my wife had taken her own life. Your words captured so clearly the things that I am walking through day by day. I was married for nearly 30 years (on June 7)…I have two grown daughters, 21 and 26. I am an artist by trade and by passion…my wife had begun to discover her creative side in these last years and was an incredible photographer. She had been struggling with multiple chronic conditions, and horrible pain for about 15 years. At last, she could carry it no more…
Know that your work has touched me life. I had also begun doing sketches while in doctors offices…without even knowing you were documenting your journey, and publishing your work. My Mother lost my Dad a year ago, and I found your book, "An Illustrated Life". I gave it to her for her birthday in February, just to try to help her revive her own creative spark. Since then, we've sketched together, and she has a group of her friends interested in the sketch-journal "life" now.
I have some of my recent sketches on my blog, the weekend my wife sent me out of town, so that she might end her physical life. But she still lives and loves…in another place. You can visit, if you wish: http://www.ludstuff.blogspot.com
Thank you, Danny, for your honesty. It helps some of us heal, to know that there are others who struggle…and yet daily choose to fill life with joyful things.
Hi Danny: Today was the first time I learned of you through an interview with Jane on the Running with Scissors website. I am sorry to learn of Patti's passing. Life is joy and sorrow mixed together which you know more about than me.
I am off to look at your group here and am excited to have "found" out about you and your books, etc.
Thinking of you and your family,
Everyday Matters was my daily visit to the web for years not only because I love drawing (and you show the way to take the most of it) but I also enjoyed all your stories about your family and the courage of all you three to live a normal and amazing life. When you decided to spend more time drawing than on your website I really missed my daily meeting with you and I gave up typing your name in google. I don´t know why I have typed again your name today and it´s been very sad to know about your wife…(I´m really sorry about that)… but I have seen in your words how you go on searching for strength in every little detail of our ordinary life. They are not just words. It´s truth. You really show that everyday matters.
Danny, I'm so sorry for your loss. I just happened on your wesbite after a long hiatus. I knew you were taking a break from blogging, so I didn't bother to check it out. Then I come back to sad news. I'm so sorry! My thoughts and prayers are with you.
ahhh shit Danny……
big love to you and your boy.
You are one heck of a human! Inspiring soooo many people and sharing your life! You are just Awsome! Continued success in all that you do.
If something happens you can do something about be happy.
If something happens you can do nothing about be happy.
Dalai Lama said somthing like that on TV, he's probably right?
I'm working on ED in May and 100 dogs! Thanks to EDM group involvment! Thanks again!
This too shall pass. I can relate…I've been there…
Just remember that self-awareness is the key to healing and love outlives us all.
Patti is forever with you.
Keep drawing & living.
A big hug, Bianca
Very touching Danny. You're a good father to Jack. Keep annoying him! He needs you more than ever.
Danny And Jack,
Oh I have been out of touch since you stopped blogging awhile ago. Then someone linked to your site on their blog and was delighted to see you posting again. Then I discover that you are now without Patti. Oh I feel so much for the both of you. I know its been several months now and you are learning how to live again. I was so privileged to know her through your blog. Thank you for sharing so much of your life. My heart and soul go out to you in this new period of your life. I wish I could do more.
With Love,
I had no idea that Patti had passed away. I wish I knew what happened, but I can tell you Danny, I understand those feelings so well. I lost my mother a year and half ago, and everything that she did for my father, I do for him now, plus I have a job. My mom was my best friend, and I really miss her a lot. Those feelings of just wanting to cry, and not really wanting to change anything that Mom and touched, arranged, etc.. is still there. I still have the clothes that my mom was wearing when we took her to the emergency room that night, and her shoes. I have left everything in the linen closet just the way she had it. Everything is still folded the way mom folded them the day she put them away. I know how hard it is to deal with those feelings of intolerance when you are back at work. I still have a hard time with it. Stay as strong as you can because life does go on.
I'm incredibly sorry for your loss Danny and Jack. I first discovered you through your articles on The Morning News documenting Patti's pregnancy and they were a source of comfort and inspiration while my own partner was pregnant with our daughter. this in turn led me to Everyday Matters and I drew as a way of recording my hopes and fears for my own child. When my sister Laura died suddenly this time last year and I turned to journaling again as a way to stay sane in the darkest time of my life. I hope the strength of character that Patti had will be a great source of comfort in the depths of your grief.