I'm in the same boat, I would like to have a family but that's impossible- landlords have become hateful, corrupt, creepy, unaccountable and toxic because of renting prices and even when you 'win' with property you still lose later in court, where I've been before. The only thing that really keeps me going and gives me purpose is raising my grandson because her mother, my daughter, has no money to be spending time with her own son, sad and pathetic beyond belief. I can no longer even talk to my own daughter anymore because she has become so exhausted and sad, any conversation about anything turns into an argument because she is so rundown and overworked. Living standards for women today on any level are now impossible so maybe at some point look into helping your child or grandchildren to give your life purpose (?) Just an open suggestion- I know that's a big step.