Writing Oneself into Someone Else's Story Experiments with Identity and Speculative Life Writing in Twilight Fanfiction
Fan fiction offers rich data to explore readers' understanding of gendered discourses informing the narrative construction of fictional and real life identities. This paper focuses on gender identity construction in self insertion fan fiction texts stories that involve avatars of fan writers based on Stephenie Meyer's Twilight novels. Self insertion fan fiction stories can be considered a form of life writing where authors play with their identity in a virtual context in texts that mix documentary elements and fiction; a combination that is here termed as speculative life writing. While earlier studies have discussed self insertion fan fiction as a potentially empowering form of resistance to conventional gendered discourses, or a space for (young) women to explore and play with their gendered and sexual identities, among fans themselves self insertion fan fiction stories especially stories involving 'Mary Sues' characters that are highly idealised versions of the author are often ridiculed. By drawing on concepts from narrative theory, discursive psychology and feminist discourse theory, the paper examines female protagonists in selected self insertion fanfics categorised as heterosexual romance and relates these representations to readers' comments about the stories. While selfinsertion fan fiction as speculative life writing allows for creatively experimenting with gendered identities, it is also conditioned by hegemonic gendered discourses and the norms of the particular online community.