Nathanael
She wets her fingers with her lips
And puts them into mine
I see heaven open up
I see my father sigh

There are birds outside
But they do not sing
They sit on the windowsill look inside
Watch and wait expectantly
I push myself against her mango thighs
I rub my cheek onto her collarbone
And I cover up her eyes

And I wonder, Nathanael
After your soul was laid bare
Before you died a martyr’s death
And were caught up into the air
Did you ever think of giving up?
Did you ever just not care?

Yeah I don't love this woman
But if I wanted to, I could
But she would see my heart
And know that I'm no good
We finish making love
And I hold her in my arms
Any tenderness or affections I had for her have come and gone
For this reason a man shall leave home
I fall asleep
Naked and alone