Awakening
For a long time it hasn't been there, perhaps never...
Quietly it crept along all the time, always there, but not with me
Now it's here, feeds on and destroys me
It's everywhere, I cannot flee without leaving myself
Time captures me
Will it increase my distance?
The tears will dry, or never be cried, when they fall it will leave with
Them and nothing will be left of me. An awakening to see the downfall
Like an old leaf that receives cognition before it's blown away
Just to realize: now it's too late
Is this a dream or a nightmare? Summerdays fade
A part of me dies, buried by the other, secluded and without remorse
It's still, the funeral in solemn peace, in the air's the question:
"What shall become?"
Here I lie now and watch. It's another life. Through the looking glass I
Can see, clouds drag past like ethereal to show that the time goes by
While my mind is clear in empty space
You think you can be, but are not there. This world of repeating
Obscurities, back from my deviations time diverges to capture me in
Presence. The only way has no return betrayed by myself
The fall came suddenly
Meaningless everything now
Weightless, all burdenings are gone
Absolute freedom, feel it before the eternal nothingness
Perishing finally my life leaks out
Next to the flowers
My torment beneath their beauty, the memories gather
Waving like seeds in the summernights' wind
Reminders of gratification
And soon the mourning will end
Repentance fills emptiness with grief
There won't be a return
The sorrow has found its end