to not have to work so many hours , to get into a good college , to look right in a tie , to not still be hungry after eating the thin sandwich he 'd brought to work , to drive the shiny audi that gansey had stopped to look at with him once after school , to go home , to have hit his father himself , to own an apartment with granite countertops and a television bigger than gansey 's desk , to belong somewhere , to go home , to go home , to go home .