Thank you, for your honest and poignant story. I was neither young nor old, when my husband died suddenly of a heart attack, while we were on a lengthy European holiday, to celebrate my 60th birthday and my retirement. I went back to work, and am retiring again, just in advance of my 65th birthday. There is no good way or right way to grieve, or live as a so called widow, but everyone finds their own way. Good Luck.