「お嬢様、荷物が届いております」
学校から帰ってきて開口一番に家令である山本さんからそう言われる。確か今日だったか......忙しくて忘れていた。けど楽しみにしていたのは事実、内心のワクワクを隠して私は応じる。
「わかりました、ありがとう存じます」
そのまま山本さんは一礼して去っていく......さて、私も部屋に戻って準備しますかね!
私こと一条玲奈は日本の華族である一条公爵家の長女です。
家柄に相応しい淑女たれとこの厳しい家庭環境にて育てられてきました。そんな生活は嫌いでしたし、なにより小さい頃から父の私と話す時の道具を見るかのような目が特に大嫌いでした......多分というか確信が持てますけど父も私のことが嫌いだったのだろうと思います、自分で言うのもどうかとは思いますが私はどこかおかしかったですから......。
小さい頃にアリの巣に水をいれたり、虫を捕まえて戦わせたりした経験がある人は多いのではないかと思いますが、私はそれを人に対して、それも躊躇や遠慮、際限が無く行っていました。
今にして思えば人目のある所でやるなんて......と思いますが、そこは若気の至りと言いますか、小さい子供だったのでしょうがないとしか言えません。
そんな私にいつも『普通』を教え諭してくれる母が好きでした。私がやりすぎる前に止めてくれて、『正しい行い』というのを丁寧に優しく教えてくれていまして、何かあったらまず母に相談するように言ってくれました。
今にして思えば、母は一人娘である私の将来が心配だったのだろうなと自分のことながらに思います。
そんな私に転機が訪れたのは小学校に上がってからでした。子供というのは残酷なもので『異物』に敏感です。客観的に見て整った母譲りの容姿に、綺麗な濡れ羽色の黒髪。『みんな』と違うキャラや戦隊物の服や最新の子供服ではなく、ちゃんと1から仕立てられた一目で高いとわかる洋服。
この程度ならまだみんな「すごいね」「可愛いね」で済んだでしょう......ですが私は『普通』ではありませんでした。子供ながらに......いえ、子供だからでしょう、敏感にそこに気付いていたのでしょう。入学からそう時を置かずに、私という『異物』を排除するためにイジメが始まりました。
ですがこの時、私はこれをイジメと認識せずに自分がしてる『いつもの遊び』だと思ってしまったのです。物を隠されれば隠した本人の物を目の前で燃やし、押し倒されたら前歯が折れるまで押した相手を殴り続け、悪口を言われたのなら相手の口に虫を入れ顎を叩き上げ咀嚼させるなど、枚挙に暇がありませんでした。
そんなことが続き誰も私に近づかなくなった頃たまたま職員室前を通りがかった時です。母の謝罪の声が聞こえたのは......なぜ母が謝罪しているのかその時はわかりませんでしたがなんとなく、『自分が悪いのだろうな』と感じたものです。
大好きな母が理由はわからないけど自分のせいで嫌な思いをしている......それだけで悔しくなり立ち尽くしていました。職員室から出てきた母は目の前のそんな私にびっくりしたような表情をして、それから微笑んで――――
『帰ろっか? 』
それから私は『遊び』をしなくなりました。何かあっても淑女らしく微笑み受け流して、決して自分を出さない、自分がおかしいことに気づく年齢になれば尚更その傾向は強まりました。
父はますます私を無機質な目で見てくるようになり母にも辛く当たっていたようですが、当の母が微笑み私を暖かい目で見てくるのでまだ我慢はできました。
ですが、母が癌にかかりそれから数年もせず亡くなると、父はそのまま浮気相手と再婚し、あろうことか腹違いの妹と弟まで連れてきました。『あぁ、このままだと遊んでしまうな』と直感した私は、父の関心がないのを幸いとばかりに屋敷の離れに母の部屋の家具と一緒に移り住みました。
父は腹違いの妹と弟を可愛がるばかりで、私に対する興味などとうの昔に無くしていましたので、何も言ってはきませんでした。
ですが、今までの心の支えであった母がなくなり、自分の中の『異常』と折り合いをつけるのが難しくなるのは死活問題で、こればかりはどうしようもありません。何かないものかと様々な紛争地域や国の刑法などを調べていくうちに、端の方にオンラインゲームの広告があるのが目に付きました。
興味を惹かれるがままに調べていくと、今の私に丁度いいというのと、サービス開始間近というのもあって即購入しました。それが今日届いたのです。
「やっと届きましたね、カルマ・ストーリー・オンライン! サービス自体は昨日のうちに始まってますけどまだ許容範囲内ですね」
カルマ・ストーリー・オンライン、通称『KSO』はプレイヤー自身の行動によってカルマ値というものが変動し、最終的に秩序、混沌、中立の三つの陣営に所属することになる新作VRMMORPGです。所属と言っても具体的な組織や国に加入しない限りなにかしなければならないことがあるわけでもないですが、NPCたちからは犯罪者や聖人の如く扱われたり、施設の利用制限、なれるクラスやなれないクラスなど色々と関わってくる重要な値です。
このゲームは最初から自分で所属する陣営は選べず、カルマ値もプレイヤーがゲームをプレイしていくうちにNPCに対する態度、ゲームの攻略状況、特定の国や組織に対する貢献度などで上下するために、まだ始まりの街周辺から動けてないプレイヤーたちはそのほぼ全員が中立でしょう。
「もうサービス開始から1日以上経過してるし、もしかしたら既に中立から脱してる人もいるかもだけど...」
そしてなにより公式ホームページにて、運営はゲーム内のハッキングやセクハラ行為などの現実の法に抵触しない限り、如何なる言動をも黙認すると書いてあるのがいいです。ここなら『遊び』ができると考えたのが一番の決め手です。
自分の行動次第で自身の立ち位置が変わるというのが、最初から自分の意思など関係なく立ち位置も明白に定められた家庭環境とは正反対であり、自分には酷く魅力的に映ったのもあるし、日頃の鬱憤をリアルではできない手段でゲームで発散してしまおうというわけです。
