You are the last one to provide any help in calming the upsets you have a part in creating, Marty E.  You do have a lot of alone time to count words and time periods of comments.  As I have said before, it s part of your disturbed condition.  Again, I urge several daily periods of serene prayer and examination of conscience to try and gain some degree of control over your need to hurt others.  And harass them as well.