for what it's worth on an old thread... i questioned and was curious as to why certain of my posts were 'disappeared" - not carried forward as some were - weird.   i am pretty sure i figured out why.  as a crime and documentary junkie i have seen cleaned up for tv (but  not for you tube and it's avert the eyes time) maybe as many, probably more , bad crimes than some detectives in actuality.  but i hear it all, and it processes, and i don't have to see damage done or whatever to hear the facts of a story.  of course the cops/consultants on shows are my "teaachers" .    so, that said, i think my comments here came across as bleak. too intense.  a case of a little knowledge.....but  i have a pretty good understanding of stuff.  it's why people fascinate me.  why are we different from one another? anyway - my apologies to the family especially.  switching roles - i was mortified.  THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE and stranger than fiction things happen all the time.  be strong in faith and believe