JEFFERY T BENZIEN
Mr Yengeni, today in a new South Africa I can sit here and tell you in all honesty, that I was used by the then Security Branch.
	Members of my Unit received recognition for their services rendered.  When it came down to getting the job done, I was the person who did it.  Maybe I was to patriotic, to naive or anything else that you would want to call it.
	But I think even you and the rest of your people sitting there, would admit that I was the person that rightly or wrongly knowing that the information that I could glean from you and your members, could take especially explosives out of the community, which would be used against the public at large.  Mr Yengeni, with my absolutely unorthodox methods and by removing your weaponry from you, I am wholly convinced that I prevented you and any of your colleagues and any one of them that ever had an explosive device in Cape Town, I may have prevented you from being branded murderer nowadays.
	The only person I can unfortunately not say to, is one of the comrades here whose methods led to the death of an innocent Black person who was foraging in a dirt drum for food.  For what I did to you and your comrades, I apologise.  I sincerely apologise.
	But in the spirit of reconciliation, we lived in a different era, we were enemies then.  I have not fled the country, run away from the Police Force, I am still a policeman and trying to serve my community to the best of my ability.  And that is the reason why I out of my own free will have approached this Commission to see if we can't build, and forget about the hardships.
	I know you've got hardships, the people in this hallway believe and now that I am older, I believe that you had - it was illegal, it was not sought for, each person had to have his place in the sun in South Africa and I sincerely hope that, but if I may just indulge the Commission for a further few minutes- I am married and have two children.
	Since my son was in Sub B, he was a little boy of six years old, my daughter was in standard 5, I think she was about 12, for weeks my children could not play in the normal ambit of other children.  Because of my work with the Security Branch, they had to travel under police escort to school, they could not play on the playground with the other children.  They had to be put in the principal's office all the time, under guard.  
	My house windows had to be barricaded with cupboards.  Every night a wet blanket had to be put in the bath, available where my younger children could get hold of that in the case of grenade attacks.  You are surely aware that I was transferred as the Station Commander at Stanford because not only were my nerves shot, my wife threatened divorce if I did not get out of Cape Town.
	That was after the African Youth League threatened to have demonstrations on my front lawn.  Yes, Mr Yengeni, I did terrible things, I did terrible things to members of the ANC, but as God as my witness, believe me, I have also suffered.
	I may not call myself a victim of Apartheid, but yes Sir, I have also been a victim.