Many hapas go through the exact same thing. The way I see it: Too white for Asian people and too Asian for white people. At least this has been my experience all my life. Depending on your mindset, it can be a blessing rather than a curse. I now think it's for the better as I can determine my own identity, goals, and desires free from the typical stereotypes of either ethnic groups. Just remember you aren't alone, there are many other hapas/eurasians that go through this.