「......えぇ?」
今ボクの目の前に居る彼女が要求している事──自分自身をグチャグチャに犯して、もしくは何でも良いから命令してというものに対して興味なさげに、困惑した様な声色で対応する。
いったいこれがどういう状況かと言うと、クラスの皆でカラオケ大会をした時に自分の連絡先を聞いてきた女子で遊んでた......ただそれだけの話。
会う度に彼女にポンと百万円をタクシー代として渡し、何も要求はしない......けれどもそれを繰り返し、回数を重ねる毎に自分の反応を徐々に興味なさげにしていく。
遊んでいて話し掛けられても『あぁ』とか『うん』とか、気のない返事ばかりを繰り返していながらお開き、ってなった時には必ず大金をその場で手渡す。
それを五回ほど続ければ、今の彼女みたいに気が狂ってしまうんだよね。
「ねぇ、なんで? なんで私にこんなにも大きな金額を渡すの? 私に気があるならわかるよ?! でもアナタはいつも詰まらなそうじゃない!」
世の中には目に見える見えないに限らず、どんなモノにでも〝
それに気付いたのは幼少期の頃だったかな......母がフィンランド人であるボクは、髪こそ黒色だったけど瞳は深い青色で肌も普通よりも白かった。
そんなボクを見て、周囲の人間達は様々な反応を示した......九条家の跡取りが混ざり物だと顔を顰める者、日本人離れした容姿に惹かれる者、内心の嫌悪感を隠しながらも、ボクの中に流れる九条家の血を求めておべっかを使う者など、本当に様々な人達が居た。
そしてそんな人達はボクの言動にいちいち一喜一憂するものだからもう楽しくて仕方がなくて......気が付けばボクは彼らの
「いや、別に君には何も求めてないよ」
その頃からかなぁ......ボクは世の中にある様々な数値を自らの手で一定の数値に保ったり、わざとバグらせてみたりする事に達成感を覚えるようになっちゃったんだよね。
今だってそう、目の前の......もう名前も忘れちゃった彼女はボクが自らの好感度や不信感を乱高下させたせいで壊れちゃったんだけど、それが何だかとても嬉しいんだ。
(──あぁ、人って殴らなくても壊れるんだな)
そう、再確認できるから......あの日、母が壊れたのは周囲の人間達による値の操作が頻繁的で、纏まりが無かったらなんだと、そう思えるから。
現代社会で生きていくうちに差別なんかは良くない事として教わるけれど、それでも人はそんな醜いモノを簡単に捨てられる生き物じゃない。
特に自分達が知らないモノに関しては酷く排他的になる......内心でそれをどう隠そうともね。
だから百年も下層と上層とで分断されてるんじゃないかなぁ......詳しく資料を見てないから分からないけど。
もはや壊れちゃったままの母の事もどうでもいいしね......あれはボクが何をしても数値が上昇する事はあっても、下降する事はないから。
「あれは......じゃ、ボクはもう行くね」
そのまま呆然とただ涙を流すだけの彼女を置き去りに、ボクは今とても興味がある存在を見付けてそちらへと歩み寄る。
気が付けば、先ほどまで会話していた彼女の事など頭の隅からも消え去っていた。
「やぁ、一条さん! 少し良いかな?」
「......九条、先輩ですか」
うん、いつもと変わらない気のない返事だね......もう慣れっこだし、むしろ安心感すらあるよ。
そのまま首を傾げたままの彼女を人目のない校舎裏へと連れて行く......さっきまでは静かな場所だったんだけど、今はもう人目があるからね。
というか、お昼休みに一条さんはなんで一人であんな密会の穴場みたいな場所に居たのだろう......彼女に限って色恋は有り得ないし。
「それで、用件はなんでしょうか?」
「そうだなぁ......」
気のない返事を返しつつ、無遠慮に彼女の頬に触れ、そのまま滑る様にその綺麗で長い黒髪を掬い上げる。
普通そんな事をしたら怒るか、引かれるか、もしくはこれ幸いとボクを落として九条家の夫人の座に収まろうとするものだけれど、彼女は少しだけ首を傾げるだけに終わってしまう。
何かに呪われた様に、この現実世界では自分を出来るだけ押し殺し、普通なんて詰まらないものに自分を押し込めようとするがあまり、普通から逸脱していく彼女が滑稽で面白くて、それでいて可愛らしい。
「──宣戦布告、かな」
そう、用件を呟いた途端に彼女の纏う雰囲気や目付きがガラリと変わる。
ぱっと見で、見た目には何も変化はない......いつもの様に喪失感に溢れる光のない瞳に、どんな大作映画を見ても感動する事なんてないだろうと思わせる感情の削げ落ちた表情。
......いいや、違う。これこそがボクが彼女を、一条玲奈という少女を気に入っている大きな理由だ。
自身の頬を撫でているボクの手を取り、握り潰すのではと言わんばかりに力を込める彼女の内側に眠るこの凶暴性が最高に素敵だと感じられる。
「やっぱり君は隠すのが下手なだけでさ、ボクと似てるよね」
ここまで自分が思う様に操作できない数値が乱高下しているってだけでもそそるのに、それがボクと似た異常者......現在の社会的正義では受け入れられない人材ときた。
ここまで面白い人も中々に居ないんじゃないかなぁって思うんだよね......だからこそ──
「──本当に一回で良いからさ、君を壊してみたい」
「──奇遇ですね、私も貴方を壊して遊んでみたいと思っていたんです」
だよね、君なら普通の反応は返って来ないだろうなって期待してたんだよね。
「次は全力で殺しに行くから」
「そうですか、今度もまた楽しく遊びましょうね」
まるで想い人と逢瀬の約束をした、初心な乙女の様でいて、熟練の高級娼婦の様な妖艶な雰囲気を纏い始める彼女に思わず笑みが深まる。
普通はサンプルが多くて分かり易いけれど、ボクと同じ異常者は理解も攻略も、本当に難しくて......だからこそ燃えて楽しめるよね。
「「──次は死ね」」
あー、俄然やる気が出て来たなぁ......やっぱり定期的に彼女みたいな子と遊ばないとやってられないや。
"Huh...?" She replied.
