I want us to get where you want the Church to be.  

I just want us to move off the stuck place and see if anything shakes loose.  Engagement, dialogue - they aren't occurring right now.  Stuck waiting for some commission to decide if the Church ever had women as deacons in as powerful a position as male deacons.  The problem is their even thinking we are limited in what can be done today by what was done in the past.  

I want to cause a crack somewhere, so some light can get in.