Blue Mind
Raise my eyes to a sun that never shines
And I'm saying goodbye to a life that is not mine

James Dean said you're only great if you live forever
We'll both live forever, just maybe not together
I don't know if Dean believed in God
And I don't mean to make the conversation odd
But I don't know sometimes if I do either
You might be a newbie or a lifetime believer
You might be stuck in religion, you're a rat, you underachiever
What about that church girl who got molested, did ya leave her?
Ah, she was filled with demons, right?
It was a lie just to keep the stories right
Every sin will be brought to the light? Yeah right
Religious people bury their skeletons in the middle of the night
And all religious people do is try to find different ways to pick the same old fights
And snuff out the same bright lights
Because people throw rocks at things that shine
You probably bought this album because you think that I'm fine
And that's the only time people think that I'm fine
It's when they're talking about my blue eyes while ignoring my blue mind, yeah
So I raise my eyes to a sun that never shines
And I'm saying goodbye to a life that is not mine

And I found myself jumping on the same old flights to the same old cities
I came up in circles reminiscent of the '50s
The cult I grew up in is reminiscing like they miss me
And I know because I see their names on my Instagram stories
Ran me out of that cult, but still they adore me
Ah, to hell with the religious, they honestly bore me
It's comical that they tried to destroy me
Because I'm a giant, and these ants just annoy me
And boy, oh boy, you gossipers adore me
You asked for Clayton Jennings so I'm giving you more of me
No way I'll live to see forty-three
I think morbidly
I was on the menu, and the Devil ordered me
Feels like I'm on the front line, and he's ordering me
It feels like I'm morphing
Match stick, fuel on my body, but I'm not scorching
Toss me the torch because it's time for some burning
Just wait for the rest of the songs if you think this one's concerning
Every page I begin turning
Every accuser begins squirming
You just hate me because you wish you were me
Or Jamie
Or angry you couldn't have my baby
Want me to shut up about my accusers?
Then one of your papa bears is gonna have to pay me
For three years, you schemed on me and played me
It takes a real weirdo to be obsessed, unstable, and that crazy
And who are these people?
Name me! Name me!
I would if I was the same we
But something inside of is changing
And the priorities in my life are rearranging
And suddenly, I'm not reading lies about me while raging
I'm just playing
Cage me
Because I'm writing stories, and I'm just getting started for the people who played me
So I guess that's unfortunate that I didn't fold, rollover, or forfeit
Clayton died, and the fans all balled
If I get famous, rich, or die, that's the only time you'd wished you called
And I raise my eyes to a sun that never shines
And I'm saying goodbye to a life that is not mine
I'm free from chains and ties that burn
I take all I can before I run out of time
And this life that isn't mine