on the fourth day after the funeral she was making the double bed that she and gordon had shared when she began to cry , and the sobs ripped through her in huge ugly spasms of grief , and tears fell from her face onto the bedspread and clear snot streamed from her nose , and she sat down on the floor suddenly , like a marionette whose strings had been cut , and she cried for the best part of an hour , for she knew that she would never see him again .