TESTIMONY_GIVER:
  It affected me quite drastically because I am not sure whether I was a proper mother to my child, because I never had time to raise him up.   So, I don't know whether I acted in the proper manner, I doubt myself as a mother.   Secondly, there are certain things when I look at other women, I find that they have progressed so much and I feel that I haven't done anything as a woman, because I've never lived with women for quite a long time.