NOHLE MOHAPE
After the death of Mapetla I was full of hate. I was full of hate that can never be countered. I was hating anybody who was in the police.  I hated them for their
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oppression.  Those were the people who were enforcing apartheid laws on us. They wanted us not to have rights.  Even the children, when you speak to them, you have to tell them these are the people who oppressed us, but one day they will change.  Now these police who are forcing apartheid laws on us will change.  
 That hate stayed with me.  Even that heavy load in my heart was also there, but I told myself that life must continue, I have to be very patient.  Even if I was full of hate, life continued.  You know, even if you don't forget this, even if you don't forget that Mapetla is dead, the children will wake him.  We agreed that this is a nice thing if we agreed as a family that we will go to the TRC and speak out about what happened.  The way we see things. The hard times that we went through.. We want to share with you the difficult times that we've been through.  
 I want to repeat, my hope is that the TRC will reveal, will try to find out what happened to their father, so that when my children are elderly people, they will know exactly what happened to their father. I think I should also know what happened, because as I am sitting here now, I don't know what happened, because he never had any grudges, he belonged to the people.  He was abducted from his house, healthy, supporting his family under the people who followed him.  I have the experience of being tortured, which he also went through.  Now after such things, nobody was to be blamed?