text: Michelle Williams Still Struggling With the Meaning of Heath Ledger's Death 
   
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   Which isn't to say the empty void left behind has been filled; when asked in her 
   
   
   
   "I've found meanings around the circumstance but the actual event doesn't have it, I can't find it," Williams says. "I can't find a meaning for it." 
   
   
   
   In an otherwise upbeat interview about her blossoming success from 'Blue Valentine' and working with 
   
   
   
   "I can kind of got obsessed with that for a while. A lot of things died," Williams said. "There's a line from a book that gave me so much comfort and it says when you've truly lost everything, then at least you can become rich in loss." See the interview after the jump. In Michelle Williams ' first network interview since fiance Heath Ledger died in 2007, the actress looks healed and happier than in years before.Which isn't to say the empty void left behind has been filled; when asked in her ABC interview if the meaning of Heath Ledger's has settled in over the years, Williams can't put it into many words."I've found meanings around the circumstance but the actual event doesn't have it, I can't find it," Williams says. "I can't find a meaning for it."In an otherwise upbeat interview about her blossoming success from 'Blue Valentine' and working with Ryan Gosling , Williams notes that one of the things she struggled with for the longest time was dealing with the fact that life can easily change in an instant."I can kind of got obsessed with that for a while. A lot of things died," Williams said. "There's a line from a book that gave me so much comfort and it says when you've truly lost everything, then at least you can become rich in loss." 
   
   It was surreal for Williams when Heath's death didn't seem true, and she misses that feeling."In a strange way, I miss that year, because all those possibilities that existed then are gone," she says. "It didn't seem unlikely to me that he could walk through a door or could appear behind a bush. It was a year of very magical thinking, and in some ways I'm sad to be moving further and further away from it."Later in the interview, Gosling joins the group to talk about the pleasure of working with Williams."She's like a sexy cowboy," Gosling says.On whether or not they are dating, that's still not true -- yet."Creatively. We are 'doing it' creatively," Gosling said. "No, we're professionals. I always look like I'm lying. That's just my face." ||||| Starting in 1996, Alexa Internet has been donating their crawl data to the Internet Archive. Flowing in every day, these data are added to the Wayback Machine after an embargo period.
target: – Michelle Williams is moving on from Heath Ledger's death—and it makes her a little sad. Promoting her latest film Blue Valentine on Nightline, Williams recalled the first year without him: “In a strange way, I miss that year, because all those possibilities that existed then are gone. It didn't seem unlikely to me that he could walk through a door or could appear behind a bush. It was a year of very magical thinking, and in some ways I'm sad to be moving further and further away from it.” "I've found meanings around the circumstance but the actual event doesn't have it, I can't find it," she says of his death. "I can't find a meaning for it." Click for more from the interview and to watch the video.