'she was hysterical , ' said the secretary later 'for an hour she screamed and cried in there with her uncle and i 'll tell you something else , something i did n't even notice till she was leaving she was n't wearing matching shoes ' she had on one brown loafer and one black flat shoe i do n't think she ever realized it cortland took her home i do n't know that he noticed it either i never saw her after that ' in the summer before deirdre 's fourteenth birthday , she was rushed to the new mercy hospital she had tried to slash her wrists beatrice went to see her .