Lost in thought
Im just lost in thought

So this ones gunna be about alot of thoughts

Like a ladder I can go down or up

They want me down and out

So uma check in on my downer self

Between us its always been ruff

I like to be happy but all he

Dose is think about my past

And all my ex's

While im thinking about my next move

But while where on the subject
I don't know why I ever went there

Last time I was there

I had to go coz it hurts

I didn't wanna know what's in her purse

I know she's on the shit and she needs to get off of it

Maybe if she was honest with her self it would help

She's needs to get some help

I write this shit to help

Im on this beat to express how I feel

Or maybe its how I felt

But lately she's was'nt who I fell in love with

And it was hard knowing I can't  help im hopeless

Knowing she cheated
But at the bottom of my heart

She still doesn't deserve this

I wanna burn this bridge

But I wanna get across because I feel like she needs this

Maybe i shouldn't of broke up with her 

I mean its only her loss

But baby im still griefing

Over my uncle and alot
And there's people that still need him

And we all need someone

And i've I learnt alot

Especially what need is

Today I spoke to my nephew
And it meant alot
Thanks to my brother
He deserves a hug

Im proud of him
Even tho I know its all meaningless

They both mean alot

I scream im locked

Inside of my thoughts
Inside im hiding alot more

Im trying to unlock doors

This room is crowded with how I feel

And all my lost thoughts

I don't know how this is real

I don't know how I should feel

I know its alot with the thoughts

And I can't stop but the walls are covered in notes

And those notes are full of memories and those I care about



And tomorrow im gunna open my window
And air it out

And whatch them float

They where there

But now there gone

I love to watch things go

I miss alot
But I miss myself the most
Some things I'll never say
So some things you'll never know

Im so over you are you over me because im not over you

Mixed emotions like why am I so emotional

I like being used
But there's no use for a broken tool

Elisha good news im no longer inlove with you

But is that really the truth
I can leave it but the bruise
Thats not who I wanna be
Why do I care when none of you's really cared for me

I always over share

Like why dose it still have its grip on me

I've never known who's there

But it never really bothered me

I've always known how to play there
Games
And I know lifes not fair

Im the only one to blame

Remember this

I wrote this while I care

Uma ghost its like im not there

Im sinking but im not in quick sane

Tell my folks im sorry there's some things they just won't get

Kayla im sorry but I was never a real man

You should of got the picture

Im a drop kick and a preacher

Yeah I cared but I was still caught up about Elisha

We did what we done and nothings ever perfect

Was it all worth it

Yeah I overshare
I never needed anyone

Im me and I'll do this solo

So
So long

Im no longer holding on

I know I  probably shouldn't upload this one