MRANGANENI PETROL PHOSHWANA
Can I say this adage in Venda which will clarify my position?  In Venda we say (through interpreter)
"A victim does not forget but the one who has victimised does forget."
So the issue of a shock here in fact imprinted this picture in my memory and my mind that I don't forget and I will never forget.  So it is not a shock that might have encouraged me to apply and call for amnesia and say I've forgotten this and that.