FERDINAND BARNARD
I couldn't do that, Chairperson, I was in a situation where on a daily basis I committed crimes.  I led two lives, one was the life of a criminal, the other was the actual life that I had and at a certain point there was no more distinction for me.  I will admit readily today that I committed crimes which had absolutely nothing to do with politics.  You don't just become a cocaine addict and a crack addict with a habit of R2,000 a day and then just leave it.  I did everything, everything that they have said about me is the truth and then some.