It's wonderful, you know? She released a strong killing intent when I talked about something that interested her, but then she instantly became confused again the moment I changed topics.
What caused this was me playing with a girl who asked for my contact information after the class had a karaoke tournament... Just that.
Every time we met, I gave her a million yen for the taxi fee and didn't ask anything in particular out of her... But after doing this a few times, I started losing interest on her reactions.
Even as I played and talk to her, I started giving more and more casual replies like 'ah' and 'yeah', while always giving her a bunch of money once we were done.
After five or so times of this happening, they tend to go crazy like she is now.
"Hey, why!? Why do you always give me such large sums of money!? Is this how you show care!? But then why do you always sound so uninterested!?" She asked me.
In this world, there is an absolute value for anything. Regardless of it being tangible or not.
I noticed it when I was a child. My mother was Finnish, so I inherited some of her traits. Even if my hair is black, my eyes are blue and my skin is whiter than normal.
When seeing my appearance, the people on my surroundings responded in various ways... Some frowned upon the fact that the Kujou family had someone with visibly mixed blood in him; others were attracted by the appearance that looked foreign; others hid their inner disgust... And regardless of what they thought, lots of those people kept on trying to get close to me simply because I am part of the Kujou family.
Those people were always happy to gain my attention and saddened by my actions later on... It was just so fun. Before I realized it, I had started playing with their favorability values.
"No, I don't really want anything from you." I replied.
It was around that time that I started feeling a sense of accomplishment by changing the values of different things in this world with my own hands. To intentionally cause bugs within this system.
Even this girl in front of me... I already forgot her name and she broke down because of my actions that made her favorability go up, then plummet shortly after. I'm really happy with this outcome.
People can break down even without being hit.
This is just a way of me reaffirming this knowledge... Like how my mother broke down because the people around me constantly fiddled with her values in a completely uncoordinated fasion.
Even if discrimination is viewed as a bad thing in the modern society, humans are not the kind of creature that can easily throw away such ugly behaviors.
Especially when dealing with the unknown, people always end up being terribly exclusive, no matter how much they hide those feelings within their hearts.
It's this kind of thing that separated society between the upper and lower layers for the past 100 years... Though I don't know the exact details, since I didn't do much research on this separation.
In any case, I don't care about my mother who is still broken... Because no matter what I do, her values do not change.
"Well... I'm going then." I told the girl.
That girl was stunned and in tears, but I found someone who was more interesting, so I decided to walk up to her.
Before I realized it, whatever it is that I was talking about with that girl quickly disappeared from my head.
"Hey, Ichijouji, how are you doing?" I asked her.
"... Kujou... Senior, right?" She tilted her head.
A reply as casual as usual. Just as expected, and it relieves me that she still behaves like that.
We were at the back of the school's building. A fairly quiet place that not many people go to, even if it's open to everyone.
I wonder why she was in such a secluded place during lunch break... Maybe she was secretly meeting with someone?
"So, what is it?" She asked me.
"Ah, about that..." I started replying.
While starting this reply, I casually touched her cheeks and scooped up her beautiful long black hair and slowly let it slip through my fingers.
Normally, if I do that, the other party will either get angry or be drawn to me. They'll try making use of the situation to become the wife of someone from the Kujou family.
She pushes herself as much as possible within this real world to try looking ordinary, yet can't help straying farther and farther away from it. It's a very cute and funny side of hers.
"A declaration of war." I told her.
As soon as I muttered my business, she started giving out a completely different feeling from before.
Sure, there isn't much change on her at first glance. She still looks to be as emotionless as always even as I stroke her cheeks, but... What are those goosebumps that I'm feeling? Can she use her game skills within reality or something?
... No, that's not it. This is the reason why I like the girl named Ichijouji Reina.
She held my hand that was stroking her cheek and squeezed it. This ferocity that usually sleeps within her, the moments she is able to put it out freely are when she is at her most wonderful state.
"You may be no good at hiding, but you're still just like me." I told her.
She's intriguing because I can't properly manipulate her values. They fluctuate in very abnormal ways, just like mine... She is the kind of human resource that can't be accepted in the current society.
There aren't many other people who are this interesting... That's why...
"I really want to destroy you this time around." I softly whispered in her ear.
"How strange, our interests actually align. I also wanted to play with you and break you up." She replied.
Just as I hoped, I didn't get a normal reaction... It would be really nice if there were some other abnormal people out there that I have yet to meet.
"Then, next time, I'll do my best to kill you." I told her.
"Let's have fun again next time." She replied.
Her smile widened, making her involuntarily start looking very bewitching. An innocent maiden with the allure of a high-class whore.
Normally I have many samples to use as reference, which allows me to have an easy time understanding the best course of actions, but it's much harder to understand and capture people that are as abnormal as me.
"You'll die on our next meeting." We said in unison.
Ah, I'm suddenly feeling quite motivated... I guess I can't enjoy myself fully unless I play with a girl like her on a regular basis.
Genocide Online ~Playtime Diary of an Evil Young Girl~
ジェノサイド・オンライン 〜極悪令嬢のプレイ日記〜
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Action Adventure Fantasy Psychological
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