Roots
[Verse 1]
No, I don't need no sympathy
But if I had excuses, I'd tell you reasons why I am different
So used to bein' on the down, to go up is so hard to me
I'm breaking free
For the first time in college from seventeen-year-old pains finally
Best believe, I'm more stupid than anything
I've never been handed a responsibility
So I never learnt to solve a problem by myself
I gotta wait for an order first to do something else
The last time I made a decision on my own, I got bashеd
Funny how I'm a debater 'cause I havе no common sense if it's right or wrong to do
I just follow all the rules
Even if I know, I'll accept it when things don't go as it should be
You know what hurts more than havin' no choices?
That's when you got 'em but you have no control over it
I'll let it flow and...

[Chorus]
Wish I could take you back in time, behind these eyes
See the roots of my traits inside to understand me
Life and its events have led me to who I am now (who I am now)
But still, I'm tryin' to embrace imperfections to be better now (be better now)
[Verse 2]
Been raised by six different figures
Some contradict to each other
I had to change my personality to avoid squabbles
But havin' many parents do have consequences that affect your childhood
I was in senior high school when Papa took me out to a café 'cause I never hung out like others
Never experienced what boys commonly got
Never unscrewed and broke some toys, my wit is numb
Kids at 16 drive cars, whereas joyfully, I ride a bike for the first time
I don't understand concepts of basic logic
And that's why it ain't surprising when they call me wishy washy, immature, selfish and childish
I been told to man up, but I ain't man enough to face it
Tryin' to pick my own cards, but I keep gettin' criticized
It's why the best way to handle it is being quiet
But I'm proud of me somehow for tryin' to make it

[Chorus]
Wish I could take you back in time, behind these eyes
See the roots of my traits inside to understand me
Life and its events have led me to who I am now (who I am now)
But still, I'm tryin' to embrace imperfections to be better now (be better now)

[Outro]
I often lose my focus
Maybe 'cause I'm purposeless
I don't know what's in my head
All I want's a breath of fresh air