shook hands with his sickly brother for whom he felt only a mild repugnance , the mildest pang of guilt , and he said good-bye to his parents , allowed himself to be embraced and kissed and went away , smiling in anticipation of his life he went away with no plan to return to his hometown and to his boyhood house except for expediency 's sake as a temporary visitor who would be , within hours of his return , restless , bored , eager to escape again to his `` real '' life elsewhere .