he could never have told his father or mother , had one of them been there to begin with , which they of course aren % but he can tell mrs. shaw because while she is n't a lot different from the other help-the au pairs babysitters child minders schoolwalkers-she is a little different , enough to put his drawings on the fridge with the little magnets , enough to make all the difference , to hold up the tower of a silly little boy 's sanity , say hallelujah , say found not lost , say amen .