PINKIE SIBIYA
As I've said it before, there was blood all over the ground.  The were some marks drawn on the ground and we heard that the police came to take some evidence and we were told that we mustn't touch that because it might tamper with the evidence.  There were three....   Later we found him at the mortuary.  In the township on that date there was great confusion because one of the Inkatha leaders were killed and people were saying that if one Inkatha member was killed other people should be killed to prepare the burial for him.  The time came where we had to bury him.  We didn't live in peace at home at that moment especially amongst the whole family, the children and other members of the family.  I had to leave and go to Johannesburg to SARO's offices because he was a member of this organization.  I explained to them about my problem.  They sent me back to Ermelo to the police to go and collect a statement.  The investigating officer was Mr Nkonjani.  I tried to look for Nkonjani and I was referred to Meyer and Meyer gave me some papers and he told me that the case is over so I can take the papers back to Johannesburg to give them to SARO.
 I took the papers back to Johannesburg and I gave them at the offices and I asked them to give me copies of the papers because I didn't know exactly who killed my husband so I wanted to find out what I got from the police that the case was over.  I came back with the papers trying to find a way as to how am I going to live with it because I didn't even have money to engage some lawyers in this case.  Even the children couldn't continue with their education like Vusa beside me.  He had to drop out from school.  He also realized that schooling wasn't well for him  because there was no one to support him and pay his school fees.  If he needed school shoes he couldn't get them in time or get them at all.  I would say that even now we are living within a thin thread and it's so difficult to survive.  We normally live by my brother who is also married.  I would say this is a painful situation for the whole family.  After discovering that the Truth Commission was coming to this area I went to give a statement to Mr Nkosi.  It's because I wanted some help.  I have a problem paying rent which is high.  I try to pay.  At the moment I paid about half of my rent and they told me that I must have paid the full balance before the 27th. ...(inaudible)  families.  From that time, that's the last time I got the help from these ...(inaudible) families and after the death of my husband they couldn't even help me at all.  
 I hope that maybe things to come to pass and we will discover the killers of my husband because at the moment this caused the estrangement between the families.  I would like to see the people convicted for his murder, just to find out their identities.  Maybe they are people whom I know.  Just to make sure that my children are also safe because I don't even know them.    That's all.