he touched the door to the bathroom , a white nurse bullying her , telling her to come now , and move her feet , she knew that she could , pain inside deirdre , pain eating her insides , a man 's voice speaking , the cleaning woman coming , going , the flush of the toilet , the hum of the mosquitoes , the sight of a sore on her back , good god , look at it , where she has rubbed against the rocker over the years , a festering sore , caked with baby powder , are you people crazy , and the nurse just holds her on the toilet .