she thought of the dashnag boy from the hintermost , and of the shadows that live and amzallag , whom she had just restored to life-amzallag , who had hopes of gleaning his children 's souls from the ruin of loramendi-and all the others , and most of all , she thought of ziri , bearing up under his burden , shouldering the deception alone now in the absence of issa , ten , and herself .