`` i suppose , '' i said , glad that damon did n't `` i suppose , '' i said , glad that damon did n't know that i was dreaming of katherine at night , and by day pausing at the door to the carriage house to see if i could hear her laughing with her maid ; once i even stopped by the stable to smell the broad back of her horse , clover , just to see if her lemon and ginger scent had lingered .