MR LAX
I'm still unclear about the way you've answered these questions.  You're talking about things that have effected your life and your future.  What you're being asked is this, these terrible things that have happened to you and this experience that happened to you that has left you with nerves and other ailments, has that effected the way you are able to tell the story, the way you're able to remember what happened on that night in any way?  That's what you're being asked, do you understand?