so i have so so my experience of the world and internally is that i dont have that many emotions per se i have feelings and that kind of thing but usually i dont have any negative emotions that last longer than maybe a minute or two and if that happens its usually related to some deep kind of topic or trauma and i have an underlying sense of just feeling good all the time pretty much just a feeling of peace or that everything will be okay and of just appreciation and a sense of life and being alive and of myself um if you could say that the situation im in yet i also do have a lot of thought activity so um and that you know that that depends on on the period of time you know for example a year ago i wasnt working i was just traveling and you know things were kind of different internally now i have a job where im working 60 60 hour weeks managing operations for a whole country for a crypto exchange and im working on several screens and computers and a lot of processes and so that triggers a lot of a lot of thought activity and a lot of analysis and that kind of thing