Dopesick
I open my eyes and wake up
My life is not what I expected to happen
It's such a mess
It was fine just a minute ago
I can't remember the right path
Emotional crescendo
I’m falling into bits
Just braced up - another death kiss
And who else is to blame if it is not me?
Will I ever be okay?
I’m trapped in mediocrity

Pulling my life back together is the hardest battle
Losing focus - It doesn’t get any better
I surrender 'cause I remember
That this guilt could last forever

Thinking back
Too many what if’s
Ways I should have walked
Too many what if’s
Thinking back
So many what if’s
Give me three options and I will pick the worst
Because that’s my life
It can't get more absurd
I am dope sick
Don't know what my dope is
Do you see what depression is doing to me?
My soul is homeless
Craving progress
I walked a thousand ways
I'm still not on my knees
I am dope sick
Don't know what my dope is
Can you see what depression is doing to me?
I fucking lost it
Rejecting closeness
I read a thousand books
I still don't feel free
Can we forget the past and
Let life just go on?
This game called live is a gamble - one on one
I never had one fucking run

Thinking back
Too many what if’s
Ways I should have walked
Too many what if’s
Thinking back
So many what if’s
Give me three options and I will pick the worst
Because that’s my life
It can't get more absurd