March 10th
[ Chorus ]

I knew from the start that it would never end in the way that I hoped, and I got it rough
Was in over my head and I took it too far on my mental, told myself I’m not enough
I ruined myself tryna get over you and ever since then I’ve never wanted love
I just really want to find someone who will care for me until then I will not give a fuck

[ Verse 1 ]

No, I never wanted to meet her she came into my life and took me into her arms
I was on my own waiting for my brother to take his break from work so we could go get lunch
All of a sudden, I’m outside the gym making small talk about hating school so much
Little did I know we were waiting for the key to the situation that would erupt

I’ve never played pool before but for her I was a pro and I totally shot it up
Never played a more flawless game not knowing what the rules were but I still tried to sauce her up
We continued and it turned into something special or at least that’s what I had thought it was
It never dawned on me that she did not care for me or who the guy that she wanted was

[ Chorus ]
I knew from the start that it would never end in the way that I hoped, and I got it rough
Was in over my head and I took it too far on my mental, told myself I’m not enough
I ruined myself tryna get over you and ever since then I’ve never wanted love
I just really want to find someone who will care for me until then I will not give a fuck

[ Verse 2 ]

Now two years have passed and I’m reflecting on these words that I wrote back when I was alone
In my room as a freshman in high school and man do I really think I was a fucking fool
I slaved over the thought of you for months on end to the point where I looked like a fucking tool
And I always came back around because deep down I had never stopped having feelings for you

Remember when you called me up randomly talking about how you felt super alone
And without a thought I put an outfit on and drove to you while we were still on the phone
I felt like the man when I pulled up and found you on the second floor with your bookbag on
But your ex was downstairs and you brought me all the way to the mall so you could put on a show

I never suspected a thing I was blinded by love or whatever it might’ve been
After that day I went home and had to cope with myself and take what had happened in
Never in my life had I done such a selfless act that ended with my heart shattering
I want you to know that I forgive because you were young, and cause you did not know a thing