no matter how i tried to distract myselfand i had plenty to think of : i was honestly and desperately worried about jacob and his wolf-brothers , i was terrified for charlie and the others who thought they were hunting animals , i was getting in deeper and deeper with jacob without ever having consciously decided to progress in that direction and i did n't know what to do about itnone of these very real , very deserving of thought , very pressing concerns could take my mind off the pain in my chest for long .