「さてと、インストールも終わったし早速プレイしましょう! 」
トイレも行ったし水分補給も大丈夫、微かに母の匂いがする気がするベッドに横たわりいそいそと最新型の薄い輪っかのようなヘッドディスプレイを被り、ゲームアイコンを視線操作で選択、そのままログインです。
[My lady, I have received the package.] 
As soon as I came back from school, the first person I met was Yamamoto-san, a butler of my household. If I remember correctly, it's today, huh... I was too busy and had forgotten about it. But in truth, I was looking forward to it and concealed my inner excitement.
[Understood, thank you very much] 
Yamamoto-san immediately leave without saying a single word... Well then, I will also go back to my room and prepare it!
I, Ichijou Reina, am the eldest daughter of the Duke Ichijou's household which is one of Japanese aristocrat families.
I've been raised in this tough family environment and taught adequate manners of a lady that is appropriate for the family. I hate this kind of life since I was a child, especially those eyes, as if they saw a tool when talking to me with the intention of approaching my father... maybe, or should I say, I believe that my father also hates me. I have thought about it myself, but I'm still not sure where did I do wrong....
I think that there are not so many people have had the experience of pouring water to the ant's nest or catching insects and make them fight when they were a child. However, for me, there was no limit of hesitation as well as restraint to do those kind of stuff.
Thinking that I had done it in the public gaze is too bizarre for the current me..., but I can say for sure that it will still be regarded as a youthful indiscretion due to the fact that I was only a small child.
That is why, I liked my mother who always taught me to be {normal} . She will stop me before I overdid it, taught me carefully and kindly about {righteous conduct} , and told me to consult with her if something happened.
When I think about it now, my mother was probably worried about my future while thinking about me, who is her only daughter.
It was after I got into elementary school that I came to such a turning point. Children are cruel and sensitive to {strange object} . A beautiful wet feather-colored black hair that has the same appearance with her mother. Not wearing common {everyone's}  clothes or latest children's clothes, but instead western clothes that was made from the scratch and proved to be expensive at a glance.
While being a child......no, probably because, I, was a child, excluding the time when we enrolled, I noticed that I have started to bully those so-called {strange object} .
