Add to the pain and self-hate the fact that the bullying often comes from people in "moral authority" who don't just call you fat, stupid, or ugly, but guarantee BY THEIR ADULT AUTHORITY AS GOD'S SPOKESPERSONS  that  if you get by a bus after Mass today, you will spend eternity in Hell. 

It's not bullying if it comes from the pulpit. It's condemnation. Literally. But "love thy self" and have a good day. And don't be so depressed and talk of suicide. 

It's a good thing as a heterosexual my loving is intrinsically ordered and objectively natural. No wonder I can feel morally superior. God made me that way.