COMMISSIONER
This had a traumatic effect on the entire family.  I will briefly relate the effect it had on me, because it symbolises what - the same kind of effect it had on other members of the family.  I became bitter towards white people, and the fact that the majority of them voted for the National Party election after election.  I could never understand how they could sleep easy with an easy conscience at night knowing that black children were dying in the homelands, when black people were given the most menial jobs, and that the Government they voted for used every conceivable kind of dirty trick and brutality to suppress the legitimate resistance of black people against the oppression of apartheid.  In short I became anti-white, and this attitude was reinforced by an incident I also had when I was travelling in a train to Durban.  I had accidentally walked into a white compartment, and the white conductor came and swore at me, called me a coolie, and told me as soon as the train stops at the next station I must get into the next coach, which I had to do.