Heartbroken
The feeling you experience when you were fooled into loving a person that was in fact hiding their true self. The feeling you get when they disengage with you, disconnect, treat you with contempt, hold grudges for perceived slights against them, and cease intimacy all while you're a new mum and trying to care and love your first baby together. The process repeats itself by them being nice when they need something, then disengaging and dismissing once more. Heartbroken because the person you married thought they married a chair.
His covert narcissism was so masterful; I am completely heartbroken that he has no conscience and no concept of Love.