TESTIMONY_GIVER:
 Without question reconciliation is necessary for the survival of our country.   And I think if it wasn't for our president, it would have perhaps been harder for me and many people like me, to even contemplate the possibility of reconciliation.   I think I feel particularly bitter because once I came back into the country I found that it did matter to me that I wanted my culture back.  I did feel - I do feel very bitter and angry that these people took my language, they took my being, and they turned it into this machine, and I have no doubt that the cultural aspect of what happened in this country was what - it was the springboard for the murderous behaviour of people like Eugene de Kok.  I have no doubt about this.   And I also know that there is an Afrikaner that to "belei", the Afrikaans term "beleindenis" is a term that is well understood.   And what De Klerk did after the acquittal of the generals around the KwaMakhuta massacre, to almost blame the victims for their own suffering, is unforgivable.   It reminded me of one of my lawyers who warned me that when I was beaten up that the police would say it is your fault, you attacked us, your eye jumped up and hit our poor policemen's fist.   It is turning the whole thing upside down.   There is no question to me that systemically the Broederbond, the Dutch Reformed Church, and the National Party, prepared the way, nurtured the culture that led to the suffering that we have heard from the truth commission - within the truth commission.