TESTIMONY_GIVER:
  I like staying alone.  I am some sort of a social recluse now.  I am very sensitive, and I am not sensitive to the children's needs.  I am just short-tempered.  I am supposed to be listening to the children, but I just don't know because I never ever have the patience.  And the picture remains with me.  As I've told you about this I will not sleep, because the picture comes back so vividly as if it happened yesterday.