Happy Fathers Day
If you don’t know yourself
How can you know self-doubt?
If you haven’t even dipped a toe in
How can you say you can’t climb out?
You’ve never felt fear, you’ve only felt faux
The fact you are here is heaven
Don’t you dare call hell home
There is something inside you, something unknown
Your suffering sublime speaks
Its words nothing but prose
Worth even less than money or gold
If you didn’t know yourself
How could you know self-loathing?
Your curse is a lie
It’s time for you to break it and show mе
I’ve been using this time to master еxtolling
I’ve bet my whole life on this one trick pony
And I don’t even care if it loses
So long as it runs
Its effort is proven
Goddamnit man, you’re a human
Ignore every voice except yours and use it
Just buck up, touch the machine and do it
I am patient but I have my limits
I am desperate to read the things you’ve written
I won’t be here forever
And neither will you
It’s truly now or never
We need to see this through
You need to exhale the air
I need to see it move
I need to know what you believe is true
And that your private jokes are comedic too
If not for me
Then do it for you
You know who you are, you know what you’ve got
You and I both know what you want
For they are exactly one and the same
A novel-length’s footnote under your name
I need to know how to properly address you
By partaking of the pains that have violently blessed you
Oh, you bloody beautiful mess, you
Look
I can tell you why
But I’m not too privy to try
We see our sights through different eyes
My self-defense is a thin disguise
I know it may not seem too logical
But trust me
I am deeply versed in the art of impossible
I’ve spent many years practicing alone
And never felt strong enough to actively atone
I gave myself migraines
I made myself sick
I underwent eye strain
And dammed the blood that made my heart tick
I cut myself out of the equation
‘Cause it was easier to solve without my engagement
But I know that you’re right
In that I wholly know nothing
All I’ve ever lost
Was what I have taken from me
I guess I’m a masochist
Because the sting was pretty funny
I’ve not even cracked the surface of the surface
My dramatic plight is incomparably worthless
This is a hard reset
I’m recompiling the tenebrous code
Biological branch-and-bound
To eliminate all unnecessary nodes
Thank you for the push, and for expending your breath
Without it I never would’ve fallen to my death
You turned deadlines into headlines
But I won’t post the set times
Who may show will, so be it
I guess I really don’t need anyone to see it
So long as I run and so long as I believe it
If this is true, then execute movement
For in my eyes and yours
My trauma will be proven
Your praise is a gift
Your interest is a savior
A bridge across the rift
A path straight through danger
Just a couple simple steps
May feel like a mile
But you’ve woven me a net
And the thought evokes a smile
And even if the gap is not worth crossing
It will be worth the while
You’ve helped me believe that we all have a purpose
But above all else, I must offer commendations
Truly, thank you for your service