and he downed the scotch , and after that someone bought him another , and then the evening blurred and broke up into fragments : afterward he remembered only the feeling that he was about to leave somewhere small and rational-a place that made sense-for somewhere huge and old that did n't ; and vomiting interminably into a gutter flowing with rainwater , somewhere in the small hours of the morning ; and a white shape marked with strange-colored symbols , like a little round beetle , walking away from him in the rain .