Make Red
TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM/SUICIDE ATTEMPT


she once was covered
in a glaring shade of red
line after line
dripping slowly
she used anything
steal a razor here
a knife there
shatter picture frame glass
over a knee
she did it constantly
every chance she got
slip into a stall between classes
shut the door
pull out silver
make red
she covered her legs constantly
until the day
her usual fix
just wasn't enough
and she swallowed
a handful of sleeping meds
they told her
she could have died
but that was the point
she was hospitalized
not allowed sharp objects
red faded to white
she got better
and when she felt the dark again
she was determined
to ignore the ache
the longing to just
press a blade to skin
make a slice
just one cut, just one hit
because she knew it
wouldn't be enough
she knew if
she started again
she'd never be able to stop
so she resists
but god, it's hard