「どうせ同じダンジョンよ、また合流してやればいいわ」
頬に張り付いた髪を払い除けながら立ち上がり、周囲を見渡してみる。
「はぁ? なに? マリアが心配? ......あのロリガキなら別に放っておいたっていいわよ」
本当に情けない女ね......正義くんと小鞠ちゃんが同じゲームを始めてはしゃいじゃったのは良いけれど、それで私の居場所を半端に奪って失敗して、それで変に懐いちゃって......馬鹿じゃないの?
......半泣きで謝るくらいなら最初から突っかかって来ないでよね。
泣くくらいならこの仮想空間でしか存在できず、アンタと違って現実世界の肉体には干渉できない非対称な存在である私に少しは配慮して欲しいわ。
「は? 自分には無理だから? ......舐めた事を言ってんじゃないわよ、アンタは私だけあって綺麗なんだからもっとドーンと大きな胸を張ってれば良いのよ」
アンタが自分を卑下するって事は私を馬鹿にするって事と同じだからね? ......は? そんなつもりは無いなんて言い訳が通用する訳ないでしょ。
怖いとか言ってないで無駄に縁のでかい眼鏡は外してコンタクトに......あ、 カラコンでも良いわよ?
そして真っ直ぐ背筋を伸ばすのよ、前を見るの。
そうすればおのずと同年代に比べて大きめな胸が少しは目立つ様になるわ。
「は? 可哀想? ......今さら良い子ちゃんぶってんじゃないわよ、アンタの理想が私って時点で取り繕ったって仕方ないでしょ?」
常に違う男を連れ込んでは娘の前だろうが致す母親を持った私って可哀想。
「そう思うだけの愚図がいっちょまえに救われた恩返しがしたいって言うから協力してあげてるのよ? 本人も少しは努力をしなさいな」
正義くんと小鞠ちゃんの実家のお金が目当ての打算ありきとは言え、母親が男を連れ込んで来なくなったお陰で安心して家のお風呂やトイレに行けて、夜眠れるようになったんでしょ?
そんでもって、まるで独立した個人であるかの様に、自分を一人の人間として尊重してくれる他人と会話する楽しさを覚えちゃったんでしょ?
急に最高にいい女である私の様に成れなんて無理難題は言わないから。
"We're still in the same dungeon anyways, so we should reunite eventually." I muttered.
I stood up and looked at my new surroundings after this forceful relocation, but... There doesn't seem to be anything in particular here, aside from one straight road ahead of me, "If I was the only one washed away, I'm gonna write a really long complaint to the devs..." I muttered to myself.
"What do you mean? Worried about Maria? Just leave that brat alone." I muttered.
Really now... She's way too pitiful. Even after deciding to help Seigi and Komari in-game, she decided to just go and take my place halfway through and then... Then she just went and started getting comforted by that small girl.
... And now she is crying and apologizing... That's not it. Don't apologize.
I only exist in this virtual space, so I just want you to be a bit more mindful of that. Let me be myself on the only time I can be... For I cannot interfere with our physical body, or what happens in the real world... It's basically as if I'm an AI living inside my own body.
Don't start getting embarrassed over our own actions! "Are you seriously complaining just about a bit of leg licking? Come on, it's fine. It only happened because you're beautiful. She admired you so much that she was willing to lick your legs."
And now you're self-depreciating yourself, saying that there is no way I'm saying the truth...? As if I have any reason to lie to ourselves! I'm the best version of you, got that!? I'm not going to harm you!
... Don't say it's scary. You can do it. And also get rid of those big round glasses too. Get some contacts, or even colored contacts if you want extra style points.
But more importantly than that. Straighten your back and start looking straight ahead.
... Worried about your breasts standing out? So what if they're bigger than average for our age? You don't need to hide the good qualities of your body! You'll just get more popular with boys once they see how beautiful you are anyways! I bet they'll regret looking down on you once they realize how much of a beauty you are.
"What? Pitiable...? I'm not a good girl so I can't be your idea self? Then help yourself mend what your ideal should be. I can't help you otherwise." Besides... You're the one who thinks of yourself as the most pitiable person possible.
Because of your mom who kept on bringing a new man home each night... Because of the times mom was hurt by those men... Because of the fear of those men attacking you when they were done with mom... And because of the time that the homeroom teacher of our elementary school sexually harassed us.
"I'm cooperating because you want to give something back to them, right? They saved you once, so the minimum we can do is to put an effort to help them, right?" Because if it was not for the help of Seigi and Komari, we would still be openly bullied.
And not only that, she finally stopped bringing men in... We can finally go to the toilet, bath, and sleep at home with a peace of mind... Sure, maybe that is because she wants to paint a good impression on Seigi and Komari. Maybe she is just after the money of their house.
But so what? Doesn't it feel great to have found two wonderful friends that respect you as a person? That look at you as an individual? "You want to pay them back for all their help, don't you?"
"And as always, feel free to be fascinated by the great model that is me." I said while giving a bewitching smile to no one in particular.
Genocide Online ~Playtime Diary of an Evil Young Girl~
ジェノサイド・オンライン 〜極悪令嬢のプレイ日記〜
https://www.novelupdates.com/series/genocide-online-playtime-diary-of-an-evil-young-girl/
Action Adventure Fantasy Psychological
Adapted to Manga Aristocracy Assassins Beautiful Female Lead Cold Protagonist Cruel Characters Dark Depictions of Cruelty Evil Organizations Evil Protagonist Famous Protagonist Fearless Protagonist Female Protagonist Gamers Gods Gore Lack of Common Sense Level System MMORPG Modern Day Murders Overpowered Protagonist Psychopaths R-15 Royalty Ruthless Protagonist Sadistic Characters Sword And Magic Virtual Reality Wars
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