MS JAVENS
Then a lady that I'm very familiar with - somebody came to me that I didn't know and just - was there to comfort and  shortly after that Laura came who knows me and came to me and she just - she said to me, am I all right, and I said Guy is dead.   And she said, no maybe he is just hurt, so I said no he is dead.
And in that time somebody had  straighten him out and when I looked again I just saw blood flowing from him.  But I still couldn't believe that he had died.  And then they put a sheet over him and somebody removed me to the other side of the church because they were trying to clear the church for the - just to leave those that were injured there and get the traffic cleared for ambulances and things like that.
And while sitting there our Bishop arrived and the look of absolute horror on his face.  I hadn't really seen much, I believe, I believe that the Lord blinded me to what was around me. I saw a stretcher being taken out.  I realised somebody behind us had been hurt, I didn't know that he was dead, but apparently it was a Russian that had died.
And it was shortly after that my son came to fetch me.  And I only - a couple of days later I was just - I was brought to the church before the funeral just to be - to feel more comfortable with it.  And it was only then that I realised the extent of what had happened for what I saw while they were cleaning up.  Holes in the carpets and blood and it was terrible.  But I can only - I can say that the only way I got through this was knowing God, he helped me through it.