heartbreak
you'll lose yourself. you lost 10lbs because even the thought of that person makes you lose your appetite. you know that life isn't over, but it sure in hell feels like it. you feel like all the happiness that you were ever granted was ripped from your arms. you cried at school, the walmart clearance section, and the McDonald's drive-thru. you cried when you saw a swing because all that can think of is that night the two of you sat for hours, talking about your future. at one point, you start to imagine you are in some rom-com. that this is just a small bump in the road. you tell yourself "i believe that the love we had will bring us together again." and you just keep repeating this scenario in your head, making you look like a complete idiot. "what is wrong with me? why wasn't i enough? what else could i have done? why couldn't we have fixed this?" you say, "it’s never going to happen. maybe i don’t even want it to. maybe it’s for the best." until you see them and their new lover and you realize you were holding on to that small piece of thread that you'd get back together. you can tell yourself "i'm fine" but you're also crying and now there's snot on your shirt. then, you're finally moving on. the pain will still be there, but it's fading. it was love but you know that for now, you gotta do you. whether it be a new lover, an interesting hobby, or a family-sized box of toaster pastries, you’re over them. isn't it crazy how things can change?
boy: "why is she so sad?"
girl: "it's called heartbreak...you'll understand one day."