essentially , llewellyn was deeply in love with julien mayfair , and one of the early shocks of llewellyn 's life was to discover that julien was at least ten to fifteen years older than llewellyn ever imagined , and llewellyn only discovered this when julien suffered his first stroke in early 1914 until that time julien had been a fairly romantic and vigorous lover of llewellyn , and llewellyn remained with juhen until he died , some four months later .