Gender transition as a starting faculty member: a terrible idea? I'm a computer scientist at the point in my postdoc where I will have to decide soon whether to apply for faculty positions this fall or go to industry, in the US/Canada/UK/maybe Europe.1

But I've also recently come to the realization that spending half of my waking hours fervently wishing I had been born a girl could be a sign that maybe I should be doing something about that.

My situation is such that I doubt I would be able to really "pass" anytime soon, if ever. Even if I went all-out on transition immediately – which I'm not sure I'm ready for anyway – I can't imagine that I wouldn't be quite obviously physically trans at interview time and at least for a while afterwards.

I'd be fine presenting male through the faculty interview process and so on; my dysphoria is not particularly acute, and I have not yet started on hormones or anything. But I am certainly not willing to wait until tenure! I'm old enough already. (~30, but losing hair fast....)

Transition will obviously make life harder either in industry or in academia. But assistant professorships are not like normal jobs. Getting students, perhaps getting grants, perhaps teaching, and probably a million other things will all be harder in the midst of transition. It would also be combining two quite stressful experiences at the same time, and early-stage assistant professorships are not necessarily the most friendly job to the possibility of required medical absences / etc.

By contrast, my assumption is that a job as a researcher at some tech company will only provide the "usual" amount of discrimination and inconvenience, with probably better capability to handle potential medical issues, much more financial support for a potentially expensive process, and maybe fewer people I'll need to convince I'm a real person. A greater portion of these jobs are also going to be available in a major liberal city with the support structure for this process (and near my existing social networks for support).

And yet, ideally I think I'd want to be on the faculty market anyway.

So: how infeasible is transitioning as an early-career faculty member? Should I abandon this path for now and go to industry research instead, and maybe come back to it after a few years?

I'd particularly love to hear from anyone who's been in a similar situation, or to be pointed to examples of academic scientists who've transitioned before being well-established in their careers.

(This seems to be the only relevant question on the site, but is broader, and the examples of trans academics there seem to have all transitioned after already being quite established [except Lynn Conway, who (a) did this in the 60s/70s and (b) had to completely restart her career in "stealth mode"]. There are also a few on workplace about related situations for "normal" jobs, but I'm looking for academia-specific thoughts.) 



1 I don't really want to do another postdoc; I'm in the second year of my current one, with a professor who's relatively prominent in my subfield, and though it's been great I can't help but think that a second one almost anywhere else would be seen as a "step down." Doing multiple postdocs is also quite rare, though not unheard of, in my area. My current position is "term-limited" before another faculty cycle comes around.
How infeasible is transitioning as an early-career faculty member?

I transitioned as a postdoc back in 2013, so I did it.  Whether or not it's a terrible idea depends on many factors, and just plain luck.  I don't have experience in industry, so I can't comment much on that.  But I'm sure it's the same situation: it depends on many factors, and plain luck.
Travel
One thing that would likely be distinct between academia and industry is traveling: conference travel is the norm in academia.  This has two important consequences:

Surgeries for transgender medical procedures are not performed in most places, e.g., in Canada, there's only one clinic that performs GRS (in Montreal).  Different surgeons have different styles, and have different levels of experience.  To be able to choose one's desired surgeon (and get the most suitable results), one needs to be able to travel, which I expect is far easier in academia than industry.
For surgery, I organized to attend conferences nearby, which helped ease the travel costs.  My hormones are prescription-free in Turkey, so I stock up when I'm there.

Traveling is more difficult for transgender people, including security inspections, applying for visas, carrying medicines, facial hair growing during long flights, dilation, shared accommodation, and so on.  In fact, some countries have anti-debauchery laws.


