OD
(Intro)
You scared to die?

Sometimes I feel im a scared to live
Living's what scares me, dying is easy


Told myself things were different this time, I was wrong they ain't
Can't blame anybody other than me I was never a saint
Im a fish drowing in this big ocean looking for the bait
But its too late now too late now I cannot be saved

Cannot be saved im just tryna escape
Needa stay awake in this town with a lake
My thoughts are cloudy and my vision is dazed
Cuz all fuckin day I been sniffin that K

Im smokin an ounce yeah just for the hell of it
Im sniffin these pills yeah just for the smell of it
Im tryna grind hard and im tryna stay relevant
Wanna speed up life and see the end of it
Feel so betrayed these words can't express
Im gonna catch that kid if I Ain't already yet
Filled with so much rage filed with revenge
I promise when you disrespect it dont fuckin end

Oof, and thats enough with him
Never gonna let a rat get under my skin
But its hard when that shit is so fuckin thin
Only way to deal with my sins is to sin

Vison dazy how'd i lose my baby
Doin eighty on gurney listenin to shady
And Its rainy im off the oxys so just maybe
I might go off the rails man because lately

Im starting to drown got sick of the swimin'
Im tappin my fingers waitin for the drugs to kick in
Then I go upstairs give my mom a hug in the kitchen
I tell her nothin's wrong but she can tell somthings missin'

Do you know what its like to think like me
Can't say you dont but id say its unlikely
Followed love  blindly
Stay in check like nike
Could feel something was comin
Swear im a psyche
Still gets me at times dont know how much more i can take
(This is the reason your mixtape droppin' so late?)
Yeah, its taking me forever to write im cryin every take
Beliver in destiny but this cannot be my fate

I got so many fuckin stab wounds on my back
But im glad i got half a slab of this wax
Heal me like a band-aid not a big enough patch
But everything comes to and end like a match

They always askin me why you think so negatively
Cuz I got these voices in my head and they tellin me
Go ahead Kam do it go commit that felony
Should I listen or mute him with this remedy

Wish I had a better way to cope but I don't
They take me as a joke but i got this rope
All this smoke  thing keepin it off my throat
But the king is coming home so get off my throne

Wanna meet Mac but got too many people at home
That can't see me go out with a mouth full of foam
Take a dab to the dome and it put me in a zone
Then I grind up the loud and stuff it in this cone

Im gettin there slowly i needa be more holy
I know im an O G but  i just wanna O D
Meet g o d, m a c, and my say what up to gramps
The key to that doorway is right here in these xans
Take them all at once till I can't fuckin stand
Give me this Benz-o Put my self on death row
Ill tell god you said hello man I Dunno
I still haven't come to my senses
Wake up disoriented
Doin drugs like i dont know the consequences
This is not what I intended
This is not what I expected
I need to be respected my mind is infected
Im still fucked up from the night before
I got no idea what I took those hydros for
Cuz now im out and i need more
Got O C D so I make sure these lines  straight
Got G O D So hes the one that determines my fate
Im younger and better so they all like to hate
So im not ready yet i need to show them im great
Theres so much on my plate to fit it in this mixtape
Its time to Awake Its time to see in color
Cuz I know who love me I got my fuckin brothers
And thats all ill ever need fuck you mother fuckers
Cuz if I ever get a bitch again i swear Imma tuck her
Smooth as butter but I can still see your bluffer
Take cover you know what comes before that thunder
Its that lightning bitch itll leave you in the gutter
You stuck with that bitch cuz you didn't use a rubber
Chop it up throw the body in a dumpster
Leave a note on his forehead that say "sucker"
Then go up to his mother like ooo what a bummer
Still remember callin him brother like it was last summer
When we caught that case so im not tryna get another
Cuz I know you already suffer So imma move on with life
Livin that rich life like damn you missed out
So many people in my life gettin kicked out
Called you all family let you all sleep at my house
And you threw it all away for fuckin Mickey Mouse
What are we on Disney i dont have time for you kiddie's
I liked your dogs and playing with your kitty but thats really itty
Had okay tittys, think you so witty
So if you need me catch me at the burial ground
I Dont fuck around im callin everyone out
And when I do shit its to the extreme amount
This the shit that I dream about that big bank account
Can talk to god and say thank you now he don't talk back tho
So I grab that flask yo and rap real fast yo
Get it all out yo wish I had some memories I could erase
She know that I can't be replaced
We all look at you with disgrace
Like a legend once said I ain't sayin' im sober im just in a better place
(Outro)
I Didn't just lose 5 years on that island, I lost a part of me that enjoyed living

Living, Its not for the weak