Waking up is the dumbest thing Ive ever done
Waking up is the dumbest thing I have ever done.

I'm going crazy.

I'm lazy.

I don't know what the fuck to do.
Smoking weed keeps me sane until i hear my mother complain, "Get a job"

This weed is helping me get a job. I want to wrestle and get back in shape. I was happy when I did that. In high school. I hope it will still be the same.
It won't.

I'm bipolar. I diagnosed myself five minutes ago. Because last week I was happy. Today I'm sad. Tomorrow I'll be sad, but I might exercise so I might be somewhere in between.

The human mind is complex. Humans are complex. How do we allow this shit to happen. I try to be optimistic until I see a chemtrail.

Why can't I just be rich so I can stop stressing the future. Anxiety engulfs my mind. Depression plagues my emotions. What's an emotion when you're depressed. What's life when you're depressed.
I wonder why I am.
My girlfriend cheating on me woke me up. However, I'm not depressed because she cheated on me, but because it woke me up.

I try to meditate. I'm way too cynical. So I'll just be a depressed maniac hiding my emotions from the world.
I was extremely drunk, passed out at midnight, and woke up three hours later. It's 5 in the morning and I'm still up. It honestly makes no sense. My sleep pattern is as depressed as me. I wanted to change the world, but then I realized that's not happening.
What's the point?
7 billion fuckin people
In the fuckin universe
It can't be real
I hope that's not the deal
This planet can't support 7 billion people.
I want humans to live forever
The earth can't sustain 7 billion
They already have the solution and sadly I'm not part of it. Bill Gates already knows how to fix the world. Why wouldn't he? It's fuckin Bill Gates.
Steve Jobs was the man. Materialism is what it is today because of him. He was such a dooshebag. But he fuckin did it. Maybe I should meditate.... Nah

(I just read this over and I'm a fuckin genius. I wish everyone were like me. Shit would get accomplished. Everyone would be doing nothing but smoke weed everyday all day. That's progress.

Peace love and happiness. It's all about the vibes baby.

I love you and I love myself.
Bam there's the bipolar-ness.)