Trazodone
"I was given this drug 2 years ago for insomnia after withdrawal from drug/alcohol abuse.  This drug has changed me so much I don't ever want to get off of it.  I take 100-150mg every night experiencing deep sleep with weird dreams that I like.  A calm hungover feeling in the morning which dissipates into just a calmness for the rest of the day.  I think well, have lowered anxiety, and a positive feeling toward life.  If you really want to be your old self you can still muster it from within when needed though, then return back to the comfortable altered state afterward when you want to.  "