I would sit on the tube on the way home from work and look at the faces of the men and women opposite me and wonder if any of them had ever felt the loss of someone they had never met, the way I did. My IVF had failed and despite being married, I felt alone.
Nilikuwa nikikaa kwenye bomba njiani kurudi nyumbani kutoka kazini na kutazama nyuso za wanaume na wanawake waliokuwa wakinikabili na kujiuliza ikiwa kuna yeyote kati yao aliyewahi kuhisi kufiwa na mtu ambaye hawakuwahi kukutana naye, jinsi nilivyohisi. IVF yangu ilikuwa imeshindwa na licha ya kuwa nimeolewa, nilihisi mpweke.