MEmory Lane
RhythminWriting
Atragicom3dy
Ryan Willis
8/20/10
M3mory Lane

Yo
Just like that
Another year's passed
How the fuck did this happen
Was the question I was askin’
As I ashed the blunt again
When  did I become so old?
I can feel it in my bones
I'm over this whole growing thing
Metaphorically speaking
The pains ain't worth it
But our time on Earth is short
At least I’ve learned this
Cuz the last 52 weeks I've spent here
Have left me feeling worthless
Go figure the year consisted of doctor visits
N fillin my prescriptions at the pharmacy
Then pickin up QP's of my medicine
At the clinic oh so harmlessly
I blame society, but unfortunately naiveté
Has never been a gift blessed to me
I knew then like I know now I need help
Or I'll keep runnin in place sayin I got this
I don't need no-body else
When honestly the whole time
I know I'm lying to myself
Just look at where this road ended up
With 2 more overdoses
And a second trip to rehab under my belt
But  you know what those were the cards I was dealt
I played the hand I had without a plan
And raised the stakes as I felt
But as my chips dropped
So did the confidence and my health
Verse 2:
A friend sat me down one time
And with a sigh, she leaned over
And hit me with a few words from the wise
She said what a caterpillar calls the end
The master calls a butterfly
Of course at the time
She wasn't surprised when she
Was met with a sarcastic ass answer
I replied
Not if I die in this cocoon
Her initial reaction was laughter
But her conclusion was soothing
She said boo
That'll only be done by your doing
If you let the pain consume your flame
It’ll be the light to your dreams you’ll be losing
You know exactly how you want your movie to play out
It's up to you to choose to pursue it
Her words shook me I couldn’t dispute that truth
I knew it…
Verse 3:
The worst part of this sickness is the awareness in you
Cuz I know that if I continue on this path
There won't be any going back
I catch myself wishing for the if
But those moments always lead to pain
It's senseless this mental masturbation cuz my brain
Runs n does it's best to spin webs to keep my ego safe
Regardless of the time I can waste on the extreme measures
I’m known to take, I can never escape from the fact that
This is your journey
You can't tap out when a round
Gets too tough to handle in this fight
You're the only one that can make the dreams
You see when you close your eyes at night
Come to life in the morning light
Don't let the gold dust blind you into darkness
Trust me I know it's hard to resist
But those that don't persist
Don't live, they exist
That's the beauty of grace is it makes life not fair
Bridges burn to ashes in an instant
N can take a lifetime to repair
But the upside of construction
Is the deconstruction of my pride
I'm just battling the arrogance of my youth
It's the most wise who know they're the biggest fools
So I'm always weary of whose words I accept as truth
Cuz the only one that's getting judged in the end is you
And funny thing is my integrity is one thing
I'm not willing to abuse so please
Don't confuse the solemn expression as hostility
I'm frostbitten, ask my skeleton friends in the closet
They'll explain the bitterness in me