Lindsay Lohan sits down with Oprah Winfrey to discuss her addiction to Adderall and alcohol, and making the choice to complete her recent 90-day stint in rehab; "I feel really good," she says Credit: George Burns/Harpo Productions, Inc. 
 
 Lindsay Lohan's highly anticipated sit-down interview with Oprah Winfrey on the OWN Network has finally arrived. Just four days after leaving a court-mandated 90-day stint in Cliffside Malibu Rehab Center on July 30, the troubled star opened up to the TV personality on her past "addiction to chaos" and how this recovery will be different. The interview aired on Sunday, Aug. 18. 
 
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 "I feel really good. It's strange being confined for three months straight and then try to acclimate into real life," the 27-year-old actress began about her return. Lohan was sent to rehab after her March 2013 no-contest plea to reckless driving and lying to police, but revealed it felt more like a true surrender compared to previous punishments. 
 
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 "Having all the chaos around me that I was so comfortable with -- I somehow inside of me knew I wanted to go in jail," she said on her 90-day stay. "I think that was subconsciously going on in my head through my actions…just to have some peace," she tearfully admitted. "I came into it just really craving more spirituality, really open and ready to get really honest." 
 
 But that choice took "a period of time" to realize, she said --three years after spending two weeks in jail in for failing to attend her court-ordered weekly alcohol education classes. Lohan called that jail sentence terrifying. "Just seeing my mom and sister's face in that courtroom and my dad was just heartbreaking. It was horrible. I just remember this rush of heat coming over me and just not knowing what to expect," she said of hearing the judge's decision. "I don't think the embarrassment was as prominent as the shame and the guilt." 
 
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 Lohan's downward spiral began when she moved to Los Angeles in her late teens on the heels of her 2004 Mean Girls success. Falling in with the wrong crowd, she developed her drug of choice -- alcohol. "That was a gateway for me for other things. I tried cocaine with alcohol," she said. Lohan admitted she snorted cocaine 10-15 times in her lifetime, but only did it in order to drink more, she claimed. 
 
 Lohan promises this time is different, and despite what the public may think, she has never felt exploited by her parents. Though her childhood at times was chaotic, her once-warring parents, Dina and Michael Lohan, are currently getting along fine, she said. 
 
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 Indeed, the actress -- who rose to stardom in 1998's Parent Trap -- hopes to regain the success she once had. "I'm my own worst enemy," Lohan said. When asked what she wants the most now, she replied: "To get the things that’s made me the happiest in my whole life back, which is just work really hard and stay focused and prove myself in the way that I did before in the past and lost. I have to regain the trust of people in my career that has their doubts." In fact, when Winfrey voiced her concerns about the actress going to Europe so quickly after rehab for a yoga and meditation retreat, Lohan cancelled her flight two days later, Winfrey revealed. ||||| On Sunday night's hourlong grilling in Oprah's Next Chapter, Lindsay Lohan remained steadfastly penitent, hit all the predicted recovery notes, and very carefully avoided anything that could be construed as a bombshell. Lohan shared that her "drug of choice" is alcohol, and that she has only used cocaine "like ten to fifteen times," and just as a tool to let her drink more alcohol. Her other biggest dependency was Adderall ("I notice how much calmer I am without it"), and when Oprah asked how exactly she's planning to change going forward, she immediately answered that she would be stopping with the Adderall. She also resisted the urge to complain about her parents Dina and Michael (whose dramatics have put them in just as many tabloids as their famous daughter), saying that they were currently "not toxic." 
 
 Will Oprah's influence (and maternal pressure) help Lohan? Only time can tell. But! Oprah did confront LiLo about her planned yoga retreat to Europe "just a few days out of rehab," and Lohan defended her decision to take a vacation — but a postscript revealed that Lindsay had cancelled her Eurotrip, so we can cling to that as a good sign, right? We'll close with what was perhaps the interview's lightest moment: when Oprah asked what drugs Lohan was "currently taking" and she quickly retorted: "vitamins." In fact, she revealed, the only thing she has ever injected has been B-12, and is currently taking only one medication: Nexium, for acid reflux. Good luck making hay out of acid reflux, tabloids! Watch this interchange below. ||||| Click to email this to a friend (Opens in new window) 
 
 Lindsay Lohan‘s latest stint in rehab at the Betty Ford Center in Rancho Mirage, Calif. is proving to be extremely difficult for the troubled starlet, and friends are concerned that she is going to bolt from the facility that she is legally required to stay at for three months, RadarOnline.com is exclusively reporting. 
 
 The main problem is “Lindsay just doesn’t want to be there. She was forced to go to Betty Ford by the judge instead of going to jail. The actress looks extremely haggard, her face is bloated, and it doesn’t look like she has brushed her hair in days. She looks very disheveled and has absolutely no energy since docs took away the Adderall,” a source told RadarOnline.com exclusively. 
 
 As previously reported, Lohan’s Adderall was taken away from her last week by doctors at the Betty Ford Center and the troubled actress has gained five pounds and is complaining that she can’t stop eating. 
 
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 LiLo revealed her Adderall use in a recent interview with Piers Morgan on the Daily Mail saying, “I have severe ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder). I can’t stand still. So I take Adderall (a prescription drug) for that, it calms me. I know people who take it to stay up, or girls who take it to supposedly stay slim because it kills your appetite. But I eat all the time. I just take it to stay calm. It works well for me.” 
 
 Board certified addiction specialist Dr. Drew Pinsky has voiced his concerns in the past over to Radar over Adderall use and addiction saying, “I have had lots of experience with Adderall. There seems to be problematic issues related to Adderall, addicts seem to do okay on Adderall short-term, but as time goes on, the drug becomes an issue.” 
 
