GERRIT NICHOLAS ERASMUS
Mr Chairman, in my evidence I have said that this was a very tragic deed and everyone of us and especially I myself am extremely sorry and I feel sorry for the families who suffered because of this.  This was not a very heroic thing to do.  For me as a person, it degraded me.  Every day for 15 years or more, I Gerrit Erasmus had to live with this.  I'm trying to forget, I'm trying to put it behind me but I can say today it's almost impossible, you never forget this.
	And this is why I'm sitting here today and this is why I'm telling you exactly what I have done.  If I look back I would not have done it and hopefully I would never be in a position again to be involved in something like this.  And for us, I am not a murderer otherwise we could have murdered a lot of people here.  We've experienced many problems here, if we wanted to commit murder just for the sake of murder, we could have done that.