Reason
Stuck in my head
Only feel safe in my bed
But the anxiety is killing me
These pills don’t help with anything
Just want to fix all this
Just trying to do my best without sabotaging everything
I’m sabotaging everything

But it’s getting harder
Turning nightmares into dreams
Life is the monster
It leaves me weak at the knees
I feel like I’m blind and there’s no good to be seen
But when I see you smile it gives me a reason to breathe

Take these pills twice a day
Maybe then you’ll feel OK
Or maybe you’ll lose more of yourself
Start to feel like someone else
20 mg doesn’t make me who I am
It just helps me get through the day
Helps me numb some of the pain. Shattered glass on the floor
Substances killing me
I need something more
I’m stuck in routine
I need some kind of relief
A reason to breathe
I think I finally believe