Better
[Verse 1]
Looking for a better day
Better than I never been but my head is aching
It took 365 for my world to be shaken
I had my heart broken twice, and my brotha was blasted, I feel forsaken
Analyze my blessings cause really I could be naked
Laying in the street
Shelter is what I seek
A roof above my head but my home ain't feelin complete
She was ‘sposed to fill the void but I wasn’t ready
Then we switched our places, now I'm determined
A freaky Friday in our future on my Jamie lee Curtis
I couldn't read it with certainty
A week after apology
And you was gonna rock with me?
I guess I had respect and hesitation deriving from where we stopped, it seemed
I didn’t pay my dues, my books were really late to you
I wrote a couple letters cause I didn't know what to say to you
In the moment, writing diatribes, ain't no pay per view cause I don't do it live

[Verse 2]
Often times I think about hindsight
I wanna fuckin pop myself so my mind right
I'm missin opportunities cause I never align my interactions with how I sound on the mic
Loud and abrasive
I really used to yell but now I never embrace it
Talkin loud, sayin little, overcompensatin
I be over talkin satan but he cuttin through the mix
Cutting through my fits
Visions of bloody wrists
Visions of leaving earth but I don't wanna hurt my mama
This shit don't make no sense cause I was blessed with plenty dollars
And blessed with loving parents, Family got little drama
It's pickin up lately, but coming up it was calm
I wake up in the morning like what the fuck goin on
Shouldn’t be thinking this
Ceasing to exist
Surround myself with people that make me grateful for shit
Cause life really a trip and I just wanna make it better now