Response to yjin117: Don't give up yet, yjin117. Your wagon wheel description is priceless and much of what you share is helpful to others. To live in God's Spirit is the ultimate experience. Believe it or not, Francis thinks so too, but is hampered by corruption in his ranks and moves forward slowly, but surely. For now, simply rest, pray for discernment and for the Good Lord to reveal His will to you. Your courage will carry you forward from there.