I highlight some other important factors below.
1. Transitioning is personalized.
Everyone's transition is different.  For many people, transitioning is essential: they choose between transitioning or killing themselves.  Other people find it suitable to not transition full time.  Many people are between these two extremes.
Whether or not what you have in mind is &quot;a terrible idea&quot; depends on you: (a) how critical it is to transition, (b) your financial situation, and (c) your family situation.  And many other factors: religion, friends, disability, race, local laws, and so on.
2. At no point is transitioning convenient.
I doubt there will ever be a point where you feel now is the optimum time to transition.  At the very least, a huge amount of time gets eaten up with updating one's documents and medical care, along with simply learning how to dress and behave.
One point: If you wait, are you going to publish under your dead name?
My experience is that students mostly don't get involved in the transition.  If you stay focused on the material, so will they.  I would say family is probably of greater concern than students.  However, there's inevitably some complications: your reputation (good or bad) rubs off onto your students, and writing letters of recommendation can be a bit awkward.
Some people take medical steps (such as sperm donations, hormones, facial hair removal, etc.) prior to socially transitioning.  However, WPATH standards of care for various medical treatments have real life tests, which is relevant if you're intending to seek medical treatment down the line.  You need to establish yourself as your gender to get medical referrals.
When I've asked older transgender people, they only ever say they regret not transitioning earlier.  In your case, if you end up losing your hair, it could have significant and irreversible negative impact on your quality of life; you may want to consider starting medical treatment soon.
3. Transitioning takes place with incomplete information.
Whatever decision you make, you're going to make it without all the information.  You won't know how people will react in advance.  You'll make a decision without knowing which path is best.  And, regardless of what you do, you'll probably spend a fair chunk of your life thinking you made the wrong decision.
4. Don't overvalue being passable.
Being passable helps everyday activities proceed smoothly.  However, my impression is that if someone is making an effortful attempt to present and behave as a certain gender, one's gender will almost uniformly be respected (despite not being passable).
Setting a goal of being passable is risky; it is often not achievable, and it can be devastating to accept that oneself is not passable.
I'm mostly passable nowadays, but people still find out about my past through my prior publications.  Generally even if they find out, they act like they don't know.
Hormones make a big difference to passability (but they take time).  There's also surgery, such as facial feminization surgery, which is a major improvement, but it's expensive and a referral may be required, depending on the surgeon(s).
5. Unpredictability.
Transitioning takes time, and over time people's values change.  There's also a roller-coaster of emotions, a &quot;second puberty&quot; when one undergoes hormone therapy, and often dieting becomes important (which may mean a lack of energy to be productive).
Particularly difficult for me was belonging to a &quot;boys club&quot; (mathematics/computer science) while I was desperate to establish and assert my femininity.
People are unpredictable.  Just because someone has liberal values, and so on, doesn't mean they're going to be accepting.  Likewise, just because someone is conservative, doesn't mean they're going to be hostile.  The people you work with make a difference to your quality of life in general, and it's impossible to predict.
Task difficulty is unpredictable.  There's going to be things that turn out far easier than expected, and things that should be simple which are complicated.
Mental health is unpredictable.  It's difficult to maintain mental health as a transgender person.  It's possible to end up with depression and/or anxiety, eating disorders, and engaging in self-harm or suicide attempts.  (Every transgender person I've asked has a clear plan on how they would kill themselves.)  And even without being transgender, academia can be a rough ride mentally.
Relationships are unpredictable.  In addition to transitioning having unpredictable effects on your current relationships, hormones (if you choose to go down that road) are known to affect people's sexuality, which may impact if and who you marry, which may impact your career options.  Moreover, if you end up marrying a man, by default a husband's career is socially considered more important than the wife's, and it's considered the wife's responsibility to look after children (perhaps through adoption).
6. Other points.

Don't get lost in your transition.  It's common for transgender people to end up only thinking about their transition, and that becomes who they are as a person.  My impression is that this causes others to perceive you as &quot;a transgender&quot; rather than &quot;a woman&quot;.  I feel it's best to develop non-transgender-related interests.

Work harder than expected.  Job security is a big deal for mental health, but on top of this, medical treatment is expensive.  So I encourage you to make sure your colleagues have instances in their mind where you have gone beyond what's expected.

Have ambitions beyond merely surviving.  It is hard to have goals when you feel like you're merely surviving on a day to day basis, but it's good for one's mental health.  Don't just constantly perceive yourself as a victim, but do something with your life.

Expect hiccups.  While deeply hurtful, you're inevitably going to be misgendered and deadnamed, have people comment on your appearance, have people scheming behind your back, and so on.  When this happens, it makes me paranoid (Is this what people truly think of me?).  Somehow, you need to continue to be productive despite this.  As you become more established, these hiccups become less frequent.