`  You told me that I shouldn't write edits about general discussion on the talk pages of articles in Wikipedia. But this time it was different. Whereas last time you were talking about the talk pages of articles, this time we are talking about the talk pages of users. Whereas article talk pages were general and public, user talk pages were personal and private. They were different and very different from each other. I thought they were personal and private. I thought they were different and very different from each other. When you said that talk pages were not for general discussion, I thought you were just talking about the talk pages of articles, not the talk pages of users. Although general discussion wasn't allowed in the talk pages of articles, which were public, I thought they would be okay in the talk pages of users, which were personal and private. I thought you would not mind me having general discussion in a personal and private part of Wikipedia, or at least not too much or as much as in a public part. That was one reason why I didn’t thought what you told me in the article talk page meant that I shouldn’t make the edits then in the talk pages of those users.  What I did in those edits was sending, telling, and giving messages and requests, not general discussion. I thought it wasn't general discussion. That was different, perhaps very different, from general discussion, or discussion of any sort. I thought it was different. Whereas discussion is two-way and consists of several people talking together, sending messages is, or can be, just one-way, involving and being done by just one person, or both. Whereas discussion needs or involves response or repliance, sending messages doesn't need or involve sending responses or replies. The user of the talk page doesn't need to write anything in response, I just wanted him to read it and do what it asked him to. The messages and requests sent were not general either. They were special and specific, sent for a special reason about a special subject in a special time and situation. Those were not general discussion also because they were done in the talk page of a user, not the talk page of an article or the Reference Desk. I thought that was a reason why they weren’t discussion. If it was done in the talk page of an article or the Reference Desk, it would probably be discussion because it was one person talking and dicussing about this to lots of other people and a group in Wikipedia and telling and encouraging them to tell and discuss about it with each other, in a public place. But it was done in the talk page of a user, it would be just sending and telling a message because it was just with one other person and telling and saying something personally and individually to him, one way, in a private place. I thought you would not mind me having general discussion in a personal and private part of Wikipedia, or at least not too much or as much as in a public part.  Although you may think what I did in the user talk pages was very bad, it's not really that bad. I thought it was not really that bad, wrong, and serious, especially if it was just done once or only very rarely. That was one reason why I did and would have done those edits on the user talk pages. I didn't really know and understand how bad you would think it would be. I didn’t think it would be really that bad. I thought it would just either result in no response from you, another warning from you, or a block that is at least not indefinite. There were actually several reasons why it's not really that bad, or at least I thought it wasn't that bad. First, it would not have actually made any real difference or bad effect to Wikipedia or its general and public contents, facts, statements, and information, etc. It wasn't damage or disruption because it was adding information, not changing or removing information. It was added in a user talk page, a place for adding messages and not for containing facts about one specific topic. Second, it was done in the personal and private part of Wikipedia. It would be just the users of the talk pages themselves who would see, read, and look at those edits, or would just need to do so, and so you don't really even need to care or mind about it, at least not too much. Third, they probably would not mind or dislike those edits onto their talk pages, or they might even be glad to see them. Fourth, even if they didn't like having those edits being on their talk pages, they could simply delete and remove it, or perhaps also make a copy of it and place it somewhere else, or simply just ignore it. Fifth, if you don't like them you could simply go to my Special:Contributions and quickly delete all of those edits. Those were several reasons why I thought they were not really that bad, wrong, and serious. You don't understand me. Nobody understands me. I hope and wish somebody would and could understand me. I want and wish for you to understand or at least try to understand me. Can you please understand or try to understand me?  One reason why I would do such a thing as what I did then was because I was really and very urgent desperate. The criticisms of Islam mentioned in those webpages were really and very bad, powerful, and serious and I thought and felt that I needed to tell Muslims about it. I thought that I needed to tell them about those criticisms, to refute them, to respond to them, to tell others about them too, and to defend their religion. I thought that I needed to help them, their religion, and them to do those things. I thought that even if the criticisms couldn't be refuted, I still needed to tell them about them because it would be no use ignoring them and they should face them. I thought and felt that because the criticisms were so bad, so powerful, and so serious, it was very important, very serious, and very urgent, to tell them about those criticisms. I thought and felt that I needed to tell as many Muslims as soon, quickly, and easily as possible. I thought and felt that I needed to tell lots of Muslims very soon, quickly, and easily. I thought that I needed to tell lots of Muslims and as many of them as possible. I thought that it was very urgent to tell them very soon and quickly and as soon and quickly as possible. I thought I should hurry and rush quickly to tell them. This made me very urgent, desperate, hurrying, rushing, eager, preoccupied, and perhaps impatient to tell and try to tell them about it.  You have criticized me alot for telling and trying to tell others those website articles, but have you ever looked at those website articles yourselves? If not, then why don't you look at them yourselves? If you did, you would understand me and why I sent all those messages and was so urgent and desperate to send them. You would know and understand how urgent and desperate I was to send them. You would know and understand how bad, powerful, and serious the criticisms of Islam in those articles were.  There were other reasons why I would do such a thing. I am and have been often fairly busy at school, at after-school lessons, and at home doing work, both classwork, homework, and housework. I often also do alot of leisure, recreational, and daily activities other than playing the computer, do things on the computer other than using the Internet, and look at websites other than Wikipedia. When I go onto Wikipedia, I often get distracted and go on reading or editing others things or places than what I originally planned or intended to, for a long time. Therefore, I would not have much time actually doing, reading, or editing the things or places in Wikipedia I actually planned or intended to, for example telling others about those criticisms. For a long time, 2 weeks, or 14 days, from 19 May to 2 June 2007, I was busy having exams and revision at school so I did not read or edit Wikipedia at all.  I had lots of other things to do, read, and edit in Wikipedia so I wanted to do and finish what I actually planned or intended to, telling and finishing telling others about those criticisms, soon and quickly. I thoguht I should lots of others about those criticisms. I decided to tell others in Wikipedia first because I go onto that website the most often. Therefore I had not done what I planned and intended to do, telling others about those criticisms, for a long time, and I had very little time to do it. I was already very urgent, desperate, hurrying, rushing, eager, preoccupied, and perhaps impatient to tell and try to tell them because of how bad, powerful, and serious those criticisms of Islam were, and all this made me even more urgent, desperate, hurrying, rushing, eager, preoccupied, and perhaps impatient to do it.  I was so busy and so urgent, desperate, hurrying, rushing, eager, preoccupied, and perhaps impatient, both when I was and wasn't using the computer or Wikipedia, that I didn't, forgot to, and had little or no time or chance to think and consider much about whether I should be making those edits in Wikipedia or not. Because of that, I didn't, couldn’t, forgot to, and had little or no time or chance think and consider about how bad, wrong, big, and serious my actions of those edits I made and its consequences were. That was one reason why I thought they were not really that bad, wrong, and serious, and I did and would have done those edits on the user talk pages.  All, most, many, or some these things I have said above may or may not mean that what I did there was not wrong, and I should be allowed to do those edits. If not, they mean that I did not deliberately do such a bad thing, I did not really or completely know and understand how bad, wrong, big, and serious my actions of making t