Teeth Marks
Teeth marks on the skin...
The greatest pleasure in my life just hurt herself again.
She likes to feel my blood rushing through her veins ,
but her tainted thoughts are driving her insane.

I can't forget what's been said;
nor can I make sense of these blind thoughts in my head.
Behind my eyes they well up as I remember the surprise I held up.
Then my stubborn pride sucks it back  inside and forces me to keep my head up
If I could see what lies inside that pretty little fucked up head of hers I could have changed the emotions she pent up and the mistakes that lead up.
I'm fed up.

Just going through the motions of this heart break gives heart aches and it hurts so bad I wished that I was never born.

She's the eye of my storm
I can't keep trying to live in the center and, basking in her splendor and,
I can't extinguish the ember because I've grown to depend on the warmth and shelter it provides.
I can't hide under sheets from the rainy streets where teardrops rain from the sky.
I can wait until it passes and I'm alone again in this rainy isle. I shiver on frozen tile as I watch her dance on a wire, remembering times we shared when all I want is to rekindle the fire.

And all she wants is to reconcile she and I
my heart twists and my brain splits and my stomach flips as I struggle with me myself and I to see her as anything less than mine.
Everything I see and experience reminds me of you
I meant it when I said that I love you
but until I stop seeing wings with the halo above you I'll push and shove you.


Her pretty smile was blissful for a while. the taste of her kiss was exquisite and my thinking was wishful.
I saw the heartbreak coming from a mile but I chose to take comfort in denial I had made the connection.

With her absence this void that opened back up is desperate to be full again,
but the thought of another romance is tainted with her omnipresence
I miss the scent of her essence
I miss the life I felt in her wake.
and I miss times we looked into each others eyes and saw affection.

Distanced from the one I love to save a friendship I try let my mind rest
and disconnect from every object that reminds me of her.

I close my eyes just to find I'm to afraid to dream of her again. Between the nightmares and day dreams there isn't much clarity.
None of it seems fair to me and I can't stop myself from feeling like I've done wrong
I took my time trying to avoid this landmine only to discover I was sitting on a time bomb.

Despite the anger and conflicted hatred and sadness I feel there,
isn't a shred of regret in my mind.
You showed me a little piece of who I am and I loved every moment of it. I can still smell you on my jacket you wore. Your laughter echoes in my memories and it hurts to know your smile won't be for me anymore.

They say all good things come to an end,
but I'll pretend this is the start of a new chapter.
Separate or together I hope we both live happily ever after to the end,
but until then please know no matter what you'll always have me as a friend.