On Hold
[Verse 1]
I am back here once again
In the mist
In the mist without sight
Thought I fought my way back
Now I'm afraid
I'm afraid to lose hope
Will I ever be the man
In control?
In control of his world
Open wounds that will not heal
Pull me back
Pull me back inside

[Pre-Chorus]
And I
I was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain
And I
I was always on the side
So I kept my little lie
To be safe from what may come
[Verse 2]
To be lonely inside of my thoughts
A state that I tend to avoid
But if I can't get to them
I think no one can
Moving forward nonetheless
I'm afraid this is how I've become
How can I sort it out?
When I don't even know what I'm looking for
If I only knew
Then at least I could deal with it
I don't even have a plan
On how to move forward from here

[Pre-Chorus]
And I
I was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain
I
I was always on the side
So I kept my little lie
To be safe from what may come

[Chorus]
All my life
Is on hold
In this moment
There's nothing here but darkness
My life
Is on hold
It's on hold
Until I've figured out this maze
[Verse 3]
I hold my breath and count to ten
Maybe then
It will all go away
Distraction strategies may work
But only
Only for so long

[Pre-Chorus]
I
I was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain
I
I was always on the side
So I kept my little lie
To be safe from
What may come
Come

And I
I was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain

[Chorus]
My life
Is on hold
In this moment
There is nothing here but darkness
My life
Is on hold
It's on hold
Until I've figured out this maze
My life
Is on hold
In this moment
There is nothing here but darkness
My life
Is on hold
It's on hold
Until I've figured out this maze