Im gay but can make myself cum to porn with women, not hard to focus on certain human features and delude yourself.

I can also sleep with women but the issue is trying to have sex with a women as a gay dude is cringey and akward, the women tries being sexy by saying shit kr whatever and makes me laugh my balls off its so stupid.

Gays can bang women but the issue is there's no lust nor desire afterwards to hang around the female.

Im a secret faggot aswell and honestly dont care for being gay, tv is full of lies as to have a gay relationship is very very rare and even then most partners are sex crazed folks.

Wish i could be straight but i try my best to not disturb people, only time i say ik gay is when someone asks if im a 23 yr old virgin. Really hate the gross dumbfucks who wisubto talk about sex experiences irl.

Brother is dating a catholic girl with catholic family, she always talks about sex with my brother or brings up sex and one time asked me why i never dates anyone etc. First defence was saying i never found anyone then i got picked on by them saying i should of found someone by now.

Next i was left in an akward spot, do i want them to think im some skinny white dweeb who cant connect with people irl? Or do i say im a faggot. Well i said im a fag.

Pissed off brothers gf family because i was born gay, even though the parents are alcoholics and their daughter is degenerate asf. Funny how some people keep religous values while ignoring other ones.

One side of the U.S. Would throw me money for calling myself a fag and the other side means your an outcast.

Being gay is a curse. Legit curse. I could bang a women but id have to force myself and i dislike hanging around women as the shit they do is soooo boring. Idk how straight guys hang around women, they're like retarded childern.

Idk. God is the ultimate joker and made me what i disliked. A decade ago when i was 12, i was yelling faggot at people on xbox 360 and now im a faggot