Wallace
There’s a thing in a book of David Foster Wallace
About how when a man jumps off a building
It’s not that he’s not scared of falling anymore
It’s just that the alternative is so much worse

And so then you are invited to consider
What could be so awful that leaping to your death
Would seem like an escape from it

Once i had a week when i thought that all my actions
Are completely determined by external factors
It felt like i had permanently lost control
I couldn’t grasp on my identity
I had no soul

Of course then I wasn’t feeling very healthy
And things in my head were mostly dictated
By the poor state in which my nervous system was
But If it hadn’t lasted just for a couple of days
I would totally consider suicide as an option
I would totally consider suicide as an option
I would totally consider suicide as an option
I would totally consider suicide as an option
I would totally consider suicide as an option yeah