Zombie
Wake up, dress shirt
When I slip it on looks like I don’t hurt
Better hide the fucking tears when you get to work
Driving in my car, praying saying cuss words
God, please get me through another fucking day
When I’m there all I want to do is escape
But I need everybody to love me
I go in cracking jokes, man that dude’s so funny
Still pretty young, see
He’s climbing the ladder
I just hope there’s a noose at the top, come faster
Dad says my future is all green pasture
But I never want to leave my bed, fear’s my master
Why do I even move? What do I have to lose?
Wish I still cared about anything, it’s the truth
Call it depression, but I call it life
Hesitate every time that I eat with a knife
And it don’t feel right
I don’t know where I’m going
In the car after work and the tears keep flowing
I harbor hatred, it keeps growing
I have sex with a girl, but she’ll never know me
If she knew my pain she would run away
My own mom’s praying that I live another day
Calling, checking in every other day
Tell her I’m okay, already spent $10k
Yeah, I do not like life
What will it take for me to feel right?
Every fucking second I’m in a fight
And none of the voices want me alive
Yeah
They don’t want me alive, yeah
Yeah

All of the cancer warnings don’t phase me
I do tobacco products ‘till I’m hazy
I buy drugs from people who are shady
Some say the alcohol is what made me
Drove on the straight and narrow
Rode the path like a scarecrow
The emptiness still was there though
Now the God of Wine always clears my head so
I just meditate in the morning with merlot
But I do it just to get through work though
My base line is shit, but they don’t get it though
I feel numb, I smile at her and hit though
She wants to go on vacation, I want to sit at home
Yeah I’m in it though
Sunk too deep
Got the blood of a jackal, it’s running through me
I was a kid with conscience, what happened to me?
Saw a light and I fought it, I found it soothing
In bed, tomorrow I’ll do it again
Every day awake's a day that I dread
Already unraveled, pull any thread
At least there was nothing that I left unsaid
I do not like life
What will it take for me to feel right?
Yeah, what will it take for me to feel right?