Its not personal
Don't take it personal
I'm sorry i'm a piece of shit
14 days in and your hours are
Better spent with some better men
While I rearrange the letters in the alphabet
To put, U and I together
But, ill settle for a space between You and Him
That's a petty win
Love is in the air
I'm not feeling it
Her beauty stopped me from breathing in
Butterflies in my stomach
Birds humming from the beat of my heart drumming
But the bees stinging, pop my heart and let out the helium that was deep within
This might be the time to do some healing from deep within
I'm not upset that I couldn't make you feel the way you feel
When you're with him
I'm more concerned with not being complete enough to be a part of the bigger thing
See
I was full of myself
Both of us feeling ourselves
Picture perfect couple
But never shared emotions we felt
See, communication was key
But i bottled it up inside and dismissed it
I let you deal with your problems and
Each of us did our heavy lifting
We were on the same team but opposite positions
And it hurts because if we talked we would have found a key to a lock we didn't know existed
Took an L with the lover
And now it's over huh
I wish I could hold you
Let you melt on my shoulder
Let you know that I've grown up
But...
If I were being honest, I'm not too sure that I have
The only lesson learned is to let go of the past
Before it holds on to you
(sometimes)
Sometimes I look up at the stars to freshen up on my mental health
Feel nothing but I always wonder just how Aristotle felt
A potential to be a god, but never made it passed Orion's belt
Never made it out the system
Solidarity for the sake of my existence
Had all the words but the vocal cords were missing
Fall back into the same rhythm
Saw the bottle kill my idol, but I kept on drinking
If I numb the pain, then I wouldn't feel like such a masochist
Looking in the liquor for amplitude of questions
I have yet to think of, but
Let it float up on the surface rather than just let it sink in
This was my letter to the nonexistent
Don't take it personal
I'm sorry i'm a piece of shit
14 days in and your hours are
Better spent with some better men
While I rearrange the letters in the alphabet
To put, U and I together
But, ill settle for a space between You and Him
Happy Valentines Day
GANG SHIT