Chris Brown In The Lambo
I'm a walking contradiction with these compositions
Say I'm the illest
& that's sickening
I should mock these feelings
Pop the top of the ceiling
I came a long way from hopping fences
Getting chased by cops through buildings
Still I box with different
There's only one woman who made me wanna change, I deemed her worth it
The problem was she often saw me stubborn
I'm sitting here with a drafted text telling her she should be with me
But I only fear God & a read receipt
My need is me
Exactly why God has steady been silent
My prayers haven't been violent, they've been violets
My mindset's been whatever
Isolated in a room full of worshippers
Standing in the middle of a room where many hurts occurred
Often at my hand, yet I'm shooing folks away
That pesky devil stay using old mistakes
Living like I sorta know my soul's at stake
Like I don't wake up with demons pinning me down
I heard talk is cheap, I throw a penny in the crowd
Many wish to be loud but I'm chillin
I stopped asking how, instead I pray to be made willing
I stopped following dreams
Hip Hop gave druggies a mic, I can't follow the fiends
I'm watching a different movie, while ppl following scenes
I see hell when I close my eyes, no longer can follow the screams
But easier said than done
Lord knows its easier just to run
Wish there was ease in becoming
I told Marcus the resolve's more important than results
But what if all your faults is all your fault
Can you draw from happy thoughts?
Positive vibes?
Gotta swallow my pride to be an Optimus Prime
I heard options are nice but i gotta stop & decide
I'm a lot, I can't hide
May God be my guide