but with adolescence a change came over deirdre she became withdrawn , secretive , no longer the tomboy at thirteen she was far more voluptuous than antha had been as a grown woman she wore her black wavy hair long and parted in the middle , and held back by a bit of lavender ribbon her large blue eyes looked perpetually distrustful and faintly bitter indeed , the child had a bruised look to her , said the parish gossips who saw her at sunday mass .