Tell Me You Feel The Same
There's a safety in the pain I feel
No need to shake or be woken up
I've got a numbing medicine, a lie
The only way I've managed to stay up
Is by stating that this constant safety crushing nature's enough

The lie continues to grow
Each time I have to justify
The hours I have to give
45 or more, no longer mine

"Oh I need this, I'll never make rent
Yeah it pays well, no one means it when they yell
But it's a coffin with benefits too
Who needs teeth when you're losing the will to live?"

I still feel a bitterness for things I think I deserve
But I'm making more space in my heart for things I can hold
And I see the beauty inside those I love
It's pouring out of their fingertips
What I'd give for a less selfish thought
What I'd give to be more loving and open
Take a step back for a second
Just admire the good you see
There's so little of it left
It could leave, it could leave

I've lost all shame of sentimentality
What little was left is slowly eroding away
Work has made every moment precious
I'm starved for time and air around you
I mean, I don't need all your time
I'm just saying it could be a little better

I see every moment spread out
One single sweeping blessing
All of ours to share
Tell me you feel the same

I'm on the periphery of so many lives, in and out
Not long enough to really hear their problems
But just long enough to say

"I hope you feel alright"

Just a gesture; I wish I could give more
I turn over the memories of the people in my life like a fingertrap
I see my friends in them
I see them slipping through my fingers like tiny translucent crawfish
I run over the handful of conversation I had
I think about what I would have said
"It would have been fine"

If you stay living the way you are
Memory gives way
People start to sink
I can't let them go

If you stay the way you are
It'll crush your heart
I will always change
Do you feel the same?