MR NGUDLE
There are some things that I still remember, even thought I was still small.  I still remember the police coming in and when they arrived the grownup's all just screamed.  This was something - this was a very familiar scene that when a person has passed away people - people cry and this small ones would know that okay something has happened.  
Then we heard okay my father has passed away.  When we heard that he has passed away, we expected that okay there will be a funeral as usual when a person has passed away.  But in this case what surprised us was the - the coming in of white men, especially at night - they had absolutely no respect.  And we all had to run away and run away - and run from them.  As my mother has said, that during the escapes my grandmother got injured.
I remember that my mother when she left for Pretoria, to the Court proceedings, that time we were at home living with my grandmother.  We were waiting - waiting that my mother would come back then we would hear what was going on in Pretoria.  We kept on hearing from the people that my father was killed by the boers even though we were small, we did not really know what exactly what was going on.  As we grew up, we kept on hearing how people are being treated even at home as we had grew up my mother kept on telling us that inn - during the inquest, they were told that my father had - had hanged himself, even in the inquest nobody was - nobody was found responsible for it.
The lawyers were looking for witnesses but now the witness were prevented from coming up.  One of the witnesses would be mentioned, and it was Tlale  who was with my father in the cell that time.  It looks as if when my mother was coming - my father was coming back, he was given food by Mr Tlale  but he refused the food and his last words was this electrical shock has really injured me.
That is now why - that is now why that the people didn't believe that he hanged himself.  We - since then we've been trying to find out the truth hoping that one day we will know the exact story because we didn't believe anything about the hanging.  There is one thing that we know at home that he loved us a lot.  So is that when he came back from work, we had just a little time to go out an play, he would be with us throughout me an my bigger brother.  I use to - he use to teach us the reversional?? songs.
Now we are very sure that he use to love us.  At the same time we knew that he loved the struggle, he was living for the struggle of the people.  That is why we believe that he gave up everything that he loved, such like - such as his family, he gave up his family and his own life.  We do not believe that he killed himself because of his love that we all know and to the whole nation.