DAVID SMITH
With regard to the hatred, if I though what position I had or could have had as a working person today at the place where I worked.  I already had a senior position.  I lost my job.  One of my children had to go to university the next year, but I was not able to do this.  He could not go to university.  My wife and my children suffered in consequence for 17 months.  I had no income whatsoever.  A young man of 37 years at that time being bordered because I was not able to continue with my work.  This caused me to feel deep hatred because I knew that these KRUGERSDORP HEARING TRC/GAUTENG
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policemen to whom I did nothing, I had great respect for them, because I knew that they were supposed to maintain law and order, but rather they showed that they could do as they pleased.  This cause great hatred in me.  Today I have friends who serve in the police, but even them could tell what I said then and that I told them then that I hate them because of what they did to me and my family.  Today this young son, for whom I had such great hopes, simply works at a normal place and I believe that he could have achieved more by today if it had not been for that incident.  I could have had a very good position myself.  The pain which I still experience, in many applications for work which I have had, when they hear that I have been bordered in that very industry, where for 20 years I had worked, and that then everything fell apart because of this incident.  This is what caused me to feel great hatred, deep hatred, but with the passage of time as my wounds healed I came to say as the Lord himself says, if I could forgive why not others.  It then came to me that I decided that I would forget what had happened and that I would attempt to patch together a better life.