as 'a dutch merchant ' i am certainly treated with every courtesy this afternoon , when i grew tired of my meandermgs , i came back here to my lodgings , where there are two slaves to undress me and bathe me if i should allow it , and i wrote to the lady and said that i should like to visit her , that i have a message for her which is of the utmost importance and comes from someone very dear to her , dearer perhaps than any other , who entrusted me with the proper address on the night before her death .