Its too late
"It's too late for me to stop to care about what you said"
Engraved inside my mind these words are wounds; if
Life's a dream it certainly ain't lucid

Stupid, every fucking day I feel so stupid
Cuz I hide behind my fears, it don't excuse shit
I swear that I am tired of always doing this

And I'm drained of all my energy; maybe I should play along
Cuz time is coming after me and I don't wanna stay alone
Ain't nothing changed at seventeen; I thought this year I'll change it all
There's no need to feel bad for me; I fucked it up all on my own

I'm tired of feeling empty; I know I need to socialize
But thinking of the panic, that's nothing that I wanna fight
These demons in my attic ain't fought off with a fucking smile
I'm fine's the new unhappy; so you don't ever have to ask again

And I promised that I'd change but run away every fucking time I have the chance
Knowing life ain't gonna wait, I'm sinking deeper in this bed of wet cement
And I'm so sick of feeling bad because my fears beg me to stop and I relent
And I know it's not okay but for a second, maybe, we could play pretend