Juniper Moon
She says I'm funny
But I'm a joke
The center of attention
In the sultry candle glow
Of this cocktail bar
I truly can't afford
I should be saving all my money
But I hate to feel ignored
So I invite her out
She brings a friend
We'll find a bar to dance in
Until the evening ends
And she says
Let's do this again
I agree
Then stumble home
Collapse into my bed

No amount of stupid one-liners
Can make me any taller
Can make me any brighter
She'll say
He's charming
With pity to her friend
I'll think about it later
When I'm back to feeling lonely again
I sober up
Remember when
We were bumping through
A crowded room
I paused to ask her friend
So what am I
She said you're bi
I laughed it off
And deep inside
I knew she might be right

And no amount of stupid one-liners
Can let me live a lucid dream
Of being her desire
I guess
It's what I'm best at I guess
Confidence and showmanship
Until the evening ends
Overthinking everything
Emptiness again
Cocktail bars and shooting stars
We were never friends