Danno, there is no emoji offered that I can click on for your post.  Just know that I was reading this article about an 11th century lay order - a strange group for a 21st century church and thinking why is this important?  Aren't there more pressing matters in our church.  More injustices to be rectified?  I don't want to prejudge, perhaps they do good work around the world.  But to focus on this insider stuff - an obscure medieval group unknown to most of us- takes my breath away.  Your having to deal with the experience of abuse, and the sly, lame, defensive posture of the church's leaders is a lot to bear for you and fellow survivors.  We, many if not most of us, know this.  And we will not forget.