No, I think God works in mysterious ways His wonders to perform. He has not shared with us his reasons for much of what He has done and it not our place to suggest, as Woody Allen once did, that if He is an omnipotent Being, He must be a serious underachiever.

If by " I have no desire to be a mindless lemming who never has an original thought in her life." you mean you'll do as you please unless and until God Himself sits down with you and explains Himself, I am afraid you are on a very dangerous path which will lead to a quite unpleasant destination.