TOXIC MESS
(Verse:)
Once you pop your cherry
You won't live happy
Cause he will tell his friends
That he was your first time
My feelings that i couldn't bury
You lied that I was your first time
And took my cherry
Cause you were desperate for sex
Should've known you were toxic
Cause you were in a hurry

(Chorus:)
You were so damn toxic
The motives you had for me, toxic
You were a toxic mess
Couldn't breathe for a second
You always gave me stress
I felt violated when you saw me undress
Cause you were so damn toxic
Everyday you make me trust you less
(Verse:)
I cry for help
Like a lost child
When I feel overwhelmed with the weight on my shoulders
I couldn't carry myself
Without carrying your guilt
Then you go hold her
While i feel like i am not enough
The public judges me
And i can't be private without showing off
My secrets are in your hands
And you use them against me
You tell me don't look at other guys
Or you'll punish me
I try and try to get you away from me
But you are the devil building my enemies

(Verse:)
I know i told you i'm sorry
I'm sorry for trying to love you
I'm sorry for being a good girlfriend
I'm sorry for being a good wife
In the end i ended up being hurt again
You couldn't let me live my life
I never felt i was right
Couldn't feel beautiful wearing a skirt
Without you saying i'm dressing to cheat
Couldn't talk without feeling the worst
The times I think at night
I wish you weren't my first
(Chorus:)
You were so damn toxic
The motives you had for me, toxic
You were a toxic mess
Couldn't breathe for a second
You always gave me stress
I felt violated when you saw me undress
Cause you were so damn toxic
Everyday you make me trust you less

(Verse:)
Call the paramedics
Cause my heart gave up trying to beat again
My body was never mine
Without you wanting to always win
You keep using me like a toy
I feel like telling the truth is a sin
I come back cause you twist my words
And make me feel like i need to try again
I will never cry in front of my family
And show that i am weak again
I will take his toxic ways
And ask god to send me help
Even though he says he's my only friend
I can't run away through the open door
Cause i might never see his face again
(Verse:)
This toxic shit
Baby it's annoying
I can't remember the last time we were in love
Without the consent arguing and throwing
We can have sex as much as we want
We just can't go to bed knowing
One of us isn't happy
The guilt is in me, it's overflowing
The toxic mess in the air
Will just keep on growing

(Chorus:)
You were so damn toxic
The motives you had for me, toxic
You were a toxic mess
Couldn't breathe for a second
You always gave me stress
I felt violated when you saw me undress
Cause you were so damn toxic
Everyday you make me trust you less