Having had my first pregnancy end in a miscarriage before thirteen weeks, I would like to say you are not alone.  All the feelings I had before, during, and after that pregnancy came rushing back reading your words.  As far as I can tell, there is no other way but to live through it.  That being said, thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing experience.  While losing a hope like this always hurts, it helps so much more to know that you are not the only one feeling this way.