 Meanwhile, until Lohan “surrenders to the recovery process, she will never have a shot of sobriety. To Lindsay, rehab is just a revolving door, and she is just going through the motions, pro forma,” the insider revealed. 
 
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 Lohan was ordered by the courts to remain in a locked-down rehab facility for 90-days as part of a plea deal in her lying-to-cops case involving a car accident in Santa Monica, Calif. last summer. She entered Betty Ford earlier this month. ||||| Lindsay Lohan to Spend the Holidays in Rehab 
 
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 "There's nothing better than a train wreck for a celebrity and I'm not going to have one in this case," Fox told Lohan and her attorney, Shawn Chapman Holley, who argued that "relapse is a part of recovery" and that Lohan "would like to remain [at Betty Ford] and continue her treatment." Lindsay Lohan won't be going back to jail, but she will be spending the holidays in rehab. Los Angeles Superior Court Judge Elden Fox spared the 'Mean Girls' actress from more jail time on Friday, but instead ordered the troubled star back to the Betty Ford Center until Jan. 3. Fox was determining whether Lohan violated her probation in September when she tested positive for cocaine and Adderall in a pair of random drug screenings."There's nothing better than a train wreck for a celebrity and I'm not going to have one in this case," Fox told Lohan and her attorney, Shawn Chapman Holley, who argued that "relapse is a part of recovery" and that Lohan "would like to remain [at Betty Ford] and continue her treatment." 
 
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 Fox said that if Lohan doesn't shape up, she's going to destroy a promising career. He said he is trying to provide Lohan with a real chance at sobriety and that remaining at Betty Ford through the holidays is crucial. "You're staying past the New Year's -- there's a reason for that," Fox said.A prosecutor had wanted a six-month jail sentence for the star, but Fox opted for rehab after reviewing filings from rehab officials and a letter by Lohan herself. She cried after hearing the sentence and was escorted out by eight deputies to a waiting van. Before she could leave, an onlooker threw gold confetti on the star.Upon leaving rehab on Jan. 3, Lohan will have to submit to periodic drug and alcohol testing until her next scheduled court date on Feb. 25.Lohan arrived at the Beverly Hills courthouse Friday morning at about 8AM with her attorney and mother by her side. A few hours earlier, she left a live-in rehab facility in Southern California, where she has been since late September On Sept. 24, Lohan was denied bail and taken into custody after failing a pair of drug tests following her release from an inpatient rehab stay at UCLA Medical Center. Judge Fox reportedly issued the order without hearing arguments from Lohan's lawyers, and within hours another judge overturned the ruling and the starlet was released on bail.Lohan was behind bars during those hours due to an admitted relapse: She failed two crucial drug tests, for cocaine and illegal Adderall use.She was released from court-ordered rehab at UCLA Medical Center on Aug. 24 after only 22 days. Judge Marsha Revel sentenced Lohan to 90 days in jail and a 90-day inpatient rehabilitation program on July 6 for violating her probation in a 2007 DUI case. She ended up serving only 14 days due to good behavior and overcrowding at the jail.Friday's hearing was Lohan's fifth court appearance since May. Her legal woes began in May 2007 when she was arrested following a minor car accident and charged with DUI. Just two months later, she was taken into custody for suspicion of drunk driving and cocaine possession.Following her first DUI, Lohan spent 84 minutes in jail after pleading guilty to two misdemeanor counts of being under the influence of cocaine and no contest to two counts of driving with a blood-alcohol level above 0.08 percent and one count of reckless driving.Lohan's recent court troubles have put her career on hold. She missed opportunities to promote her role in the film 'Machete' because she was in jail and rehab. Her next starring role is supposed to be in a biopic about porn actress Linda Lovelace, though filming has yet to begin on the project and will have to be further delayed in light of Lohan's rehab sentence.
– Lindsay Lohan's much-anticipated sitdown with Oprah Winfrey aired last night, but no, there were no "bombshells," Vulture reports. The interview, filmed four days after Lohan left rehab, was a pretty predictable affair. Highlights from Vulture, E!, and Us: Lohan, who was emotional throughout the interview, answered simply "yeah" when Oprah asked if she is an addict. Her "drug of choice"? Alcohol. As for cocaine, she's only used it "like 10 to 15 times," she said, and while she didn't enjoy it, "it allowed me to drink more, I think that's why I did it." She also cited a dependency on Adderall, which she says she's "much calmer" without. She's not taking it anymore, she told Oprah. The only drug she's currently on? "Vitamins," Lohan said. Oh, and "I take Nexium. Because I have acid reflux." Lohan's explanation for why her addiction started: "A lot of stuff went on with my family when I was young and I grew up in a very chaotic home and then there were moments of everything being wonderful and perfect and then things being so uncontrollable and chaotic that—it's something people go through and unfortunately I waited too long to face it." She admitted she was addicted to the chaos, but now she's "exhausted" by it and ready to regain everyone's trust and "get the thing that's made me the happiest my whole life back, which is just work really hard and stay focused and prove myself." Speaking about her troubles with the law, Lohan said, "I somehow inside of me knew I wanted to go in jail. I think that was subconsciously going on in my head through my actions ... just to have some peace." Winfrey expressed concern with a yoga retreat in Europe Lohan planned to attend, suggesting it wasn't a good idea "just a few days out of rehab." Lohan said she's "different" now, but ended up canceling the trip two days later. LiLo also launched a new website last week, and has a guest stint on Eastbound and Down coming up, the Huffington Post reports.