Good reflection. Thank you. Here's a technique in case anyone would like to "pastoralize" reading material such as this, and turn it into a deeper and examining prayer.  Can certainly also be done with Scripture.

Copy & place the text in an editor. Turn the points over in your mind, and turn them toward yourself using probing questions, and do this with a "presence of God", addressing Him.

Abba, Father: Where have I brought "chaos to my area of the garden"?
How have I given in to the idea (or feeling) that God hasn’t provided “everything I need”?
How have I let myself pine to seek what God forbids for me?  
How have I blown this idea out of proportion thinking that God/His Church is forbidding many things for me?
How have I let my pride convince me that I should be my own God in the little things?
How have I not protected what God gave me to protect, mainly my family?  But also my gratitude, my sense of right and wrong, my sense of divine filiation?
What do I hide from examination?