Day by Day
My mind is spinning so far out of control
It's hard to accept, don't think that I will ever feel whole
I don't think that I will ever even get to grow old
And if I kill myself, please gods bless my soul

This depression has always been a plague on my life
Always filling me with anger, poison and strife
I have to take five pills just so I can feel sane
But even then all I ever get is pain

Shrink says to stay home less and go get out more­­­­
But it's hard when your anxiety kicks in at the door
It feels like my feelings have made a contract of war
And I'm the civvie who ends up on the floor

Cruising down the street in a town that don't sleep
Tryna keep my mind busy with the thunderous beats
4am, I don't think that l will ever get sleep
I pull up in that empty lot and weep

Shit, just the other night I had to leave work early
My mind was overflowing with depression and worry
Thoughts racing so fast that my vision got blurry
It'd be a miracle if I made it to thirty
Suicide on my mind and it's hard to get out
It's just a constant stream of hellish fucking panic and doubt
It's like my brain is just a barren wasteland in a drought
Make me wanna holler, scream, and then shout

It's difficult just to find the pleasure in things
Anxiety on what the next day might bring
Everyone is flying and I'm still tryna get my wings
Despair, even if we livin' like kings

Tryna find a way to make the pain go away
It's a struggle but you gotta take that shit day by day
Not much we can do except just hope and pray
That our minds might be free from this prison someday

Take them meds, pop on a track and relax
Craft them lines, perfect my rappin' syntax
It's all that I can do just to keep my head focused
And let them pills work that hocus pocus

Take a sec to chill in this get-up-and-go
Society sobriety is not for all of us, though you gotta
Try to free your mind from all the sadness and woe
The only thing that keeps me moving is the parable flow

I kick back and spark up that bowl in the bong
The stress and all the pain starts to die before long
The stress and pain that you feel makes you strong
Now chill with me and help me rock this song
Don't let the stress of burden hold a weight on your heart
Don't let your inner voice keep telling you that you isn't smart
Don't let yourself believe that you're not a fucking work of art
You gotta let that shit go like a fart

Hop up in the whip and take that shit for a drive
Bump the tunes until you feel the funky flow and the vibe
Do it how you do it till you feel like you are alive
Cuz that way we all might just survive