Feelings When She Died
lying there waiting for freedom
waiting for hope
lying there waiting for excuses
waiting for insecurities

built so high, but down so low
you killed me, but didn’t know
sat for hours, phone beside
even after she died
just a call, nothing more
but words waiting for me
all i wanted, all i asked for
not much when we were dating

to let me know when you don’t know anymore
promised me, but you shut the door
said you would let me know, you promised me
i told you, all i wanted to know
said you would be honest

asked too much, spoke too much
feelings of serenity, i never knew
they never let me feel free
died every night, woke every morning
to cry just a bit more
you never really knew me
just left me tongue tied
never even called to ask
the feelings when she died
you didn’t even care
you just lied

it was barehanded
the strangle to the heart
the struggle to realize
that you didn’t even care
how unfair

the world you had was so more
so bored by what you didn’t know
yet you could
if you tried, but never tried
came for the ride
alongside

i wish you tried
but so lost in this world
with just you and without me
i wish you would have just replied