Insight
Hello?
I am your mind.
Let me give you some insight
You are breathing too heavily
Your heart is beating too fast
Another panic attack like that
And you surely won’t last
Another day
Another encounter

At seven years old
Your family was torn apart
At ten years old
It got even worse
But do you know what really hurts? The way you try to ignore yourself
It’s disturbing
You’re lying to yourself, kid
You’re becoming someone you’re not

At twelve years old
You were depressed
When you turned fifteen
You were so overweight
Why did you let yourself go?
Why would you just stop caring? I’ll tell you why
You were too sad and afraid of everything
You stopped caring about yourself because you were useless
You were broken
You were ugly and annoying
You were alone
At seventeen you figured it all out
You discovered more about yourself than you ever knew was possible
Hello?
Are you still listening?
I’m telling your story because you need to hear it
Stop shutting me out and listen to the truth, dammit
You stubborn little asshole, don’t you see? This is the way things were meant to be

Your heart was broken but you didn’t give up
You could have, and you probably should have
But you kept fighting instead
That’s not a coincidence
That’s your heart telling you something that I never could have
You have more strength than you thought you did
You have more love in you than I do

You’re almost nineteen now and you’re becoming a man
Learning things about yourself that are amazing
Beautiful
Discovering opportunities left and right
Exploring love and relationships
You went through so much tragedy
So much shit
But you climbed that rope
You didn’t let it go
You survived
I don’t know why
But isn’t that enough to keep going?