No Comfort
It’s so hard to see the end when lately all I see is red in these eyes. For all of them, this forged composure is my disguise. If you could see behind these eyes, if you could crawl inside my mind, you’d see things you’d never speak of. You’d hold it all inside like me

Can someone tell me, where did I go wrong? I just want to make them happy but I’m pleasing no one. I scream, I cry, I explode inside. Still searching for the pieces of my peace of mind

Fist to the drywall, head glued to my hands. All I wanted was for somebody to understand. But they don’t, they won’t, so I stay trapped in my skin. I’m pounding at the walls of my skull, break me open. I keep wrenching at my heart, I keep pulling my hair. A winner at a losing game, I’m gasping for air

Don’t you know that I fucking hate myself? It’s me vs. me all by myself. Don’t you know that I fucking hate myself? No comfort, no help