the bad grades meant henry had n't been able to be accepted into anything but nyu , and they could n't afford it because the bad grades precluded any scholarships , and then henry got drafted and then it was viet nam , where henry got most of his knee blown off , and the pain was bad , and the drug they gave him for it had a heavy morphine base , and when he was better they weaned him from the drug , only they did n't do such a good job because when henry got back to new york there was still a monkey on his back , a hungry monkey waiting to be fed , and after a month or two he had gone out to see a man , and it had been about four months later , less than a month after their mother died , when eddie first saw his brother snorting some white powder off a mirror .