Panic Disorder
(verse)
Panic disorder, turn off the lights, stop spinning me around and tell when its over
This isn't something i can just brush off my shoulder
The ground is falling down and i'm falling with it
Choppin up the lines but I refuse to hit it
Everybodys lookin at me while im panicin empty like maniquin gathering around the shallow grave that im drowning in and
I dont know why but they won't even admit it
My hearts an engine and i killed it
But im still walking almost fainting tunnel vision and im passing back and forth these lights are tracing
And im waiting for an angel to find me and help me stop me from shaking
I swear im not crazy im just dying,  if i left my body would you find me
Died on the inside and its me that haunts me
So open up the doors and i dont know what i opened
Is it cancer lung problems or a demon thats got me chokin
All i know is i need to act normal and not listen
Theres people who look up to me in this room they can't know im trippen
And if they find out ill be treated like the weakest in the room
Too immature to stand still is probably what they would assume
Sweaty hands in my pockets squeezing my lighters
Chest is getting heaveir and the air is getting lighter
I think i see the light that everybody talks about
No one in the room do i stay and choose to stand my ground
Or do i run and make up a thousand excuses to tell everyone
Im just another socially awkward son of a gun that deosnt belong
With anyone told to just to stick with my songs no one lives long
But when i took that breath god damn i can feel the air
Pins stabbing inside my skin and now i feel alive again
Please tell me this is the last time i get cever get close to the end
On my knees i pray but the message never sent
The oppertunity of a normal life came and went
Id let to many people down if i just give in
This is the only way people like me make a livin
So just stand behind the side lines and watch me
This is what god has written
Still smokin cigarettes even tho i was born with lung problems
Maybe a little cancer and tar will sovle em
Or maybe its just me trying to recreate a breath taking moment
But youll never be able to take the breath of the words that are spoken
Open up my veins and my blood is frozen so when i try to bend i end up broken
I never had a pot too piss in i always stared at the ocean
Wishing i could break free from its current
Standing on top of the mountain while the city is burnin
I have nothing else to live for let me tell you this is it
Throw your lighters to the sky and try to burn this bitch
And if it deodsnt fall we well burn that brigde
I have nothing else to live for baby let me tell you this is it
Death is the begininng and i put my all into this shyt
Thousands of shooting stars fading to exist
So put your lighters to the sky and well try to burn this bitch
Im just another shooting staqr begging to exist
Dying over and over stuck in some sort of glitch
Im just another shooting star beggingn to exist
And if it never falls i promise im sorry and ill jump off the cliff