19
[Verse1]
Deep on a high road,
Looking for how far im going,
Long pauses fucking up my actions,
Long pauses messing up my verses,
Long pauses always has a place for my ex,
Tryna tell u things but u. never ask,
Ask me how i feel/ with my issues how I deal,
Smiling back nodding nothing/ is enough,
Same back to u/ i know that u. hiding facts,
In this age/ this case/ nothing seems to make us relax,
I suffer a lot,
till 4am from 12,
counted thou sheeps/ I lost sleep,
I'm Gone in deep/ in dirty sheets,
Internal bleeds/ it's hard to breath,
Take a look under my sleeves,
Lines are drawn in green,
Like in that tale by john green,
Im 19/ one year/ imma miss being on.e/ of a slow teen,
My parents/ my brothers/ and the cat,
Ain't really ex.pecting me/ to act,
I assure u i'll blast,
late in my twenties/ I might be married,
In.depen.dent reminis.cing/ phases I have carried,
Im being a random/ being a diffe.rent,
screamin from the terrace/
Fe.ar of poverty's haunting us,
Doubt anxiety/ n madness terror us,
But U ain't listening,
No one's listening,
U ain't often checking in,
Self-freedom is lacking tho,
Im locking the past door/
I don't need u in again,
Im doing something/
a private something,
Im growing old now,
No need to know how,
Ur missing ur chances now,
Keep provoking/
Next thing/ you'll find me self-chocking,
Not even joking,
[Verse2]
My heart's not broken,
Behaviors are soften,
I ain't living on any human favors,
Girls and fame/ it's happening,
Going the devil way,
turning around im thinking okay?,
The world/ don't want me thinking,
The world/ wants me to. be,
Ignoring the fact that I'm sinking,
The world is tempting/ me with reality I'm faking,
The world don't care about religion,
Who cares after I die if I go/ to hell or heaven,
Don't get closer to stuff n don't touch/ their money is their only concern,
My one concern/ don't do none of these things near on my deathbed,
And if y'all continue through this,
I don't want y'all to be grieving beside me,
I want to at least R.I.Peace,