by not showing up with the davenport they might expect to see me with , i 'm proving three things : to olivia , i 'm proving that i 'll put her comfort ( even though she says it does n't bother her ) above my own ; to my father and practically everyone i know , i 'm proving that i no longer put society and my father 's wants ahead of my own ; and to myself , i 'm proving that i 'm strong .