But at this time, I did not realized that this was a bullying and thought that it was just {a regular play}  like what I always do. Hiding people's things and burned it in front of them, pushing someone down until his/her front teeth are broken, and if they complained, I will put insects inside their mouth and forced them to chew. There was no free time for me.
Such thing continued on and on until no one wants to get close to me. Then, it happened when I passed the staff room. I could hear my mother apologizing... though, I did not know what she was apologizing for but I felt that {I have probably done something wrong} .
With only that much, I became frustrated and stood still. My mother who just came out from the staff room, saw me right in front of her and surprised. But, she then eventually smiled and said,
{Wanna go home?} 
And from then on, I stopped {playing} . Even if something happened I ward it off with a girlish smile and I never give myself in. As my age grew older and older, I have noticed that I was strange.
My father sees me more and more with cold eyes and seems to always hit my mother harshly. But my mother still endured and looked at me with warm eyes.
However, when my mother suffered from cancer and died after a few years of battling it, my father immediately remarried with his cheating partner and even brought in her daughter and son. My intuition told me, {Aah, if I let this be, I will eventually play with them} , thus I moved away along with my mother's furniture from her room in the mansion. Fortunately, my father was not interested to what I was doing.
My father only doted his step-daughter (little sister) and son (little brother), and had already lost interest in me a long time ago, hence he said nothing to me.
However, it was a life-and-death matter for me. The reason being was, my mother, who used to be the support of my heart, was nowhere beside me and it was difficult to come to terms with the {abnormality}  in me. As I examined the various conflict regions and the criminal laws of this country, I stumbled upon s for online games towards the end.
I got intrigued and investigated it a little bit more, and bought it immediately as it was just right for the current me and the service was also about to be opened.
[It's finally arrived, Karma Story Online! The service itself had just started yesterday but it's still within the acceptable range.] 
Karma Story Online, commonly known as {KSO} , is a new VRMMORPG which the players themselves are the ones who could change their karma value depending their own actions. Then, they will eventually belong to one of the three factions, order, chaos and neutral. Although I said factions, there is nothing that you need to do such as belonging to a specific organization or country. NPCs will be treated as criminals or saints, and there would be important cost for your decision, such as restrictions on a certain facilities, classes that can be picked or cannot be picked, etc.
In this game, you can not select the side you belong to from the beginning. The karma value changes while the players play the game as it relies on his/her attitude toward NPCs, conquest method, contribution to a specific country or organization, etc.
[It's been more than a day since the service started, maybe some people are already out of the neutral faction...] 
And above all, on the official website, it was written that the admins will tolerate any speech or behavior unless it violates the real laws such as cracking or sexual harassment in the game. I think that this place is the best choice for {playing} .
The fact that one's standing position changes depending on one's actions is contrary to my home environment where as my standing position is clearly defined from the beginning regardless of my own intention, thus it has drawn me in as it's an extremely attractive offer for me. It seems that this game is also a way to release all of the resentment and frustration which cannot be done in real life.
[Okay then, the installation has already finished, so let's play right away!] 
As I already went to the toilet and well hydrated, I lied down on the bed which has a faint smell of mother, and excitedly crowned myself with the head monitor which similar to a thin halo. Selected the game icon with eye movement, and logged in as it is.
Genocide Online ~Playtime Diary of an Evil Young Girl~
ジェノサイド・オンライン 〜極悪令嬢のプレイ日記〜
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/genocide-online-playtime-diary-of-an-evil-young-girl/
Action Adventure Fantasy Psychological
Adapted to Manga Aristocracy Assassins Beautiful Female Lead Cold Protagonist Cruel Characters Dark Depictions of Cruelty Evil Organizations Evil Protagonist Famous Protagonist Fearless Protagonist Female Protagonist Gamers Gods Gore Lack of Common Sense Level System MMORPG Modern Day Murders Overpowered Protagonist Psychopaths R-15 Royalty Ruthless Protagonist Sadistic Characters Sword And Magic Virtual Reality Wars
https://ncode.syosetu.com/n7796fc/
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