TESTIMONY_GIVER:
  They never knew it.   This is what troubles me because I need to integrate back into the community.  I need to reestablish my social life.   I have never told this to anyone.  Only my husband and my rapists know this.  Whenever we have gone out I can't remain in a place where there is a lot of people, I just can't face the public.  But since I have spoken about this, they told me - she told me that I shouldn't be troubled by this whole situation, because the real people who should be embarrassed are the ones who raped me, because this deed was just dastardly according to her.   