「ねぇ、君どこの中学校から来たの?」
「お兄ちゃんでも居るのかな?」
「......ありゃりゃ、怖がらせちゃったかな?」
「おいおい健人、お前女子の扱いは得意だろ?」
「違いますー! 正樹の顔が怖いんですー!」
「あぁ?! なんでここで俺が出てくんだよ!」
目の前で唐突に始まったじゃれ合いに思わず肩を揺らして驚きながら一歩後退して距離を取る......これだからリア充は嫌いなんだ。
「ほら、急に大声を出すから怖がった」
なるべく目を合わせない様にしつつ、目的の人物を探す......もしかしたらもう帰った後かも知れない。
......私はコイツが嫌いだ、酷く羨ましい。
私が持っていないカリスマだとか、自由だとか......可愛くてカッコイイ優しい弟妹だって居る。
「こ、これ! ......これ、を......見てくだ、さ......い......」
似合わない努力をして、親友二人の恩返しになればって頑張ってここまで来たのは良いけれど......衆人環視に耐えきれず、結局モゴモゴとしてる内に許容限界に達してしまった。
家に帰り着いて早々に布団に倒れ込み、枕に顔を埋めて足をバタバタとさせながら自分を罵る......だから私は私が嫌いなんだ。
ブロッサムなら
"Hey, which middle school are you from?" One of the boys asked me.
"Do you have an older brother here?" The other one asked.
"... Am I scaring her?" One of the boys muttered.
"Kenji, you're good at talking to girls, why do you think she's troubled?" Another one of the boys said.
"I bet she's scared of Masaki's face!" The boy that is probably Kenji exclaimed.
"Eh!? Why is it my fault!?" The one that is probably Masaki exclaimed.
I started trembling and took a step back... No, I shouldn't be backing off here... I hate my offline self. Why can't I be like Blossom here...?
"See? She's getting scared because you shouted." The Kenji boy said.
I tried to avoid making eye contact with them, and searched for my target... She wouldn't have gone home already, would she?
I hate this woman so much... I envy her so much.
She has the charisma I don't have, the freedom I don't, and she also has such amazing little brother and sister... And yet, even though she all that I want, that I can't get no matter how much I wish for... She just throws them all away.
"Th-this! Take this!" I shoved the letter I prepared in advance on her, then ran away.
I'm glad I at least put the effort into this though. That I tried doing something to help my best friends... Even if I couldn't withstand the public eye... Even if I couldn't speak... I... Is this my limit? Is this all that I can do?
Once I got home, I buried my face on my pillow and screamed to myself, "Why am I so worthless!?"
... Even if I can't be Blossom while offline, I can at least be her online... Let's login. Let's become Blossom.
Genocide Online ~Playtime Diary of an Evil Young Girl~
ジェノサイド・オンライン 〜極悪令嬢のプレイ日記〜
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/genocide-online-playtime-diary-of-an-evil-young-girl/
Action Adventure Fantasy Psychological
Adapted to Manga Aristocracy Assassins Beautiful Female Lead Cold Protagonist Cruel Characters Dark Depictions of Cruelty Evil Organizations Evil Protagonist Famous Protagonist Fearless Protagonist Female Protagonist Gamers Gods Gore Lack of Common Sense Level System MMORPG Modern Day Murders Overpowered Protagonist Psychopaths R-15 Royalty Ruthless Protagonist Sadistic Characters Sword And Magic Virtual Reality Wars
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