Haunted
[Verse 1]
Damn it why did it happen again
Wake up I’m sweating these rivers again
Thoughts of you making me shiver I lay here in bed
I dreamt you had kissed me to death
I’m no good at being friends
But that doesn’t mean you’re allowed to come invade my head
There’s a chance that I’m still bitter but hearing your whispers are telling me that I’ll never rest
Get out my head, yeah get out my head I pray for a moment of silence
I sit at my desk, I sit at my desk I’m thumbing through pictures I’m finding
Admit I’m upset, admit I’m upset alone is when I feel enlightened
Getting undressed, she getting undressed with him so I reach where the knife is
Laying them flat on the table repeatedly stabbing the pictures
I don’t need scissors
Into the future they’re shouting and calling us misses and mister
Same address delivered
Holding my head as that timeline disappears
I might just cut off my ears
Cuz I just gotta let go somehow
To save me from hearing the things that I fear
[Hook]
I thought I killed our past
But the pain it goes too deep
I’d smile at your laugh
Now I’m punching til I bleed
Your ghost it follows me (yeah)
It talks when I’m asleep
I’m trapped inside of your home
You’re haunting all my dreams

[Verse 2]
What if I made some different decisions
You’d sit me down somewhere and force me to listen
I swore that last time love was forbidden
I’m reminiscing there was something I missed it in the words that you said like a message was hidden
But ah somebody give me some distance
It’s been years since we were talking in person if I hit you now would you preach your forgiveness
I can’t let go of the vision that we’d both be satisfied living the rest of our lives
I try to picture your face it’s expressing surprise if I could just go back in time
How could I start to explain if you were only mine
I wouldn’t lose sleep every night
Making me red in the eye
This week I felt sick more than twice
Maybe I’d melt you if you picked up the phone and you said that I love you even if I know it’s a lie
I guess I’m not like all the others you chose
What was so special bout them I don’t know
Feels like you’re testing my patience you’re watching me drown while you’re sitting with him on the boat
Looking back I like to think that learned a few things yeah I like to think that I have grown
[Hook]
I thought I killed our past (killed it all)
But the pain it goes too deep (way too deep)
I’d smile at your laugh (smile at your laugh)
Now I’m punching til I bleed (til I bleed)
Your ghost it follows me (follows in my sleep)
It talks when I’m asleep (talks at night)
I’m trapped inside of your home (trapped inside)
You’re haunting all my dreams

[Bridge]
Past is the past and we cannot change it gotta let go now
Happy for you are you happy for me cuz we’re taking our own routes
Maybe I’ll see you again when neither of us will expect it
We won’t have to say a thing but we’ll think about our connection
That happy ending in the movies maybe that would’ve been us
Maybe you’re not really thinking like this I just made it up
But I’m willing to bet that you also imagine the what ifs and maybes
Like what if had us a kid of our own and a home full if safety

[Hook]
I thought I killed our past (killed it all)
But the pain it goes too deep (way too deep)
I’d smile at your laugh (smile at your laugh)
Now I’m punching til I bleed (til I bleed)
Your ghost it follows me (follows in my sleep)
It talks when I’m asleep (talks at night)
I’m trapped inside of your home (trapped inside)
You’re haunting all my dreams