`` it 's a sin on my part , '' anne said , `` but i already hate it ; i really doci know i should adopt a patient attitude of acceptance and all that , butc '' she flashed the lantern at the landscape beyond the hovel and in a quavering , despairing voice said , `` all i want to do now is find some way to get back to earth ; i do n't want to convert anybody or change anything , i just want to get away from here . ''