DJ MKHIZE
I think I am known countrywide by now because of what I did.  I did those horrendous things firstly because I was in a position of authority within the police force.  And therefore if I were to be granted amnesty I would not be in the same position as I was then.  Secondly there is no-one who would not be observing my movements worldwide.
	I cannot go and reside in a place without being identified as Ngina Mkhize.  The media has beamed my face throughout the country.  And this affects my life.  Therefore it means my life can equally be monitored by a small child.  Children can also identify me and therefore I don't see myself coming back to do the same things.
	And also the people who had influence on me are no longer there.  But the most important thing is the conscience that prevails in me; the conscience in which I trust.
	I would like to go back to society to prove to them that a person is capable of changing.  I would like to show them what talents and abilities I have, so that these could be used constructively within the society and the community in which I live.
	I don't have a formula now as to what I am going to do to gain all these things.  But that which comes from the bottom of my heart suggests that those are things that I have to do to repay the society.
	I have also indicated this to my legal representative.  I actually asked him if there isn't any help or assistance that I can engage in, knowing that the TRC has a Reparation Committee.  We know that people qualify in different ways so that they can get those financial assistances.
	I was told that the compensations range between R17 000 and R23 000.  I am therefore prepared that of all the people who are here, I am also prepared to make statements about one individual after another, that they died for political reasons and therefore they should qualify to get those compensations.
	I know that even though such a thing can happen, these people cannot be restored back into life.  That is just a tiny bit that can reflect my commitment.  If I had the ability, I would fork out whatever amount I had to assist these families.  But I don't have the financial capacity to do that.