‏‎conjure me spirit
[verse: jordanisdead]

Conjure a world of perfection
And it will never be enough, one day maybe i’ll learn my lesson
And i let myself escape into these self written fictions
And man, i been fucking missing, but i been missing you
Surrounded by chaos and this confusion, i wish i could visit you
Sorry, i know that there’s so much torment that just lives in you
Blood floods the porcelain plain and that’s the sacrifice you made
I’m living safe, and that’s the world you want to save
The memories you bear are just a burden i won't understand
You had the courage to fight, while i turned around and ran
My wings were clipped, i regret never jumping out that window
Cause, you was my best friend, that evolved into my hero
You were everything ever i needed, very reason that i’m breathing
So stubborn while you was leaving, i’m alone and fucking bleeding
Now i don’t know who is there to catch me if i fall
You couldn’t stay and protect me cause you had to protect us all
Yea, you had to protect us all
I hate that i’m dependent, that’s an aspect of myself that you defended
Our best days are in our past, and now i wish they never ended
[verse: jordanisdead]

And now that i’m reading this letter, man i wish we were together
More than ever, i can’t live like this forever
I need you by my side, i wish that you survived
I need you by my side, i wish you were alive
We won’t spend another day together, too surreal for me to comprehend
We ain't had your funeral yet, i can't believe it was my friend
Who took the bullet and the shrapnel￼, i can't fight alone in battles
Accept what others defend, that’s the road i never traveled, my wings are way too fragile
Your soul was too pure for me to just keep it to myself
I’m so selfish, there’s more people that will always need your help
I’m a coward, i wish that i took your bullet, if i said it how i felt
Now i don’t know who is there to catch me if i fall
You couldn’t stay and protect me, you had to protect us all