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But essentially this is what I have understood you to be saying, that you said to them, you are the person who is going to drive that motor vehicle, at the same time you have continuously said to us you were there to follow orders, you did very, very serious things because you were following orders, but the minor matter of who was driving your car, you dictated the terms on, essentially.
	I am just trying to marry the part of you that takes orders unquestioningly and the other half of you that will say to them, you can have my car if I drive it.  The two halves, put them together for me.