not been forgotten. On the five-year anniversary of their death, the company continues to mourn their loss. Our thoughts remain with their families and loved ones."

Prince's promise

Both mothers seem to be making a conscious effort to control their anger five years on.

"I refuse to hate, but if I were gonna hate anybody, it would be Blackwater and Erik Prince," Helvenston-Wettengel said. "I want Blackwater exposed for who they are, and I want them out of business."

Zovko said she relies on her Catholic faith to control her anger.

In 2007, Prince told CNN he would be willing to meet with Zovko, but 16 months later, no such meeting has taken place.

"He hasn't honored his promise, but I believe he will," Zovko said. "Sometimes I think he doesn't have a heart,but he really does."

Zovko said she wants to ask Prince, "Where are my Jerry's three suitcases with personal things that I have never received?"

Also, she said Prince promised to invite Zovko to Blackwater's headquarters in North Carolina to see memorial stones and trees that were planted honoring the victims.

"That hasn't happened," Zovko said.

Helvenston-Wettengel also said she'd like to meet with Prince. "I'd like to look him in the eye, yeah. I'd say, 'How can you live with yourself?' "

CNN sought a response from Prince about his promised meeting with Zovko. Company spokeswoman Anne Tyrrell said Prince had tried to meet with Zovko in early 2008 but was unable to "due to scheduling conflicts."

Both mothers' sons went to Iraq after careers in the U.S. military.

Jerry Zovko, a former Army