I never considered myself a fucking gay before. I typically am only ever attracted to women. However I recently found out that my long time crush identifies as a man. Apparently he's been a man all this time. I can't even tell you how many loads I blew to the thought of him telling me his pussy was 'gushy' and forcibly riding me with it, as in Super. Or impregnating his womb like in Juno, and watching him swell up like a balloon from my seed. Now confronted with the fact that I've been having these pansy fantasies for years, I don't know where to turn. I thought about signing up for a campus LGBTQ club but I don't know if I'll be accepted since I'm not really faggot. I've also tried browsing Grindr but none of these other men appeal to me. They actually all look gross and unattractive compared to my crush. Should I come out publicly? Or come out of the closet?