Remorse
[Intro]
And I was thinking
Back? Nah
Jetpack? Up and high?
Leave all that? Huh maybe

[Verse 1]
Becoming into some kind of a maniac
Each laughing eye of yours bounces in ma cranium
Some nice fellow texts you messages again? (Or not)
Hope I’m wrong, man (Nope)
Wait I don’t give a damn
Why am even I captured by this nightmarish delirium?
Millenniums past or just a week
Since we split up (or not)
Feel so weak, must’ve gone crazy from this ignorance
I did, I tried to fit in, need to treat myself
Maybe a drink? Oh, please
It will not bring release
Even wish I were an alcoholic, wouldn’t care about the problems
That would be two of my hobbies
You’d be my black cat
And I would hang you in the orchard
Oh man, what they rapped about the whores?!
Remorse keep raping my brain
Inpours in ma vocal cords
And it’s so morbid indoors now
We’ve broken up or not?
There’s still something wrong
Though you act like you don’t know
We actually don’t even argue anymore
Dim lights it’s like the hell froze up
I can’t stand this all
But you’re still so calm
Now I wonder who’s the one that makes you laugh through that fucking cell phone?
[Refrain]
Lord, please endow me with courage
Make me more decisive
I’m bound to learn
I’ll find my inner power

[Verse 2]
And I didn’t understand at first
Thought it would eventually settle down
Gave birth to a new start
But you’d already made your mind up
And my heart fell down
Somewhere into the stomach
How come I found you two chatting on our couch, smiling at each other?
Ouch, said that only wanted to be hospitable, it knocked me out straight off the cage, we made out of our little chemical bond, oh, wait, for you it had already been not ours
And I’d spent hours on that couch, feeling you, wrapping in the plaid
Laughing and crying out loud with you
To finally meet new you, who abused my kindness
Now I count it as a weakness
No one needs nice people, only boldness and firmness
Crowds would listen to my yearning
I’m sorry, I acted like a coward
And for that, I ain’t too proud

[Bridge]
And I was thinking
Back? Nah
Jetpack? Up and high?
Leave all that? Huh
Turn my back on all we had, our cat?
I miss you already, shit’s so crazy
I’m not sure I’m ready to forget you my lady
[Refrain]
Lord, please endow me with courage
Make me more decisive
I’m bound to learn
I’ll find my inner power

Fuck´em all false doubts

[Verse 3]
I’m done with all that
Grabbed my balls, I’m grown up
We’re done, me and these pathetic suffers have nothing in common any further completely
I’m up and ‘round to be tougher and tougher like a toddler
I’ll repeat it thousand times if I need
‘Cause I’m down to lead a life full of energy, not limpness
And I’ll stand up straightly next time I find myself on knees
No more heartache coffles
I’m out of my inner demo version of Château d'If
Cuz I now fit in this solitude, I accept it, not for hundred years maybe, I ain’t no Buendia
But I’ll know better that there is
No tragedy in leaving behind people whose attitude is not equal
And you ain’t a whore you just happened to be the first to move on when I couldn’t and we’d known both long before, one day it all should be gone, it pressed towards the bottom all along
This fatality to me seemed almost like in mortal combat
“Kano wins”
Guess I was the one to show you the right buttons
Fuck
If our everything is so far away, somewhere behind
Then why this phantom pain keeps torturing my heart
And I ain’t no immortal
I just can’t go on replaying the memories
I have to feel my way to the new game
I ain’t got time for remorses