Interview 2
Michael Nickens: Is there something you're afraid of?

Me: no, not that I can think of

Michael Nickens: you spend a lot of time alone, a lot of time thinking. Maybe you're afraid that you're gonna stay that way?

Me: ...

Michael Nickens: It's alright to be afraid of things, man. People are afraid of so much these days, debt, lack, judgement, loneliness. Some people are afraid to hear the truth, some people fear living lies. It's normal to be afraid

Me: well shoot, what if I don't want to be normal? What if I wanna know straight that I'm not alone?
What If I wanna know for a fact that everyone I love and care about is gonna be okay from day to day?
I don't care nothing about being no normal!
What if I wanna KNOW that God is there for me? That He isn't gonna up and leave me like people did, like I left myself?
What if when I'm sinking, I want a dang life raft?  Or rather what if I don't wanna frickin sink at all? What If I HATE being weak and I HATE living with weakness?

Michael Nickens: the Bible says His strength is made perfect in your weakness. Maybe you need to switch your focus