SOMETHING WEIRD JUST HAPPENED AND I FELT REALLY SAD
i experienced a strange despair

after imagining my dad

alone

in bed

crying and touching his face

pulling at his nonexistent hair

repeatedly saying 'i just want to be a fun, creative uncle'

and 'why doesn't my family appreciate me'


i stood

staring blankly
for around 3 minutes


feeling this feeling take hold

sink into me like some

thing sinking in to me