ed sat in the world 's most uncomfortable chair , staring out of the narrow gap in the curtains at the black moonlit sky , his right leg going to sleep , and his left foot freezing cold where it would n't fit under the blanket and tried not to think about the fact that if he had n't leapt out of that bed he could be there , curled around her right now , her arms around his neck , his lips pressed against her skin , those lithe legs looped around ... no .