When You Left
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I was a toddler when you bailed my mind could not equate
Blaming myself and no one else for why I was dead weight
Remember crying every night inside my heart would ache
You was my mom you can't just up and leave take an eternal break
At first I suffered with the scars of emotional abuse
Then came a bunch of insecurities with mental issues
I kept asking myself if it was me then what would I choose
And everytime I chose my son so tell why couldn't you
Loosened screws dangle inside my head growing contemplating
What to lose run to the bottle live free inebriated
Tossed around, you turned life upside down the spark to my hatred
Stripped of love from my own mother clothed but felt so naked
You barely here then disappear I needed your love mommy
You didn't care, a child should never have pain as a hobby
Patiently waited but you never even told me sorry
You been away for a long time so let me tell you bout me
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1:05
Did it on my own
You were not around
Trials and tribulations came my way
Nearly lost myself
Hardships knocked me down
Ooo yeahh
Took a while for me to stand on my own feet
Took my losses shed my tears suffered defeat
Now it's water under the bridge buried six deep
Shining like a star going far making history
1:30

1:30
911 call up the doctor send the dispatch
I never felt a pain that cannot tame and hurts me this bad
Try running from my demons that you birthed when you left last
Had burning questions seeking for the truth but you I couldn't ask
Stay plaguing my mind
Smiling pretending that everything's fine
Act like its kosha but craving some closure
So tired just wanted to leave it behind
Past ain't the future I cannot rewind
Looked in the mirror wipe my eye from crying
Hopeless but focused I made a new promise
That I'll move beyond this it's my time to shine
Just look at me now whoa
Stood up turned my life around, new purpose I found, within making songs whoa
I won't let you bring me down, was lost now I'm found, just look at my crown glow
Share my pain audibly covered in honesty using my voice to speak truth
At first I was angry, walking near insanity, but this path was due to you
Was barely here then disappeared I needed your love mommy
You didn't care, a child should never have pain as a hobby
Patiently waited but you never even told me sorry
You been away for a long time here's what you missed about me
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2:22
Did it on my own
You were not around
Trials and tribulations came my way
Nearly lost myself
Hardships knocked me down
Ooo yeahh
Took a while for me to stand on my own feet
Took my losses shed my tears suffered defeat
Now it's water under the bridge buried six deep
Shining like a star going far making history
2:47


2:50
Hear my breath
That's the sound of me avoiding death
That's my heart beating surviving through your aftermath
Ma when you left within my depths it hurt a lot at that
Hear my breath
That's the sound of me avoiding death
That's my heart beating surviving through your aftermath
Ma when you left within my depths it hurt a lot at that
Elevated overcame demons plaguing my mind
Faked it till I made it smiling pretending everything's fine
Caged in pain and hatred finally leaving it all behind
If you got life you got a chance believe in yourself you'd be fine
Don't stop trying
I never stopped trying
I found my way to better days do you see me now mom
Became a man stand on my own even when you were gone
The truth is that I had the strength inside me all along
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3:40
Did it on my own
You were not around
Trials and tribulations came my way
Nearly lost myself
Hardships knocked me down
Ooo yeahh
Took a while for me to stand on my own feet
Took my losses shed my tears suffered defeat
Now it's water under the bridge buried six deep
Shining like a star going far making history
4:05