Heart of the Matter
[Verse: Jay Sanon]
You don’t want love you just want companionship
Love is ugly takes a lifetime to manage it
And only a couple of seconds to damage it
Only by grace we can every hope to manage it
You ether whole or full of holes that’s just the way it goes
Ain’t no relationship can ever satisfy your soul
Spent alotta time lost on this weary road
But found direction when I tore down them cafes of gold
I gave my heart to girls who really ain’t deserve it
All because my view of self was truly worthless
Ignoring the fact that I was purchased
And drunk off the venom that’s provided you the serpent
See it’s hard to see clearer when there’s crack up in your mirror
And the person staring back at you ain’t getting any nearer
Yeah we share the same features but there’s clearly been a change
Cause all I see is a slave that once used to be a king
Who traded in his crown for some whips any some chains
Momentary comfort the only thing vanity brings
Used to blame K for everything that went wrong
But now I see the parts I played in it all along
I used you for fulfillment every time I felt the alone
And I bruised your heart in ways that I’ll never know
I was the person that you cheated on your man with
After class flirting laughing holding hands with
Deceit all over my head like some dandruff
And justified it all while giving birth to this cancer
I called it game but really manipulation
Touching on your body ignoring the stipulations
Got some nerve to ever call let it temptation
When I’m the one empowering everything that I’m facing
And to my first love I’m praying that you listen
Sorry that our relationship was forced to a collision
You said you needed space but I never gave the distance
The fear of losing you was something I couldn't live with it
No doubt about it our visions was surely clouded
By the naïveté of our hearts and souls
Late nights speaking the union we once thought we founded
Resentment and bitterness would start to grow
Cause you with Somebody not me
Girl Insecurity got me
Got me all crooked like a Nazi
Fatal Attractions Tell Me what happened
Too the person that I used to know?
Lost in darkness a living breathing carcass was indeed my state
Fully aware of my mistakes now I plead for grace
Lord forgive me for the hearts that I’ve broken
In trying to find love even though Your arms are open
Love is not a feeling or a tangling up your spine
It’s a gift that we give when we come to the Divine
It’s only through Jesus we can ever hope to find
The love and satisfaction that was made for our design
May this album be the catalysts to bring you peace of mind
Healing from every scar Truth to every lie
Can’t love correctly till you’ve been correctly loved
By the God who sent His Son from the sky above
He came down now my vision‘s been restored
Cause in His right hand is pleasures forever more