人が家族面をする不快感」
背中から落ちてくる少年が自身の胸の高さまで来たところで肘を腹に打ち付けながら膝で腰を穿ち、首を掴んで壁に投げ飛ばし、震えながら弓に矢を番えようとする少女の胸を勢いを付けて踏み付ける。
彼らの求める近況報告とやらでその行いを全否定します。歩み寄って仲良くなど......そんなものは私には無理です、出来ません。......二人が何かした訳でもない事は理解していますが許せません。感情が、心情が納得しないのです......彼らの顔を見る度に寂しそうな母の顔が脳裏に浮かんで、自分でもどうしようもなくなってしまいます。......たとえ、大元の原因が私自身だったとしても。
「どうです? 私の思いは分かったでしょう? このまま諦め──」
なんだか無性に苛立ってしまいます......尚も言い募る彼女の顔面を淡々と殴打して、殴打しますが......最後に叫びながら再度、私の肩を矢で貫く。肩から噴き出す私の血でさらに彼女の顔が汚れる。
「ゲホッ......近況報告その三。押し掛けて申し訳なく思ってはいる......けれど、それ以外に言葉を交わす方法は思いつかなかった」
そうですか、あの男に挑むような気概でしたか......私だったらどうしてたでしょうね? まぁ関係ありませんし、理解できませんが......私は私の気持ちしか把握できません。予想はできてもそれだけなんですよ、あなた達がどのような気持ちや覚悟で私にぶつかって来ようとも......どれだけ想像してみても......分からないんですよッ!!
少年に括りつけた糸を引っ張って反対側の壁へと叩き付ける......気絶の状態異常のアイコンが浮き出たのを尻目に少女の髪を掴んでその後頭部を地面へと打ち付け、このまま彼女の頭を──
少女の頭を掴んだまま動きが止まる、少年を縛る糸が緩む......頭が脈打つほどに血が上り、視界が赤く染まり狭まる。唇が震え、呼吸が浅くなり、鼓動が早くなる。
『WARNING:心拍数が急激に上昇しています。ログアウト推奨』
視界の端に警告文が出ているのにさえ気付かず、警告文を淡々と読み上げる〝ニコちゃんさん〟の声すら遠くの......誰かの話し声のように現実味がなく......ただ彼女の口元を注視する。
「──おんや? そこにいらっしゃるのはジェノサイダー殿ではありませんか?! 吾輩、歓喜のマッスルポーズ!!」
背後から聞いた事がある男性の声が降りかかり、思わずゆっくりと振り返る......そこにはいつもと変わらず、目に毒な......母が見たなら赤面して卒倒しそうな格好のプレイヤーが一人、己の大胸筋を強調しながら立って居ました。
I then used my shadows to throw the boy high up in the sky, and used the threads to pull the girl closer to me. I punched her face as soon as she arrived, "Fact #4: I'm not comfortable with strangers trying to talk to me as if we were family."
As the boy fell, I hit my elbow against his abdomen, his hips with my knee, then held him by the neck and threw him at a wall. Meanwhile, the girl was trembling, but trying to put an arrow on her bow, so I kicked her belly, "Fact #5: I'm absolutely unable to get along with you two."
This should be enough, right? I answered their question while making it clear that we cannot grow closer, and that I do not want to get closer. I understand that they did nothing wrong, but I cannot forgive them. I can't accept being with them, not when I feel such strong emotions whenever I see their face... Because then, I remember mom's lonely face every time I look at them... Even if I know I was the cause of mom's loneliness.
"You understand it right? So give up-" As I said this, the girl cut me.
I started punching her face over and over again, but she still squeezed up some words in-between each punch, "Fact #2: I was looking... really forward to having... a sister-in-law!"
It was really annoying that she didn't stop talking even as I punched her. Moreover, she pierced another arrow at my shoulder, and the blood that spilled from me fell on her face, making her even uglier, "Fact #3: I'm sorry... to use such a forceful approach... but I couldn't think of... any other way that... could let me... have an opportunity... to talk to you." Of course there was no other way, I purposefully avoided them, ignored them, and made it as clear as possible that there was no relationship between us.
Does that mean she actually had the guts to challenge that man as he tried to teach her how to eventually succeed him in his job? That... It doesn't matter. I don't need to understand her feelings, and don't need to try thinking of what was their exact interaction... It doesn't change my feelings, and it doesn't matter if they tried getting closer, it doesn't matter what I imagine, it doesn't, it doesn't... I don't get it!
I pulled the boy with my threads and slammed him against another wall. I grabbed the girl's hair, and slammed her head on the ground, then-
I couldn't move. The threads binding the boy got loose. My blood was rushing to my head; my heart was beating faster and louder; my vision was getting red and narrower; I was trembling; it was hard to breathe...
<Warning: Heart Rate is raising above safe levels, immediate logout is recommended>
I could hardly comprehend the system warning I heard just now. It felt like such a faraway and quiet sound... Differently from what the girl just said... Those unbelievable words that came from her mouth...
Suddenly though, a voice came from above, "Oh, Genocider! What a delight to see you!"
I looked up, and saw that there was someone jumping from the top of a building, and that would soon arrive here... The Perverted Gentleman was here.
Genocide Online ~Playtime Diary of an Evil Young Girl~
ジェノサイド・オンライン 〜極悪令嬢のプレイ日記〜
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/genocide-online-playtime-diary-of-an-evil-young-girl/
Action Adventure Fantasy Psychological
Adapted to Manga Aristocracy Assassins Beautiful Female Lead Cold Protagonist Cruel Characters Dark Depictions of Cruelty Evil Organizations Evil Protagonist Famous Protagonist Fearless Protagonist Female Protagonist Gamers Gods Gore Lack of Common Sense Level System MMORPG Modern Day Murders Overpowered Protagonist Psychopaths R-15 Royalty Ruthless Protagonist Sadistic Characters Sword And Magic Virtual Reality Wars
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