Maybe the fault isn't yours.   Maybe the truth of the situation can be found in looking at racism in another minority group -- Asians.

Think about why we don't have Asians marching with banners that say "Asian Lives Matter," or an Asian Jessie Jackson or Al Sharpton.    Asians obviously overcame whatever racial barriers were in their way.   Not merely overcame them, totally destroyed them to where Asians are kept out of colleges because so many of them outperform everyone else.

Yes, maybe the fault isn't yours.   Maybe you've been sold a story that (purposefully) has no happy ending.