No matter the details which I apologize for whatever assumptions or things I've agreed with without knowing I do sincerely feel relieved you're OK and have been worried about you for a long time no matter what. I hope you get along ok with your life now. No one is perfect and we all make mistakes in life and we can all only just try to understand and be accepting anyway. I'm sure things will smooth out at some point and you can work your way past this and leave it behind you some day. I hope the best for you and appreciate knowing nothing scary and bad happened to you. It's not all the time you hear that the person is actually ok, I imagine the people who do care for you are relieved as well. Sorry for the he long winded comment.