want and need were words that got eaten smaller and smaller : freedom , autonomy , a perennial bank balance , a stainless-steel condo in a dustless city , a silky black car , to make out with blue , eight hours of sleep , a cell phone , a bed , to kiss blue just once , a blister-less heel , bacon for breakfast , to hold blue 's hand , one hour of sleep , toilet paper , deodorant , a soda , a minute to close his eyes .