Once again, God gently showed me the ways in which ignoring my own hurt was actually unhealthy. For being someone who aims to be genuine and authentic, there was a big, gaping hole when it came to my pain. I felt guilty to say I was upset, I felt ashamed to admit I’ve had traumatic experiences in my past, and I felt fear of what people would think if they knew that alongside the deep, tremendous joy I have in Christ, there also lies mourning and sorrow for the difficult roads I’ve walked.
I’ve been trying to ignore my own pain for a long time, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to push it down and pretend it’s not there, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to avoid it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to distract myself from it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to
do. I’ve been trying to ignore it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to deny it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to suppress it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to avoid it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to ignore it, but it’s been


I’ve been trying to ignore my own pain for a long time, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to push it down and pretend it’s not there, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to avoid it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to distract myself from it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to
 do. I’ve been trying to ignore it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to deny it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to suppress it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to avoid it, but it’s been getting harder and harder to do. I’ve been trying to ignore it, but it’s been