Depression
{Verse 1}
I miss the old you
Your words cut like a knife
You'd don't seem to care, cause you left me
Who really missed me, haven't been in school for weeks
I kept making excuses, to stay home
I've change not the new me, used to smile,but only wear it
When am in public, so no one can notice how am really feeling
I've bet no one even care how I'll actually feel deep inside
I am alone here
Not rich yet poor
I have nothing to fear, for I've seen the roof
 and sleeping in the floor
Afraid to date again, am fearing that I'll might get hurt again
This is me, eighteen yet am in this dark room, filled with stressed, and everyday dealing depression...

{Verse 2}
I am a laughing stock
Laughing outside, but dead inside
My heart is broken into pieces
For I have no one to sit beside
Many followers in social media
Yet I am alone, no true love in sight
I'll cry to god, why is it hard to find real love
Nowdays no one is loyal, all of my exes played me
I'll walk around trying to find love
But not one is the right one
Oh god, I'll can't no more my heart is in pain
I'm crying silently, so no one can hear me
I like this girl, had my shot
But something told me not to
Cause at the end, I'll will have a bullet right in my heart
I wish ay was buried six feet under
I'll see the future, it's nothing but a living misery
Why did god put me on this earth
Was it to make fun of me
My life is a joke, am surrounded by these walls
Hearing these voices
Can't find the way out, am forever trapped on this hole
I guess is time for me to say goodbye
{Verse 3}
These haters they ain't  helping
They letting depression eat me alive
My story is too sad, no one will ever understanded
I feel like I'm going fucking crazy
Man ay feel insane,maybe there's something wrong with my brain
They say just take a moment, and just take a breather
 but anxiety is getting crazy and I'm feeling weaker
My past
 these memories it haunted me for life
They always got me
 thinking bout that mothafuckin knife
My nightmares are getting worse
It's like I have a fucking cruse
And there's no way to escaped, or be reserved
For the longest I've been depressed
Lately I felt so ashamed
Thinking I was the one to fucking blame
Little did I know this life is a game
And I'm never gonna be the same
I'll will never changed
Unless true loves comes to me then maybe
I will be, but who's know when it could happen
I'm dedicated this song to those who had hurt me
Just know that am still eighteen and forever broken hearted, will die without being loved, cause of depression had just killed me........