MR MCBRIDE
Allow me to finish.  And it was then that all my anguishing and whatever problems I might have had where taking the decision from non-violence to violence was taken.  That's the understanding under which I came into Special Ops.  I cannot whenever it suits me, decide no, I've got some problems with this operation.  I was acting in a military situation.  I'm not suggesting either way that I was forced or undue pressure was put on me, I'm saying that I did all of those discussions about killing with myself before I entered Special Ops.